#pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head

[baezdylan]

DO YOU UNDERSTAND!!!! she knew that man for 19 years when he was only alive for less than a day.

#jo in the tardis* #....... #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #it's 12 technically but to me it's 19 actually <3 i mean who's to say. it's all jumbled up. what IS canon

[baezdylan]

DOCTOR AND AMY + the apple

he was lonely. she wanted the world

The Doctor starts out his journey loving something he will end up hating. An apple -> shown to represent 1) a craving 2) freshness. This instance serves as a suitable metaphor for a perspective of a companion he will inevitably end up leaving. In Amy Pond's final episode her daughter, River Song, advises her to never let (the Doctor) see the damage which can easily be read as an instruction against growing old. Amy is accused of having noticable lines on her eyes in the same episode. This is the episode in which she dies.

Amelia Pond starts out hating something she will end up loving. It is revealed that she, unlike the Doctor, used to hate apples. This was before her mother put faces on them, turning dislike into a symbol of love. Amy is shown to resent the idea of marriage. She is later praised for her role as a wife and a mother.

An apple, craving that is, for the Doctor equals the desire to be adored and never lonely. For Amy, an apple would reflect her wish to be free and see the world. The Doctor ends his run without Amy, his companion and fulfilment of his desire. What he has left is his ability to travel. Amy ends her run stuck in the past, unable to see the stars in a way she was shown possible. Alas, she is married and therefore isn't alone. For this she is crowned The Loving Wife. One could say the narrative implies this is what makes her worthy of being adored, a reason the Doctor lists while explaining why he chose Amy as a companion. Ultimately, both characters are left with the other's wish as though the story had a hard time telling them apart and therefore assigned them the other's ending on accident.

#amy pond #doctor who #the eleventh doctor #the eleventh hour #mine 🧫 #SO. guess who rewatched 5x01 today. #sorry for the clumsy essay i felt like the post didn't make sense without it sjfkkd #amy pond 🌻 #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head

[baezdylan]

are we. um. are we going to talk about it.

#it's me hi i'm the cardio mutual it's me #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #doctor who #11amy #jo in the tardis* #mine 🧫 #dr: you're seared onto my hearts -> amy in the same ep *gets his heart beating. literally*

[baezdylan]

*leaves this here*

#amy pond #eleventh doctor #doctor who #amy pond 🌻 #i love aliens i love space i love parallel universes i love time windows i love science. and i love bow ties. and suspenders. #dw the most show ever #mine 🧫 #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #there's SO much to say here but till i'm capable of writing it all down have this :)

[baezdylan]

top 5 eleven/amy scenes plz

PERFECT QUESTION, but also so incredibly difficult to answer. (I'll try to keep the answer reasonably long. Whatever that means.)

As much as I admire 11amy dialogues, I primarily view them as... sort of indicators of how UNFIT 11amy are for language as we understand it. They're more about the primal reading of the word... language as an invention? The idea of building something as a means of exchanging for the sake of being understood (language isn't just words!!!!! like the language of trees!!! Tolkien could invent a language for 11amy I bet), they're like music!!!! Because even when music has lyrics, it isn't as word-centred (at least to me), and a similar argument can be used for poetry but just... Amy Pond is such a song of a girl to me for so many reasons, but I'll need a separate post for that. Anyhow. My favourite scenes are 100% those that acknowledge how... Of The World both of these characters are, more than they belong to themselves they belong to nature. (and this is because they share that sense of identity confusion and a state of being nameless... they are given titles... but who are they really?) Both of them have galaxies as stand-ins for flesh and blood... so it figures that their bodies are inclined to look for reflections of themselves in the outside. (it's all about love and loneliness, it's just mixed with sci-fi magic so it's brought to a greater scale, but it's essentially about finding someone like you, it's just that they see moons and planets when they look in the mirror) WHATEVER. THIS IS ALREADY GETTING OUT OF HAND. Here are my favourite moments. I suppose? I'm putting it under the cut djdjkdkd

It feels wrong to separate this into sections because 11amy are mainly about being a bit of everything so I'll just present my jumbled thoughts on these as they are. Adding links to past posts/tag essays every now and then.

IF A GIRL LOVES SOMETHING, SHE LOVES FASHION SYMBOLISM!!!! She's holding his clothes.....in a universe where their roles are reversed... after an entire season of 0% True Amy Fashion (WHERE IS HER SCARF???? HER BOOTS????? MINISKIRTS???? COOL JACKETS????? they're telling us she's Mom Material now so no more funky trinkets) she gets to hold this symbol of individuality and give it back to her best friend..... (yk... 11amy are the equivalent of an early adolescent's relationship with their freshly discovered favourite song... or when you finally figure out a haircut that Feels Like You... or whatever... their entire arcs are so intertwined with objects that function as living things (it's the whole physical vs./+ cognitive theme)...... the bowties the suspenders the little TARDIS Amy made the scarf the mask from the beast below... they're all like little movies helping these characters exist in more places than one regardless of timespace restrictions... I always think of it as an example of a story having an independent heartbeat, no matter how much the writing team tried to reduce Amy to the epitome of Goodness & Sainthood & Motherhood, her reality stored the pieces of her that were too much for them to understand or hold. And isn't that a metaphor for girlhood in a way?

I'M A MED STUDENT SO I LOVE WHEN SHE RESTARTS ONE OF HIS HEARTS... naturally... This has been discussed on my blog, but Amy is an equivalent of the heart of the TARDIS in every way there is (universe pouring into your head! too bright to be looked at -> how the story prefers Amy to be a myth rather than a person) and just... THERE ARE SURGICAL IMPLICATIONS IN THIS SHOW... seared onto my hearts.... holding the body of her imaginary friend.... they are like trees or the circulatory system to me (see the last photograph) they are only real when together..... (check this post for similar themes)

#pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #dw the most show ever #💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #ask game #ty for the ask <3 #doctor who #amy x eleven

[baezdylan]

WE GOT ONE LAST CHANCE TO MAKE IT REAL!!!!!!!

Thunder Road, Bruce Springsteen | The Eleventh Hour, Doctor Who

#doctor who #amy pond #bruce springsteen #amy x eleven #amy pond unrelated media universe #amy pond 🌻 #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #toxic boyfriend gf & runaway bride bf #dw the most show ever #legend has it you can hear this song when you watch this scene #'we ain't that young anymore' IT HURTS. GIRL YOU ARE 21!!!!! what did they do to you.... #mine 🧫

[baezdylan]

you have inflicted me with torturous visions. for shame.

*adds that to the hayley williams is a pondgirl file* you are creating a fixed time! (overstepping the boundaries of time is their default setting :|) they are literally vladimir and estragon. to lose the other is to violate your own flesh. </3 to lose you is to not be myself </3

#💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #cassandra blackwood tag #amy pond unrelated media universe #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #doctor who #amy pond #amy pond 🌻 #dw the most show ever #saved 👻

[baezdylan]

I would be your only dream

Your shining autumn ocean crashing

#SO I BEGIN NOT TO LOVE YOU! TURN AROUND! SEE ME RUNNING! #ok the role reversal circular narrative allows here. bye 🧡 #AND! LAST ONE! i know the truth i know what twelve's music really is 💋 (amy's ghost) #doctor who #fleetwood mac #amy pond #amy pond 🌻 #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #amy pond unrelated media universe #mine 🧫

[baezdylan]

Hey, I know it's late, we can make it if we run...

Thunder Road, Bruce Springsteen | Doctor Who

#PART 2!!!!! #amy pond #amy x eleven #doctor who #bruce springsteen #amy pond unrelated media universe #amy pond 🌻 #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #toxic boyfriend gf & runaway bride bf #dw the most show ever #this has been a long time coming i fear... the live version is on my amy playlist because i LOVE TO SUFFER #mine 🧫 #this is supposed to look like a horror movie. because it is one. TO ME

[baezdylan]

becoming my worst self again (more abnormal about Pretty.Odd than usual).........Folkin' Around 11Amy feelings................and also The Bomb 11Amy feelings, because the two songs are linked in my head (country-inspired tracks on a beloved album <3 <3 <3).......

but SERIOUSLY!!!!!! both songs take this sort of hyperbolic, fantastical Love Affair Gone Wrong tone, which is SO 11Amy!!!!!! and they're both centred around summer....that one June night before Amy's wedding.....and the references to song as a storytelling medium (sometimes you get the girl, sometimes you get the song).....AND they r lonely :) <3 (that is important)

but it's kinda like...Folkin' Around As 11Amy from 11's perspective + The Bomb As 11Amy from Amy's perspective.......

JUST........LOOK!!!!!!

vs

amy who'd sooner reject and leave other people before they reject her vs 11 who (after unsuccessfully doing the first bit) clings on till the end..........

and

11Amy is a 10-year (or multi-decade) summer fling <3 to me, an insane person

AND THIS!!!! (is the part where the connections get less concrete)

11 convinced that Amy's grown out of him and settled down like she "supposed" to...

VERSUS

AMY WHO NEVER REALLY MOVED ON!!!! WHO KEPT WAITING!!!!

but alsooooo.....

and

guy who is trying so so so hard to be a pacifist 🤝 girl who is quite possible a child arsonist.....ITS THEM!!!!

anyways, these songs are speaking to each other (not the artists, just the songs) because I Have Made Connections!

** awful rant over **

(the annotations, useless, have colour symbolism, for fun)

since it's summer now, it's time to release this baby into the wild 🧡🌟☀️💫

#best ask award i think 🥇 #💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #cassandra blackwood tag #i had a long reply in mind originally but i've held on to this embarrassingly long 11-style #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #amy pond #doctor who #eleventh doctor #amy pond unrelated media universe #amy pond 🌻

[baezdylan]

(this is the second essay i've sent you about linking 11amy to a Panic! song and another song) (i swear i have other interests, i am just really perculiar about this band)

something soooooo personal about 11amy Thunder Road, Bruce Springsteen -> Memories, Panic! At The Disco progression (a narrative i've just created in my mind, but the parallels are paralleling)

coz like...........

AND "it's a town full of losers / and i'm pulling out of here to win"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the invitation to see the stars!!!!!!! the initial thrill of running away on your wedding night!!!! with your imaginary friend!!!! you're not too grown up for it!!!!! there's magic in the night!!!!!!

and then there's Memories...........

and it's like!!!!! "but they couldn't quite remember / what inspired them to go"!!!!!!!!!!!!!! she was always going to end up as "his loving wife"!!!!!!!!!!! she never fully ran away!!!!!!!!!! she's always just the afterword!!!!!!! the closing tragic act!!!!!!!!!!!

i dont know what my conclusion here is, i've created a narrative and i am STICKING with it!!!!

since this ask originally inspired it, i'm publicly sharing my 11amy playlist now to honour the importance of your analysis to my general well-being:

this is textbook springsteenology and to think that the essence of it all is that he's an amy pond girlie 🥰 anyhow... thunder road is like... so beloved... so so beloved... and to think of every live performance of it is to realise how the open invitation ends up simply prolonging itself (as if it wasn't already haunted the first time it played out... there were ghosts in the eyes of all the boys you sent away!!!!! in the skeleton frames of burned out chevrolets!!!! words that i ain't spoken!!!!... all that + the weight of backstreets.mp3 dragging behind these lyrics once you're familiar with the album... YOU SAID WE'D GO! AND YOU LIED!) these songs are dying together and being revived in an eternal kiss to me forever now, born to run.mp3 style. you can't predict the end, but once you've already seen it play out.........

#pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #amy pond unrelated media universe #💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #cassandra blackwood tag

[baezdylan]

Also, HOUSE OF MEMORIES by Panic! is also soooooo Amy-coded, I'm not much into some of their newer stuff (although that's just because i adore Pretty.Odd) but House of Memories fucks hard....

The lonely moments just get lonelier The longer you're in love than if you were alone Memories turn into daydreams, become a taboo

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And when your fantasies become your legacy Promise me a place in your house of memories

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You were just too kind and I was too young to know

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Those thoughts of past lovers, they'll always haunt me I wish I could believe you'd never wrong me Then will you remember me in the same way as I remember you

Omg I completely missed this ask (so sorry about that!), but YEAH!!! It's definitely her song...

will you remember me in the same way as I remember you

Kinda sick about this parallel, he's her dream, her story, his narrative is the foundation for her storybook and now she is all that for him (to me, this exact moment is where 12's introduction begins, this is who 12 is all about, also just super into the idea of there not being a clear line of separation between 11's farewell and the beginning chords of 12's arc, that's a very Amy-like concept)... beautifully haunting and horrifically wonderful stuff.

#💌restless wind inside a letter box💌 #amy pond unrelated media universe #pleomorphic excellence: i think i made you up inside my head #so very wuthering heights of them #'memories turn into daydreams become a taboo' is !!!! making me slightly insane