#pleqse ignore my yabbering

[thatlonelycactus]

We talk about the s2 ep6 kiss SO MUCH and for good reason. It is a kiss that means so much to the characters, the plot and the fandom. However, as a kiss itself, it isn’t what one would call as romantic as, say, the Richard II kiss. It’s an almost violent kiss, a final argument in a fight that Crowley knows he’ll lose but for once in his existence he’ll at least try to fight. Because Aziraphale is the only being that loves and has ever loved him unconditionally. Aziraphale is the only being or thing he has left to love. But now, hes going to risk losing him to the same side that took everything else away from him. It’s desperate. It’s filled with want, with pain. It’s the need to love and be loved. A final attempt. A final attempt to be an ‘us’. He grasps him like the sands of time, knowing that loosening his grip would mean losing it all too soon. On the other hand, Aziraphale tenses, he struggles to hold Crowley back because he knows it’ll be harder to let him go. If he lets himself think of what they could be, he knows he’ll give in. Aziraphale isn’t running, no, he has to go fight another battle. A battle that, if he wins, means that they could be an ‘us’ someday. Just not the ‘us’ Crowley wants to be. Yet, no matter how hard he tries, he simply can’t stop himself from trying to reach for him, for a being who loves him, actually loves him. A being he knows to be good. He tries to hold on whilst also trying to resist. He asks for more and yet tries to distance himself. Because the kiss- the kiss is the closest they have ever been and yet the farthest at the same time. They both want the same thing and yet the same thing means two entirely different things. They want to hold on when for years they’ve tried to let go- tried to keep each other safe- tried to save themselves from heartbreak- but they’ve always failed because all roads lead to each other. And finally, when they let themselves give in they know there is no hope they know how it will end but they give in anyway. Because after years of always being able to reach for they other, they’ll try to reach out and only be able to find the traces of what was and what could never have been.

#Sorry for my blabbering #But like #Thats what MAKES it what it is #It makes it beartbreakjng #Crowley’s desperation #Aziraphale’s moment of desire #Ahhhhhh #pleqse ignore my yabbering #But it is so beautifully written and well acted #So yeah I’m sorry #I can’t help myself #good omens #crowley #ineffable husbands #ineffable divorce #aziraphale #go s2 #crowley good omens #aziraphale good omens #go s2e6