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kapkeyk0629 · 4 years

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○ ALONE ○

Have you ever been broke and nobody believes you coz you don't look a like a broken person. I used to feel like my side of the story needed to be told to keep the facts right. Now, I don't care what story you choose to believe. If you ever wonder why I'm treating you different, take s step back, and look how you treated me, that you should tell you all you want to know.

I always advice other people that they need to be strong in life, while myself don't even know how to be. I'm so afraid for this pandemic. I feel so down and alone. I'm asking myself how to have normal life again. No work, no transpo, no friends that I usually talked everyday before ncov came. Life without face mask, without using alcohol most of the time, without social distancing with all my friends and family. How should I paid my electric bills, house rentals, pldt, water bills, etc. How should I have a normal life style if all people around me had the same struggle.

Nobody understand me that there will be sometimes in my life that I feel so sad. That my saddest feeling was so deep. That I have sometimes in my life that I feel so afraid. That I have sometimes in my life that I feel so tired. That once in my life I need to be loved and ask someone if Im ok.

It's extremely important to learn how to be ok on your own. You have to learn how to pick yourself back up when you fall. Provide for yourself, wipe your tears away and learn to stand up again. Having people in your side is trully great but you can't depend on them to always be there.

You'll wait. You'll pray. You'll get frustrated. You'll question everything. But you'll continued to be patient. You'll keep waiting. And you'll keep praying. One day, when you least expect it, it will finally happen. So, don't ever stop believing, don't ever stop trusting. Don't ever stop hoping. GOD is ready to give you everything you've ever dream of. But you have to understand, its on HIS timing not yours.

I know Im independent and I'm fine on my own. But when I'm alone, I feel so afraid. I have so many worries that I think of. I need someone to talk to. But having someone to be there for you when you're tired from your day. Someone who insists listening to your rants. Someone who holds your hands when the world beats you up and someone who is willing to hug you and telling you that everythings will be ok.

Year 2020 ung taon na napaka hirap. Ung hindi pa nagkakalahati ang taon ang dami n agad mga pangyyari.2020 yung pakiramdam na para kang binugbog physically, emotionally, mentally at financially. Para kang inilagay sa roler coaster ride na walang hintuan. .. na ang tangi mo na lang pang hahawakan ay ang mag dasal ng mag dasal... na sana ay matapos na ang lahat... manalig lang na di ka pbabayaan ni lord. At mttapos din ang lahat ng ito.

It's ok, not to be ok sometimes. 😔😔😔

Kapkeyk 🙃🙃🙃

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