#s13 and s6 cas death parallels haha i hate it here

[chocolatecakecas]

thinking about dean not even realizing cas left a handprint on his jacket until later. maybe he went into the bathroom of that abandoned bar to compose himself for a second, saw it in the mirror and he broke down all over again, curled up against the tile wall, not even caring about how gross the floor was. And he eventually pulled it together and stood to splash some water on his face, eyes not leaving the handprint in his reflection. And maybe before he left, he hestiantly ghosted his hand own hand over the one on his shoulder. But he soon found himself tightly squeezing the stained fabric, unable to resist before forcing himself to face Sam and Jack again, with bloody, busted knuckles, leaving a broken mirror behind.

Or maybe he didn't even realize until they all went back to the bunker, and he caught his reflection out of the corner of his eye when he walked into his room. And he ripped the jacket off and tossed it to the floor as far away from him as possible, but the handprint was still visible. And slowly his feet dragged him over to it and he sunk down to his knees, picked it up with shaking hands and shoved his face into the fabric. And he stayed there until he had no more tears to cry, so he went to find a drink, but not before he carefully folded his jacket and placed it on his desk, handprint visible.

#ive definitely made this post before but i cant find it ashdkahd #s13 and s6 cas death parallels haha i hate it here #dean breakdown<3 #hi i made myself very sad im literally. oh gOd #LITERALLY WAS IT MISH OR JENSEN OR RICHARD I DONT CARE THEY WERE SO FUCKING SICK FOR THIS #WHAT THE FUCK BLOOD HANDPRINT ON HIS SHOULDER JESUS FUCKING CHRIST #bec speaks #dean winchester #9 months #castiel #15x18 #despair #destiel