#seems like the kinda guy to believe everything on cable idk

[genericpuff]

welp, this kinda sucks

I'm currently at odds with the PC that I got a couple months ago, it's started freezing and soft-resetting randomly for seemingly no reason. It would usually be after hours of use that I could chalk up to the memory overloading, but now it's happening as soon as I boot up the frigging thing. And just to make it clear how much I've done on my own to diagnose the problem, our attempts to fix it have included the following:

Limiting startup applications

Running virus / malware scans

Swapping out display monitors

Updating the GPU drivers

Setting a lower overclock profile in the BIOS settings

Swapping out power cables and outlets to check for power surges

So far none of these things have worked and if anything, the issue has just gotten worse in the last two days. Like, it can barely make it to the startup screen sometimes, despite the memory and CPU usage being >20%, there is zero reason it would be the PC overclocking itself just from startup.

(and no, it doesn't even compel me, i'm just annoyed to shit LOL)

So I dropped it off with the guy who built it (he runs an electronics / pawn shop downtown that's very reputable and well-known so it's not like I don't trust him or anything, he's been building PC's for people in the area for years) and it's now in his care for the next day or two while he tries to isolate the problem. Right now the only thing I can imagine being the problem is the power supply or my display monitor, which is my old Huion Kamvas 22 Plus that still works as a monitor, just not a drawing tablet - but if something's still fucking around in the tablet, it could be causing problems through the PC, maybe.

When I dropped it off with the guy, he went and set it up in his office and came out and told me that so far it seemed to be running just fine, when he asked me if I was doing anything specific I told him it was crashing even after startup so I gave him permission to overclock the shit out of it, run 53879205893 browser tabs, run my games, software, anything he needed to do to push it to its limits and see if he could replicate the problem.

I am terrified if it has to do with the motherboard, because that will be an expensive replacement that will also potentially lead to losing files / installations / etc. depending on how big an issue it is. It could also potentially be Windows 11 having a hissy fit especially seeing as how it's freezing up on startup, but doesn't freeze on the BIOS screen when it loads up in safe-mode after hard resets, so something is clearly happening between the hard boot-up and the startup of Windows 11 itself.

Thankfully I do have Google Drive sync support and plenty of external HDD's that I can back my stuff up to, but with the freezing and restarting getting as bad as it's been, I haven't been able to back anything up, and I don't want to risk doing it manually if it'll just freeze and potentially corrupt my files in the process. So I told the guy to call me if he needed to mess with anything concerning the system storage so that, if he could at least keep it running stable in the shop, then I could swing by and get everything I needed synced up safely before he messes around with anything.

It could also very well have something to do with the power supply itself, the house that I occupy the main floor of isn't exactly built with electric optimization in mind, we've had fuses blow on us before just from running the hair dryer at the same time as the TV, so if it's something to do with the PC drawing too much power for the electrical system here to keep up with, either (hopefully) the guy will be able to instruct me on how to lower and manage that power intake through the PC's BIOS (I believe you can but I'm still a massive noob on custom builds and I don't want to go tinkering with it myself) or, idk, maybe I'll have to get my landlord to drop by again with his electrician and check out the fuses to make sure they're all operating properly. I'm not an electrician either, so fuck if I know at this point what could be going on. I feel like it can't be the house itself because everything else is running fine and it's just become a recent issue, but our city's power grid is also not exactly praised for being good at its job, especially not in the winter.

So yeah, I'm a little - well, a lot - stressed right now, but all I can really do at this point is wait. Fortunately, I have my iPad and also remembered that I still have my old PC, so I've hooked it up, at best if the problem repeats itself on this PC then I'll know it has to do with the display monitor, at worst I'll just be stuck working with my clunky old hardware for a couple days, which is annoying, but it'll get the job done. Fortunately I had the newest episode of Rekindled uploaded to the cloud in Clip Studio so I can still download it and work on it, which was my biggest worry when everything started to go belly-up (next to just, like, having a working PC).

Sooooo yeah. It's annoying, but I'm hoping for the best. Send good vibes y'all, I really could use it rn, between this and slow traffic at work and some other personal shit that's been going on, it's been a shitty few days (╥﹏╥)

And yeah, I'll keep y'all updated on if it affects this week's update, it really shouldn't honestly as most of the work left is doable from both my iPad and PC, but obviously at this point anything can happen so if anything has to be postponed or changed to accommodate the current situation, I'll update y'all as soon as I can! Thanks everyone, y'all are the best, wish me luck <3

#self post #computer problems

[dtmkarma]

Weird Cutie

I had a date with a guy on Bumble we'll call him weird cutie. His pictures weren't very great but I could tell he was cute. We matched and spoke for a few days then decided we would move to texting. He was very weird but good weird so I agreed to meet him the following week. I arrived at Jacks and he was late, I sat for 10mins only to see him coming towards mw. As I was getting ready to leave, he was taller than I thought and had glasses. He was also a little chubby in his belly but had long black hair pulled into a bun. He smiled and joked "are you leaving me, you look so cute". I smiled and shrugged "well you're kinda late so....." "I am but I texted you and I'm here now", he reached down and hugged me then spun me around looking me up and down in my blue dress. I smirked but sat down in the booth. We ordered drinks and food he was more so interesting than I thought he would be, and he was cute. He liked me I could tell by how he moved closer to me in the booth and put his hand on my thigh,reached down and started rubbing my bare legs. I moved his hand and apologized, "I wasnt sure if I would like you so I skipped shaving my legs but in my defense I didnt think you'd be touch me so intimately on the first date either, sorry but theres levels" he removed his hand and asked am I at the level to earn me a kiss, I smiled shyly, he leaned in and I felt my body getting hot, he moved his hand back to my thigh and started rubbing it closer and closer to my center. Before I could blink his lips were on mind and his eyes were closed. This was so weird. Why was this so weird to me..... If been with a guy before but this feel in was so weird. I closed my eyes nd played the instructions in my head on how to kiss(I was a late bloomer and my best friend taught me how to kiss). He started moving when my tongue met his so I broke the kiss worried someone would think our pda was inappropriate. If never displayed such pda openly before, is only normally do it in the comfort of my home because that where it seem like guys was most comfortable but he was different, weird. He smiled at me and the butterflys started, our date lasted 3hrs and when it was time to leave he asked should he follow me home but I reminded him there was levels. His birthday was next week. He invited me to his house to hangout because he didn't consider his birthday a big deal, so we agreed to meet next week. This was Monday. Next week arrived but more specifically his birthday;Tuesday. I had a long day of work and hadn't heard from him so around 1pm I texted him happy birthday. He responded by asking if I would see him, I told him I'd see. By 5:30I had a massive headache and was tired for the day I felt like locking myself in my room and making love to my bed in the form of Zzz. But I had to deposit some money into the bank for a bill to be paid so I told him to text me his address and I'd see him soon. He was in the middle of moving, I had on another dress this one mustard yellow, it looked amazing on my milk chocolate brown skin. He came to the door and looked different, he was cuter than last time and wasnt wearinf his glasses, I was shocked and aroused. I sat on a lazyboy and he sat on the couch, like most millenials he didnt have cable to cut cost on unnecessary bills but he had an xbox and internet. We watched live boxing through it and he started the typical male ploy "why are you sitting all the way over there by yourself, come sit next to me" I thought this way of asking for attention was always cute. I got up and sat beside him "is this close enough for you", he smirked and hugged me while,sniffing me "you smell so good". 😊thank you. His hands roamed my thighs again while he pulled my face into a kiss, he leaned his body back and pulled me on top of him while sliding my dress up over my ass. He smacked it,I pulled myself away he leaned up and grabbed my breast, having his hands touch and caress my body felt so amazing. I couldn't believe it had been 6 years since I had sex but here I was. He lifted my dress over my nd slid his hands under my bra,pinching my nipples, my mind was lost everything was happening so quickly yet it felt like it was all in slow motion. His eyes seemed so dark and focused, one hand pulled me by the waist closer to him. His eyes watched my as he opened his mouth and slid it over my right nipple. He bit down gently and it made my whole body shutter, I moaned and closed my eyes he removed his mouth instantly and pulled my face back,into a deep passionate kiss. My hips started rocking on his lap while his hand massaged my breast. I was feeling hot all over my body again and my panties started to feel like I peed myself. I tried to pull away but he held me close, his hands, his mouth it all was driving me crazy. But the levels I need to remind myself that the ultimate goal was to have him. I made up my mind I wanted him this weird guy I wanted him to be mine. So I snatched myself away and hop off him, "I need to use the bathroom", he looked lost. "Okay..... Its down the stairs to the left." I pulled my dress back down and went to the bathroom, I tried to compose myself and dry myself. I needed to make sure he didnt think I was easy. He got myself to together and went back up the stairs than sat on the couch, this time towards the opposite end. He smirked at me "would you like a drink?".... I smiled "no thank you", "ok well I'm going to make me one" , he went into the kitchen and made himself a drink than came back. He watched me, I stared at the boxing match screaming in my mind to him "come touch me with your soft warm hands again, come put your lips on mine and all over my body." I felt desperate but I didnt show it. I put my feet on the couch, he pulled them towards him and on his lap, he started rubbing them. "So what did you get me for my birthday?" I laughed "my prensence, surprise happy birthday.......just kidding what do you want?" He looked at me and smirked " you said there was levels right, what level does my birthday fall under?" ...... "Idk tell me exactly what you want and ill see if I can make it happen" He looked down at his lap than to me signaling but if he was going to have the balls to ask for what I thought he was asking he was going to have to say it."I'm sorry are you trying to tell me something, what do you want and use your words please."...... He looked nervous "well........ A bj would be nice right now", I laughed and pretended to look shocked for a sec. He smiled, I got off the catch walked to him. We didnt break contact, I got on my knees infront of him still keeping eye contact and asked "are you sure this is what you want for your birthday?" He seemed nervous but whispered "yes". I unbuttoned his pants, zipped down the zipper and reached into his boxers. He looked amazed it was happening, I licked my lips and leabed down I could hear his breath getting heavier before I put my mouth on it. I looked down at it, it was uncircumcised, exactly how I liked it. I licked the tip, his body twitched, he moaned. I put my mouth on the tip and sucked it slowly,swirling my tongue around it. He moaned "fuck" I smirked and looked up at him. He looked vulnerable and shy, I slid my mouth all the way down and opened my mouth wider while remembering to breath through my nose like how this porn star taught me from a video I use to watch repeatedly in college. His hands covered the back of my head and I felt his thrusting deeper in my mouth while moaning "fuck, its so good. God im going to cum", it hasn't seem like a min but as soon as he said "I'm going to cum". I pulled my mouth off his dick. He whimpered "no" but I started jacking him off instantly and he came all over my hand and his stomach. I laughed, he was breathing heavy and covered his face it turned slightly pink. I smirked and asked "are you good sir?" He smiled, "yeah". He got up and went around the corner to the kitchen, I peaked around the corner and watched him clean his self off and come back with a paper towel, he wiped my hand and kissed me. He threw away the paper towel and we sat back on the couch. He laid in between my legs and would,kiss them often while rubbing them. This feeling again was weird. I grabbed my,phone and looked at time it was 9:23pm. Time to go home, I told him to get up I was leaving I was tired he said "you can go to sleep in my bed. He got up and ushered me back down the stairs, the door next to the bathroom was his room. It was filled with Buddha,alcohol bottles, a bike,books and Japanese art on the wall. I wondered if he was Japanese mixed with something, he was racially ambiguous, my thought was lost when he laid on the bed grbbing my hand to pull me on to it too. He held me by the waist and pulled my lips to his again this time sliding his hand down in between my thighs again, he moved my panties to the side and slid a finger in side I broke the kiss to moan I felt my body arch up, he bit at my nipples through my dress as his fingering became more rigorous, I was getting wetter but also nervous. I pulled his hand from,between my thighs and asked him to stop. He pulled away from me "did I do something wrong?" He looked confused. "No, its not that." I got up from the bed. I was nervous I didnt want to say but he was only guy 4 I'd ever been with I was very shy about sex with partners and tried to figure it out for years since having it but I was most embarrassed about squirting. I looked down while embarrassingly confessing "I don't want to,ruin your bed because I squirt" his face looked blank like he was trying to,process how to react. He got off the bed and hugged. This was weird. He held me, I pulled away and walked towards the door, he grabbed me from,behind and held me." Its ok, thats normal" I felt stupid I wanted to go but he started kissing my neck and his hands pulled up my dress making their way to my breast. I could feel wetness sliding down my legs, he squeezed my breast as one hand slid down my panties from behind and his finger back into my wet pussy I he held my body so tight to his and bend me over towards the bed while fingering me again my body felt like it was shaking while I moaned louder and louder I could hear him starting to moan too. My body felt so hot I felt like my stomach was on fire then, it sound like some let air out a waterbed and my body went numb. I was squirting all over his floor and grubbing his sheets so hard. He slid my panties down and and undid his pants pulling his boxers down faster then any thing I've seen. He slid the tip of his dick inside me, it made my body jump. He moaned "fuck". He held my waist and slid some more in, he was teasing me my body was going crazy "ugh its so wet", my body was shuttering again. He pulled out my breathing was heavy. He held my waist and slid his dick all the way inside me and I felt like I was cumming,instantly. He reached up and grabbed my breast while thrusting and moaning "fuck its so tight", he stopped." I dont want to come yet." I asked in between deep breaths " do you have any condoms?" I looked back at him. He pulled out of me, "no......but ill pull out" he sound half way assuring. I quickly pulled my panties up and slid my dress down. "No thank you, im leaving" the thought of a std or pregnancy gave my mind instant sobriety. I quckly exit the room. He stumbled to pull up his boxers and pants. "Wait" called but I was already back up stairs grabbing my keys and shoes. He caught me at the from door "you dont have to,leave", he begged. "Its late, I have to work in the morning and cant be late for work" he looked disappointed but kiss me on the forehead and on the lips. "Ok ill walk you to your car. He follwed me outside to my car, he held my hand walking me my car. This experience felt so weird. He kissed me again before I got in the car. Then went back inside. I screamed in my mind "ughhhhh I wanted to fuck him,without seeming like a hoe,easy or a slur. Damn double standards for dating. Fuck fuck fuck" I started the car. Put it in drive and drove home. Part1

#Ambw #ambwerotica #ambwdating #ambw love #truedating #millennialdating

[decodingbackstreet]

And now… the 2nd-most cringiest song BSB has ever done: She’s a Dream. It is on This Is Us. When I first heard it I immediately thought that it might be worse than IYWITBGGGYABB. But no. Nothing has topped that yet. This is a very, VERY close second, tho. When they performed it on the TIU tour, it was cute. That’s the only good thing about this song. Well, that and they actually SOUND good singing it. It’s hard to make them actually sound bad in a song. They always bring it vocally. But the lyrics and everything else… Sorry, SAD lovers. I’m gonna shit all over this one.

Writers: Nick Carter, Faheem Najd, Howie Dorough, Brian Littrell, AJ McLean, Daen Simmons Producers: T-Pain, Mr. Pyro

Shorty ain’t got cable She don’t even got a radio Way more than able. What kinda girl should I take her for The perfect kind Just what I like, Exactly what I had in my mind A dream She’s a dream

I’m from the south. Atlanta, to be exact. I hear the word shorty all the time. Only thing is, we don’t say shorty. We say shawty. Because that’s the way the ATL accent works. The point is, it isn’t a word organic to BSB. For that reason, I was stuck between rolling my eyes and laughing when I heard Nick sing it. He actually sings it more like shawty than shorty. It sounds so stupid coming from him.

On to the lyrics… I don’t know what her not having cable or a radio has to do with her being his dream girl. Why is that even something that is brought up? Who goes around like well does she have cable or a radio? No? But she’s still hot so… Who does that? But she doesn’t have those things and apparently that adds to her charm.

Shorty don’t know I’m on the red carpet Almost every night And when I’m outta town to go and do work I’m first class every flight If she takes the time to open her eyes She can realize that she’s a dream… ‘Cause she knows me

This is Nick again. Still as cringeworthy as before. First he insinuates that the girl is poor/less fortunate than he is. Now he’s basically bragging about how awesome he is. I assume she doesn’t know he’s famous. Well, clearly you’re not doing something right with all those red carpets if she has no idea who you are. But I guess that’s the way he likes it. She likes him for him.

Shorty don’t know who I am She don’t know I’m a celebrity ‘Cause when I let her meet my fam Ain’t nobody mention my pedigree ‘Cause every time I take her out We’re always in the VIP Shorty don’t know who I am But she knows me That’s why I make her say… Ooh Make her say… Ahh Make her say… Uhh Make her say… Ahh ‘Cause she’s a dream

That is unfortunately the chorus. Basically he’s being a braggart while saying that while saying this girl doesn’t know anything about THAT part of his life but she knows who he REALLY is on the inside or whatever. So, have they been lying to this chick the entire time? How can she possibly know you if she doesn’t know everything about you?

Make her say ooh, huh? BSB being freaky. Not unheard of. Now I might be showing my age here, but when I was a kid there was this song called Make Em Say Uhh. One of the best songs to come out of the 90s. That’s what the end of this chorus makes me think of.

Shorty don’t know who I am

Nick just had to bless us once more.

And I’m cool with that If she says so I ain’t even gotta lie to her And when I’m out making pesos Ain’t nobody treat her like I do her ‘Cause I’m the one That she thinks about The only one on her mind She’s a dream ‘Cause she knows me

Brian doesn’t sound as silly as Nick does saying shorty, but I lost it at pesos. I had to pause the song because I was laughing so hard. Just… why? So apparently she doesn’t really care about what he does or anything. She’s just enjoying him. And I guess if she never asks there’s no reason tell her, thus not lying. I mean at some point she has to wonder where he gets all his money from. VIP every time they go out isn’t cheap. Did he just say construction? You know? Like in Goodfellas?

Shorty don’t know that I’m on the stage Like 3 or 4 times a week She don’t even know I’ve been around the world And all the different girls I meet But there’s just one Face that I see She’s the only one for me She’s a dream.. ‘Cause she knows me

Brian continues. Idk why shorty isn’t as silly coming from him. Maybe because he says it less like shawty than Nick does. It’s strange. Anyway, it seems he has NOT told her about his entire reality. Roaming around the world, performing, meeting different girls and such. But even after all of that, she’s the only one he comes home to. Mmhmm… I don’t believe that for a second but go awf.

We get hit with the terrible chorus again.

See, shorty don’t know who I am That’s not good for us Cause I know It’s not good to fuss And I know she loves me for me And i love her for her But It wouldn’t work if she ever gave a damn About who I am But she knows me

First 4 lines are Howie and they put his voice through one of those annoying things. The rest is AJ. Ooh look! A swear! I’m pretty sure I can count all the times BSB has sworn in a song on my hands. I think it’s like 6 songs, 7 times if you count that they do it twice in one song (Hologram). There’s also a self-censor in Tell Me. There might be more than that but off the top of my head that’s all I got.

Back to the lyrics… It sounds like Howie is acknowledging that keeping these things from her just might not be a good idea. But then AJ comes back with if she knew that he was this superstar that things wouldn’t work. Well, they might not now since you’ve been practically leading a double life. She’s gonna find out and say these exact words: I don’t even know who you are anymore.

They do the chorus again with AJ being AJ all over it. Then it ends.

The lyrics (and general situation in the song) are horrible. However, they sound great singing such garbage. The song doesn’t sound bad at all. Except Howie’s part. I don’t like that part at all because of that crap they do to his voice. Anyway, it sounds great but the lyrics absolutely ruin it. That’s really the only reason it isn’t as bad as IYWITBGGGYABB, where everything about it (except AJ) is terrible.

The guys co-wrote this song. I would LOVE a breakdown who wrote what. I need that to happen. Since Nick is listed first, I’m going to go out on a limb and say he wrote the majority. I already know where some of these lyrics came from. *glares at T-Pain* But I’m eager to know what input the others had. All you really need to do is change a word to get a writing credit anway.

#backstreet boys #she's a dream #this is us

[keerawrrr]

so yesterday I mentioned Juicy dealing with some news with his sisters. well he asked me in the morning if he could come over after work, I was like sure, I'm here for you whenever.....so he comes thru, I feed him, provide his fav soda and our fav Spanish snack; we watch friends, talk and laugh for a bit. I make him share a dream he was sposed to tell me the other day (before our big blow up) and then I share two of mine with him lol my shit was bonkers; I finally ask him what's up with his sisters; he relays everything, and I can see how upset he was, I give him a lil advice from my perspective and if I were in such a situation but I know it's a SLIM chance, he gon do anything I would when it comes to his family lol -eye roll-...anyway so he relaxes a bit and gets to cuddling me; he ends up going into my room and relaxing, I follow, we talk some more and laugh, I help him with a H&R survey, we find him a phone case online...eventually he starts staring into my eyes n complimenting me, stroking my hair and having me lay across him or him lay up under me, pressing me to him and we make out lol he gives me and inch and I try to take a mile...unsuccessfully lol but I DID get to put my hand down the back of his pants and hold one of his cheeks for a very long time without him freaking out lol #Victory 😂😂 We did have a convo about the first time we became attracted to eachother and when we realized how close we were, cuz honestly both things jst kinda came outta nowhere; he's a guy and I know him and another dude would eyeball me and snicker about my boobs or ass but to actually BE interested in each other or start giving a fck about each other, we dnt have a starting reference lol all I have for sure is the day he stood up for me wit a customer, almost beating they ass; the first time he grabbed my waist and moved me out the way in drive thru and the first time he told me he would eat me out; all 3 were major shockers for me lol but ANYWAYYYYY; he also told me he loved me twice (that's always something I'm gonna mention, like yea it's old news but so what lol), After all the bed wrestling, he was ready to go; had to catch the bus. I get a text from one of our managers saying she's at the gym so I figure instead of him catching the bus, I can jst drop him off since it's in the same area. as I'm JST checking my msgs, he falls asleep snoring on the bed; I tap him like aye wake up, u snoring, he denies it, claims he wasn't even asleep lol oooook....I start getting dressed and the muhfcka falls BACK to sleep, so I grab his phone and record him on his snapchat with a nice lil caption & then a pic of me snickering with "goteeeeeeeeeem" 😂😂 I finally wake him back up, get him up and about and we dip out. we're riding and he's singing along to the radio and stuff, browsing cars on CraigsList, he seems OK. I drop him off, we hug and before he closes the door he goes "Thanks Cherokee, fa real..." and idk what to say so I jst blow him a kiss. I get to the gym and he texts me saying that I really helped him out today, I made him forget everything he was dealing with

ends up sending me 4 videos, all with a song playing, I make sure I listen to them all twice and when I tell u them bitches were ACCURATE! man, it was SOOOOOO sweet; like for u to know Juicy, you'd be like damn dude....lol so here's both verses he sent:

"I reminisce, on the first time we ever kissed, In the devilish world you my only angel. Cancel concerts to stay with you and watch cable, kiss your navel, candlelights on the table; You never cared if I was financially stable...12 years, to me it feels like 12 minutes; My love for you sees no limits"

"its paradise no matter where we at, The movies, the club, Six Flags, the Super Track; I was a dropout, no education whatsoever but you stuck with me through all kinds of fucked up weather, hoping days'll get better like I said they would....They said "Stand by your man", and there you stood. I was 17, now I'm 29 and I pray you'll be mine 'til the end of time"

& I actually liked this part myself after listening to the song twice:

"You take the breath from me, make my life heavenly, I can't believe the way the good Lord is blessin' me. One in a million, mother of my children; me without you like car without engine. You listen to my dreams that I vision, respect that I smoke Mary Jane, it's like my religion. The pigeons, sometimes make you worry but I can see , you know my vision ain't blurry" -SPM, MISS PERFECT

I didn't KNOW it was SPM until I asked his ass twice to tell me so I could download it lol; he loves SPM (well most Hispanics do lol) but bitch I was all in 17yr old first love dedication mode lol

this dude man, he surprises me more and more everyday....and I'm glad he knows that bullshit aside (petty ass arguments), when shit gets serious I'm here for him (cuz our argument wasn't over 10 seconds when the shit with his sisters started and I switched gears to focus on him even tho we were JST pissed at each other a few ago lol)....I even remember him saying earlier in the night that it's not jst physical between us and I looked at him like no shit, u ain't gotta tell me that. I told him, I know it's not, I know what we have...I said even tho what we have makes me wanna rip your clothes off and rape u, I know we're not JST that, he started cracking up 😂 😂

but man....fck, I jst love him lol OK I'm done lol I'm done

#bff #work husband #crush #bae #my rib #i love you #spm #miss perfect #song dedication #bad day #good day #time well spent #laughs #comfort #im here for you #blessed #san antonio #my thoughts #personal #chicano #my best friend #support