#sorry codblr i gotta switch gears for a second. feeling emotions about my other blorbos

[mylarena]

suddenly feeling emotions abt jaskier again.

the way geralt has always insisted hes not jaskiers friend, that he needs no one. the way hes disregarded jaskier for all 20 years that they traveled together. the way he was thrown away on the mountain. jaskiers learned that geralt doesnt make friends.

so why is it that he treats everyone at kaer morhen as if they are?

he clearly loves the other witchers, cares for them and protects them. he can understand that- theyre family. he cant stop the pang of pain he feels knowing that he was never close enough to get that.

he clearly loves ciri, slipped into his role of her father despite the years of strict denial and refusal to take the place destiny had demanded of him. he sees the way he dotes on her, makes sure shes fed and warm and as comfortable as she can be. an she deserves it, melitele does that girl deserve all the love an care in the world, but it still hurts, knowing that he didnt matter enough to the wolf to be treated half as good as her.

he can see that geralt still loves yennefer, despite their fights and conflicts. he sees how he lingers, how he treats her softly even when hes coping with the things she did. he sees how fast he started to forgive her after coming back through that portal with her. he heard their conversation on that bridge.

it hurt more than he could ever imagine to hear that he wasnt a part of their future.

he can see the way he treats triss, treated mousesack, even the dwarves.

maybe geralt does make friends.

maybe jaskier just doesnt make the cut.

#myposting #jasktag #julian alfred pankratz #jaskier #geralt of rivia #yennefer of vengerberg #cirilla of cintra #the witcher netflix #the witcher season 2 spoilers #i jjjjust . jaskier deserved so much better. he deserved to be treated kindly. #he was never given the love he deserved. ffrom snyone. #sorry codblr i gotta switch gears for a second. feeling emotions about my other blorbos