#spring fling 2022 info post

[the-karasu-no-one-knows]

Something about you...

Perhaps, since it's the new year, I might as well start writing again. I'm not sure how often I'll be doing this, but I'm going to give it a go since so much happened last year (2022). That sweet sea creature and I have formed quite the relationship. A relationship kept in secrecy. A friendship, bound in lust and respect; as well as a fling that is more permanent than not.

Knowing this person for over two years has been nice. It really blossomed back during the spring last year. When the very beginning of summer hit, things escalated to fantasies and sexual cybering. It's funny because I used to do that on a pretty consistent basis from 2000-2003. I met so many people then. It was hectic and I was known to be quite the "chat whore".

I hate using that term because I've never fit that description, as awful as it sounds. Those that knew me were EXTREMELY far and few. Andrew, however; knew that I was not the definition of that word. God I miss him. I think about you all the time Andrew. You were such a pivotal figure in my life way back and you will always have a special place in my heart. I'm so sorry I never picked you up from Durango. I think that if I had picked you up, my life would of ended up so different. Just know that I'm doing well and that I've come such a long way. I miss you and love you still.

As far as my sea creature friend, that attraction is strong. I still have my Sylveon and Kirito and now...there is YOU. I have these moments with you that I savor. These moments, as lustful as they are....I enjoy thoroughly. I know that if I were near to you, I would of already had seduced you in ways that I was known to seduce men with great power. Power financially and power in the roles that they played in government. Roles that I knew very little about but those roles were exceptionally important and wreaked of all things wrong.

I wasn't meant to really know their positions, I was just meant to obtain the information that they had in order to serve the purposes of those that I could give two shits about. I had my job and jobs to do and they never had any intention of showing me gratitude in a healthy and non-harmful way. The better I got at it, the more important of a person I was meant to seduce, fuck and take from.

All the information retained was given out by another alter. I think it's just time to start sharing but with a certain level of anonymity. I think I could tell my friend more and more through these Tumblr posts. I'll send him the links when the time comes. I can't imagine him using any of it against me. There is something about him that allows me and the others to share. Not sure why, but I'm halfway done with life so I might as well enjoy the other half for as long as I have it....right?

The crazy thing is that few nights ago in chat, two chatters (one that I know who's had a crush on me for 2 years now and a new chatter...at least to me) focused a great deal of their attention on me. Osi, being one of them, has had feelings for me for quite some time. He wanted to cyber but I just can't do that with anyone anymore. That was long ago. The other chatter (whom I can't remember his name) was very kind and was complimenting my looks on how I look healthy. He asked me if I had any New Years resolutions ahead of me and I told him I had started a multi vitamin a week or two ago.

He told me that for a 48 year old woman, I look really healthy. He also randomly told me that I look like an incredibly sexy "spy". I told my Sylveon about it and he wondered if it were someone trying to get info out of me or if it was something else that could be deemed as "sinister". I told Sylveon that I didn't feel like it was addressed to me in a manner that would seem provocative. In fact, I actually felt flattered because he wasn't off on his compliment.

I didn't dare mention it to Kirito because he becomes way too clingy and possessive in a way. I think it has to do with his age and a level of uncertainty and insecurity. The last time I mentioned being in chat, it went down VERY poorly. I refuse to mention that I'm in chat again and chatting with old and new chatters. As soon as he would find out, he would go on professing his love for me and expected it in return, which I really don't like doing. I love him but I DO NOT need to profess my love for anyone in a chat room of people I do not fully know.

That drives me a bit crazy about Kirito. That insecurity part can be really annoying. I see that with my sea creature friend's "online" partner. I've seen her express that he's at "the park" and other comments made that he most likely would not appreciate. I see her a bit like Kirito. A level of immaturity that I've never had personally. I've always had a good level of confidence. It was ingrained in me since the age of 3. I was exceptionally strong on and off land. It's how humans like me are created. We are shown that lacking confidence will only cause mistakes to occur on our tasks and assignments.

I look at that last sentence and I feel sick to my stomach, proud and angry. Quite a trio of emotions. I don't even have the proper chemical composition to understand them to their fullest extent. How fortunate it is and was for those needing someone to act without much care or emotion. One completely fixated on getting shit done. I don't hold it against my father. Things were different then and money can buy and create problems and scenarios that Hellywood make out to be "cool" and "hip".

That's one of the things that causes me to feel a great deal of anger. Hellywood making up stupid movies where women who weigh no more than 130 lbs kicking the asses of men who are twice to three times their size in height and weight. It's not 'Atomic Blonde' you silly fucks. Even Andrew knew that. You really did know that...didn't you Andrew? Where are you? I never even got your last name. I wonder if that was intentional? I've always collected the first and last names of those who crossed my paths.

There have only been a few people who's last names I never collected. The latest being my sea creature friend. Even within this blog, I will not utter anything factual about him that would relay a name of any kind or residence that could match my conversations with him. This so called 'Doxxing' is not possible with me because I was meant to not exist, yet the pain with being non-existent is there. Two birth certificates and possibly many others.

All I know is that my first and last name are real. I was allowed to have all that comes with it 17 years ago when that part of my life died....half way. I left that world at 29 but continued to dominate the lives of men who I deemed "only worthy of what I needed" and when those meetings happened, I always got what I wanted and I didn't care about the pain that I caused them because I knew what I wanted and they had less than ten minutes to give it to me.

I left faster than they could of even spelled the word "what? That one postal worker [John] tried very hard to get me to linger for either breakfast or dinner. I would call him at 4 am in the morning, demanding he be prepared for me to come over for a sexual encounter. Nothing more and certainly nothing less. He was reliable all the time. The others before him were fairly cheap if I had to put a cost to them. One of them actually tried to persuade me to not allow him to use a condom.

I told him that he had 5 minutes to figure out that either he capped it or I would be gone before the 4th minute came and went. Of course he put it on and continued to drip sweat all over me because he could not achieve his orgasm in a timely manner. I gave him a few minutes and then he finally had his moment. The only thing that was worthy of that night being mentioned was that he had an awesome German Shepard that I loved petting and giving kisses to.

What a simpleton.

I very well could of killed Alex. Then again, I've never had to worry about what happens to my clients. mentally and physically. The relationships that were in my fathers life took care of all of that. I should of saved the environment and ended him. What a waste of space that kid was. Bleh. To think I saw his face on the local news a year after and I showed him to my Sylveon.

This is where I am meant to be. This is the world I live in. A world that I worked hard at living and maintaining to the best of my ability. A life that seems fairly normal. A pretty normal civilian life. I completely went off tangent here. As one can see....I lose my train of thought due to wanting to say so much but feeling like I have very little time to convey it.

Don't worry my little sea creature friend. I'll share more with you and focus on you a bit more next time.

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[bernthirst-events]

BERNTHIRST SPRING FLING 2022

Welcome to our 3rd event! This time around, since we had more time to prepare this, we thought of a very theme-focused day to day event with still plenty of options for you to choose from.

THEMES & PROMPTS

Movie Monday | Dedicated to Jon's films exclusively* | Prompts: Watching a movie, Filming a video, Netflix and chill, Lost footage, Caught on security camera, Hollywood AU, Favorite Characters/Films, Interviews, Photoshoots, Stills, Movie Poster.

*If you’re writing– you can either have your characters take this literally and have them go watch a movie, film a video, netflix and chill, etc. (If you choose this option and focus on the theme, you can use any character from any show or film) - OR just create anything you want that doesn't involve movies but it has to be with a film character of your choosing– i.e. Brax, Sam, Griff, Grady, Daniel James, BJ, Swaino...

Teasing Tuesday | Next projects, trailers, striptease, shirtless, fighting, flirting, prank, shenanigans, underwear, buying/wearing sexy lingerie, bartender au, teasing hair, angst, first dates, blind dates, appetizers.

Wedding Wednesday | Anything involving any of your favorite ships (Kastle, Fratt, Brank, Rane, etc), romantic, kissing, proposal, secret marriage, fake marriage, arranged marriage, eloping, honeymoon, buying rings/dresses/attire/etc, cake tasting, ditching a wedding, crashing a wedding, reception, matchmaker, soulmates au.

Thirsty Thursday | Self-explanatory, having a drink, being stranded somewhere with nothing to drink, vampire AU (bloodthirst), porn without plot, favorite body parts, favorite jon pictures, fan service, lust, explicit, one night stands.

Flower Friday | Flower shop AU, flowers in bloom/botanical garden, flower patterns, pastel colors, crown, blooming, sunny, nature, date, gifts, perfume/scents, birth, friendship, gardening.

Steamy Saturday | Steam bath, steaming food, historical AU on steam train, adventurous, lush, bold colors, sweat, outdoor activities, workout, passion, coffee shop AU.

Show Sunday | Dedicated exclusively to shows. Same rules apply as Movie Monday* | Prompts: Favorite characters/Shows, etc. Binge a tv show, netflix alternative, trapped in a tv show, mounting a tv, family gathering, sports event, journalist au, everybody lives au.

*If you’re writing– you can either have your characters take this literally and have them watch tv (If you choose this option and focus on the theme, you can use any character from any show or film) - OR just create anything you want that doesn't involve tv but it has to be with a tv character of your choosing– i.e. Shane, Frank, Joe, Duncan…

Deadline: April 18 to April 24.

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Prompt Rules: These are mostly suggestions. If you come up with something that fits the overall theme that we didn’t think of, you’re welcome and encouraged to use that too. And if you miss a day you can enter a few days after if you need. 

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