#they must be canon dammnit

[phoenixfire-thewizardgoddess]

#eevee #pokemon #i also love the secret Light Type i commissioned off xeeble #and also their ghost type #they must be canon dammnit

[juminhandfs]

Oh...

Ok, sometimes I had these moments when I'm sipping mate or watching stupid YouTube videos with the 5 most weird things found in a bottle and I'm thinking in nothing, when suddenly I'm hit with a thought or a realization, I think is called "fridge something" in TV tropes. And usually this follows with me giving more though to the idea until it turns into a really long ass post that because of it's length I don't end up writing (at least for now).

So I'm gonna just write the idea as it came for now:

Do you know that thing Jumin says in his and Zen's route when the MC is with them? That he is against two unengaged people living together? Sometimes vary as "two single people living together" or just "against living together before marriage"

Now why does he says that? In his route I sort of can understand it given everything that happens, and on Zen's I do think that Cheritz intended having him saying that to show us how he normally thinks about this subject, and how off he is in his own route (and how we have to help him to be himself again)

But still that doesn't take the fact that is odd how he is so adamant to repeat the same thing over and over again on Zen's route. Why? Why would he even care? Jumin prides himself on not wasting his time in non productive things, so why the man who doesn't do relationships would bother to have a formed opinion on relationships?

A shipper may suggest that it is due to jealousy and there's people who like the idea of Jumin loving you in every route (why would you want that??? Hasn't this man suffered enough already??), But both of those explanations are based on "supposed feelings", not in explicit canon feelings from Jumin.

And that's when it hits me, but, which canon couple we know that was very close to Jumin AND that lived together for a long time unengaged AND that ended tragically?

These ash**les angels...

So, Jumin advice to Zen and MC may be because of his (unconscious, because for him a lot of things are unconscious) fear of having the same thing happen again. We know that Jumin didn't have the chance to grieve and process the traumatic experience, but that doesn't change the fact that it must have left its own scars on him (and it's own symptoms), on the contrary, we see a similar behavior on Jaehee's route before hell breaks loose:

He is here definitely talking about V and Rika, and how they left him behind

**Edit adding the comment of @yoosea-mysme because once again this posted itself unfinished without me realizing, dammnit!:

"I was kind of nodding along as I read, but then that last part... Oh boy. I always saw this kind of like Cheritz playing it safe. Jaehee's route clearly implies the beginning of a romantic relationship but it's not so open as it is with the routes of the men love interests, probably to get passed some kind of censorship, and so I always envisioned some of these dialogues as a way to make the route "not so obviously gay" (Jaehee doesn't need a gf, she needs a FRIEND - a gal pal, if you will). There's a lot of instances of the characters trying to downplay the relationship between Jaehee and MC as "just friends" while at the same time trying to frame it as "romantic ENOUGH". Because of this, it's always annoyed me a bit.

But this takes a very different meaning if you see it as the result not of meta-writing to push the narrative in a direction, but rather of Jumin losing his two best friends, one physically to suicide, the other emotionally to the trauma after said suicide, because both lovers were co-dependent, and Jumin having to deal with the pain of this double loss alone as a result. Once you see it that way, it's no longer Jumin acting old school or getting in someone else's business, but wishing Jaehee a healthy social life so she won't become co-dependent on a lover as well and lose herself if she were to lose them. A lot of people disagree with this but I've always thought Jumin cares deeply for Jaehee even if he's bad at showing it, and I really like this idea that this is not "gal palling" but rather Jumin trying to protect his friend a lot more."

Yes! Exactly! Thanks for rounding that thought!

Yes! Jumin cares so much for Jaehee, but he struggles so much with boundaries (actually both of them do, because of their own reasons). They can't reach to each other as much as they FEEL they should, so they put these physical and mental walls between each other, called "contract" "professional distance" "Society's Bashing" or whatever.

What struck me on Jaehee's route is that is the mention of Jumin's happiness by Zen that makes Jaehee cry (and as we know, Jumin isn't happy, and she is the first witness of it). So in the end all this work she does doesn't count really that much because she knows is not what Jumin really needs and that she could give to him if she wasn't that scared of crossing the line (cue to why she is so supportive of Jumin and MC in the birthday events and his route) . She has to content herself with being the perfect employee who doesn't say no to him and who has at least job security.

Is just a big case of miscommunication (damn this game is so well written!) And it's so humanly depicted. "Ella lo quiere a él, él la quiere a ella... Caramba he visto demasiada televisión!"

Going back to Jumin and after playing the Bad Ending DLC, knowing that Jumin is this aware of the danger of codependency in a relationship. That he knows he and MC could end like V and Rika, and still staying in this relationship that made him renounce to everyone who isn't MC in his life, only because MC wants this. Despite Jumin telling her once and again she is free to go whenever she wants ("It's you who can leave this place, not me. I want to see you break free")

But that HE CAN'T because he is so alone, so afraid of being alone again, so needed of love... That's...

😭😭😭😭

#mystic messenger #mysme #jumin han #mysme jumin #jaehee kang #mysme v #mysme rika #my mysme analysis #mysme meta

[phoenixfire-thewizardgoddess]

For that ask meme (If you don't want to answer them all feel free to pick and choose): 3, 6, 7, 8, 12, 14, 21, 22, 24, 26, 30, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 42, 43, 45, 47, 50, 51, 54.

3. Favourite thing to write? Well, I’m not sure. Mostly I just like found family type stories, or elaborate nonsense. (As you may have noticed, all my stories are nonsensical bs lmaooo).

6. Where do you usually find inspiration? My bed, or the shower, inconvenient times. Sometimes it will be music, or a weird what-if. But you can blame the lovely @grezzirossi for a lot of my fics, as they tend to come out of weird conversations and headcanon building we do in chat. 7.  Do you listen to music to help you write? Sometimes. I mean, sometimes you need a certain kind of music to help you think. Sometimes you need the background noise of youtube etc.

8.  What’s the biggest “challenge” for you as a writer? ...writing.

12.  What’s your favorite thing that you ever wrote? I’m not sure, I really like a few of mine. Mostly because there was one killer pun or joke in there the whole fic was based around. Maybe ‘Spy Is My...’ it’s not even good, but I remember how i felt when the headcanon came to life. 

14.  What’s your favorite character/person to write for? I love Scout from Team Fortress 2, but all the mercs really. They’re all unique and ridiculous and an excellent mass murdering found family.

Lot of others tho. I have a few half-written fics i will one day finish, and your minds... they will be, disappointed. 

Would like to do some Witcher or Overwatch fics eventually. Getting to it, promise.

21.  What’s your favorite AU trope?

+Nobody Died/Everybody Lived +Superpowers +Some sort of soulmate au? Or even Hanahaki? +Found Family/Fight to Protect FAmilies +When someone assumes no one is coming... and then everyone comes to save them. 10/10 yes. Thanks. Probably others, can’t recall anything else off the top of my head...?

22.  A fanfiction cliché you can’t help but love? Oh no... I cannot love them both! Surprise motherfucker! You can!

24.  Have you ever had an idea for story and forgot about it? ...yes. The ghosts of half-recalled fanfics past haunt me in the eerie hours of dawn...

26.  How did you find out you like to write?

Not sure if it counts but like, in grade 2 I wrote a harry potter fanfic with no idea of what fanfic was. Just a creative writing/short story thing, which apparently meant ‘me and best friend at time meet harry potter and fight vampires, and save people from vampires then go to hogwarts’.  Also wrote a version of ‘the chicken who made bread’ that was like, ‘the pale blue unicorn made barley sugars’ in the same grade.

But proper fanfic? I can’t recall the exact moment... but it also involved harry potter and fanfiction.net. And I would rather die than relieve that terrible mess. Gods I thought I was SO GOOD and now it’s so YIKES. Lmao.

30.  What would you say it’s the most “famous” fic you’ve ever written? Not sure... I don’t think any are really that well known?

34.  What’s your favorite font to use when writing? The default. It legit never occurred to me to change it.

35.  Which do you prefer to write: longer or shorter fics? I tend to aim for shorter and always get longer. I aim for longer, and never finish them because I am a disaster of a human being.

36.  How do you keep yourself inspired?

a) write it in one sitting; b) re-read it a million times and occasionally type an extra word; c) have a lovely friend telling you that You Can Do It! or d) despair at being a lazy bitch with no time... ugh

37.  Have you ever written something you didn’t like but posted anyways? Yeah, most of it lmaoooo. I never feel its good enough to post?  It’s silly, but like, that’s the Mood I have.

38.  What is your “strong suit” as a writer? Being able to just like, bullshit my way through anything I guess.

39.  What’s your favorite trope? Found family / Supernatural as Normal Everyday Shit (Like oh god dammnit i phased into the 6th dimension again and i’m gonna be late for work’) / HORROR

42. What is your weakness as a writer?

Not good at describing certain things, like kissing or postures or whatever. Feels like I’m often repetitive. I dunno, it just feels repetitive, I guess? Often., even.  Also lack of time and motivation to write, after work, where constant typing is a Thing.

43.  Have you ever cried or felt any emotion while reading something you wrote? Yes. Also occasionally blindside myself with dumb jokes i’ve hidden in the fics. AS if my brain erased their existence after I typed them out, so it’s Always Fucking Funny when I read them.

45.  One thing you love about fanfiction.

That it can hold shitty canon at knifepoint and demand a better ending. That there is no real limit to the whole thing... you want to rewrite Lord of hte Rings in space? Fucking GO FOR IT. 

47.  What’s your favorite thing about writing? It feels like painting with words? Just getting lost in the story in your head, realising character A was holding a sandwich three paragraphs ago and now its a gun so you have to swear and find a part to slide in where they switched it, etc. lmao.

50.  One thing you don’t like about fanfiction.

People who are like Super Into inc*st, p*doph*lia and r*pe fics, but get defensive when people are like The fUck? Or people who ship REal Life Actual People, and get weird, or even frightening about the whole “Well these two actual human beings MUST be together so I will send death threats to their real life partners” thing. 

Also what the FUCK was with the wattpad fic phase where everyone’s mothers were selling them to 1Direction. Lmaoooo.

51.  Least favorite trope? Violently out of character fics. Where it’s straight up, ‘author has removed their personalities and added in generic uke/seme personalities from like 2009 or some shit’. And everyone’s acting super weird. (M/m and f/f/ and m/f fics alike). 

Very frustrating. Just... learn about the character, use it, it makes things way more fun to write and read. 

Also A/B/O. It’s weird, lads. I love Teen Wolf but some of you got WEIRD Weird. 

54.  Do you usually like what you write?

I get stressed that it’s never good enough. Sometimes, yeah; mostly nah.

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