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jschlattsbabydoll · 3 years

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Ocean Away Part 2 (Chishiya Shuntaro x Reader)

A/N: Hi! How are you?

Sorry for the delays for part 2. But here you are 😊

I’m sorry if the story felt rushed, but I would be editing the story once it has been finished for a more detailed version of the story.

Thank you so much for the support for part 1. The notes on this one is amazing currently at 119 notes…. Thank you so much! Hopefully part 2 won’t disappoint.

And I want to tag @eggbutnotyolk and @kaiorik , Thank you for commenting and the support! <3

I won’t take so much of the space here.

Please enjoy part 2! :)

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“Far away, an ocean away. Where I won’t let you hurt me again.” – Loreen, Ocean Away.

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“Don’t leave me.”

“I won’t.”, You lied.

Around 12 noon, you awoke from your bed. You around your room to see a note on the bedside cabinet,

“I will be meeting up with Kuina for just a bit.” – Chishiya.

Then suddenly memories of last night came rushing back on your mind…

You’ll be leaving Chishiya.

Suddenly tears fell down your body, with the memories of last night, your talk with your uncles and after that with him… It was so fucked up on how much you doubt your plan right now. Is this how he can easily manipulate you into thinking things?

Every night that you two have been together, his body is so warm that you love being with him, but the feelings he portrays, they lack emotions, it was so cold that she would give so much time and space. She would always wait for him to come to her instead.

The game that he plays is dangerous. He is willing to give up everything, even her.

*Flashback*

“Chishiya! Help me! I’m drowning!” you looked at the man you loved the most, he looked back with the coldest eyes that you have ever seen, then he took off.

You screamed loudly for his name, but he didn’t come back.

“Y/N!!!” you heard someone scream your name, hoping that it was Chishiya that he might just went and took some back up.

As you slowly went down, you felt someone pull you from the water, as you were place on land, you coughed hard and tears started to form from your eyes, it suddenly hurt to breathe in and out, but you needed to breathe.

You quickly look at the person who saved you. It was Arisu.

“Arisu…” You said as you slowly started to cry, you couldn’t even form any sentence right now with the outburst of feelings that you have inside, “I.. I thought… I… No…Chishiya… Why?” you tried to speak, as you looked into Arisu’s eyes for answers. You suddenly grabbed Arisu’s sleeves for support. You saw in his eyes that he was worried and pained with the panicked and crying form that you are in.

“Why?! Arisu… Arisu….? Chishiya… left me….” You continue to break down, you let go of Arisu’s sleeve and you placed both hands on your face.

Arisu suddenly hugged you, “I’m sorry… This is all I could offer you.”

The sadness, dread, disappointment, and the pain are now mixing all in together. Now all you could think of is wishing that you died than suffering under Chishiya’s side.

“why?” you said through tears with the only answer is pure silence.

“HATTER! HATTER! HATTER!” Everyone screamed and cheered their leader, who was leaving for a game with Aguni and you. Your uncle waved from the back seat and smiled at everybody for their immense support,

While your Uncle Aguni drove the car, you sat on the passenger seat. While the car is slowly leaving the Beach’s premises. You through the crowd and saw him.

He looked at you eye to eye, but you removed you eyes from his gaze. You didn’t want to leave him, but staying with him hurt a lot more.

As your uncle Aguni drove off, you uncle Hatter looked at you, “don’t be sad, my child. I know that the beach has everything you need and can ever ask for this world. But, remember, if you need some space from the people within my walls, you can always go a different location.”

You nodded your head, “Thank you Uncle Hatter and Uncle Aguni.”

“Just a bit of wait. We’ll be out of this country and we can have our lives back.” Aguni said as he took a turn to the arena, a school building.

“After this game, we will be driving you off to your hiding spot. It would be from the other side of Tokyo near Shibuya… We will keep track of you now and then. You will be joining games from the other side, just let us know what is going on, what games you played and what card you have received.” Hatter has explained, “And just to completely hide your identity from other players, you might need to change your hair color or maybe let you wear a mask.”

“Anyways, the place that we have chosen is near a mall, but we would still be providing for you as promised once we visit you again.” Aguni added,

“Noted.” You answered, as you got out of the car. You opened the car door for you uncle and helped him out, “Uncle Hatter, having a hard time getting out of the car?”

“I’m almost at my 30’s dear. I’m getting old.” He joked, “Wish I could go back to the simpler days.”

You smiled, “30 is not old uncle. Besides, you are still so full of life.”

As your Uncle Aguni got out of the car, “By the way… I followed your plan.” He said while looking at Hatter, “As dangerous as it sounds, but I told Niragi about the plan.”

Niragi wasn’t a good person. You’ve had some issues with Niragi and his awful behavior. Your uncle Aguni has explained and made it very clear with Niragi that you cannot be touched by him in anyway. You two had a very civil talk once after a game where you saved him from being mauled by a tiger, because he lost bullets from his riffle.

He became honest with his feelings that he didn’t thought that someone would save him.

Later he opened up being bullied in class, being thrown by rocks and there is a point system in it. You would always remember his glasses were 50 points and his crotch area is 100 points. He didn’t have any friends at all and even if people would see him being beaten up, no one came to his aid.

“I know that you don’t see me as your friend. But hiding from a sadistic silhouette won’t give you happiness. Yes, people are afraid of you, but that doesn’t ease the pain. I know, what they have done in the real world is wrong and un humane. But in the end of the day, you’re just human. We all have scars. And if you keep that inside, you’ll go insane… Actually, you are already. But, don’t go down further, Niragi. If you want someone to let out your outburst inside, I’m here.”

“Why do you…. Why are you so nice?” he asked,

“I don’t know. But it’s all I can give right now. You deserve it, even if you think you don’t.”

You kept his secrets, he’s still a douchebag with others after your encounter with him, but he became nice to you ever since.

Chishiya didn’t like the closeness between you and Niragi. Sometimes, he would interrupt a conversation between you and Niragi.

“Y/n… “ Chishiya said, intervening the conversation you have with Niragi, “Let’s go.” Extending his hands to hold your hand,

“Interrupting again? You make me angry, Chishiya. “, Niragi said with full annoyance, “Jealous, because your girlfriend is so fond of me?”

“hm….” Chishiya smirked, “I trust her that she won’t fall for someone who’s dumb witted as you.”

Things escalated very quickly, with Niragi pointing his riffle towards Chishiya’s head and Chishiya with his knife on Niragi’s neck,

“I’ll blow your head up, you fucker!” Niragi angrily said,

“Not if I slit your fucking throat.”

“STOP! STOP WHAT YOU ARE DOING!” You screamed, “Stop acting so fucking childish!”

They came to their senses and placed down their weapons, Niragi huffed with annoyance, he would have killed Chishiya if you didn’t stop him.

“I’ll go with Chishiya.” You looked towards Niragi, “I’m sorry Niragi. But I’ll talk again with you, okay? “

“Okay.” Niragi said in defeat. You touched his cheeks as a form of goodbye and then you left with Chishiya.

“Niragi knows about the plan?” you asked, looking through your uncle Hatter’s eyes,

“Yes. He’s like a back up that we have. He seems so fond of you, If ever that we can’t go towards your location due to meetings or maybe emergencies, we can secretly asked Niragi’s help.”

“Oh, at least… I have someone to talk to…” you said within you mind,

You started to walk with uncle to face the game that you will be all joining.

Hopefully, no one dies during this game.

~Time Skip~

You three finished the game and was granted 6 days of visa. You all drove off near Shibuya, and they have sent you to your new location. It was a hotel, it was two blocks away from a mall, which can give you supplies for your stay here.

You Uncle Aguni has handed you a walkie talkie, and tested it with his, Hatter and one of the Walkie for Niragi.

“You sure, you’ll be okay without us, dear?” Hatter asked once more,

You smiled, “Yes… I will be. I can talk to you any time with these walkie talkies. And If ever I’ll just give you a beep.” Then you hugged your uncle Hatter and then your Uncle Aguni.

“I know that you’re just keeping quiet, but you’ll miss me too, Uncle Aguni.” You teased, he smirked,

“Don’t get too cocky…” He said, but then he patted you gently on the head, “I would miss you…Just be careful here kid.”

“I will.” You smiled, after a few minutes, they were gone… Leaving you all alone.

Tears started to fall from your eyes, “I’m sorry, Chishiya…”

Everyone cheered on as Hatter and Aguni arrived, they chanted their names.

They went to the balcony and then Hatter raised his hands to stop the noise from the crowd below him.

He removed his sunglasses and he acted devastated…with tears on his eyes, he opened his mouth to speak.

“Thank you… Thank you for being happy that Aguni and I have come safe and sound from the war that we have joined tonight…” he said then stopped, he was now hearing whispers asking on where you are.

“You might have noticed that when we left, we have brought our precious y/n… We have a terrible news to tell… A death of an executive has happened… the death of our sweet child, y/n…”

Everybody went silent shocked to hear that one of the best players have died.

“She sacrificed her life for us… But…” Hatter wiped his fake tears on his face, “We will not let her death go in vain… We promised that we would complete the cards and in the end; we will survive this country and get out of this soon on her behalf. We need you all to fulfill this promise for her not just for her but also for yourselves…”

Unknown to everybody, a person on the floor above the balcony has been watching the whole scene, Chishiya, who has heard the news, ran towards your room. Thinking that this might me a sick joke that Hatter has brought to everybody.

But he was greeted by an empty room.

He tried to search everywhere, but you were gone.

He stopped looking for you and he went in front of your room door again.

He has mixed feeling about everything, he placed his hand to his chest. He felt a different kind of loneliness inside his chest.

“What would you do If I suddenly got lost or disappeared?” He remembers your question last night.

“This might be some sick joke…” he whispered to himself, “It’s impossible for you to die… not now.” As he was about to leave your door step, he saw Aguni walking towards him,

“Interesting.” He heard Aguni said while walking towards him, “what are you doing here?”

“I was just passing by.” Chishiya kept a straight face, “why did you let her die?”

Aguni smirked, “Caring now, Cheshire? It doesn’t suit you at all.”

“Hm.” Chishiya didn’t speak, but instead let Aguni walk by past him.

When Aguni was already 1 feet away from Chishiya, “Don’t fake it too much… Isn’t this what you wanted? To see her dead? That’s why you left her in one of the games?”

Chishiya turned around to answer his question, but Aguni was gone.

“Don’t leave me…”

“Why?” Chishiya asked to nobody as he remembers you..

[TBC]

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spotsspeciall · 5 years

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Tulips little sister

There is not enough Cassidy fanfic out there so I had to write one!

This is my first ever fanfic! I hope you like it!

Pairing: Proinsias Cassidy x Fem!Reader

Word count: 2,530

Warnings: Swearing.

Summary: (Season one)

Y/N O’Hare is Tulips little sister and is working at the bar at Toadvine, the whorehouse. Y/N is seen as the innocent and “weak” little sister, and Tulip is very protective of her. Y/N meets Cassidy while at Toadvine.

Authors note: English is not my first language so sorry if there is any mistakes! I also wanted “Y/N” to be as vague as possible, so she could look like what you want, but I just had to give her freckles! Sorrynotsorry. But I hope you enjoy either way!

It’s a normal workday at Toadvine, the whorehouse, and the usual guys from Q.M&P were there to gamble, drink and sleep with whores.

You spent most of your time refilling drinks to the gamblers, so doing your normal routine you walked up the stairs into the room where the gambling table stood, you heard a couple of “hey Y/N” from the usual guys, and Tulip who sat there gambling most nights. You put on your usual innocent smile and asked if anyone wanted anything to drink, and everyone ordered their usual drinks.

You thought everyone had ordered what they wanted until you looked around the room and saw a ruff, skinny man you had never seen before, actually, he was incredibly hot, you even felt the blood rush up your neck to your ears and cheeks.

You tried to hide the redness in your cheeks while you asked him “do you want anything to drink mister?” he answered, “I could use a glass of whiskey, lass” while he was talking you almost choked on your own spit. It was the most beautiful accent you had ever heard.

You didn’t notice you were staring until you heard Tulip speak up from the other side of the table. “Hey! Keep your eyes to yourself and stop staring at my little sister like that” you snapped out of your trance and turned your head to look at Tulip, if looks could kill, the Irishman would be brutally murdered by now. You turned to look at him when he said “Come on now! How could I keep me eyes to meself when she looks that beautiful” he looked up at you when he called you beautiful, and you could swear to God that your cheeks were burning up and you looked as red as a tomato.

But you knew you had to say something or else he would definitely be killed by Tulip any second. So you tried not to focus on the Irishman and turned to look at an angry Tulip, you knew she was very protective of you, so you tried to calm her down by saying “Tulip, it’s okay, he was just fliting a little” she turned to look at you, and you could tell see was fired up.

“Yeah he was flirting with my little sister! He just wants to fuck you cause he thinks you’re a whore Y/N!” Now you were fired up. You couldn’t believe what she just said, you have had enough, and you raised your voice “I can’t fucking believe you Tulip! You’re calling me a whore? Jesus, I am a grown woman and I can take care of myself!” she opened her mouth to say something, but you cut her off and figured it was easiest to move on and not fight with Tulip now “well I’ll get ya’ll drinks, and you wanted whiskey right?” you asked the Irishman.

You could see he was a little stunned by you and Tulips outbursts, but his look softened and answered a simple yes, you offered a simple smile and turned around and walked out the door.

You were so focused while pouring the drinks that you didn’t notice that the Irishman had come down to the bar and introduced himself. “Cassidy” he said, you jumped and turned around.

He realized he scared you “Sorry lass, didn’t mean to scare ya, me name is Cassidy”, “Oh it’s okay, my name is Y/N. Sorry ‘bout me and Tulip earlier, she thinks I’m still a kid and can’t take care of myself” now he had a smirk on his face and answered “no problem Y/N, you looked cute while you were mad anyway” now it was your turn to smile and feel like your face and insides was on fire.

You looked down at your hands and muttered a small thanks, then you found a small glass and filled it halfway with whiskey and handed it to him. “here is that whisky by the way” he took the glass and held it high while toasting “thanks love” you just tried to keep yourself under check while smiling back.

He downed the whole glass and slammed it down on the bar while wiping his mouth, you just kept staring at him until you got interrupted by one of the guys upstairs screaming “Where are the drinks Y/N!?” You snapped out of it and smiled at Cassidy while finishing up the drinks.

You and Cassidy returned to the gambling table together and he went and sat down while you handed out the drinks, you could see Tulip was mad, but at least she kept her mouth shut you thought. The last glass you put on the table was for Clive, that gross asshole of a man.

And of course, he just had to creep his hand up and cup your ass while you bent over to put the glass on the table. Tulip had seen the whole exchange and was ready to cut off his hand, and Cassidy was ready for some beating.

But before either of them had even stood up, you had already slapped his hand away and you had knocked your fist right in his nose “don’t you ever touch me” venom was laced in your voice, and Tulip had never seen this side of you, she was sure you weren’t capable of hitting someone in the face, you surprised her.

But as quick as your voice was laced with venom, it was gone the next second when you turned to the rest of the people around the table and said “just call me if you need more to drink, I’ll be at the bar” then you had that same old innocent smile on your face and headed out, down to the bar.

Cassidy was speechless and even a little bit turned on, he didn’t even hesitate and followed you down to the bar. You didn’t even notice that Cassidy had followed you to the bar because your fist was hurting like hell.

While looking at your knuckles you heard that Irish accent coming from behind you say, “you never punched someone before, have ya?” you chuckled and turned around “no I haven’t, didn’t know it would hurt this much” he offered a kind smile and said “ let’s get some ice for that hand yeah?” you nodded and smiled while you followed him to the back.

You guided him to where the freezer was in the back of the room, and he opened it and searched for something to cool your fist. Eventually he pulled up a frozen bag of vegetables and held it out for your hand.

When you took it from him and put it on your fist, you thanked him, he just nodded and smiled. There were a few seconds of silence, but it was a comfortable silence. You were both lost in each other’s eyes, until Mosie, the owner of Toadvine came through the door.

She was a sweet woman, always kind to you. She looked at the both of you and said “Y/N, you should get back to the bar, there are costumers” “Sorry! I’ll be right there!”. You looked at Cassidy and gave him a sad smile “Sorry! I really need to get back to work”.

He smiled back and said “Of course, I should get back to the game” he nodded his head towards the gambling room and chuckled. He started to walk out, and you said “see you ‘round” he winked and said “yeah, see you ‘round” then he was out the door.

You got back to work, it wasn’t that busy, but you liked it. When you had nothing to do, Cassidy kept drifting into your mind, and you could feel yourself smiling each time you thought about him.

He did the same, while playing poker he kept thinking about you, but the longer he did, the sadder he became. He thought he wasn’t good for you, you deserved better. Even if you liked him back, he would lose you, lose you to time or worse. He thought it was best to just let you be, you were still young, and you had your whole life ahead of you, and he was a 119-year-old vampire. So, he decided to just let you be.

So, when Cass got the offer to spend the night with a decent looking woman, he said yes. He could have average sex while thinking of you, he thought that at least was good enough. But he did not expect to get beaten and fall out the window.

You were putting some glasses on the shelves when you suddenly heard that there were lots of people in the “living room”, you slowly made your way to the crowd and listened to what was being said for the back of the crowd.

Of course, it was Tulip fighting with Clive, you listened to the whole fight, but when they were done you just shook your head in disappointment and made your way back to the bar. You didn’t really pay any more attention to your surroundings while you started cleaning the bar.

You got startled when you suddenly heard a window break and then a bang. Without thinking you sprinted up the stairs to see what had happened. You shoved Clive and that woman out of the way to see Tulip standing by the broken window.

You asked her what happened, she just answered “I-I thought it was Clive”. You didn’t understand what she meant so you went over to the window to see what she was talking about. That’s when you saw a man lying face down on the car with glass around him. You couldn’t see who it was at first until you realized it was Cassidy.

You turned to Tulip and said, “we need to take him to a hospital right now!” Tulip didn’t say anything, she just ran downstairs and helped you get Cassidy into her car. She drove to the hospital while you had Cassidy’s head in your lap in the backseat.

While Tulip was driving, you were panicking in the backseat. Cassidy had a huge glass piece lodged in his throat. You kept saying please, please don’t die. It seemed like he was drifting in and out of consciousness and you kept trying to keep him alive. Tulip was also panicking.

While trying to keep Cassidy from losing consciousness you heard her pray to “God”. You knew that she didn’t exactly believe in God, but she asked him to keep Cassidy alive, and if he did, she would be good.

You kept trying to stop the bleeding from his throat while you were freaking out and repeatedly saying “please make it” and “please don’t die”. From your lap Cassidy could see you were freaking out and couldn’t control your breathing. He actually thought you were cute while worrying about him.

You looked down at him again and you caught Cassidy looking up at you with a lazy and crooked smile. Without realizing you were smiling too.

At that moment it was as if everything was in slow motion for Cassidy, maybe it could be the blood loss? Either way, he was looking at the most beautiful woman he had ever seen, and he had already lived for 119 years. You looked so beautiful while the wind was blowing through some of the hair that was loose from your ponytail, you even had some blood on your face and neck, and your t-shirt was covered in his blood, but you looked breathtaking.

From the streetlights he could really see your features, your beautiful eyes that were looking right at him, he could easily get lost in them, he already had once. Your cute nose, and the way it was covered in small freckles. And, of course, your lips. Wow, he really craved those lips. He could kiss them all day long.

So, when Cassidy was looking at your lips, he couldn’t help himself when the words “kiss me” came out of his mouth. You thought that you heard him wrong, he looked you in the eyes again, and you softly muttered a “what”. He couldn’t help himself again when he repeted himself and said, “kiss me”.

When he said those two words, you crashed your lips to his. It was wonderful, euphoric even. It was like a new high for Cassidy, a drug he had never had before. Cass was out of his mind while you kissed him. He had kissed a lot of women in his time, but not like this. You felt like your lips fit like two puzzle pieces, they were meant for each other (you were meant for each other?)

The kiss felt like an eternity, but you had to stop so you could both catch your breath. When you opened your eyes again, Cassidy was looking up at you like an adorable puppy, you had such a grin on your face that you had to try to stop it by pulling you bottom lip between your teeth.

Without realizing, you were now at the hospital. You didn’t know it Tulip had seen what happened, or even heard it, but right now you couldn’t care less. She helped you getting Cassidy out of the car and into the hospital.

You and Tulip both sat him down in a chair and went to talk to the lady in the window. She tried to hand you a form to sign, and you and Tulip both said at the same time “are you crazy?!” Tulip started to explain that he needed to see a doctor now or else he would die. That’s when she asked “who”. You both turned around to look at Cassidy when you saw that he no longer sat in the chair, you couldn’t see him anywhere.

But you could see his blood trail, you and Tulip just looked at each other, then started to follow the blood trail. When you both got to the end of the trail, you were at a door. Tulip was the one to push the door open, and that’s when you saw him.

Cassidy was covered in even more blood than before and was sucking blood out of a blood-bag like it was a nice refreshing drink. You just stood there looking puzzled while Cassidy said “you were right love, I think I’m gonna make it”

- I think i’ll right a part 2 if people like this one!<3

- Also if you want, you can of course give me feedback if i should improve something or do something different!

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datauthorress · 5 years

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Ashes of Night [Chapter 5: Discussion]

Pairing: Arthur Morgan/Original Female Character

Summary: A young college student stumbles upon a man from the past, right in her very apartment. The man doesn't know why he's suddenly 119 years in the future, but maybe this is a second chance at a better life.

Warnings: Mentions of past self-harm.

Shelby was up early, unable to sleep any longer. She fed Kirby and Ghost, afterwards allowing Ghost to rest around her shoulders, occasionally flicking his tongue out near her cheek. It was his version of a kiss. He knew she was upset. She stroked the top of his head gently, before she went into the kitchen to make something for breakfast. She had a movie going on her laptop, something about some guy going to his old home to find out how some woman killed his wife. As she stirred eggs in a bowl, there was a knock on her door and she answered it, seeing Tripp and Dennis standing there.

“Hey,” Tripp said softly. “Can we come in?”

Shelby nodded and allowed the two inside her apartment, shutting the door behind them. She went back into the kitchen to start making French toast.

“Where's Arthur?” Dennis asked.

“Asleep.” Shelby replied, coating a piece of bread in egg and setting it on the skillet. “The drinking and the roofie knocked him out. He won't remember much when he wakes up.”

“That woman who drugged him....she admitted to it after five witnesses saw her slip the pill into his beer.” Tripp said.

“Then why didn't anyone come forward and tell someone before everything went to shit?” Shelby asked, irritation in her voice.

“Ah, well, two of them thought it was just their imagination and the other three said Arthur would be fine.” Dennis replied. “Obviously, they were wrong.”

Shelby shook slightly, keeping control of her anger. That was how people got hurt. Arthur could've gotten hurt, assaulted, or worse. And all because nobody wanted to come forward to help him. Figures. Humans were selfish creatures and didn't care about anyone else as long as it didn't affect them. She took a deep breath and put more egg-soaked bread on the pan until it was full.

“Go fucking figure.” she spat.

Tripp came forward, gently touching her cheek. “How's that face?”

“I'm fine. Sore, but I'm fine.” Shelby said, flipping a piece of French toast. While the others were cooking, she began cutting up some fruit for a fruit salad. The next half hour was mostly silent, as they ate and shared a few thoughts among each other.

“I'm sorry, Shelby.” Dennis apologized.

“What for?” she asked, getting up to put the cutting board and the knife in the sink.

“I....might've told Arthur about your wrists.”

Shelby paused, holding the handle of the knife in her hand. She was quiet, before she slowly turned to Dennis, rage in her eyes. “You told him what?”

“I....I told him about your wrists. I didn't know if you had told him yet, or-”

“My wrists are none of your fucking business, Dennis!”

Dennis flinched as the young woman shouted at him, obviously quite angry with him. Shelby gritted her teeth, tightening her grip on the large handle of the knife. “It took me three years, three fucking years to even let you guys in to tell you what hell I went through! And you know what? It's not getting any fucking better! My sister constantly abuses me, and harasses me on every social media we share. I had to fucking delete AND block her because my anxiety was so bad. I'm not ready to tell Arthur about my 'so called past'. I was abused. Big fucking deal. It happens to most people, and my abuse isn't valid. So, the next time you think about telling someone about a personal matter I have, fucking think it through!”

Shelby turned back to the sink, her shoulders trembling.

“Shelby-”

“Shut up! Just fucking shut up, Dennis! I'm sick and tired of your whining and your bickering about shit that I do, and you getting into my personal business!” she shouted again, raising the knife in her hand. “Fucking leave it alone!”

She brought the knife down on the counter, blade down first and suddenly screamed.

The knife clattered to the tile floor, blood splattering across it. Shelby had put the knife down so hard, her hand slipped and ran down the blade of the knife, cutting her left hand open, quite deeply. Tripp quickly grabbed a towel and wrapped it around her hand, as blood gushed from the wound and tears streamed down her cheeks.

“Dennis, stay here! I'm taking her to the hospital!” Tripp said to his husband, grabbing Shelby's purse and helping her put her shoes on before he quickly guided her down to his car.

Once they got to the hospital, Shelby was a bit light-headed from blood loss and pain. She was quickly taken to the back and set on a bed, where a couple of nurses and a doctor came in to inspect her hand. It had sliced through deeply, even all the way beside her thumb. The wound was cleaned and stitched up, as well as wrapped up. The doctor wrote her a prescription for pain medication and had her stay just so she could blood back in her body. Once she was released, Tripp drove her home and helped her inside.

“Jesus.....how many stitches?” Dennis asked.

“About ten.” Tripp replied, setting her down at the kitchen table. It wasn't even fucking noon yet. “I'm gonna go grab your medicine, be back soon.” he said, heading out again to get her medicine.

Shelby sat silently for a long moment, before she sniffled and got up, walking down the hallway to Arthur's room. The door was open, but the bathroom light was on and she heard retching noises. She knocked on the door, alerting him of her presence and walked inside, seeing the older man hunched over the toilet, vomiting anything and everything he had in his system.

Shelby grabbed a clean washcloth, and got it wet, making sure it was cold. Ignoring the pain in her hand, she knelt down beside him and placed the wet cloth across the back of his neck. Arthur jumped and shivered visibly, groaning softly.

“C-cold...” he groaned.

“I know. But it helps.” Shelby sighed softly, rubbing his back with her other hand.

After Arthur had finished throwing up, Shelby got him a cold glass of water and a couple of aspirin to help with his hangover. He swallowed the pills down with water and stood up, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. He glanced down at the young woman, and noticed the bandages around her hand and wrists. “What happened t' yer hand?” he asked.

“I'll tell you later. C'mon, there's food left.” she said, leaving the bathroom.

Arthur followed her out into the kitchen, where she gestured to the food on the counter. He made his way over to the counter and grabbed up a plate, watching as she walked over to the two men he had met last night.

“I think we're gonna go ahead and leave....we've got some stuff to do today.” Tripp spoke.

“Okay.” Shelby nodded.

The two exchanged hugs, but she didn't hug Dennis. She only gave a nod to him, and turned back to the kitchen once the men were gone. “We're going to get my service dog today. They finally was able to get him through approval.”

“Finally?” he asked.

“Yeah.” she replied.

“What happened t' yer hand, darlin'?” Arthur questioned, his eyebrows scrunching in worry.

“Had a little accident with a knife a few hours ago, some stitches, but I'm fine.” she replied, sitting down at the table and sipping down the rest of her soda. “Arthur....do you remember anything from last night?”

Arthur swallowed the fruit in his mouth, thinking deeply to what happened. The last thing he remembered was....ah, yeah. He remembered talking to Shelby that morning, about going up to South Bend for the day and going out for a drink afterwards. But after that, he didn't remember anything. It was just....nothing.

“I 'member when we talked about going up to South Bend....but after that, I don' remember.” he replied, shaking his head.

“I figured as much....” Shelby sighed heavily, running her good hand through her hair. “You were drugged, Arthur. Roofied, by a woman.”

“Drugged?” he questioned, shock evident in his voice. “By a....wha'?”

“Roofied, or Rohypnol. It's a drug that's used in other countries to treat sleeping, but here, in the US, it's a date-rape drug. It causes a person to seem like they're drunk, dizziness, loss of motor skills and muscles, and even unconsciousness. It's a widely used drug that people use to rob or sexually assault their victims, most times to sexually assault and the victim, 99 percent of the time, doesn't remember what happened.” Shelby explained, her fingers curling into fists. “The woman who drugged you admitted to it, but not before her and I got into a fight.”

“Jesus.....I can't believe this.....” Arthur shook his head, rubbing his temples. His headache was still there, but it was going away, slowly but surely. He was tired and a bit sluggish, but he felt fine otherwise.

“I'm sorry I couldn't stop it from happening, but you weren't hurt or assaulted, so....” Shelby's voice trailed off, and she looked away, a bit uncomfortable.

“Have ya ever....?” he began, but didn't want to get into her personal business.

“No, never. I don't go out to bars very often, so I've kept myself from getting drugged.” she replied. “Well....are you done eating?”

Arthur gave a nod and went to his room to get dressed. He was....concerned. Shelby was acting a bit odd, much more than usual. The way she explained how her hand got wounded, just didn't seem right. He wanted to know what really happened, but there was no way she would tell him without some convincing. He was worried, but he would not force her to tell him anything until she was ready.

He met her in the living room, where she had all of her paperwork in a filing folder and looked absolutely ready to go. She would have gotten her service dog a month ago, but there was a higher up within the company that was giving Shelby more trouble than she needed, until the higher up's boss forced them to get the application through, since it was a necessary for Shelby's PTSD. They locked up the apartment and headed off to South Bend.

When they got there, they informed the receptionist that they were there and the receptionist happily put them through, congratulating Shelby on her approval. The two adults waited in the waiting room, Shelby bouncing her leg nervously. Soon enough, around 1:30, a young woman, a bit older than Shelby, came out with a clipboard.

“Shelby?” she called.

Shelby and Arthur got up and headed into the room, introducing themselves. The woman was extremely happy to be the one to help them, as the last person who was helping them was the one who denied the application.

“Why was the application denied?” Shelby asked, arching an eyebrow.

“Morgan, I believe her name was....said that 'I know that girl. Even now, she's such a piece of shit and deserves to suffer'.” the young woman replied.

“Morgan....oh, oh....” Shelby frowned.

“What is it?” Arthur asked.

“I went to school with a girl named Morgan. She severely bullied me into believing I was nothing.” Shelby replied, and shook her head. “How did she manage to get into a job like this?”

“Well, she lied on her resume and said she enjoyed working with animals, especially service dogs. But what we didn't know is that her father had a service dog because of the war and she frequently abused the dog, to where it attacked her brutally and the dog had to be put down. Her father eventually committed suicide because of violent nightmares and Morgan blamed the dog ever since. Said she wanted to 'cleanse the world' of violent animals....especially Pit Bulls.” the young woman replied with a sigh. “Morgan has since been institutionalized.”

“Holy shit.” Arthur blurted.

“My thoughts exactly.” the young woman nodded. “Are you ready to meet him?”

Shelby nodded and the woman left the room, soon coming back with a beautiful white German Shepherd, about three years old. His eyes were a beautiful chocolate brown and his bushy tail was wagging in excitement. The young woman let the shepherd walk over to Shelby, sniffing her knee, and then her hand.

“Hi, boy.” Shelby said softly, smiling gently.

The big animal gently placed his large paws on Shelby's lap, leaning up to lick at her cheek. Shelby's eyes watered and she stifled a sob, reaching up to scratch behind the dog's ears. The dog whined softly and licked at her cheek again, as tears rolled down her cheeks.

“H-he's perfect.” Shelby whispered.

The other woman smiled and nodded. Within a half-hour, the paperwork was sighed and put on record and Shelby named her service dog Panzer, after her mom's old dog who passed away from old age. Panzer was smart, friendly and didn't allow anyone to pet him unless Shelby said it was alright. As soon as they got home, Shelby made sure Panzer went to the bathroom and cleaned up the mess he made, before she and Arthur headed up to the apartment.

Panzer and Kirby sniffed each other, before she rubbed herself against his front legs and Panzer gently nudged her. Shelby smiled softly and kicked off her boots near the door, before hanging up her shoulder purse.

“Shelby?”

The young woman glanced over at Arthur, arching a brow. “Yeah?”

“Wha' really happened t' yer hand?” he asked.

Shelby paused for a moment, before she let out a barely audible sigh. “I got mad at Dennis and I slammed the knife down, enough for my hand to slip. Ten stitches, and this all happened before noon.”

“Jesus Christ.” he said softly.

“Yeah, well.....my emotions get the better of me sometimes.” she shrugged, and once more, Arthur found himself hating the way she just dismissed the situation. “I'm gonna email my professors about what happened, and to let them know you might have to come with me to school for a couple weeks. I can't really lift anything too heavy with my hand, as the stitches could open if I put too much pressure on them.”

The older man closed the distance between them, his hands coming up to her. Shelby was startled as his large hands enveloped her wrists, brushing over the faint but still visible silvery scars there. Her skin was too pale compared to his, but he could see the scars all too well. Shelby glanced down for a moment, looking uncomfortable.

“Ya know you can talk t' me, right?” He said, thumbs stroking the inside of her wrists lightly. “I'm not pushing ya, darlin'. But I am worried 'bout ya.”

“You shouldn't be....I'm okay.” Shelby said quietly.

Arthur gave her a look that clearly said 'Really'. Shelby looked away once more, letting out a quiet sigh. She couldn't keep it hidden forever, and Arthur was bound to find out sooner or later.

“I....I used to self-harm.” she replied after a few moments of silence. “From the bullying in school, to my sister tormenting me....it just became too much. When mom and dad found out, I was in a really bad place...they helped me get the courage to go get some help, and....I'm doing better. The urge still comes sometimes, especially under moments of intense stress, but I haven't self-harmed since I was 23.”

Arthur glanced down to her wrists again, running his thumbs over the silvery scars gently. He knew she was ashamed of the scars, but everyone went through a bad time. She seemed a bit relieved, like a great weight had been lifted from her shoulders. He slowly brought up a wrist to his lips and placed a gentle, whisper of a kiss on the skin there. Shelby's cheeks burned a soft shade of red.

“Yer a strong woman, Shelby. Don' forget that.”

Shelby couldn't help but relax at his words.

#fic: ashes of night #Shelby Hartford/Arthur Morgan #arthur morgan x original female character #red dead redemption 2

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Prompt possible ideas

made groups of prompts, these are possible ideas, possible characters/scenarios listed. Up for changes/ suggestions..

Possible Prompt groups

Loki

169 “There’s a snake in my boot. No, I’m serious. Why is there a snake in my boot?”

27 “I want to go home.” “And I want to go to the moon. It ain’t happening sweetheart. Time to accept that.”

99 “Rule number one: don’t bother sucking up. I already hate you, that’s not going to change.”

195 “Please, be gentle with me. I’ll break if you aren’t careful enough.”

Loki

191 “I’m begging you. Please.”

3 “Right now, I don’t know if I want to kiss you or shove you off a bridge” “Can I pick?”

115 “I’m not shy. I’m just examining my prey.”

28 “Sometimes, memories are the worst torture.”

Saving Loki possibly

348 “Are you SURE I can’t punch him in the face?” “Yes.” “What if I break his nose a little?”

329 “Are we going to carry on like this or are you going to give him back to me.”

281 “Ah, well if you want them back alive, I suggest you lay down your own life.”

67 “The female of the species is more deadly than the male.”

Loki

228 “You stood up for me.”

260 “You could’ve- could’ve stayed. You could’ve helped me fix things.”

319 “Next time, I won’t be here to salvage your wreckage. This is the last time.”

238 “Stab me. No, seriously. Stab me.”

Loki trying to convince himself/you he doesn’t care about you

222 “I prefer being alone.”

215 “I don’t care! I don’t!”

10 “You have no power over me.” “You sure about that?”

301 “Time was always a measurement of this relationship and we finally ran out.”

Loki trying to find out which one of you/robot double a villain created is real, says You love Me, you blush he shoots the other as she tries to object

79 “Good, bad, I’m the one with the gun.”

81 “You’re insane, but you might also be brilliant.”

240 “But I’m not her.”

257 “If you had have kept your mouth shut, then he’d still- he’d still be here!”

Loki possibly

48 “Frankly my dear, I don’t give a damn.”

71 “I already know that I’m going to hell. At this point it’s really go big or go home.”

14 “You’re not as evil as people think you are.” “No. I’m much worse.”

126 “Such big evil in such a little thing.”

64 “Even when we were kids, I always kicked your ass!”

241 “I need you to see yourself as I do.”

96 “You haven’t even seen my bad side yet.”

129 “Oh honey, I would but… I don’t want to.”

259 “Now I have to deal with the consequences of your actions. Thanks, it means a lot.”

376 “Why me?” “Because you saw me when I was invisible.”

342 “After the funeral, let’s surrender.”

91 “Idiots. I’m surrounded by idiots.”

85 “Why does everyone assume the worst of me.” “It saves time.”

217 “This pain… it’s still fresh. Give me time.”

190 “I’m surrendering myself to you; body and soul. What more do you want?”

103 “Have fun being a big deal.” “I will.”

218 “Your memory will burn like a fire.”

361 “Hey, I didn’t kill anyone today!” “What do you want? A gold star.”

339 “Kiss me quick and leave them be.”

164 “I know the police.” “What? You know all the police?” “Well, it’s more like they know me.”

315 “You are everything I hate, don’t ever come back.”

369 “I’m fine.” “You don’t look fine.” “Then stop looking.”

68 “Don’t look in her eyes, she might steal your soul.”

244 “Let’s do something spontaneous!”

183 “We are in this together – for better or for worse, do you hear me? I’m not giving up that easily.”

184 “You don’t even have to hold me, and I still feel safe with you.”

12 “Excuse me! I was a superhero for ten whole minutes!” “And in that time you got kidnapped and we had to come to the rescue”

9 “I’d rather be pecked to death by a flock of hummingbirds.”

186 “I’m vulnerable around you, and it only gets worse when you smile.”

188 “I always come back to you.”

258 “What did you want once this was all through? Tell me!”

200 “Take it – I don’t care. Take it all!”

…

Bucky/Thor/Loki, staying in motel waiting on team to get you/noisy neighbors you snuggle with him when you get scared

344. ‘There is only one bed.’

105. Don’t make me come over there myself!

129. Are you cold?

329. ‘Wake up, please.’

…

Walking in on Thor/Loki singing as they bake for holidays/birthday possibly

246. “you really need to go.”

185. “hello? it’s me. i was-”

283. “Hey, I said stop!”

390. ‘I didn’t know you could sing.’

Dating superhero

332 “You’ve never been loved, I can tell.”

21 “Wait, you’re a superhero?” “How do you not know? My face is literally on the news on a weekly basis.” “I’m in grad school. I won’t have time to follow popular media until I finish my thesis. You’re lucky I’ve carved out some non-existent free time to date you.”

278 “How is it that we always end up in this predicament?”

51 “Excuse me. I have to go make a scene.”

Bucky

243 “What are you running from? Why are you so scared?”

74 “I’m not a damsel in distress. I’m a damsel doing damage.”

131 “I’m gonna make you wish you were dead.”

22 “I’m just really tired of watching you get thrown off the tops of buildings”

Bucky?

210 “Sometimes we get hurt and we just have to find a way to overcome it, and sometimes… sometimes it’s not enough to heal the wounds.”

263 “I hope I’m not put in the same part of hell as you.”

216 “There are times I can drink the pain away, but this time it’s become impossible.”

100 “Oh God, we’re not gonna have to hug or anything, are we.”

Bucky

316 “Evil doesn’t come close.”

53 “I heard that!” “You were supposed to!”

40 “She may seem like lollipops and rainbows but I bet behind close doors she’s latex and whips.”

152 “I’m trapped under the bed again.” “What do you mean ‘again’?”

Dwalin possibly

357 “What are you afraid of?” “You.”

149 “I did not eat the cookies. I’ve never even seen a cookie in my life.”

390 “Neither one us is drunk enough for this conversation.”

292 “I hope I see you in a body bag sometime.”

Drunken modern Thorin arguing over losing a game possibly

293 “Let’s pretend you didn’t cheat on me with my sister and be good people for a few minutes.”

43 “I don’t think I could ever stab someone. I mean, let’s be honest. I can barely get the straw in the Capri Sun.”

358 “I don’t give a damn.” “You give so many damns they’re visible from SPACE.”

213 “Don’t stop.”

Thorin

279 “I want to wipe that grin of your face with my sword, but my mother taught me to play nicely.”

45 “Insanity runs in my family. It practically gallops.”

93 “I care so little, I almost passed out.”

69 “She’s hot, but she’s evil.”

Thorin Possibly/Thranduil

379 “You know, no one bothered me this much when I was dead.”

312 “Nothing can justify this, you’ve ruined him.”

364 “I saved your life.” “You pushed me off a building.”

226 “Don’t go too far, alright? I wanna be able to catch up to you, just give me time.”

Thorin modern break up drunken after call possibly

225 “Fuck, I wish I could give you one more kiss, to feel your warmth, to see you smile… I miss you so much.”

237 “I’m sorry, was I supposed to laugh?”

153 “I shouldn’t have to tell you not to eat that.”

204 “I don’t even remember the last time I got a decent amount of sleep. I’m hallucinating things, I can’t focus for more than five minutes… I’m going crazy.”

Modern Thorin Possibly

87 “You successfully cured him/her of anything interesting about his/her personality.”

344 “It’ll be fun explaining this to your sister. I hope she likes horror stories.”

167 “Elbows and knees. That’s the fight club motto.” “No, it’s really not.”

368 “You look…” “Beautiful, I know. Can we move on?”

Fili/Kili possibly

111 “I know most people don’t like me; I don’t care, I don’t like most people.”

203 “Would you look at that? Anger does fuel me.”

143 “Sex dream? About you? Nah…it was about, uh, my uncle!”

119 “Ah, he’s playing hard-to-get. That’s cute.”

Modern Fili/Kili comes to visit, keeps ruining your snuggling moments

370 “You gotta stop doing that.” “What?” “Saying things that make me wanna kiss you.”

120 “You’re kinda anti-social, you know that?”

130 “And hello to you too… little homewrecker.”

372 “I hate you.” “Why? I’m lovely.”

…

Fili modern possibly

285. “Wanna go out sometime?”

242. “why didn’t you tell me?”

173. “everything will fall into place.”

350. ‘Let’s ditch this place and do something fun!’

…

Modern Fili/Kili drunk in park – rickety rope bridge maybe

251. “I can’t do this.”

313. ‘That’s not what I meant!’

150. Didn’t you read the sign?

83. Are you drunk?

Thranduil

180 “I don’t belong in your universe.”

63 “I’m gonna hit you so hard, it’ll make you ancestors dizzy.”

248 “This will be the last time you lie to me.”

249 “You know it’s not like that.”

Not sure

77 “This place hold a lot of memories for me. Some bad, some… No. No, no, all bad.”

355 “You don’t strike me as a professional criminal.” “That’s what makes me so good at it.”

323 “This is always how it ends.”

326 “This isn’t Romeo and Juliet, this is real life and I can go on without you.”

Fight

199 “Never trust a man whose smile steals the breath right from your lungs.”

72 “Go on, knock his teeth down his throat.”

15 “Why do you keep risking your life? To prove a point?” “Yes.”

62 “Wow, there’s a big surprise. I think I’m going to have a heart attack and die from surprise.”

Not sure

321 “No one will keep your name alive. Once you’re gone, everything you once stood for disappears too.”

78 “A little gasoline… blowtorch… no problem.”

350 “She’s my best friend. That hasn’t changed.” “It’s clear your feelings for her has.”

313 “You live with so much guilt, I hope it drives you mad one of these days.”

Not sure Lost, found message at destination

145 “The punch was out of love. For myself.”

46 “Oh darling. Go buy a brain.”

168 “I don’t get lost. I take the long way.”

224 “If you’re reading this then that means… that means I didn’t make it. I’m sorry.”

Modern Picked up at a bar

2 “Can I buy you a drink?”

234 “Daddy.”

374 “Literally everything about this is illegal.”

272 “We’re never going to have a happy ending, just remember that.”

…

Character sabotages tickets so them/oc/reader is stuck just one more night

234. “then you tell me why.”

378. ‘Just this once.’

264. “So, it was you.”

367. ‘Let’s go to bed.’

…

Baby sitting – story time

155. “and then everything just disappears.”

366. ‘Just breathe.’

123. I haven’t slept in four days…

21. Thanks for nothing.

Francis

196 “I promise I’ll be tender.”

214 “Please, just… touch me.”

176 “Who knew bear traps were that common?”

137 “This is fun.” “Seriously, we’re trying to hide a body.”

…

Francis

343. ‘I’m never letting go.’

291. “Sorry, were you sleeping?”

249. “Please, come with me.”

365. ‘Look what I found!’

…

Francis

361. ‘You’re cold.’

268. “Alright, I love you.”

369. ‘Let’s go exploring!’

73. Oh, Are you ticklish?

…

Francis/loki possibly, kidnapped to avoid you being harmed/taken

14. You’re a disappointment.

260. “I can’t trust you.”

144. Put me down!

43. You’re special to me.

…

Francis possibly

258. “Who were you with?”

23. Why did you spare me?

352. ‘Today is a new day.’

20. Please don’t hurt me like this.

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Volume 4, Chapter 2: Where the Journey Takes Us

Part 2: Pages 105 – 119

Lahna had apparently picked out the hotel while Sora reserved us rooms. They really are reliable.

We reserved two rooms, so we divided ourselves into two groups – me, Lahna, and Maria, then Sora and Jared.

“I apologize for being unable to reserve a room for one – there were not many empty rooms available,” Sora said, but personally I was a little happy because it felt like I was on a school trip like in my past life.

In this life, I’ve always had my own room after all. So, I got excited on entering the room.

“Would it be alright for me to take this bed?” I ask excitedly.

I jump on the bed once I get permission.

Normally, I wouldn’t really do something like that (since Anne would get mad at me), but the excitement of a school trip has gotten me pretty cheerful.

Maria looks surprised at my actions. Lahna smiles, saying “You look like you’re having fun.”

But when I happen to meet the eyes of the bear standing next to Lahna, it looks down at me condescendingly in contempt again.

Seriously, what a nasty bear.

After verifying the state of our rooms, we eat dinner in the dining hall.

I grow even more excited as together, we cheerfully eat dishes I’ve never seen before…

“Ah, this looks good. This does too. Oh, and this.”

… and end up eating way too much. Jared did warn me midway through that I would get a stomach-ache if I ate too much, but I was just so excited his warning went through one ear and out the other.

At times like this, if Keith were with me, he would look at me coldly and forcibly remove food from my grasp, saying “You’re eating too much, sis.”

… But Keith isn’t with me right now – and so, by the time I returned to my room, my stomach was very full and it was painful for me to even move.

Jared looked at me like he was thinking that things turned out the way he expected. The bear shot me a cold gaze that made me feel like it was calling me stupid.

… I’ll be more careful from now on.

Somehow avoiding throwing up, I return to my room. But even standing up was a struggle, so I lay down on my bed, waiting for my stomach to finish digesting.

In all honesty, I wanted to go talk about girl things with Lahna and Maria after this and had expected that would be tonight’s main event… but my stomach hurts so much there’s no way I can do that. I’m sad.

And as I was moaning on the bed, gripping my stomach, Lahna says “I have something to do, so I’ll be going,” and leaves.

Perhaps she went out to see night tourist attractions?

After moaning on the bed for a while, before I knew it, I fell asleep.

When I wake up, the room is dark, lit only by the light of a lamp.

It seems that Lahna is still out. Only Maria is sitting on her bed. She’s probably already wearing her nightwear – she’s changed into a comfortable one-piece dress-like piece of clothing. Her golden hair, illuminated by the lamp, seemed paler than usual, letting out a sexier feel that felt different than normal.

As I admire Maria despite myself, she notices my gaze or something and looks towards me.

“You’ve woken up? Is your stomach feeling fine now?” she asks, her expression rather saint-like.

I kind of feel embarrassed.

“I’m fine! I’m completely better!” I cry, jumping up from bed with a needless amount of energy.

“I’m glad,” Maria says, smiling happily.

As I gaze at Maria’s amazing smile, I think again that Maria really is an alluring woman.

I was shocked at her adorableness when I first saw her at the academy, but I feel like the closer we get, the more alluring Maria becomes.

At first, I thought that she was just what I expected from an otome game’s protagonist – she was born with amazing features… but that wasn’t the case.

Everything good about Maria is all stuff she obtained herself through her hard work, not things she had to begin with due to being the protagonist. When I realized this, I started to feel like Maria was even more amazing than before.

I love Maria, who’s so kind, considerate, and hard-working. If I were a guy, I would definitely want her to be my wife.

Whenever I think this, it’s truly a mystery to me that the game ended with a friendship ending.

How could Maria, splendid as she is, not have gotten together with anyone? I had even thought it wouldn’t be strange if she got a harem ending.

Either the men around me have no eye for women, or they’re hesitating because don’t know how to confess to her.

Even though if the latter were true, I would definitely give them advice if they came to me.

After all, even though I’ve had zero experience with romance in both this life and my last, I’ve gained a plethora of knowledge from manga and, otome games, along with the romance novels I’ve read in this world. So I’m sure that I’d be able to give great advice.

In both this life and my last, no one has come asking me for romantic advice. Even when I try to ask the girls myself when we’re talking about girly things, they just avoid the question and say, “I like you, Katarina-sama.”

I really have no experience with romance in real life.

But well, we’re staying somewhere new for once after all. Today for sure, I want to talk with Maria about romantic stuff. Alright, here I go!

“Um, Maria, do you – huh? Maria, what are you doing?”

When I look at Maria again after I resolve to start talking about romantic stuff, Maria looks to be doing something.

“Ah, yes, I’m just cleaning him a little,” says Maria, gesturing at the bear plopped on her knee. It looks as though she’s carefully wiping the bear with a cloth.

She looks rather cheerful, as if she’s having fun, and the bear looks rather content as well.

“He’s just so cute, isn’t he?” she says, petting the ugly thing caringly.

It’s true that while its face is rather ugly, it acts rather cute (to anyone other than me). Maria seems to have completely fallen for this bear just after one day.

As Maria pets the bear, it snuggles against her knee. It’s acting rather adorable.

It kind of makes me pretty angry. As I stare at the bear in an ill temper, our eyes meet.

The bear’s expression changes – and it’s clear that it means to say, “You’re jealous, aren’t you.”

It seriously makes me angry. And really, what’s been with this bear’s attitude from the first time we met!?

It acts all adorable around other people, but it acts completely differently just around me.

I glared at the bear to the best of my ability. But seeing my glare, Maria completely misunderstands.

“Ah, Katarina-sama, you want to touch him too, don’t you? Here you go,” she says, handing me the bear.

No, I don’t want it. I’m happy that Maria is so considerate, but I don’t think this bear is cute in the slightest.

But I can’t tell Maria, who holds out the bear so cheerfully, that I don’t want it. So I take the bear. The bear makes a disgusted expression when Maria probably can’t see it.

You damn bear, it’s not like I’m doing this because I want to either.

However, the bear seems to have read the atmosphere and obediently sits on my knee.

But when Maria leaves to go to the bathroom a little while later, the bear immediately jumps off of my knee and dusts off its bottom as if it had been sitting on something dirty.

Angry again at its attitude, I dust off where the bear had been sitting on my knee, not wanting to lose.

Then the bear looks at me condescendingly again, and this time, even shrugs in a way that makes it look like it’s sighing.

“W–what is with your attitude!?” I can’t help but cry.

The bear looks at me even more condescendingly.

It seems completely different from the person – or rather bear – that had been snuggling against Maria’s knee just a little while ago.

As I and this bear who won’t stop looking at me condescendingly continue glaring at each other (though I’m the only one glaring since the bear just continues to look at me condescendingly), Maria returns.

Then noticing the distance between the bear and I, she asks innocently, “Oh, Katarina-sama, you’ve already had enough of him?”

“Yes, I’ve had enough,” I say, giving the bear back to Maria.

“Well then, maybe tonight I’ll sleep with him,” she says, hugging the bear. It looks happy, rather like a spoiled child.

How quickly it changes gears. It had just been looking down on me moments ago, but I can’t see it as anything but a cute mascot now. What an excellent wolf in sheep’s clothing – despite being a bear.

In the end, the bear went under the sheets, still hugged by Maria.

And so, I decide to change into my sleepwear as well and crawl into bed.

“Ha ha.”

I hear Maria’s cute laughter a short while after I go to bed.

“What’s the matter, Maria?” I ask.

“I’m just kind of really happy,” she responds.

“Happy?”

Happy about what? About being about to sleep with the bear? Does Maria like the bear that much?

That bullying, two-faced jerk of a bear…

“Yes. Before entering the academy, I didn’t have any friends, so I’ve never slept with anyone like this other than relatives. So I just ended up getting really happy.”

Oh, so that’s what she meant. I let my animosity towards the bear get the better of me.

“… Oh, my apologies. Saying something so inconsiderate a time like this when Keith-sama is missing…” Maria says apologetically.

“I’ve been starting to think this is a bit fun too,” I confess. Maria snickers again.

I kind of feel quite happy that Maria feels the same as me.

“Hey, if we get the chance, let’s go out again together. Next time, we can invite Mary and Sophia and be with everyone,” I say.

“Yes,” Maria responds immediately. Then after a short while, she continues, “Katarina-sama, before meeting you at the academy, I would always get very lonely whenever I went to bed. But now, I always get very happy, and I always feel like I’m having fun.”

Maria seems like she’s always having fun and has a lot more friends now, but before she started school, she probably had a tough childhood. Considering that, I’m glad that she can be happy like this now. Yes, yes.

“So it’s thanks to you that I can be like this right now.”

I was shocked. What, why is it thanks to me!? Is Maria half-asleep perhaps? She must be well on her way to sleep after going under the covers!

“W-what are you saying, Maria, there’s no way that’s true! Maria, you’re the way you are today because you did your best – I haven’t done a thing!” I respond in a fluster.

I see Maria’s cheeks redden even in the dimly lit room. I can also see her eyes are wet.

Huh? Is she yawning? And what’s with her blushing?

“… Katarina-sama, please let me always be by your side,” she says, her words almost like a confession. She turns to me with her wet eyes too – I can’t help but blush as well.

“… Yes.”

My tone of voice kind of betrays me.

No, it’s just that Maria is just much too alluring.

If we keep on gazing at each other, talking, I get the feeling that I’ll seriously venture into a world I rather shouldn’t, so I lay back down and close my eyes.

The moment I close my eyes and lay down, perhaps because I spent the whole day running around excitedly, I immediately feel very tired. I fall deep asleep in moments.

In the end, I never did find out when Lahna came back.

On a side note, I only realized the next morning that I missed out on my chance to talk about romantic stuff.

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Ranking the 12 NFL playoff teams from worst to first

Playtime's over. The little kids have gone home for their nuggets and chips and an early bedtime, leaving the big boys to play their big boy games. Let the 2018 NFL playoffs begin.

There was plenty of high drama to close the regular season, with the Baltimore Ravens needing a last-ditch interception to seal a win over Cleveland and take the AFC North over the Pittsburgh Steelers, who had squeaked past the Cincinnati Bengals earlier in the day.

In the NFC the Vikings relinquished their grip of the sixth seed with defeat by the Bears and let the champion Eagles in the back door. Now Nick Foles has the opportunity to go and do it all again.

With a week's break before the Colts and Texans, Chargers and Ravens, Eagles and Bears, and Seahawks and Cowboys battle it out on wild card weekend, we've ranked the last 12 teams standing in the NFL by how likely they are to win the grand prize. Here they are, from worst to first ...

The Eagles are the wild card of this season's playoffs, and I don't just mean in the sense that they are literally a wild card team. They looked dead and buried just a few short weeks ago. The season had been written off as a colossal disappointment. Then Carson Wentz suffered a back injury, Nick Foles was back in, and he was beating the Rams in their own building - just as he did on the way to the Super Bowl.

Make no mistake, Wentz is a better quarterback than Foles, but Foles is the one the Eagles need right now. Sometimes narrative trumps all reason. What Foles has done, though, is get the best out of Alshon Jeffery and Nelson Agholor, who had both been struggling with Wentz under centre. Zach Ertz had been doing the brunt of the work in the receiving game, breaking the season receptions record for a tight end in the process, but Foles has spread the love a little, and is offering more of a deep threat. Maybe it's because he's playing with nothing to lose.

Logic says Philadelphia can't defend their title. Beating the Bears in wild card weekend feels like an insurmountable task. But sport isn't always logical. Just ask Leicester City.

The Colts have been one of the most fun teams in the league this year, and no one really saw it coming. We all cautiously hoped Andrew Luck might get somewhere close to being the same player we all fell in love with five years ago, but no one predicted him leading the Colts to 10 wins and into January football. Luck has been aided by the best offensive line and running game he's had the pleasure to work with, but he deserves all the headlines. He's been excellent, and appears to be a smarter quarterback for his time on the sidelines.

The Colts went into the offseason with the sole aim of building a team to protect Luck. They drafted Quenton Nelson and created an line which has kept him sack-free in six of his 16 games. Most crucially, they've given him time in the pocket, which is when he's at his best. Not even a wide receiver room full of potentially made up players has been able to stop him.

The defense has also been an extremely pleasant surprise. They finished the season just outside the top 10 in yards allowed, and didn't let a rusher go over 100 all season. Rookie linebacker Darius Leonard deserves a special mention - the second-rounder leads the league in tackles and his Pro Bowl snub is a total crime. Will the Colts find themselves overmatched at some point in the postseason? Probably. But the future is extremely bright in Indianapolis once again.

10. Dallas Cowboys

Dak Prescott celebrates a touchdown pass in the Cowboys' win over the Giants Credit: USA TODAY

If you're looking for a reason the Cowboys can win the Super Bowl, go back and watch their win over the Saints a few weeks back. That was the best defensive display I've seen from any NFL team all season. Dallas utterly dominated Drew Brees, words you rarely get to utter without ridicule, and then punished them on the ground with Ezekiel Elliott. That's exactly the blueprint for the Cowboys' success into January. If the likes of Jaylon Smith, Byron Jones, Leighton Vander Esch and Randy Gregory can play to the elite level they were during Dallas' five-game winning streak, they know Elliott will provide the goods to pound teams into submission when Dak Prescott has the ball.

Speaking of Prescott, is there a more underrated, or more unfairly maligned quarterback in football? Last week he became the first QB ever to win at least 30 games and throw fewer than 25 interceptions in his first three seasons. The comeback over the Giants on Sunday was his 14th game-winning drive of his career - no one has more since he entered the league - and it also marked his third straight season with 20 passing and five rushing touchdowns. No other quarterback in history even has two.

The Cowboys' issue is in their coaching - I have no faith in Jason Garrett to take them to the Super Bowl, and think he is probably foiled by Pete Carroll on wild card weekend, but hey, stranger things have happened, right?

9. Houston Texans

DeAndre Hopkins has 115 catches and zero drops for the Texans this season Credit: USA TODAY

The Texans have one very clear problem - Deshaun Watson can't stop getting sacked. Part of that is on the offensive line, which has been far better at run blocking than pass protection, but Watson is still guilty of holding on to the ball too long, and that's why he's taken an absolute battering this year - 62 sacks to be exact, the most in the NFL.

However, outside of that the Texans have a lot going for them. Watson has been one of the best quarterbacks in the league over the second half of the season, and hasn't thrown an interception since week 11 against the Redskins. His mobility in the pocket is a joy to watch, and he's hurting teams in the running game too - three rushing touchdowns in the last two weeks may be a sign of things to come in January.

It's in the running game that Houston have built the majority of their success. They're eighth in the league in rushing yards, with Lamar Miller enjoying one of the best seasons of his seven-year career. They rush the ball 45.5 per cent of the time, the sixth most in the NFL, and follow the old school philosophy of grinding teams down on both sides of the ball. The defense in top 10 in the league in yards and points allowed.

Finally, I can't talk about the Texans without mentioning DeAndre Hopkins, who's been the best receiver in the league this year for my money. Hopkins has 115 catches for 1,572 yards and 11 touchdowns. Want to know how many drops he has? Zero. Hopkins is so good it's often safer to throw to him in coverage than to another receiver when open. An incredible talent.

8. Seattle Seahawks

Chris Carson has helped turn the Seahawks into the league's best rushing attack Credit: AP

The Seahawks have the same philosophy as the Texans, except they do it just a little bit better. Seattle run the ball more than 50 per cent of the time - that's the most in the NFL - and the result is they lead the league in rushing yards. Chris Carson is the workhorse - a real tough, never-say-die back who anyone would want on their roster - but Mike Davis and Rashaad Penny are excellent second and third options.

No one saw the Seahawks' playoff run coming in September, but they're a different team now. A team which has shown an ability to win close games and push the very best opposition to the wire. The victories over Carolina, Green Bay and Minnesota stand out, as do the two one-score losses to the Rams, but it was last week's shootout defeat of the rampant Chiefs that really made the NFL sit up and remember: by god Russell Wilson is good.

Wilson was a secondary part of the Seahawks' offense for much of the year, often asked to throw fewer than 20 times per game. That's in total opposition to how he's been asked to carry the team in past seasons, but Seattle seem to have found the perfect balance down the stretch. Wilson outshone Patrick Mahomes in that win over Kansas City, and he's developed an almost telepathic connection with wide receiver Tyler Lockett. Wilson had a perfect passer rating when targeting Lockett this season, that's never happened before in NFL history, with any quarterback or any receiver. Watch out for these Seahawks, they can beat anyone on their day.

7. Baltimore Ravens

Lamar Jackson rushing in a touchdown in the Ravens' crucial win over the Browns Credit: USA TODAY

Can I tell you a secret? I was really happy when the Ravens, not the Steelers, scraped their way into the playoffs last night. It was not without drama. I don't mean anything against Pittsburgh - they serve fries inside their sandwiches there, which is inspired stuff - I'm just really excited to see what Lamar Jackson and this team can do in January. I think they're a sneaky bet to win the whole damn thing.

The Ravens are a totally different proposition since Jackson replaced Joe Flacco at quarterback. Everyone knows they want to run the ball at every opportunity - not just with the quarterback, but Gus Edwards and Kenneth Dixon too - but Jackson's sheer ability and awareness makes it so hard to stop. Just ask the Browns, Chargers, Buccaneers, Chiefs... you get the idea. Jackson's rushing stats in his first seven starts are incredible. He's gone for 119, 71, 75, 67, 95, 39 and 90, but he's far from the psuedo-running back/wide receiver so many would have you believe. Jackson has proved himself as a passer. Teams will come up with strategies to stop him as he puts together more tape in this league, but right now no one seems to have the answer.

Of course, Jackson couldn't be so successful without Baltimore's league-leading defense. They're the only team in the NFL averaging less than 300 yards and less than 18 points per game. I have a feeling these guys could go deep into January. In one-on-one match-ups, the Chiefs are the only team I'd take over Baltimore in the AFC.

6. New England Patriots

Tom Brady hasn't been as unstoppable for the Patriots this season Credit: USA TODAY

When the Patriots book their customary first-round playoff bye (this is their ninth in a row, ludicrous behaviour), you normally expect them to go on and win the Super Bowl. That's just how it works. Not this year. I mean, not a single fibre of my being would be surprised to see Tom Brady hoist the Lombardi on Feb 3, but I think there are five other teams better set up to go all the way this season.

This is the worst Patriots defense in years - they're bad at stopping both the run and the pass - they have a lack of quality options at receiver now that Josh Gordon has been suspended, Rob Gronkowski appears to be in the twilight of his career and - whisper it - Brady has only been good, not great. Brady is far from a problem - he's still playing like a top 10 quarterback - but he's not the same world-beating guy who won MVP last year. He looks fallible.

The Pats have responded to this by leaning more on their run game, which makes sense, as they have one of the most varied and dangerous backfields in the league. Rookie Sony Michel had made a nice start to life in New England, James White is everything you expect from James White, and Bill Belichick has even been using Cordarrelle Patterson effectively as a rusher. Belichick can outcoach anyone - that's why you can never write off the Pats - but for the first time ever I'd feel comfortable betting against them this year.

5. Chicago Bears

Khalil Mack sacks Vikings quarterback Kirk Cousins Credit: USA TODAY

I think each one of these top five teams has a great shot at winning the Super Bowl, and the Bears have an opportunity to go from last in their division to first in the whole league, just as the Eagles did 10 months ago. Chicago have won their first division title since 2010 off the back of a formidable defense. The Bears already had a top 10 unit last year, but Khalil Mack has taken them to the next level. Mack's seven turnovers have helped Chicago to the second best differential in the NFL behind Seattle. He also has 12.5 sacks and 47 tackles, but Mack is far from the only star on this defense. Akiem Hicks has been excellent alongside him, and Kyle Fuller and Eddie Jackson have been unstoppable in the secondary. It feels like one of them pulls off a game-changing interception every week.

On offense, I don't see Mitchell Trubisky ever developing into a quarterback at the level of Patrick Mahomes and Deshaun Watson from his same draft class, but I do think he's solid. With a defense this good, that can be enough. Chicago have been able to get Jordan Howard more and more involved as the season's gone on, and Tarik Cohen is that X-factor player you never want to take your eyes off. There's a reason they called him the human joystick in college.

4. Los Angeles Chargers

Rookie safety Derwin James celebrates the Chargers' week 17 win in Denver Credit: USA TODAY

The Chargers may just be the most balanced team in the NFL. They've actually been good for a couple of years, but couldn't help but pull off that oh so Chargery trick of blowing games and failing to live up to their massive potential. Such fun for their fans! This team is different. They proved that when they beat the Steelers with that brilliant come-from-behind win in week 13. They proved it again when they turned over the Chiefs two weeks later. Yep, these Chargers are for real, and they have the tools to go all the way.

Philip Rivers has played to an MVP level all year - his one wobble was in the defeat by Baltimore last week - Melvin Gordon and Austin Ekeler have been the most effective running back duo in the league, the offensive line is top level and Keenan Allen is one of the best receivers out there. Offense: check.

The defense gets a huge boost from Joey Bosa's return. He's now fit enough to line up alongside pro bowler Melvin Ingram, but LA's headliner has actually been a rookie - 16th overall pick Derwin James. The Chargers couldn't believe it when James fell to them in the draft, and his making a lot of other front offices look silly with his clear talent on the field. His 105 tackles, 3.5 sacks and three interceptions are indicative of a safety who can do it all. The game tape backs that up soundly. Defense: check.

They even seem to have sorted their kicking problems out, with Michael Badgley looking accomplished since joining midway through the season. It might seem cruel to the San Diego faithful if their once-beloved team finally won the big one after deserting their city, but football, like life, can be a real SOB.

3. Los Angeles Rams

Aaron Donald finished the season with 20.5 sacks Credit: USA TODAY

The Rams gave us a scare down the stretch. Three poor games in a row had us worrying they'd peaked too early, but they've assuaged fans' fears by blowing out the Cardinals and 49ers to close the season. I know, beating the Cardinals and 49ers isn't anything to shout about, but the Rams looked like their old selves in those victories. Most importantly Jared Goff rediscovered some form after putting in horrible showings against the Lions, Bears and Eagles.

The Rams have the most stacked offense in the NFL. Todd Gurley has been a touchdown machine, and now has CJ Anderson for support in the backfield. At receiver they miss Cooper Kupp, but still have Brandin Cooks, Robert Woods and Josh Reynolds all playing to a really high level. Question marks still hang over Goff despite his excellent start to the season, but Sean McVay is a good enough head coach to paper over his QB's cracks. It's hard to argue there's a better offensive play caller in football right now.

The defense has been an issue. It's given up 30 or more points seven times this season, and the return of Aqib Talib hasn't been the fix-all bandage many fans hoped. However, what LA do have on defense is possibly the best player in the National Football League period in Aaron Donald. Donald alone can turn games on their heads with his elite playmaking ability. His 20.5 sacks are silly numbers for an interior lineman. There's not been an easier Defensive Player of the Year vote in years. The Rams may be an offense-first outfit, but Donald is their MVP.

2. Kansas City Chiefs

Patrick Mahomes has been special for the Chiefs as they've charged to 12-4 Credit: USA TODAY

Patrick Mahomes is the MVP, and I will not hear otherwise. It's not even just the stats (though he's thrown for an outrageous 50 touchdowns and more than 5,000 yards), it's the manner in which he's gone about putting up those numbers. Every week Mahomes makes throws no one else in the league can. And yes, that includes Aaron Rodgers. He'll rip you apart in the pocket and is lethal on the move. Name a more entertaining player to watch in the NFL right now and I'll call you a liar.

Mahomes is certainly helped by having one of the more unique receivers in the league at his disposal, in the form of Tyreek Hill, and one of the best receiving tight ends in Travis Kelce, but it's the big man on the sideline who really allows him to flourish. Andy Reid is one of the greatest offensive minds in football, and this Chiefs team is his greatest creation. He may never get a better shot at that elusive Lombardi trophy.

Kansas City's achilles heel is their defense. Yes they have big playmakers like Dee Ford and Chris Jones, but only five teams gave up more than the Chiefs' 26.4 points per game this season, and they're all picking at the top of the draft. In the last three weeks the Seahawks and Chargers - teams with top defenses - have found ways to beat them, and the Ravens came very close too. It's the Chargers and Ravens Reid will be most worried about facing again en route to Atlanta.

1. New Orleans Saints

Is Drew Brees on course to win the second Super Bowl of his career? Credit: AP

The Saints are the team to beat in the NFL, and if anyone wants to stop them making it to the Super Bowl they're going to have to do it in New Orleans. That's an enormous factor - we know how good Drew Brees is in the Superdome, and that stadium will be absolutely rocking with a chance to win it all in their most hated rivals' hometown on the line.

For me, Brees finishes just behind Mahomes in the MVP race, but he's had another stunning season. His completion percentage of just under 75 per cent is the best in NFL history - the fourth time he's broken that record. He's thrown 32 touchdowns to just five interceptions - no starting quarterback in the league has fewer picks - and his QB rating of 115.7 is also a league-best.

But what's been most impressive about the Saints this year is the manner of some of their biggest wins. That commanding 45-35 victory over the Rams in week nine, the 48-7 demolition of the reigning champion Eagles in week 11, the desire and winning mentality they showed in week 16's comeback against the Steelers. This is a team who can win big football games, and once you get into January they don't come much bigger.

We know all about the Saints' offensive weapons - Alvin Kamara and Michael Thomas are among the best players in the league at their position - but the New Orleans defense has improved markedly as the season's gone on. Their run defense ranks first in the NFL, and while the pass defense stats don't look great, they've been much better in the second half of the season, when Marshon Lattimore has got back to last season's level and with the addition of Eli Apple. The Saints are Super Bowl-bound. Change my mind.

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Did Magic do more to destroy the Lakers before or after he quit?

We have that and more in Tuesday’s NBA newsletter.

Good news for Lakers fans who root for the laundry regardless of who wears it: Magic Johnson found a pile of dirty laundry for you, and he’s apparently going to air out all of it. He took time away from his busy schedule tweeting draft ESPN crawl sentences to go on ESPN’s First Take and accuse his successor Rob Pelinka of high treason.

Magic told Stephen A. Smith and, well, the world that he left the Lakers because Pelinka was telling outsiders how little Magic actually worked as the president of basketball operations. Also, Magic bemoaned the fact that being president of basketball operations for the Lakers restricted his ability to go to the movies on Sunday nights. So ... it seems like Sports Chris Traeger had a point.

Magic says Pelinka backstabbed him after they came into power with the Lakers together because Pelinka wanted Magic’s job, even though the legend told Rob that he’d only be around for three years and wanted to groom the junior partner in this exercise for the leader role. That third year would have been this season. It didn’t last. Magic also claims agents warned him about Pelinka when they took over the Lakers together; that just seems mean and par for the course, given that Pelinka was also an agent. It seems like NBA agents fight among each other a lot. One favor Magic may have done the Lakers fandom is expose some serious concerns in how the team is being run now with regards to interference from the business side of the franchise, where Jeanie Buss cut her teeth.

Oh, by the way, the Lakers also introduced new head coach Frank Vogel on Monday. That Magic unloaded on Pelinka hour before that really changed the tenor of questions for Pelinka at Vogel’s press conference! (Pelinka denied it all and seemed legitimately hurt by being humiliated by Magic on live TV.)

The Lakers really are exceptional. How many teams can miss the playoffs yet still take Ls in May? I’m impressed.

Scores

Warriors 119, Blazers 117 (OT) Golden State wins series 4-0

Schedule

Bucks at Raptors, 8:30 ET, TNT Milwaukee leads series 2-1

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Warriors vs. Blazers was a tremendously stupid, funny series. Golden State finished off a sweep on Monday despite trailing by 17 late in the third quarter. Portland actually led by at least 17 in each of the past three games and still got swept, despite the Warriors being without Kevin Durant and DeMarcus Cousins for the entire series and being without Andre Iguodala in Game 4. That’s not encouraging, folks. But hey, Meyers Leonard dropped 30 in the series finale. Small victories. Kudos to a fantastic season for Portland, despite the deflating finish.

The Warriors are so, so good.

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Ooh, Dwight Powell turned down a $10 million player option. All this cap space has dollar signs in players’ eyes ...

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Jonathan Tjarks that the Warriors’ original Big Three still has no rival.

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Doing it

I'm following @whatinfreenation 's example and do all dem questions (no one cared or asked for this but imma hit you) 200: My crush’s name is: I'm lonely and scared of relationships  199: I was born in: Dayton, Ohio (Fuck me) 198: I am really: chronically depressed and anxious  197: My cellphone company is: AT&T 196: My eye color is: blue-gray 195: My shoe size is: Women's 5 194: My ring size is: idk people just give me them 193: My height is: 5'2 (I'm smol) 192: I am allergic to: people  191: My 1st car was: I choose not to drive  190: My 1st job was: babysitting except I get no money  189: Last book you read: In Cold Blood 188: My bed is: covered in clothes 187: My pet: is many, I have many pets 186: My best friend: is a little shit 185: My favorite shampoo is: MOTHERFUCKING DOVE ORANGE BLOSSOM YAS BITCH 184: Xbox or ps3: I have an Xbox but I prefer PlayStation  183: Piggy banks are: Cute 182: In my pockets: I'm wearing exercise pants  181: On my calendar: I don't have one but if I did it would be empty  180: Marriage is: Scary 179: Spongebob can: love forever 178: My mom: is a bitch (yell at me if you want) 177: The last three songs I bought were?: I use Spotify 176: Last YouTube video watched: Game Grumps play Breath of the Wild episode 33 175: How many cousins do you have?: I'm Italian I have no fucking clue, too many 174: Do you have any siblings?: Yes, I am the youngest of 5 girls 173: Are your parents divorced?: never married, I was born out of wedlock (how scandalous) 172: Are you taller than your mom?: the same height, we all short 171: Do you play an instrument?: yes! I play several! 170: What did you do yesterday?: Cried myself to sleep [ I Believe In ] 169: Love at first sight: Fuck no 168: Luck: eh 167: Fate: not really  166: Yourself: Definitely not 165: Aliens: I mean probably  164: Heaven: Nooo 163: Hell: I wish 162: God: I don't have religion  161: Horoscopes: I think they're neat 160: Soul mates: Kinda? 159: Ghosts: yeah, I believe in ghosts for a lot of reasons  158: Gay Marriage:OMFG YES I AM SO GAY AND SJEKDJEJSKKS 157: War:Is horrible, why do we have to be like this? 156: Orbs: what? 155: Magic: I wish! [ This or That ] 154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs, last time I was kissed...it wasn't great for me 153: Drunk or High: 420!!!! 152: Phone or Online: Online 151: Red heads or Black haired: All hair, no hair, all the same for me 150: Blondes or Brunettes: whatever you want boo boo 149: Hot or cold: hot 148: Summer or winter: Summer 147: Autumn or Spring: SPRING 146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla usually but chocolate is really nice  145: Night or Day: Night 144: Oranges or Apples: Apples 143: Curly or Straight hair: I love curly hair! 142: McDonalds or Burger King: I'm trash and hungry  141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: I just like milk in general 140: Mac or PC: ehhhhh 139: Flip flops or high heals: Heels, I like to kick people with them on 138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: I'm ugly and poor 137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke  136: Hillary or Obama: Obama is a G 135: Burried or cremated: Idk yet  134: Singing or Dancing: Fuck you 133: Coach or Chanel: I'm poor 132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: idek 131: Small town or Big city: Big City 130: Wal-Mart or Target: I go to Walmart but I wish it was Target 129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: who cares? 128: Manicure or Pedicure: I need short nails 127: East Coast or West Coast: MOTHERFUCKING WEST BITCJ 126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas, I hate my birthday  125: Chocolate or Flowers: Chocolate  124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney! 123: Yankees or Red Sox: I don't do sportsball [ Here’s What I Think About ] 122: War: again, is fucking terrible 121: George Bush: Obama was cool so idec 120: Gay Marriage: IS JUST AS VALID AS STRAIGHT MARRIAGE OR MARRIAGE BETWEEN PEOPLE OF OPPOSITE SEX 119: The presidential election: was a train wreck, we should've felt the burn 118: Abortion: Needs to be legal in all states, by making it illegal we are putting more people at risk of harm  117: MySpace: 3 old 5 me kinda 116: Reality TV: Do whatever you want TV I'm not your mama 115: Parents: my dad is cool, my mom is crazy, step mom is chill, step dad can go FUCKING DIE 114: Back stabbers: need to cease from stabbing  113: Ebay: gets rid of my dad's crap 112: Facebook: ok I guess  111: Work: I just wanna help people 110: My Neighbors: I don't know them 109: Gas Prices:I don't drive  108: Designer Clothes: eh whatever 107: College: I want to go but I'm really dumb and not good at anything 106: Sports: Color Guard is my favorite sport 105: My family: is oddly chill for Roman Catholics  104: The future: A thing I try to hope will be better [ Last time I ] 103: Hugged someone: a few days ago, I was sad 102: Last time you ate: I am eating right now 101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: today, I'm visiting my mom and 2 of my sisters 100: Cried in front of someone: A couple months ago, I don't like people seeing me cry... 99: Went to a movie theater: like 2 months ago 98: Took a vacation: 5 years ago 97: Swam in a pool: last summer 96: Changed a diaper: I help my sister babysit  95: Got my nails done: never 94: Went to a wedding: my dad's wedding 4 years ago 93: Broke a bone: I haven't done that yet 92: Got a peircing: I'm getting one soon 91: Broke the law: I am very dank 90: Texted: 6 hours ago [ MISC ] 89: Who makes you laugh the most: my Best Friend KD 88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: my ability to cry in my room 87: The last movie I saw: A Time to Kill (I can't think about that) 86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: Possibly not feeling depressed? And finishing my fanfic!!! 85: The thing im not looking forward to: What I do after the fanfic is done 84: People call me: Jo or Mojo 83: The most difficult thing to do is: To look at yourself and tell yourself that you are worth it when you don't feel like you are 82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: nope 81: My zodiac sign is: Capricorn  80: The first person i talked to today was: my sister May :3 79: First time you had a crush: I was like 10 78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: I can hide something from anyone I do it all the time 77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Everyday I'm with KD, we are turning into the same person  76: Right now I am talking to: Tayah 💜💚💜 75: What are you going to do when you grow up: I either want to be a makeup artist, drama teacher, or art teacher 74: I have/will get a job: I want to, don't know if I'll live that long hahahahahah 73: Tomorrow: might be better 72: Today: I don't like visiting my mom 71: Next Summer: I'll be with my mom 70: Next Weekend: I'll be with my mom 69: I have these pets: many dogs and cats 68: The worst sound in the world: that sound that Music stands make against smooth tile  67: The person that makes me cry the most is: 66: People that make you happy: my Tumblr friends💜💚💜 65: Last time I cried: last night 64: My friends are: Anyone who's nice to me 63: My computer is: not mine 62: My School: Can suck my dick, Lord Travis Richardson III 61: My Car: doesn't exist  60: I lose all respect for people who: Hurt people out of amusement  59: The movie I cried at was: A time to Kill  58: Your hair color is: naturally it's a light brown  57: TV shows you watch: Sleepy Hollow 56: Favorite web site:...Tumblr... 55: Your dream vacation: Naples, Italy 54: The worst pain I was ever in was: Panic Attacks 53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium well 52: My room is: odd 51: My favorite celebrity is: DAVEED DIGGS 50: Where would you like to be: in with New York, North California or Oregon 49: Do you want children: I want to adopt 48: Ever been in love: I don't feel love 47: Who’s your best friend: KD 46: More guy friends or girl friends: It used to be guys but now they scare me 45: One thing that makes you feel great is: Makeup 44: One person that you wish you could see right now: Anyone who can help me feel better 43: Do you have a 5 year plan: 42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: No, because I can't think about dying too much ;-; 41: Have you pre-named your children: I promised my sister that if I adopted/had a baby girl her name had to be Winnrie  40: Last person I got mad at: Myself 39: I would like to move to: anywhere but here 38: I wish I was a professional: Makeup Artist [ My Favorites ] 37: Candy: Gummy Bears :3 36: Vehicle: motorcycle  35: President: OBAMA 34: State visited: America is weird 33: Cellphone provider: I don't care 32: Athlete: I don't follow 31: Actor: Lin Manuel-Miranda 30: Actress: PIPA SOO MY BB 29: Singer: does Daveed count? 28: Band: Queen and Black Veil Brides 27: Clothing store: Hot Topic 26: Grocery store: Jungle Jim's (it's an Ohio things) 25: TV show: SLEEPY HOLLOW 24: Movie: Tangled 23: Website: always Tumblr  22: Animal: panther 21: Theme park: King's Island 20: Holiday: Halloween  19: Sport to watch: WGI 18: Sport to play: MARCHING BAND 17: Magazine:History 16: Book: history text book 15: Day of the week: Thursday  14: Beach: I don't do water 13: Concert attended: I've never been... 12: Thing to cook: Pasta! 11: Food: all food 10: Restaurant: all of them 9: Radio station: nope 8: Yankee candle scent: wedding cake  7: Perfume: I wear Captivate 6: Flower: Bleeding Hearts an baby's breath  5: Color: Purple and Green 4: Talk show host: Jimmy Fallon and John Oliver  3: Comedian: Gabriel Iglesias  2: Dog breed: Mutt Wuppy  1: Did you answer all these truthfully? I have no reason to lie I guess ?

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The Day the World Ended

This is the day I’ve been dreading to write about. The memories I don’t really want to recall. Everything about it was so absolutely traumatic to me that I still cannot even think of it without feeling like I am choking. I know this is going to hurt. But please – let it hurt one last time. Then leave it right here.

Did I see it coming? Well, no. Never once had the thought of us ever breaking up crossed my mind. Not once had I imagined a future without him. Not once had I expected him to be not willing to fight for us. We were so crazy about each other. We loved each other so deeply. Even though I knew things would have to change, I felt like we stood right at the beginning of those changes. I felt like, after three years, I was finally starting to open my eyes for how my whole life revolved around him. We came to a breaking point – but to me, it was the beginning of a new era. I had never considered us ending.

Until the cliché “we need to talk” text happened.

I remember texting my friend “why do I feel like I’m about to get broken up with?”

I also remember taking some selfies cause I wanted to remember what I looked like in that moment. The last few hours I was his girl.

I was listening to Dream Brother on repeat. I’m not sure why, but it seemed to fit the moment. The song starting over and over and over until I heard his keys unlock my front door.

He laid down across me, his head on the foot of my bed, facing me. And none of us really knew where to start – but by then I obviously knew where the conversation would be going. He couldn’t get the words over his lips. So many tears, tears, tears. Me, whispering: “you really don’t want to, anymore, do you..?”

I’m trying to remember anything we said in that moment but I cannot recall a word. It was so much pain. So much love, at the same time. It felt so completely unreal and my mind was unable to comprehend any of it.

“Can’t you just be mad at me, or something?” I remember that’s what he said. And I said I had no reason to be mad at all, why would I be?

I really wish I had a reason to be pissed off. To just say “he was a dick, anyway” and walk away. But I adored him. Everything about him. Until the very last second – and every day after.

I was just crying on his chest for hours. I was kissing his lips and I remember how dry our mouths were and how awful it felt and all I wanted was to keep him forever. We had the typical, awful breakup sex. Cause something in my crashing thoughts believed that would change his mind. Also because I knew I probably wouldn’t be with someone again for a very long time.

I kept repeating to myself “this was not the last time.” It was a promise I made to myself.

It ended in more tears. Eventually, I told him to please just go see the show he would be attending that night. Cause nothing would come out of this. I asked him if I could come over to his house and watch the sunset one more time. I loved the view from his house. I could just stare over the city all day and I was in love with the way the buildings looked in the orange sky.

It was the most horrible sunset. The sky was dull and grey.

He told me I could drink whatever liquor he had. I told him to please go. He blew me a kiss before he closed the door. He blew me a fucking kiss.

The hours after are a complete blur, probably because of aforementioned liquor. The pictures on my phone tell me I walked to the gas station in my pyjamas to go buy cigarettes. It was a pretty warm Summer night, so I sat down by the water next to the police station across our houses. I figured I’d be safe, there.

I felt something touching my back, heard a “meow.” I turned around to see a cat that had come up to me. It made me smile through my tears a little.

A car stopped and I was afraid to turn around, and I heard a voice saying something, but the words didn’t make sense. When I looked up I saw it was an actual police car, and the guy behind the wheel had rolled down the window to tell me to please not fall into the water. I smiled and pretended to be okay.

At some point I walked back to my house and all I know is that I tried to knock myself out completely. I texted him. “In case you’re looking for someone to get fucked up with tonight; I’m your friend. I’m probably fluttering around in my room, somewhere.”

It obviously got him worried, and I guess he had the right to.

I vaguely remember grabbing the baggie of ketamine my brother had once passed me. All I wanted was to not be - or feel anymore. I took more of it than I figured out to be a “safe dose” before I passed out.

I really wouldn’t have minded if I died right then and there.

Nothing made sense anymore. All I wanted was to be gone.

I have no clue how much time passed before I heard his keys in my door. He was worried about me. He asked me what I had taken and I told him – barely able to move or speak at all. My tongue felt heavy in my mouth. He grabbed the remaining baggie from my bedside table and told me to come upstairs with him. “I don’t want to be alone, right now.”

I forced myself to jump right out of bed and ran up those stairs for the last time. I don’t even know where I found the power.

For the next hour or so everything almost seemed normal. I insisted to fry an egg for him while he sat down on the couch. I never really fried eggs so I wasn’t sure if it was done, and I texted him a picture of it while he was right behind me. It was funny and everything did not seem so very bad in that moment.

I don’t remember anything between that moment and being in bed right next to him. I was so aware I couldn’t cuddle up to him anymore. That I couldn’t kiss him goodnight. That he wouldn’t wrap his arm around my waist. We fell asleep holding hands.

I wanted him to be with me so very much.

When I woke up again it was just a few hours later and I’m pretty sure it was exactly 6 in the morning. All I knew was that I had to get out of there. Cause staying and waking up together would just make things feel more awful. I’d rather not be fully conscious while walking away from him.

I grabbed everything that was mine. Then sat down on my knees next to the bed. He was still pretty much asleep, or at least pretended to be. I was holding his hand. His arm. The boy that had been mine for three years. The one that owned every single piece of my heart.

I kissed his arm so many times and he moaned and thinking of that sound still rips me apart. Somehow begging me to stay, but also the knowledge this really was the end of everything. The last minute we’d spend together as a couple. The last time my lips would touch his skin.

I don’t remember much of the day(s) after. I texted my parents and my brother that he had broken up with me. Told them I didn’t really feel like talking and that I wasn’t sure if I’d make it out of bed ever again. Eventually, I forced myself to get away from the place I got broken up with cause I didn’t want to be on my own.

The trip over to my dad’s house seemed to take forever. I cannot even explain how slowly every second seemed to pass by. I was aware of every clock ticking.

I was completely paralyzed for two days. I cannot even explain how bad those days were. I wasn’t even able to grab my phone. It took me three days to finish one tub of ice-cream – throwing up after every bite I swallowed.

“Do you want to watch a movie? Do you want to walk the dogs?” I wasn’t able to do anything but blankly stare into the distance. No matter how much I wanted to be distracted, I just couldn’t move.

I remember cuddling up to my dog and feeling it’s warmth and feeling how he was breathing, and all I could think was “you are not my boyfriend.” His absence was choking me. I had no idea how much worse it would get from there.

We had agreed we’d remain friends. This would not be the end of our story.

“We live in the same building. Of course we’ll stay in touch.”

I would be holding on to this promise for way too long. The thought that this was not the end would be my one single light in the darkness for months.

I was still so close to him, back then.

We’d check up on each other every day. Making sure the other one was still alive – or breathing, at least.

We still loved each other so much.

And no matter how much I kept telling myself that was not the end, it really was the end. In the first weeks there was still an amicable text every now and then, and for 119 days I held on to the hope he had left me with.

It was a shitty breakup.

It kept me holding on to the hesitation in his words for so long.

The Breakup was traumatic to me in every way. I really believed we would make it till forever. I believed I had found my soulmate.

For 22 years I didn’t want to give up my freedom to anyone. Until I found the boy I believed I’d spend the rest of my life with. Giving him my everything. Finding happiness and pride in everything we were. Completely missing how I was losing myself in this relationship. Not seeing how at one point I had nothing to offer but my love. Being with him made me feel like I was on top of the world. But I wasn’t born to be “someone’s girl.”

I said “I just got broken up with by the love of my life.”

He said “Love of your life. Come on.”

I’m sure he loved me. But he clearly didn’t feel the same way.

Five months and the thought of this day still makes me choke up. It took me five months before he wasn’t on my mind every second of every day anymore. It was the one worst experience of my life so far. I could not think of anything in the world that could ever hurt me more than this breakup did.

I hope I will never get broken up with someone I’m so madly in love with ever again.

I would not wish it upon my worst enemy.

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Do all, entertain me so I don't have to do hw

ah man i was actually doing hw for once

1- my name?rain

2- do i have any nicknames?my mom calls me rainbow, my brother calls me ron, my friends don’t really call me by any nicknames anymore

3- zodiac sign?leo, borderline virgo

4- video game i play to chill, not to win?animal crossing

5- book/series i reread?harry potter

6- aliens or ghosts?uhhhh ghosts

7- writer i trust enough to read anything they write?idk if there’s any

8- favorite radio station?i don’t listen to the radio much

9- favorite flavor of anything?watermelon or blue raspberry

10- the word i use all the time to describe something great?idk, i say hell yeah a lot

11- favorite song?robbers by the 1975 probably (im listening to it now lol)

12- the question you ask new friends to get to know them better?i usually ask what they’re doing when we text and they tell and through this over time you hear about their family and intrests

13- favorite word?either “soft” or “gentle”

14- last person who hurt me, did i forgive them?not sure, i think i was the last person to hurt me, and i don’t really forgive myself for anything

15- last song i listened to?robbers by the 1975

16- tv show i always recommend?rick and morty

17- pirates or ninjas?see on one hand i have gay pirates and on the other i have nsp so idk

18- movie i watch when i’m feeling down?probably some pokemon movie lmao

19- song that i always start my shuffle with/wake up song/always on loop song?my alarm is nine in the afternoon by p!atd, i usually shuffle the fiddler on the roof soundtrack starting with the wedding dance song or now i have everything, on loop i usually have do i wanna know by arctic monkeys or sarah smiles by p!atd

20- favorite video games?any pokemon game

21- what am i most afraid of?the people i love secretly hating me or abandoning me or dying

22- a good quality of mine?uhhhhh,,, i guess um. my hair is dark? so it makes it easier to see facial hair and shit on me which is helpful for my trans ass

23- a bad quality of mine?i can’t shut up about anything i’m interested in bc i obsess myself with things that make me happy and always want to talk about them because they’re the the things that keep me alive but it gets annoying and i get a lot of “would you shut up about this subject”

24- cats or dogs?how could i CHOOSE

25- actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they’re in?i don’t pay a lot of attention to the actors for ppl in movies, i think the only actor i was willing to go see whatever they were in was u lmao

26- favorite season?spring/autumn

27- am i in a relationship?no

28- something i miss?the way things used to be sometimes

29- my best friend? i’ve considered u my best friend for a long time, if i didn’t delete messages u could probably find me talking to newer ppl (mainly chloe, who was that girl i asked out and rejected me) being like “yeah so she’s my best friend and she’s great”

30- eye color?brown

31- hair color?dark brown

32- someone i love?diakjgbjfgvldgjh

33- someone i trust?i trust u and zee the most

34- someone i always think about?Get Out Of This Home

35- am i excited about anything?dying

36- my current obsession?playing amazing grace on the piano

37- favorite tv shows as a child?i loved sesame street

38- do i have someone of the opposite sex i can tell everything to?not really

39- am i superstitious?idk

40- what do i think about most?what the fuck do you think

41- do i have any strange phobias?i don’t think so

42- do i prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?not sure

43- favorite hobbies?drawing, writing, playing piano

44- last book i read?the great american whatever, great book btw, read it if ur looking for more gay books. warning though for death (that’s not really a spoiler i promise)

45- last film i watched?blue is the warmest color, didn’t finish it tho

46- do i play any instruments?piano

47- favorite animals?cats and dogs

48- top 5 blogs on tumblr that i follow?@ dreamts@ maroonracoon@ hugables@ roswater@ fauning

49- superpower i wish i could have?to pause time

50- how do i destress?what

51- do i like confrontation?no

52- when do i feel most at peace?when i sleep

53- what makes me smile?hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

54- do i sleep with the lights on or off?off

55- play any sports?no

56- what is my song of the week?idk the week just started my guy

57- favorite drink?grape juice

58- when did i last send a handwritten letter to somebody?idk

59- afraid of heights?not really

60- pet peeve?when u tell someone to stop fuckin touching u and they keep doing it immediately after

61- what was the last concert i went to see?the 1975!! just last night

62- am i vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian?no

63- what occupation did i want to do when i was younger?i really wanted to be a singer

64- have i ever had a friend turn into an enemy?i’ve had fights with friends but we either made up or stopped being friends but aren’t enemies

65- what fictional universe would i like to be a part of?idk

66- something i worry about?friends when they’re sad, i know some of them probably won’t but i still worry about them hurting themselves

67- scared of the dark?yeah

68- who are my best friends?you, zee, shannon, spencer, i could go on but there’s a lot

69- what do i admire most about others?musical abilities, especially with singing

70- can i sing?idk, logically i have no reason to think that i can’t because literally everyone that’s ever heard me sing says it’s not bad or that i have a nice voice but i’m still unconvinced

71- something i wish i could do?sing in front of people without having an anxiety attack, speaking of singing

72- if i won the lottery, what would i do?buy myself and my friends a ton of shit probably

73- have i ever skipped school?i’ve faked being sick to get out of school

74- favorite place on the planet?idk man i haven’t been many places

75- where do i want to live?kinda wanna live in nyc

76- do i have any pets?cat named danny, two fish one named goldy and the other shaneeta dee

77- what is my current desktop picture?an nsp concert but i’ve been meaning to change it for a while now

78- early bird or night owl?night owl

79- sunsets or sunrise?sunsets

80- can i drive?no

81- story behind my last kiss?it was so long ago man i can’t really remember

82- earphones or headphones?earphones

83- have i ever had braces?no

84- story behind one of my scars?idk if i have any but i have a scab that i picked at until it bled in piano class because i was Not Ok and many times after for the same reason and that’s probably gonna scar now

85- favorite genre of music?idk

86- who is my hero?idk

87- favorite comic book characters?i don’t really read comic books much

88- what makes me really angry?when people hurt my friends

89- kindle or real book?real book

90- favorite sporty activity?idk man

91- what is the one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be???????

92- what was my favorite subject at school?idk man i guess art is ok but i’m not the biggest fan of my teacher

93- siblings?two, one brother and a sister

94- what was the last thing i bought?probably food

95- how tall am i?i think 5′5

96- can i cook?i can make grilled cheese and also pancakes

97- can i bake?if u give me a recipe then probably

98- 3 things i love?my friendspianosleeping

99- 3 things i hate?donald trumpdepressionanxiety

100- do i have more girl friends or boy friends?idk a lot of my friends are non binary or i don’t know their gender

101- who do i get on with better, girls or boys?im tempted to say girls but that’s just bc i have a preference for girls romantically in reality it doesn’t really matter as long as u aren’t a dick

102- where was i born?albany

103- sexual orientation?pan, probably somewhere on the ace spectrum bc sexual attraction is so so rare for me so if i think ur hot u better believe u are

104- where do i currently live?new york

105- last person i texted?you

106- last time i cried?not sure, i think last week when i had that big meltdown that y’all saw where @ hero-art was sending me asks through it

107- guilty pleasure?hhgghg,,hggg, watching vids of u singing

108- favorite youtuber?probably still the game grumps

109- a photo of myselfdamn bitch just search the tag # rain shows you his face

110- do i like selfies?i take a lot, usually just because my makeup looks cool that day, but they’re mostly shit

111- favorite game app?i don’t play game apps

112- my relationship with my parents?:/

113- favorite accents?idk man

114- a place i have not been but would like to visit?metropolitan museum of art

115- favorite number?five

116- can i juggle?no

117- am i religious?no

118- do i like space?it’s cool

119- do i like the deep ocean?it’s pretty

120- am i much of a daredevil?lol no

121- am i allergic to anything?i think grass

122- can i curl my tongue?yeah

123- can i wiggle my ears?no

124- do i like clowns?don’t really have an opinion on them

125- the beatles or elvis?i don’t listen to either of them

126- my current project?my dumbass lab writeup

127- am i a bad loser?i don’t think so

128- do i admit when i’m wrong?yes

129- forest or beach?beach

130- favorite piece of advice?“love everyone, forgive everyone, especially yourself.”

131- am i a good liar?i think so

132- hogwarts house/divergent faction/hunger games district?i’m a gryffindor and i didn’t read divergent or the hunger games

133- do i talk to myself?all the time

134- am i very social?no

135- do i like gossip?maybe? idk as long as no one is hurt

136- do i keep a journal/diary?i guess my writing blog is kind of an over exaggerated diary

137- have i ever hopelessly failed a test?i got a zero on a quiz once if that counts

138- do i believe in second chances?depends

139- if i found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would i do?get my mom to turn it in to ppl who know what to do with it

140- do i believe people are capable of change?yeah i suppose, but depends

141- have i ever been underweight?no

142- am i ticklish?very

143- have i ever been in a submarine?no

144- have i ever been on a plane?when i was seven

145- in a film about my life, who would i cast as myself, friends, and family?ah man idk i don’t have an extensive knowledge of actors

146- have i ever been overweight?no

147- do i have any piercings?one in each ear

148- what fictional character do i wish was real?idk

149- do i have any tattoos?two, one on my ankle and another on my ass

150- what is the best decision i have made in my life so far?to realize that i fucked up and to apologize

151- do i believe in karma?i guess

152- do i wear glasses or contacts?i need glasses but don’t wear them much

153- what was my first car?none

154- do i want children?depends on who i’d have them with

155- who is the most intelligent person i know?idk man it’s kinda subjective isn’t it?

156- my most embarrassing moment?my whole entire life

157- what makes me nostalgic?old songs

158- have i ever pulled an all nighter?oh yeah

159- which do i value most in others, brains or beauty?brains

160- what color dominates my wardrobe?idk actually

161- have i ever had a paranormal experience?not really

162- what do i hate most about myself?i’m stupid, i hurt and bother others way too much

163- what do i love most about myself?ok i’m honestly not being a self loathing dick on purpose here i genuinely can’t think of something i love about myself

164- do i like adventure?yeah

165- do i believe in fate? maybe

166- favorite animal?question already asked bro

167- have i ever been on radio?no

168- have i ever been on tv?no, but yesterday i got asked to be (i declined because of anxiety)

169- how old am i?fourteen

170- one of my favorite quotes?“and you know that it’s not good, that there is no good, that nothing good can ever come out of it. but you do it anyway. and then... well. and then you burn.”

171- do i hold grudges?depends

172- do i trust easily?i don’t think so

173- have i learnt from my mistakes?yeah

174- best gift i’ve ever received?well my computer was p good though i payed for part of it

175- do i dream?yeah

176- have i ever had a night terror?yeah

177- do i remember my dreams, and what is the one that comes to mind?i do, and i just remembered the dream i had where there was this weird ass magical storm by my school that happened once thousands of years before on the same day and ppl thought it was a myth but it wasn’t, it was controlled by some ghost of a little girl and it lasted for weeks and eventually within our small shelter by the school people just died arbitrarily and some died from the storm who went out to try and get food and some starved, and soon all that was left was me and three others and it was horrible because every time we closed our eyes we were afraid we were going to open them and someone would be dead

178- an experience that has made me stronger?idk. probably my dad dying?

179- if i were immortal what would i do?try and undo that immortality or send myself into a coma forever because god i already want to die having to live forever would be the biggest curse ever

180- do i like shopping?sure

181- if i could get away with a crime, what would i do?idk man i don’t think about a life of crime much

182- what does family mean to me?people who care about me and love me and that i care about and love back

183- what is my spirit animal?im p sure that as a white person i’m not supposed to have one

184- how do i want to be remembered?for kindness

185- if i could master one skill, what would i choose?being better at piano

186- what is my greatest failure?everything

187- what is my greatest achievement?don’t know, i’m not proud of many things that i do

188- love or money?love

189- love or career?love

190- if i could time travel, where and when would i want to go?nowhere, i don’t want to spoil the future for myself and i don’t want to fuck with the past

191- what makes me the happiest?FUCK off

192- what is “home” to me?being with someone i love

193- what motivates me?i don’t know. not much anymore

194- if i could choose my last words, what would they be?idk, it depends on who i’d say them to

195- would i ever want to encounter aliens?if they’re nice then yes

196- a movie that scared me as a child?coraline

197- something i hated as a child that i like now?idk

198- zombies or vampires?vampires bc baz

199- live in the city or the suburbs?city

200- dragons or wizards?wizards

201- a nightmare that stayed with me?so this is from when i was little, my dad was driving my brother and i to the park and i was in the backseat bc i was tiny. so i said something to him and got no reply, i looked over and he wasn’t in the front seat, he was gone and nobody was driving. i look out the front and we’re headed for a part where we were meant to turn and there’s a giant steep hill and the car just keeps going forwards. it drives up the hill then flips over and crashes and rolls back down the hill and then i woke up

202- how do i define love?oh gosh. it’s in trusting other people to tell everything, even if they don’t “get” you, even if they won’t understand what you mean or how you feel because you trust them. it’s in the way you feel accepted around them. and all the inside jokes and knowing glances and doing everything you can to help when they’re down and feeling at home around them.

203- do i judge a book by it’s cover?a little

204- have i ever had my heart broken?yeah

205- do i like my handwriting?not really

206- sweet or savory?sweet

207- worst job i’ve had?never had a job

208- do i collect anything?ramune bottles and pokemon cards

209- item of clothing or jewelry you’ll never see me without?don’t think there is one

210- what is on my bucket list?kiss a girl

211- how do i handle anger?vent to a friend

212- was i named after anyone?not with my first name, but my mom gave me my middle name after her friend from college

213- do i use sarcasm a lot?no.............of course not

214- what tv character am i most like?not sure

215- what is the weirdest talent i have?talent. What Is That

216- favorite fictional character?how could i choose one

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