#this isn't negative about ana btw so don't come for me

[tawaifeddiediaz]

there is so much symbolism to this break up now that i think about

you have eddie making the first move, trying to find the words to do something he’s never done before because his entire life plan is to stick with something because he knows no other way and he doesn’t know that he can take control of his own happiness. you have ana’s expression falling, her anxious rambling as she flutters around the kitchen. There’s an air of resignation around her because she knows exactly where this is going but she wants just a few moments more, a couple more minutes of pretending this is going somewhere, and you have eddie stopping her from doing that because it’s only going to hurt more in the long-run - something he’s now recognized.

then you also have her giving that notion up entirely to take control of the conversation, trying to keep something on her terms to preserve her dignity, even though eddie not waiting a minute longer to break up with her is his way of respecting that he needs to let ana go if he isn’t going to build a future with her. it’s his way of not taking her self-respect away by stringing her along like that.

you have eddie taking in the mess of the kitchen, and probably thinking of the symbolic irony behind it. there’s multiple muffins strewn out (way more than three people need) as if ana was keeping herself occupied, with an inkling of what was going to happen when eddie got home. 

you have him shutting the kitchen door to where chris is sitting outside, to signify that this is a step he’s taking for himself only, not for christopher - which directly parallels ana’s first meeting at his home, when both eddie and christopher open up the door to her.

you have eddie’s arms crossed across his chest, universal language for closing oneself off, especially as he talks about his reasons for prolonging this as long as he has. you have tears in both their eyes because even if this isn’t going somewhere, they were still important to each other. eddie does like her, hates the idea of hurting her and a large part of him is definitely sad to be losing that. there’s symbolism to the way he looks to and away from her repeatedly, still being 100% honest with her even though it’s clearly difficult for him to do

you have ana placing her hand across his crossed arms, him not budging at all because he wasn’t willing to let her in then, and he’s not right now either. and you have them ending exactly where they started...with an edmundo like when they were strangers standing across each other at the parent-teacher meeting.

then you have the little circle of magnets on the fridge, with one surreptitiously placed in the center, but not linked to any of the others. I kinda think...maybe that’s eddie? Like he’s so busy making relationships for other people, for christopher to have that support, that he kinda leaves himself behind. Maybe cut to next scene, the magnets are all interlinked, who knows xD

and then the end where ana shuts the door on eddie, literally leaving him with his mess and heartache as she goes to say goodbye to christopher, and like...there’s a finality to the click of that door. for once, eddie and ana were the sole people he’s thinking of when he made this decision and im so freaking proud of him for it.

at first i was like “i want eddie to have the words to literally say ‘this isn’t working we’re done’” but honestly? i think i really liked how this one turned out. quiet moment, honest, and kind of a fitting end to something stagnant.

#zee rambles #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #ana flores #eddieana #this isn't negative about ana btw so don't come for me #meta #911 meta #i just have lots of thoughts #again