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southpauz · 2 months
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Black History Month Art Challenge
DAY 16: The Beyonder - Moon Girl And Devil Dinosaur
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jrueships · 6 months
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tbh tho i think my art is fugly af LMFAO
#not in a '>w< eeeek! i wish i could drawww 🥺 i can only cobble such measle crap with my lowly peasant paws.. *unveils mona lisa*'#sense but like a my style makes me want to hurl whenever i look at it bcs it's a constant reminder that it can only be what i can make it be#and bcs it looks bad to me then that means i cant make things look good if u get my sense like#idk man 😭!! im just sick of being scribbly!! and not clean! i wanna ink my art! have crisp lines! dark lines!!#not have to put stupid darkening filters on everything bcs i cant color or shade so my art is just stuck with the blinding white background#well the frustration is more how i CAN color and shade.. i CAN ink my lines with a darker one#lets not excuse my laziness now cmon ted omg dumbass bitch#it's just that doing so makes me . crazy#my attention span like. crumbles when i try to add color or ink over lines bcs thats Such a commitment to me#i HATE leaving things unfinished when it seems so monumental#like unfinished sketches or prompts? fine. those are sketches. little prompts. even if u post it it's shit#but starting big things is a COMMITMENT.. with CONSEQUENCES ! ! i just want to avoid them ig#it's like im stuck between art being a fun lil past time and being a perfectionist actually so no. no it is not#but also i NEED to draw i NEED to write SOMETHING! SOMETHING!! then i realize the weight of things and purposefully hinder myself#then later hate myself for hindering even tho it felt so good and right in the beginning ORGHH or WHATEVER#idk one of my friends told me my style reminded them of the new tmnt movie (which has been praised yeah#for like beautiful ugliness tho) and like. i KNOW it's a compliment... but. why did it make me Feel 😭 like i wanted to rip my art 2 shreds#once i lined my art and my friend (an artist i admire) said smthin like 'omg finally! ted lined art! gorgeous!'#& i KNOW. I KNOW IT'S A COMPLIMENT. BUT WHY AM I THINKING LIKE. SO VIOLENT. NOT ABT THEM. BUT MY SHIT NOW#like UGHHH i just HATE feeling trapped and helpless when actually theres help available but im just DUM!! JUST LINE UR ART TED#art is like playing sport is like making good grades is like working well is like being a good friend is like being a good person#literally. just be GOOD.#it's all a performance to me ARGHARGH! I HATE THE JOKER! I HATE BEING CRINGE@! RAGGHH I HATE THIS SHIT#<- mfs when no basketball#mfw i cannot avoid enlightenment via the meaningless distractions i codepently craveRAGGHG!!!!!!1!
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engagemythrusters · 8 months
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Okay ahsoka time
I know there’s Kanan mention (I will not be okay) and Rex is here (I will not be okay) so we will see what happings :)
My ice cream is oddly shaped
GHOST
Jacen baby 😭
HE FITS PERFECTLY BEHIND CHOPPER
Oh my god
Heras going to think
She lost
Another
Child
“I’m here to finish your training” :(
OH?!
“I won’t fight you”
“I’ve heard that before”
HHH STOP I CANT RELIVETHAT THAT SCENE BROKE ME
Leia!!!!!!!
Is Jacen gonna be like Exra? In tune w the living force?
Ohhh she’s. She can’t hear what he does but she listens with him. She loves him and she knows how important it is to listen and guide young Jedi. Even if she’s not—
Oh?!
He made her hear it?!!!
Just!?? Gonna leave him there?
KANAN MENTION
Kanan
I’m not okay
CLONES
She’s so little…
She’s…. She’s so small…
She’s so small she’s ducking blasts she’s trying to catch up
I can’t…
“This is your training” and so it was. She knew only war.
… we’re not going to see Rex’s face are we
Oh all those clones…
They… they move their arms. So thehre at peace…
REX IN BACKGROUND?!
Dkdkdks wrapped face so nobody sees them
That’s so dumb
Anyway. Whose boy is that…. Mine now.
“I got them killed” she has so much weight in her. She’s 14. She’s…
WAH
NO THE VADER SHOT
this episode. Ahsoka’s and anakins fight in The Twilight of the Apprentice. Obiwans fight with darth vader in the last ep of obi wan kenobi. Making me sick in the head.
Im.
Im so fucked up about this.
DEATHWATCH
oh
My
God
OH MY GOD
first it was seeing the ahsoka helmets.
Then it was HEARING REX
*PROPER* REX.
her best friend
She’s still so young here and TCW didn’t show that well enough. She’s so little.
She’s so young.
“Is that all?”
This young actor is good at replicating the other live action one
She’s so cute and sweet faced and I’m so hurt for young ahsoka because she’s just. She’s SO LITtl
OH
No
No his eyes oh my god this is fucjing me up
I’m so fucked
I’m fucked up beyond belief
THE SWITCHING
I’m so fucked up.
Jesus. I can’t. I’m.
I’m going to watch all those three fights one day and I’m going to let them consume me whole.
God.
God. Anyway.
Again this world between worlds is cool but yknow rebels did it better. This is pretty but the other was… ominous. Stark.
Oof that makeup…
“Get her inside” leaves her on the fucking ramp
He’s so cute look at him. I love you Jacen. I hope you know nothing but love in your future. I hope your brother and sister return. I hope—
UH NEW BUNKS IN THE GHOST??
Oh that’s not the ghost. Thank god
That’s all we’re going to see if rex though isn’t it.
We’re not going to see old rex
We’re not…
I want Temuera Morrison on screen. Like. Physically. I don’t just want his voice.
Why is this so hard to ask?!
Awww Jacen playing w chopper 😭
Jacen: I know ur fuckin pawning me off…. It’s working tho.
NO LIGHTSABER FOR JACEN?!
WHY NOT
Since when is ahsoka fucking psychometric tho like. God I hate that random jedi just gain random powers that aren’t theirs
Like psychometry isn’t a common power
goddddd
HERA DOESNT HAVE TO LOSE ANOTHER CHILD TODAY you can see and hear her relief Ughhh I’m feeling things
UH?!
CHOPPERS RIGHT. UH OH.
are they gonna arrest hera or smthn SKFJSK I’d like to see them try. Hera did more for the rebellion than anyone fucking else.
I’d kill them myself if they touched her
O H?!
Purrgil
OOP
Guess it’s killing time.
Hera defense squad: population of one. Me. But I’m a big one.
Hera and the purrgil again. Hera and the purrgil. She has much to feel about them. They took her son. They’ve killed her friends in the past. Now her daughter went down their trail.
And now… she follows the purrgil.
OKAY BUT AGAIN
AHSOKA SHOW SUCKS LOOK AT WHAT THEY FID TO MY PURRGIL
Why are they GREY >:((((
Where’s my pretty blues and yellows and purples
Hooray white ahsoka robes tho. Forgot to say that but. A little too late with the robes. a little too late with my comment. It fits
This Carson guy is doing his best
Where’s Wedge
WHERES FENN RAU
Where’s old rex :(
“You’re not gonna believe me” wow why do we need that line. Disney Writing fr. Good god.
“HOW THE WHALES TOOK EZRA AND THE BAD GUYS FAR, FAR AWAY” !!!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAH 😭😭😭😭😭
Jonah and the Whale vibes. Wait no. NEMO VIBES?!
I wish… I wish that hera got to go with. To reunite with her son.
I know why she didn’t though. I get it. But still. Would’ve been… something.
Powering up…
“May the force be with you” hera 😭
And… they’re gone.
Overall:
I do have to say, I'm REALLY peeved they only gave Temuera Morrison ONE LINE of dialogue for this. like THATS the best they could do? No. NOt enough. Bring in Old Rex. Bring him in. Now. I'm not okay with just this. I'm happy we saw him, but that's not enough. Disney fucking owes Temuera Morrison and they fucking owe Boba fans. the LE A S T they could do is this. Fuck you disney.
BUT on a positive note.
OH MY GOD THE ANAKIN AHSOKA FIGHT IS GOING TO FUCK ME UP FOREVER. that fight, the TotA fight, and the OWK fight... yeah. I'm screwed up for life.
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neowinestainedress · 2 years
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Omg I just saw your reply to my message about Dynasty. IM SMILLING SO HARD RIGHT NOW you can't even imagine. I woke up with a tight chest because I was still overwhelmed about what I read:'( You literally just made my day, oh my god thank you sooooo much😭😚
Also, you don't have to be insecure about this fic. Girl- that a MASTERPIECE, the plot, the characters, the chemistry between them, are you kidding me!? IM IN LONE and I'm not joking at all.
It's so rare for me to find books like that and even more get attached to them. So, trust me this is a priceless work and I can see how much effort you've put in it♡
Also, I LOVE the fact that in many of your books especially in jaehyun ones, you put the main character with curls, darker skin and etc. I have those characteristics too, and jaehyun is my ultimate bias LIKE I SIMP SO HARD FOR HIM, and I'm so happy when I read something like that. It makes me imagine it so beautifully and I feel more comfortable, ughhh I just love it😫
Random question, but do you update this book once or twice a week?, because I haven't quite understand your update schedule for it. I started reading it just two days ago so that's why I'm a bit confused^^
WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU WOKE UP WITH A TIGHT CHEST BECAUSE OF ME AIFKFK I ALMOST KILLED YOU WITH A STORY 😭😭😭
THANK YOU THAT'S TOO MUCH 🥺 no but being honest, I think I could've developed it better, idk? I like the plot and the characters but now I'm not so confident about it anymore. I feel like I could've cut some things because isn't it too long? Like I'm really happy people are enjoying it but I'm really hard on myself so I find every flaw possible 😅
I was sick and tired of the main characters having white skin and straight hair so I had to take the matter into my hands 😂 I don't even read much anymore but I remember back then how hard I would roll my eyes at any "you blushed a bright red" or "he touches your white skin" yeah.. that's not me, next. So happy to know somebody else feels more represented in my characters ♡ Jaehyun's one of my ults too! I'm so whipped for him like ugh 😩
YOU STARTED IT TWO DAYS AGO AND ALREADY FINISHED??? I THINK I LOVE YOU 😭 I don't really have an updating schedule anymore. The original plan was to update weekly but these last chapters need more editing so they take me more time and I can't always find it between uni classes and the other works I have to write. BUT this week they cancelled so many classes so I think I'll be able to update again on Friday or Sunday. As I said in one of the last chapters I was thinking about taking more time between each update and then publish three chapters one after the other but I can't really promise anything. Unfortunately it's a little bit messy but I hope to publish everything before the end of June so even if I might skip a week I'll catch up after with more chapters.
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