#whole fight w my parents plus certain other ongoing issues that are making me VERY mentally ill but that i can’t talk abt on here plus im

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just asked my profs for an extension on my capstone because im depressed CRIIIIIIINGE

#purrs #my advisor who i literally met with on monday and i hid how awful i was feeling as best i could and he didn’t seem to notice: wtf she was fi #fine why is she doing this LOL. i told them (honestly) i was having issues w like eating sleeping basic hygiene etc which is like maybe tmi #but im scared that they think im faking it and so im gonna be candid bc i have been in hell. i feel better today in part bc my counseling se #session was helpful but like lol. i always get increasingly depressed at the end of the semester and ofc this semester there’s like the #whole fight w my parents plus certain other ongoing issues that are making me VERY mentally ill but that i can’t talk abt on here plus im #graduating. so it’s just like horrible and i literally cannot get work done in these conditions ive been halfassing work work and school wor #work and i just feel like im falling apart but i have to keep pushing on and i have to get this done. and im scared my profs are gonna think #im a fucking freak for being so depressed i can’t take care of myself but that’s just the depression talking LOLLLLLLL #i hope to god i will never be this sick in the head again ever in my life. i hope it will get better after i just finish my finals and stop #being a student and then if i ever become a student again i’ll be able to handle it and it won’t be this hard on me anyway. but my brain is #BATTERED and my spirit is BATTERED. i have never been able to handle this and everyone thinks i can but i can’t. it’s so stupid lol bc i get #As and im very very good at pretending like nothings wrong (either that or ppl are too scared to say they notice / do anything abt it) but l #like it always surprises ppl when i tell them im sad or upset or anxious or whatever and it’s like i have these giant gaping ragged wounds i #in my head and heart at all times and no one sees which only makes it worse. criiiiinge. but yeah no i am this 🤏🏻 close to dropping out rn i #cannae take it there’s only like 3 weeks left but i cannae take it 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😇😇 #delete later #ask to tag