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i've been seeing posts complaining about jmart as a ship name, but personally i fucking love it. yes give me my little grocery store gays i love it so much. just going to the jmart for some soup, want anything? fucking great man.

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All I ever wanted was to be written by Hiromu Arakawa

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I think about Jon telling Martin he imagines what it would have been like to meet and fall in love without the Institute and Martin saying that never would have worked out so much. Because Martin's right, Jon was an absolute asshole to him for the first few seasons, and it did take years of trauma to make them compatible. Except the mannerisms that made Jon so cruel and critical of Martin in the first place are themselves trauma responses caused by the Fears. If Jon hadn't been Chosen, traumatized, and manipulated through his entire life to become exactly what the Web wanted him to be, he could be an entirely different person. He may not have had that omnipotent fear that followed him everywhere and colored all of his interactions with everyone. He wouldn't have dismissed everyone else's trauma because acknowledging the truth of it would mean he has to acknowledge the truth of his own. He may not have felt like he had to always work himself to the point of harming himself to find answers, and hate anyone else who he thinks doesn't have to work as hard as he does to survive. He may not have cultivated a cruel, uncaring persona because he was scared of getting too close to people and having them either hurt him or get hurt because of him. He could have been someone who was kind, who was empathetic, who was forgiving- both to himself and the people around him. But that wouldn't have been the kind of person who would bring about the apocalypse, so he never got to be that person. And maybe it wasn't the web, maybe he would have been exactly the same person with exactly the same faults, but he'll never know. He can see everything but he can't see who he could have been of the evil eldritch horrors hadn't decided to destroy his life as a way to destroy everyone's life. But he can imagine it. He can fantasize about being a better person and being someone who could have fallen in love with Martin in a normal life, and be loved in return. But Martin can't understand that, because he can't imagine a world where Jon isn't what he was made into.

#sobbing on the floor uncontrollably #what the hell man #my poor little guys #the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #jonmartin #jmart

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reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something

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introducing Belphegor, my son

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I'm so normal about this show

*actively biting my arm and hand*

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WIPs from a silly little animation I’m working onnn mainly sharing these so I can have some actual incentive to finish it <333

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The most popular browsers in different countries in 2012 and 2022.

by @theworldmaps_

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Parents will ask you to disrupt the day plans you have meticulously planned out in your head on a whim and when you react even slightly negatively they will sigh and shake their head and blame you for always being a shut in

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“Is it okay if I draw fanart of your fanfic?👉🏼👈🏼”

My brother in Christ we shall have a spring wedding

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i decided all plays are time loops btw. it’s true because they keep getting performed over and over and over and the ending never changes and they can never escape it. if you even care.

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what the point of mmf threesomes if the dudes don’t fag out a lil

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Hiromu Arakawa, Fullmetal Alchemist, Chapter 23 (2003) // Kate Bush, "Running Up That Hill (A Deal With God)" (1985) // The Legend of Vox Machina, Season 2 Episode 4 (2022) // Critical Role Campaign 1, Episode 44 (2016) // The Hunger Games, dir. Gary Ross (2012) // Suzanne Collins, The Hunger Games (2008) // Ryoko Kui, Dungeon Meshi, Chapter 37 (2018).

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yes i'm normal about him. i need to gnaw on him like a no. 2 pencil