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i feel like people who were raised religious & gradually started questioning everything they had been told and eventually decided to leave those beliefs behind deserve to burn the holy book of the certain religion at least once in their lifetime

#i'd love to burn my books of devotions too why do i still have a copy of the purpose driven life #fuck that book in particular

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For all the shit i talk about my old youth leader's sermons sometimes, at least when i was in the church he wasn't a doomsday preacher and told us that there have been a lot of end times scares in history and we dont have any reason to think ours will be the real end other than that we are the ones living it. Life will keep going

#ex catholic #ex christian #shay speaks #of all things to be prompted by to remember this its roseann barr's interview w alex jones from last year.

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aaaaaaand they literally made another blog to block evade all of us and post another "callout" of my friend trying to manipulate the perception of events to make them look like a victim. give up already good lordddddddd.

#shay speaks #vent

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imagine sending someone 17 asks and then pretending you're the one being harassed. be so real right now you cannot be seriousssssss

#shay speaks #i needed to be a petty bitch where all of 6 people will see sorry #this is about smth on one of my other side blogs but goooooooood grief #they sent me an ask playing the victim and then turns out my friend got 17 asks from them #like yeah sure i'll believe its 1) not you and 2) you didnt also send 17 asks to my friend last night #i reported the ask and my friend is doing the same and sending proof that its continuing to happen #so fingers crossed this person finally gets ip banned

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Forgot to say amen after receiving communion this week and got a weird look from the deacon 🙏

#shay speaks #ex catholic #i dont care xoxo

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absolutely insane take from the priest this past sunday but apparently he doesn't consider marriages only carried out at the courthouse and not through the church as real marriages so if you got married and didnt get a specifically catholic marriage then having sex is still a sin. absolutely baffling take along with the rest of the purity culture bs he was spouting

#shay speaks #ex catholic #ex christian #purity culture #new post from shay on the vent blog yippie!!!!! /s #sorry i cant stop thinking about this like is it that important to you. #my gf and i arent super religious so i cannot imagine we'll have a religious ceremony if we do get married one day #i would prefer not to but if she wants it then i'm not gonna say no either #but that's besides the point like. idk man a marriage is a marriage does it really have to be through the church to count #what if you got married before you converted do you have to get. remarried? #thats more rhetorical idk how many people are converting post-marriage if they didnt marry a catholic #ie my dad who i do not think has actually been confirmed or gone through the conversion process #and yet he takes communion anyway which is such a big no no in the catholic church

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not how i wanted to start my friday but okay

#shay speaks #this is going here bc its a vent and nobody involved follows this blog or knows it exists #but jfc there's some stuff happening in a discord server i'm in #and i'm being asked for my opinions on it and they said they werent asking me to take sides but it feels like i am #even if you say its because you trust my judgement and see me as reasonable and reliable but like #its very. idk just like. the server was already facing some issues that have more or less been resolved #but just. eugh. great /s #anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

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Dipped back into the jw discord server for the first time in a while and actually read the server rules.

Here's some highlights:

Did they really need to make 3 separate rules about Homosexuality?

#dating/flirting not tolerated #all of these are so.....???????? #fascinating. id love to study them but unfortunately at the moment my status is blasohemous #and im not about to change it just yet

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okay new pinned being cobbled together with popcicle sticks and glue but.

Shay

23

he/they

mostly a vent blog about religion, sometimes other things

ex catholic and exvangelical #its complicated babey

follows/interacts from @/starswallowingsea

not anti-theist btw but i'm against modern american evangelicalism & general religious fundamentalism no matter the religion specifically i think it is rotten to its core. non-fundamentalist religions are fine

#shay speaks #pinned

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I need to update my pinned on here real bad

#shay speaks #misc

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Listen, i dont mean to sound like a reddit atheist, but... You ever think about how evangelical Chriatians very literally believe that there will be a genocide in which billions of humans, mostly just innocent everyday people, are condemned to suffer in hell?

And, like, that's the end. That's the finale. Of everything they believe. That's their solution for the world. A final one, if you will.

And they don't rebel. They don't say "hey, wait, that's a bit much" and appeal to their God to maybe reconsider. They don't even seem to really mind.

Instead, they worship. They conjure up an image of a genocidal maniac, and they worship it. The word "praise" is bandied about a lot. Praise. For a leader whose endgoal, very transparently, is genocide.

Suddenly a lot of history makes a little more sense.

#excangelical #yeah..... god its depressing to think about

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"Oh you need to bring your family members back to the church it'll be good for them. My brother found himself again once he started going to church again so clearly all of your family members who dont go to church need the same" no. Penis blast

God. I think one of the reasons my parents are way more insistent that I go to church is because one of the new priests is like. Harping on getting family members back to the faith and I openly do not go to church when I live away from home and now I feel like my parents think I have a demon problem

#srb #sorry this was from this week's homily #i think maybe its the sense of community that makes people need to go to church #like its a third place outside of work and home so it helps with mental health but #i dont believe. i havent believed in YEARS #clearly not going to church hasnt impacted my life that much considering #going to church by force makes me want to walk into traffic

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mom going "you'll thank me one day" for dragging me to church against my will. i dont think i will considering i haven't believed since i was like 12 years old and have been hiding it for over a decade.

#shay speaks #ex catholic #BLOWS UP okay im okay i am going to start a new sewing project soon

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GOD i fucking hate my parents sometimes

#shay speaks #eugh maybe i'll elaborate later but i need to cry so bad

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God. I think one of the reasons my parents are way more insistent that I go to church is because one of the new priests is like. Harping on getting family members back to the faith and I openly do not go to church when I live away from home and now I feel like my parents think I have a demon problem

#shay speaks #vent post #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here #i need to move out but ugh that takes. a lot of money i dont necessarily have #as soon as i get my student loans paid off ill look into finding a permanent residence away from them #my parents wondering why i never talk to them when I'm away like they dont treat me like shit when i do see them

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"We're your parents and still pay most of your bills and rent" even the $500 you threatened me with wouldnt cut into my savings I make enough but I know you don't want to do that bc I can put that money on loans and you don't want me moving out because thats a financial burden on me that would make it harder to pay back student loans and my other job is seasonal so I'm only there 5 months out of the year

Why is it so necessary for me to go to church!!!!!! Im 23 i dont care if i live at home im my own fucking person why am i being forced to go

#srb #im 5 seconds away from walking into traffic sometimes i s2g #i cant even be afforded not going to church but i told them im not going to participate anymore #i stand i sit i kneel but im not going to speak or sing or do anything else #i might also just start rejecting communion like atp i dont want to be here i dont believe i dont need to take it

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Why is it so necessary for me to go to church!!!!!! Im 23 i dont care if i live at home im my own fucking person why am i being forced to go

#shay speaks