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get off your phone. jack off to that weird fantasy you’ve been hesitant about entertaining. buy an awesome jacket. <- the real steps to self actualization

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I love when people get the mystery Brennan's laid in front of them and Brennan just so proud says "no rolls necessary"

#dimension 20 #me too

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The divine right of kings but it's a curse

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“I ought to send them a thank you card for training you up properly.”

Fanart based on @cringefailvox @spoondrifts fic "dragging its tail in the sea" on AO3! Bc I love it, the relationship between Rosie, Vox and Alastor is everything to me.

#hazbin hotel

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this is silly.

inspo.

#hazbin hotel

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There’s no such thing as work-life balance for neurodivergent & chronically ill people.

This is because everything in my life requires work:

maintaining friendships

keeping up with my hygiene

managing bills

making money

remembering my basic needs

sleeping regularly

outputting creatively

All requires some aspect of work for me.

And when everything in your life requires work, your balance goes out the window.

If you're neurodivergent and overwhelmed — I see you.

If you're chronically ill and overwhelmed — I see you.

You're not dysfunctional.

You're not incapable.

You're doing your best.

#i needed to hear this op thank you

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#mostly non-canon #it’s pretty rare i get invested in a canon ship

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#game changer #this is like when brennan immediately started building smth to hit the gong hardest in ep 1 #spoilers

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I'm sick of internet negativity, so let's combat it: reblog this and saying something nice/pay a compliment to the prev in the tags.

#a delightful person who i will take up arms for

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real boy redux

#trippy! i love it #hazbin hotel

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#me meeting anyone I dislike again

#ouat

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I don't think Buddy asks Helio any questions.

Kristen asked 'Why do bad things happen to good people?' because she believed in all the good things she was taught, but noticed the strange disconnect between the world as it was and the world as it was taught to her. So she thought, surely, if I can't come up with the answer, Helio will have it. And she hates him for dodging her question.

Buddy is far more deluded than Kristen ever was. And he is far, far angrier inside as a result, even if he deliberately conceals this fact from himself to protect himself from the inevitable mental breakdown this would cause. Buddy is not as altruistic and giving and caring as Kristen is. He wouldn't question why he was betrayed or dig into a question like 'Why do bad things happen to good people?' Those aren't the answers he needs, because of course he'd be betrayed by someone outside the church, that makes perfect sense. Of course bad things happen to good people, we simply live in a fallen world.

Or, well. He used to live in a fallen world. Now he's dead here. In Helio's divine domain.

I think Buddy, as he wanders through fields of corn to the big farmhouse where Helio is chilling out, privately thinks about the fact that Kristen Applebees' horrified expression was the last thing he ever saw before a sharp pain in his throat. I think Buddy assumes Helio knows he's thinking this and apologizes for bringing thoughts like that into paradise. I think he thanks Helio for recognizing his devotion and bringing him here once he died and dutifully deceives himself about his own rising emotions at contending with the fact that he's dead now.

After all, he was raised to die. He was raised to want to die.

To want to be here with his god whenever it was he called Buddy to him. So he doesn't feel upset, no, of course not. He's just a little surprised at how sudden it was. (How completely random. How unceremonious and unfair.) He's a little bit worried how his grandparents would react to the news is all. (He cracks a joke that maybe he'll see them here shortly after they do get the news. He doesn't laugh at it.) He had his own plans for how he'd spread the good word in life, but of course, Helio had other plans. (Nothing Buddy ever wanted really mattered. He knew that, he knew the will of Helio was the real thing that mattered, and everything else was just a small list of preapproved extracurriculars in the syllabus of his life.)

He can't be upset about this.

He shouldn't be upset about this.

This is his reward.

This place and these people and this god are his reward for a life of service and devotion and walking in the light.

It's not his place to be upset about his own reward. Kristen got upset when she went to heaven, when she met Helio, and look where that got her.

Look... look where that got her.

He thinks he hates her. For looking at him like that. All the ways she looked at him. Like he was something pitiful and contemptible. Someone she needed to threaten away from her little brother. Someone she has to double and triple check if he's going to revive her when he's under magical oath to do just that or lose his connection to a divinity she threw away after being chosen.

And then. In that last moment, she looked at him and he saw grief and horror and caring. Like his death was awful and unfair and tragic.

And he thinks maybe he hates her for that. For challenging him every conversation they had and looking at him like she knew something he didn't. Like she was above him. Like killing your own god twice in life is a preferable fate to living for the promise of eternal sunlight and cornbread in death. A promise which was kept to him.

Kristen was promised to Helio, too.

And he can't unsee her face. He can't move along and focus on what truly matters (Helio, the church, spreading the word, doling out divine punishment when needed) because he's reached the end. There is nothing left. Only this bright sunny cornfield and a god who... is nice. And who cares about him, personally. He got Buddy's name wrong the first and only time they held audience.

He thinks he hates Kristen, and he hates that that hatred isn't immediately squashed out of his soul just by being here. In paradise. Where he belongs. Where every follower of Helio belongs. Where he never has to have anyone look at him the way Kristen did ever again.

I don't think Buddy Dawn asks Helio any questions. Because how do you ask the god you devoted every waking minute of your life to, 'Why do I hate it here? Why does this feel like hell?'

#dimension 20 #spoilers #it’s all so delightfully fucked up

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#dead end paranormal park #i was so pissed off

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stretch

#hazbin hotel

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#dimension 20 #me with all my characters #the struggle is real

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twilight and dawn

doubt and conviction

mystery and clarity

the quiet of the night and the blaring trumpet sound of the day

you pray to cassandra before you sleep to take respite and ponder in cradle of darkness

and pray to ankarna as you wake for the clarity and impetus to take on the day

using doubt to question what is and is not, and conviction to do something about it

ankarna rides her golden chariot across the sky, heralding the sun and the long day before reuniting with her wife as day gives way to night, where cassandra holds sway, trailing magic in ancient forests where the light does not touch the depths

you bear their names in crucibles, at thresholds; when action must be taken, you have faith in cassandra to venture into the unknown, and faith in ankarna to light the path ahead

even in corruption, in fear of the unknown, and rage against injustice, there is hope that doubt and conviction might carry you through the dark night and into the light of day

#dimension 20 #beautifully put