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It's nice to see you on the dash again! (Marionmaverick here)

THANK U FRIEND i'm so glad to be back, i missed alisaie ...

#i'm abt to properly meet her again in my xiv replay @ the coils... #alisaie my dotter #kerjhm #✦ — out of character. ◞ #SO GLAD some old friends are still around aaa

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MURDEROF : ... headcanon heavy & lightly canon divergent, crossovers encouraged, oc & hero of ferelden friendly ༒︎ written by mel ( she / her, 21+ ), with much inspiration from HIGH FANTASY LITERATURE / WORKS ...

private & selective ZEVRAN ARAINAI from DRAGON AGE.

#as i'm working on getting this blog set up to write properly again i'm ALSO over here where #i revived zevran's blog so KNJMERKJHM #getting back into things <3 #✦ — promotion. ◞

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i softblocked about 200 people mostly for just being inactive phew good lord

#if any1 returns they're free to refollow but my god cleaning this blog up fr #✦ — out of character. ◞

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shares her snack w her

general asks / @reapcrbunny

" — well! if there's one thing i can certainly count on, it's knowing that you have food of some sort stashed away at all hours of the day. it must be better than whatever it is g'raha has, at least. he was carrying around that abhorrent bread all day."

#reapcrbunny #✦ — ic. ╱ you must take the next step‚ and all the rest after that. ◞ #✦ — endwalker. ╱ dark days will never have the final say. ◞

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SENTENCE MEME BALDUR'S GATE 3 / PART FOUR

i'll feed your innards to the ants before i do that.

you're not here to play with the locals.

question, kill, then move on.

fail her at your peril.

were i not merciful, i would slice the skin clean from your meat.

i am nothing if not merciful.

tell me: why shouldn't i run you through this instant?

you are nothing until i tell you otherwise.

nothing even approaching a useful thought in that skulll.

it costs me nothing to spare your sorry life.

i required your silence and you made me a mockery.

save your anger for the enemies.

i will skewer the jeretic with his own silver sword.

don't trust a word out of her mouth.

you were supposed to rush to my defense.

fat lot of good you are.

she could shoot fireworks out of her backside for all i care.

i don't know what just happened any more than you do.

not my usual quarry, not my usual ally.

your faith is your own concern, not mine.

i didn't think you'd react so pragmatically.

in the future, i expect you to be honest.

as if mingling with a horde of goblins wasn't bad enough.

let's do what we have to, then get out of here.

let's not linger in this place any more than necessary.

pain without purpose is a terrible thing.

you bore the pain like a true believer.

i don't think i have the stomach for this.

this place was supposed to be abandoned.

a joy to see a familiar face in such a precarious setting.

a fine mess you landed yourself in.

how better to learn the ways of a people than to live among them.

one should cherish all of nature's bounty, but goblin guts are quite far down the list.

you're a true friend of nature, or perhaps a lunatic.

it's unbecoming to demand honorifics from the one who saved my hide.

you weren't speaking lightly when you said you needed help.

that doesn't mean i can't help.

you have my sincere sympathies.

the magic used is beyond me. it's either not of this world, or so ancient as to be lost to even nature's memory.

the natural order must be protected.

there's no order anymore, only chaos.

chaos is welcome in doses.

i'm practically an expert.

you're either an excellent storyteller or you've experiences something quite exceptional.

i'd be irresponsible not to debunk such a strange claim.

i cannot trust my own mind.

there is great potential within you.

you're looking for solutions in the wrong places.

if we work together, we may turn this around.

until it is found, i will take something precious from you every hour that passes.

silence now, or i will silence you forever.

he's been resilient, but he'll talk.

i will have an explanation, or your head.

i do not wish to spill blood here.

come daylight, we will find a place to end this.

you can accept you're wrong, or we'll be rid of you permanently.

you had every chance to look the other way.

you chose this.

don't expect to be mourned.

she's a liability.

thieves aren't afforded such luxuries.

loosen the grip on your pride for one blasted moment, won't you?

imagine what we might achieve if we channeled some of that hostility back at our real foes instead of each other.

#✦ — prompts. ◞

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❥     𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐃𝐎𝐌 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 𝟑𝟓𝟖/𝟐 𝐃𝐀𝐘𝐒 ( 𝟏.𝟓 𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐗 )   (   𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟑   )    [   𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚁𝚂    ]   .

change gendered language   &   add context to your needs . happy roleplaying !!  ♡

“   are you really sure that you don’t have a heart ??   ” “   i can give you purpose .   ” “   man ,   i miss the old times .   ” “   bet you don’t know why the sun sets red .   ” “   like i asked ,   know - it - all .   ” “   you worried about the new kid ??   ” “   you said the same exact thing the other day .   ” “   i don’t even know what a heart is .   ” “   i have to keep fighting the darkness .   so i can be whole .   ” “   c’mon ,   let’s get some ice cream .   ” “   i’m gonna be away for a while ,   starting tomorrow .   ” “   i wish somebody told me these things .   ” “   find them ,   &   dispose of them .   ” “   this place is so much nicer without the loudmouths .   ” “   you earned the icing on the cake .   ” “   this is such a great spot   . . .   how’d you find it ??   ” “   we’re not even supposed to   ‘  be  ’   in the first place .   ” “   he looks a lot like you .   ” “   my name is of no importance .   ” “   i hope that you can join me next time .   ” “   what’s the matter ??   you look like you’ve seen a ghost .   ” “   you had me worried .   ” “   i guess i just needed a little time to sort out my feelings ,   you know ??   ” “   what ,   not even   one little word   of appreciation ??    ” “   good to see you made it back safe .   ” “   i moved things along just the way you wanted .   ” “   he must’ve rubbed off on me .   ” “   friends need to lean on each other every now   &   then .   ” “   just eat your ice cream .   ” “   best friends are different from plain friends ,   right ??   ” “   let us remember why we are here   &   what we hope to achieve .   ” “   all this fighting   . . .   i wonder what it’s for .   ” “   i just don’t see why having a heart is that important .   ” “   i think i’ve always been pretty much the same .   ” “   i wonder what kind of guy i was before   . . .   ” “   i thought you said you were tough .   ” “   buy me one   &   we’ll call it even .   ” “   i hope we can always be just like this forever .   ” “   well   . . .   nothing lasts forever ,   you know ??   ” “   wow ,   that was   so   not you .   ” “   ever heard of knocking ??   what do you want   ??   ” “   i can handle all the dirty work .   ” “   i knew you’d be here .   ” “   i hope we get another vacation soon .   ” “   i’m not going to tell you   all   my dark secrets .   ” “   you’re letting yourself get too attached .   ” “   you know   . . .   you’ve changed .   ” “   just give me another chance .   ”

“   you were a mistake i never should have made .   ” “   is there anything you couldn’t bear to lose ??   ” “   it’s scary to think of what it would be like without you .   ” “   you can’t fight fire with sparks .   ” “   find a new crowd .   trust me ,   those guys are bad news .   ” “   sorry   . . .   my mind’s on other things .   ” “   do you ever think about why we’re doing all of this ??   ” “   just be straight with me for once ,   will you ??   ” “   did you bring me these seashells ??   ” “   keep your mouth shut .   ” “   does the past mean nothing to you ??   ” “   don’t scare me like that anymore .   ” “   maybe you’re not completely well yet .   ” “   it almost sounds as though you know .   ” “   who am i ??   what am i here for ??   ” “   you made me a promise .   ” “   i’m sorry   . . .   i’m not sure i’ve kept my promise very well .   ” “   am i not supposed to exist ??   ” “   what would it take for me to be like you ??   ” “   to be honest ,   i’m not even sure today really happened .   ” “   since when do you ever worry about me ??   ” “   it’s just not the same without all three of us .   ” “   i’m nothing more than a puppet .   ” “   do you hate me for taking your friend away from you ??   ” “   how will i know where i belong ,   truly ??   ” “   the answer you come up with can’t just be right for   you .   ” “   well ,   we’ve had our share of drama lately .   ” “   i know we’ve seen a lot of sunsets ,   but today’s puts them all to shame .   ” “   if we ran ,   i bet we could always be together .   ” “   i think you know what needs to be done .   ” “   stop pretending .   ” “   why is it that you always have to glare at me like that ??   ” “   i’m asking you   why   you did that ,   &   you know it .   ” “   you’re not making any sense .   ” “   if only the whispers at the top carried to the bottom .   ” “   can you at least try not to harm her ??   ” “   could it be that you’ve known this whole time   &   not told me anything ??   ” “   i’ve been searching for a way to conquer the darkness within me .   ” “   you don’t have to worry about me .   ” “   best friends are supposed to be   honest   with each other !!   ” “   finding out the truth doesn’t always work out for the best .   ” “   if i can’t get answers here ,   i’ll get them somewhere else .   ” “   no one would miss me .   ” “   everybody thinks they’re right   . . .   ” “   you think you can do whatever you want   . . .   well ,   i’m   sick   of it .   ” “   i’ll always be there to bring you back .   ” “   why you gotta cause me so much trouble   . . . ??   ” “   am i the one who did this to you ??   ” “   why are you trying to stop me ??   ” “   i can’t let you go do anything crazy .   ”

#✦ — prompts. ◞

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Shortie

" kys twink "

#etherealguard #✦ — not a serious ic response. ◞ #LUNA KEJRHMKEJRHM #ALISAIE IS LEARNING TO BE A GUNBREAKER AS WE SPEAK TO SHOOT YOU IN THE FACE

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okaaaay revamped my rules for my own sake, relocated my psd & graphics, adding a couple verses for bg3, annnnd going to purge my entire inbox & draft box bc i'm dropping literally everything & starting over fresh.

i'm going to reblog some memes so if you're still around & want to start a thread, feel free to send something in & then turn it into a thread.

i'm going to go through my followers and purge a lot of people, esp anyone inactive. yada yada. feel free to reach out besties but i'm cleaning this mess of a blog UP, free me.

#✦ — out of character. ◞

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❝  BUT AS MANY TIMES  as we've fallen down, we've learned how to pick ourselves up and carry on. We take each other's hand. Share in each other's courage. Follow each other's footsteps. And turn sorrow into strength! We rise, fall, and rise again! ”

⋆  independent ALISAIE LEVEILLEUR of square enix’s FINAL FANTASY XIV  ,  on content  &  VERY spoiler heavy !  spoilers only for most recent patch are tagged  ,  proceed with caution.  ⋆  oc  /  crossover  /  wol friendly  .  ⋆  alisaie is seventeen years old  .  behave  .  ⋆  written by mel / unicorn.   ⋆

a study in seeking answers to one’s woes,  clinging to hope when all is lost,  remaining courageous though a coward at heart,  shining light within the darkness,  finding family among strangers,  and shedding one’s wings to crawl their way to the heavens.

⋆ — — — 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐊.

#✦ — pinned post. ◞ #remaking bc my pinned was BEFORE THE BETA EDITOR WAS A THING #WTF DISGUSTING KEJNRHM

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omg i don't even know if people actively follow this blog anymore hi. tldr i kinda abandoned this blog early last year {? or whenever tf} because a colossal fuckton of drama exploded in the xiv rpc and i simply was not in the mental state to handle that so i fled to, like, way more chill and calm communities at the time and continued writing there. and like kejrhm i'm so sorry for all the threads and stuff that got dropped cuz i had a lot of good interactions going on here and i feel bad about just up & ghosting ppl that were writing with me, but i got so overwhelmed / it was a bad time for me and tumblr feeling so negative at the time was rough :') i'm so sorry aha

i rly do miss alisaie and this blog tho, esp lately since i'm replaying the entire story trying to catch up on a new wol before DT drops and man part of me wants to come back here and try again cuz i love this muse / alisaie sm and i'm sad @ myself for letting myself get overwhelmed instead of just like... curating my space better kjemhkjm aaaaa

i think i'll spruce things up around here and see if i can... get my footing on here back. idrk too many people active in this comm anymore or who's still around but 😭 gonna rewrite my rules to be way tighter and mind my own space better pls i love my fighty elezen daughter i just want to vibe kejnrhmkj

#KJENMH IF ANY1 STILL HAPPENS TO BE AROUND... HI #LMAO #oof #big oof even #i'll see what i can clean up oml it's been... so long #i lost my icons but not my psd #bless #tumblr didn't save my tags tho </4 as it goes #tbt.

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bad news everyone

i exist

#✦ — musings. ╱ heal with the past moving in‚ but letting a new day begin. ◞

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❝it  was  a  nightmare.  it’s  all  right,  you’re  safe  now.❞ ( from lys! )

&  RE  :     prompt    /    @echobled.

IT’S EQUAL PARTS DISAPPOINTMENT AND RELIEF  :  her chest aches with a pain she can’t even begin to put into words as his voice reaches her, the gaze of her nightmares sifting away until there’s nothing left  ...  but it’s bittersweet, the embrace of Phoenix’s memory fading against the reassuring hands of their hero that rest on her shoulders. She’s still catching her breath from having jerked awake, the soft rocking of the carriage reminiscent of the time they’d traveled together, strangers opposite of one-another on their way to Gridania. Her hands still rest on his side from where she’d begun to pull away, perhaps not shockingly  —  she is certain the gesture had been meant in comfort, but she doesn’t know what to do with it, when those other than her brother attempt to show her compassion  :  affection, even.

“  —  it’s not,”  she starts to speak, but her voice is hoarse, parched from thirst as their long night traveling stretches on. She’s quiet, grasping for an excuse she can’t find. It wasn’t a nightmare, she wants to correct, it was a memory. But thinking on it chokes her up, makes her hands tremble in a way that finally brings them back to her side. She pushes away from him, situates completely opposite from him in the carriage once more.

“I’m fine.”  The tragedy in it, she supposes, is that fear is not what settles in her heart  :  but rather grief. She had mistaken him for someone he was not. It isn’t the first time her grandfather’s image had haunted her dreams, but she oft avoided making a fool of herself.  “I apologize for—“  Her jaw sets, unwilling to acknowledge she’d reached for him when she’d started awake.  “No. Forget it.”

#🤡🤡🤡 #ow #echobled #✦ — ic. ╱ you must take the next step‚ and all the rest after that. ◞ #✦ — unspecified. ◞

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my favorite canon trait for alisaie is her refusing to let anyone help her even when she’s on the literal brink of death bc she has smth to prove by handling things herself u just know alphinaud and the squad tm are stressed as fuck

#alphinaud urianger wol anyone who has ever touched a healer: PLEASE let me heal you #alisaie running out of their range on purpose: i CANNOT BE KILLED IN A WAY THAT MATTERS L + RATIO #✦ — out of character. ◞ #pov ali is ur found family and you wake up every day to fear this is the day she dies bc she 1v1'd a god with her bare fists #and refused to accept your cure 2's

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❝it  was  a  nightmare.  it’s  all  right,  you’re  safe  now.❞

&  RE  :     prompt    /    @moulinetrouge.

IT ISN’T OKAY  :  AT LEAST  ,  IT DOESN’T FEEL  like it is, as she holds herself doubled over on the Crystarium’s balcony. She doesn’t want to look at him, suddenly so very thankful that he had such fast reflexes in the position he held  —  she’d woken up in such a panicked start, she’d struck out at him with the intent of clawing him, none the wiser to how baseless her apparent fear had been. It’s shameful, and embarrassing, but she can’t meet his gaze as she stares intently at the ground, gasping for breath as if she’d been drowning, not sleeping. Her hands tremble against the railings and she’s only thankful she doesn’t feel sick, her eyes shut tight against stinging. She will not cry in front of him. Were it Alphinaud, she thinks perhaps she’d have handled it worse, so vulnerable in his presence  ...  but she won’t let herself show it, when he is absent.

Through a rare bout of dependency, she wishes it had been her brother that found her passed out like this  :  but it could have been anyone else, not their hero. It’s at most a bare mercy that the Crystarium is so empty at whatever hour this is.

“  —  don’t,”  she snaps, pushing herself off to whirl and face him, eyes rimmed red.  “I don’t need coddling! I’m fine. I’m fine!”  For all interrupting her uncomfortable doze had done, she seems almost more frazzled than when she’d woken up and lashed out. Her grandfather would scold her, she thinks absently, to which her chest tightens and the grief that haunted her sleep grows.  “I just—“  Her voice hitches, hoarse, and her arms gesture to the empty space around her, unsure what to do.  “I don’t have nightmares. I just didn’t expect anyone to wake me!”

#alisaie on the verge of a panic attack: I HAVE NEVER BEEN BETTER!!! BOOMER!!! #moulinetrouge #✦ — ic. ╱ you must take the next step‚ and all the rest after that. ◞ #✦ — shadowbringers. ╱ hold your colours against the light. ◞

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Cainhurst Twins

FFXIV x Bloodborne

#✦ — alisaie. ╱ but i know i won’t die‚ i’ll live through your sacrifice. ◞ #✦ — alphinaud. ╱ the answer’s in the stars‚ that everything i am is because of you. ◞ #✦ — portraiture. ◞

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❝i’m  probably  about  as  stubborn  as  you  are.❞ ( from wyatt! )

&  RE  :     prompt    /    @echobled.

SMUGLY DOES SHE REGARD HIM WITH ONLY SLIGHTLY  hidden disdain, though it is all in humorous intent. Boys are so annoying, she’s come to learn  :  each of them within the Scions dancing on every last good nerve she has yet managed to save. He’s certainly stubborn, she’ll give him that  ...  but much as her family themselves had come to learn, even he and Alphinaud had not seen anything from her quite yet.

“  —  is that a challenge?”  Her brows raise, a gesture in bloated confidence as she suddenly stomps past him, heels and all, with her rapier firm in hand.  “I’ll not be leaving you alone no matter how much you cry and plead. In fact, I think you should leave me to it. I can do this without you.”  She’s either goading him or putting on airs  :  in truth, it may be a little bit of both.  “Let someone else have a chance in the limelight for once. If you’re going to whine about 'my safety’ coming along with you, you can just stay behind instead and I’ll handle it.”

#echobled #dad says it's my turn to solo dungeons and die to vuln stacks!!! #✦ — ic. ╱ you must take the next step‚ and all the rest after that. ◞ #✦ — newfound adventure. ╱ put your hand in my hand. ◞

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❝is  this  the  face  of  someone  who’d  lie  to  you ?❞

&  RE  :     prompt    /    @makimv.

THERE ARE VERY FEW WORDS WITHIN ANY KNOWN  language which could describe how thoroughly unimpressed she is  :  her voice drops to a level of monotone that would be outright comical, were she not always caught between life and death with strangers. Her arms remain crossed as if to illustrate her point, however. To her credit, she isn’t exactly quick to threaten harm  -  if she can avoid reaching for her rapier, all the better, but asking her to trust is a whole different beast.

“With every intent to offend, quite.”  She rolls her eyes, hands shifting to place palms flat ‘gainst her hips.  “Does that line ever actually work? Insisting upon one’s own trustworthiness is akin to outright announcing that you are not telling the truth. Good people don’t have to announce they are heroes and the like.”

#HELP EKJRNHMKJNM #ALISAIE VOICE ARE U DEADASS #makimv #✦ — ic. ╱ you must take the next step‚ and all the rest after that. ◞ #✦ — unspecified. ◞