Justin Timberlake and Timbaland make elephant shadow puppets
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But I don't know how much longer I can hold on
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She always talks about after. Always comments
on the low light in the bedroom, how she can
count each ring of rib and pick out the blue pulse
at the hollow of your throat. I try to imagine what
isn’t mine: the softness of you in a bedroom that
smells like skin and her beneath you, nails in your
back like a crucifixion. I try to imagine the cocoon
of you, the possessiveness of your embrace, how
your fingers curl around her wrists like manacles.
She is slave to your passion and you are too—slave
to that untamed thing within you that croons with
wild abandon and hangs its head when you are
spent. I wonder how she can manage to keep herself
together and talk about it so normally, as if you do
not crawl into bed night after night together, feet
bound at the bases of each other’s spines like hands
praying. She doesn’t say the most obvious: that you
are beautiful, that the sight of you above her—or
below her—moving, eyes open wide and mouth
gaping is enough to shatter her. That the tilt of your
neck against the pillow and how pliable you become
beneath her hands and the little ‘o’ she leaves behind
on your shoulder with her teeth like a branding as
she comes makes her love you—impossibly, achingly—
more. It is
a love that leaves you both scraped out and hollow,
as if it has burned you clean through.
Kristina Haynes, “After” (via fleurishes)
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Nightmares really have this way of preying on your insecurities. I think my brain is using all of my fears and worries against me to destroy me. It is a war of my heart vs my brain. My brain won that one; my heart was completely powerless. I feel like my heart was stabbed repeatedly with the sharpest knife you can find. And I'm not sure what the worst part is... The first five seconds after you wake up where you're still suspended between dreaming and reality and you're not sure which is which and you would rather be dead than live in a world like this nightmare... Or the rest of the day when your brain flashes back to the nightmare and won't stop, makes you think about it constantly, and makes the rest of your day miserable. I can't shake this nightmare. I don't like this feeling. My brain is trying to sabotage me.
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