this is your friendly reminder that you will never be too much or too little to the people who truly enjoy you and your presence!!!! the people who are worth staying around will love you no matter how weird you are or how odd you come off as!!!!!! the people who truly love you are the one's who come along and accept you as you are!!!!!!! do not change yourself to fit someone else's friendship requirements!!!!!!!!
You ever suddenly connect two things from your childhood and it suddenly clicks what your parents meant to do when they did something completely different instead?
I got trained pretty early on to not show fear. I'm aware now that what my parents probably meant to do was to reassure me that whatever I was afraid of is no reason to be scared, and I should feel safe instead, but what I gathered from it was "stop showing this emotion that they don't like to see on you", and since the praise for being So Good About It was immediate, that got immediate affirmation. Good kids show no sign of being scared.
And then once I got older and started encountering situations that were above toddler-levels of scary, adults started to suspect that I don't often seem to understand the gravity of whatever situation is going on. Like I remember several occasions of adults stressing it to me multiple times that I need to be careful, do something, not do something, etc, and had me repeat the possible consequences back to them, and still not seeming convinced that I understood the gravity of the situation.
And just now it clicked. I finally understand what they thought was wrong with me. They didn't think I looked appropriately scared for the seriousness of the situation. I hadn't been expected to never show fear. They had wanted me to only express fear in situations where they thought there's reason to fear.
When Mobius said Loki's a man of action I wanted to die. HE'S NOT. Even a non-loki fan knows that he's sly and cunning and calculated and takes his time. Not jump into action and see where it takes me kinda guy