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Just discovered that The Buttress (the Brutus singer) might be transphobic :/ and to think I quite enjoyed her newer music :/

....sooo now I gotta go remove her from all my playlists on spotify bc wtf is wrong with you I don't want to support you

I am left with a sense of general fear and disappointment as it seems that transphobia is slowly creeping into more and more people and it's scary, and I'm a cis woman, I can't even begin to imagine how transfolks must feel in this climate

#music #tw transphobia #transphobia #she might also be racist and yes it does appear like she still holds these beliefs.. I don't have twitter myself but I've seen screens and #couple of them were from 2023

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Crying because space is so beautiful and yet so terrifying and we will never be able to experience it all

#it's so vast and beautiful

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Akira Toriyama, creator of Dragon Ball and Dragon Ball Z, dies at 68. Absolutely tragic. Rest in peace Legend.

#it just hit me #Dragon Ball was one of the first anime that I watched alongside Pokemon #and I also have some vague but happy memories of Arale and it feels like it's not really happening #a legend left us #I'm really sad

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"I'm not in the business of murdering innocent children, that's God's jurisdiction"

-the fucking Devil

Y'ALL

YAALLL

#oh that line is so good #The Devil's Carnival

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So I'm watching Them (2021) and I don't know how I feel about the backstory of the man with the black hat... 'cause it feels like "oh the devil tricked him so then he became racist" and it feels like you're giving him a bit of an excuse??? It's simplifying and shifts the blame??? Like it's not bigotry or willful ignorance or just being a despicable human, no, it's the devil

I might be missing something, or misinterpreted something

'cause I also thought it meant that there was nothing more vile so the only explaination is demons but it's still a bit off

Does anyone know the interpretation/explaination?

#Them #Them 2021 #I'm also white so I might very well be very fucking wrong

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I've done the thing.

Couple of premises before I start yelling uhm:

Most of this is a product of me reading too much into and overcomplicating a simple cartoon. But I'm a great overthinker ✊😩

I'm way too nice to these kids given what they did but my brain kept going they're just kids! Will somebody think of the children?1!!

I've tried to summarize/cut out a couple parts as this is already too long but I definitely also forgotten something, so correction/thoughts are more than welcome

Gabu

To me a lot of his shenanigans read as a cry for attention, specifically the school incidents and the monopoly of X-City's screens and giant hologram thing. Unfortunately, the only kind of attention he knows, or knows how to get, is negative attention. The good kind, he only gets when he rides (or used to before X-Zone), he's an mtb prodigy, he's very talented and people recognize him for that. But other than that he doesn't know how to take a compliment (maybe because he didn't get enough positive reinforcement growing up?). In fact it's worse, he actively prefers to tell people to go away rather than stand there. He even shields himself and his arm shakes a little. He literally backs away at people verbally complimenting him and coming too close to him.

These suggest to me (God I feel so pretentious) that perhaps he's being neglected to some extent, that he's not getting enough attention so he resorts to doing dumb shit because that's what works, and that he's not getting (or perhap never has, even before acting a lunatic) enough validation so he's not used to compliments (outside of riding).

So no wonder he's so protective of his status as a rider, that's possibly the only time people tell him he's good at something! In his child-mind (can't stess this enough, these are children, I would be a lot harsher if he was an adult but you know) the reasoning probably goes "oh if I lose this (the status as the greatest biker let's say), then I have nothing, that's not good".

On x-zone this status grants him power and control and apparently no supervision even from the law? Or the State?? (which is a fucking weird rule tbh, x-zonians=not the greatest strategists). We already know that he's inclined to controlling behaviours (literally ep.1 asks Sho to join so he can use the track but ONLY with his permission) and people who dispay these kind of behaviours (in various degrees obviously) often feel like they lack control in their lives so they need to regain it somehow. We also know that he already had a disregard for authority figures in his life (school incidents, fuck them teachers behaviours).

Maybe this disregard comes from the fact that he has no real guidance or supervision in his life, maybe his guardians aren't around much or don't take care of them properly. And if they aren't around much he might feel (at least subconsciously) like there's nobody to care/provide for him, so what does he do? He forces people to do that. He might feel like he's not important, so he makes himself important. If he controls people through power, fear, whatever means necessary, then they can't really hurt him. Then he is important.

However he also has a tendency to isolate, even when everyone is together he's always lounging somewhere else, he's not just not helping, he's not interacting with anyone. If he's not the one in control of the situation, he doesn't mingle, and if you tell him something, he lashes out or further isolates. Kid will literally sit crossed-armed alone in a corner and not interact at all:

Now that I think about it, connecting back to my first point for a second, he doesn't really get close to people if he can avoid it, even when he was in control of the city, he spent most of his time on a platform away from any type of social contact, and often talks to people through screens or Taiga. He keeps people at arm's lenght literally.

This need for control, this need for reassurance that he's still important often leads to very risky behaviour, especially for a child. And boy, the risks he takes are calculated but God is he bad at math. Have some highlights. He skedaddled down a building and destroyed a street just to show that he's powerful (which we know, makes you think why does he need show off that much). Surrounded himself with shady people that he probably found on bike craigslist (wasn't one a hitman or something?). Plays with explosives?? On a regular basis??? Got himself kidnapped… after playing with explosives again-- ok who the fuck is supplying him?? In the later part of the series he's just… honestly trying to get himself killed. Not only that, he also gets violent with anyone who he perceives as a threat to his power and/or position. And will try to intimidate said "threats" into submissions. (I'm not writing examples 'cause it's like… the whole series) He takes things too far. Constantly. And jury's still out on whether he feels guilty at all or not, since it seemed implied with his conversations with Yuki but before then, not really? Perhaps he was trying to rationalize it in some way but the gears are turning now?

Prone to throwing tantrums (and hands (and buildings)) if something doesn't go his way, which could be a sign of emotional immaturity, except that his tantrums now come with superpowers.

There's definitely an escalation of worsening behaviours during/after X-Zone, and it seems nobody did anything about it so they just let him run with it. It feels like none (in his circle) ever told him "no" so when they finally do, he lashes out.

This child is a danger to himself and anyone around him. He's a walking red flag. Redder than his hair.

His mind is very much set on a "big fish eats little fish" mentality (I think he even quotes it a couple of times) and he really doesn't want to be a little fish (no sir, he wants to be a shark).

But the thing is, he's so young! Why does he realize so well that people in power will take advantage of those under them! It's such a bleak and hard-hitting concept to realize as a child! Is that why he's so obsessed with power?? Does he fears what happens when he's not?? Because it goes so far beyond just wanting to be the center of attention and doing whatever he wants (which is common in children, I would even say normal, but on this level? Fuck no. On this level something's wrong). I'm having a fucking stroke this kid doesn't make sense

Way too chill about being alone locked up in a jail cell like wtf. You're a child, freak out, yell, do something.

Taiga

Lots of enabling behaviour here. There is not a single moment where he has control over the situation with his brother (or even the four kings to an extent). People who engage in these types of behaviour usually do so to avoid conflict and we know that Gabu has an explosive temper, to say the least. We've seen that he's generally more chill so it's not hard to imagine that he might be more soft-spoken and have difficuties standing up for himself in general.

However that's not to say he's blameless, up to a certain point he outright encourages his gang (ep.1 he's more than happy to "steal" the land from Sho, even offers to race himself) and is very much on their side. When the identity of ST was not yet revealed he was very happy to lord over the team's various minions, some of whom were cruel with insane plans and he was just like "yeah sure, no problems". And while we can imagine that he was discussing this approach behind the scenes and trying to find other, less violent, ways, the enabling behaviour make me think that he probably didn't try that much. It could also have been a way to release his frustrations onto others, onto people who he perceived as "weaker" or who could not retaliate. A way to regain control (well, that's a pattern), to do onto others what's been done to him. Which I'd like to point out, in case it's not clear, is very unhealthy and toxic and needs to be adressed asap.

He does seem more level-headed than his sibling but that could be age as he is a bit older OR, going with the "where are their guardians" speculation, it could be that he HAD to mature early and felt a responsibility to do so because he had to take care of his brother as there was nobody else around to do so. A grew-up-too-soon type situation. That could also explain why he lets Gabu get away with so much bullshit, because a) he also didn't have any guidance or supervision growing up so he's just doing the best he can, b) he possibly even feels bad that the guardians aren't around much so he lets his brother get away with a lot of things 'cause he's just a kid and we're alone and fuck everyone.

He's a lot more sociable and appears to have no problem actually speaking and interacting with other people, he was seemingly fine integrating with X-City people when he was left behind in the 2nd part of the series (I feel like if there had been problems Yuki would have pointed them out), and he probably also had to regain their trust! We don't really know if he has friends outside of his team, but with his personality he very well could?? And that's probably one of the few things that actually helped?? We've never seen him at school with the kids (like in the same school building I mean, I know he's older so he's hopefully in another grade lol) so perhaps he has school friends that are just not bikers?

I'm saying this because it seems to me that his brother has carefully created himself this bubble and he only knows how to interact with people inside of it, where he has control. Taiga obviously fits inside of this bubble BUT he's also able to leave and interact with other peers without much difficulty. Or at least that we percieve, he might be dying inside but is able to handle himself and push through.

He does have a tendency to push through even when he's hurt, like he gets injured (a lot) but tries to move/race/whatever anyways as if he doesn't have the time to just rest (maybe because he couldn't afford to spend time on himself growing up?? Food for thought??)

Also this could be nothing, 'cause it only presents… like once, but he was quite upset whenever Gabu prioritized Koei in team-related tasks so maybe he does crave a little bit of attention/validation too?? Like "I was the one who always took care of this gremlin, I was here first, I'm still fucking good and I always took care of the team so why are we caring about this dude now??"

But that could also just be me trying to look for patterns of behaviour in a silly cartoon. Who knows! 😅🤷‍♀️

Both sibling

Then, there's the fact that both of them really don't want to go home nor feel the need to. Taiga only relents when Gabu goes too far, but it feels like it's more of a consequence ''x-zone changed you so now we have to go home because you need to calm down''. He never really expressed a wish to go back. (That's a red flag. what the fuck is happening at home??) You know when a kid is throwing a tantrum/doesn't want to go home and it's said that parents should just pretend to leave so the kid will panic and give up (always worked on me)? Yeah, these two would be waving fucking goodbye and go to Mcdonald's! Not a normal child behaviour.

Also their relationship and the reationships they have with the other characters are unstable to say the least.

So my diagnosys is bring them to a psychologist, possibly a psychiatrist, because there's a worryngly long list of behaviours that needs to be addresed asap. It's hard to say if it's trauma (we never got backstories 😭) or a neurodivergency of some kind but they definitely need help.

Also this is a point that has nothing to do with anything but I just realized that they seem to be really expressive kids, especially Gabu with his clothing in X-Zone and the cape-thingy, which yes it's showy so it might be tied to his need for attention and to be feared to be in control (not sure why this particular cape thingy would be scary to some but he's a kid so maybe that's just the interpretation his child mind is going for), but they also both wear face paint/make up and Gabu paints his nails. They are probably the ones who drew the ST emblem and even on Earth, before everything started, their bikes are personalized (Gabu has the name of the team written on it so probaby Taiga does as well)

flailing my hands, kicking my feet as my brain yoink out samejima angst ideas bc of that one headcanon

#and I would have so much more to say about their relationship or on why a child is so violent but this is already long #hope it's coherent enough lol #I'm deceased #idaten jump #my childhood

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You know with all the patches coming out and all the improvements and all the things that didn't trigger when they should have had etc. I'm really this close🤏🤏to fuck around and restart.... from like act I

#bg3 #Baldur's Gate 3 #I'm really torn #I haven't even finished it once #maybe from act II

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Io non so se servono ma vorrei solo aggiungere anche le petizioni che ho trovato su change.org per boicottare l'Eurovision e come viene detto anche nel post almeno far escludere Israele.

Come ha detto anche circes-grotto neanche io sono sicura che questi link siano utili o se, per ignoranza mia sicuramente, non ho capito qualcosa, nel caso vi prego fatemelo sapere e provvederò a cancellare/correggere

Petizione 1

Petizione 2

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#important #post molto meglio di cosa volevo fare io e credo anche più utile #Eurovision

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Io sto ancora pensando a come sia finito in top5 Irama

Sono rimasta segnata da questa cosa

#Sanremo #sanremo 2024 #sanremo2024 #qui intanto si fanno le sei e io a pensare a ciò #no ma le cose serie proprio

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Comunque ho iniziato Sanremo che ero sana e l'ho finito con il mal di gola e la febbre, devastata proprio manco il santino di Mengoni mi ha salvata

Un applauso al ballo del quaqua che ci ha dato da mangiare e a Diodato per essere diventato un rapitore

Ci vediamo all'eurovision... forse (perchè sono andata a controllare finalmente e ho scoperto che Israele e credo pure Arzebaijan sono ancora in gara--avevo dato per scontato proprio tranquillissima che no ma scema io che non ho socials-- ma finchè non inizia mi riservo la speranza che vengano cacciati, intanto andiamo a firmare tutte le petizioni qui e qui o almeno queste sono quelle che ho trovato, magari poi faccio un altro post)

ciau 👋🏻

#questo post è per me praticamente per concludere #Sanremo #ma chi no l'ha ancora fatto vada a firmare- so che è poco ma forse qualcosa fa-- domani magari faccio un altro post

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....Infatti ho detto meno, non per niente. E non trovo giusto il fatto che radio e stampa spingano tantissimo certi partecipanti fino al punto che rimontare diventa impossibile, questo mentre altri partecipanti, spesso con pezzi "più scomodi" ci rimettono

Poi ripeto, quest'anno c'è andata bene, Angelina è molto brava e porta un testo abbastanza interessante

Comunque il voto di radio e stampa dovrebbe contare meno, alla fine è la gente che ti ascolta e la gente non avrebbe fatto finire Irama in top5 con una canzone nella media o anche, per carità non me ne voglia, Annalisa, che è fighissima e tutto eh, però la canzone non è da podio

#Sanremo #spero di essermi spiegata meglio

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Questi la ship la cavalcano proprio come si cavalca un--[redacted]

Vorrei ricordare che dentro ci sono sempre le mogli così 👁👄👁��👄👁

#Sanremo #sanremo 2024 #sanremo2024 #Fiorello #Amarello #sono morta e risorta 15 volte con questa uscita

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Comunque il voto di radio e stampa dovrebbe contare meno, alla fine è la gente che ti ascolta e la gente non avrebbe fatto finire Irama in top5 con una canzone nella media o anche, per carità non me ne voglia, Annalisa, che è fighissima e tutto eh, però la canzone non è da podio

#Sanremo #sanremo 2024 #sanremo2024 #ma tanto 'sta cosa succede ogni anno quindi scema io

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Va beh raga almeno Angelina ha una bellissima voce e una canzone più interessante delle solite ballads

Non c'è andata male, all'euro almeno faremo bella figura

#Sanremo #sanremo2024 #sanremo 2024 #Angelina Mango #edit che mi son informata un minimo-che poi ci tocca boicottare l'eurovision se non banna israele è un'altra storia ma spero ancor lo facci

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EDIT: A quanto pare i messaggi non partivano manco per Angelina 💀💀💀 Rai ma che cazzo fai 💀💀💀

[Lascio anche il post vecchio per chiarezza sotto il leggi di più perchè il sentimento di vergogna è comunque presente ma ripeto, I VOTI NON PARTIVANO]

Comunque i messaggi di Ghali e Geolier che non partivano raga che vergogna 💀💀

Non è neanche bello per la Angelina che ha vinto povera, cioè poi magari si fa i problemi e le resta il tarlo del "chissà se era pilotata o ce l'ho fatta da sola"

Madonna Rai che vergogna 💀💀💀

#Sanremo #sanremo 2024 #sanremo2024 #Ghali #Geolier #Angelina Mango #non è una bella cosa

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L'avevo chiamata, lo sapevo

edit che mi son informata un minimo: che poi ci tocca boicottare l'eurovision se non esclude Israele (perchè a quanto pare no, non è scontato) è un'altra storia ma io ci spero ancora (nella sua esclusione intendo)

Va beh abbiamo capito che 'sto Sanremo lo vince Angelina (che è brava eh) però ancora un po' io ci spero in Dargen all'Eurovision o Ghali con l'alieno in girula

O anche Geolier perchè portare il Napoletano all'eurovision sarebbe una figata

#Sanremo

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Cosa vi avevo detto?? Sono preveggente io

#Sanremo #sanremo2024 #sanremo 2024 #che poi non sono neanche incazzata perchè almeno lei è brava