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an impossible conundrum presents itself,

when your person of comfort,

is also your biggest critic.

[bobopinejay]

TAYLOR SWIFT TICKET FOR SALE !!

Hey everyone! I have ONE ticket to The Eras Tour in SINGAPORE for sale!

Date : 4th March 2024

Venue : National Stadium, Singapore

Seat : CAT 3, Section 148

Dm if you're interested! Willing to show proof of payment and everything. I just really want to get rid of this ticket please I'm desperate :/

#taylor swift #the eras tour #singapore #tickets #ticket sales #taylornation

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i don't think my bf knows how to love me.

i think my problem is that i expected more.

when I shouldn't have been expecting anything at all.

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someone motivate me to study please. i hv a psych test.

#test #college #study motivation #student

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I'm a very scared person.

I'm scared of being wrong. I'm scared of being a burden. I'm scared of being alone.

Most of all, I'm scared of being rejected.

I crave validation like it's the balm to heal all my wounds. It's like a dopamine shot straight into the vein.

"You did good today!"

"You're beautiful."

"You got an A."

I don't know how to be strong. The kind of person that walks into a room and demands attention. The kind of woman that carries self-assuredness like it's a comfortable and well-worn coat around her shoulders. My coat is crumpled up and shoved under my arm. I carry it around like it's an afterthought, unassuming. To draw as little attention as possible.

How do I state an opinion as if I believe it's a fact? How do I confront someone without my heart beating out of my chest and my face turning red?

I like to blame my father for this. The scolding and the gaslighting and the belittlement produced an 18 year old girl who bows her head and smiles awkwardly when someone insults her.

I don't know how else to be. I don't know how to fix this. Other than pretend I'm OK when I'm not. Pretend that their offhanded comment didn't drive a knife into my heart and make me feel more insignificant than I thought anyone could ever make me feel - that my best friend could make me feel.

I'm hanging by a string, and I'm worried that any day now, the million little chips and nicks I take will make me shatter for good.

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no but like yeah. :(

Do I like reading depressing stuff? Or do I like getting a sense of comfort and understanding when I feel I'm all alone?

[bobopinejay]

Childhood was technicolour, 

Adulthood is grey,

Weren’t we so sure of our invincibility,

That our dreams are an inevitability.

#writing #poetry #im on my period and depressed #send help

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EYYYY CONGRATSS!! WE'RE GOING TO THE ERAS TOUR WKDKWKND

CAME ON HERE TO SCREAM OVER THE FACT I GOT ERAS TOUR TICKETS!!!

March 4th 2024, Singapore ! I'm gonna murder that Cruel Summer bridge.

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@remuslupininskirts praying for you!! you got this!!

CAME ON HERE TO SCREAM OVER THE FACT I GOT ERAS TOUR TICKETS!!!

March 4th 2024, Singapore ! I'm gonna murder that Cruel Summer bridge.

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it's the way I find smoking gross, but shotgunning is the hottest thing I've ever seen.

will never make sense to me.

blaming @the-sun-is-cold for the unhealthy amount of shotgunning i’ve had going on in my imagination for the past 24 hours

[bobopinejay]

CAME ON HERE TO SCREAM OVER THE FACT I GOT ERAS TOUR TICKETS!!!

March 4th 2024, Singapore ! I'm gonna murder that Cruel Summer bridge.

#taylor swift #the eras tour

[bobopinejay]

14 yo me finding a lump in my breast and waiting 3 years to say anything.

not my finest moment ngl.

btw im fine. 😭

(In reference to a medical thing)

My parents: how long has this been happening??????

Me: eh 3 or 4…

Me: … weeks

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OMG UR LIFE IS ABT TO CHANGE

someone give me something to watch

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I feel like I'm not meant to work a job uk.

like I'm meant to just vibe. have money and vibe.

but financial dependence is fucking scary so I can't just marry a rich man.

but if said rich man was old...and happend to die of "natural causes." and his poor grieving wife would get all his money...

like that could work.

ugh fine ill become a lawyer I guess.

I'm rlly craving a pain au chocolat rn.

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it's like sometimes I wanna get in a car and drive really, really far away and never come back to this house. but I can't cause I feel bad for my mum, and I feel bad for my brother. I'm used to being the unproblematic middle child who never got much attention. why do I hv to be the responsible one? like god just leave me alone. I just wanna go back to when I was 10 and no one cared.

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I wish I cld dance. like professionally. like ballet or bharatanatyam or smt.

dancing is such a hot girl sport, uk?

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idk what it is about men in messy suits. but it's hot.

emphasis on MESSY. like ugh I cannot.