chaosmushroomsushi

[chaosmushroomsushi]

literally us cause you're a crazy person who wakes up at 4am🖤🖤🖤🖤

#letters to my loves ill never send #letter to my god #ftm #mlm #frm mlm #queer

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I crave being craved

#mlm #trans #ftm mlm #ftm #mlm longing #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans #speaking to the void

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I am hopelessly

and irrevocably

in love with you

I just wish I could get even a glance from you in that way

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #ftm #mlm longing #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans #hopelessly in love #hopeless romantic

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I'm such a hopeless romantic

with so much emphasis on hopeless it's a shock you can even add romantic to the end of it

#mlm #trans #ftm mlm #ftm #mlm longing #mlm pining #queer #speaking to the void #ftm trans #hopeless romantic #hopelessly in love

[chaosmushroomsushi]

me literally sending this to you: us🥰🥰🥰

you: yeah

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #ftm #queer #ftm trans #depression

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I lay among the fallen leaves and stare up at the clouds

dreaming that one day you may love me back

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I'm laying in my bed

and I want nothing but to lay curled up to you

in a freezing room

because you get hot easily

and I overheat easily

and if the room is freezing we can cuddle AND maybe have a blanket on us :D

but also that just sounds comfy

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans

[chaosmushroomsushi]

personally you'll have to try a little harder, some pepper jack or like brie but...I can be bribed

with a lot of food tbh

im a hungy lil boi

I can be pretty easily bribed lol

as a white person i can confirm that cheese is basically like god and life to me. i can be baited with cheese 100% of the time. i will tunnelvision a wedge of sharp cheddar from the other side of the room in any and every setting

#adhd #audhd #autism #funny #ftm #queer #food

[chaosmushroomsushi]

ok no but I'd love this. it would help me immensely and lead to less self hate and if I ever found out I'd be so endeared

[chaosmushroomsushi]

we're sitting in a booth in a bar

I've ordered some cheese fries

we're sipping on our respective drinks

we're just sitting in silence

my fries come and the quiet munching on them starts

I unsuredly offer you some

"I know you don't like to share food but I didn't know if things like this was different"

you take a fry without a word and pop it into your mouth

for another while we sit in silence just eating fries and sipping alcohol

you scoot closer to me and I look up at you but you're not looking at me

I just lay my head against your shoulder, you lay your hand on my knee and gently squeeze it

and we spend the rest of our time like that

sitting in silence sipping alcohol and eating cheesy fries watching people bustle around us in the busy bar

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans #romance #depression

[chaosmushroomsushi]

[chaosmushroomsushi]

it's been a long day dear, let me give you a break and add a little ease

let's have fun in the ocean then come back home and cook your favourite food together

then I'll make you something sweet but small because I know you won't let yourself have much because of your sweet tooth

we'll take a shower and curl up in bed together and I'll rub your back helping you relax

grabs your hand. you've had enough plot and exposition and character development lately im taking you to the beach episode

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans

[chaosmushroomsushi]

when you fall in love with someone at 12 and never fall out of love with them it tends to fester and get pretty intense

he is my whole world, I don't know if I could live without him, I certainly have no desire to

but it would be easier if I was even a sliver of his

#letters to my love i'll never send #about my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I wish I gave you the peace and happiness you give me

#letters to my love i'll never send #letter to my god #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans

[chaosmushroomsushi]

right now we are both so depressed

and don't really want to be alive

but both of us want neither to be dead

we both want the other to be happy

but we're so far away from each other

and I just imagine us sitting on a cliff with each other staring out at the ocean

(I don't know why we would cause of my debilitating fear of heights but that's not the point)

and part of me suggesting we kind of fulfill Dazai's desire

just go off the cliff together

but I wouldn't fully mean it and would be serious

just a depressed thought of how to fix our problems

but I think it would be almost therapeutic to sit silently looking out at the ocean with you

give me a little peace

#letters to my love i'll never send #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans #letter to my god #depression #passive suicidality #love

[chaosmushroomsushi]

I want to lay silently in your arms listening to your heart beat, our breathing, and rain splatter against the window

#letters to my love i'll never send #mlm #trans #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans #romance #letter to my god

[chaosmushroomsushi]

do you ever feel like having a whirlwind romance where you fall madly in love, dancing in the rain, seem like soulmates kind of madly in love. the kind of romance you only see in movies or read about in books

but then you both end up just not being good for each other and you know it and so you end up breaking up

and both leaving more broken than you were in the start but it's something you wouldn't ever trade for anything in the world?

#mlm #trans #speaking to the void #ftm mlm #mlm longing #ftm #mlm pining #queer #ftm trans #gay #hopeless romantic #romantic #love #mlm love #trans love #love story #lovers