I think the thing that disappoints me the most about the whole Jeremy soule thing is for some foolish reason I thought my favourite game ever would be safe. I saw other fandoms and communities be torn apart by rape allegations, and I thought that the skyrim fandom and the game itself couldnt possibly have this big of a controversy. I was so wrong. I'm crushed and disappointed that the music that has kept me from panic attacks is that of a rapist. I dont really know how to feel about all this. I love the music and skyrim in general so much, but now it will forever be in the back of my mind. I'm kind of at a loss for words and I dont know how to feel.