edenmuses

[edenmuses]

opening doors to rooms full of stars

they were there all along

beneath the stale fears i used

to consult, night by merciless night

year by enduring year

then-a shimmer in the universe

and you fell all the way into my heart

examining every piece

you knew it all at once

gently blowing the tendrils of cobwebs away

without even a thought for what they covered

and i write in secret now

to let a future you know and understand

that you were it for me when i saw your

unfettered soul with a raw beauty that made

the heavens weep and sigh,

envying your golden light,

and i know that 'i love you'

will never be just recompense

yet it's all that i have to give

to you, and so i give it,

always, forever, to you

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[edenmuses]

my soul was made to be always heavy

to carry within it the aching night sky

with violent flashes of starlight

careening through the valleys of my mind

there are billowing storm clouds imprinted on

the world behind my eyes

and i pilfer through every tonic proffered by

a travel-worn sigh

yet I know

that its burdens - so beautiful and weighty-

are always and ever-soley mine

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[edenmuses]

little boat rising

inside my little heart

sails gently blowing

waters gently growing

the sun is always friendly

and I - no longer dreading

drift into an unknown country

safe amidst an unknown certainty

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[edenmuses]

he's doe-eyed and lovely

a cool breeze kissing

sun-kissed skin

never a secret he

wears the world

with a warmth that fends off

my winter hues

he exists so beautifully-

so painfully-

and i, like a wilted flower

beauty long-forgotten

and rot in my petals-

i fall at his feet

every night in my mind

leaving my sacred hubris behind

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[edenmuses]

i cannot play at love

there's a wizened face i see

every morning in the mirror

jeering at me

always there in the corner of my eyes

yet I will not play at love

ghost circle me

hounding, and howling

on the moors I get lost within

every night

i have nothing to answer them with

except-

that I won't play at love

and there's no morning that I will not fight

no memory that i will not drown

no storm that I cannot douse

but-

i cannot play at love

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[edenmuses]

i always hated soft,

hated slow

the sweetness of honey

as bitter as tar

the gentle breeze would

always mar

i thought it wasn't what I was

and how i could ever be

now I feel robbed by all the years

where youth told me,

that I could be as hard as an oak-

and never be cut down-

chasing away the birds that

would rest in my leaves

i thought they were trying to steal

everything that I thought would give me peace

i invite them now,

the birds, with everything

to teach me all I've never known about

how to be soft; how to be sweet

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[edenmuses]

the world humbled me-

neitzsche's ubermensch

shattered through less than

an arrow through

Achilles heel

yet

it no longer steals from me-

quantam mechanics and i

will never be at peace

but i can still watch

the growing trees

and ask them

how to be

with no desperate primal

yearning to understand

everything

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[edenmuses]

watch the light post

flicker- teetering on

the edge of life

i can see the road

only sometimes from home

a pair of footprints

at home in the snow

snaking a path through

the frozen meadows

always only ever alone

frostbitten kisses along

my pink-tainted cheek bone

only a spectre of those

who i thought could keep me

from fermenting- growing

always colder, and brittle

like his fingernails that carved

their place inside of my home

the heart of my heart

encased now in stone

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[edenmuses]

10 years is

a page in a book

changing my t-shirt

learning to cook

i'm frightened- though

of breaking my feet

slipping into quicksand

like everyone else does,

that my eyes will go dim,

and the sun might too

that i'll forget

to eat, and drink,

and breathe

You.

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[edenmuses]

it's funny how

when I forget to drink

the honey- the gold

i think, less of the

moon that orbits

my room each and

every night- you said

'be gentle', and so filled

my heart with rocks that

almost killed me- until

your words ran their course

leaving in October

and i no longer felt you

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[edenmuses]

we were never dogged

by the same old demons

but we saw in perpetuity

the same unmade sky

made alive through the

times where we built

bridges over the eons

and we called it

'forever'

remembering seasons

where similarity

changed her face

for a silent understanding

that remains as indelible

as the stars of the night

that when once- in our youth-

we saw only as plight

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[edenmuses]

i carved myself out of every page

your words are mine- are me

and you

afflicted as a storm-tossed sea

locked away your memories

a gift of yours

a gift to me

to find the world

with reverence so holy

it made even the eons weep

to see you steal

their restless hearts

and swap them for

an enduring peace

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[edenmuses]

i can't see the moon anymore

and i can't see me

but at last my mind can rest

knowing that i let you leave

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[edenmuses]

i forgot how to breathe

and see and feel

the last rays of sunlight

dancing along my

sweat-drenched skin

to hear the syrupy

bird-song echoing through

another spring morning

theres only a cawing

that creaks around

every corner and

a pair of black wings

flickering out of sight

every time I think that i

can finally be again

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[edenmuses]

apples in her cheeks

and alacrity of heart she

holds December now

with a less wistful

grip,

slipping softly back

into a dreamy daze

unfurling within a

familiar haze

ensconced once again

with the ready hope

of sunlight-painted

happier days

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[edenmuses]

i became the ache

that my heart forgot to carry

where have i gone?

i pose to Aristotle, to Plato

what form can i attend to

can beg of

to show me the sun

the sum of every ache

of every heart

and wander, falteringly

back to my cave

where the shadows await

my enduring embrace

where I can forget

that my heart

forgot how to break

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[edenmuses]

cut up my rainbow

bury me everywhere

beneath the cool earth

within the quiet night

put me away again

make me all gray again

let me find them all

rummaging through

the world that I cast

with my own dead eyes

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