mumblelard

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i never could get the hang of or skeleton dreams

last night i dreamt the police were after me again. i dreamt i was at a party full of people who wanted to talk to me. i dreamt the dream of secret rooms. i dreamt of a barren mountain and a deep dark hole

#mumblelard #second blue moon epoch #first spring #i was here for some of the beginning most of the middle and all of the end #end of messages #Spotify

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grains of paradise reversed or bitrot waning

last night i dreamt of the job i had some thirty years ago at the check processing center. when i woke up i could remember the names of the different jobs we ran and how the machines felt when they ran, but i couldn't remember the names of the four coworkers that died in the four years i worked there. still though, i could see the face of that red headed kid talking through the last hours of a friday shift about taking his motorcycle out for the first time after a long ohio winter and what he did instead was go home and kill himself with a shotgun. when i finally did fall back to sleep, all my dreams were filled with the lost

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#the world forgetting by the world forgot #string theory #deep lakes #uncle james #nightmares #randy described eternity #bull sluice #pepper grinders #pandemic era #fifth spring

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i was there for some of the beginning most of the middle and all of the end or purple

last friday we drank four loko slushies and made slappers, but the friday before that, cassidy brought stained glass unicorns for the four of us to color while we drank genuine dollar bucket nonsense. we all took them home and hung them in sunny windows, shared portals into a glowing world

#a can of numbskull and a ticket to the outer colonies #and the next day we went to the renaissance faire #and that would fix everything #unicorns #widespread shortages of purple #pancake day #prisoners #polaroids #portals #a woman named drown #how i rose from the dead in my spare time and you can too #second blue moon epoch #first spring

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manifestations of my familiar

#boba #mondays #mumblelard

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somehow this drawer in my nightstand, which is normally empty, has come to resemble an everyday carry post for chaotic neutral locket cats and also

i am ready for the time of the year when there are too many watermelons

i saw my first stinkhorn of the season this week

i missed seeing the northern lights in georgia because i was zonked on four loko slushies

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i want to go on a ten day trip to tokyo where i sleep in a different capsule hotel every night and i ramble around as i am wont to do and buy a capsule toy from the first machine i see at eleven past the hour every hour i am awake and at the end i line them up like a bunch of pocket sized diary entries. also beer in alley bars and little bits of food grilled over charcoal

i am reading the blue octavo notebooks, for the first time since i was working on that project during lockdown, and experiencing and unexpected wiggly steroscopic perspective on this mumblelardian epoch

i am leaving now to go buy yeast donuts at the supermarket bakery

#sundays #boba #bedside tables #flick knives #stinkhorns #north fulton county #georgia #pandemic era #fifth spring #end of messages

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finn and fallie came over after work yesterday and we sat at my kitchen table drinking four loko slushies, making slappers, catching up and other assorted nonsense. we talked about truck fires, free coffee, solar flares, and cicadas. we marveled at the true tales of opal christine, the man who lost a day before it ever even happened, the golden child's totaled car. we remembered past adventures and speculated on adventures upcoming. it was a very good day

This happens every time.  Even though we agree that Webster’s Third is the default reference dictionary of our era, if Finn or Fall lose a challenge there are inevitably calls for the OED or the revered Webster’s Second.  Eventually someone makes a snarky remark about picking up one of those stupid scrabble “dictionaries” and it turns into this.  I can’t even remember what the word in question was.

#jen fell into the void #you throw a rotten pear under the hanging tree for the squirrels to fight over #sublime donuts #skull girls #we eat the whole buffalo #dollar bucket nonsense #novelty frozen pizzas #north fulton county #opinonated small appliances #snarky smoke detectors #cousins both fallen and not fallen yet #four loko slushies #i found myself caught in a pocket universe #fridays #second blue moon epoch #first spring #and that would fix everything

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i suppose you're all wondering why i've gathered you here today or happy friday imaginary constructs

#katie #eileen #maggie #allison #rita #linda #jessie #daniel #ed #josh #karen #gladys #mary #bill #dawn #adam #grace #bea #melanie #janet #rhonda #brittany #i heart dad #pat #catherine #elizabeth #jose #vanessa #carter #maria

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the storms brought a cool breeze along and i opened all the windows and even the lodger enjoyed the change

walking back from the library by the shortcut through the woods, i saw a big old auntie tree had fallen in the night and i full smelt the damp of the wet ground that had failed to hold her roots. through the canopy, i could see just enough of the sky to know i wasn't going to make it home before the next storm hit and suddenly, for a moment, i felt real and alive in the middle of it all. the ache, anxiety and sadness that hold this body were together indistinguishable from the the thrill, the relief, the joy of being there in that place for that time. i carried that feeling the rest of the way home. i didn't notice when it started to rain but i was soaked by the time i got home and my face is wet now from remembering it

#what is the farthest you have fallen #silent entreaties #sixty four days strange and many new things but none of the things they told me to expect #the lodger #peruvian pink toed tarantulas #damp forests #donuts #epiphany #bull sluice #sometimes i forget #second blue moon epoch #first spring #things in my boyfriend's apartment that just make sense

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the thunder was so loud this morning it scattered all my dreams or gifts from my familiar

boba brought back this tiny, witchy leaf from her morning hunt and delivered it to me at my desk. i'm putting it in her whisker jar while i figure out what it is for

#gnosis #nexus #mr tumnus #are there other worlds like this one or is this the only one #uncontrollable fits of conversational aposiopesis #candy corn #cotton street #kodama #sleeping in boats in front of buses #battered wooden desks #lumps of glass melted in a fire #brumation #boba #second blue moon epoch #first spring

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and that would fix everything or gratuitous picture of mumblelard wuersday

#notes to a benevolently neglectful dog #and everyone we know #all at once #in this world anymore #transcontinental #paleoviral #mumblelard #siberian slumps #sweet unexpected moments of ecstasy #running backwards #starting over #shivs vs. shanks #hob kettles #curry everyday #rambling rainbows #and finally be home #antarctic cartography #found polaroids #angry apes #second blue moon epoch #first spring

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today's river or thinking what you're thinking i am what you thought

early this morning, i dreamt of a pad of giant purple sticky notes, lying on my lap, my hand poised to write the next step forward for this life of mine

yesterday i followed a water snake swimming along the shore and found a seashell buried in the mud on the side of the road

on saturday i saw an andean condor, a fire eater, and a busking tortoise

today,i am at a loss, it's already so muggy hot and it's not even summer yet

#curse words #prestidigitation #boggle #don't be afraid you're already dead #i saw eighteen turtles yesterday #and a dream of an old building with odd shaped rooms and secret doors #raspberries #bug jars #second blue moon epoch #first spring #end of messages

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tuber runes sweet ruins

finn and i were trying to measure the distance to the horizon that is the future beyond which all possibilities appear equally fantastic. at this moment it shimmers elusively somewhere between two and a half and five and a half weeks

last night i dreamt that i saw the first girl i ever kissed dancing in the picture window of her house at night

i dreamt i traveled to the center of the bog each night to carve monsters out of petrified drift

sitting in my chair just before bed, the sound of the nightbirds through the open door stopped suddenly and i could hear a child and her mother crying quietly from across the courtyard

i have to go now. i am late to ramble

#a thousand and one true names but only eleven remain #with the pillar i had finally removed myself altogether #evening shadows #april #bog monsters #sweet potatoes #simultaneous brood emergence #the owls are not what they seem #kitchen sinks #the sinister garden #deadbolts #bolt holes #rusty nail #a sample of teflon coated fiberglas fabric used to construct the dome #april gave more than it took this year #or some portion thereof #abandoned farms #quiet corners #wardens #wards #second blue moon epoch #first spring #and then we may finally be home

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assorted motley or happy may day imaginary constructs

#kitchen-sinks #gentle giants #google-eyed cupcakes #foolish kittens #four-eyed dipsomaniacs #pastry skulls #gangsta deweys #grey-eyed girlfriends #and #rambling rainbows #mayday #north fulton county #georgia #end of messages

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this morning, in that bit of sleep between waking up too early and waking up too late, i dreamt of finding a wasps nest hanging in the eaves of a childhood home

i saw twenty-two goslings yesterday

without warning or preamble, my dad started texting me daily bible verses at five thirty in the morning. so far, the selections have included two minor old testament prophets and one pseudonymous sibling of you know who

i am currently listening to a lot of cavity, p.s. eliot, waxahatchee, weed, and live the fall albums. also, a found playlist that starts donnie darko then wanders down the wrong kind of alley, and when i truly need a moment of genuine serendipity, a found skins uk series one through seven playlist on shuffle

after being separated for almost four years, i still tear up every time i get to visit with two fry and holler

#we dont usually shoot on this part of the set #south florida #sludgecore #tomato jam #snugglepiles #shattered spheres #the calm energy of someone who has been through a lot #goslings #drunk on schaden freude #ceramic #whales #i am taking another step off the path soon and the feelings are complicated #generational interstellar travel #bathrooms #counters #combs #vanities #the point where the abstraction has become the focus instead of the thing the abstraction represents #see you on the other side #second blue moon epoch #first spring

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bea or builder's and also a brownie

last night i dreamt of a kitchen knife stabbed deep in the dirt of a forking forest trail, marking the path last taken

#battered wooden desks #bea #boba #brownies #from finn #she takes such good care of me #sunny mornings #the ancestors #the heavy waves are pushing the man of wars ashore #wandering through the ghosttown #the basements of the long lost #and otherwise #pieces of scalp #cast iron crows #cairns made of brightly colored lines #i drove out into the countryside to that configuration of abandoned silos that exists in both worlds #flat beneath the weight of next day next day next day next day next day #we can wade through the creek behind our house up to the back of this pasture #and finally be home #second blue moon epoch #first spring #waning

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manifestations of my familiar

last night i dreamt of hats. so many hats. one hat after another, but none of them were right

#refrigerators #polaroids #locket cats #cairns #lovely leaps #skull girls #surrender #sundays #i wish you were here #watching your shadow float underneath you #the breeze off the river so cool #are there other worlds like this or is this the only one #floods #plasters #skulls #snacks #giggling on the windowsill #this is going in the wunderkammer #delirium #live oaks #predators #hope #lips blue from the cold #and then #we had no time left #even for a sip of coffee #north fulton county #georgia

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victoria or first pot of coffee era, third cup

#i was born #lucky me #mirror twins #fear of wind #mumblelard #morning skies #why don't why #my neighbor's fabric softener smells like the soundtrack for a pharmaceuticals commercial #boba #lurking #lilacs #fire #crashed thrashing #saturdays #i can see where the panic is supposed to live #stormwater management #and when the bees finally returned they were different somehow but no one would talk about it #the basements of the long lost #north fulton county #georgia #waning