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[oceanblux]

I gave up loving myself when I thought that love came from making other people happy. I was wrong. Love came from within and the time I spent pleasing others meant that I lost myself. I was weak. But I fight on each day with the hope that one day I'll look in the mirror and smile. 'I am happy.'

KF

#sad #sadness #depression #anxiety #happiness #struggle

[oceanblux]

'Are you okay?'  It triggers a thousand thoughts and pulls them to the front of your brain. But you push them back like you push the people away. And say, 'I'm fine' But you're not fine. And sometimes all this question can do  is provoke the tears down your face.

KF

[oceanblux]

It really bothers me how you can never do everything on this earth. Life is ultimately unfulfilling.

#sad #life #depression #quotes #unhappy

[oceanblux]

Park Güell, Barcelona

#park guell #barcelona

[oceanblux]

Do you understand?

do you know what it feels like to wake up feeling worthless? feeling like you can’t be happy and you’ll never be happy, even though it appears to others that you are both these things. it's putting on a smile that gets to me the most. lying to everyone I see and they don’t even question it, even though they know I'm prone to being anxious. I do wonder some days what am I really doing. just continuing to mess my life up by not speaking to the person I trust most. It’s like I'm already asking myself to fail. And maybe that's the key to all of this the fact that all my life I have never failed and now that’s happened I can never go back because that’s all I think I am. A number. A grade. 

#depression #anxiety #school #hurt #sad #sadness #happy

[oceanblux]

As I've got older I’ve realised that autumn is so beautiful. As a child, I’d wait for the snow in winter and then the sun again in spring and summer. But now it’s different, I long for the golden colours of the leaves and wearing warm clothes whilst walking in the crisp autumn air.

#autumn #fall #leaves #golden #pretty #october #beautiful #quotes #change #season #year #september #november

[oceanblux]

I sometimes like to believe that I'm strong, that I'm invincible. but the truth is I'm not. and I don't think I ever will be. I guess I understand that I'm weak. no not physically but mentally. don't think that every time you look at me and smile that I'm okay. I admit that some days it is genuine but look into my eyes and you'll see the pain. the pain that makes me weak. the pain that stops me from being who I used to be.

[oceanblux]

happiness is relative to different people, a smile could make one person happy but it might be a drink of clean water that makes another happy. i think the world needs to understand that happiness is different for every single one of us. none of us are the same so why try to make us fit in to this mould that we call normal

#happy #happiness #depression #anxitey #cool #summer #smile #water #think #choices #quotes #today

[oceanblux]

i need time. time to clear my head. time to figure out who i am and who i want to be. time to find out what i mean to you. because there’s not enough time when society constantly makes you think that you need to be someone more. someone better. but all you ever want to be is something to someone

me

#anxiety #time #forever #friendship #depression #society #school #help

[oceanblux]

the saddest thing for me is goodbye. whether it's for 6 weeks or forever. i feel like somethings missing from me, that i will never be the same again. see, i become attached to people and you need to understand that anyone who tries to make me happy, suddenly become the most important people in the whole entire world.

#anxiety #friends #holidays #school #people #depression #goodbye #goodbyes #forever #friendship

[oceanblux]

to me the most beautiful thing in the world is a smile, it’s seeing happiness from someone else even when you might feel broken inside. it’s the feeling of warmth inside you as someone smiles because they’re happy to see you, it means someone cares. the best feeling is knowing that you can make someone happy and no matter what you're going through someone will loves who you are.

from me 

#anxitey #depression #quotes #thoughts #beliefs #smile

[oceanblux]

i was taught to respect my teachers;to listen to everything they say. why mess around when they teach us life lessons. maybe they're not always obvious lessons, you learn how to interact with other people when they talk to staff and pupils. they teach us to accept everyone no matter what they're ability.

respect them

[oceanblux]

there’s days where I want to give up. sometimes it’s easier to give up than carry on but it’s better when you don’t. and you have to tell yourself to not stop. you’re going to become stronger and better. show them you are the best

be who you want to be

#anxitey #anxty #tumblr #quotes #quoteoftheday #girl

[oceanblux]

the sky is cute

#photographers on tumblr #cute #sky #sea #autumn #tumblr #reflection #cool

[oceanblux]

Swear everyone is fake on their Instagram

even i am

[oceanblux]

You, you changed, you were so nice to me and I thought I had a chance but now, your just being a player.

i love u, if only u gave me a chance

[oceanblux]

Your just like the rest of them. Every girl you meet you end up flirting with. The funny thing was I thought you were different but now I see your the same. You broke my heart and now I've learnt not to trust people as quickly. Thanks for ruining everything.

-ps I still love you