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I haven’t been able to sleep for a while. I know what’s happening to me. Couple of years ago I used to be horrified of trying to fall asleep. And because of that, I developed this weird insomnia. Every time it was time for me to rest my body and relax all my muscles, I couldn’t feel my right arm. And since I’ve been over that time in my life, whatever I feel restless and sleepless, I always think back to that time, and I always worry that all regress back into that horrible state of mind. I was a really horrible person like that, life was really horrible anyways. I really like this outfit. It’s pretty hot, it’s a very modest way. Thank you to the few people who happened to read my captions. I think it’s rather nice getting to say all the things that I think if I head out loud for once.

#spotify #alt aesthetic #fashion #music #emo girl #whimsigoth #im just tired #tumblr diary

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I feel like I totally fucking slayed this fit! Ans I ont wore it for like 2 hours. I want to Blick to get a sketchbook and some clay and then I brought myself back home. I think it’s really interesting how sometimes, you’re so exhausted from ur everyday life , that even just putting on a pretty outfit to go do some of the most mundane of things, makes u feel so much better about yourself. I’ve really been questioning my worth recently. Sometimes I feel like idk what I’m doing. And I rewllt just needed some creations time. Its important to prioritize urself. I alwaus think about what would little Sarah want to do today. And dormirme indulging in my little selfs wants ans dreams is enough to make me feel a little less worried about where I’m going in life.

#food for thought #latenight #thinking #worthy thoughts #lonley #ootd #cute ootd #alt ootd #whimsigoth #witchyvibes #witchy #writing #ponderings #fashion #music #alt aesthetic #spotify

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They’re this cardigan at a savers. I drove an hour there and back and I truly feel like it was worth.

Also, I’m having a lot of fun show off some of what I’ve been listening to recently. I think something that really helps me connect with people if my love and mt need for music.

I lovr when ppl send me stuff. So totally send stuff my way.

#music #love #thifting #savers #gothy #alt aesthetic #alt #alt music #good #makeup #Spotify

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Cottagecore in the cityyyyy

#fashion #cottagecore #cityliving #music #aesthetic #alt aesthetic #alternative style #new music #musicians #queer #gender nonconforming #pansexual #Spotify

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I’m ur bf’s favorite DJ 😘

#Spotify

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I do fashion now.

#ootdpost #alternative #fashion #queer pride #whimsigoth #Spotify

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Maudlin of Memory

This is my favorite piece to date. I get random outbursts of creativity and I have to make sure of it before it goes away for another 3 months.

But I can no longer envision your eyes the way I used to. Neither Ivory or Juniper Maybe something like olive. And the sound of your name doesn’t taste the same. the cloying taste of dark chocolate turned into the absinthian taste of black licorice. Forgiving like the flowers that grow back after a harsh winter. Will you forgive me when I tell you that I cannot remember the feeling of your hands on my face Or the feeling of your eyelashes that flick up and down as you lay your tender head on my stomach. Like butterflies. And I ache. I remember the smell of smoke. Mixed in with the quiet scent of musk. All raveled together… I remember. That same unity takes refuge in my room, assimilated with rainforest. I leave it just to make sure I don’t end up forgetting anything else. But like the moon and sun, who are bound to come around again, I am bound to forget this too I’m bound to let the smell of smoke flow across my window screen till it is no longer there. And my room is like space. And while a better man would be willing to let these moments go as quickly as they came, A women like me lets time fight her my brain until she no longer has control over what stays in memory And I ache. And I call. Only for fear that soon enough, I’ll forget the sound of your voice. Amiable. Like, like the soft fur coat of a newborn kitten Your voice feels like late night snuggles. And sounds like raindrops Trickling down. I can’t remember the days we spent in the rain. Or if we ever did. So when I stay up late at night. Maudlin. And it seems like I am lost and looking for reason Know that I feel for the moments that I can no longer remember. In the rain. Maybe.. Or on a hot summer day I can remember Christmas but I was without you. And I ache for them. And I ache with them. Holding pain Hoping fear and this wondering desire are enough to make me remember what life was like with you. And I guess I am a better woman Even though my will is taken I let these moment And memories Everything And I let them all go. Like fluttering butterflies Like the smoke in my room Like the smell of tobacco candles

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Hating riverdale is internalized homophobia

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HOW TO SUBMIT

Pease don’t submit, follow or contact if you’re under 18 (you’ll be blocked/and or reported).

Probably the easiest way to submit is just to record the sound on your phone and email it to [email protected] (please include your age in your email) most smart phones already have recording app built in, if not there are plenty of free ones in most app stores. Most computers also has a built in sound recorder too, which is normally found in the accessories section. There is also a great little online recorder here which lets you listen to your audio before you download it, all completely free - http://online-voice-recorder.com/

What should I record?

Anything sexual, it could be you and your partner having sex, yourself moaning as you masturbate or you speaking about your favorite fantasies.

What format should it be and how long can it be?

Don’t worry about the format or length, I can always convert them for you, but if you can, MP3 is the best.

For the best results, don’t have the microphone to close to your face. Try to put it somewhere where it isn’t being knocked about either.

Will my submission be anonymous?

Submissions are completely anonymous, no personal information will be posted unless you want to be identified.

How old do I need to be?

Everyone involved must be over 18.

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A demon and an angel fall in love. Hell disapproves, Heaven discriminates.

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