Happy human American New Year's everybody!!!
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Being around my aunt seems bad for my health, especially now that I can feel anger so the self restraint is unreal.
"sure I can help her out abut Thursday since she asked and can't do a lot due to back issues" Someone thought, two days ago.
Now I'm here, so she's wasting both of our times while she's not even ready for the thing she wanted help with. It's been over an hour and my energy levels are rapidly plummeting.
Its not solely just because she says bullshit that I don't have a lot of energy to attempt to correct her on, but because her living situation has become the same I lived when I was younger, and I don’t have the luxury of feeling empathetic or sympathetic to her and the way too many cats that stink up the place.
Looking forward to forget I was with her once I'm back home.
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Hazel is fronting. Time to be super normal about dragons (<<is lying)
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The future should not be plural.
The future should accommodate for those with dissociative disorders.
The future should have further more thorough research in dissociative disorders.
The future should be more accepting of dissociative disorders.
BUT
The future should not be plural.
That means children are getting repeatedly traumatised at an impressionable age.
That means children don't have healthy coping mechanisms.
That means children AREN'T SAFE.
The future should not be plural, but it should be respectful and accepting to those who are.
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NPD culture is being genuinely incapable of not taking things personally, to the point it starts causing a lot of problems when "call out" posts come up a bunch (even if nothing stated applies to you at all)
~🐺 of 🔷️
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I had an interesting dream. I don't know how to categorise it really, but sometimes I have dreams that are based on things I did or want to do just before I fell asleep.
Sometimes it's heated written conversations to people I keep thinking about and won't leave my mind. I'm not a confrontational person, but last time I did that, it was relieving because I did ask if they had time to talk for a bit and said they had a few hours to spare before having to leave. They were honest, so was I.
But that honesty made me so distressed. People are entitled to their emotions and their experiences - and so am I. I'm glad I had the conversation, but it was taxing and I'm not sure if I've completely shaken off the effects. I can't tell if it is any difference from before, having times where people or friends don't feel real. Probably agitated me, then.
That's not related the dream I had last night though. Or, it's sort of the reverse.
People confronting me. People who I, somewhere, care about, being upset with me for things I did that they took personally when it has nothing to do with anything they did.
In the past, I tried to convince you this was true. So you'd stop trying to make friends because they'll hurt you. Me.
Somewhere, my brain thinks some decisions are so drastic and "final" that I'll ruin what I have - as I have in the past. I couldn't salvage that, but I was young. I can't blame her, and I don't want to.
This isn't the same situation, but my brain can't tell the difference and wanted to repeat the situation because I haven't felt anything for a few weeks and it just keeps spinning and spinning in my head. Now it stopped.
As much as part of me wants to hurt and regret - tough fucking luck. This isn't the same situation. I'm not going to leave you by yourself, as much as I say I dislike you most of the time.
And more importantly, friends won't hate you because this isn't about them. If they took my words as they are, if anything I have done and said so far means anything at all, then they trust me to be honest when they did something. And so, that trust extends to you, too.
We're the same, after all.
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{ have a dentist appointment but after that i'll be on for some chill birthday things for eath }
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