#5 things you like about yourself

[amaiguri]

“when u get this u have to answer with 5 things u like about yourself, publicly. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool!) 🌟”

I don't have the self-esteem problems I used to so it isn't hard to answer:

1) I'm really kind to myself and always on my side. If I overstep or think something mean in a fit of emotion, I apologize later to myself later and work to improve my behavior. Like I would in any other relationship.

2) I love my creativity.

3) I love how hard I can work, if I put my mind to it. Even if it's something I don't want to do, I figure it out.

4) I love that I have been working hard to cultivate more empathy for more different kinds of people, while also making sure that empathy doesn't let other people walk all over me. I'm not perfect at this but I don't care -- the being in the cultivation and learning process is not a moral failing.

5) Not to be aggressively shallow, but with 1-4 being pretty clear indicators of my character and 2 encompassing literally all of my creative and professional work, I am ALSO hot. And that's pretty cool. I mean, fucking LOOK at me. God, I'm my type lolololol

Okay, now the rest of you have to do it too :P

@maiemorrae

@reaperofcrows

@zebee-nyx

@theswandragon

@winterandwords

@cee-grice

@roach-pizza

@junypr-camus

@wordswrittenbynight

And

@anyablackwood -- Don't think you can ESCAPE just cuz it's your Ask! (From months ago, I'm sorry, I'm doing it nowwwww 🥺🥺🥺)

#5 things you like about yourself #self care #self love #amaiguri #amai answers

[streets-in-paradise]

Firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool!!!) no pressure!!!! ur blog is awesome, enjoy!

Sorry it took me so long!!

I saw this but told myself " i will answer tomorrow" then never did lol

5 things I like about myself:

-I'm a books smart type of person, but i have never been pretentious about it.

-My hair, its the only physical trait of mine I learned to love.

-My imagination

-My singing voice ( although i never sing in public)

-People have told me before they think I'm very kind, so let's list that too.

Thanks for sending it :)

#asks #messages #5 things you like about yourself

[queensilver]

When you get this you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool) <3

My first ask! Positivity is Awesome, get it right <3 Lets see... I like my hair, I take a lot of care with it.  I like my height. I’m very short and happy with it I like my art style, developing as it is. It’s been a lot of fun watching it change and experimenting I like how easily I adopt people into my life. it means I have a giant family.  I like... my eyes. No reasoning for you on that one. Its a secret (to everyone).

#asks #positibity #5 things you like about yourself

[noa-ciharu]

Discourses over shipping are so funny to me. You can say you dgaf what others ship and get someone so mad they block you and make call out post about how dare you being a reasonable human being and mind your own business online

#like don't get me wrong there are defo ships i wouldn't touch with 5 meters stick be it vanilla ones or messed up ones #but i don't trigger myself by scrolling through tags of said things and being upset over people on the other side of the world who like that #istg said behavior can be considered self destructive cuz why are you making yourself upset and angry about things you can't control and #aren't causing anyone harm? do some reflection on your internet habbits please #ship and let ship #pro fandom #proship #again i dislike that label cuz i don't think whole debate should even exist

[miodiodavinci]

I made a Vocaloid channel but I'm having trouble getting views. I like making covers for fun but I wish I could get more than a handful of views, especially since I haven't even gotten 5 on my latest ones. I use Vocaloid 6, which may be the problem since not many people talk much about it as much as the older versions

Would you have any advice as to what I can do?

m m m m m , , , , , , i feel like it's hard to say—back in the day when i was doing UTAU work, most of the interaction i got with my work was from my friends from UTAForum. we all sort of just shared our work with each other and supported one another doing our fun little hobby. though the sort of forum culture that spawned that sort of friend circle has kind of disappeared by this point , , , , ,

but honestly, even still—find folks whose work you like and get involved!! share your work on other sites and shout out people you like!! support the folks around you and establish yourself as part of a community

(of course like. don't treat it as a transactional thing. if there's one way to ensure No One interacts with your work it's to. comment on people's things or shout people out and then get passive aggressive expecting a response back. doesn't work like that. you support people because you love them and their work—not because you want something in return.)

but even more than that, honestly just keep doing what you do and the love in your work will come across in heaps and bounds, and someone will be bound to listen. people also tend to get interested the more you put your own spin on something, whether it's creating your own PVs, adding your own harmonies, sharing some of your files, or linking multiple covers together as part of a kind of overarching story. if you make it yours, it'll be yours for good.

like, at the end of the day we can all agree that views are just a number on a screen and are kind of meaningless and no one should base their worth on them, but also yeah it kind of wears you down after a while to keep sharing things you've put a lot of love and effort into with no response.

i'd just like to encourage you not to lose your passion for it—views or not, there's a lot to be gain by pursuing something you love. your VOCALOID endeavors are only just beginning, and who knows where you'll end up ! ! ! ! take the journey as far as it'll take you, and have fun all the while ! ! ! ! ! ! !

also send me your work i want to listen 👁 👁

#mio answers things #anon #is. what i think i mean to say sjdhflkgjhjdfg #forgive me i am bad with advice like this #but i think the long and short of it is I Feel You Deeply Anon #you awakened visceral memories of posting cover after cover onto deviantART and UTAU forum and getting like. 1 view. #and the feeling suuuuucckkkks so bad #but like. very much what kept me going was just. sharing with friends instead #like. if i am being wholly and completely honest?? #even now i usually make my covers with maybe 5 people in mind. 10 max. #i work on my covers and i have fun and i think about like 4 or 5 of my friends i know will go nuts over it when i post it #and really that's what matters to me most skjhdflgjh #NOT THAT I DON'T SUPER APPRECIATE ALL THE LOVE AND SUPPORT I GET FROM EVERYONE . . . . . #but like. when i was working on my wanderlast cover i was literally just sitting there thinking 'ohhhhhhhh myst is going to love this w' #you really do just make for yourself and your friends and you will be so so happy forever #but also again. i feel you on the views w #fight the urge to base your worth on it #but also know that YEAH if you've got people you like and they like your work back #the views will get better and they won't matter so much anymore w

[formosusiniquis]

Bitch who sees a leverage au in every fandom they're in: watches movie about Robin hood criminal being chased by an increasingly obsessed and mildly distressed federal agent who also happens to be aldis hodge

Foaming at the mouth: guys you'll never guess what I just thought of

#fucking old yeller me honestly its the only way #something something seeing the thing that is hunting you and exposing your soft underbelly so you can tear out their throat #or escape or whatever #if youve seen my sterling sophie nate ramblings you already know how i feel about the pursuer who wants you to face retribution also being- #-the person who knows and understands you better than yourself so like weve already been here #i know tumblr doesnt do the 5 tags thing anymore but i still feel better burying the fandom tags beneath the ramblings #marmalade #marmalade spoilers #baron x otis

[vigilbutts]

i've been silently stewing on this for A While in my little corner but i wish this community would participate in the "send an ask to the person you reblog this ask meme from" thing that other rp communities do on this site. there's been a number of people i've heard from or noticed being bummed about getting few or no asks for these memes within the gw2 tumblr community, and like... maybe as a community we should go back to following that little rule? just something to consider, perhaps.

IF YOU ALREADY DO THIS OR NEVER STOPPED DOING THIS! THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE! I HOPE YOU GET MANY ASKS! 🥰💕

#just a thing i noticed people stopped doing here a while ago #despite that a lot of the gw2 ask meme prompts also ask that people do this. #and it's slowly gotten on my nerves more and more over time #im also not tired of people complaining about the trend. but that the trend continues to exist to be complained about #ok that's my big spicy hot take #text #just to be clear i am not meaning to attack or single anyone out with this #and like whatever if you dont want to send asks but still rb ask games i cant really stop you lol #it's ultimately not a very big deal! #but it does feel sucky to send asks and be unable to participate in fun community games like everyone else bc you receive none yourself #like seeing 5+ rbs from you on an ask meme and getting a grand total of 0-1 asks feels bad todd #paragraph rambling in tags sorry lmao

[raziraphale]

I'm really tired of situations where asexuality is mentioned like, casually in a way that kind of flattens the definition a bit for simplicity's sake (like just implying asexuality = no sexual interest) and someone feels like they have to jump in to remind us all that some asexuals can still have sex. like cool sure that's a true statement but it rarely comes across as adding nuance and instead sounds like you're saying "remember that some of us are normal just like you". well most of us aren't "normal" so maybe let people sit with their discomfort with that fact for five minutes before reassuring them that asexuals can be just like everyone else

#in the same vein: people who assure non-aces that aces can still have relationships like they do!! #like yeah sure they can but do you need to implicitly throw aro folks under the bus in order to prove how normal you can be? #it's just respectability politics and I think we should just give less of a shit about optics in general #let yourself be unrelable. unpalatable even #it's not on you to make people understand and respect you by sanding down the things they have trouble grappling with #the hatred of aces on this website 5-10 years ago really made folks so afraid to be 'cringe' bc of harassment and it angers me #but the secret is that the only aces those people didn't consider cringe are those that just shut up and didn't talk about it ever #vent your rage about compulsory sexuality a little you'll feel better #reilly.txt #asexuality

[almond-tofu-chan]

chainsaw man makes you think its a sick action anime where a horny guy made of chainsaws murders a bunch of guys and gets a sorta fucked up found family along the way, but then you watch it and its actually about a 15 year old boy getting groomed and everybody hates everyone else but theyre mostly busy hating themselves and then everyone dies

#csm spoilers #chainsaw man spoilers #they introduce like 8 characters in one episode and then kill them like two episodes later #half the characters in the intro dont show up until yhe very last episode and they all get like one line apiece #not eyepatch finding out denji is a minor and then STILL TRYING TO SLEEP WITH HIM??? #'i didnt take advantage of you last night right? oh good i totally wouldve gone to jail' #HELLO????? DO YOU HEAR YOURSELF???????? #ik anime is like that but i still just couldnt stomach the show after that #she died like 5 minutes later tho so it was fine #you lied to me i was promised found family #and i got a bunch of fucked up teens who need therapy but instead get groomed #feel bad show of the year #i get its not supposed to make you feel good by the end #and maybe its really effective for that #but i was upset by the wrong things i think #i didnt care when any of the characters died because they had just been introduced like one episode agu #i didnt even remember any of their names #honestly not a good show #ive never liked mappas stuff #theyre allergic to filler and thats their proboem #they dont take the time to make me care about the characters before they kill them #tl;dr i didnt like it #chainsaw man #csm

[poebrey]

gonna write a whole thing someday about how characters of color who clearly have a history of trauma or mental health issues aren’t given consideration or acknowledgement in the fandom imagination

#this is first and foremost about yennefer being canonically suicidal and it being never brought up in fandom #but people can talk about how they think she’s a bitch just fine like we’re all stuck in 2005 #but also applies to like just about every character of color who has a prominent role in sci/fi fantasy genre space #because they sure get made to suffer a lot by these writers but in the white imagination that’s not noteworthy at all? #but also Scott McCall #who deadass attempted suicide on screen in one ep? #suicide tw #which I have moved on from teen wolf but it for very obvious reasons another great example #or Michael Burnham who canonically had a fucked up childhood that gave her a lifelong martyr complex #but if you ask who clearly has ptsd on the show it’s not her because it needs to get spelled out even though she is the main character? #Or even Culber; they bonded once over how they both died! #but we don’t do that with white boy side characters 5-7 #they try to hate crime someone on screen and people are making shit up to justify before whatever media it is finishes airing #we talk about diversity in media #but one of the catch 22s is that more diverse media tends to be genre media #because that’s allowed to push boundaries #but as a fan of color you have to mentally prepare yourself for witnessing trauma every time #meanwhile the silly no stakes fun shows get majority white or entirely white casts every time #so you get this fun thing where if you’re white and want a fun escape you get a buffet of laughs #and if you’re a person of color at best you *dont* get to see yourself die on screen #anyways this has been a middle of the night that no one should be taking seriously #*rant #gotta make sure everything referencing tw isn’t in the first 5 tags or I might wake up to a whole essay crying in the inbox

[brookheimer]

……starting to think a lot of you do not know what the word empathetic means

#i have a lot to say about this but it is going to have to wait a few days until i’m no longer up to my ears in work #but here’s a little thing to tide you over: empathy does not a good person make #a capacity for empathy is in no way a capacity let alone willingness for good #empathy and intense horrendous cruelty are not mutually exclusive #if you think that evil comes in a single form if you think evil is just pure callousness coldness spot-it-a-mile-away inability to love #then no fucking wonder people keep doing evil terrible things like in real life and your response is always ?! W hat ?! #shocking: terrible evil people are still people. they are not robots of pure malice. they were once babies with coloring books #that’s not saying we should feel bad for them or anything at all!!! just that you guys seem allergic to acknowledging that it doesn’t take a #category 5 sociopath to commit an atrocity #everyone go read arendt’s banality of evil and go watch act of killing by joshua oppenheimer #no wonder trump keeps winning. y’all don’t view his supporters as people with any qualities other than Racism #like i know this is a fictional character but the response here is so indicative of this much broader issue that makes me want to scream #i get it. you’ve lived in a bubble your whole life and never interacted with people vastly different from yourself and had to acknowledge #their personhood as much as their viewpoints disgusted you. talk to a conservative once in your life it might be mind blowing #not bc you’ll be like WOAH :o THEYRE NOT SO BAD AFTER ALL! no!!!!! because they ARE that bad and they are also regular normal people!!!!! #you are all so incapable of viewing anyone you dislike as having internal lives! christ! #this is how trump won! how do you not see this! #seriously go watch act of killing go watch anwar who murdered hundreds of people in cold blood warmly scold his grandchild for poking a duck #too hard. like the most horrifying part of horrible ppl who commit atrocities is that they aren’t caricatures of evil #we wish they were it would make it easier to understand #agh i’m rambling i’ll shut up #god watch ppl be like Uh why are you defending trump/genocide/fascists etc #dumb fucks i’m telling you the most terrifying part about those people is that they are actually people that’s what makes it so hard to #comprehend bc atrocities are so much easier to swallow when you can pretend a force of pure evil is behind it #okokokok good night lol

[pankomako]

well ermmm THAT happened

#failboat #i had to document it somehow!! #if you were there to witness it yourself then good for you i guess. im right btw #i love instigating fights over trivial things 👍 #guess what i'll be thinking about over the next 5 days #guy compares kirby to a shark mid-stream im thinking to myself like 'You are not allowed to talk about sharks now.' #because obviously i have that authority as the shark guy #and then a while before that his like 'this is a targeted statement' im like OHHHHH MY GOD . OKAY . #i will bite him if this comes up again. imma kill him

[perilegs]

i’m making huge generalizations here but idk i feel so much more comfortable just existing around trans (and some gnc) people than i do with people who are cis (and gender conforming) bc of the way we view our - and other peoples bodies. i hear trans people talk about bodies with so much love and adoration. like sure hating your body is a big thing for most trans people but most of us also learn to accept what we look like. and the acceptance often turns to genuinely liking yourself. especially if you make changes you want to to your body. it’s just. idk i feel like only a trans person could see my body for what it is

#ive seen a lot of trans art recently and its all been so lovingly made and with clear adoration towards bodies that look like yours #idk im not very eloquent and theres a lot more nuance to this entire thing #but like. i personally love my body like yea i have parts im insecure about we all do but also i have been able to choose to do things to m #body that make me happy! and i dont just mean surgery and hrt bc thats not for anyone but also choosing to do whatever the hell i want to #with my hair and getting piercings and dressing in a way that feels good #i know being able to dress etc the way you want to is a privilege #and im so grateful for it #i can't believe there was a time when i wasnt allowed to cut my hair or wear boy clothes and i had to dress up as a girl #and got constantly reminded of being a failure of femininity etc. and now that i dont talk to my mom anymore im so free #i can exist in my body and i actually feel like my body is mine and not there just for show if that makes sense #like i look in the mirror and go that me! #and also like seeing myself like that has obviously made me appreciate others bodies as well #bc when you have for a long time always payed attention to the positives of a certain thing you start noticing positives more! #just like how idk going for a walk and finding 5 nice things you appreciate or looking #in the mirror and listing things you like about yourself #out loud. even if you feel uncomfortable #it helps #can you believe you're happier when you fall a bit in love with everything around you #there are so many wonderful things on this earth and you have to condition yourself to notice them and its hard work that never stops #but it is so worth it #i have lost the plot of my post #leevi talks #anyways i love how trans people love bodies

[vermillioncrown]

Fuck you and your writing. What the hell. How tbe fuck did you make a tasteful brothel scene, how the hell did you manage to do all this shit. This chapter was fuckin heart wrenching. I wanted to see WWX get fucked up and then he did and it wasn't satisfying, but it was good writing and i liked it regardless. God. How the hell did you do this shit. What the fuck.

:^) thank you, i hit my target :^) :^)

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because i really, really cared about getting the exact flavor of this chapter right, so much so that it took over a year.

the brothel scene is so important in what it means in the fic, which is more than showing that zyx fucked. or that zyx fucked a girl for real. or to do some questioning of sexuality.

(which i think i had to go through the five stages of grief when someone excitedly talked about it like having sex means someone is no longer aspec like... every day i am confronted by the fact we all coexist with vastly different perspectives on reality, and these realities are all true to some extent, sigh)

it's also not about being edgy and buying hookers, getting drunk, and all that.

so without using prostitution, nightlife, and sex as a prop and just being real with it, i hope that it doesn't come off goofy, edgy, or objectifying. the perils of trying to convey complicated feelings without therapy speak in-fic, and being really honest in someone's motivations and reactions (bc, unavoidably, it IS an SI).

the brothel scene and its whole fallout was so important, in fact, that i rewrote the entire order of the chapter. originally, the scenes were supposed to be in chronological order. logical, but it just felt like a boring recounting of events. sure, the events are fresh and we wanna see what zyx-mess happens next, but it's just a bunch of 'and then, and then, and then'. works for interlude chapters (ch8, ch15), but this really isn't one.

seguing, i learned a lot from how i wrote bil. dbd will never be as lean as bil, but it reminded me that when i drafted the fic, i focused on certain developments and ideas for a reason. also, since it's a chapter that doesn't involve too many canon characters, which let's be real that's usually the reason we stick around these kinds of fics, it needed to have purpose and be clear about what feeling it's trying to convey

even at the cost of simplicity in order of events

it would have been so difficult to keep the type of upset that zyx is feeling through a chapter that spans months, develops two interpersonal relationships, has a big oopsie, in chronological order without a too-angsty tone. too many periodic reminders would feel jarring and obtrusive, and exaggerate it. and that's also just not how zyx (i) deal with upsets, thank you adhd

and like, doing that for 10k+. (eternally i thank my readers for their patience and willingness to read so much bc people don't read fanfic for deep analysis and extra hw...) that's too much.

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the second most important scene is the wwx duel, you got it. (i'd lump the lxc duel there, too bc those two are kinda related)

(sometimes i worry i made wwx too annoying. but then i talk myself back--it's always perspective. wwx isn't doing more than he already did in canon. we just have someone who can articulate how they feel about what he does, and he's not the main narrator of dbd.)

we get to a very clear demonstration of zyx as a character--it's more or less "i have no mouth and i must scream". here's your chance to be violent. you know you want it. do it. act out, make yourself heard.

zyx doesn't do it.

and you know what? i will be honest, truly honest here: i am sorry if you can instantly clock why zyx is the way they are, because for real 'recognition of the self in the other'.

lack of satisfaction--when you know what you wanted all along was for something to have never have happened at all, would punishment (displaced punishment) satisfy you? would it fix you? sometimes it helps, just for a moment. but i've answered this question enough times that i know i'd rather have never had to ask that question in the first place.

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tldr: it's because it's a chapter about emotional honesty, and i as the author was really fucking honest and tried my fucking best to convey that.

#inquiry #Anonymous #on dbd #this chapter had so many caveats attached to it #1) make it make sense #2) no therapy speak #3) avoid weird sexuality pitfalls #4) the no man's land of thought->words of bilingualism #5) don't trauma dump tho #6) be fr with yourself like frfr #7) but make sure self-penchant for trivializing and joking about problems doesn't destroy the seriousness of the vibes #8) create and strengthen interpersonal connections within 1-2 scenes #9) figure out pacing to keep interest #10) setup for future plot threads #11) cut the unimportant descriptions or ones that are too omniscient #12) word choice. always word choice between dialogue and narration #anyways it's done and i'm trying to do the 'it's for the best faith reader' thing so hard #i was very paralyzed for the longest time and now i realize i was subconsciously trying to address the bad faith reader too often #sometimes you need to use them as an obvious hole-poker in your arguments #bc how i write different povs is an implicit persuasive argument that someone's perspective makes complete sense in their reality #but anon fr thanks for showing up #i hear loud and clear that the ch gets at least a passing grade against its rubric

[humanmorph]

I just view any callout post I see nowadays with at least some suspicion because.well you know how it's been with people framing trans women specifically as guilty of all sorts of things & taking statements wildly out of context or being overly punitive... It's got me thinking back on my teen years on this site where I was not in a but heavily adjacent to a 'community' that had tons of callouts basically all the time & also on issues I'm currently dealing with (moral ocd, or at least something close to it) I can say it's only affected me negatively. It's only ever been a 'man that was WILD' kinda thing bc I did not need to be there even a little but also genuinely. It sucked

#there's something about callout posts as I'm thinking of them that play mostly towards an emotional response #It's like look what they said! & you as the reader should recoil and distance yourself lest you could be implicated #Like the goal there is to ostracize not to minimize harm. #I'm always playing devils advocate with myself bc I'm normal (see above) - #- & made up like 5 'but what about THIS related thing/edge case' arguments immediately buuuut #Not what I'm making the post about. Also I'm at work & today's been honestly fairly productive so let's get back to it. #Rosa rambles #Also I don't know why I was being vague it's not like. Secret. But I was probably 80% following fictionkin people in my teens #all my friends kinned... #I don't know how prevalent bullshit callouts were generally back then but that's the context I know.

[the13throseii]

Man I can't. I'll watch a movie and be like "that was pretty enjoyable!" And then like 90% of people online are like "THIS MOVIE KILLED MY PARENTS IN FRONT OF ME"

#whyyyy is the kfp fandom so melodramatic about 4. y'all need to calm down #i'm not saying it was great but holy fuck some of you are overreacting #'it ruined my nostalgia!' okay sounds like a skill issue to me. you really just let petty things ruin your fond memories like that? #have you all just. never been disappointed by canon before? like you have no immunity to it? man. get well soon i guess #seriously though never ever convince yourself that a franchise can do no wrong. #no matter how good the previous stuff is it is literally impossible for a series to *never* disappoint you at all #you can not put media on a pedestal. that's how you get people acting like a poor writing decision personally #burned their crops poisoned their water supply and delivered a plague upon their houses #granted i'm biased because in all my life I think I've only ever left like. 5 movies total feeling genuinely angry #i admittedly have very low standards when it comes to 'hate'. but i still think internet critics are being over dramatic most of the time