#I don’t know what to believe anymore

[judgmentalfishnun]

We know judging by Robin, Mihawk, and Daz that Crocodile prefers people who are reserved, stoic, & competent and good at heart and I’m not saying I know someone else who would be just his type but I do and his name is Monkey D Dragon.

#sir crocodile #crocodad #fast becoming a truther #not really…i think? #i don’t know what to believe anymore

[oddverse]

No fuckinh way sbr has been confirmed NOW

#I don’t know what to believe anymore

[arsonize]

I think this universe is fucking with me tbh. It’s testing my patience

#crying & then boom smth happened wtf #i don’t know what to believe anymore #delete later #hatefulgf.txt

[messyviscera]

I wish they would stop pretending like they care about us.

#or at least I keep telling myself they don’t #I don’t know what to believe anymore #🫀.txt #bpd

[pistachoz]

WORD ON THE STREET SAYS THAT WE GET S2 SANDMAN RENEWAL ANNOUNCEMENT TOMORROW????? im getting the celebratory underwear out as we speak

#word in the street being twitter hehoho #i don’t know what to believe anymore #but hope is the last thing to loose #the sandman

[quicksilverownsmysoul]

The way in which Barbie’s world fell apart so fast and there was nothing she could do to stop it. The confusion, trying to figure out why everything was suddenly different. The illusion of choice, of trying to pretend that nothing had changed when in fact from that point on nothing would ever be the same. Barbie experiencing heartache when she realized that being real wasn’t everything she thought it was, that the world saw her so much differently than how she saw herself. Finding her way through it with the help of a woman who had done it before and was watching her daughter go through the same thing, knowing that she was losing her girlhood for a second time through her. And even after fixing everything she knew she could never go back to Barbieland, that no matter how much she wanted it she had outgrown it, that despite how scary it was to leave it all behind that there were good parts about it too. That the pain and love of living as a girl who became a woman coexisted inside of her. Barbie being a metaphor for girlhood and how suddenly it ends and one day you have to become a whole new person. But that little girl is always with you and realizing that your mother was a little girl too and so was her mom. And every woman that ever came before you. That we were girls together. GOD IM A MESS OVER THIS MOVIE GRETA YOU GENIUS

#I don’t know if this makes any sense but this movie means so much to me #it didn’t hit me until the very end and I couldn’t stop crying #barbie #if you get it you get it #Barbie movie #greta gerwing barbie #greta gerwig #barbie 2023 #I can’t believe people are dismissing this movie ever choice was intentional and it felt that what it felt like when playing with dolls #wasn’t the same anymore

[sage-lights]

so it’s not a bit…right???? TELL ME IT’S NOT A BIT

#shayne topp #courtney miller #shourtney #smoshblr #i feel like i’ve gone crazy i don’t know what to believe anymore #i was there man

[nuppu-nuppu]

Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again

#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining #once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol #like idk how to be friends #i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely #and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have #actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality #i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again #because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it #pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic #how do i start living again #how does one live anyway #im just in my head all the time #this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness #im so stupid!!! #im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself #im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself #but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go #idk how to be a person anymore #i’m just sad #thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol

[dollya-robinprotector]

I know I have a habit of always keeping things to myself… But why am I still surprised when people don’t know what I know?

#This applies to so many things in my life #this is so incredibly unhealthy #toxic even #yet i can’t help but keep doing it #and now my friends too #those who said the loudest ���you have to talk to us if we did something you’re not comfortable with so we can come to terms’ #turned out to be bottling the hugest amount of distraught then explode without warning #now everything is in pieces #and there’s nothing that could be mended anymore #thought we had something special you know #then why… why can you sabotage everything so quick and run away so fast #why you do this to us? #what were we to you? #You hurt us all and even yourself with your ego saying we don’t have to care about you #but what were we if not friends? #why? #please I can’t continue like this #I desperately aware that things will never be the same and I can never see you as the same friend I’ve known for years #but I still refuse to believe this is really happening #it’s like sand #the more I hold it the harder I clenched my hand they would still eventually fall through my fingers gaps #are we not friends? #why? Why you did it? #You said nothing and yet expect everyone to know how you feel and to sympathize with you and your reasons #I mean we could #we totally could if you just let us know just the tiniest hint you know? #so why things turned out this way? #where has the years gone? #will I ever stop grieving the past if things keep turning out like this? #what does the future hold anyway and where’s my motivation to grasp it?

[starlooove]

Ppl will say fanon v canon doesn’t matter and it’s all jokes and I’m sooooo close to going sure sometimes and then I remember y’all removed a major role of one of the if not THEE most prominent black character in Bruce’s story who was created a whole decade before tim and gave it to tim based off a run where he literally handed the role back! Like IN THE COMIC Tim was CEO in name only and handed it back to Lucius relieved when he didn’t need to front anymore like.

#also if I said y’all took a lot of what tam does and her character traits and handed them off to tim…. #like from that run #it’s crazy bc I always say that’s like the only comic tim stans read #but if that’s true the racism isn’t even covert anymore el oh el #tim Drake #it’s actually about him this time #I’m not gonna clog Lucius or tam tags any further tho #oh and on the tam note #her quick thing and sheer insanity was seen as naivety from tim even tho it saved his ass quite a few times #mainly that Vicki vale shit #which is hung up on LUCIUS’ wall #bc it’s HIS office #bc HE is the CEO. #I think it’s so funny how Bruce quest was like unreliable narrator knows their unreliable and thinks that knowledge means that everything t #they say is true bc they acknowledge that maybe they’re not thinking healthily #which is so fucking fun #but y’all go ‘yesss this is Tim!’ #like no! it’s not! and tim knows that! and he’s too high strung to be pissed or scared about it! #AND THAT IS WHAT SHOULDVE HAPPENED NEXT #IK cómics don’t like to acknowledge that kinda trauma and shit #but something going deep into Tim’s mental state at the time and how he was impacted in daily and personal life #(bc instead of black characters being written out and ignored I’m choosing to believe tam distanced herself bc he was such a Dick) #Like that would’ve been craaaazy #like even tims lack luster reaction at seeing Kon in Paris after he was DEAD #And then later having the emotional reaction like he really kept that shit on the backburner #but noooo he’s so badass and a killer 🥺 #anyways justice for the fox family #at least for Lucius like he and cyborg are in the same boat for me #where they’ve been around for so long and have been so important (cyborg on a waaaay wider scale) #that the fact that they don’t get their flowers in favor of making shit up for tim is SICK

[clownjacket]

If Kipperlilly DOES end up betraying Porter/Jace as part of a secret other scheme she has (whether good or evil) and it has to do with saving Lucy, I just know she’s going to be a bitch about it and pull a ‘sorry, I only save High Five Heroes’ before leaving her other friends to die or some shit. And then she will take her final form: Magic Betty from Adventure Time, betraying her allies and saving her frost gf at the expense of the world. It would also parallel what Ankarna is going through (‘your girlfriend’s out of town, it sucks’, becoming a little imperialist rage machine under the influence of Porter/Sunstone but not being able to fully turn on Lucy despite going against her values and turning into a violent weirdo). This is my wish. My dream. I am manifesting it. Magic Betty Kipperlilly I believe in you.

#I am currently painting clown makeup on my face rn but this is what I’ve been rooting for from the beginning so let me dream #Come on though she HAS to have some other shit going on though right? #She was DEFINITLY in that temple when the Bad Kids said Ankarna’s name #Brennan literally rolled #and we know she was in Porter’s office #so WHY hadn’t she told him Ankarna’s real name yet? We know he genuinely believed Fig found it #Also the BKs couldn’t see who was in the window during the Wanda Childa scene #Which one of the RGs has invisibility? #HMMMM #Wanda saying ‘Kipperlilly? Why are you doing this? Is it because you’re jealous?’ before getting carried off by a fake Porter would let KP #know ‘okay they FULLY saw what happened after I killed Buddy and are onto us’ which would cause her to follow them to the temple #Also…if NONE of the Rat Grinders knew Ankarna’s name then what did Lucy write on her form to change her divinity??? #We KNOW it was Ankarna’s name and not the ‘symbol representing her’ because no one could see it BECAUSE the god was dead and no one alive #knew her name #Which means Lucy HAD TO HAVE KNOWN and was keeping it from the others right? #And when she died and didn’t come back they were fucked because they couldn’t even check the form anymore #But #Brennan also said that if Porter WASNT using Devil’s Honey and genuinely believed in Rage And Conquest goddess Ankarna instead of just her #domain then he and his ritual would (maybe) bring her back instead of killing her permenantly so he can take her domain #And idk #A powerful goddess of rage and conquest who despite everything can’t be turned against her sister and ex #who’s resurrection would mean the rune could be broken and Lucy can come back to life #One who has (or had) a personal vendetta against at least one of the bad kids #and a personal vendetta against the people who led to Lucy’s death #that sounds pretty appealing to someone as spiteful and obsessive as Kipperlilly doesn’t it #especially after her best (maybe only real) friend died and didn’t come back #especially if she stayed dead specifically to stop Porter #Again I’m putting my clown makeup on but I don’t want her to be secretly good or anything just unhinged and gay and a parallel to Ankarna #Please world let me have this I’m on my knees #dimension 20

[prfctmxxnlight]

the “mike wheeler has no thoughts” to “they’re keeping his thoughts hidden from us for a reason” pipeline

#im just saying there’s no way that guy isn’t queer #like you’re telling me he’s just poorly written? no i don’t believe that anymore #mike wheeler i know what you are #mike wheeler #byler #stranger things

[laniemae]

I am going to take a break from milgramblr

[important please read]

ok now how do I start. Im going to take a break from tumblr for about a week. Things have been absolutely awful for me here since the very beginning of 2024, even if it may not look that way at times.

to retell the situation it happened with the new years gartic phone game, where someone made a prompt about a ship that made me heavily uncomfortable. To put it loosely it reminded me of an extremely bad experience with a fandom a few years ago when I called out a ship for being creepy and having a huge age gap but I was constantly dogpiled and harassed. It was probably the worst experience I’ve had on the internet and to this day I get really scared of people hating on me and I apologise for everything likely stemming back from the situation.

I tried to persist with the game but I got really upset and left. I expressed on my blog how uncomfortable I felt about the whole situation. Then this one person, who’s a prominent figure in the Milgramblr community, I won’t name them but I think you’ll know who, replied on my post saying that “it’s ok because…” in such an awful tone. It’s hard to explain but basically it felt really bad as they completely dismissed my feelings about the situation just to justify their creepy ship. And even worse, they way they responded was EXACTLY the same way that everyone else responded back in to at old fandom. At the point to I’d much prefer hate and harassment over that false positive attitude.

I freaked out and immediately blocked them and basically went into a panic attack. I was freaking out on my blog and just to make things worse I saw a post praising them and things got so bad. It was the start of the new year and I was on holiday and was supposed to do a bunch of things but because of that situation I was bedridden and couldn’t stop crying. I had so many nightmares about everyone here turning on me and the original incident and I still have them.

the way the person reacted to my situation was absolutely awful. After my breakdown they immediately went to their blog and started posting about how the ships good and you should praise it completely disregarding everything that happened. I’ve always been uncomfortable with them but this pushed me over the edge. And later on I got in contact with someone who was (presumably) trying to help me and we decided to see if that person could make an apology. But they took way to long to even think they gave any attention to the situation and the apology itself didn’t feel that genuine.

This person was still posting about it and didn’t change their pfp and title despite how bad it was to me and they did not do anything at all. Again I’m not naming anyone but I highly recommend you do not support them anymore. I said I’m going to be leaving for a while but if you want clarification on who it is you can just ask, I’ll check my stuff tomorrow morning before I completely shut off for the week.

I don’t know who it was but there was even a throwaway account hating on me and saying awful things. I didn’t care that much as things had already gotten so bad for me that I didn’t care about the opinion of an anon. But like I said, the sickly positive response that person gave was way worse than actual hate.

and that’s only one part of the story. Another thing happened much more recently with the person I mentioned who was trying to help me. They were the first person I followed on Milgramblr and the person who inspired me to join and make all these theories, so with this and them helping me I really looked up to them. It was a few days ago I think but they posted something on their account about that person and wanting attention to them. I expressed my uncomfortable feelings about the situation and they didn’t do anything about it. Instead they decided to KEEP POSTING about it, like constantly and me getting more upset at the situation and how they responded made it clear that they didn’t care at all. I blocked them and we were mutuals for a while.

It’s been a month and I’m still suffering very badly. I’m not constantly crying as I was when it first happened but it still pains me. I’ve been feeling incredibly distressed on this sight knowing that the original person hasn’t done anything about it and they’re still very close. No matter how much I block them or blog tags I still see them in reblogs or bought up. I had to exclude anything relating to the earbuds collab from my milgram archives as it gives me back really bad memories to the pfps involved. I just can’t feel safe in this place anymore and especially that no matter how I feel, nothing has changed since when it happened and no one’s even actually trying to help me or change things.

I’ve just been feeling so bad that I’ve been going days without eating. Just because I can’t be bothered to get out of bed. The only solace for me is sleep but even that’s not good enough as I might have nightmares and I often feel much more tired afterwards. Things are changing for me as I actually have to get up and do something now and it’s surprisingly going kinda well, but that has nothing to do with this situation.

just to note I will be continuing my milgram archives series, I’ve scheduled quite a few posts for this week so they’ll keep going. For me I’ll completely cut off all activity for this week, and may return on Wednesday.

it’s just. I hate how nothings changed. I want something to happen but no one’s helping

#I don’t know how many people will see this #i don’t even know if people will care about this #perhaps I just come back and everything’s the fucking same #I’ve been considering leaving the fandom because of this and I guess this would be to see what’s it’s like #If it’s better to stay or to leave #I’ve blocked so many people from this situation it’s hard to believe #people I thought I could trust… #To say it once again #If you know the person I’m referring to please unfollow them and don’t support them #I can tell you if you ask for a while #And just seeing all the praise the fandom got with people saying the fandom is such a nice and wholesome space is sickening #It was right after what happened and it’s just awful seeing people say that like they don’t care about what happened #They even started a minecraft server which I wanted to join #But avoided like the plague when I realised it was the person who started the original prompt #There was also a thing that happened recently where someone drew all their mutuals as cats #I ended up seeing that person in one of the cats and knowing that they followed them I instantly unfollowed #The cat pfps just make me so uncomfortable as it constantly reminds of the situation #It sounds stupid because it is but I’m at the point where any little reminder can set me off #But it’s not as bad as the collab pfps which I just can’t look at anymore #Although it’s only with a few characters that really make me feel that the art style in general just gives bad memories #To what I said earlier I don’t know anything about the person the originally made the prompts stand on this #I don’t know if they’re purposely ignoring me I don’t know if they even have no idea this is happening but I’m worried #I’ve also had experiences with a bunch of people I used to follow blocking me #And I’ve talked about it here but no one pays attention

[evansbby]

I cannot believe the wicked games Drabble was 5000 words long like basically a full ass fic and the low amount of notes it got…

#it makes my heart literally SINK like… #now how am I supposed to post wg4 which is 25k words???? #it will not get any interaction and I’m just done #like I just cannot post it #it’ll legit kill me 🥲🥲🥲🥲 to see it flop #after I poured my heart and soul into writing something so fucking long and making sure it was good #just bc I knew I had to give you guys something long and exciting to read #but what’s the point #like I cannot believe it… I literally just cannot believe it and I don’t want to post anything anymore #omfg #I know many people will read this and roll their eyes and find this annoying #like I’m complaining or whatever #honestly think what you want to think #I’m just so shocked and legit unhappy #like so fucking unhappy #like bummed the fuck out #that it’s come to this #I don’t wanna post shit anymore lol #idk if it’s the algorithm or genuinely people don’t fuck with my fics anymore #I just don’t understand #but you guys have to understand how it would kill me on the inside if I posted a 25k fic and it got next to no interaction #like I just…. #I’m scared it would make me quit writing completely #bc I’m THIS close #I feel so fucking sad bro idek #like it makes me wanna fucking cry #how… a few months ago everything was fine #now it feels like everyone’s gone #and I wasted my fucking time writing a chapter so fucking long that no one’s gonna read #WHY DID I WASTE MY TIME

[lovebvni]

CAN WE DELETE TJE FUCKING CONFESSION BLOGS PLEASE???

WERE BECOMING SHIFTTOK 2.0!!!

LOOK ILL B REAL I FELL VICTIM TO THE BLOGS, AS OF TYPING THIS IM FOLLOWINF BOTH, IVE REBLOGGEF WHAT PPL SAID, WHATEVER BUT THEY R MAKING THIS COMMUNITY TOXIC!!!

IF U DONT HAVE THE BALLS TO SAY IT ON UR OWN PAGE, KEEP IT TO UR FUCKIN SELF

AND I KNOW I SHOULD JS STFU AMD LWABE IT ALOKE BUT RELL ME WHY I FELR FORCED TO SEND IN 2 ANONYMOUS THINGS AND SAY I DONT FEEL COMFORTABLE PUTTING THEM ON MY PAGE??

PLEADE PKEASE DONT MAKE THIS PLACE LIKE SHIFT TOK. PLEASE!!

i need a safe place on the internet, and this was it.

and if i don’t have it, i will deactivate this blog and take down all my post.

i hate these blogs, not the people, the blogs that people are using to be nasty to each other.

i can’t anymore.

#abyss .rambles #i js don’t know what to do or say anymore. #i’m gonna ask the blogs to take down my posts bc im gonna post them here. #i can’t fucking believe we’ve come as low as shifttok.

[alterousuggestion]

i am allowed to not want to give myself intimately in every single aspect to my platonic friends. i am allowed to want to reserve some intimacy for a different type of relationship. i am allowed to be picky about who receives my intimacy, despite being an aromantic who gives my all in friendships.

#this is me. asserting my boundaries. to myself. #i’ve had a rough couple of days #filled with insecurity and guilt and overall feeling very misunderstood #read: sometimes i really really want to kiss someone but my first kiss means something special to me and i don’t want it to be with someone #who does not feel alterously / the same way about me. #it’s not about hitting milestones and getting it over with anymore. i know what i want. i just wish people would understand that #my best friend wanting to kiss me should be amazing by aro standards but it’s filled me with a lot of guilt because i don’t want her to be #my first kiss. because i know she sees the whole thing as an experiment and !! i am not an experiment. i don’t want my first kiss to be an #experiment #i don’t know. it’s very complicated. #i believe wholeheartedly that platonic relationships can encompass so much and it’s all okay #but then i feel like i am playing into the amatonormative agenda when i say i want it to be with someone ‘special’ #everyone is special to me but i want an alterous partner :( i want to be loved in the way i am most comfortable #LONG SIGH #sorry this isn’t a very cutesy post :( been going thru growing pains. #text #admin post #not alterous #aro #aromantic #aroace