#I'M STRONGER THAN THIS. *remembers jaehee* well

[cidnangarlond]

lord help me I might start playing mystic messenger again

#bdl #I'M STRONGER THAN THIS. *remembers jaehee* well

[marshmallowprotection]

Hey, there's something I've been thinking about the NE and GE of Ray's AE.

As we know, one of the biggest differences between the two endings is the change of characters talking to Saejoong; in GE it's MC and Saeran and in NE it's Rika and V. As you mentioned before, Saeran misses the chance to hear from his father in NE, the missing piece to close this story, plus we don't get to know what Saeyoung thinks of his father (With that dialogue it still makes clear the message that you don't have to forgive someone to move on) and there remains the uncertainty of how each RFA member's life will go on after that....

Although the proposal scene is beautiful 💖💖💖💖 and I liked seeing Rika face her demons and accept her mistakes.

Anyway, what I want to say is that .... Do you think it would be possible for Saeran personally, after this ending, to try to go to prison to see Saejoong just to find out what he needs to know? The reasons why that man is the way he is, what made him what he is now?

Hmm... I think it would be harder to talk to Saejoong here, so maybe he's wasting his time because he refuses to talk, I don't think that man wants to see his face anymore.

Oh, I can tell you right now that Saeyoung will not hear Saejoong talk. He will not listen to Saejoong. Saeyoung was literally hunting him for revenge non-stop the second that the news broke that Saejoong was on the run. He and Vanderwood were looking for him, and he wasn't about to stop. He wanted to be the one to capture him. In V's AE, he kidnaps Rika from the police with the intention of getting information from her and then likely getting rid of her if it came down to it. Like, if Jumin, Jaehee, and Vanderwood wouldn't have found Saeyoung, I'm not sure I can confirm what wouldn't become of Rika.

Saeyoung doesn't forgive. He doesn't forget. He's not Saeran in this sentiment. He cuts people off when they burn him and he doesn't go and look back. That's what he needs for his emotional journey. He is not the type that needs to talk to someone to get closure like that. He knows that talking gets nowhere with people like that. Saeyoung isn't going to step anywhere near V or Rika, for example. But they turned themselves in so he’s not doing that. Saejoong didn't. Saejoong commented that he knew that Saeyoung was hunting him down, and he took the walk of shame to where Saeyoung was to let him catch him.

I know Saeyoung Choi like the back of my hand and he never fucking forgets if someone burns him. He will never forget if someone hurts Saeran or the people he loves. So, yes, he and Saeran have different feelings about this stuff and I’m glad the game shows us all kinds of forgiveness or the lack therefore. Because we all have to cope and choose what’s right for us. The RFA has their own way, as well. Like, there’s no right or wrong choice here. Just remember, as long as you aren’t hurting yourself or anyone else, with it you can be as angry as you want about whatever was done to you. That’s the key detail. You can be upset, but don’t use that hurt against yourself or others. 

I’m more like Saeyoung, myself, tbh. But, situations and circumstances change the way you deal with stuff! 

If I'm being honest here, I don't think that Saejoong is going to be willing to talk. The impact of that situation is a lot stronger when it happens at the moment, and if it doesn't happen the way that it does in the Good Ending, it’s less likely to do anything. I just can't see that man being willing to have an upfront conversation. He's not the type of person to do that for any reason, and he's got far too much pride in himself to talk about his emotions. He's just going to bid his time until the day that he dies since that’s all  he has. Any of the reputation that he built for himself is basically in the gutter and he doesn't have a legacy other than one of corruption.

I’m not saying that Saeran wouldn’t consider it? Because I do feel like there might come a point when he wants to confront it, but that doesn't mean that he's going to get it. Just because you want resolution doesn't mean you're going to get it. People can bite their tongue and stand their ground until the day they die. Saeran can extend a branch for a chance to talk to Saejoong about his life, but that doesn’t mean Saejoong will take it. We know that at the end of the day that Saeran is going to be okay no matter what in the Normal Ending. He's got his brother and he's got you. He's got everything he could ever want or need. He's going to be okay.

He might not have that final part of the catharsis, but he's going to be okay and that’s the good news. There are some other things in that specific ending that aren't taken care of properly. Because the RFA isn't in as good of a place as they are in the good ending. But there's a reason why it's called the normal ending, remember? Saejoong will never change but some people never do. Even if he listened to Saeran, it doesn’t change anything. Saeran is the only one that gets healing out of it. 

#ask #anon #mod kait #saeranae

[mysmemissme]

Yoooooo it's great to have you back! Welcome back! :D (As for requests I'm good with anything JaeheexMC cuz I'm trash.)

I HAD TO START THIS OVER KILL ME OKAY

BUT THIS IS MAGIC SO ENJOY

—–

When MC entered the local magic competition, she never expected to win, but she did.

When she entered the larger, more popular contests she didn’t expect to win those either. She thought people would see her as a actual threat, but they never did till it was too late.

Most competitors saw her, an air-manipulator, as an easy target. They were bigger and stronger, after all. They saw air-magic as weak and insubstantial. Useless. They never thought for a second she’d pose a problem.

They were wrong of course.

She was quick and nimble. She fought like the battle was a dance, the air guiding her steps. Her magic swept through the battlefields, whipping up tornadoes or knocking others off balance. Her steps were light and effortless as she dodged. Her air shields were impenetrable. She was clever and intuitive, following where the air told her to go.

She always listened, so she always won.

When she reached the national level, she knew she had to work harder than ever. Her opponent was just as strong and almost as quick as her, but she did as she always did. She listened, she danced, she fought.

She was bruised and scratched, but she won as the air thrummed around her. She was claimed victor, and in a daze she was dragged to a nice room by attendants. She bathed, then they patched her up, dressed her, and did her hair and makeup. They escorted her into a large banquet room, people bustling around already.

Up at the front sat a stage with six dais glowing. Five of them were filled with previous victors, the sixth was empty. As she was guided to the front, she took the opportunity to study the victors.

To the farthest left sat a fire-user that went by the name 707. He was passionate and as unpredictable as his flames. He was a genius, they said, on and off the battlefield. His eyes seemed to shine with a fiery glow. You remembered how he won a few years ago- he punched his opponent in the face without even using his magic. It caused quite the gossip.

Next to him sat the plant-magic user Yoosung. People said he was genuine and kind, almost gentle. He wasn’t as fierce as most of the others, but that was his advantage. His opponents never knew what hit him till they were trapped in vines. He wasn’t a genius, but he seemed to have a deep connection with the earth. Even now, flowers bloomed at his feet without him using magic, as if the earth was actively reaching for him.

Next was the ice-manipulator Zen. He was as cool and collected as his ice. He was charismatic and attractive, so his opponents usually saw him as only a pretty-face, and they soon saw the error of their ways when they were quickly subdued. He was a hard worker, creating his fame and power through sheer determination and effort.

Second from the right sat the energy-user Jumin. He was from a well-known family, handsome and wealthy. Above all that he was intelligent and powerful, never wasting a single move on an enemy. He was confident to the degree that it psyched out most opponents before he ever begun to fight. His technical skill was high, but so was his natural skill.

Next to him sat your favorite victor of them all, Jaehee the light manipulator. She was the only other woman, but she was of the best. If MC thought she was underestimated, Jaehee was 10x worse.

Light users were scoffed at more times than not. Light manipulation seemed like a useless skill in battle for most, so very few light manipulators ever tried. Jaehee changed that. She fought tooth and nail to win. She proved to everyone what not only a woman could do, but a light-user as well. She was smaller than MC, face delicate and fair, but MC knew better to think less of her for that. She was incredibly smart, incredibly powerful, and incredibly amazing. Her presence alone was enough to make MC’s knees weak.

MC would admit it’s not all admiration she feels for Jaehee, but perhaps a small crush on the other after watching her decimate her opponent in the finals. It was a beautiful, truly stunning victory.

The attendants led MC up the stairs to the dais. They introduced her to the others, and she shook hands with them. When she shook Jaehee’s hand, she didn’t know if she wanted to run or never let go.

MC sat is the only empty seat as the banquet commenced. There was some big, important person speaking, but MC couldn’t pay attention with Jaehee right there.

“You’re battle was very impressive,” Jaehee suddenly said, startling MC. MC’s face flushed at hearing Jaehee complimenting her. She spluttered.

“A-ah, thank you! But it was nothing like yours!!” MC exclaimed and then cringed at how eager she sounded. Jaehee smiled, and MC felt like she needed some sunglasses to look directly at it.

“I’m glad you enjoyed it. I do have some pointers, however.” MC felt her heart sink. Maybe she wasn’t that good? Maybe she didn’t deserve to be up here? Because CLEARLY she wasn’t all that- “Would you like to practice one-on-one tomorrow?”

“What?!” MC was stunned. Okay, so she might not be the best, but Jahee wanted help her? Jaehee wanted to teach her one-on-one? As in alone? But surely she didn’t mean it like MC wanted it to. Even so, MC couldn’t pass up an oppurtunity like this. “Yes, I would love to!”

“Very well, it’s a date.” Jaehee smiled again, eyes shining behind glasses. MC froze at Jaehee’s wording. Date….

“Are you sure you meant date? I don’t want to misconstrue anything…” MC trailed off, unsure of where she was going with that thought. Obviously Jaehee hadn’t meant it like that-

“I said it exactly as I meant it. You did not misunderstand anything. Meet me by the fountains outside at 10 A.M.” With that Jaehee turned back to the speaker. MC felt her heart pound.

She had a date! With her crush! Tomorrow!

That night, MC dreamed about what it would be like to finally hold Jaehee’s hand.

#jaehee kang #jaehee kang x mc #jaehee x mc #mc #mod dakota

[my-mystic-messenger]

RFA + V + Saeran figuring out MC is like literally a junior in high school?? That's how old I am and I'm kinda wondering how they'd act! ^^

I figure that you being a Junior equals17 years. Now this is a really interesting ask, to be honest, becausein Korea funnily enough the age of consent is 13 years. In Europewhere I am from that is pretty similar. So if you’re American some ofthese reactions might shock you. Frankly, I find American age laws tobe ridiculous most of the time. To consider someone underage by 16/17years old…

|| REQUEST ARE (ALWAYS) OPEN!! ||

Zen (23)

♬ when he found out he was extremelyashamed

♬ he choked up for a moment too

♬ he’d freaking kissed you! Twice!

♬ you’d stayed at his place

♬ you’d almost been kidnapped by alunatic because he hadn’t been faster

♬ such a young and innocent girl to gettangled up in such a mess…Zen couldn’t help but sigh

♬ he also wanted to punch himself forhinting at such lewd things in front of you

♬ you were like a young flower not evenin full bloom and he’d already tried to pick you

♬ for a while he tried to avoid you

♬ mainly because he couldn’t trusthimself not to do and say more such things

♬ despite your young age you wereextremely strong willed, determined and kind

♬ all those things made you ratherattractive in his eyes

♬ on top of that you really looked older

♬ eventually you caught on to what he wasdoing and admittedly you got a little angry

♬ oh what now? because you weren’t 20years old you weren’t good enough anymore?

♬ you assured him that sex most certainlydidn’t scare you

♬ in fact, hadn’t he had sex long beforeyou?

♬ Zen admittedly hadn’t been able toargue that one as his teen years had been rather adventurous

♬ when he’d tried to pull the ‘but I am aman and you are a girl’ card you’d glared daggers into him

♬ you’d also contemplated slapping himfor his misogyny but decided against it

♬ God forbid you actually gave himmaterial for his silly arguments

♬ after that it didn’t take long to winZen back

♬ mainly because he knew that he wouldn’tjust use you like other men his age might have

♬ because he knew that he genuinely caredfor you, loved you

♬ because he’d been just 15 years oldwhen he’d started to take control of his own life, so why should hedeny you that very same right

♬ he still asked for your understandingwhen it came to public display of affection

♬ as a rising star he really couldn’tafford any scandals especially involving young girls

♬ (Jaehee also loved to remind the bothof you of that)

♬ you didn’t mind as much since you understood wherehe was coming from

♬ you hadn’t really cared for publicityand anyone knowing all too much anyway

♬ Zen also being not as uptight as someothers made other aspects much more interesting

♬ more often than not you were allowed tosleep over, even on weekdays

♬ Zen didn’t give a shit about schoolduring his years, so why should he lecture you

♬ he was also an amazing work outpartner, while you usually helped him with proper food

♬ bonus points for the face he made whenyou finally seduced him

♬ to his disdain, you’d done so ratherquickly despite Zen trying to control himself

♬ you were just happy he had no selfcontrol whatsoever as he was truly and literally a beat in the bedand that was an experience you more than enjoyed

Yoosung (20)

★ when he found out it actually tookYoosung a while to register

★ he’d been complaining about assignmentsagain, as he usually did, while you’d tried your best to cheer him up

★ eventually you’d chimed in, complainingabout your homework and all the final exams you had coming up, not tomention the CSAT’s you’d soon have to start preparing for

★ Yoosung had felt for you, really, as hestill very vividly remembered his exams

★ eventually you’d both said yourgoodbye’s until an hour later Yoosung had returned to the chat

★ he’d spammed it with emoji’s andcapitol letter messages of surprise and shock

★ you were still in high school and ifyou weren’t yet preparing for the CSAT’s you were an 11th-graderat that!

★ it was slightly awkward at first

★ mainly because he was ashamed he neverasked for your age

★ hell, you could have been some twelveyear old girl getting tangled up in all of this

★ but you insisted you were fine and hebelieved you

★ being a minor he was still extremelyprotective of you and swore he’d do anything to keep you safe

★ in the end, however, age just wasn’t anissue for Yoosung

★ after all, he was mere three yearsolder than you

★ his own parents had a bigger age gapand they were perfectly happy

★ on top of that you seemed to love thefact that he was slightly older

★ whenever you called him oppa his heartswelled with pride and he blushed

★ he was especially happy once he pickedyou up from school after getting his license

★ you’d bragged to all your friends aboutyour older boyfriend, making them all jealousy

★ Yoosung had never gotten that muchattention from girls like he did the moment he stepped out of his car

★ not to mention that once you’d actuallymet and started dating…well it turned out age was seriously nothingmore than a number as you were a lot more mature than he was

★ so even after you were revealed theyoungest in RFA, he was still considered the baby

★ if anything you being younger than therest of the RFA made you much more understanding

★ you understood the struggles ofstudying, procrastination and stress

★ you also turned out to be a greatgaming partners on certain date nights were the two of you allowedyourself to indulge in such things

★ above all, however, your young agereminded him of taking things a little slower

★ you dated for quite some time until hefinally asked you to marry him and it only made your union all thestronger for it

Jaehee (25)

♨ to Jaehee your age was a slightlybigger problem than it would be for the rest

♨ for one, she’d taken job advise from aminor, which was bad for more than one reason

♨ it also made your possibly relationshipimpossible in her eyes

♨ being both female was already hardenough, but you being a minor on top of it…

♨ while her parents might have had a hugeage difference, she’d learned to steer clear of them

♨ for her it had ended rather poorly andJaehee had no need to repeat mistakes already made

♨ from the moment she realized just howyoung you were, all romantic intentions were forgotten

♨ instead she began seeing as a youngersister and best friend

♨ it wasn’t half bad either, as both ofyou really blossomed from the relationship

♨ you taught her all about the girly,teenager stuff she’d missed out on while she taught you all aboutbusiness and other grown up things like taxes and stuff

♨ it was fun going shopping together andyou’d enjoyed helping her put make-up on for the first time

♨ she’d also been extremely patient whenteaching you how to correctly wash laundry

♨ not to mention that a lot of the thingsyou did together had no time stamp on them

♨ like for example making yourselfcomfortable on the couch and watching Zen videos

♨ or even better, going to the theater towatch his musicals life

♨ your age also didn’t mean that youcouldn’t help her with the café

♨ sure, you had to spend quite some timein school, but after school you came to the café every day andhelped out with anything and everything

♨ on weekends you even offered to workfull day, so she could take the days off

♨ Jaehee was extremely grateful for that

♨ and generally for having met you

♨ despite being young you’d given herjust the right advise

♨ you also had a young and freshperspective on things which helped a lot with customers

♨ eventually you finished school anddecided to go work full time with Jaehee

♨ she’d tried to advise you to go andstudy, but you’d been insistent

♨ after all she’d studied and gotten ajob and yet not enjoyed it

♨ why not safe yourself from pointlessexperiences other’s had made before you

♨ Jaehee had just laughed, unable toargue that point

Jumin (26)

♛ when you arrived at his apartment he’dbeen instantly smitten

♛ you’d captured his heart in the chatalready but on top of being kind, you were also utterly beautiful

♛ the only problem with Jumin is that hecan be a little ignorant of society, norms and such

♛ so having been a working hermit for thepast years he hadn’t really registered that teenagers tended to looka lot more…mature these days

♛ the only reason he even found out wasbecause you told him you had to leave, as you couldn’t afford to missa day of school

♛ he’d frozen for a moment, swallowed andtried to understand what you’d just said

♛ school?

♛ not university and not work but school

♛ he’d asked you for your age then andyou’d shyly admitted to being only in 11th grade

♛ it made things a hole lot uncomfortablefor an evening

♛ while he still kept you at his place –you weren’t safe after all – he’d stormed off to work withoutanother word

♛ now you didn’t judge him, you kind ofunderstood

♛ he was an extremely public figure afterall and people just loved to tear down as it was

♛ Jumin could not afford another scandalabout him dating a school girl on top of everything

♛ not only that, but you also knew of hisfeelings about his father dating women much younger than him

♛ almost a decade of age differencesurely must have scared him off

♛ you’d sighed and made yourselfcomfortable, rolling into a ball on the bed, waiting for him to kickyou out upon his return

♛ surprisingly, things didn’t quite gothat way

♛ the first thing he did was apologize toyou, for a lot of reasons

♛ for one he’d admitted to having hadsome rather inappropriate thoughts he was scared you might findextremely appalling and disgusting

♛ you assured him that it was absolutelynot the case

♛ he also apologized for keeping you awayfrom school as education was important

♛ of course that meant he’d gotten you aprivate teacher for however long you wanted and needed him

♛ he kept a slight distance to you, atleast physically

♛ you still talked and flirted and moreoften than not it was you making him flush pleasantly

♛ once you started to become moreseriously you assured him that you were fine with hiding therelationship, anything to not dirty his reputation further

♛ he’d assured you that you had nothingto be ashamed of, but that maybe keeping the relationship under theradar for a while wasn’t a bad thing

♛ after all, he could only marry you onceyou’d turned 18 and then only with your parents consent

♛ he was more worried of not gettingtheir permission and having to wait until you were 20 years old tofinally put a ring on your finger

♛ by the time you’d finally turned 18your parents had been delighted to agree and he’d swept you off rightaway

♛ age difference be damned, you were his

Saeyoung/Seven (21)

☼ by the time you’d gathered the courageto tell him how old you were, he already knew

☼ frankly, he seemed to know much morethan that as well

☼ you quickly came to the realizationthat he’d hacked into a lot of your private information

☼ you were too shocked to even feel angryabout it

☼ also exhausted, if you were completelyhonest with yourself

☼ you’d been carrying this guilt aroundever since you met, scared to admit to your age

☼ it had taken you days to get him to beeven remotely nice to you

☼ much longer to actually open aboutabout feelings and such

☼ then it finally clicked

☼ he’d been so mean to you because heknew of your age the entire time

☼ when you confronted him about it Sevenwas quick to admit you were right

☼ he hadn’t really cared personally

☼ four years wasn’t all that much

☼ not to forget that he’d beenindependent much earlier than you as well

☼ Seven had learned early on thatphysical age rarely equalled mental age

☼ that being said, he could not put aminor in danger and since he practically seemed to attract that, itmeant he had to keep you at arms length

☼ he’d seen what facing difficultiesearly on in life could do to people

☼ Jaehee, who’d lost her parents beingforced to almost work herself to death

☼ Zen, who’d abandoned his family only tojoin gang, get himself in danger on a regular basis and craveaffection and attention to the point he developed into a lonelynarcissist

☼ Yoosung, who’d lost his beloved cousinand was no barely able to function much as V as well

☼ even Jumin’s incompetence to act like anormal human being could be traced back to a root in his childhood

☼ Seven didn’t even want to begin to listhow much his childhood had fucked him up

☼ he’d tried to keep you away as long aspossible, deny himself his feelings

☼ it hadn’t lasted long, not when youunderstood and healed him in ways no one else could

☼ not when you’d been the bravest he’dever met

☼ not when you’d risked your life forpeople you barely knew and had no obligation to, let alone hisbrother who’d actually tried to harm you

☼ no matter what danger had been thrownat you, you’d managed it with utter ease

☼ eventually he’d been out of reasons tokeep away from you

☼ in fact, he was even in utter awe ofyou as you proved once and for all that age did not matter

☼ your body might not have been, but yourheart was fully developed

☼ your brain too, just saying (Sevenlikes em smart)

☼ so he gave in, ignoring all the voicesin his head telling him not to

☼ because of literal death threatscouldn’t keep you apart, age shouldn’t either

Saeran (21)

☀ by the time you’d gotten him away fromRika Saeran had been in no shape to date anyone, really

☀ not that he would have cared much tobegin with

☀ he’d loved Rika and she’d been olderthan him as well

☀ however the very same Rika was also thereason he’d given up on love

☀ mostly, that is

☀ he knew that he felt something for you

☀ but there was just too many things inthe way

☀ for one, he was dangerous

☀ even outside of Mint Eye his mind wasan utter mess

☀ he was too unstable to care forsomeone, let alone a teenager

☀ those were generally too emotional tobegin with

☀ he liked you just fine and he let youin as far as he could, but there were still walls after wallsseparating the two of you

☀ just like with V it would take him along time to actually admit to his feelings

☀ not because they are there and mostcertainly not because of age

☀ he’d tease you about it from time totime, call you a baby, child or brat

☀ Saeran would never mean it though, notreally

☀ you might have been young, but you’dbeen taken care of him, not the other way around

☀ you were mature and you knew what youwanted, traits much more important than age

☀ they were also precisely the problem

☀ he was older, he should have been theone taking care of you

☀ so when he realized he wasn’t capableof doing so, he did much like his brother

☀ he kept you at a safe distance for aslong as he needed to and not a day longer

☀ when he was finally able to trusthimself not to hurt you

☀ when he was finally able to be and actlike a fully functioning being

☀ he finally let you in

☀ you’d been there for him when almosteveryone else seemed to have given up

☀ you’d sat through insults and deaththreats

☀ never once had you given up on him

☀ someone like you was one of a kind,Saeran knew as much

☀ he’d be a fool to let a silly fouryears stand in the way

☀ so the second he thought of himself asstable, he went to you

☀ not wasting a single second to make youhis officially

☀ not when he’d already wasted so manyyears of his youth

Jihyun/ V (26)

📷 when V had found out about your agehe’d immediately cut you off

📷 it was rather harsh but not unexpected

📷 V wasn’t a bad person he was justextremely guarded

📷 especially after everything that hadhappened with Rika

📷 for the longest of times he hadn’tallowed himself to move on

📷 after that he hadn’t allowed himself tofall in love again

📷 so when you’d actually managed to makehim fall for you, you’d been wary to begin with

📷 you’d met people like V before and youknew how they worked

📷 even the smallest reason to break upwith you and they’d grasp at it

📷 not because they don’t love you, quitethe contrary, actually

📷 V loved you a lot and you knew as much,he always showed it

📷 but he was scared of his feelings andnot ready to face them yet

📷 so as expected, he fled from them

📷 for a while he disappeared from thechat entirely, which wasn’t anything new

📷 however even when he returned you werenever on at the same time

📷 even when you caught him mid chat hebarely acknowledged – if at all – and disappeared right aftertaking care of whatever business he was taking care of

📷 obviously the feeling wasn’t pleasant,but eventually you managed to move on

📷 almost a decade of age difference and alot of trauma were two very valid reasons to separate people from oneanother

📷 after a while things between the two ofyou cleared up

📷 V returned and you talked

📷 never about your relationship, but atleast you were friends again

📷 you even managed to convince him to gethis eyes fixed, which for you was much more important

📷 by the time he actually got to see youthe first time, years had passed

📷 he’d been blind for two RFA parties,gone for another

📷 you were over 20 years old now and whenhe saw you climb on stage to hold the opening speech, it took hisbreath away

📷 you were confident and soft at the sametime, a proper woman now

📷 he was still aware of the agedifference but it seemed so irrelevant all of a sudden

📷 it had taken him years, but he finallyapproached you that night

📷 sure, you weren’t that young studentanymore, but the wait had been worth while

I should be studying for my own exams…why the fuck am I writing these instead?!

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