#I'm so nervous i'm going to throw up

[thesovereignsring-if]

Your golden eyes are red rimmed and splotchy with tears. You had cried the entire trip and nothing your brothers did could soothe your tears. Mama was dead.

DEMO: PROLOGUE (PLAY HERE!)

(08/19/2023)

Word Count: 15,000+ words

After a little over a month of writing and coding, I'm very proud to release the Prologue!

Patch notes (08/19/2023):

Mobile users can now save their progress from the main menu at the top of the screen (look for the downwards arrow) .  Fixed some of the UI so it doesn't look ugly as sin on mobile.  Fixed the bug preventing font-size configuration from the settings menu. 

What to expect:

✦ Move to the Imperial City of Nephilim

✦ Celebrate your Birthday! (I hear there's going to be cake!)

✦ Meet your other family members and make some friends.

✦ Do some family bonding and learn some history.

✦ And have a lot fun! :)

CONTENT WARNING: The Sovereign's Ring is intended for an 18+ audience. The Sovereign’s Ring contains disturbing/dark subject matter that is not for everyone, such as graphic depictions of violence, gore, death, trauma, sexism, racism, poverty, misogyny, sexual assault/violence, child abuse/grooming, suicide, depression, alcohol more.

The prologue is short and sweet and will set the tone for the rest of the game. I did intend to make a bit longer- but at some point it felt like it was overstaying welcome. I'll come back to it one day, if I ever want to write about palace life.

Please enjoy! If you come across any bugs/errors shoot a message to my inbox and we can cry together while I try and fix it. :)

✦ Lili ✦

#The Sovereign's Ring #Public Demo #I'm so nervous i'm going to throw up #instead I will sleep now. #writing is not my strongest suit #but here we are! #interactive fiction #if wip #twine if #twine interactive fiction #twine wip #if

[circularsidewalks]

Drinking my Applebees triple cherry Shirley Temple & I got an email back finallyyy, interview tomorrow morning. This is the life of a rich successful businesswoman. I feel like Michelle Obama.

#I'm so nervous I'm going to throw up #dear diary

[atopvisenyashill]

THE PACT OF ICE AND FIRE

so there's an aspect of this one i don't think has really been delved into that I think may be important when it comes to canon jonsa and I wanted to do my own lil analysis, along with maybe some tin hatting at the end here.

this is what the pact is (or what we know of it at any rate, Munkun is not exactly a good source of information):

Cregan Stark and Jacaerys Velaryon reached an accord, and signed and sealed the agreement that Grand Maester Munkun calls “the Pact of Ice and Fire” in his True Telling. Like many such pacts, it was to be sealed with a marriage. Lord Cregan’s son, Rickon, was a year old. Prince Jacaerys was as yet unmarried and childless, but it was assumed that he would sire children of his own once his mother sat the Iron Throne. Under the terms of the pact, the prince’s firstborn daughter would be sent north at the age of seven, to be fostered at Winterfell until such time as she was old enough to marry Lord Cregan’s heir.

There's two parts to this that I think are important here. Here is the first, which is the basics of the pact, and that most Jonsas are familiar with:

Jacaery's First Born Daughter Is Fostered At Winterfell -> She will marry Cregan's first born son and heir.

Obviously, this never happened for several reasons and the pact is forgotten but perhaps it will be fulfilled anyway by...

Jon, a secret Targaryen bastard, is "fostered" at Winterfell -> he will fulfill the pact by marrying a Stark Maiden aka Sansa.

Basically, it's a genderswapped version of what the pact entails. I think given George's fondness for how Tolkien was a hater of Macbeth because he thought the "no man of woman born" should have indicated a girl and not just a man born via c-section, I think the genderswap aspect fits George's style.

The second part however, has more to do with Jacaerys and Sara and I feel like it's glossed over a bit. See here:

They had spoken their vows in Winterfell’s own godswood before a heart tree, and only then had she given herself to him, wrapped in furs amidst the snows as the old gods looked on.

Jacaerys, a "secret" Targaryen bastard who gets his family name and allegiances through his mother, not his father -> Rumors of a secret marriage in front of a Weirwood with a Stark bastard, Sara

Listen. It doesn't matter whether Sara Snow is real, you believe whatever makes you happy! But what IS real and relevant is that this part was included in F&B for a reason, and is indicated to be the catalyst for the pact. Jace and Sara get secret married in front of a Weirwood, and this is what calms down Cregan so they can make their pact. And here is how (I believe) it applies to Jonsa:

Jon, a secret Targaryen bastard, but who gets his look and his allegiance not through his father but Lyanna's blood -> Jon, a Stark bastard, will marry an Heir in secret in front of a Weirwood tree.

THAT is, imo, the most important aspect of this scandalous story from Mushroom - that a secret bastard, a targaryen and a stark, secretly marry in front of a Weirwood tree just before a bloody war kicks off. People tend to make Sansa the Sara in this part, which is valid, but I think Sansa's role in this is not just to be the pretty Stark maiden, but to be the HEIR that is secretly marrying for love, like Jacaerys is, and that Jon's role will be about his status as a bastard, so that both parts kind of apply to both characters. And given that, if Jace and Sara had married, their daughter would have been a Starkgaryen with "secret" bastard heritage (from both her parents), marrying a Stark Heir, it does make sense (at least in my mind) that this may apply to Jon and Sansa's future plot. the That's something I touched on here in my "what will Jon's endgame" post.

Then there's the Vermax of it all...

Mushroom also claims that Vermax left a clutch of dragon’s eggs at Winterfell, which is equally absurd. Whilst it is true that determining the sex of a living dragon is a nigh on impossible task, no other source mentions Vermax producing so much as a single egg, so it must be assumed that he was male. Septon Barth’s speculation that the dragons change sex at need, being “as mutable as flame,” is too ludicrous to consider.)

This brought to mind the ole' Jonnel and Sansa (the first) thing - beyond the J&S similarities (Jacaerys & Sara, Jon & Sansa, Jonnel & Sansa), I think it's also important that Jonnel and Sansa never have any children, though they're married for several years. Jacaerys and Sara also never have children, yet there's the rumor Vermax laid eggs in the crypt, with some believing this may have meant Sara was pregnant (but perhaps miscarried) when Jacaerys left. I think however, the fact that both J&S couples kind of mysteriously do not have children of their own, and that their Houses descend from someone else to be important.

I've kind of briefly gone into the idea that Bran rules in a parliamentary style over (what's left of) Westeros, and while I'm not too committed one way or the other on whether he physically has children or whether they elect the ruler on the Iron Throne more often starting from Bran, the succession is significantly less of an issue because of the permanent Great Council/Parliament that will exist. Sansa (and Jon, for that matter), however, is the heiress to a long line of kings and lords and needs some sort of heir. I don't think it's out of the realm of possibililty that while in the Vale, she connects with some of Jocelyn Stark's descendants (the famous "Vale cousins" that Catelyn mentions as heirs for Robb) and makes one of them her heir, or even names the children of Arya her heir, and pulls a Queen Elizabeth, but then I thought of Vermax laying dragon eggs that are never found, and Jonnel and Sansa never having children, and George's love of threes and thought...perhaps Jon and Sansa will have an heir, but Sansa can't claim the child as hers.

In that same vein, it’s noteworthy to me as well that Serena and Edric (Sansa's younger sister and Jonnel's younger brother) have TWO sons but the line completely bypasses them. We have no idea how the Northerners felt about these marriages beyond the fact that they didn't like Lynara's sons because their rules were plagued by troubles. Is it possible that they chose to bypass Edric's sons because of the incest, and Sansa/Jon may be forced to reconcile with how the realm views him (as Ned's son) and what he actually is (Lyanna's son) when it comes to the line of succession? IE - Vermax is rumored to lay an egg in the crypts but no one ever finds out, Sansa is rumored to have have had a child with her “brother” but no one ever finds out the truth.

TO SUM UP: I think the Pact of Ice and Fire is a hint that Jon and Sansa will secretly marry in the godswood of Winterfell, and it's likely that when Sansa is named Queen in the North, her heir will be "fathered by a wolf" or a "wildling" and she and Jon won't be able to tell anyone that Jon is the father.

#i was going to end this with the 'much to think about' billy ray cyrus meme but i stopped myself #jonsa #jonsa meta #actually jonsa #jon snow #sansa stark #jacaerys velaryon #jacaerys targaryen #getting on my soap box #serena stark #jonnel stark #edric stark #sara snow #rani attempts meta #twow speculation #ados speculation #stone and snow remains #i think that's all my tags #i'm literally so nervous posting this bc i think the last part might be a stretch so if u think its dumb do Not tell me or i'll throw up lo #i also know a lot of non jonsas follow me and the opinion of most non jonsas tends to be 'those people are crazy' :'((((((( #it's not relevant to the meta but i have kinda theorized that sansa was going to say her kids were fathered by a wolf for a long time. #and then i read twoiaf and f&b and this all clicked into place for me. so i feel even if jonsa doesn't happen. we'll get something similar #where *we* the reader knows that sansa has a secret husband/lover and he's the father but the north doesn't know (and doesn't care tm)

[deoidesign]

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#ok finally making a post about meds #I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without' #I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk. #can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset #so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but #it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways #so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone #like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work... #for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well! #it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus #my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night #sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired #it was more something that I just did because I had to. #but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end... #I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too. #but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted #but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk. #anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too #but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared #so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow #anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING #that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up #I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world #and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better. #but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on #and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much. #and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so... #I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better. #and I'm just crying because of all this combined. #I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!

[septembersghost]

did not sleep at all, but rather laid in bed agonizing and cycling over terrible things in my head, feeling my heart start to beat faster and faster with anxiety until i felt like i was running a marathon while lying perfectly still. cried, got up after all this at 8:30 to get ready to go to the dentist, cut myself because i'm too tired for fine motor skills. mom drops me off at the dentist, ascend to the second floor with another lady to find that the office is locked and closed because they moved, yet somehow didn't inform patients that they moved. having no way of contacting my mom (upon reflection, i could've gone to another business in the building to use a phone, but i was exhausted and panicked and ditzy), very kind lady introduces herself and offers me a ride to the new location since we're going to the same place. i think, if i can't trust the older women of the world, i can't trust anyone, and it's only five minutes away, so okay, i don't want to seem ungrateful and turn down a ride, we laugh about how nuts it is that patients didn't get this information. dentist is fine except my pulse ox is too low (BP was normal, oddly enough). i call mom from the front desk to inform her i am not where she expects me to be (to much confusion), and explain when she arrives. get back home and find the car that was worked on for two days last week is rattling and the engine seems frighteningly hot and it smells very bad and there's almost no oil because it is leaking, so now we don't know if it's safe to drive, except mom has a very important cancer screening tomorrow that she's been waiting for for two months (really longer than that because it's something she needed to do much sooner, but everything was in crisis last year, so she didn't), and we don't know if it will risk burning up the engine. i want to be put into a cursed repose for twenty years (/ever /permanent)

#on the plus side i didn't get serial killed #on the everything else side 👎🏻 #anyway feel like i'm going to throw up/faint and coming on here is a nightmare but whatever it's *my* silly little diary #was going to get a covid booster but couldn't because they don't have it atm #but honestly i don't feel like going through that right now #normal range BP for me would be like high BP for a normal person tbh. so that tracks #jess.mess #to clarify i would not have gotten in the car with a strange man. a lady in her 50s wearing a breast cancer awareness shirt seemed safe #and she was thankfully so i had a guardian angel there #sorry i just need to complain as catharsis #no paragraph breaks we blog like stream of consciousness on the verge of a nervous breakdown

[iero]

Anyone else get super afraid they're gonna get in trouble at work after a vacation ends? For what, I don't know, but I always get this feeling... Maybe it's just me and my paranoid ass, but it never stops.

#personal #Go back to work tomorrow. Vacation is officially over after today. Crying screaming throwing up etc. etc. #Which is funny because having off on Wednesdays at my job? I go to work tomorrow and have a day off again LMAOO #I'm sitting here so fucking nervous over work. #Even though it's the same bullshit over and over again... I go back to work and I'm like 'Damn I got nervous over THIS?!'

[monster-noises]

I love second hand book shops, I got to them frequently and always leave with Something and have a good time just peakin around

But i gotta say

It's one of the Worst spots for me in terms of imposter syndrome

I feel like everyone's uneasey with my presence as though i'm a stranger who just stumbled into their inner sanctum and they're.. they're gunna let me stay but they're gunna be weirded out the whole time and breath a sigh of relief when the Strange Unwelcome Freak Leaves

It also happens at record shops and sometimes at small antique shops or cons+festivals

Just this immediate foreboding of being Angrily Tolerated in a Space I Don't Belong

#monster noises #it's Incalculably stupid because 1) it's a store. anyone can go in there. #and 2) in all those locations... I do beling there!!!!!!!! not even in the sense of point 1 where it's a retail location but like!!!! #Book shops Record shops Antique malls Cons... are all like super 100% right up my alley nerd shit these Should be like '''''my people''''''' #which is i think a strong contributing factor to this pervasive feeling like #there's an underlying current of not just being in there to Shop but that i want the other people there to Like Me? I guess? #in our limited interaction? #i want them to see that i'm One Of Them and it makes me nervous #because whenever i am trying to be a Part of something i Immediately feel like some kind of isolated hollow fraud #like i'm worried that i not only Look like a poser #but that i Am #secretly #a Poser #so secretly that I don't even relaiE i'm a poser #it probably doesn't help that i also always have The most off-kilter interactions with the staff in these scenerios #it's never anything truly embarassing #but it's always like i try to be as nice as possible but their reaction is never what i expect #and it throws me off #it's a hard thing to pin down in words but like.. it feels like they are more than anything just Waiting for me to leave #if not from the get-go then from the moment i open my mouth to answer a question #and like idk !!! i'm trying so hard to be open and friendly and not just use canned response but also not be Too weird or too loud #and be engaged in conversation but it never works! #it's like i ooze some deeply unpleasant vibe and it turns everyone off me immediately when i enter their space #i'll see other customers having lovely conversations with staff and stuff and then when it's me it's like Cold #truly it does nothing for my self esteem #not everyone has yo or is going to like me but i really don't think it's too big an ask to not be scrutinized by store staff Constantly ;<;

[readyfreddy]

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#I started seeing someone and it's going well. I've gone on three dates with him and it's nice overall. #i was nervous wreck the entire 45 minute drive and I wanted to throw up and/or drive into a ditch. #Thankfully I managed to get there in one piece and got there early and was able to calm down a bit and have a good time. #My friend third wheeled for me and I'm so incredibly grateful that it worked out as well as it did. I'm such a wreck. #Walking back after with my friend was good and I realize that I'm still struggling with the insecurities I had growing up. #I'm getting better but it's probably something that'll stay with me forever. I'm slowly working through these issues but progress takes tim #I haven't told my parents that I'm gay even though they probably know and they're too polite to say anything (who knows at this point) #But I had a realization that I'll probably not tell them unless things become more serious.I don't want to lie to them.Like I can't even sa #“oh me and *** went to the gallery this weekend. You would've liked this exhibit” or like they eventually meet him #I just don't feel comfortable saying it and at the moment it's not worth it. #I'm happy for the most part and thats the important part

[monarchy-corrupted]

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#new comic #original comic #original character #oc #art #artists on tumblr #screaming crying throwing up #I'm so nervous about posting this and a maximum of three people are going to see it

[juliens-bakery]

hyperventilating, writhing with anxiety, etc. etc. 

#nat.twenties #i'm actually going to throw up tho i'm so fucking nervous #like my chances aren't great #but they're also not zero #so who knows

[lisbonsteresa]

AND THE TOUCH OF A HAND LIT THE FUSE

#damnit theo now all i can think of is that au it would work so well like the way he was nervous and fidgety before she came over #(for obvious reasons but it could also be because he knows her name when he comes looking for her; he knows he's about to meet his soulmate #and everything involved in that...too much involved for him to deal with now so he tries - and only kind of succeeds - to ignore it) #the way he has one arm kind of tucked into the other (to hide his tattoo) and his 'um' and how he just looks at her for a beat #(hoping it looks more like him still finding it hard to talk about red john and not like some part of him just tilted onto a new axis #in a way he's trying desperately to ignore) #meanwhile lisbon has 17 people say 'hi' to her every day; she's long since stopped wondering if person 18 could be The One #(but something flickers in her chest when she shakes his hand; faint and unfamiliar; it throws her off for the briefest of moments; #causes her 'hi' to come out much quieter and softer than she intended....but of course it did; she's talking to a man she knows #just went through a terrible loss; he LOOKS lost; why wouldn't she want to treat him delicately; it's part of her job #(even if she's starting to get the distinct feeling this man is going to make her job a whole lot harder) #i'm spiraling juuuust a little #tm #AND THEN THE 'TERESA LISBON. THAT'S A NICE NAME.' HOOOO BOY #(ack imagine if lorelei saw jane's tattoo and brings it up while lisbon's listening in in 5.01.... #'i think you do it to be close to teresa lisbon. and i understand why; considering those words on your arm')

[notanotherinfjblog]

Fe and overprotectiveness

It’s so funny to realise that as I grow older and grow more into my auxiliary Fe, this one annoying part of high Fe that I’ve witnessed in so many ESFJs throughout my life that I like to call aggressive overprotectiveness ... has been slumbering within me all this time as well. 

Like, you expect me to not get mad when I meet INFP to get some ice cream late in the afternoon, only to hear that that’s the first time he’s eaten anything that day? Doesn’t matter that I frequently forget meals myself, still makes me want to spoon-feed him like an infant. And you expect me to not get mad when ENTJ tells me he’s feeling a bit sick and almost collapsed on the stairs on the way up to his office, only to learn that two hours later (when he should have learned his lesson!!!!), he took the stairs again instead of the elevator? Keep doing that, boy, and I’ll have to break your knees to stop you and take proper care of you myself.

I’ve always hated it when my ESFJ mother/aunt/friends babied me saying things like “Is that jacket warm enough? Put a scarf on! Right now!!” or “Did you drink enough yet today? I’ll get you some water. Drink it, child. Now, while I’m looking!” etc. etc. because I always thought I was capable enough to take care of myself (which is a lie), but now I look at all these idiots in my life that are just as bad at taking care of themselves as I am and now I have to actively stop myself from shifting into mother hen mode, too. Heartbreaking. I mean, it’s nice to know that I actually can get angry. I’ve always had my doubts if I was capable of that emotion. Turns out I am. 

#i'd get mad at my sensor friends too but they aren't such idiots they know how to take care of themselves #i'm leaning so much into my fe lately i suddenly learn so much about myself #met an extremely nervous esfj recently and learned that i have a big sister mode as well despite never actually having been one #but my entire being just gets completely overrun by fe and i go 'give me your hand child i'll show you the way don't be afraid i love you' #and i swear if i catch entj in the office at 9pm AGAIN i'm gonna start throwing hands #doesn't matter that i only catch him there that late because i myself am still there and yes i know how hypocritical that is #but I'M allowed to mess up my life HE is NOT i won't allow it #mbti #fe #extroverted feeling #infj #enfj #isfj #esfj #high fe

[simgerale]

#who are you people #hi my name is miranda what's yours #thanks for liking miyah #i'm going to the beach today for a few days so ummm #don't expect much out of me for awhile ....lol....................um #i'm nervous now #uhhhhh #if you're not new here: #MY BF PRETTY MUCH GOT THE JOB THEY JUST HAVE TO SEND HIM AN OFFICIAL OFFER LETTER NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #he liked everyone there so that's good. #i want him to enjoy his job for once #also he got so nervous he made himself sick the day before and had a 102.7 fever and was throwing up a bunch #i was so worried but i kept it in cause it would've made HIM feel worse if i admitted it #so after he called me and told me all went well #i literally sobbed in my car as i drove him #home* #didn't realize i was holding all that in #haven't cried in awhile so that was weird #but everything is good now (^: #still haven't emotionally recovered i think but lol BEACH TIME

[roostertuftart]

Look I dont think youre wrong about people not listening to jewish voices but I am uncomfortable with you advocating so strongly for some groups while being shitty with others like when you liked a post by a racist justifying their use of the nword in the past and never talked about it. Jewish people need to be spoken for but how you pick and choose is suspicious and you cant expect other people to admit their biases when you cant admit your own.

??? Are you seriously trying to say that my concern for someone who was clearly in the midst of a mental breakdown makes it so that I can't support another person trying to speak about how depictions of a character are somewhat problematic???? This is. pathetic but thanks for trying to word it in the most uncharitable way possible lol.

edit: god i definitely worded these tags aggressively so I'm probably gonna make a real apology though I'm not even certain I did what anon is accusing me of??? either way my aggression is more towards them for trying to twist this situation so grossly and not towards anyone genuinely affected by whatever I apparently did (And I am not denying I did... I genuinely don't remember but like... Yeah it was definitely not great on my part if I did what they're saying even if my intentions were different, and the fact that I'm unsure is evidence enough to me that I might have)

Moreover, i have a hunch this anon has sent me bait before and I think it's nasty they're trying to twist an issue about antisemitism into whatever stupid beef they have with me. like... nasty.

Final edit: Any more asks from this anon are being deleted. I wouldn't have even published this one but I feel like that would be sort of hiding any wrongdoing i may have done at any point, but I genuinely do not believe this person means anything they're saying and are only doing this because for whatever reason they do not like me. and I. do not care lol

#if anyone wants to know context... There was a user who i will not name who had been going downhill for months #and this person had never been like... nasty or bigoted or anything in the past #but had began posting about being extremely suicidal and planning such. and a lot of other really dark hopeless shit #and suddenly started to post really bigoted but kind of deranged shit that like... clearly not of their actual beliefs but just. god idek #i've been around a ton of people who have had nervous break downs and the likes. and i was positive they were going through that #i still think it must have been. idk for sure but like. damn it was so sudden a shift #and with all of the suicidal stuff they posted i was gen really worried and I DMed them trying to support them multiple times` #because like! i'm sorry you've never dealt with anyone who isn't well but sometimes extremely mentally ill people do random fucked up #shit that may not be okay and they may need to be held accountable for but goddamn i was legitimately worried they were gonna off #themselves? idr liking their posts. i'm not gonna deny i did. I might've just to show them that i wasn't ignoring whatever shit they were #going through to make them suddenly act so erratic and irrational #if you wanna hold that against me #fine. i really don't care #looking back i probably should've kept my concern for them within dms and i can definitely recognize how my public support might come off #as support for what they said or posted and i do genuinely apologize for that... tbh if people really think it's necessary I will turn #these tags into a cleaned up apology like... i'm not saying that i handled that great #but to act like it's as simple as i supported a racist saying the n word? uhh??? no?? and you know that's not what happened #but please try to paint me as bad as possible lmao. just throw out accusations or assumptions of my intentions. #i'm apologizing rn to anyone genuinely affected by that stuff but you didn't ask this out of concern anon #ask #anon

[stray-but-okay]

Jciajdiciengisoqjf

#yall i just got told I'm going to my first ever client meeting!!!! #AHHHHH #im so nervous but excited like this is a sign I'm moving up at my work cuz they trust me to meet people 😩😩😩 #im gonna throw up it's next month #i gotta learn how to eat properly LOL #personal

[wanderthroughtheruins]

started rewatching voltron and i'm so pissed it took until the fourth episode for an entire episode without hunk being made fun of for being fat or "stupid" or anxious. just the way he was introduced was so??? from his introduction scene with pidge and lance we can tell that pidge is really smart and calculated, lance is really confident in himself and his skills to the point where it can be detrimental, he's a dork and a funny guy, and hunk is.....throwing up. he was one of the first paladins we saw and when keith showed up minutes later we already knew more about him from just a couple of seconds than we knew about hunk. we're told he's kind and caring and will put others before himself before we get to see him do those things.

#i know no one cares about vld in 2022 but i'm so fucking pissed y'all don't get it #esp cause some of voltron's appeal was the supposed diversity when in reality hunk's mere existence is treated like a joke #lance never get any character development which is just ???? he was the first one to become a paladin. he has pretty strong connections #with everyone on the team and he's just such an interesting character but all the development was given to the light skin characters :| #the introduction scene really made me consider not rewatch it anymore tho. they could have just had him panic and being all 'guys i think #i'm gonna throw up' and then lance being like 'c'mon hunk you're a smart guy you can do this' but he's just too nervous and they still fail #YOU DIDN'T NEED TO HAVE HIM THROWING UP FOR THE SIMULATOR TO GO TO SHT