#I'm tired we're all tired of this

[canisalbus]

Hello, I'm not sure if you're aware, but tumblr is going to start helping midjourney gather data for their AI. You're one of the artists I follow here pretty actively and I wanted to warn you to maybe start nighshading your art before posting it here so it doesn't get swept up!

I've seen a couple of posts about it. Feeling disappointed but not that surprised. Also not excited about having to start nightshading/glazing my pieces but if there isn't going to be any serious regulations regarding data scraping and ai "art", there aren't a lot of choices.

Thank you for taking the time to warn me just in case, it was very thoughtful of you!

#from what I've seen the effectiveness of nightshade/glaze has been debated and I don't even pretend to understand how it works #but like watermarks it's at least some kind of preventive measure a token effort to stop your art from being stolen and misused #but I fear that if someone is determined to do it anyway chances are they will find a way unfortunately #this shouldn't be the reality of trying to share art online #it's a pretty dismal situation when this responsibility falls on the artists themselves #I've been here since 2011 I've lived through multiple tumblr apocalypses I'm not leaving unless they make this place wholly unlivable #and I don't think there are truly good alternatives with similar sense of community and as varied posting and customization options #it seems like every other major social media platform is doing this exact same thing if not worse #answered #ohdeergood #I'm tired we're all tired of this

[ardri-na-bpiteog]

Also increasingly aware that a LOT of people "manage" getting through the 40+ hour work week by sleeping less than is healthy and relying on stimulants like coffee and energy drinks to keep them going.

For people who are unwilling or unable to do this...work really does just dominate your life. Like we really should not have to rely on unhealthy practices just to have a social life or keep on top of housework or whatever.

I know I post about this a lot but I'm so TIRED all the time and it's just so depressing that this is how we're expected to spend the one life we have.

#i have to get at least 8 hours of sleep a night to even barely function #with sleep #getting ready for work #commute #cooking #and errands #I typically have maybe 2-3 hours to actually do what i want in a day #and I'm usually too tired to actually do the things i want to do #and that's with a very short commute #if i actually had a long commute I'd basically do nothing but work #i see my friends like once every few weeks or months #because we're all so fucking busy with work and have such little time for socialising #and none of us even have kids or anything!!

[thisismisogynoir]

I love it when women hate men. I love it when women are allowed to vent to each other about how horrible and creepy men are. I love it when women form friendships with and prioritize each other over relationships with men(whether they're attracted to them or not). I love it when women put men dni in their bios and on their nude photos and on posts on their blogs. I love it when women refuse to mollycoddle and accommodate entitled male feelings with "but this doesn't mean I hate all men, I know a few men who are great, I love my father/sons/brothers/uncles/male cousins/guy friends" I love it when women complain about men WITHOUT "not all men" being a disclaimer. I love it when women avoid socializing with/refuse to be around/befriend/get close to men because they know men can't be trusted. I love it when women make "kill all men" jokes. I love it when women offer absolutely no concern or care for men's feelings and if their misandry offends men whatsoever because why should we, men are the oppressor class who have raped and killed and abused us and kept us as subjugated as second-class citizens for millennia, they regularly mistreat us and the women in their own marginalized communities still every single day and make this world so much harder and more awful for us to be in, and if we choose to hate them and not spare them any sympathy then so be it, and I don't just mean "men as a class" either, you can be a woman who doesn't want to have anything to do with any man on an individual basis and completely cuts off men from her personal life too and ykw I will love and fucking support you in that because men deserve absolutely NOTHING from us. If they're so tough and strong then they can handle it just like they can handle being lonely. If you are a woman who hates men, ESPECIALLY IF YOU ARE A LESBIAN AND/OR A TRANS WOMAN, then just know that I love you. I love you, I support you, and you are safe here.

#was going to make a post about how much i hate that women aren't allowed to hate their oppressors but i decided to spin it into something #positive instead #this is supposed to be the feminist site that makes reddit mgtow piss their baby diapers so let's go back to despising men and not coddling #their feelings and let's dye our hair blue while we're at it #i am so tired of this new wave of guilt-tripping and gaslighting women who hate men and don't trust or want to be around them #i hate how we're made into villainesses or the problematic ones for not valuing them in our lives or for wanting to guard ourselves or be #safe from our oppressors #and i'm tired of people who don't know the first thing about feminism being like 'BUT THAT'S TERF RHETORIC WHAT ABOUT X MINORITY MEN' #guess what women can also be x minority that you're trying to protect the men of and we get to hate men too #trans women are included when i say women btw and trans men are included when i say men #if anyone has the right to hate men more than anybody else it's trans women esp trans lesbians because they put up with so much shit #from men that even cis women do not and they especially know how vile men are behind closed doors #so #terfs fuck off #radfems fuck off #and if anybody tries to make this post more appeasing to men or 'not all men's this post you are getting blocked and hit with a hammer #feminism #misogyny #sexism #patriarchy #tw men #tw rape #tw abuse #misandry #terfs dni #radfems dni #feminists need to go back to being scary and unpalatable for men none of this 'but some of them are good!' bullshit #men are entitled to nothing from us #and if you try to prove me wrong then you are just proving my point if you have nothing good to say then simply keep scrolling #ok? ok.

[polaraffect]

y'all remember when book fairs used to have those "banned books" display sections that advertised books based on that fact that they had been banned in schools in the past and everyone went "haha wow, it's crazy that they banned books like this! what a wacky thing to do!" haha........ yeah....... who would even do that......

#damien.txt #honestly i would prefer to go back to ppl using it as a marketing strategy than it just. happening! in my state! #i'm so tired fr morality wars make me want to curl up in a ball & choke #yeah sure the books are indoctrinating your child. the exact same way YOU. the parent. are indoctrinating them. #sorry it's from a different viewpoint i forgot that we're all trying for a homogenized society here. land of the free and all that. #just generally speaking the shit that is getting passed in my state.... truly beyond belief. #shoutout to the diversity programs that are fully just. getting defunded! by state law! how haha funny of them. #please get me out of here i'm desperate #us politics #politics

[xtaleunderverse]

Hello, I noticed that the target on the Patreon was missing regarding the Beach Episode, and I became interested. Will the episode be released? Have your plans changed?

No plans have changed, only Patreon's feature. Making Perfect Encounter a full-voiced episode with the extra help of more animators is something I want to happen, however, we haven't reached the goal yet 🤷

#mod jakei #we're gonna need a big funding if i want to hire a team #because i'm getting older and tired animating all these stuff by myself #and i'd like to have a well-done animation for this special episode #not to mention the casting for each character #there's still time though #remember that it will come out in 2069

[secretariatess]

People say that northern food is bland when in reality, northern food done poorly is bland.

Northern food relies a lot on the flavor of the ingredients instead of spices to get its flavor. Just a hint of seasoning, like salt and pepper. The point of it is to let the ingredients stand out. If it's not cooked to respect the natural flavor, it's going to taste bad.

So no, we don't cover or laden or dishes with spices. It stems from the fact that the north doesn't provide a great environment for spices. But we found how to make our food taste good without it.

Case in point:

I made a clam chowder earlier this year with a recipe that was more orientated for my state. Salt and pepper were the only seasonings- the flavor came from the clam juice and bacon. It was good.

I've made Dublin coddle several times, which is an Irish dish. Salt and pepper are the main seasonings. It gets its flavor from the sausage and bacon, and the vegetables. It makes a delicious gravy to mop up with the right kind of bread.

Northern food isn't bland. It needs to be cooked right.

#I like all kinds of food #So this isn't a dis of southern cuisine #I'm just tired of hearing about how northerners have bland food #Or that we can't handle spice and whatnot #You're right that we're not big on spicy dishes #It's just not a normal part of our cuisine so why WOULD we handle spice like you? #I think our cuisine deserves a little respect #Considering what we had to work with #We've done a fine job actually

[jacobglaser]

Sorry I cant get over that quote about Nandermo's love being "deeper and more profound", have I stepped into a time machine, what year is it, because I can't be seeing that excuse in the year 2023.

#didnt J2 say basically the exact same thing at one of the first cons after despair? #regardless of the canon-ness of the ships in question all you're saying is thay queer love is not deep or profound in your eyes #and if it ~deep~ then it cant be physical?! or something?! #get to absolute fuck #I'm not even like thee biggest nandermo shipper. i mean have eyes so its obvious to me but its not the be all end all for me #but regardless i just am mindblown that we're still getting this tired old shit being trotted out #wwdits #what we do in the shadows #nandermo

[priceofreedom]

funny how everyone seemed to adore Zack until he started having more screentime...

#it's honestly very surprising. i see hate towards him almost every day since Remake came out and i wish i was kidding #and yeah yeah i know other characters get lots of hate too but the hate towards him has been so sudden and random??? #idk maybe he *was* hated before but i just didn't notice #but at the same time no. i'm 100% sure the hate increased considerably after he was shown to be alive in the Remake #i feel like some people are just weirdly concerned he is gonna overshadow the main characters which is stupid #this story is still about Cloud and the others #we're just gonna explore another reality (allegedly) with Zack it's not that deep bro #(rebirth spoilers) -> even in Zack's timeline Cloud AND Aerith are there #and who knows how many more #like i get shippers being petty because when are they not petty #but i've seen non-shippers/casual players saying they do not want to see more of him and being all bitter bc he's important #he's always been important you all just refuse to acknowledge it!!! #no matter how many times hamaguchi nomura nojima etc say he's super important ppl just keep denying it 💀 #as if y'all know more than the freaking devs i'm getting tired of this bs #my post #i'm glad the devs love him as much as we do. cry about it

[flowersforfrancis]

I'll take that as a challenge.

#i can try #yet we're all humans here #watch me #anyway #black and white #anti social #anxiety creature #people are exhausting #life is exhausting #i'm so tired #black and white aesthetic #black and white film #dark aesthetic #aesthetic #academia aesthetic #dark academia aesthetic #humanity #god dammit #old aesthetic #dark academia #dark romantica #romanticism #dark romanticism #darkness #why not

[americankimchi]

god i wish they hadn't retconned maul's death. i get wanting to explore more of his character because he was, objectively, one of the coolest star wars characters to ever hit the big screen and didn't get much screentime prior to his death, but also his role was fulfilled perfectly within those constraints so i wasn't too upset by it.

but by retconning it and making it so he never died it's like. okay. what now? the whole point (well, to me, ymmv of course) of the theed generator fight was that it was the first ever fight between the jedi and the sith in thousands of years, and that in the end even though the jedi (obi-wan) won the fight, a jedi (qui-gon) and a sith (maul) still died. a master and an apprentice dying together to herald the start of a new age/the return of the sith. perfectly paralleling the way in rotj a master (palps) and an apprentice (anakin/vader) died together to herald the return of the jedi. in both instances, a father figure (qui-gon/vader) dies in the arms of their son (obi-wan/luke) as a sith (palps/maul) is cast down into the abyss to their deaths. (palps being alive in the ST and retconning his death in rotj is also annoying for this reason)

i mean i like maul. don't get me wrong. he's an incredibly compelling character and i enjoy seeing more of him... but there's always the thought hovering in my mind like "he should be dead though. he should 100% be dead. this wouldn't be happening if he was dead, but i honestly would rather it not if it meant that maul was dead."

like the tpm fight just doesn't hit the same knowing that canonically he's just. going to become a robot octopus at some point. (shoutout to palps becoming sith glados in the ST) it cheapens the moment for me. it was supposed to be a moment of triumph marred by the deep and soul-crushing loss of a loved one and it's just... not, anymore. or at least not to the same extent. AUGH i'm just. frustrated. wish star wars as a whole wasn't constantly reframing/retconning what's been established. just puts a bad taste in my mouth.

#personal #star wars is HUGE #there's a GALAXY'S worth of stories to be told #and we're always for whatever reason focusing on this ONE PARTICULAR TIME PERIOD #it's suffocating #this is partly why i'm so excited to see the acolyte #it's a break from the skywalker saga #i love the skywalkers. i love the skywalker saga. #but that's also why i want them to STOP ADDING TO THEIR STORY #sometimes a story has a beginning middle and an end and that's okay! #that's fantastic! #we don't need to see between the lines! or behind the scenes! what if we just LEFT IT ALONE #AUGH #anyways. i don't know. i'm just frustrated with the state of star wars as a whole #it feels so claustrophobic right now. just because the space is there and undefined doesn't mean it needs to be filled #this constant push to canonize the years leading up to an event with content is so frustrating #negative space in an image isn't a bad thing it just helps guide the eye to what's most important #otherwise it gets too cluttered. too noisy. too DISTRACTING. #this was supposed to be about maul being alive but it's really about my ongoing grievances with how star wars is cannibalizing the movies #i'm tired of it........ tired i tell you #anyways that's all. real old man yells at cloud moment rn lmao

[sysig]

Don’t be silly! Okay, be a little silly (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Sans #Papyrus #Could also be general Undertale again but y'know lol #Silliness is the only thing on the menu I'm sorry but we're out of everything else it's the one remaining option #Speaking of silliness! I started that first one in an attempt to draw Sans' blind side and then- #I had a 50-50 chance of what direction to have him face and I picked the wrong one brain why lol #Well he was still fun to draw anyhow lol it all works out #Tired Papyrus toting an even tireder Sans around #I imagine Undyne called him to do something and he just brought Sans along since he was already carrying him lol #Sans waking up in random places like ''Ah. Papyrus-teleportation'' lol #Another mini set based on me and smol! Just try and stop me!! #We frequently talk about dreams right after we wake up if we happen to catch each other - and remember lol #And one of her dreams was just so absurd that the harder I imagined it the funnier it got lol #So I gave it to Sans to enjoy lol - him enjoying when Papyrus is intentionally silly with him makes my heart happy <3 #Papyrus plays his straight man so often that when he does come in with something funny it just catches Sans off guard haha #Pleased all the way around! #Also ft. a slight headcanon I have about Sans' lowercasedness lol #About his voice being naturally quiet and all that - that even when he laughs really hard it's still on the quiet side #Tires him out but it's kinda breathy #And if you can believe it I am Still getting used to drawing Sans' face pftbltl #He's so roundy! I feel like he'd be easy to draw and then I do and like #Sometimes yes sometimes no! I'm starting to recognize which features do it but dang I wasn't expecting him to be harder to draw than Papyrus #I feel like Papyrus' design is a little more forgiving - like if you mess up a detail you can still be like ''Okay but that's like 95% him'' #With Sans it's like ''Well I did Something. And now he's Extremely off-model. Could I tell you what I did? Uhm'' Lol #I'll get it figured out! I will!

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

wouw i can draw someone other than the guy

#death note #near #nate river #light yagami #manga redraw #my art #probably the last ones for the night but who knows #this guy is fun to doodle #i like his smirk #really regretting skipping so much earlier this semester bc i don't want to go to class tomorrow but i can't really afford to :/ #we're getting back to the point of the semester where i want to drop out again #but actually i think that's just because it's the weekend i lose all emotional and mental stability on the weekend that's just how it is #anyway none of u could ever guess but i'm tired #but i have to do stressful things because the ppl i live with are purposefully doing things that trigger the ocd bc they think i'm faking #but uhhhh no sorry and now i have to do a bunch of necessarily intricate and painful things to fix it #i really need to get out of here tbh but i can't really leave until i'm graduated #so i suffer #anyway enjoy the doodles :]

[the-kaleidoscope-sys]

If you're going to be "transRAMCOA", I'm going to demand that you start by paying reparations to all the real survivors out there.

My therapy with a DID and RAMCOA specialist (very hard to find, btw) costs me almost $7000 a year. Let's start there, shall we? That's almost $600 a month. Just on therapy. That I am incredibly lucky to have access to. Most survivors are shit out of luck and have to try to heal without a specialist.

I've lost untold amounts (hundreds of thousands at least) in lost income opportunities because of how disabling being a survivor is. I can't work a regular full time job and will probably never be able to. I've been "working" (read: pimped out by my own parents) since I was a little kid but the skills of a child sex worker aren't exactly transferable to the normie world, y'know?

I get by with a lot of help from some understanding roommates and friends that I'm lucky, VERY lucky, to have. This is to say nothing about the *quality* of that life (not great) beyond what capitalism or money cares about, because of course I'm constantly Experiencing Symptoms. On account of all of the trauma.

I can't even go to the bathroom like a normal person because of how much the constant rape fucked everything up downstairs. There is no fixing this. I will deal with many of the medical and mental complications for the rest of my life and this is just one of them. (Does it still sound like a fun thing to roleplay?)

The first ~20 years of my life were a living hell beyond what most of you can even imagine. My life is also statistically likely to be much shorter than the average person's. What kind of price can I even put on all those lost years? I can't. But you could pay me enough to not have to work for all the years remaining to me. If you want to pay me, say.... $100k a year for the rest of my life so that I can live what little is left to me in peace, then I would be happy to consider you an honorary RAMCOA survivor. I'll even write you a nice little certificate you can frame. I'll give you regular updates on how my therapy is going, so you can (sort of, not really though, you could never understand if you haven't lived it) experience this mAgIcAL hEaLiNg jOuRneY vicariously through me.

Go on, then. You want to be us so bad? Find a REAL survivor, and pay up. Otherwise get the fuck out of my community and stay out. Surviving RAMCOA is not a fun little identity label for you to play around with, it's REAL shit that ruins the lives of REAL people every day. I live with this, EVERY day. It's not a fun little game I can stop when I get tired of playing. This is my LIFE.

So pay up, or fuck off.

#ramcoa #transramcoa tw #tw transramcoa #not posting in your tags because we're better people than you are. <3 you're welcome. #clown on this post and get blocked. I don't want to hear it. #I'm old and I'm tired and. really? I survived all that sick bullshit just to struggle and scrape by? #in a world where people pretend to be someone like us for sick twisted 'fun'? #where is the justice? WHERE IS THE JUSTICE? #alter: rania #mostly

[aro-culture-is]

hey all. it's been a while. life has been not... bad per se, but I certainly haven't had the energy to keep up with this blog in quite some time. I'm closing submissions for now, and gonna try to queue up the whole of what has previously been submitted.

i'll let you know at the end of all that if i'm gonna continue at all. if I decide to abandon this blog, I do intend to keep it up as a resource and will not delete it.

thank you all for a great time

--- mods, kee system

#blog maintenance #i'd say sorry but tbh. i'm just tired all the time now. i don't have energy. maybe i'll do more again if i feel better. #but rn we're just perpetually doing our best with a body that can barely hold on with daily tasks and even then... things get lost #there's currently 527 submissions in the inbox for this blog. unsure if there's any Ghosts (it happens. trust us.) #where the submission exists only sometimes / has otherwise glitched #but ultimately that's like. approximately 530 posts and even when we consider coming back to this blog that's just an overwhelming number #and you can't even backwards chrono the inbox on tumblr #so it's just... gonna be whatever we have the spoons for #thank you for the community <2

[jgyapologism]

fun fact: nobody in this show is a green flag. they are all red flags. yes, i mean ALL. that includes top. and sand. and nick. and mew.

that's kind of the whole point

#i'm tired of hearing people call top a green flag #and then shitting on ray for being a red flag #listen they are all TERRIBLE #JUST IN DIFFERENT wAYS #nobody in this fucking show is a green flag and if you think any of them are green flags #we're not watching the same show #ofts #only friends #only friends the series

[shirozora-draws]

Listen.

I can explain. I saw a Tumblr post about shoulder kisses a month ago if the time stamp on my Discord messages are anything to go by. Then I saw a very evocative quote tweet about eroticism. And I, uh, I was feeling really spiteful. If you know, you know.

Anyway, I lost two days of writing and a lot of sleep to this. Rip my fucking sanity.

#shirozora draws #dinluke #lukedin #skydalorian #din djarin #luke skywalker #the mandalorian #star wars #my ability to rein in my impulsive needs is nonexistent and i am so tired #anyway have something inspired by thoughts about eroticism (and i guess that incredible essay about the MCU and hotness) #GET IN LOSERS WE'RE GOING TO SPICYTOWN #actually i have had THOUGHTS ALL THE TIME about din djarin's ridiculous shoulders and build #(read: pedro pascal's very nice shoulders and broadness) #i've seen these thoughts before and they're called steve rogers and samsteve #where was i? anyway. shoulders. also scars. i'm weak for scars sorry not sorry #and also touch and tactility i mean jfc all that circuitporn i wrote 10 years ago #anyway let me knock out a bunch of my kinks in one go #and gET BACK TO WRITING SOME GODDAMN WORDS