#MWAH autism loves you

[yoursonlucifer]

love of my life emily axford

#i could tag this post as so many things #currently it pertains to acofaf but dont think for a second that it doesnt also pertain to her character choices and performances in #every naddpod campaign and every dimension 20 campaign #MWAH autism loves you #a court of fey and flowers #and why not #naddpod #fantasy high #dimension 20 #eldermourne #bahumia #And #ba2mia

[lazycranberrydoodles]

carve with compassion — Poor Things (2023)

#OUGHHHHHH GO WATCH POOR THINGS!!! #it has gay people and autism and socialism. and surgery as horror and surgery as love. tumblr bitches love that #fisheye lense…. black and white filters…. costume design… #i love you bella baxter i love you mwah mwah #poor things #poor things (2023) #emma stone #poor things fanart #art #my art #fanart

[1-7776]

autistic ppl will see a sitcom and say is anyone else gonna obsess over this and analyze this beyond reason and not wait for an answer

#its always sunny in philadelphia #seinfeld #friends #parks and rec #the office #that 70s show #psych #autistic ppl w sitcom special interests are earths greatest warriors... Love You Mwah #autism #special interest

[dceuheadcanons]

Things mentally "Wrong"™️ with the current main batfamily members

Bruce - Autism, OSDD-1B, BPD, NPD, AVPD, C-PTSD, MDD, and OCD. Suffers from heavy suicidal ideation, self-harms, and has addictions to things too, but he's very good at hiding his issues.

Dick - Autism, ADHD, BPD, PTSD, MDD. Also HPD let's be honest here. He's very prone to allowing people to manipulate him, he NEEDS the attention.

Jason - Autism, NPD with BPD traits, C-PTSD. Self-harmed as a child (cuts), and still does as an adult (burns).

Tim - Autism, ADHD, BPD and HPD. He's practically the HPD poster boy guys come on. Girls that get it, get it. Girls that don't, don't.

Cass - Autism, AVPD with heavy ASPD traits.

Steph - ADHD, autism and HPD.

Damian - He's literally like 10-15 in my version of things so he can't actually be diagnosed with personality disorders yet. But he's autistic as FUCK. When he grows up he probably has AVPD and NPD though.

Duke - AVPD probably. Also autism obviously.

Alfred - Autism. He's an autism dad quite literally. I love him.

#Aka they are all autistic and all have a pd of some kind #They have so many issues they are so dysfunctional but they still love and care for eachother #Sorry for the sad post I just wanted to project onto Batman tbh #Also these are all positive I love you people with pds mwah mwah (I have multiple pds) #We love pds in this house #batman #bruce wayne #dc headcanon #dceu #dceu headcanons #batman headcanon #dc universe #alfred pennyworth #batfam #dick grayson #jason todd #cassandra cain #stephanie brown #tim drake #duke thomas #damian wayne #autism headcanon #pd headcanon #Bruce 🦇 #jason ⚰️ #blog lore

[whumpacabra]

The Target

Angst, back from the dead, memory loss, amnesia, guilt, implied past abandonment, referenced past captivity and torture, referenced past illness, therapy mention

[Directly follows Tea]

The set up was cliche for a reason: it worked. No fancy equipment, as few moving parts as possible, and complete deniability. Jackson had taken the target to a small tea shop in the heart of the city. Crowded but not too busy. Bribing the waiter to sit the pair behind her table was easy.

The hard part was resisting the urge to turn around and look at him -

(She needed to be patient. Even if it was her Wolf back from the dead, she wasn’t sure her presence would be soothing.)

(…)

(If it was her Wolf, if Ghost had left him for dead, if he had survived all these years - would he hate her? Would he forgive Ghost?)

“You’re looking well, East.”

“Thanks. Helps to not be half dead and sick as a dog.”

The voice was…wrong. Too gravelly, too low - the accent though, the cadence of his words…oh, how desperately she wanted to believe it was him. A waiter brought her the tea she had ordered, creamy and warm and sweet. She didn’t have the stomach for it, thinking about the target behind her.

“I’m sorry I haven’t been around lately. I know it must have been a…rough adjustment.”

The man behind Liza scoffed.

“It’s been…an adjustment, to be sure.” He sighed, voice softening. “But I’m…doing better. Thanks to you - ”

“Oh, don’t you dare give me credit. That’s all you. And Nate, of course. I just dropped you at the door and left.”

“You didn’t have to. Help me, I mean.” East clearly meant to elaborate, but a waiter came by to take their order. Liza forced herself to swallow a few sips of her drink. She told herself she didn’t shiver at his coffee order - it didn’t mean anything, anyone could enjoy black coffee and four sugar cubes without milk.

“Speaking of, helping you, how’s Judy been?”

“Helpful.” The word was clipped and professional, but East worked some levity into his voice as he continued. “Starting to feel like a real person again.”

“I’m glad.” The warmth in Jackson’s voice almost took Liza off guard. So sickeningly tender and genuine. “You have no idea how relieved I am that you’re - ”

He cut himself off, their drinks served by an unwitting waiter. There was the clatter of tea cups and coffee mugs and sugar stirred with honey.

“Careful, it’s hot.”

“I know - it’s still good.”

“How can you tell with it burning your tastebuds off?” Jackson’s amused huff and East’s chuckling sigh only made the pang of nostalgia all the louder in Liza’s heart. Wolf (her Wolf) never waited for his coffee to cool; too impatient to wait - he always claimed it tasted worse once it cooled to a drinkable temperature.

“I’m glad you’re back, Jackson.” East’s voice was still warm, but there was a tension under his words. “How have you been? Is everything…alright?”

“Fine. I’m doing just fine - happy to be home, if I’m quite honest.” Jackson’s reply was immediate and open, but dreadfully vague. “Everything’s just fine.”

Liza couldn’t see East’s reaction behind her, but whatever it was compelled Jackson to continue. She could almost see him, in her mind’s eye: her Wolf…a decade younger, face pinched in worry - always worried - and eyes bright with determined preparation for every scenario.

“Things are dying down. Americans are keeping to themselves for once, and it’s looking like a cold case.” Jackson’s voice was almost too quiet to hear, but Liza could practically feel the tension bleed from the man behind her. “Almost out of the woods - just some finalized paperwork and seals of approval.”

“And what happens…after?”

Liza stared down at her tea, trying to picture it. The great and terrifying Ghost - who swore off apprentices after losing his first, his last - being told the man that was practically his son had survived. (Had been abandoned.) Wolf - who went through a hell at the hands of the enemy, who spent years abandoned and alone - survived and he could come home. (To a stranger in his room and the dog he loved long dead.)

(Her one regret in her life burned bright in her throat - oh, how he would have loved to meet Casey. How different things could have been if Wolf was around to protect her boy.)

“After…we get you home.”

“Which is?” East (Wolf?)’s whisper was hoarse, laced with a sad desperation that broke Liza’s heart. Jackson had told her he might have - she didn’t really think, she hoped -

(She was a fool, always blinded by hope and it’s empty promises.)

“I - I thought you said things were going well with Judy - ”

“Nevermind. Your tea’s getting cold.“ It was like a switch had flipped, words suddenly steady and strong. Whatever fledgling hope Liza had that this was her Wolf, that he could come home, died in her chest.

(Wolf hadn’t had a home to come back to in along time.)

“Hey, I just - East…it’s fine. We said it would probably take some time. We’re not in any rush - ”

“You seem to be.” There was a thin bite to the words, defensive but still smothered in that muted parody of nonchalance. “I don’t know. I don’t really want to. It sucks to think about. I thought maybe you…figured something out that I couldn’t.”

“East…love, I - ”

“It’s fine. I like my job. I like my friends. Think Al and I might get a flat together - rent’s too high to not have roommates in this economy.” East’s sigh was decisive, a harsh swallow before he continued. “I just - God, fuck - I like my life right now. And I don’t want to leave it all behind. But I know - I don’t know - what you need or, or want me to do in return for - ”

“Nothing. East, I’m not here to take you away I just - I didn’t know if you had somewhere else you’d rather be. But, if you’re happy here…I don’t see any reason for you to leave.”

“Really?”

(Why did the relief in his voice sound so much like a nail in the empty coffin they buried for him?)

Liza wanted to get sick; she stood up a bit too quickly, chair bumping into the man behind her. She pulled on the mask of a stranger, perfect and apologetic and calm, and looked a dead man in the eye.

“Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry - ”

“No worries.”

Her heart dropped to her feet, his polite glance failing to betray recognition, even though she knew that face and those eyes so well, even a decade removed -

(He looked so much older than she remembered him. Tired. Contented. Scarred and worn by time and it’s ravages. Where was the soldier more boy than man she remembered? Where was his fiery eyes and burning passion? Where was his fight?)

(…)

(Was it better, she wondered, for him to live a life without that fight, that fire in his heart? God knew how it had burned her and everyone else who knew him when it was snuffed out.)

Liza took her leave, heart in her throat.

—

“Did you - ?”

“I don’t know him. This was a waste of my time.”

“I’m sorry - ”

“I’m sure you are.” Liza let her voice soften as she looked out at the rain hitting her hotel window. She sighed into the phone, speaking before she could regret it. “Agent Jackson?”

“Yes?”

“I don’t know this Wolf of yours, but it sounds like he’s having a pretty good life.” She almost paused, almost stopped to consider telling him the truth before deciding better of it. Liza was far more comfortable in a lie. “Don’t fuck it up looking for something he doesn’t need found.”

“…Thank you, Liza.”

She snapped the phone closed, and closed her eyes, remembering the face she knew on a man who didn’t know her.

It wasn’t worth unburying that empty casket. It wasn’t worth uprooting a good, clean civilian life. It wasn’t worth opening old wounds. Wolf was dead, as he had been for a decade. Liza needed to make sure he stayed dead, and that East stayed alive and well and untainted by the world he left behind.

[Before Smoke Break]

(Part of my Freelancers: Changing Tides series)

Taglist: @stargeode @sacredwrath @genuineformality

#whump #angst #back from the dead #memory loss #amnesia #guilt #abandonment #past torture #past captivity #past illness #therapy mention #freelancers #*squeezing Liza like a squeaky toy* her track record for deciding she knows what’s best for people in her life sucks so bad #but she keeps doing it because she cares too much to let anything be anyone’s fault but hers. #and east…oh east. this is just a random Tuesday for him. it’s the last time she’ll see the face of her friend and he doesn’t even know it. #I am unwell abt my own ocs. *autism creature stare* I just think they’re neat. #in other news it’s [redacted] today so. worst case scenario I’ll explain whatever the fuck keeps me away from the internet #whenever I can get back. best case scenario nothing happens and life goes on as usual for my blog schedule here. o7 #regardless just gotta get through the week and I’ll have a better bead on the risk level we’re looking at. #personal rambling done. mwah I love you people who read my goofy tags.

[mango-mya]

JUST WATCHED MUTANT MAYHEM IM INSANE IM BONKERS IM ILL!!!!

#RAPH I LOVE YOU SO MUCH #I NEED TO FINISH MY SELF INSERT SO I CAN MAKE A MM ONE OH MY GODD #LEO WAS SO SO SO SO SO SO SO CUTE #DON'T EVEN GET ME STARTED ABOJT MIKEY AND DONNIE #AUTISM DONNIE IS SO SO SO REAL #OH MY GODDDD 😭😭😭 AND APRIL!!!!!! LOVE HER MWAH MWAH #teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt mutant mayhem #mutant mayhem #tmnt mutant mayhem spoilers #mutant mayhem spoilers

[yandere-kokeshi]

Happy Autism awareness month :]

I'm all proud of you ❤️

#kokeshi!! #kokeshi rambles! #awarness #autism #autism awareness #im all proud of you!! #you all are the best #i can see how hard you are trying #and im more proud of you everyday by the steps you take #mwah <3 #love you /p

[little-klng]

hi random person visiting thru one of ur posts. i also have evil hell dandruff and i found coal tar shampoo is basically perfect for helping to keep down the flaking :) unfortunately the itching wont go all the way away tho :(

Oh yeah for sure, I actually have like 6 bars of coal tar soap, plus coal tar shampoo, plus Neutrogena acid free face wash (it has salicylic acid), plus normal shower stuff. I am in itch and drift hell. Basically the only time I don't itch is straight after a shower, but if I just tousle my hair a little bit it's a snow drift and feels Terrible

(For those unaware, salicylic acid is a skin product that helps dead skin strip off easier and acts like a mild antibacterial, usually used for acne or, if you watch hoof gp videos, the powdered form is used to allow dead skin to separate and keep exposed live skin from getting infected. In the case of dandruff, all it does is help make the top layer of dandruff easier to remove. Coal tar extract and coal tar, however, actually inhibits skin growth specifically, preventing dandruff and such caused by shedding excess overgrown skin like in psoriasis. Another option for who's issue is eczema instead of psoriasis and normal causes is products containing Colloidal Oatmeal, since eczema involves try skin that cracks and needs moisturizing and soothing, rather than scales of dead skin that are easily peelable. Usually dandruff shampoos have neither, such as head and shoulders which has pyrithione zinc in normal products, and usually selenium sulfide in stronger products aimed at fungal issues that cause dandruff. If you suffer from untreatable dandruff, explore your options on potential causes, and try different active chemicals that attack different sources of the issue)

[THIS POST MADE BY FLAKY SCALP GANG. DO NOT REBLOG IF THE IDEA OF A FLAKY DRY SCALP IS GROSS OR MAKES YOU WANT TO LEAVE A NASTY COMMENT. CURSE OF BAD SCALP UPON YE]

#ask #bananaruntz #unfortunately psoriasis and autism have combined to give me a mild understanding of what skincare products do #something i never expected or wanted in life but have been cursed to know #unfortunately the majority of my psoriasis patches are visible on my face as well which. feels Bad #if youre reading this and you have skin problems i want you to know i love you and im giving you whatever you need to be #less itchy less peely less crackly less bleedy less drifty etc etc etc. whatever makes life easier for you #mwah <3

[neige-leblanche]

beauty of beauties

#txt #he is 1 hour ahead #happy new year dearest angels. my friends across the globe #alcohol cw #bc yah #have been conversing with my homie the past several hours shes such a good conversation partner. beautiful girl blonde hair just like rook. #and i said ive never been this drunk on new years i feel like its a rite of passage #she & me together tho. going through life together & conquering the world as only lifelong friends can. we both think we might have autism b #but have not been diagnosed. peace and love on planet earth. #happy 2024 wishing all of you a prosperous year ofc love you you are all angels mwah

[solarisgod]

micah xenowake 🤝 warlock moonglade ( everyone is just trying to kill the metaeide of their late significant others without giving them a chance to manage their respective metaeidos in question themselves )

Micah is solemnly nodding at the brutal fact as they shake Warlock's hand . " I just don't understand why can't the Antigods give the Metaeide a chance ! Maybe their instinct and eternal thirst for the life forces can never be changed , but they were made after our pure fears and traumas ! Of course , they'd be like . . . this . . . Doesn't make them a true monster . They're only following their introjected nature because it's all they ever have the moment they came to be . "

#[ ✨: Micah autisming connecting Metaeide w/ persecutor alters ( ie Phobos ) and introject alters: they're my besties... I understand them ] #[ it DOES make me so depressed seeing the parallel of both their Metaeidian S/O's being attempted to be killed off so violently ] #[ when SURELY there has to be alternative ways to end them yet with more gentleness ] #[ Micah being choked up when Angelparadox tried to kill metaeidos ! Adoniram in the 2nd episode and got themself hurt protecting it </3 ] #[ anyways hi Amor I love you so so so much mwah mwah <333 ] #[ I am. So fucking perfectly normal over Micah's project / universe with these characters and lores and Warwake <3 ] #[ also when Micah's pinned post says about how this blog explores telling your fears ' I will always forgive you ' ? damn fucking right ] #[ that's meant to be Micah @ the Metaeide ]

[yoursonlucifer]

theres something so delightful about the forthrightness of autistic people being praised multiple times by multiple people on dimension 20

#emily and brennan my beloveds #plus surena and omar playing characters that allowed brennan as kp to do so #MWAH kisses to you all autism loves you #dimension 20 #a court of fey and flowers

[heavytf2mybeloved]

if you know me irl leab me alone, i get nervous online and you're not helping fellas 💔💔💔

#nothing against you guys #love you #except you #you know who you are fucker #mwah mwah mwah #cock and ball torture #autism moment

[ethanhuntfemmefatale]

forgive my ignorance but who is dean winchester

Dean Winchester is (in the literal sense) the older brother of the two male leads of the CW show supernatural. He’s played by Jensen Ackles. Anon I assume you’re asking me for the kind of answer you won’t get from Google, though, so let me just say: Dean Winchester is Luke Danes if he had 150% more trauma and fell in love with another man

#idk if you know Gilmore girls either. let me explain further: Luke Danes is if the personification of autism was a beautiful lesbian #spn #also never apologize for ignorance mwah I love you

[vamptits]

when it comes to rice vs. potatoes vs. pasta you'd fight on the side of potatoes

sorry potato warriors but incorrect I'll fight for pasta and rice till my dying breath 🙏🙏

#pasta and rice always same. safe. potato dangerous and can be different. did you know i have autism #i love potatoes but they're not like. pasta and rice are HEROES to me. food wise. #ask #anon #ask game #tyyy mwah #send me facts about myself that you think are probably true

[alixisdeadlol]

Hey.

So I'm sorry I have been as active as I'd like to be so I apologize. I just found out that I chew my cheek in my sleep and that I seriously need braces. The left side of my mouth has been killing me and I just keep running into shit or accidently sleeping on it. I almost gave myself a black eye like 3 days ago and I've been not as careful as I usually am. Being told to "lighten up" on my rules for myself are interesting, but I like most of it. Anyway, my face hurts. Thank all of yall a bunch.

#autism #you are loved #mwah

[therealadothamilton]

The haters are apparently less than 5 people with dozens of side blogs each because there is no way that that high a percentage of the general population are autistic lesbians.

It can't be just a coincidence that most of their "names" start with an "R". 🤣

#lol #you aint fooling nobody #you know who you are #not that i have anything against people with autism or lesbians just that one who thinks she can trash talk me with impunity fuck you too b #jk #actually #i love you r because you make me laugh mwah bestie