#Sorry that it seems a bit OOC

[rika-mortis]

I swear it was funnier in my head

#rayman #bullfrog #rayfrog #ramon #captain lazerhawk #captain laserhawk #my art #fanart #Sorry that it seems a bit OOC #I just want to draw Bullfrog being almost done with Ramon's self destructive behaviors :') #Also I should redraw this but with Dolph later hshs #poor bullfrog

[nell0-0]

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Iris starts to get a grasp of the situation and she’s not liking it one bit, she’s verrrry stressed out about this

#submas #submas au #subway bosses #subway boss ingo #warden ingo #post pla #pokemon rei #pokemon iris #prosopagnosia #my art #sorry if iris seems a bit ooc #it was a tad intentional and a tad not #she's stressed #and distressed #hum hum Rei saw something weird #Rei be like: I still don't know how they know each other. I am not getting answers. bye #Ingo: wait don't leave me alone with her

[riddlerosehearts]

floyd/riddle valentine's day headcanons 💙❤️

(okay, this post is more overly detailed than i originally planned because i ended up writing a whole scenario about what their first valentine's day after they start dating could be like. but i still want to share it, so here it is.)

riddle is somewhat conflicted about valentine's day. on the one hand, he was always a bit of a romantic, and as a kid there were times when he dreamed that someday he'd have a special someone to spend this holiday with. but he's changed since he was a kid, and regardless of how he might or might not feel, this year he happens to have an exam coming up in a few days and thinks that studying for it would be a more practical use of his time.

besides, floyd will also be busy working at the mostro lounge that evening. each year they hold a special valentine's event with discounts for couples, and floyd seems to be very focused on helping jade and azul plan for it. what makes valentine's day so important, anyway, when the one you love should be special to you every day? they can just go on a date whenever they like.

he still wants to try and respect the rules of the holiday, though. he knows from books he's read that it would be wrong of him not to get his boyfriend a gift, and he also knows that it's a popular tradition to make handmade chocolates for your partner on valentine's day.

so he buys some chocolate-making supplies and molds--the molds are shaped like hearts and roses, so they're sure to make floyd think of riddle when he eats them. and he does the best he can, knowing floyd will still love them even if they're not perfectly made.

he also buys a card with a simple yet elegant red and gold design, and makes sure it's blank inside rather than having a cheesy prewritten message, so that he can write his own message thanking floyd for bringing so much excitement and joy into his life.

the card he picks probably looks something like this:

he plans to take the chocolate and the card, along with one white rose and one red rose from heartslabyul's gardens, to floyd in the morning and see if they can plan to spend a day together after the exam.

while on his way there, he starts to feel a little embarrassed and wonder if the roses are too much. he doesn't really care about the holiday (or so he claims, but he sure did spend a lot of time preparing for it) and surely floyd doesn't care beyond exploiting it for business purposes, so this is a bit silly, isn't it?

wrong! for floyd's part, they don't have valentine's day in the coral sea, so he's actually been pretty excited for it--which riddle had guessed, since for the last few days he's been constantly asking riddle for advice on decorations and menu items for mostro lounge's event as well as spending quite a lot of his spare time there, presumably helping prepare things.

what riddle fails to realize is that floyd's excitement is about far more than just making money at the lounge.

so, riddle is standing outside floyd's door and about to knock when floyd suddenly comes rushing out and absolutely lights up upon seeing riddle there.

he doesn't even give riddle a chance to get a word in before tearing the gifts from his hands, popping a rose-shaped chocolate in his mouth, and doing a goofy little laugh as he tells riddle he loves him. riddle hopes floyd doesn't see the blush on his face.

"goldfishieee!" he exclaims. "i got you something too, and i just know you'll love it!!"

he runs back into his dorm room and comes out holding a small, very messily-wrapped box of store-bought white chocolate truffles, a plushie of a pink hedgehog holding a heart, and an envelope containing one of those fancy pop-out valentine's cards--specifically, one with a goofy pun on it. i'm picturing something like these:

riddle opens the card and rolls his eyes at the pun while trying to pretend that he's not smiling fondly at it.

he's about to ask about their plans when floyd leans over and drapes his arms around riddle's shoulders, and then says that he absolutely has to come to the lounge tonight for a very special surprise.

riddle is genuinely shocked at this, but he agrees, somewhat reluctantly because he's supposed to be studying--but also secretly excited at the thought of floyd having planned something just for him. he has to enlist cater's help to find something decent to wear.

floyd grabs riddle by the arm and drags him over to a table within seconds of him getting to the lounge. jade takes their order, they talk and tease each other and laugh together like they always do, and they also have fun chatting with some of their other friends who are sitting nearby with their own dates.

riddle almost forgets that floyd was supposed to have some kind of surprise for him, until floyd suddenly excuses himself and then shows back up a few minutes later with a small heart-shaped cake, covered in strawberries and other elaborate decorations.

it turned out that floyd had baked and decorated this cake for him. riddle felt guilty because he'd already eaten more than he meant to for the day, and especially because this must have taken much more work than the chocolates and roses he'd given floyd.

he tells him as much but then floyd tells him he's being silly before snatching the fork from his hand and going "if you're not going to eat it then i guess i'll have to!"

riddle feels a flash of anger because floyd can't just try to take his food, there are rules against such a thing. he takes the fork back and tries a bite of the cake, reasoning that it would be rude not to. it's strawberry flavored and possibly the best thing he's ever tasted.

when they leave the lounge that evening, they end up going back to heartslabyul together and for some reason floyd all of a sudden decides that they're playing tag and makes riddle have to chase him into the rose garden.

floyd didn't have any extra surprise for him, he just wanted riddle to keep having fun with him for a little while longer.

at the end of the day, riddle finds that he doesn't regret having lost a bit of study time for this, and he makes sure to tell floyd how grateful he is. he has to admit to himself that maybe there is something special about valentine's day after all.

#twisted wonderland #twst #riddle rosehearts #floyd leech #florid #floyddle #floyrid #floydriddle #floyd x riddle #riddle x floyd #okay i also just wanna add like. some other thoughts i had that didn't seem relevant enough to put In the post: #1) i think valentine's day would actually have a different name and origin in twisted wonderland than in our world #but i don't have a solid headcanon about what it should be instead so i'm just leaving it as valentine's day #and 2) i think floyd is absolutely going to be in a bit of trouble with azul for slacking off during work hours to go on a date #but floyd considers that worth it to give his cute little goldfishie a good time <3 #also as usual i am sorry if this seems dumb and ooc. but i'm posting my thoughts because i adore these two.

[cxpperhead]

Belated munday post but the little one is settling in nicely! He's taken to watching me when he thinks I'm not looking at him, horrible camera quality as the angle is wonky but the tank looks better/is more sizable than it appears from the side!

Unfortunately I forgot that flash was enabled and he slipped back into his cool hide after. Sorry for startling you, sweetheart. 😔

#🐍 || ooc #;; mun bullshit #He's been here just over a week and seems to be settling in quite nicely <3 #Loves his pinkies and is getting better with handling #The first two times he was quite a bit more flightly #Today he was calmer and just slithering through my fingers nicely #Gonna leave him alone a day or two so he can keep settling in and he'll get another pinky in another couple of days #I have no idea how old he is but think he was a bit underfed #Needs more than a little pinky every week sagsfsf #Sorry to have been quiet today was mostly recouping and resting up all day #Didn't have much energy beyond typical chores but feeling way less sore/exhausted now :D #Ror's an anery corn btw! #He looks so much prettier irl than the camera shows all these lovely greys and blacks and mochas <3 #Will try and get something done tonight now I'm feeling a bit better about writing

[rainworld-enot]

What rainworld blogs do you know of, and which ones do you like or dislike?

OOC: oh boy.

I actually love all rw blogs, and am very normal about everyone's ocs in this fandom. I am not collecting refs you can send to me on my main (@agriocnemis) as sacrifice.

but honestly most of the ones I know of are semi-popular or extremely close friends of mine.

Ask blogs would be:

perilousendeavor

ask-tangled-threads

hopeforbountifulasks

askpiv

rainworld-wayfarer

rainworld-saint

rainworld-artificer

rainworld-rivulet

thatlocaliteratorgroup

wait-for-an-end

discoverists

hissing-from-sun-golden-scales

archivists-iterator-gang

reflectionofacolorlesssky

nrd-answers

oceanremnants

finely-tuned-line

dj-wayback

eightstrikes

afterglow-of-a-star

rwpearlcatalogue

reveirieendeavor-group

pieces-of-memories

star-that-guides

interlude-from-recollection

twofibersintertwined

hematophagous-false-lure

medi-bee (not really one, but go look at their stuff anyways)

manyiterators-constantlysuffering

eternally-anomalous

stepbystepback

starsiniridescence

caterator-daycare

stonecoastweather

northern-coastal-group

arotlypse

themapper

fight-or-plight

starry-lizards

seven-golden-glories

those are the ones I can remember off of my head. there's probably a lot more out there! My brain is tired as hell so I may have missed some I follow a lot lmao.

also do go see if you can find mains of each of them tbh. sometimes they have the same op and stuff but it's all fun! it's best to go via op sometimes so you can find more of their stuff!

#ooc #HSHDJSJ sorry if it seems odd why I'm answering ooc asks more instead of ic ones. I am very much doing my best #not tagging folks because it's just feels rude. also I am a very shy person in general #I follow a normal amount of rw blogs. idk what your talking about #but uh these are all ones I do follow #EDIT: updating when I can tbh. I am blog hopping via recs a bit to help speed it up but I think I got a good amount

[tinymoonlight]

🌌🎧 DJ Subatomic Supernova cg headcanons !

is this too niche? maybe. does anyone think about this game anymore? probably! but not often perhaps.. is this self indulgent..? absolutely. I hope others enjoy this as well! Headcanons below the cut! 🌟

OTHER NSR CG HCS: [💚🖥️ Neon J cg heacanons]

Ok just to get this out of the way first: If DJSS is your caregiver, you are 100% getting a space themed bedroom/playroom, wardrobe, toys, etc. So if you’re a kiddo with a special interest in astronomy, congrats! This may just be your dream come true!

Though even if your special interests don’t fall within that area, he’d still be encouraging regardless. Would engage with you about said interests if they fell outside of his range of knowledge by asking you thoughtful questions that allow you to info dump to your heart's content!

Would even buy you books about your interest! Both adult non-fiction and for smaller kiddos just so he has all things covered depending on what headspace you’re in at any given time. He overall just wants to encourage your pursuit of knowledge!

If you don’t know much about what he specializes in and are interested, he’d absolutely love to teach you about the cosmos and everything it encompasses! Though, he might have a hard time at first altering his lectures so they’re digestible enough for you to understand regardless of headspace. But with time he gets better…!

Would absolutely take you stargazing often. The night sky provides him with so much comfort, and he wants to share that with you (because he cares about you, and also because I personally think it’d be a love language for him in a way). He’d teach you how to use a telescope, measure the sky with your hands, the constellations, all that fun stuff!

Speaking of his love languages, he may even compose his own lullaby for you and you alone to listen to! The ultimate gesture from him imo..

Affectionate in both actions and words! Loves sitting you on his lap and wrapping his big ol’ arms around you. His size provides security and comfort like a weighted blanket in my opinion…! Gives you head pats, back rubs, and bonks his spherical head against your forehead (no lips…) I feel like he’d also love to cradle you in his big arms if that’s something you’re comfortable with!

He uses so many space themed nicknames for you, and tries to remind you often that you’re so very special to him..that you’re practically the center of his universe 💙

He’d read to you before bed, his voice is practically on par with a documentary narrator so it’s probably a 50/50 chance you’d be out like a light in no-time. While he prefers to read to you before bed…there may be the rare occasion he’ll sing to you as well, but he’d also do it if you requested it of him.

When he’s busy with his music and can’t really focus too much on you at that moment, he’d still have you sit in his lap or even let you sit on like a beanbag near his desk so you at least have the comfort of knowing he’s nearby in case you get lonely easily!

The snacks he feeds you range from ✨effort-filled, healthy and nourishing✨ to oh my god there’s how much sugar in one serving?! He’d be a little protective of his Mr. Dodo ice pops but….if you give him The Puppy Eyes™, he may allow you to have one but just this once…! (this will happen more than once and he will relent nearly every single time)

He tries to be a pillar of stability and help ground you when you need it as much as you help pull him back down to earth when he’s feeling overwhelmed or depressed. You make life on this dull planet all the more special for him and any articulate words he could use to express this to you just wouldn’t cut it!

#agere #fandom agere #agere headcanons #caregiver f/o #self ship agere #no straight roads #dj subatomic supernova #djss #djss nsr #dj subatomic supernova nsr #age regression #my posts! ⭐ #being bold putting this in main fandom tag ough.... #also sorry if these seem ooc at all...its been a bit since i've engaged at all with this game #but i've been thinking about him a lot today...I might do more posts like this if it's in demand #or y'know...if i feel like it for other characters..! #it's also my first time kinda posting headcanons...im not too confident in my writing regardless if its super effort-filled or not #this is more like a thought dump than anything

[es-quest]

nothing to do but climb down then, isn't there? let's see the state of things

Muu looks over at you anxiously.

"Y-you aren't going to try to go down there are you?" She flies over to the entrance. "It's so scare..." "I agree," Shidou says. "It's far too dangerous to go down there! I can't even see the bottom" Well the world is ending, so either way we're all going to die somehow.

You crouch down and pressing your finger against one of the thorns. Like before, instead of of pricking your finger, your finger pushes it down onto it.

You grab your knife and stab it into the vines.

It...seems to be sturdy enough? You aren't sure and there's nothing you can do to really test if it could hold your weight but at least you know it can pierce through the vines. (Though it seems to Sink rather than pierce really.) You take it out, and surprisingly the hole seems to stitch back together. As if it wasn't there in the first place.

#milgram #es quest #ask blog #es milgram #shidou kirasaki #muu kusunoki #ooc: yknow that thing where you wonder why it feels like everything your doing sucks #and then you realize its cause your sick #I was wondering why I was feeling so mush about es quest and then I remembered that I currently have a bad cough ://// #anyway if updates seem a bit weird thats why...sorry gang

[cgetbrmj]

HI HELLO SO SORRY FOR HARRASSING YOU IN YOUR INBOX FEEL FREE TO TELL ME TO STFU WHENEVER BUT YOURE JUST THE ONLY MUTUAL THAT ACTUALLY IS INTO TBOSAS AGERE.

anyway do u have hcs on cg!Sejanus and little!coryo? I’ll probably be back stalking ur inbox to shove my hc for them in your face but I’m curious of yours and if we have any mutual ones??

peace n love and I’m sorry again for harrassing you-

hahaha never harassing me, I promise!! I adore getting messages in my inbox!! I'm also very hyped by having a mutual who is just as excited about tbosas agere as I am lol please feel free to send your hcs my way I love hearing them

ugh cg!Sejanus 😍😭 I have so much love for him - and Little Coryo is a massive guilty pleasure at this stage. I do have some hcs on them - mostly assuming this is in a littles are known verse (though I do have a couple vague fic ideas on an age regressing Coryo in a non-littles are known verse if anyone cares to hear about that)

Probably gonna put a break here because I'm probably gonna ramble about them for ages lol - this ask has been a great excuse to post hcs on them so - you're getting more than you signed up for lol!!!!!!! Sage feel free to message me that I'm doing too much haha, hoping that you won't mind the rambling but idk just lemme know if it's too much - and also if you like any of the hcs/agree with any!

Despite Coryo being the person defending Sejanus more often than not, Sejanus is so loyal to Coryo and Very protective of him, no matter the circumstances.

Early on (pre tbosas/early academy days) Sejanus is more concerned with protecting big Coryo's representation than he is with considering caregiving for Little Coryo, and totally helps to hide that Coryo is a Little from everyone.

Absolutely found out that Coryo did not have anything for Little him and absolutely immediately started sneaking him gear.

Probably tries to do it in a way that Coryo won't notice and argue against it - gives him a paci when he's practically asleep, hands him a stuffie to keep when he's already started slipping.

sneaks him bite size snacks periodically across a long time until he's confident Coryo's eaten enough to get through the rest of the day without realising Sejanus has caught on to his food problem.

(If in a verse with any kind of headspace suppressants) Sejanus refuses to let Coryo ignore/supress his headspace - will do anything for him but let him hurt himself.

Is really big on hand holding. They're going anywhere? Sejanus is interlocking their fingers immediately. Is Little Coryo much of a runner? Not at all. Is Sejanus giving him the opportunity? Nope. That boy is constantly at LEAST in eyesight of Sejanus.

LOVES playing with Coryo's blonde curls. Mostly only gets the chance when they're both half asleep already but it's such a soothing and comforting thing for Sejanus to do.

I feel like Sejanus would be the type of caregiver to give daily affirmations. Especially with how obvious it is that Coryo overthinks every moment of his life. I can see him trying to get Little Coryo to repeat positive affirmations in the morning and before bed.

I see Little Coryo as an easy crier. He's just so overwhelmed about everything and has barely processed any of it. When things don't go his way, he tends to break down easier because of that.

Not much of a tantrum thrower - but Little Coryo is Very petulant. He's pouty and fussy and whiney, and thinks he deserves anything and everything he could possibly want, and he Will be devastated if that doesn't work out (for like 5 minutes and then will absolutely have moved onto the next thing)

Little Coryo adores Tigris and definitely thinks she's the boss of everyone and that anything she says is always 100% true and never doubts it. Tigris is far too kind a soul to take advantage of this.

Little Coryo is definitely touch starved but also definitely does not realise it or believe it.

Sejanus tries to comfort him by hugging him and totally thinks he's made things worse for a second with how emotional of a response he gets from Coryo from doing it.

Coryo is extremely adamant that he's an independent big kid who doesn't really need Sejanus help with anything - right up until he's a little bit tired and sleepy and has decided that he's done with whatever he's doing, and then he's just about the clingiest thing ever and wants to steal every drop of Sejanus's attention.

Sejanus loves reading to Little Coryo - picture books, children's novels, poetry, (if Coryo is tired/little enough to allow it - touch and feel books/ anything interactive).

Coryo is either very talkative or barely verbal - Sejanus narrates his every movement though and fills in the silence most of the time

As I said - kind of used this ask as an excuse to dump some very random hcs on these two - I definitely have a lot more but that's heading into plot for some fics I'm currently working on territory sooo...

Sorry if this has been unintelligible or a nightmare to read - I am incredibly tired and basically writing this asleep haha but I loved rambling for a bit <3

#big thanks to sage once again for brightening my inbox and my day #send me your hcs and i will go into depth about why they are right i promise #a little scared to post ngl #these hcs seem vague and theres too many of them i'm so so sorry #this was heaps of fun even if they were all random bits and pieces haha #sorry if any if it is dreadfully too ooc but #i'm trying my best while being blinded by hyperfixating #though i typically pride myself on staying as true to the characters as you possibly can with agere #so if you tell me it's too ooc i will absolutely cry and fall apart #cgetbrmj #age regression #agere #fanfiction #fanfic #ao3 #ao3 fic #fandom agere #tbosas

[kuratm]

i don't rlly vent, mostly bc i dont want to bother my friends and mutuals w my irl problems, but man. i have to now bc today was not a good day.

so, we have an exhibition tomorrow at my college, some of my work was selected to be put up, and we had to come in earlier today and prep everything up bc why not make the students do all the fucking preparations for exhibition, right? well, my day started by me running around the whole city, printing out my stuff which was selected by our professor AND hurriedly write up an "artist statement", for some goddamn reason. that alr overwhelmed me enough but then, when i got to college (i was one goddamn hour late bc i was printing my stuff, btw), i realized that the prints WERE INVERTED, because I PUT THEM IN WRONG FUCKING COLOR MODE. that p much threw me in a panic attack :) my adhd kicked in, i was lost, confused and overwhelmed by all of this - didn't help that there were loud noises and ppl talking over each other - so much so that my friends insta noticed and were like 'oh shit, she's going thru a mental breakdown' :')

i was lucky enough that said college friends insta dropped everything and helped me put my stuff up bc i just, could not do it in the state i was in. that, and the professor...didnt seem to give a shit, but still...jesus fucking christ, this bitch was going through it. i felt bad later on, when i finally calmed down, that my friends had to p much do my work, but they told me not to worry abt it and just let them help me, which made me so grateful :') yall, if my homies weren't there, i would've ripped everything off and cry in a corner, p much

tldr; why do colleges love to destroy their students' mental state?

#♩ 》 ( ooc. ) // shut the fuck up pluto. #vent / #negative / #i guess? #in the end my friends told me to just ditch classes and go home cuz they could tell i was not there mentally lol #im doing fine now dw #but good god - today was a shit day overall #at least everything turned out alright? yippie? #anyway sorry to throw this all of a sudden - i dont want to seem needy for attention or w/e #but i just needed to let this out a lil bit

[handfulofmuses]

People: Scar respects the hyenas they are his only friends for angsty reasons and the hyenas also respect Scar

Scar:

#ooc #;make mine a cub sandwich (Shenzi) #like guys he literally?? strangled banzai??? #and its like they kinda view him as a ticket for food #i mean 'oh scar it's just you' #'we were afraid it was somebody important' #also it's kinda clear that #all three of him dislike him in a way #and to be honest #it's not just scar throwing them under the bus #at this point these guys had every reason to end him #and Shenzi actually seems kinda afraid of him #during the be prepared song before her 'where do we feature' she looks a bit frightened #and when he is king #and she talks to him #her expressions are nervous #when banzai mentions they are still #hungry #she looks downright terrified #Sorry I am remembering some old fandom days and just #nah

[mrthenarrator]

Hi uuuuh new to this blog, so gon' start off with the most basic ass question I can think of. How's it like not being in y'know a video game, having a body n' all.

Hello there! Welcome to my blog for starters. I'm terribly sorry for the time it has taken for me to get to this however.

As for your question. I wouldn't consider it 'basic ass', really. In fact I quite like talking about my experience!

For starters. Having a physical body is quite weird. In the game, my 'body' when I gained one was just a model that I could inhabit, and the game in turn would make my mind feel the sensations. They weren't quite strong however. I could feel the ground under my feet, or the objects in my hands. But it was more akin to a weight against them, rather than the object itself.

Moving outside of the game and into the real world. My body becomes a sort of 'real-flesh/digital-simulation' mess. Where I can feel everything. The texture, the weight, the sensation, how wet or dry it might be, everything about the world around me. Only difference between me and a regular human for example is that internally I behave differently.

For example, I can dissipate myself from the real world and either into someone's device or mind (the later usually being my situation with Oswin). I also don't have a need for food other than for taste and such. Which is relieving, however I do desire to have more reason to eat more.

My body in the real world has more inputs and sensations that I get to feel. My first day here in the real world was rather overwhelming. However I learned to get used to it eventually.

Another fact about having a body is that, as an entity who previously did not have any physical form at all, gaining a body was almost alien to me. Linking up the sensations in my mind to the movements of my body were quite hard, especially in the real world. The Parable helps bridge the gap more, but in the real world, I had to learn how to move my body from the ground up. I may have looked like a complete fool too.

I hope this answers your question, good anon!

#asks #tsp narrator #tsp rp #rp #(ooc: woa narry ramble) #(also sorry if it seems a bit too OOC at points) #(im tryna get back into answering asks for this blog again sdkf)

[infloresco]

Anyway…. Mini vent in tags cause…

#I know I haven’t been around as much lately and I’m trying really… but everytime I’m actually around and managed to write starter and replie #I keep feeling like I’m getting ignored. Maybe my writing has been lacking when I do write #-and I’m sorry if that’s the case. But that’s one of the reason I can’t seem to be bother to try a bit harder. Like — I’m trying #But for some reason everything feel suddenly too cliquey and I just want to write without feeling like I’m a nuisance to people #Anyway sorry for this it’s just been weighing heavy one me. I’ll delete this later #ooc: no more blooms.

[ofyorkshire]

turning the bizarre image of angry, vengeful 1983!bj feeding what i am almost certain is a hallucination of his child self a wedge of orange around in my head today.

#it's so strangely uncomfortable yet sweet and i can't pinpoint why. #there's a coldness in that scene and idk if it's coming from how bj interacts with him (*making* him eat the orange) #or how he imagines a hollowness in little barry from the moment he sees him. or if it's bc before we can even assume barry isn't real #we know bj is there to visit his mum and he's getting angrier and more unstable the closer he gets to his old home. #it's like. even though i don't think bj would be violent toward a child... something puts me on edge. #it's like it feigns warmth (feeding him. offering him his band badge. trying to make a connection?) but there's just emptiness. it's cold. #(barry vanishes inexplicably when bj attacks his mum btw and his mum doesn't mention him *once* so it leads me to believe he wasn't real.) #(also the comment about ghosts seems two-fold: mrs. anderson thinking bj has been dead all this time and barry being a 'ghost' in bj's head #but like. idk. that scene is so weird. the way bj interacts with what must be himself. it teeters between trying to be kind and #seeming to almost dislike/hate what he sees. #film!bj is interesting to me at that stage but i want to pick book!bj's brain more. i don't understand him much at all. #again tho. none of this *really* has any bearing on my portrayal since i'm more film-based. but still. turning it around. #wondering if there's anything to pick from it. #wondering if... bj hates his child self? probably a bit. probably... could at least learn to be gentler with himself. #hm. #out of fairy tales [ooc]; #sorry putting on my clown nose again.

[chstart]

it's the way he really never tells anyone shit re himself

#no bc even thru all the time w mia he never mentioned larry once nor did he tell her his actual motivation for becoming a lawyer #& it's only when edgeworth shows up in front of him that he cant avoid telling maya abt him & this is for both the first AND second game #iirc there was a bit in the 3rd case where maya mentions that nick won't tell her squat re miles so we know it wasnt for a lack of asking #& in bridge to turnabout miles acknowledges nick's cageyness when bringing up that iris seems familiar #& miles says 'all i want is confirmation [..] & since i probably won't be getting that from You.....' #& all nick has to say to that is 'i'm sorry edgeworth' #he doesnt share information abt his connections w people willy nilly or even at all!!! & im pinning that on dahlia!!!! #if blabbing about a necklace from his supposed beloved lead to her wanting to murder him just to shut him up then...... ✨trauma✨ #ooc. butterdog. the dog with the butter.

[existentialflirt]

Sorry, I'm been trying to finish a short fic, because I'm so bad at endings. lmao maybe that's why I took so well to this kind of writing.

#bit stoned #and thinkin' bought how half the GO fandom seems quite convinced that Crowley isn't hot shit #which is just wild to me #is it because of the Doctor Who connection? #Because idek he was pretty unhinged there too #delightly unhinged! but I mean pretty fucking unhinged #sorry sorry he was my favourite #not that I can really talk #I'v only really watched the 9 & 10 season of New Who #tbd #ooc;

[hellsbroadcaster]

Being a good person doesn’t meant taking shit laying down btw.

Like I think just in general, people think staying quiet about how they’ve been treated to avoid ‘drama’ is the best solution and I’m telling you it’s not.

Absolutely be loud about it. Point it out. Confront them. How they react is out of your control but at least you said what you needed to say.

I’ve been shushed before. Someone who I thought was a friend really hurt me, betrayed me. It was like a slap in the face, and all because I was going through my own shit and didn’t have time to be there 100%.

And it sucked, how I kind of had to swallow my hurt. How a lot of my ‘friends’ knew it was shitty of them but because they didn’t wanna cause drama they didn’t say anything. No one did a god damn thing and it’s really something when you see an abuser get love and praise and be treated like they are this wonderful person when they aren’t.

And true, you can’t make everyone see it. I know they will eventually, and it’s not my job to point it out for everyone. And I won’t. But at that time? It absolutely hurt me, and I started to look at things differently. Look at people differently. And it left me shambles for a good while.

I would rant about it and people would ask me to stop. Or to tag it. Because they didn’t wanna see it. And that’s valid? But also? Why is it you can only accept me when I’m showing my good side? The side of me that’s put together and makes you laugh and keeps you entertained but when I’m hurting you want me to take it elsewhere.

Started making me look at ppl on here who only look at you like a number. I know we all are going through our own shit. I don’t expect ppl to drop everything and help me, I don’t expect ppl to care. If I vent it’s usually just for myself to let off steam and it helps . But yet, somehow there’s always someone that makes it about them.

Therapy has helped me a lot with creating boundaries. I realized a lot of the things that happened where my own fault due to, seeing the issues but not saying anything about them. And also how I make myself to readily available for people. I was there for that person for so much, even bought them food when they were hungry and couldn’t for themselves. I don’t regret it, I don’t regret caring or having a good heart. No natter what I never want to lose that side of me that gives a damn about people.

I do the things I do because I’ve been there. I offer a safe space , a fun space for you to be yourself . Because I know what it’s like to have to hide. Show ppl how to love themselves because I had to learn on my own. I am an empath, I feel everything and I sometimes go overboard because I don’t have the proper boundaries set up. But I’m much more aware now. Learning and trying to be more effective in my communication.

But it makes me sad when you do call out bad behavior and instead of people looking at themselves and saying ‘you know I’m sorry I did screw up, I’m going to do better’ they deny. They gaslight you. They bring up everything YOUVE done wrong to them instead of acknowledging what you’re bringing to their attention. Suddenly they are the victim and you’re the bully being aggressive because they can’t tell the difference between an aggressive tone and an assertive one.

And it sucks that you’ll deal with people who can’t see anything past their own pain. Cuz there is no dealing with that, that’s shit they gotta work on and unfortunately they gotta be willing to look at themselves in the mirror and start seeing the truth.

We all got flaws. I had to look myself in the mirror, and see a lot of things I didn’t like either. Things that needed changing. That’s maturing. Recognizing you’re not perfect, that you do fuck up, and being willing to accept and change it.

But a lot of ppl on here not ready for that. And the moment I’ve started my healing journey I’ve lost a lot of people who aren’t built like me. Whether it’s because I make them see things in themselves that they don’t like, or think they can’t ever be or what it’s not really my problem anymore.

I’ve been stagnant for so long, I want things out of my life and for the first time in my life despite setback after setback I feel like I finally start getting them. I can respect people who aren’t ready to heal, but I can’t stay in those situations anymore. I wish you luck on your own path, but I’m done putting myself on hold for others all the time.

You’re not wrong for wanting to hold people accountable. There are always limits of course. Say your piece and be done, don’t keep adding fuel to it. How they react remember is out of your hands but you did what you needed to do. People say closure is pointless and I say you obviously learned to just not act on your discomfort and just bottle it up and to me that’s sad.

Because we shouldn’t have to do that for the sake of someone’s comfort who had no regard for ours.

And I am confrontational. I’m a nice person but I will come to you with an issue if there is one. And there’s nothing wrong with that, one mistake doesn’t make you horrible. Makes you human. Changed behavior means you’re growing and learning. It’s not a bad thing and I wish tumblr would stop viewing this stuff as bad. Because it’s so important to be able to grow and it’s why so many people suck because no one is really trying to do that.

#we gotta be able to learn how to have difficult conversations without it seeming like an attack on your character #not everyone is about you not everything is that deep #if someone is taking the time to tell you how your actions or words made them feel? #just listen to them #because it’s not for nothing #sorry I JUST #I saw something on Twitter that really just #got me in my feels for a sec #it’s early in the morning and I’m awake #but I feel good #cuz this person used to stir up so many negative feelings but #it feels nice to talk about it and not feel weighed down anymore #⌜off the air⌟ . // ooc #tbd. #I’ll delete in a bit