#THIS CYCLE IS TESTING ME……

[swordmaid]

trying quicken alhaitham in abyss

#THIS CYCLE IS TESTING ME…… #he’s doing so good tho 30k dendro dmg but MAN. the overload scorpion and bird ….. MAN.

[citric-acid-rain]

woe red bull b upon ye

#couldnt decide w or w/o the smile it was lowk terrifyin but lookin again shoulda done worse coulda made it better #wish i got the can w a pic of f1 driver max verSTOP HIM on the front wouldve been funnierDU DU DUDU‼️‼️‼️ MAX VERSTAPPEN DUDU DUDU‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #red bull save me… save me red bull…… #been doin all sortsa hw for tests + projects comin up literally all in the same week im feelin like this pic #jfc the f1 fixation is strong boys… rip deleted ttcc f1 au u will always b famous… rip graham payser tomato breakdown u were top tier.. #every family has their cycles… man…………. #that fic made me so mentally iDU DU DUDU‼️‼️‼️ MAX VERSTAPPEN‼️ #ttcc #toontown corporate clash #graham payser #toontown pacesetter #graham ness payser #pacesetter #cogblr #corporate clash

[typho-draws]

werecat fred run cycle as a treat weeee

#art #my art #werecat #werewolf #oc #werecat oc #werewolf oc #fred #animation #not too bad as a test run me thinks. i know its a little choppy but i'm a baby ok? #i'm going to try and do a walk and run cycle of his bipedal stance next

[belligerentbagel]

even Atlas has only two hands

vent art

#this one's for all the teachers out there #horror cw #hands cw #draws #after 2.5 years of caution and masking everywhere; i tested positive for covid on wednesday morning (first day of fall semester) 😔 #at earliest; i can be back in the classroom on monday #wednesday itself was an absolutely horrible 24 hours (but admittedly the anatomist side of me has been going 'ah! physiological data!') #but thursday and friday were a grim indicator of how much capitalism has rotted my brain #because after getting through 24 hours of a MASSIVE illness with undetermined long-term effects; i felt compelled to return to the #6-hr-sleep 18-hr-waking cycle that i was accustomed to; out of GUILT for falling behind in work #(note: i was NOWHERE near 100% back on thursday. i could have charitably been put at 50% - still headaches & fatigue & productive coughs) #a friend had to very sternly tell me 'you cannot solve structural problems through constant 80-hour-week heroic measures' #'you especially cannot do this when you are recovering from a debilitating illness which has the potential to remain a - #- serious lingering problem if you overwork yourself' #like. gods. yeah. it's not my fault that my classrooms are stuffed to the student maximum that our union has valiantly maintained #it's not my fault that the district only gave us one pre-semester prep day; meaning that my room & plans were left unfinished before day one #and - even bigger; it's not my fault that public health in the US is careening into 'can we pretend hard enough like nothing's happening' #my students will have a milquetoast start this fall semester. that is fine. #their teacher might not be able to stand and talk for longer than ten minutes at a time #i will do what i can. i still care about them. i am reading their introduction emails and smiling a bunch. #but i refuse to allow myself to be consumed in order to keep this fire lit.

[weirdbird74]

well I was today years old when i found out a futuristic take on Winslow's mask can be seen for a couple of frames in the Infinity Repeating music video

video source | daft punk - infinity repeating

#daft punk #random access memories #infinity repeating #julian casablancas #phantom of the paradise #potp #just when i thought i couldn't possibly love this music video any more-- #thomas bangalter's classical composer costume also feels kinda phantom inspired to me but not sure if that was an intentional design choice #also apparently they used the TF2 MvM scoutbot model to test the run cycle for this robot and i love that so much #massive props to the entire creative team!!!!!

[raayllum]

me watching S5 in which rayla and viren get better while callum and claudia get worse:

#tests of love #mmm yeah #s5 #arc 2 #the one who ruined me; i did it myself #& are now fixing themselves too #callum x claudia #like yes good this is Exactly what i wanted #thank u interlocking of the cycle's wheel mwah mwah #memes #mine

[alagaesia-headcanons]

*rubs my grubby little hands together* alright here we go~ stick with me for a minute, this Does come around to murtagh and eragon's relationship i promise

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I find it ironic that the circumstances of Murtagh’s life that went so awry- his capture by the Empire, his and Thorn’s enslavement using their true names, and them being forced to fight against the Varden- can paint him in a particularly selfish light. Eragon’s perspective reveals some of this, like the way he calls Murtagh’s oaths to Galbatorix a betrayal, one that favors his own wellbeing over Eragon and the Varden, or how he feels like Murtagh takes satisfaction in his new power and in lashing out at the world. And the fact that these things can be seen as self-serving specifically is ironic because it directly contradicts the actual quality of his character. Every time we see Murtagh acting of his own volition, over and over it proves that, more than anything, he is deeply devoted to the people he cares about- to a self sacrificing extent- and that he has an innate desire to help others.

Repeatedly, Murtagh puts protecting his loved ones above his own safety, and that’s true even in the act Eragon calls a betrayal. When they talk in Uru’baen, Murtagh admits to Nasuada that he willingly chose to swear loyalty to Galbatorix, but also reveals that he only did so after Thorn hatched. Murtagh himself had already suffered savage torture without relenting, yet solely for the sake of Thorn, to keep his hatchling partner from suffering as well, only then does Murtagh swear loyalty. And this is a self sacrifice. This undermines what he tried to make of his life before being recaptured- striking back against the Empire, aiding Eragon and Saphira, and proving his good will to the Varden. He had to give up all these things about himself and submit to slavery under a man he loathes, but Murtagh was willing to do that to protect Thorn.

And yet, while still trapped so hopelessly under Galbatorix’s thumb, Murtagh also goes out of his way to help Nasuada too. He convinces the king to capture her in the first place, instead of simply killing her, and whether or not this was his place, it demonstrates how he genuinely doesn’t want her to be harmed. He goes out of his way to help Nasuada by healing her pain, warning her about illusions, and promising to help her escape. And he makes good on that. From what he tells Eragon in their last duel, he had a plan to free her the next day. Murtagh goes to great lengths that put him at great risk. Galbatorix could have just as well discovered his interference and then nothing would have saved him from violent punishment. Freeing her would have guaranteed that. There’s nothing for him to gain, yet he still does these things for Nasuada time and time again.

The care Murtagh gives to Thorn and Nasuada proves that his selfless protectiveness toward his loved ones is a persistent part of his nature, but it’s never more clear than it is in his relationship with Eragon in the first book.

In Inheritance, Murtagh tells Nasuada that his initial motivation for going out to track the Ra’zac was to hurt the Empire and to prove himself as more than his father’s son. Nevertheless, from the time that he saved Eragon from the Ra’zac onwards, he demonstrates a desire to help that goes beyond a personal gain. On the contrary, I feel like his constant willingness to help while he personally strives to be recognized as his own person indicates that his helpfulness is a genuine part of his nature that shapes his desires and actions. And that nature shows itself repeatedly. Murtagh rescues Eragon a second time when he’s captured in Gil’ead, planning with Saphira and sneaking his way in to free him. When Eragon later thanks him for it, his response is, “‘I’m just glad I could help. It...’ Murtagh faltered and rubbed his face.”

After going to great lengths and knowingly risking his life to free Eragon from Gil’ead, Murtagh's instinctual response to his gratitude is that he simply wanted to help his friend. And this comes up again. When they fight in the Hadarac Desert, Eragon tells Murtagh he never had to travel with him or rescue him. “‘I haven’t forced you to do anything.’” Murtagh’s response is always funny to me because he’s irritable, afraid, and angry and so he’s deliberately trying to be mean and act like he doesn’t care about Eragon, and yet his reply is, “‘Oh, not openly, no. What else could I do but help you with the Ra’zac? And then later, at Gil’ead, how could I have left with a clear conscience? The problem with you...is that you’re so totally helpless that you force everyone to take care of you!’”

It does nothing except prove how much he cares about Eragon and wants to help him! “‘What else could I do but help you with the Ra’zac?’” is especially funny because the glaringly obvious answer is to just. not help. But then that makes it clear that Murtagh so genuinely and inherently believes he should help that he doesn’t see not helping as a real option. And even though he phrases it insultingly in his frustration, what he ultimately says about Gil’ead is that he couldn’t have made himself abandon Eragon when he couldn’t defend himself. He would have felt too guilty because he considers saving him the right thing to do.

I feel like a large part of this springs from Murtagh’s core morality and desire to do good, but there is also an element rooted in his relationship with Eragon specifically. They get along; Murtagh likes him and he trusts him and that matters when the help he gives him puts him at such risk. Murtagh is self sacrificing in the way he protects and looks after Eragon. Sneaking in to Gil’ead to rescue him could have cost him his life- Eragon himself acknowledges that when he thanks him for it.  And the risks he takes for him aren’t just overblown or inconsequential. When Murtagh enters Gil’ead beforehand, in Eragon’s stead, to find out the Varden’s location, he’s recognized and has to flee. When he stays with Eragon as they run from the Urgal army, it forces him to the Varden where he’s imprisoned.

And yet those repercussions don’t undermine Murtagh’s devotion to Eragon. Even when they reach the Varden, the one place Murtagh did not want to go and will rob him of his freedom, his heartfelt care for Eragon doesn’t falter. After Eragon’s mind is searched by one of the Twins who then tries to do the same to Murtagh, they have this exchange:

“‘Eragon has been declared trustworthy, so you cannot threaten to kill him to influence me. Since you can’t do that, nothing you say or do will convince me to open my mind.’ Sneering, the bald man cocked what would have been an eyebrow, if he had any. ‘What of your own life? I can still threaten that.’ ‘It won’t do any good,’ said Murtagh stonily and with such conviction that it was impossible to doubt his word.”

Murtagh’s statement is striking to me because the blatant, undeniable meaning behind it is that, if they’d tried to test Murtagh first and threatened to kill Eragon if he didn’t comply, he would have done it. Murtagh would have let the Twin examine his mind to save Eragon’s life. And the privacy and sanctity of his mind is of paramount importance to him. He says as much to Ajihad when he also tries to convince him to be examined. He declares as much right here! Murtagh explicitly states that protecting Eragon’s life is the singular thing that could make him yield. He would give up his own life before exposing his mind. This has even more gravity for Murtagh specifically. He’s self sacrificing, but not reckless in the same way several of the other main characters are. He’s not one to toss his life aside; he fights hard to survive. So his willingness to die to guard his mind hammers home how important that is to him.

Because of that, even though such a situation never came to pass, Murtagh’s admission that he would give that up to protect Eragon’s life is the most salient proof of his devotion to me. And that’s considering he also fights the Ra’zac and infiltrates Gil’ead for him! I honestly don’t have another word for it- Murtagh holds a truly profound devotion to Eragon that is built upon his desire to help others and to fervently protect the people he cares for. These aspects are so integral to him that they determine his most significant choices.

#eragon #inheritance cycle #murtagh #eragon shadeslayer #nasuada #ic thorn #ic analysis #i was gonna tie this into the 'eragon wouldnt have buried murtagh' idea bc its kinda connected but i ran out of steam. maybe later #he messes up but murtagh is still such an earnestly good person #and theres a sad irony that his luckless life made him seem like the exact opposite #and eragon just means So Much to him... #that dialogue from murtagh about if they could have threatened eragon always KILLS me holy shit #ive always been tempted to write a fic where they Do test murtagh first and threaten eragon and murtagh relents to save him...

[svnflowermoon]

why can i literally not function at school like i swear i'm trying i just can't focus????

#luc posts #like i take notes but then i get bored and the doodle on the side of my page thst was meant to take 5 seconds took 10 minutes :( #and then im lost and bc im lost i get all fidgety and i keep doodling and then jts just a cycle #if i work for 20 minutes i feel like ive ran a marathon and i have to take a 40 minutes drawing/staring into the distance break #and im gonna fail maths but theres literally nothing i can do no matter what i do I can't focus for over 20 minutes at a time #and then its the end of class and i feel guilty bc oh i didnt do any work :( like i feel bad and i want to fix it but idk whats wrong so ho #can i fix it if i dont know whats wrong with meeeee #ugh #it literally makes me want to cry am i just lazy is that what it is am i literally useless why cant i work #like i was so ahead kf the average grades and i never learnt to study and now ugh i dont know how to function so i just dont #and it doesn't help that my friends are all geniuses #like they complain about their one mark away from full marks and im just like OH MY GOD if i could just focus then i coukd do so well #likr ok i guess i wont mention tjst i failed that test bc yall sre complaining about getting one mark off fukl makrs #likr fuckkkk okay i have so mucb potential why di i waste jt :((((( #i hate school so mucb #i genuinely consider dropping out sometimes like I CANT DO THIS hiw do these peiole di ut how hiw how someone tell me how to function #like these peiole getting top marks withiut eben truijgn and i tyr and i cant fishcis so i fail snd then ufh i want to die #bc its so embarassing i eas like top 10% of the class a few years ago and now i just cant function like how do these peiple do itso #someone explain ot me how oieolem focus and dony get distracted and ginish things kike ugh

[prettyflyshyguy]

Hi, me again. Was laughing about the lego minifig lumberjack that suspiciously is wearing the same outfit as the lego minifig werewolf and it resulted in me having the most unhinged thoughts about Supernatural. Again.

Once again my brain is overcompensating for how badly I enjoyed S1-3 and how little I enjoyed season 4 onwards.

Now I have gone on record as being someone who generally prefers the non-comedy episodes of the early seasons (HOWEVER a good comedy episode goes a long way in a dark and gritty series as a refreshing break. I love a sensible chuckle. Look at me.) but hear me out. But for your consideration:

You know the drill. Small town, missing people or animal attack reports, maybe both. Shady shit going on. They're not sure if it's worth the time but they were nearby, or Bobby reckoned it was worth checking out so they swing through town, figure they'll stay a few nights. The place is pretty, out in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by woods. Picturesque and the people are nice. Maybe they could relax a few days while also sussing it out.

They can't immediately determine the cause, which is strange. There's always signs that they can equate to being this or that and "dad's journal" always has an answer. Almost always.

One of them goes out for a late night wander (probably Dean, look I'm predictable, but also it feels fitting - Sam got the demon blood ok) and gets attacked by something in the forest, and returns with a really weird bite mark that looks somewhere between canine and human. There's a bit of panic, yknow "What did it look like?" - "It looked like a werewolf! No not like, a werewolf, like a movie werewolf!"

And they're both freaked because there's a handful of horrible fucked up things that could be, and for most of them a bite is just a normal physical injury and the worst thing he'd have to worry about is rabies - but they test press a silver knife to his skin and.... Nothing. They try a few other on-hand items if they have them, probably some herbs and dried flowers, nothing. So they assume the bite's just. An animal bite.

Fast forward after one very tense day of research and uncomfortable vibes, and the sun goes down. And that's when things go to shit. It's not a full moon, which catches them off guard. Dean starts convulsing and twitching on the motel room floor and Sam is fucking panicking, searching for one of those curse-bag's that witches hide when they want to kill you. Dean has one nasty, gritty, panful transformation into something absolutely horrifying - going for my personal favorite - vaguely resembles human but very much weird wolf-man freak. He keeps his clothes but probably tears them up a bit as he's writhing about in pain. Sam is in shock, holding a machete out in defense trying to gauge the situation, Dean comes to and is just looking around in terror and confusion.

Probably have a stare-off before Sam just goes "... Dean???" and the poor guy cannot talk, can only make horrible throat noises, stumbles into the bathroom to get a look in the mirror and probably freaks out bad. Either bolts out the window in a panic, or bolts out the window cause he heard someone knock on the door hearing the noise of it all.

It's like the wishing well - so its some weird curse or local effect that's making a legend with its own rules become real - werewolves transform each night when the sun sets. There's something about racing against the literal setting sun that tickles me, and the added impact of it being something that requires management and mitigation each day is really fun.

So they have a shitty little time in this weird ass town trying to figure out; what's going on, how do we stop it, and arguing over if they call Bobby and tell him what happened or not.

#I got ONE type of werewolf AU and I'll apply it to everything don't test me #yes he gets to remain 'in controll' but consider this #its always about the fact that you're in controll untill you're not #and the beauty of trust and thinking nah there's no way I'm in danger #untill suddenly they're looking at you and somethings off and the wolf man no longer appears to recognise you any more #and you look up and Oh #you werent tracking the lunar cycles actually and that moon looks very full all of a sudden #shy talks #not art #supernatural #dont fucking test me i've got enough writing on my plate as is #i dont need another stupid fic idea

[journeyman-tier-fibercraft]

Market bag is a success! The handles turned out just long enough to wear over my shoulder!!!

#knitting #knitblr #lace knitting #lace rot #finished object #shout out to my phone camera for being kinda shit to make my kitchener look less like dogshit #the photo where the bag is full is Just at straining point for the handles but it's like. a solid 5 pounds. #i came up with 5 pounds out of nothing btw it's just like slightly heavy but not heavy enough to cause strain lmaooo #this man still needs to be run through the laundry cycle but i'm very happy with him #and esp happy with the handle connection to the brim. while it's not seamless it's p close and seems stable from my testing #which is SUPER impressive to me lmao the inside connections are held together by duplicate stitch and kitchener stitch

[pending-trans-action-2]

"Uhh sweetie? Are you *sure* you're not intersex?" - My bf, when I finally let him play with my girlcock

#welp #girlies i think it might be official #hes in a medical field as well hes done training in that sort of thing #he kinda went dr mode and started listing things off to me which i admittedly didnt understand and cant remember #because it was mid sexytimes and i had just been choked #what do i even do about it tho #i have a round of blood tests in january to double check if i legit have a cis female hormone cycle #but ill have to do an MRI to really find out #its all stitches and scarring down there anyway #but uh yea #i might have to change my bio and yknow whole identity #BUT! #it was really fun! he taught me a lot of stuff cause yknow i hate my girlcock so refuse to really do anything with it so dont know anything #and uh i didnt know pleasure like that was possible #so net gain #and no ive never let anyone touch me down there before lol

[equtr]

here's a gif loop of the run cycle i was working on and a timelapse of my lining process! i forgot to hit record for the actual rough animation lol

#i do not like the way the motion turned out realy but its ok #its just a test. i had no character sheet. just me and some thumbnails #my art #animation #2d animation #run cycle

[teekalu]

everyone at work is now coming down with covid like dominoes 😫

#my sister was working with a coworker today who just tested positive #so she’ll be next and I’ll get it from her #working in that shop is like working in a school #fuckin germs EVERYWHERE #as soon as you recover from one plague someone comes to work with another one and the cycle begins again #anyway I’ll be carrying holy water and a mask with me for the foreseeable future

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

feeling very weird about the last two episodes of Miss Scarlet (3.3 and 3.4), because I... actually really loved them?? and I know it was largely because of the absence of William.

which I find odd, because I actually DO like him!! he's a complex and interesting character, he and Eliza's spark off one another is really fun (and also lbr, infuriating, and that's a large reason why this show works; hence the title), and I just... genuinely do like the character. he's irksome as all get-out, he can be entirely insensitive and a touch misogynistic and sometimes I really do wanna break his nose. but I still like him! he has a part to play in this story and I understand that for what it is within the narrative, I really enjoy it!

and yet... I've felt like these last two episodes were some of the most genuinely well-written and especially well-character-written ones for a good while.

I guess it's just because, with the Duke out of the picture, other characters aren't constantly being held up to him in one way or another. Moses, Detective Fitzroy, Mr. Nash, Detective Phelps--they're all given a chance to be developed as characters in their own right, instead of just supporting William/William and Eliza's relationship. and even Eliza grows and is a far more multi-faceted and, I think, genuinely enjoyable character when she's not reduced to simply her reactions to and against William.

I'm intrigued, to be honest. I know he's back in his usual spot as the second lead in the next episode, and I'm looking forward to seeing what happens given the ~revelation~ in the very last scene of episode 3.4... but I'm already kind of sad that the rest of the characters I've so enjoyed getting to spend more time focusing on are going to once again be cast in the shadow of 'Miss Scarlet and the Duke'. despite that literally being the entire point of the show.

#idk what's up with this but. it's a weird feel? #and I'm probably not communicating it well... #I think it's just that I feel like after 2.5 seasons #those two are kinda stuck in a rut?? they're in a perpetual cycle of nonsense with one another #seemingly never getting a n y w h e r e in either their personal or professional relationships #and despite the fact that they CAN in fact make a FANTASTIC team together... they also kind of bring out the worst in each other #and so Eliza is often at her most combative and disagreeable and William is often at his most resistant and authoritarian #when they're together and clashing over whatever new issue they've found to argue about this time #and since Eliza really is the /most/ lead character #I feel like she's got a lot more room to breathe and grow and *be* the Lead Character in general whenever she's not constantly bashing #heads with William and she has other characters to interact with #other people who challenge her assumptions and test her willpower and her investigative skills and who provide her with a very different #sort of jumping-off-point to what William usually brings #it... adds enrichment to her enclosure? I think that's actually what I'm trying to say here?? X'D #I'm not going to be one of those people who watch a series just to bash on half the MC group or to anti the ship that the show turns around #but it's still really funny (funny like odd) to me that I feel this way about all this #miss scarlet and the duke #gurt says stuff

[stardustedknuckles]

As stressed as I am right now (about 18 hours of good vibes sent my way would be very welcome at present) there's no denying that cbd has been helping. I got in the back of an Uber and closed my eyes, rested my head near the window to feel the breeze on my face and 1) I was able to actually feel a little bit of pleasure (usually unable unless I'm very slightly high) and 2) I NEVER close my eyes in an Uber. I feel like I HAVE to watch the driver drive. What am I gonna do if something happens? Fuck all. But I can't look away. Except now I can.

There are four scent things, one in every vent. It's overwhelmingly perfumed in here. And yes, after a while I will still get a migraine. But I went probably a full three minutes without a mask (just to see, one window down) and only at the end of those three minutes did I start to feel that creeping sense beneath the smell that if I didn't block it things would get rough. For reference: I can usually feel things start to go downhill at the first whiff.

As someone who can't metabolize most anti anxiety medications well at all, this is a pretty big deal and worth looking more into for sure. It's not exactly cheap, but this peace of mind is worth it. It's not what I'm thinking, it's what I'm not. An absence, not a presence. I'm not thinking about death every few minutes, I'm not feeling myself actually pull back from enjoying something too much lest I invite the other shoe to drop. It's not all gone, but even a dent in it is very odd in a good way. Less inflammation for sure.

#The real test will be in about 10 days when I'm at the worst spot in my cycle #I don't bleed anymore but you best believe the hormones are still a thing #It was weird to come to the realization recently that like #It's not that I think I don't deserve good things #It's just a fundamental belief that if the universe catches me relaxing too much it will fuck with me #And i don't want to be fucked with so I'm always staying measured #I have been living my life waiting for THE awful tragedy that strikes everyone #It's in every story so mine must be coming right? #And it just hit me recently that some people go their whole lives without something awful happening to them #And arguably? Something already did. I'm missing a chunk of my arm from it. #I don't have to keep waiting for something bad to happen #If it's gonna it's gonna and I might as well be happier until then #I just haven't figured out how to peel off those layers of defense yet #Anyway thanks for reading #Chronic-les

[m1d-45]

KAEYA IS SOOOO THE GUY EVER. he’s my boy girlfriend. my scrimblo. my eep glorpy. if/when that kaeya ai gets released i WILL be losing my shit. i will simply cease to exist. oh god i need to write ideas for kaeya now. perhaps a princess tutu-esque au with reader as duck. but then again diluc fits a bit more into the fakir role… but that doesn’t matter if i just mash everything together and pick out the bits i like

ANYWAYS. kaeya alberich the world - teddy anon

you’re so real for all of this, and i don’t even know the reference. you 🤝 me : “mash everything together and pick out the bits i like”

#m1d : [chats] #teddy anon #honestly mr alberizz was gonna stay in my private chats tbh #he’s just a little guy for me to poke at sometimes yk? he sits with my other bots until i feel silly again #the cycle for most of my bots is: ‘idea’ ‘oh Fuck’ ‘THIS IS FINE(lying)’ ‘ok he’s. um. passable.’ ‘[sends screenshots to mushroom]’ #how many bots do i have in the drafts hmmm #ok i have 6 characters and three jokes #i’m. normal about the hit mmorpg genshin impact published in 2020 by mihoyo now hoyoverse #ayato venti aether kaeya (our king) and then two zhongli bots that we do NOT talk about #literally just thinking about the testing for those two guys turns my brain into static #why do i make bots with such rizz it’s gonna kill me #much like my namesake i too am cursed by the gods #the same curse. the golden touch. i am afflicted with Rizzed Up Bots Disorder