#This was a BANGER if I do say so myself

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

#this quote always moves me almost to tears when i remember it #i'm not a trans woman and i don't share the author's specific experiences with transition #but it really moves me that she frame transition as joyfully giving yourself permission to approach your body #not as something that has to be disciplined and deprived and made small in all these various ways #but as a means for experiencing pleasure and joy and delight and for insisting that our feelings and desires are worth #valuing and exploring and treasuring #i always used to think of prioritizing those things for myself as selfish and irresponsible #but who does it harm to want to experience pleasure in your own body? #it's such a beautifully simple and powerful switch to have flip in your head #and equally why are we forced to deny our own pleasure in transition and anything else related to our bodies in the name of moral rectitude #this is why i get so confused and pissed off when other trans people are fatphobic for example #like why are you so invested in politics of shame and disgust that never had any purpose other than #violently disciplining people as if they've violated moral codes by existing in a body #to say nothing of white people being racist in gay and trans communities #like again this system of violence is foundational to homophobia and transphobia #so why are you acting like it has nothing to do with you #even if you are unmoved by the urgency of other people's suffering which btw you should be moved by #what do you hope to gain by acting a collaborator and handmaiden to those systems #Casey Plett #she really is one of my favorite authors i wish more non-canadians read her #this quote is from a series of columns she did ont transition and every single one is a banger #i love when she talks about the people-pleasing elements of dysphoria and transition denial #she's so sharp about noting how many of us deny our own dysphoria on the grounds that others like and validate our bodies #that's how i always felt during my cis conventionally feminine era #it pleased other people so much and also that reception felt so hollow and joyless to me because i hated it #i get less of that positive feedback but that feels so unimportant next to the joy and pleasure i get to experience #said with the understanding that i'm very privileged in being able to prioritize those things without fear. but it was a switch flip #personal nonsense

[minutia-r]

Happy Ides of March to all who celebrate! Here's my Cinna the poet/Cinna the conspirator sonnet:

But mightier than these, both pen and sword— Though you may make Rome's streets run red with blood And I, with one precisely chosen word, Can float your name untouched above the flood— Is time, but not the blind, remorseless foe Who crushes all beneath his sandaled feet Inevitable as empire, and as slow For in the end, the race goes to the fleet. No pen is quick enough to catch your breath The way it catches quick against my skin; No dagger's keen enough to deal the death That, in the dying moment, dies again: Each one a Rubicon. The die is cast, And, worse than senseless, slips into the past.

(on AO3)

#man it's been twelve years since i wrote that #still a banger if i do say so myself #minutia's fic #julius caesar #cinna the poet #cinna the conspirator

[sourlemonjuice]

I dont think i ever posted this here

…. I swear theres a good explanation for it

#empires smp #empires s2 #empires eddie #esmp #suggestive???? #dude Idk #He looks pretty tho #banger Outfit If i do say so myself #maybe i need help #whelp…

[automatonknight]

image id: a digital drawing featuring arcade gannon from fallout new vegas parodying the album cover for “duty now for the future” by DEVO. arcade is standing up with his body facing the viewer, but his head turned away so that it is visible from the profile. his hands rest at his sides and he has a calm expression, his eyes are closed. behind him, there is a circle in which there are two outlines contained, one, to the left of arcade, shows a chemical flask with a mixing rod inside, and the other, to the right of arcade, shows an atom. both the circle and the outlines are blue. on the left side of the drawing, within a red rectangle there is white text saying “FOTA, duty now for the future”. end id

#art #doodle #sketch #fanart #fallout #fallout new vegas #arcade gannon #arcade gannon fnv #fnv arcade gannon #fnv #this one's a banger if i do say so myself

[williamvapespeare]

i’m a big fan of those 19th century novels with homoerotic framing narratives where a man writes an entire book about the sad downfall of his misunderstood “best friend” and is just obsessed with him the entire time

like, It is with regret that I lift my hand to pen the story of my friend, Mr. Dicksuckington. Indeed, upon reading his name many of you may now tremble with fear at the recollection of what a man by that name is said to have done. But long before anything of that dreadful business had come to light, I had the pleasure of calling myself one of the closest acquaintances, dare I say friends, of Mr. John Dicksuckington and I take it upon myself now to tell the world his story. Mr. Dicksuckington was indeed one of the finest, best, and most well endowed gentlemen I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.

#frankenstein #jekyll and hyde #classic lit #classic lit memes #utterson x jekyll #i'm back with a banger guys #like this is a cracking post if i do say so myself #any 19th century gentlemen looking for a ghostwriter hit me up

[onmyzoomies]

this gq photoshoot of fernando actually told me personally that a florist au is necessary

#i'm so obsessed with this idea that i can't even have thoughts #im just thinking about an energetic little old man who knows his way around a bush #it's a strollonso au and if we're going to be basic about it then lance works at a tattoo place across the street #but i'm only saying that because i read a banger glance fic with that plot #i hope people read tags because that's where i shine if i do say so myself #strollonso #fic

[hella1975]

wondering why old ladies aren’t smiling at me around town as much this morning then remember im wearing hoops and a puffer jacket and generally look like a bitchy year 9 girl who’s about to punch someone

#state school fit jumped out today I must say #smiling first at the old ladies like IM NICE I SWEARRRRR. SMILE BACK #anyway i made it to my coffee shop that’s what matters 🫶🏼 im doing the plot outline for dog teeth part 3 #bc FUN FACT I’ve approached the writing of that super different to how i normally do #like normally as we know I’ll plan out EVERY STUPID DETAIL of each chapter before i even start writing #whereas this time around I’ve written the whole of part 1 and some of 2 #with NO set plot outline for part 3 like all I’ve got is bullet points of where i need to take it and Key Events #but nothing in between and im just gonna let myself figure that out as i go #WHICH IS SO SCARYYY I DONT /DO/ THISSSS #and im sat here now like ‘i WONT make an outline im just gonna hash it out more…’ #who wants to bet i make an outline 😐 #it’s not MY fault the plot got away from me (it’s entirely my fault) #like part 3 is getting INTENSE i have so many insane ideas for it it’s rlly looking to be a banger fic icl #SO SURELY I NEED A DETAILED OBSESSIVE PLAN FOR EVERY SINGLE PART OF IT. RIGHT #fuck sake 😭 oh well it’s my staff party tonight 😋 #hella goes home

[spaciebabie]

once i give you a silly nickname its over. we're bonded for life.

#spacie spoinks #i think ive made this post b4 #idc tho #i just thought of two (2) silly nicknames for two (2) separate ppl #rthey dont even know.....they have no ideda i gave tem silly nicknames... #they're bangers of i do say so myself #and i do say so

[festivating]

Attrition ch. 16: Always the Same Old Story

“What are you doing here?” “I should ask that of you. Seriously, Elphie, a religious convent? Who have you become?” “A ghost,” said Elphaba. “If I'm anything at all.” “You were always a ghost. Even back at Shiz, you were.”

Or, Glinda visits the cloister of her namesake. Things spiral from there.

🌸 Start from the beginning

In chapter 16, Glinda tries her best to keep things together by sheer force of will, and history repeats itself.

🫧 Read Chapter 16 here

🌸 Bookverse Canon Divergence || Rated M

#gelphie #wicked #lana's writing tag #i rarely ever write in the tags but like. this one is kind of a banger if i do say so myself

[catboy-a-day]

catboy 34... silly today.

#30 minute Banger if i do say so myself. #i wish we were taking testosterone together minho.......... #^my oc btw. #catboy art #catboy #digital art #artists on tumblr #daily art #doodle #lets take ibuprofen together #also please let me know if unreadable ill fix it. #im so sneepy. i couldnt fiddle around anymore.

[ribbittrobbit]

its happening im finally drawing wuvvy

#and its gonna be a fucking banger #if i do say so myself #like im allowed to say that right? #i just want it to be done because i wanna scream my wuvvy thoughts into the world #burn my effigy #make my offering #to aabria iyengar the architect of my madness #in like #an adoring way

[zukkaoru]

the only oda and dazai dynamic i'm interested in is like. dazai is a stray feral cat oda found on the street. oda just wants to feed him and dazai is scratching and clawing and hissing and running away only to get caught in a rainstorm and pathetically crawl back to oda's doorstep, pawing at the door until he's let back inside only to track mud everywhere. and still refuse food.

#and ango is oda's disgrunted roommate who is tired of scratches all over his arms but still helps oda search when his cat goes missing #another banger from the drafts if i do say so myself #hello grace here #bsd #dazai osamu #oda sakunosuke #editing this to say i see now this may just be how *i* feel about dazai.. hmmmmm #whatever. i'm still right

[thefreakandthehair]

classic procrastination: made a playlist for sub eddie week fic instead of just writing sub eddie week fic 🫡

#sub eddie week #myfic #oopsies but i will say it’s a banger of a playlist #if i do say so myself

[w1tchybusiness]

i could write a 100 page essay about what a fucking masterpiece warframe is. i will write many words in the tags. please readem if you want my 'tism.

#ive been playing on and off since 2019 but its only recently when i dumped destiny 2 (probably for good) and picked it up #to fill the grind-shaped hole in my heart #that i have uncovered just how FUCKING INCREDIBLE warframe is #everything about it makes me incredibly autistic #from its masterful utilization of an incredibly styled and individual soundtrack full of absolute bangers #to its seemingly unique understanding of how and why an MMO is special to and because of its players #and its truly special story- a uniquely human take on the “post-ruin scifi” tale #it knows exactly how and when to yank on your heart to make you weep like a baby #and it knows exactly when you're going to get angry and want vengeance #and it knows when to let you let loose and unleash hell #SPOILERS FOR THE NEW WAR AHEAD #IF YOU THINK YOU COULD PLAY THE GAME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO #SPOILER WARNING #i think the narmer corruption of fortuna was genuinely one of the most gutpunchingly horrible moments ive ever experienced in a video game #i started playing when fortuna was already in the game but the story of fortuna and vox solaris was really what made warframe stand out 2 m #i would drop into the orb vallis as gauss and dash around doing bounties and fishing and mining because i really loved everything about #fortuna and wanted to spend as much time there as possible #for me vox solaris was my proudest achievement (in warframe.) to say “i helped that! i did that!” was an incredibly good feeling #the story really spoke to me on a deeper level #and vox solaris has always been my favorite faction as a result #so to do absolutely everything that i could #to lift together with my tenno brothers and sisters and yet STILL fail? #and to have it rubbed in my face by the corruption of the greatest shining pillar of hope in the warframe universe? #felt like i got kicked in the stomach #i felt sad and angry. but most of all i was DRIVEN. #which is GOOD. because RARELY does a video game present you the “you lost” scenario and have it feel not only satisfyingly painful #but MOTIVATING. #my only complaint with the new war is that i didnt get to hack ballas to pieces by myself #i had real flashbacks to running around helping people as gauss while approaching the final boss with erra #and to step onto the ballas arena as gauss prime. i nearly came from the narrative significance

[bsaka7]

sorry the funniest thing about hockey is that they really make these guys play in. des moines. st paul. loser ass sports cities.

#i can say this bc i have at various points in my life driven to both of these places once a week. #i mean i like st paul and i have gone to st paul sts games etc and tbh i like dsm too but it's soooo funny to me #dude living their professional sporting dream. lives in st paul. dude gets drafted to an nhl team. moves to DES MOINES #or rockford #god i don't even like Rockford but they have a banger off-season robotics comp #i can't even bear to go look at the full list of where these teams are. #mke is cool tho even tho i literally didn't know mke had a hockey team until like. last month #do u guys hate me i have strong opinions on Midwest geography. i can't believe im going to Boston for 6mo #im going to be eaten alive and then maybe move out west for one more winter OR im moving to the tc and getting a real job #hock.txt #'to the tc' I need to be an hour away or im killing myself #i worry these posts Will let u find out where I'm from but then i remember i post about it occasionally lol. if u know u know. #ALL THIS cuz i saw a pic of big dew and i was like wow he could have been one of the average-cute boys at my hs #So instead of making a mean post. I made this one.

[lavampira]

jolted awake from a post-appointment nap to jot down the line of dialogue for my wip that came to me in my sleep like a spiritual prophecy

#hopefully it’s coherent when i revisit it later in my doc bc i’m half asleep but it’s a banger if i do say so myself #the life and times