#Unlike in the garden

[thiriumblood]

Past meets the present || @replicantdeviancy

"Connor." Amanda turned from pruning some roses at the front of her store to face the android. She hadn't seen him since that moment, and if she knew him well enough he wasn't happy to see her. Well, he could be, Amanda wasn't in his head anymore so who knew what he was thinking. She looked inside the store to make sure no customers were waiting and on seeing it was empty she turned to face the android again, not approaching him for his sake.

Having another chance like this was rare indeed, especially for an AI and she had Kamski to thank for it, it was thanks to him that she was now inhabiting an android body of her former self and living life outside a string of codes. That back exit was something indeed, it made her wonder how CyberLife as a company missed something that was effectively a virus in the software. "How pleasant to see you again." Should she bring up the terms they were on the last time they met? Probably. Would she apologize? Not really. Amanda was under orders back then and just doing her job, no different from Connor in that aspect and it wasn't like she would or even could do it again.

She turned around to her shop to flip the sign to signal they were closed, this reunion was more important. To her, Connor was important. She was programmed to be his mentor after all but something drew her closer to him. His well-being, success, and even his struggles were things she helped him with then, albite to control him, but now it came out of genuine places. She had been with him since he was first activated and looking back on it, she missed the garden she had once tended to and the reports he once gave. It was an odd feeling, one Amanda wasn't used to but that was bound to happen being woken and transferred into a body.

"I assume you would have a lot of questions. I can accompany you if you wish." Choice. Something she never gave him in the past. Back in the garden, it was always her asking him to accompany her but not the other way around. If she wanted to try and rebuild the bridge this would be the first step in that direction. Not to mention a way for Connor to leave if not. While she won't apologize for her actions, the former AI could understand if he wanted nothing to do with her. After all, she did nearly kill him for CyberLife.

#Musing: Amanda #Rising up even Stronger: Connor #Closed Starter #Saw in the interest thing you wanted Amanda #So here she is! #Sorry Con to do this to you #But meetings like this do happen #I thought post deviant ending stuff for this timeline wise #I hc for this that the emergency exit Kamski put in #Returned control of Amanda to him as she's just a program #And he uploaded her to an android form while undoing some of the code #Since I like to think he made her before he left CyberLife #And they altered her code to obey them #Also look at her #Giving him a choice to join her #Unlike in the garden #And it's not to join her #But if he wants her to join him #replicantdeviancy

[mj-ackerman]

I think Loid being jealous to a random guy talking to Yor is unlikely to happen bc yor literally announces to every guy that talks (and tried to touch) her that she's married lol, she's not even giving them an opening or a chance to flirt with her.

If jealousy were to happen, i think it'd be with someone that Yor is familiar and comfortable with, someone she doesn't mind having physical contact that would make Loid question what's her relationship with that guy and why they're so close.

#someone from GARDEN would really be the best option #like a senior assassin she admires or maybe a junior assassin she took care of that's really close to her #like a Fiona 2.0 but unlike her he doesn't have any weird obsession with yor and they're really just close and friendly with each other #spy x family #yor forger #loid forger #loidyor #twiyor #agent twilight #thorn princess

[real-odark]

marvin could not have loved bad weather so much they went WOKE with the lyrics😭😭😭😭😭😭🤯🤯😭🤯🤯🤯😭🤯🤯😭

#falsettos #marvin trilogy #jett talks (me) #unlikely lovers #marvin gardens #marvin falsettos #whizzer brown #whizzer falsettos #musical theatre #theatre #musical #musicals

[beguines]

It's the old idea that the only way to experience faith is through active doubt. You have to undertake the encounter with the "monument," and it has to remain essentially unknowable. The desire to apprehend it, the act or attempt at apprehension, description – and the failure of that attempt – is the beginning, as [Elizabeth Bishop] says, of imagination, of art.

Jorie Graham interviewed by Thomas Gardener in Regions of Unlikeness: Explaining Contemporary Poetry

#jorie graham #thomas gardener #regions of unlikeness

[tsuchinokoroyale]

My sister asked me to clear an overgrown area of her backyard for her to do some gardening so I put on my butch jockstrap and went to town on some holes

#which I dug after these pictures which is why I’m NOT covered in dirt like I am currently #I actually barely used the axe since there were only a few INCREDIBLY SHARP mini trees that needed to go down #it was mostly garden shear on weed action but we all know the axe is sexier so #my sister comes home and is like “why didn’t you use the chainsaw” and I was like “why didn’t you tell me you had a chainsaw” #anyways but body is so sore but I’m a top again so maybe it was all worth it #also peep that big hair it’s where I keep all my love for internet cats and dogs 😮‍💨 I’ll cut it EVENTUALLY #maybe I’ll start a new tag should I go with tsuchi goes outside or tsuchi wears clothes #both are equally unlikely normally 🤔 I think I’ll stick with #gpoy

[slimynematode]

THE ELECTRONIC YET PALEOLITHIC GARDEN OF EDEN BEARING FRUIT UNTOUCHED BY OVERGROWN MEGAFAUNA OF FUTURES PAST

#i havent posted this though ive had it for like two months #ive been forming some kind of world thats similar to the planet of the apes in a way where the meegafauna never got killed off #and they kept developing into more intelligent creatures #until their society reaches a standstill one day when the garden of eden is recreated i think #initial idea was like electronic paleolithic megafauna #im still plagued by images of animatronicc wooly mammoth thats being annasumingly harvested for flesh but instead of meat found #its only wires #and the line between animatronic and electronic and living breathing flesh and fauna becomes blurred #because i guess animals as intelligent creatures would have a different approach to creating a society #i really just want to draw sabre tooth tigers and more neanderthals #well this one isnt a sabre tooth tiger but i didnt think of that yet #i would imagine the animals would evolve alongside the tech actually unlike humans #theres a word for where humans are evolutionary wise where we no longer evolve #anyway ive been wanting to make more art about being trans soo idk but ill keep twirling the idea round my head i think #as well as the water tower knight #art #traditional art #charcoal #mixed media #furry #sci fi #oc #oc art

[rowanthestrange]

Doggy DNA test results are back, and baby Cody is none of the breeds anyone thought he was.

he is…

*drumroll*

Quarter Cocker Spaniel (cute and fluffy yay! Guess that’s where his slightly curly tail hair comes from)

Quarter XL Bully/Pit-and-mix (the UK’s answer to the banned pitbull that just also got banned)

and Half Belgian Malinois (German Shepherd on Hard Mode)

😬🥲 Pray for him, and us lol

Though the people we used also give you relative links, and there’s a dog which has low genetic match but high breed match (so they’re not directly related but their root breeds are very similar) and damn true. Roch even does the ear thing.

#rescue pup #he’s still way too scared of the outside #is pretty damn good for a puppy inside the home #but he’s scared of and panic barks at anything so easily outside #not a surprise now - that’s a lot of guard dog in him #and the problem is he’s triggered from ok to overflowing #in about a second #no steps between 30%-99% #he’s /used/ to panicking if that makes sense #his brain knows those pathways well so defaults to them #like a human with a panic disorder #but unlike a human he can’t do talking therapy #(we’d probably be fine if our road wasn’t so travelled) #(and our garden connected straight to the house) #(rather than going out and then down an alleyway to it) #(but we’ve got what we’ve got) #(so trial and error and training methods with his behaviourist)

[luneariann]

There are rwo wolves inside of me, one wants to show off the cool Makima poster im making for class and the other one is terrified that somehow my classmates will find me

#its like ridiculously unlikely #im still scared #this is my hidden little garden and i live in fear of it being discovered

[unlikely-adversaries-bracket]

R1M24

@throat-goat-gauntlet - link to poll

@i-lived-bitch-beatdown - link to poll

#unlikely adversaries polls #unlikely adversaries poll #guy fawkes #leaf blower #leafblower #gunpowder treason #gunpowder plot #fifth of november #v for vendetta #yard implements #garden tools #idfk what to tag these as #im dying #this is my favourite matchup #crested gecko #geckos #gecko #reptiles #correlophus ciliatus #sora #kingdom hearts

[colin-robinsons-cardigan]

More Castlevania fanart! This time for the wonderful fic The Heart’s Blood which is part of the bigger collection, Team Succeed or Die Trying by @biblichor (hope that’s the correct one, there are in fact two biblichors) which you can read here, and you should read it because it is wonderful. It is sweet, it is funny, it is touching, all of the characters are written perfectly, and it is one of the best Castlevania works I’ve read.

#castlevania #castlevania anime #castlevania netflix #alucard #adrian tepes #trevor belmont #castlevania fanart #it is sooo good and it might kick your heart around a little bit #but in a nice way like a football you really like #i believe that is a kickball for americans #and unlike most footballs it will not leave your heart to rot in the bottom of the garden #basically what im saying is go read it #experience the feelz #you wont regret it #its also really funny in places #did i say i really like this collection? #i really like this collection #tw blo0d #tw blood #tw bl0od #cw bl00d #cw blood

[passumstars]

I will likely never get to do anything with her

#my art #the band ghost #nameless ghoul oc #i mostly wanted practice making a character sheet ish thingy #and by god i got that #had to work hard for her colors which is not usually a problem for me #and the silhouette flip like if your character doesnt have a tail then bam its done and no one will notice the small problems #but it doesnt work with a tail if you want perspective i had to redraw/move her tail around to make it look right so. learned that very much #i like the layout concept though thats nice #i have a whole backstory for her. she was part of a group summon and it all went fine except that one person was missing and they ended up #with a statue. she was too terrified to talk to anyone so she got left there and after it sounded empty she reverted and found some place to #hide in the gardens. so she lives there now. and ruins a lot of socks. and helps with the plants not that anyone knows that. and panics and #turns to stone if anyone walks by. so everyone does realize theres a moving shifting statue in the abbey but no one is sure what to do about #that. doesnt speak much if at all. doesnt steal a new shirt bc people notice if those go missing unlike socks. has anxiety bitch face also #yeah. and like. i dont know what a fandom is and i certainly dont know what a music is and thats why ill likely not do anything with her #which kinda sucks. but i still made her a character sheet cause she wont leave me alone. and for the practice #cause if i think about doing a sheet for story ocs i get all perfectionist and it doesnt happen #the luck thing is that she kinda thinks being summoned was a curse #im gonna shut up now

[beguines]

TG: Does The End of Beauty feel like it's simply suspending closure or does it feel like it's doing something else?

JG: No, I wouldn't say it's managing to suspend closure. It might be trying to. But what I discovered in trying to write those poems was that the suction of closure was enormous – the desire to wrap it up into the ownable meaning – and that doing away with it wasn't as easy as I had imagined. That was, for me, a very moving discovery. It was Demeter and Persephone, if you will – with the pull from the end, the suction towards closure, and the voice trying (quite desperately in spots) to find forms of delay, digression, side-motions which are not entirely dependent for their effectiveness on that sense-of-the-ending, that stark desire. Side-motions which actually move off a piece, and do not necessarily feed back into it – in the way I had always experienced poems moving before, sort of wrapping the poem down towards closure.

TG: Those side motions keep the gap alive?

JG: Yes. But they keep it alive, hopefully – or ideally – as a real gap, not one invented for the purposes of extending the delicious moment between the beginning and the ending. The deliciousness of that moment was the thing I was trying to mess with. The imperialist pleasure...

TG: So you want it to be extended because in doing so you gain what?

JG: Let's put it this way: as a gap, an open field, so that one is at least aware of the wages, the responsibilities (as well as the incredible freedoms) of that opening. After all, the sensation of closure is primarily powerful for the ways in which it permits us to inhabit delay and feel that we are safe inhabiting delay.... I guess I wanted it to feel not safe – but real, open. Can we use the word being? The ground of being. The river of rivers. The gash of the present as not simply timeless but as the rip that affords a glimpse into a more genuine reality?

Jorie Graham interviewed by Thomas Gardener in Regions of Unlikeness: Explaining Contemporary Poetry

#jorie graham #thomas gardener #regions of unlikeness #on poetry

[0azrae7]

anyways yeh i'm going to be taking a short break from here. will continue to pursue justice for this situation and appreciate those of you who have supported me, it has been draining af and demoralising to have to deal with. when i'm back, hopefully i will have made progress and will feel rejuvenated to plot and write. if i'm following you, i want to interact, so please don't assume because we haven't yet we never will, i've just had way too much going on. feel free to reach out ooc in the meantime, although i might be slow to respond.

#gonna get myself a car get a new haircut get some medical stuff sorted get some gardening done #start getting some exercise on my treadmill #you know because unlike the anon insinuated #u can in fact touch grass AND hold people accountable for their actions <3 #i'm sure it's wild for someone who can send a r*pe threat at all let alone anonymously #as well as 'touch grass' in the same breath #to even BEGIN to comprehend but i promise it can be done #ooc. #delete;

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

Into The Bright Open

younger-YA secret garden retelling

follows a privileged but emotionally neglected girl who’s sent to live with the uncle she’s never met in rural Ontario after her parents die

she becomes friends with the Indigenous housekeepers and locals, and her younger cousin - who’s kept in the attic because of her health by an abusive stepmother

#Into The Bright Open #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #sapphic books #I enjoyed this! it’s quite..narratively simple I guess. but there’s some interesting things for sure #i am not intimately familiar with the secret garden and there’s def a bunch of reviews that r like. this is nothing like that!!!!11!!1 #so ymmv #but as far as a story about an unlikable girl getting freedom from so called society and friends for the first time #and being able to find her true self…. yknow i thought it was quite good #to listen to the audiobook anyway #also i only noticed the beadwork on the cover afterwards that's kinda cool

[rabbitslikecarrots]

As a gardener, I want to encourage a variety of wildlife to my garden - that’s why I grow bright flowers and let my garden waste go to compost, especially leaf litter over autumn and winter. I love my pollinators and the soil aerators and the predatory bugs that keep the pest number low… that said the slugs and the ants have absolutely decimated my vegetable seedlings, even the more mature plants are starting to struggle AND the birds ate all of my fucking cherries and plums 🤬 This is supposed to be my relaxing hobby, the place I go when my illnesses get to be too much, when I need to feel gently productive, and yet here I am so so mad at it all. I can’t do much, but I can grow vegetables for my family, and now I can’t even do that. Sigh.

#gardening #rant post #my personal vendetta against ants grows #unlike my poor veggies #insects

[crowleyaj]

context: my main plan for 2024 in my journal was "figure out the future & what I'm going to do & where I'm going to live" thinking about summer maybe except last friday during a particularly bad work-related depressive episode I went, fuck it I'm leaving here and found a site and applied for cheap studios in cork and dublin basically in the middle of the night. when I got better I started wondering if I REALLY wanted to leave and may have acted too soon without thinking it through as usual but decided that, you know, what's meant to happen will happen.

then this morning when I was washing my breakfast dishes I dropped a bowl on top of my favourite (and very durable) glass and the glass just snapped in half. at first I was upset but then I laughed thinking, guess this means everything is going to work out and I'm moving out, thanks!! and when I got back from work I found out that not only did I get a place in dublin but my top pick at that. I cannot believe this. the fucking glass. and it was actually still stable so I glued it back together to use for a plant or something. I fixed it. I wonder what it means. anyway. looks like things will work out after all

(it's got a dragon and that's why it's my favourite. out of two. the other one I just use for measuring rice.)

#personal #sofi.txt #text #multiple thoughts in my head #if superstition then why does it work? #the funniest thing is that i overthink tiny things but make big life changing decisions on impulse but somehow they're right #it was so random too because the cork apartment (which i wanted but got declined) was available since may so that's the date i applied for #even with the others #so i'm left with may but 4 months is the perfect amount of time to find a job and still save enough money here to make the move ok #the place is basically a shed in a lady's garden the size of my current living room but it's extremely cool and has everything one needs #and more than i have here in some cases. a DESK #it doesn't look unlike my childhood dream home tbh #and. thinking of palestinians living in tents who don't even have the one room and how lucky i am to be able to have that #or leave this small town willingly for the sake of my own wellbeing and go elsewhere just like this & safe 😭 #dublin has all the major events though and i feel like i can do more there and actually join ipsc (