#also hi tumblr if i type a number it doesn't mean that i want everything to turn into a list okay thank youuu

[linawritesocs]

7, 8, 14 and 16 for Vance, Hayden, Jay and Minnie! XDD

these sound so interesting, thank you sm aurora! also, i'm answering these for real!jay since fake!jay didn't really have a childhood.

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"what was your muse's personality like as a kid? how has it changed since then?" austin: he actually didn't change much since then! he wasn't the most friendly kid and he liked to brag about how smart he is and that his family has such high hopes for him. he didn't have many friends because of that and most kids couldn't stand him. but hey, his siblings thought he was cool :) oh, and also he was more open about his interest in anime and he talked about how much he loves cats more often.

hayden: he was a very shy kid who had no idea how to talk to people other than his family members. he cried a lot and couldn't control his emotions at all and he got in trouble often because of that and he got scared easily. he often hid behind his older brothers when people tried to talk to him and he couldn't even say hi to them because of how scared he was. he also had a very bad fear of affection and he still does and if anyone tried to hug him or simply smiled at him, he would cry and beg them not to punish him. that.. made other people worry about him a lot actually.

7. "did your muse have any enemies? playground rivalries? how did that turn out?"

vance: not really! vance was a very nice and sweet kid, so most people enjoyed his company and other children admired him and wanted to be friends with him. even after injuring himself and starting to act like vance that we know, kids thought he was cool and invited him to play with them. but if he had to call someone his enemy.. it would be his grandfather, most likely.

hayden: hayden rarely was allowed to go outside, especially after his family found out that he's friends with angel and bunny, so.. yeah, he definitely didn't have any playground rivalries. also, whenever he was allowed to go outside, most kids had a feeling that he's going through something bad and asked if he's okay. of course, he couldn't tell them everything, so he ran away right after that. so yeah, his enemies were mostly just his family members.

real!jay: if hayden wasn't allowed to leave the house that often, jay simply didn't like going outside. he was okay with spending the entire day in his room and most kids didn't even know that he exists, sure, they heard that the polley family has two children, but they only met jay's older sister and didn't know anything about him. so.. yeah, no enemies and rivalries.

minnie: she also didn't like to play outside that much, but she would definitely call her twin brother her enemy. they argued and fought a lot and their mom had no idea how to stop them. and when their mom asked why won't they play together, minnie's brother said that he would never play with a girl and he believed that minnie was too weak so it would be boring to play with her.

8. "what did your muse do in their free time? How did they entertain themself as a kid?"

vance: vance liked to play games a lot even before he started making game references and breaking the fourth wall all the time. he especially liked the games that had open worlds, where he could run around and explore and do anything that he wanted. he also was interested in sports, but his parents were too scared of him hurting himself, so they didn't allow him to play any sports games and they also refused to buy him a skateboard when he asked for one.

hayden: oh, this poor boy.. he didn't have much to entertain himself, so he just played with his horse plushie or read books that he got from his older brothers. most of those books were about "the other seven", so of course, hayden, being a young and impressionable child, believed all of it and started worshipping the other seven as well. some other books he had were about animals, insects, plants and nature in general and his parents were okay with him reading stuff like that and didn't take them away from him. we don't talk about what happened to his plushie though.

real!jay: he was okay with just lying on the floor and staring at the ceiling, honestly. whenever his family tried to come up with something more "fun", he agreed to go with them, but he obviously wasn't thrilled about it and didn't enjoy spending time with them. he got a diary as a gift once and jay simply wrote that "it's sunny today. i don't like it. it's too bright" and never used it again. he also slept a lot and if he could, he would spend a whole day in bed, but his family really wanted him to go outside more often. his older sister was actually concerned about him and thought that it's weird for a little kid like jay to not have any energy at all.

minnie: she liked to play with her dolls! she treasured them a lot (and she still does) and she would never let anyone but her and her mom touch them. she also really liked to draw, especially with pencils and crayons and her mom praised her, saying that she's very talented. it motivated minnie to keep drawing and that's why art is her best subject now :)

14. "who was a mentor or a hero to your muse as a kid? why did your muse look up to them and what did your muse learn from them? how is that relationship now?"

vance: it was his older brother! he admired him a lot and he wanted to become just like him when he grows up. they were very close, but vance's brother didn't want to see him as his hero, because he had not the best reputation and other family members, especially his and vance's grandfather, called him a disappointment. he also became just as overprotective as other family members when vance ended up hurting himself after stealing his brother's skateboard. vance still likes his big brother and he misses him a lot, but.. it's a bit hard for him to talk to the older boy now, because it hurts him to see that he became just like the rest of the family.

hayden: it was angel! they weren't really his mentor, but they definitely were their hero and they were the one to give him hope when he felt like no matter how hard he tried, his parents would never like him as much as they like his older brothers. they also were their first friend and they found him when he got lost on the way home (one of his older brothers got distracted and left him all alone) and they tried to help him. them being his first friend is part of the reason why hayden refuses to admit that their relationship is actually very unhealthy and angel was the one who made him believe that he's better than everyone else.

real!jay: no one, really. he didn't have any friends and his family members were the only people he talked to and he didn't see them as their heroes or anything like that, so..

minnie: answered here!

16. "if your muse could say one thing to their childhood self, what would they say? would your muse want to meet their childhood self in the first place?"

vance: he's not sure if he would want to meet his childhood self. he wouldn't say that his childhood was bad, but it's just.. kinda painful to think about. he just really wants to know what kind of person he would become if his family wasn't so strict. and if he did meet his younger self, he would tell him that he's stronger than his family thinks and that no matter how hard other people may try, he's not that easy to break.

hayden: he would cry the moment he sees his younger self. he knows that he didn't deserve all of those things he had to go through, but he also knows that he can't change his past. he wouldn't be able to say anything to his child self because of how emotional it would be for him, so.. he would probably just give a hug to him. it's okay, he knows that it's everything little hayden has wanted.

real!jay: he wouldn't say that his childhood self is that much different from him. little jay is just.. a bit more lonely than him, that's all. but if he did meet his younger self, then jay would simply tell him that there's nothing bad about being alone and that he's still not sure if he's smarter than his family thinks, but.. maybe it's okay to keep going just to see what happens next? who knows, maybe he will prove them wrong someday. and if not, oh well, at least he has friends now and they don't care about his talents, abilities and anything like that.

minnie: there's only one reason why she would want to see her childhood self: she just wants little minnie to know that everything is gonna be alright and that she didn't deserve anything that happened to her. she wants her younger self to know that she's not just there to take care of everyone and she should learn to take care of herself first. and then she would remind her that her dolls still love her and that one day she will meet people who will protect her and make her feel safe. and yes, she will find a lot of male friends too!

#MY OCS AS KIDS.. I'M SOBBING I WANT TO HOLD THEM AND TELL THEM THAT EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE OKAY #also hi tumblr if i type a number it doesn't mean that i want everything to turn into a list okay thank youuu #lina plays ask games #a gamer skater boy: vance #the chameleon with a god complex: hayden #the literature and animals lover: jay #the mouse girlboss: minnie #the lonely mechanic: austin #friend: aurora!

[matan4il]

https://www.tumblr.com/drtanner/746570503303610368/zionists-should-never-feel-safe-go-fuck?source=share

This hypocrisy is so sad to see in real time.

"Don't use dogwhistles so Jews and PoC feel safe around you"

*gets called out for antisemitism on blog*

"90% of Jews should feel unsafe!"

I'd laugh if it wasn't horrifying.

I'd clap back at them but I was blocked :(

Hi Nonnie!

I don't clap back at anti-Zionists, because they don't deserve the attention, nor the added notes on their posts, but I think you did something meaningful in your ask, and I wanna highlight that, because you deserve the attention and applause.

So, someone who's anti-women, but doesn't wanna come across that way, will claim to just be speaking against feminists, and that there's no connection between women and feminists, because not all women are feminists! "Here," they'd say, "a tokenized anti-feminist woman!" But there is an intrinsic connection between the two, which is why it's no surprise that most women are, in fact, feminists.

The same goes for Zionism. Just like feminists wanted the right to vote to be equally applied to women, Zionists want the right to self-determination to be equally applied to Jews. Just as feminism is the liberation movement of women, Zionism is the liberation movement for Jews. Zionism is inherent to Jewish identity, and it's no coincidence that the overwhelming majority of Jews are Zionists.

One indicator that anti-feminism works to hurt women, is to take an anti-feminist statement, and replace "feminist" with "most women." Here's an example:

"Feminists are incapable of crafting a coherent argument using their words." -> Most women are incapable of crafting a coherent argument using their own words. Does that sound anti-women?

So a quick way to see that anti-Zionist statements are antisemitic, is to replace "Zionists" with "the majority of Jews," exactly as you have done, and see if it sounds antisemitic (every single one of the following examples is real, posted on Tumblr):

"Zionists should never feel safe" -> The majority of Jews should never feel safe.

"I don't want Zionists among us" -> I don't want the majority of Jews among us.

"Zionists always lie" -> The majority of Jews always lie.

"Arm yourself with knowledge to defeat Zionists" -> Arm yourself with knowledge to defeat the majority of Jews.

"Fuck Zionists" -> Fuck the majority of Jews.

Regarding the OP's post (not the antisemite's reblog), I wanna mention that OP's introduction of "dogwhistles" is kinda lacking. I mean, everything they said is true, but there are additional dogwhistles that they didn't address, ones which are more encoded than their examples.

For example, one dogwhistle neo-Nazis use is the numbers 18 (like in German neo-Nazi group "Combat 18") and 88. A is the 1st letter in the Latin alphabet, H is the 8th, so 18 is AH (stands for Adolf Hitler) and 88 is HH (stands for Heil Hitler, the Nazi greeting). On the surface, these are just innocent numbers, but for Jews who are familiar with neo-Nazi dogwhistles...

Another example of a dogwhistle is one that I've had an anti-Zionist type of antisemite use with me once. She's a Muslim young woman, I won't say from which country, but one that's very hostile to Israel, and where there's no free press. One antisemitic thing she said was that none of the prophets of Islam were Jews. Just a quick reminder, the prophets of Islam include mostly Jews, like Abraham (mispronounced as Ibrahim in Arabic), the patriarch of the entire Jewish nation, Moses, who delivered the Jews from Egypt (Moussa), King David (Daoud) and Jesus (Issa). Denying their Judaism is an antisemitic act easily called out by most people. But this woman also said to me, "Go plant gharqad trees." This one most people will miss. There is a Muslim hadith (a saying attributed to Muhammad, but reported by someone else), which states: "The last hour would not come unless the Muslims will fight against the Jews and the Muslims would kill them until the Jews would hide themselves behind a stone or a tree and a stone or a tree would say: oh Muslim, oh the servant of Allah, there is a Jew behind me; come and kill him; but the tree Gharqad would not say, for it is the tree of the Jews." This hadith is quoted in the founding charter of Hamas. So in this context, "Go plant gharqad trees," is telling a Jewish person to prepare themself for the extermination of Jews. It's a genocidal dogwhistle. Ironically, this dogwhistle is so common, it has actually become its own anti-Israel propaganda piece, circulated in anti-Israel circles, where they claim that Israeli Jews are ordered to plant gharqad trees.

And one more example of a dig whistle! The infamous "From the river to the sea" qualifies. On the surface, it sounds like a peaceful chant for the liberation of a people. In reality, it is the English translation of a racist and genocidal slogan, stating that ALL of the land between the river and the sea (meaning, the territories currently under Palestinian rule AND Israel) will be Arab. To a Jewish person, this is at the very least a call for an ethnic cleansing via expulsion of the Jews, but we all know that this won't happen through just expelling the Jewish population, so an Arab country covering all of Israel will only exist through the shedding of a lot of Jewish blood. It IS genocidal.

Lastly, the incrdible @tzomet-spy-pigeon made a really important addition, pointing out that OP has actually posted antisemitic dogwhistles themselves, of the anti-Zionist variety of antisemitism. So I just wanna make it clear: people who come out against one type of antisemitism (such as the white supremacist kind) are NOT exempt from being guilty of perpetuating others (like the anti-Zionist kind).

(for all of my updates and ask replies regarding Israel, click here)

#israel #antisemitism #israeli #israel news #israel under attack #israel under fire #terrorism #anti terrorism #hamas #antisemitic #antisemites #jews #jew #judaism #jumblr #frumblr #jewish #ask #anon ask #resources

[2af-afterdark]

Leviathan’s Curse

As I played chapter 5, especially toward the end when you get the flashback to his childhood, I couldn't help put pay attention to the game showing us the curse laid upon Leviathan that explains his actions far too perfectly. Now, I don't mean a literal curse (although his beauty seems to be its own curse given how the angels treated him because of it). I am talking about the metaphorical curse placed upon him from the moment he was taken by Heaven. More specifically, the moment he escaped to Hell.

Spoilers for chapter 5 below

87 was his number. Not a name, but a number. He knew nothing of Hell or other devils aside from the other children trapped around him. His only experience in life -- at least the experience he could remember-- was the cruelty of angels toward him and his friends/peers. These were his only friends and the people who supported one another through an experience worse than death as the angels experimented on them.

Then, one day, when a fire starts in the lab keeping these young angels captive, 87 gets the opportunity to escape... or rather, he is forced to escape because the other children trapped with him can tell he is special and they are doing all they can to get him out of there and make sure Leviathan survives.

They will not allow him to stay with them and risk dying. He is the one person who must live, even at the cost of everything else.

As he is leaving, they all request that he go out and live for all of them; to have the kind of life they know they never can.

That's his curse.

It was the innocent wish of children who knew they were about to die and was partially said to try and motivate 87 to leave like they wanted and give him the will to live, but it is burned into Leviathan’s mind even now.

They were all one another had -- children relying on one another to survive -- and they died for Leviathan. They sacrificed themselves, refusing to let him stay behind to help them the way he wanted or escape with him because they had to ensure he got out at the cost of everyone else. In order to uphold their memory, he has to fulfill their wish to live on for them.

His life is also their life. His experiences are their experiences. He has to live the best life vicariously for them because that was the wish they made and is his last memory of the most important people in his life. Everything he is must be the best, because the people that died for him deserve the best. He is the best because he is their living memory.

We could also say it's the reason he is so stringent in his values of eliminating any threat to Hell, no matter how small or improbable. His friends died for him in order to get him back to Hell, so he will ensure that it is safe no matter what. He will not let their sacrifice be in vain.

In his Bloodshed card, we also see that Leviathan keeps empty [symbolic] graves for his dead friends. However, when these graves are destroyed, he says that the graves are empty and it doesn't matter if they are destroyed because he can always rebuild them later. But the graves to him are a form of atonement. The graves don't matter because Leviathan is their true grave and living memory. He is the one that lives for them. He made a kingdom for them; one that would have accepted them if they had been born there. He visits their graves every year. They are mythologized through him and their memory lives on as long as he does.

[Unfortunately, I have hit the Tumblr image limit as I am typing this section up, so I can't fit the screenshots, so you will have to decide if you trust me or not on this point]

On a more personal interpretation, I also think that this is why Leviathan wants neither "twisted hatred" nor "unconditional worship". He has known both. Hatred hurt him and made his life worse than death, worship got his friends killed (remember that they willingly died because they could sense he was special. In a way, he was already their king and they worshiped him).

He wants a partner who expresses something more pure than unreasonable, unexplainable emotions. He wants someone to express genuine feelings towards him rather than irrational ones that seem to control their view of him.

I think it's also the reason that he is annoyed at Morax at the end of his bloodshed card; Morax is willing to die for Leviathan in order to heal him. Leviathan has already seen enough of people dying for him.

I also think it makes it very interesting that his citizens wear nooses. They say they wear them because, on a literal note, they will hang themselves if Leviathan should ever die and, as symbol, that same noose is meant to show that there is someone (+Leviathan) they are willing to fight to the death for. The mythology surrounding his escape is so prevalent that it seeps into the entire culture of his land and its people.

He doesn't want people to die for him, but every single citizen of his kingdom is willing to die in his name. It puts him in a position where his life is the center of everyone who he meets. His Bloodshed Victory (2) line is "As long as the devils of Hades are behind me, I never lose" because he cannot afford to allow more people to die in his name. They can die, of course, just never for him.

#what in hell is bad #whb leviathan #whb theory #whb spoilers

[mushroompoisoning]

Good friend, I ask of you because I trust you, what are these "The Mechanisms" you are so fond of?

Okay I tried to type out an incredibly long summary but tumblr deleted it so you're getting a semi-sane version instead

The Mechanisms are a band of immortal, space-faring pirates travelling the universe singing about the tragedies they witness for our entertainment!

There are nine main members you'll hear about, with the tenth - Dr Carmilla - having left much earlier and making her own music 👍 ( there is technically an eleventh but they're more of a mystery easter egg than anyone we know things about )

Quick lore thing: the mechanisms immortality works from the mechanical part(s) they each have. They can die and get injured, but they'll revive whenever the narrative wants them too. All logic in this universe functions off of Would It Be Good For The Story

The cast is:

Jonny D'Ville (he/him) is the ship's first mate ( don't let him tell you otherwise ) and he's got a mechanical heart

Nastya Rasputina (she/her) is the ship's engineer and girlfriend! Yea the ship - Aurora - is alive btw. She's got me hanical blood

Ashes O'Reily (they/them) is the ship's quartermaster and best arsonist! they've got mechanical lungs

Drumbot Brian (he/him) is the ship's pilot and the only one with a moral code. It's controlled by a switch which flips between Means Justify Ends and Ends Justify Means with no nuance. everything is mechanical except for his heart

Ivy Alexandria (she/her) is the ship's archivist! Pretty chill, cares more for books than violence but that doesn't mean she disapproves of the latter. she's got a mechanical brain

The Toy Soldier (it/its) is the mascot and whatever else they tell it to be! it just wants to be involved. will follow anything you tell it if you ask nicely ( or with enough force ). it's not actually mechanized, and is instead a sentient wooden man

Gunpowder Tim (he/him) is the ship's master at arms! madman war veteran who I love dearly. he blew up the moon. he's great. I pick favourites. he's got mechanical eyes

Raphaella La Cognizi (she/her) is the ship's unethical scientist! nothing is off the table when it comes to research. nothing. theory is she mechanized her, but iirc that unconfirmed. she's got a mechanical spine and wings!

and Baron Marius Von Raum (he/him) who is neither the ships baron nor doctor. he claims to be both, though. Deeply unserious fella. he's got a mechanical arm

^ here are some good images for crew reference

OKAY! Now onto actual music

They have six albums and a couple singles!

Once Upon a Time (In Space) is an unconventional retelling of classic fairytales

High Noon over Camelot is a retelling of King Arthur

Ulysses Dies at Dawn is a greek mythos adaptation

and The Bifrost Incident is a norse mythos adaptation

there's also Tales To Be Told volumes I and II, and the two single Frankenstein and Death To The Mechanisms ( technically that one is part of an album but the album is just a bunch of their other songs from already existing albums )

The tales to be told albums contain some of the mechanisms origins!

One Eyed Jacks is Jonny's

Lucky Sevens is Ashes'

Lost In The Cosmos is Brian's

and Gunpowder Tim vs The Moon Kaiser I don't think I have to say

Nastya has an origin song, but it was never officially put on anything. You can find it on the @mechanismslorearchive ( you can get any lore you want on there )

They also have a number of live shows ( you can find those on youtube ) and written stories on their website! I recommend these if you wanna get to know the mechanisms as characters better

that is the basic rundown. I'm not an expert on the mechs so if you're looking to talk to a metaphorical seasoned nurse instead of a med student I'd go to @bugsinthebayou or @gunpowderdtim (sorry for tagging yall)

#wallace says shit #asks & answers #mechs posting #HP!! #hope thats right I had to check your name #enjoy this messy and amateur summary #god I hope there are. limited mistakes in this.

[gemsofgreece]

Hi!

I have a ask about women's clothing and I'll be linking examples of where I found the information, just in case anyone wants to check it out. Also, this is going to be LONG, so thank you in advance for taking the time to read and respond!

From what I saw, not all Greek women stayed at home, especially those from families whose social class was not high enough for the man in the family alone to be able to afford everything. Among those who did not stay at home, a certain number collaborated with farmer activities such as taking care of crops and animals. When it comes to more recent times, it's easy to find some black-and-white photos of these women farmers (in fact, it's easy to find this type of photo of women working in rural areas in several countries precisely because it's not from such a distant time and now we still have current photos because some areas are still rural). In all the ones I've seen so far, they still wore skirts/dresses, but above the ankle instead of covering their feet.

When it comes to even more ancient women, from Ancient Greece, I have seen female representations with short dresses, but they were short above the knee and generally it was more Atalanta or Artemis (In the case of Artemis, this is accentuated even in written sources), who are huntresses and not farmers. Apart from them, I have seen representations of Amazons in short dresses, but again they're warriors and not farmers. I thought about looking for something about this in Demeter, since she's a goddess related to agriculture, but all the representations I found of her show her wearing long dresses that cover her feet (that is, even longer than those of women who have the length above the ankle) and I don't know if this is more because she's a goddess and in the end these representations are still of a deity and not of a civil human woman, or if this would be an accurate representation of farmer women. After all, Athena is a goddess of war and that doesn't mean that her symbolic image is wearing a short dress although the armor is present. Regarding civilian women farmers, I didn't find anything on the subject.

I would like to know if we have any information on how women used to dress to carry out activities! Was it a dress above the ankles like the women in the B&W photos? A shorter version, though perhaps not as short as huntresses and warriors? Is it the same style of long dress we usually see? Is it the usual long-style dress, but tied in a way to improve practicality? Do we, in the present, not have this information?

The only thing I found involving farm clothing was the use of a hat for protection (petaso, I think? Also, I saw that petaso was used by both genders). I also saw that they already had a type of boot (for example, this. The boot in this image was even found among a woman's belongings) although I didn't see if it was used by farmers. Most of the other images are of men, so they doesn't answer much about women farmers.

And that's it! Sorry if it's a question you've already answered, but I searched the blog and didn't find anything related (but we know how Tumblr is when it comes to navigation sometimes, so I can't rule out the possibility that you've already answered it).

Hello! Your research was thorough and led you to accurate conclusions.

Peasant women engaging in strenuous physical activity wore shorter dresses because long dresses touching the ground could be a serious obstacle in their work. Further back before the invention of photography, a lot of Greek folk dresses were above the ankle and the shortest ones could even be almost knee-length, however women typically wore them with tall thick woolen socks. It is no surprise that such folk dresses can be observed in mountainous rural areas, in the rural northern mainland or in the rural areas in the islands, whereas urban traditional dresses or dresses from generally prosperous regions were longer. I would say however that most folk dresses were overall a little shorter than what fashion in the west dictated during the same eras. Even a typically long Greek dress sometimes is above the ankle or exposes part of the feet. This was another matter of practicality; Greece has a very rugged terrain everywhere, meaning that too long dresses would get dirty very quickly or make women trip over all the time.

Examples of short (Metaxades), standard (Tegea) and long folk (Tanagra) dresses.

A little known funny fact is that western travellers and explorers of Greece in the 18th and 19th century were often scandalised at the sight of those "short" dresses and women's ankles or shins. There are manuscripts of Western European explorers mocking those outfits or questioning the morality of the women who wore them. I remember reading one spitting fire because the women didn't even wear socks under the dress (if memory serves me correctly, it was about peasant islanders who worked in the hot weather and close to water, obviously wearing tall thick socks would be both inconvenient and torturous). Unfortunately I can't provide precise links, it was something I read about a year ago and I am not sure, but I think it was when searching info about specific dresses but I can't remember about which one it was.

Meanwhile in Greece, while staying covered was a sign of modesty and propriety, I don't think showing some skin under the knee was that big of a deal anyway. Men were certainly not fainting at the sight of a bare ankle XD As for the late 19th and the 20th century, after the invention of photography, like these images you have, it wasn't a controversial issue. Women could wear dresses above the ankle and be sockless as well if there was good reason for it. The photos you have provided are in fact from the 50s - 60s, a time when other Greek women who didn't work in the salt pans or the fields were favouring mini dresses and skirts for their night out.

The length of a dress in Modern Greece wasn't all that derived by ancient Greek fashion standards but rather common sense and similarity to other nearby nations. The similarity between Ancient and Modern Greece in this aspect is founded simply on the common need for practical outfits when working hard. I mean, modern Greek peasants did not wear shorter dresses as part of their Greek heritage but because this is what it made sense to do.

Ancient Greek female peasants did wear shorter outfits resembling the men's chitons, when their work dictated it. However, wearing short clothing was associated with being a man. A short outfit on a woman was a telling sign the woman had no choice but to work hard in the field like a man. Low class prostitutes also wore short chitons to expose themselves more and attract customers. Women who engaged in sports wore them too but only in the presence of other women. A short outfit was only chosen out of necessity and it wasn't a very respectable way to dress yourself, unless you were from Sparta, where it was more common (besides, the Spartan lifestyle was such that women exercised a lot and spent more time with other women). Young maidens in search of a husband sometimes wore shorter dresses but once a woman was married she was supposed to wear long peplos touching the ground, unless they were desperate enough to work in the fields.

As for Artemis, Atalanta and the Amazons versus Demeter and Athena: the former three had chosen a lifestyle greatly resembling a man's lifestyle. Artemis and Atalanta were what one can call "tomboys" recoiling at the prospect of marriage and they were huntresses. They are portrayed and imagined in such a way to accentuate their intent to live a life like a man's. (Atalanta did eventually get married but she was a total tomboy, participating in sports competitions with men before this.) The Amazons were warriors who had banished all men from their society, taking their place in doing all the conventionally masculine things, hence the dress code.

Demeter was a goddess comfortable in her femininity. She did not live a man's life and although she was the goddess of nature and the harvest, she did not do farmer work. She used her divine powers for anything that she needed to get done. Athena is an interesting case. Although she was a sworn virgin like Artemis and a goddess of war (what's conventionally more masculine than this, right?) her hem always touches the ground. The reason is that there is no indication Athena was not comfortable in her femininity. Like a priestess, she was a feminine virgin disinterested in lust and sexual gratification. She was dedicated to all things spiritual and intellectual; this was also her divine intervention in war. She wasn't goddess of the physicality and brutality of war like Ares was, she was the goddess of strategy, tactics and rightful defense. There wasn't tomboiness in her, only disinterest in sex. But she too had a feminine vanity in her (see Paris and the apple). Of course Athena was also the goddess of arts, sciences and all feats of the human mind. Perhaps this shows that it wasn't considered exclusively manly or masculine to be wise or intellectual. But I digress. In any case, despite their similarities and Athena's divine control over combats, Artemis had more masculine mannerisms than she did.

In short, there were three main reasons a Greek woman would wear a short dress in ancient times: rough work outside due to destitution, vulgarity or desire for a more conventionally masculine lifestyle. In modern times, it was a matter of practicality above all else. However, after 1880 I would say it was progressively becoming less and less of a deal to show skin below the knee.

Lastly, hats and shoes were not gendered garments. Boots absolutely existed in Ancient Greece, they were used when they were more convenient for certain activities than the sandals and when the weather was very cold. Hats were also practical until the Roman period, when ladies sometimes also wore fancy hats for aesthetical purposes.

#greece #europe #fashion #ancient greece #modern greece #greek culture #traditional dress #folk dress #historical fashion #babyrdie #ask

[bzhitstruth]

A little about the types of "candy"

I apologize in advance for my English - this is not my native language, I do not speak well (and maybe sometimes I speak like Master Yoda).

Recently, there has been a wave of outrage among the turtles on Tumblr, because from time to time there are malicious anti-accounts that try to devalue our fandom and “wash” candies. This pissed me off and I decided to write a post.

But now this is not about these accounts.

I want to organize (mostly for myself) candies and arguments that we all love so much and look for in every GGDD action.

I am of the opinion that many of the candies are probably really wrong, but this is very individual, and if many people are happy with candies that seem unconvincing to me, they have every right to be. I also have candies that I strongly believe in and, in my opinion, they can not be "washed".

Maybe my "organization" will help someone better understand and also determine for themselves what kind of candy are more reliable, and which ones can be "washed" over time (and are really unintentional).

And one more thing: all these my fabrications are completely fantasy and fake, I just talk about all sorts of nonsense, in reality this nothing doesn't exist! 🤡🤡🤡

There are a lot of materials in Yizhan's world, I will give only a few examples. You don't have to agree with me at all. Everyone has their favorite “candies”, if you are so interested of GG and DD that you want to follow their life and work, then on this way you will find many exciting and intriguing details that you personally will like.

1. "Numeric candy" in social networks — kadian

I like kadian very much. I won’t talk about what it means and how to use it, many already know, and who doesn’t know, there are many materials on this topic, for example, there is good post of @rainbowsky.

Before, when I first became a turtle, I counted everything that was published by GGDD, but over time I realized that this is not worth doing. It is unlikely that DD, GG or their teams bother counting the date and time numbers in each post. It's just absurd and no one busy person would do that. But I think they make sure the numbers look neutral and won't post every day 28 or 23 knowing full well what it mean.

On the other hand, I believe that the direct kadian (for example, the time 18:33 or 23:38) wasn't made by chance.

Sometimes I believe in kadian with counting numbers (for example, 1+8+5+9 = 23), and I have reasons for this - sometimes they both publish such kadian (for example, 28 and 23) on the same day, and that reduces the likelihood of coincidence.

If someone is trying to "wash" kadian, then his argument can be only one thing - "this is an accident." It is impossible to prove intentionality or unintentionality of numbers. In this case, you'd better just decide for yourself whether you believe it's an accidentally or not. Look at the type of post with kadian (it is most less likely in advertising and it absents in posts on social and political topics), what circumstances preceded it and what happened after it. And if you understand for yourself that in this case it is quite appropriate, then no "washing" is valid here - kadian, by definition, cannot be "washed", it's just a matter of probability and faith.

I will give a little example, when the kadian in the ad looked suspicious, and I am inclined to believe in it - this is the time of the publication of GG's advertisement at 10:18 on March 26, 2023. Yes, this is just an advertisement that GG constantly publishes in the morning. But firstly, the timestamp :18 is completely atypical for him, secondly, he knows perfectly well what it means and what kind of reaction may follow, and thirdly, the accompanying circumstances. This post appeared on the morning after the ambiguous Weibo Night, they were in the same city, and in the morning GG was leaving, and bad rumors and gossip spread immediately after the event. I personally believe in this kadian, because for me the circumstances are convincing, but in each specific case, everyone decides for himself.

This category also includes GG's posts of 18 (actually 33) or 12 (actually 28) photos with which he periodically pleases us, 18 photos, including 8 “movie tickets” from GG. It is impossible to prove whether this is a coincidence or not. Look at the likelihood and yourself decide. I believe in this kadian.

2. "Numeric candy" (kadian) that GG and DD demonstrate personally

These are the hands and numbers on watches, the numbers on the sleeves, above the head, spoken verbally personally by GG and DD etc.

I noticed this most often with DD: the numbers 31 and 5 on DD's jacket before GG's birthday, 21:33 on the clock above DD's head in Los Angeles, 32-33 on DD's sleeve on June 21, “2nd row 30th place, 3rd row 20th place” at a fan meeting in Qingdao, and the like.

As for the GG, he has an episode in the vlog on February 7, when someone stops the radio dial at numbers 8 and 3. Although GG himself is not in the frame at that time, this is still his vlog, and it seemed remarkable to me. GG makes it more elegant and not so obvious (the picture can be enlarged).

Can it be "washed"? Some of this, of course, can be controversial and it can be explained as coincidence. For example, a clock display in LA could show a random time. Or DD not chosen the clothes with numbers by himself, but the brand insisted on this (I believe that this is DD's choice).

But how do you "wash" what DD said personally twice at the fan meeting if he and the whole world know perfectly well what those numbers are? If the anti's claim that he "disapproves bjyx" were true, then this just could never happen.

And Y.-Off. posted on Instagram that photo from LA with 21:33, and in fact they could easily not have done this, but they did.

3. Specific things that are pretty obvious

One example of such things is the glowing BJYX sign posted on Weibo by DD's team on October 29, from the final of SDC5. This photo was placed in the very center, and the light sign could be easily cut off or simply erased, and a million photos were taken at the final, but this was chosen. Try to explain why the person who allegedly "disapproves bjyx" did this. This is the very reliable and loud candy.

The same category includes DD's “sneakers and ice cream”, “give the scorpions to WB” (GG's food vlog in Qindao), UGG shoes in GG's vlog June, 7, the text “heart with a mole” in DD's Weibo post on April 26, 2023, and the like.

Something can be "washed", for example famous GG's "rainbow" umbrella, which many considered as such for a couple of years, turned out to be black, we had seen this in his recent July vlog.

You can try to “wash” UGG, refer to the fact that DD was not yet a brand spokesperson when the vlog was filmed. But going back to the previous point - GG KNOWS who the brand ambassador is now, he KNOWS how it will be perceived, other things in the room are blurred and hidden but shoes are on display. It is unlikely that he and his studio did this publication in a state of clouding of mind.

4. Very subjective things that are perceived emotionally and awaken the imagination

These are meaningful words in the songs, the “wedding” outfit on Weibo Night, mention of lychee and camping, a certain arrangement of photos, GG's photo with the dog, DD's T-shirt with the dog. Where DD looked and how smiled, how GG greeted DD's colleague in a special way, images and allegories that GG shows in vlogs and uses in interviews. Jaw and finger DDGG (which pops up again and again and haunts turtles! I'm agnostic about this "candy"). GG's drawings, DD's dances, "I'm out of the habit of spicy food", voices of GG and DD behind the scenes, birthday greetings to DD, sunset, moon and so on.

And our favorite bone necklace also falls into this category, because no one knows exactly where it comes from and what it really means for DD. We can only believe or not believe.

This is the most vulnerable category due to its extreme subjectivity. This is purely a matter of faith and individual perception.

Sometimes such candy are "washed" by GG or DD themselves. If you remember, in November 2022 GG posted several photos, and among them one with incomprehensible blurry red-blue stripes. Many have decided that this is blurred photo of Lego "Titanic", which GG bought for DD. But in the December vlog, GG showed that those were streetlights that he filmed from the car. He sometimes advises us to hold our horses.

I really love things of this kind, I like to look for strokes in the drawings and peer into the photos of GG, guess what this or that emotion can mean, and what DD wanted to say with his dance. GG especially likes to make such riddles, his vlogs are special works of art, I always really look forward to them and find a lot of secrets in them.

It is very difficult to confirm these things. It is unlikely that GG will ever come forward and say what he really meant by drawing two boys on the beach … But I hope at least a small part of this will someday be clearer. Let it be so.

5. Timing of actions

After a long silence on social networks, the posts of both appear one after another. Or after a suspicious period of time - for example, after 13 or 85 minutes, or after 3 hours and 28 minutes. Same posts style. Simultaneous arrival in Beijing after the Hong Kong concert, supposedly from different cities. IP addresses from the same location. The gestures that DD made at the "water show" on July 10, GG shows us the next day in his vlog.

The simultaneous disappearance of both from the field of vision (August 4, 2023), GG being late for work during the DD's illness. This can be “washed” if you prove, for example, that there were definitely other reasons for being late or absence.

An example of such "washed candy" - many thought that GGDD were together on DD's birthday in 2022, but later it turned out that this wasn't.

6. Clothes

I put this in the separate category, because this section is quite large. These are fun candies that many turtles love (myself included). We've already lost count of the same brands that GG and DD wear. It is difficult to "wash" such candy, because that they both wore We11done, Alexander McQueen or Maison Kitsune is a fact. This is observed very often, and sometimes things of the same brand appear after a short period of time.

If I'm not mistaken, once was counted about a hundred matches in GGDD clothes (now there are probably more), and it was noticed that DD's employees used things those brands are represented by GG and on the contrary.

7. Acquaintances, colleagues and friends

These are a few people who sometimes hint to us that they know something. This is “Uncle Lan”, other CQL colleagues, DDU brothers, songwriter and her comics, colleagues from the industry, I won’t tell names, they are known among the turtles.

Sometimes their hints are quite transparent, and we are always happy to see that GG and DD are supported by other people in their circle.

To refute it is the same as to assert that all these people have conspired and are fooling us for some reason for years. Agree that this is absurd!

In addition to all this, beyond any categories, we have BTS of CQL, Rumor Houses and BottledJoy. There's been a real circus going on with BottledJoy lately, so it will be very interesting to see where this all leads, and it's a very funny to watch them performances.

Perhaps I forgot something important and didn't mention some categories, because there are too many materials regarding Yizhan. And this is great, because even if a few candies are "washed off", we will not lose anything, we always have many others!

And no antis can cope so much evidence that we believe in and that tells (and sometimes just screams) to us, that BJYXSZD💚❤️.

#bjyxszd #yizhan #cpn #bjyx #just imagination #GGDD my love #yizhan forever

[argentsunshine]

hey not doubting you at all, but do you have any specific proof that points to matpat being a plagiarist?

augh i had a whole thing typed up and Tumblr ate it

short version: there's been a lot of allegations for years. the hermitcraft one seems pretty cut and dry to me. he has also just stolen theories from the source material itself - when he made a theory on a series i shan't name, his whole theory was something explicitly canon in the books, and he doesn't acknowledge that once.

now for my own personal evidence. i consider this less "proof" and more "occam's razor says plagiarism, and the other explanation is that he's incredibly dumb". under cut because it involves fma and chemistry neither of which i can shut up about

so, here's the video in question:

I'd use more screenshots to prove my point here, but apparently game theory can't afford captions, so I'll just explain the old fashioned way.

Matthew is trying to prove that the Elric's formula for a human (water 35 liters, carbon 20kg, etc) is incorrect (ie. does not have the right elements in the right proportions to make a human.)

to do this, he has to convert the several compounds (water, ammonia, lime, salt, and saltpeter) into elemental masses.

first, he divides each element by its molar mass. so for water, that's 35,000g/(18g/mol)=1,942mol. this is correct. don't get used to it.

so saying you have a "mole" of something is kind of like saying you have a "dozen" of it - you know if someone has 2 dozen eggs, then they have 2x12=24 eggs, because a dozen means 12. moles are like that, except instead of 12 it's 6.023x10²³. so the moles we just calculated is the number of molecules of water that are in 35L - 1,942mol converts to ~1.17x10²⁷ molecules.

this next bit is where matthew goofs it. he says that to get from the number of water molecules to the number of oxygen atoms, you multiply the number of molecules by the percent of the weight of the water that is oxygen, so about 89%. i hope you can see why this is incorrect. (if you can't: each water molecule has one oxygen atom in it, so the number of oxygen atoms in the water is the same as the number of molecules of water, not 89% of it.) he then uses these incorrect figures to calculate the elemental masses. these are his final masses (which, for some reason, he doesn't show clearly):

but after a few jokes, he shows this table comparing the fma numbers to reality:

ignoring that the top ones are in g and the bottom in kg, you can see that he only gets the same numbers if he didn't have to do any conversion. somehow, hydrogen goes from just under 700g to 4.5kg. he doesn't explain why the numbers changed or where the new ones came from.

so, i did the maths myself (here's the full spreadsheet if you want to check my work):

(you'll note my "matpat mass" doesn't match either set. i was doing what he said he did in the video. i have no idea what else he did to get some of his numbers. i think the hydrogen one might be because he added the correct mass from ammonia to his incorrect water mass? the oxygen i have no idea because. matthew how is there less than 3kg of oxygen in 35kg of water, even ignoring the other oxygen containing compounds)

now some of my numbers are a bit off because of rounding errors, but you'll see that my numbers agree pretty well with the wikipedia-looking chart. this is because i, unlike matpat, understand how to do chemistry calculations that they teach to babies (fourteen year olds). but the change in Matthew's numbers from two points thirty seconds apart in the video raises the question of where the hell he got them from. way i see it, there are two explanations:

1. matthew did realise he'd explained everything wrong and his maths was off, but decided to publish the video without correcting his explanation or his first set of numbers anywhere;

2. matthew stole these numbers from somewhere else, where they'd been calculated by someone who understands chemistry 101, and couldn't even understand the chemistry well enough to replicate their results.

why bother saying all of this if it proves nothing? i need you to understand that i was in chemistry for babies when this video came out, and deep in the weeds of my fma hyperfix and my chem hyperfix. this has bothered me for a full third of my life. this isn't an explanation it's an exorcism

#chemistry #matpat #game theory #film theory

[thisloveforyourmom]

SMITH COLLEGE GIRLS FOR ID MAGAZINE 2004 2003

OKAY SO.

the reason this took so long is because i'm compiling all info from previous posts into a masterpost, but tldr back in february i, being a smith alumn, set out on a quest to confirm the veracity of Smith College Girls for ID Magazine 2004. here's how it went:

- Image ID: anonymous user asks sun-bees 'hey, if it’s okay to ask, where did you find that pic of the Smith College girls?’ sun-bees responds 'it was posted a while ago on the instagram account junyawannabe, so I looked up the image and found a bigger version of it!'

this image is not on junyawannabe’s instagram. reverse image searching this image does not provide a bigger version of it, only the version spread initially by tumblr user sun-bees. searching 'smith college girls for ID magazine 2004’ does not provide any other versions of it, only the version spread initially by tumblr user sun-bees. neither junyawannabe nor sun-bees reply to queries about the topic. in fact it’s unclear if junyawannabe even is involved. I-D magazine’s media has no record of this photoshoot ever being done.

literally DAYS into my initial investigation, on february, richard kern posts the full (ETA: NOT FULL!) photoshoot on his instagram, confirming both the image’s veracity and source. junyawannabe comments “I have gotten multiple emails about this photo lmao” (no other information) (she did not reply to our email). comments are limited (randos can’t comment). there's still 0 information as to how sun-bees got this image considering the listed avenues Do Not Work. this allows us to get some info on the casting director eléonore hendricks, but her website lists nothing about this photoshoot or anything in that general date range. at this point i've also trawled editions of ID magazine from 2004 to try and find any that reference richard kern, smith college, eleonore, etc and come up utterly completely empty. i would have to buy all 12 copies from ebay to try and find it, and these are just too expensive for all that.

important: richard kern ALSO refers to it as 'smith college girls for id magazine 2004.' an insta comment also implies the existence of sarah lawrence girls for id magazine 2006, but that's neither here nor there

trail goes cold for a while. ive exhausted all my leads and am too broke for much more.

BUT THEN, IN AUGUST: i-d magazine ITSELF picks up the trend!

This provides one EXTREMELY important piece of information that everyone up until now had excluded: the issue number! smith college girls for ID magazine was a photoshoot for their August 2003 issue, The Straight Up Issue. which means the reason the trail went so cold is because we were looking in the wrong spot!

Smith College Girls for ID Magazine 2004 is actually Smith College Girls for ID Magazine 2003!

and there was a copy on ebay for 30 GPB. So i bought it. while i was waiting, eleonore hendricks also posted it, tagging a few people involved in the shoot, but ultimately it's not much new info.

photoshoot here.

disclaimer: there's eight portraits in the photoshoot. only 7 have been revealed and i won't be posting number 8. i'm not trying to gatekeep, it's just a frontal photo of the casting director wearing only panties and yes it's artistic and pretty but i figure if that was the kind of thing she'd wanted to publicize heavily she or richard kern would have posted it themselves. you don't always agree with the choices you made at 21 and you don't always make them assuming in 20 years the photo will go a type of viral that doesn't exist yet.

also it goes against tumblr TOS. buy the magazine if you wanna see it that bad, i'll show you everything surrounding the photo itself. im not posting the titties.

#smith college girls for id magazine 2003 #smith college girls for id magazine 2004

[naryrising]

Hi there! I'm sorry if you've answered this before, but how did you get involved volunteering with AO3, and what's it like? I'm a current MLIS student and it's something I'm interested in doing in the future. Love your blog!!

I got involved in volunteering with AO3 in 2010, when you could get involved by saying "Hi, I'm interested in helping out" to the people you probably already knew from other fandom spaces, and they would give you some work to do. It was much a smaller team then and there was enough of everything to do that basically anyone who wanted to help out could do what they felt like working on. So I can't really recommend my way of getting involved, as it doesn't exist anymore.

But if you do want to get involved, keep an eye on when recruitment opens up for various teams. This will always be posted in multiple places: the news page, AO3's official twitter and tumblr accounts, and the Transformative Works volunteer page. Pick whichever one appeals to you/is easiest for you to keep up with, and keep watch on that. Pretty much every month there will be some team that's recruiting (other than in December, we don't recruit in December). Some large teams (like tag wrangling and translation) typically recruit about 3 to 4 times a year, but they often have specific things they're looking for, such as particular language skills, familiarity with specific fandoms, etc. Smaller teams may only recruit once a year.

If you see a position you would be interested in, jump on it and apply quickly. Applications are almost always capped (for instance, will close after 50 applications are received, or whatever number the committee is able to review), so if you take a few days to think about it, you may miss your chance.

The first secret I'll tell you is, once you're involved, it's much easier to find other ways to be involved. So if you really want to be, idk, on the Open Doors team, but they aren't currently recruiting or you don't manage to apply in time, try applying for Support. If you want to do graphic design but what's open is tag wrangling, apply for tag wrangling. Now, I'm not suggesting you apply for something just because you want to jump ship to another team as soon as possible, or for something you're going to dislike doing - that will just make people annoyed, and won't be a good experience for you either. But what I mean is, internal movement around various committees can happen much more easily than external recruitment, and often outside of regular recruitment rounds. For my part, the Support team recruits externally once a year, usually in spring, but if someone who's already gone through training as a tag wrangler and has been successfully doing that for a few months comes and talks to me about their interest in also trying Support, I'll likely be willing to take them on outside of regular recruitment season. Familiarity with one team's processes and procedures helps make you a better deal for another team, if you've already proven you can do the type of work we do, and other chairs are willing to vouch for your reliability/enthusiasm/ability to get along with others.

The second secret I'll tell you is that the most important characteristic for a volunteer, and the most impossible to train for, is time/energy/willingness to sit down and do the (sometimes unfun, often unrecognized and unrewarded) work. In my position as Support chair, I can look for people who have, say, previous tech support experience, and that's great, they probably have useful knowledge they would bring to the role. But knowing whether they have the right temperament to do a part-time job without extrinsic motivation (no pay; no boss standing over your shoulder to make you work) is more important. I can teach people the technical knowledge they need to have. I can't give more time, motivation, or energy to someone who doesn't have the personal headspace necessary to come home after work/school and sit down and do more work. So if you are interviewing for a volunteer position, the thing you most need to convince them on is your willingness and enthusiasm to do the work. Some things I look for include: does the person reply promptly to emails? Do they follow instructions well? Do they show up on time for interviews/training, or do they communicate with me if they need to reschedule to another time? Do they complete requested tasks in the requested time? All of those tend to be promising signs that someone is likely enthusiastic and responsible enough for a position like this.

#nary speaks

[lefluoritesys]

Hi! Random question but what's the funniest/most awkward situation you have ever been in with a headmate/headmates? Also, I love your Tumblr. It helps us through a lot of system denial :)

Thank you so much!! We're glad to hear that, we try our best to make it a safe and positive space!!

I don't think we have stories that people would count as incredibly funny, however, we have a few that stand out to us as at least amusing, lmao. And awkward... don't even get me started.

I (co-host) keep texting people trying to make friends, and don't ask nor tell anybody. And then I just dip. I think it's a pretty effective strategy. :D

The amount of times somebody told us something that we know we would have memorized by hard. Like when we're supposed to have our lessons. And then we'd switch, be asked about it, and don't know the answer as to what that thing was. It puts us in such awkward situations IRL cause of our parents.-

Today, remember the couple that went on a date? One of them had to front to take our sibling to their classes, and they were sulking, so our co-host & persecutor-caretaker had to keep their composure when their partner, from the inner world, said our sibling looks like an offended ostrich.

We got berated for eating the host's chips. We now have a policy about eating chips. Because people ate their bag of chips...

One of the funniest stories were probably with one of our alters who went mostly inner now, though. They once purchased a premium on an app we use a lot without telling anybody, and at the time, we could buy a whole McDonald's meal for that amount of money. Then, we put them in charge of English classes, and they were definitely working, but their way of working was roasting everything and cracking some of the most hilarious jokes we've ever heard. That same alter then offered our mother cyanide.

Some of the things we say are so fucking funny that we made a quote book. For ourselves. And our partner systems. There, we not only have hilarious quotes, but some of the funniest roasts we've ever seen, one of our favorites being:

Host: It's kinda funny how I can do everything alone at front, and y'all have to do it collectively when I'm not around.

Co-host: Nah, we're just healthy.

Our co-host sprained our foot. And called the bandage on it "foot prison." I am not elaborating on their behalf. /laughing

In the inner world, we have this thing where we can track people and where they are at that point in time (especially our robots can do that), and sometimes people decide to play tag. And since our inner world is our inner world, what we basically see is a dot (that represents a person you're watching) telelporting from point A to point B to point E in a matter of seconds. Which doesn't sound funny, but picture it, lmao.

The number of posts we made that were purely targeting each other is insane. And you will never know that they are targeted unless we say something, we are sneaky like that.

At some point some people in the inner world discussed fucking Jesus?? And I mean doing the deed, not the "fucking Jesus." We still have no idea who or why.

And then another two people, whose names we know, discussed our partner system's semi-sentient hotel and what its type would be. In detail. And who they could pair it up with.

Our host is still salty at one of our prosecutors because they bought them cocoa instead of coffee, didn't tell them, and our host couldn't figure our why the coffee was sweet but tasted well, considering we hate coffee with sugar. And then they realized.

Our host address purple so much that now all of us gotta keep up with the idea what "we, a singlet, definitely a singlet (/s), love purple so much" because explaining to our bio family that we don't like it anymore but we also do but also don't would be too difficult for a number of reasons.

One of us can just decide that it's chicken nuggets day, and we will have chicken nuggets for lunch. Not because we don't want to upset this somebody by refusing but because we'd literally switch on the streets halfway to chicken nuggets, stare at the distance for a couple of seconds, and accept our fate.

We generally talk to ourselves in public constantly, we have no shame about that, especially since it's mostly in English, which is not our first language. That got us a lot of looks. We also do that in VCs with our partner system, and we openly switch in front of them and talk about inner world shit.

Hope that gave you a few laughs. /g /pos

-host, co-host & persecutor-caretaker, sexual persecutor

#did system #did #osdd #osdd system #dissociative identity disorder #system #other specified dissociative disorder #did osdd #system stuff #system things #osdd 1a #osdd 1b #complex dissociative identity disorder #cdid system #cdid #did stories #did positivity #osdd positivity #system positivity #plural positivity

[inkrabbit]

Hello!

First I'd like to say that I love your writing! Also I'm still a bit new to Tumblr so please forgive me if I'm doing this wrong or don't explain something well lmao.

I was wondering if it would be possible to do headcannons on how any of the Papas would react to finding out their s/o is incredibly strong? And they can pick their Papa up and carry them around with no problem? I imagined that and thought it was hilarious :D

Thank you and please feel free to ignore this if it is confusing or overwhelming at all <3

you're so sweet omg ty <3333 but bb don't you even apologize. so long as anything is within my rule set, anything goes. requests can literally be like Primo x reader and I would be fine with that xD

hcs below the cut. if anyone's wondering, I'm keeping Rob Zombie's version of Michael Myers in mind as a sort of "base". and, as always, it's GN

Primo:

he's surprised at first

like really surprised

he knows the ghouls are pretty strong, but someone who had originally started out as a sibling??? it catches him off guard

bonus points if you worked under him and one day just casually show off your strength

mans has never been so confused in his life

but you know what? he absolutely loves it

his ghouls get a little jealous since he starts asking you for extra help with anything

but he's also gonna worry about you

"Girasole, are you sure you're not straining yourself? You know you need to take breaks."

pls don't pick him up. he might not like to admit that he's old, but he's decently frail and he's a little scared of heights

Secondo:

he knew something was up when you didn't back down from one of his ghouls that was getting a little snippy with him

and it may or may not have turned him on watching you quite literally throw said ghoul across the church

"Minga! I knew you were the one when I laid my eyes on you, uccello canoro."

starts calling you "mia guerriera/mio guerriero" which just means "my warrior"

but pls don't try picking him up around people

or doing anything to even hint that he's weaker than you (even tho we all know he is)

he still likes to appear as though he's "top dog"

100% changes behind closed doors tho

he turns into such a sap in your hands, and when he's feeling extra stressed, he'll happily let you lead

he trusts you, with both his mind and body. and he especially trusts you know how to keep your strength in check

Terzo:

"MY S/O CAN BEAT UP YOUR S/O!"

often gushes about you to anyone who's unfortunate enough to be within earshot

and he won't shut his mouth, even if you pay him

has his absolute favorite stories about you showcasing your strength

but don't let his enthusiasm about everything fool you. he is a little weary around you

sure, he trusts you. but it's not 100% and he unintentionally walks on eggshells around you

"I'd rather take a fall on stage any day than fight you, amore."

he still spoils you with whatever you want, even if you don't want him to go through all the trouble. he's just that type of lover

if you train/spar, know full well he's gonna be your personal cheerleader. you might make him a little hesitant, but you're still his number 1, and he's gonna remind you that

congratulations, you're also one of his bodyguards whenever he goes out. and it's totally not an excuse to spend all of his time with you

Cardinal Copia:

have you always been this strong??? was he blind???

Lucifer below, he doesn't remember you being able to pick everything up like it was nothing before you two started dating

okay, yeah. it's hot to him. but he's too embarrassed to say anything

who wouldn't want you? you literally make him feel so safe, like nothing could ever hurt him

well... whenever you're not zoning out

Copia's a naturally shy guy, maybe a little too pampered growing up. but he's seen the horrors of the world and of people. he's scared you're only dating him out of pity, or simply you'll simply just one day and snap and show him how strong you really are

don't be offended, but he's also hesitant to let you hold his rats

not many people like them. it's fine, but he's just being extra careful. they're like his children they are

still makes all the time in the world to be with you tho, and he showers you in affection

and it's not just to stay on your "good side". he's just a naturally loving man, and he's gonna make sure you get all of his love second (Sister Imperator comes first)

Papa Emeritus IV/Popia:

any worry he had about you? gone. doesn't exist anymore erased like his older brothers

brings you everywhere with him and shows you off, especially during rituals because, yes, you're either gonna be off to the side of the stage, or down on the ground in front

and expect him to trot on over while he's singing to interact with you

has he cirice'd you during a ritual before? yes he has. does he plan on doing it again? 100% and you can't stop him. he loves telling stories about how "Papa cirice'd the strongest person in the abbey and got away with it"

feels safest when he's with you, especially if you're holding him

pls give his forehead a little kiss. he loves having you pick him up while he's on stage just to show off, but he also craves gentle affection

"Ah, not even my own ghouls give me a sense of security like you do, mio roccio/mia roccia!"

he doesn't look at just your physical strength, but also taps into your mentality

and you're also the first person he goes to whenever he's worried about something

all he'll want is to lay in bed with you, cuddle with you and his rats and talk about anything that comes to mind. nothing else matters

Papa Nihil:

gives you increasingly heavier things to see what your limit is

is a bit scared when nothing bothers you and you're lifting everything up like it's a feather

nearly had a heart attack when you lifted him up as a joke

saw his life flash before his eyes and cowered behind his ghouls for a bit

dw he's fine. he's just being the drama queen that he is

congratulations, you now get all of the heavy-lifting jobs, especially the ones he doesn't feel like doing

he's praising you all the way tho, very supportive

"I know I can be a little... overzealous, especially on stage. But you, mio piccolo diavolo/mia piccola diavola, will always be the one I want."

give the idiot a chance. and then a couple more after that. he's a little dense and lives in the moment, but he's trying his best... and he might like being able to gloat that his S/O could probably lift a train

you'll never know it, but several songs he's written (and eventually scrapped) were all about you and how amazing you are. there was only 1 that ever mentioned your strength

#request #papa emeritus i #primo #papa emeritus ii #secondo #papa emeritus iii #terzo #cardinal copia #copia #papa emeritus iv #papa nihil #headcanons #hcs #gn!reader

[pelicantoes]

I just have to rant about Bakudeku. And since I have nobody who could possible, hypothetically, magnanimously understand (if you're pissed off about my misuse of those words, good) in my own admittedly very small inner circle I am forced to resort to this hellhole tumblr, so thank you for bearing with me. Because this is gonna be a wild fucking ride about my stupid obsession and deep feelings about Bakudeku, because it's fucking 12pm and I'm sleep-deprived, and almost on my period, and entirely too emotional and I have just read the most heartwrenching fanfics about those two, and I WILL make it everyone's problems because I'm OBSESSED.

Okay so, it's just the fucking rivalry, those two idiots have been through so much. And Bakugou is an absolute toxic bitch to Deku at first, but it's about the reasons behind it that make it work. The fucking inferiority complex towards someone who is quirkless, towards someone who should be lesser than him, who he knows is lesser than him, and somehow for some fucking reason he feels threatened. This kid wirh his helpful nature and his caring and compassion and always being so bright and optimistic. Bakugou loathes it because he can handle himself, but he can't handle the idea of someone being so kind in a world that is out to get him and that disadvantages and is even hostile to him at every single turn. Somebody whose literal dreams got crushed at the age of 4. He doesn't get it, Deku should be a depressed, cowering loser, but he isn't. He's bright and good. And Bakugou can't fathom it, he wants to crush him.

And then they get to ua and Deku has this crazy quirk and he feels lied to. And he must wonder why Deku would keep such a thing hidden for so long, why would he subject himself to the horror of growing quirkless when he might very well be more powerful. How could he let somebody like Bakugou hurt and belittle him when he had the power to dominate him all along. And I think it's jarring for him, because he probably sees the world as a place where the strongest survive, the strongest rule. And Midoriya hiding such a thing from him wouldn't make any sense at all eith that worldview, because naturally Deku would have wielded this power to gain more control over others, just like he did. And I think it added another dimension, because Deku isn't only kind because he's quirkless and therefore would need something going for him, he actively chose to remain kind that entire time. Despite the amount of control he could have had.

It's like Midoriya is a living embodiment of everything Bakugou does not understand due to how he's raised and that scares him, so he obsesses over him. In the same way Midoriya sees Bakugou as the ideal to beat. He has always looked up to Bakugou and his quirk and his power. It's a result of seeing him praised ever since he was a young kid. And Midoriya's obsession stems from the fact that he wants to be better than Bakugou. It's telling to me that it's Bakugou he wants to beat, not Allmight. Bakugou wants to beat Allmight, he wants to be the best, but Midoriya wants to beat the person he's always idealized and seen as the best, up close and personal. The best in his generation, not the current number 1 hero who will have retired by the time they're proheroes.

Ans there's just always this push and pull between them, they are always áware of the other's movements. They unlock in eachother a type of vulnerability that neither of them have with any of the characters, a kind of bond I have not often seen in any media. It's so raw and unfltered, it's wanting to beat the other, proving to the world they're the best, but it's also deeply intimate. Even though they would fight and taunt and jab at eachother, they trust eachother, they rely on eachother to keep them going. They would feel lost without the other, it's like they're eachother's motivation to improve, but most importantly to live. I think their bond runs so deep that their life might loose all meaning if the other dies. It's how Bakugou grows from hate to begrudging respect, and Midoriya from being a push-over to valuing himself and getting better self-esteem, and finally getting to equal footing where they hurt and fight eachother, but it underlies the knowledge that they're equal, nothing they can do will truly take the other down. The push and pull. There's mutual respect, and trust and intimacy, they know eachother more than anyone. They're both so intense, and somehow they managed to find their match in terms of intensity from such a young age that this strange bond could blossom. It just took time to put them on equal footing so they could actually provide eachother with the intensity they crave so badly. Midoriya had the resolve and the stubbornness, but none of the brawn needed to provide an actual challenge to Bakugou, to be someone he could let loose with. Bakugou had too much pride and too much ego, to ever willingly give himself up for someone else, especially not for Midorya. Until the tables flipped, until Midoriya got his quirk, and he understands Bakugou more than anyone. And Bakugou realizes Midoriya is no longer that crybaby kid he could beat up whenever he wanted and their relationship just changed so much, to the point that Bakugou willingly put himself in harm's way for Midoriya.

It's just such a compelling and complex dynamic and I get teary-eyed whenever I find fanfic that perfectly captures their bond, because it's such a powerful and profound thing and I'm absolutely astounded that I would grow to like this ship so much. It's not even like I necessarily ship it romantically, it's like they can't live without the other, and it feels undefinable by romantic or platonic labels. It's like in an entirely different category. And fuck I am so invested in those two, but ugh just Them.

#bakudeku #bakugou #deku #I hope this made sense #i just #I love them #and their bond is fucking weird #and I love it #the intricacies #the coming together of two characters so complex #and their relationship being a hallmark for their development #bakugou wouldn't have come half as far mentally without Deku #my hero academia #also I will not apologize for the misuse of thise words #because I'm in a mood #and I don't care if magnanimous foesn't fit #i'm being dramatic #let me be annoying #thank you for your understanding

[qqueenofhades]

Slightly weird question ahead. Obviously the slave trade involvement is very important to Hob's character for a number of reasons. However, do you think in a different situation, say, if hitting rock bottom 1689 hadn't happened, would he pass on that opportunity?

I'm trying to think out the repercussions of an alternate universe where it's public knowledge that the Endless are a thing and for whatever reason they decided Hob isn't going to die therefore no witch drowning, losing everything plot. But would that necessarily mean he would decide not to get involved in the slave trade? And if I go that way, is it just trying to sanitize 'the blorbo', so to speak?

Thanks for any time to you take to answer that one. I've come to see you as the Hob expert, aside from Neil Gaiman.

Aha, thank you, but I hasten to stress that I am in no way an expert. I have read many Gaiman books and watched other entries in the NGCU (Lucifer, Good Omens, etc) but my first exposure to Sandman came when I watched the show about two months ago. All my comics knowledge that could be described as remotely detailed comes either from my Sandman-loving friend, the Sandman wiki, or what I pick up on Tumblr by osmosis. So while I have a lot of thoughts on Hob due to the type of character he is and the type of person I am (i.e. a historian), that doesn't make me some stand-in Voice of God and my opinions are, of course, just my opinions. However, I'm flattered that you trust my interpretations and want to hear more of them.

My view is thus: it's not an absolute necessity that Hob participates in the slave trade, and AUs where his life goes differently after the 1689 meeting/before the 1789 meeting, and therefore makes different choices, are entirely valid. However, because this is canonically something that he regrets up until the present day, and which is a huge driver of his transition from a cheerful and optimistic but often selfish and shallow guy, to someone who is really cognizant of the costs of his immortality and how the choices he makes affect other people and the privilege which he experiences by virtue of his gender and background (i.e. a white or white-adjacent Englishman). That comes to mean different things as the centuries go on, and while AUs/canon reworkings are always valid territory for fanworks, I would ask if your only motive in doing so is to absolve Hob of participation in the slave trade because it makes him more morally "good" as a character, or because it's a way to personally "redeem" him or not have to deal with that aspect as much. In which case, I would gently suggest that you think a little more about why, and come up with a rationale that still incorporates some of those character beats/major mistakes/moral reckonings.

In other words: it's totally fine to write Hob's life proceeding differently from 1689, but because this is such a huge part of who he is and how he as a character represents both humanity's strengths and flaws, it still needs to be treated appropriately and thoughtfully, and not just conveniently removed to make it more morally sanitized or the character less implicated in terms of what that participation means and what he has to reckon with. So yeah, if you want to write an AU where he doesn't participate in the slave trade, that's fine, but also be careful of how you're writing it and whether you're just erasing it because it seems "easier" in some way. That, at least, is my thought.

#anonymous #ask #hob gadling

[shinxistudio]

Studio Thoughts 2024MAR01

I've been thinking a lot since first finding out about the MidJourney deal Tumblr is taking. I've been wanting to make this post for just as long. (This sounds ominous, but it's not.) (Cut for a giant wall of text. Massive rambling.)

I don't know what to do. I've made an infinite number of new accounts across all the different social media I can find. I had to make a sheet to keep track of all the different websites I've joined. The thought of trying to post and maintain 20 accounts minimum to cover myself depending on where people flee to is overwhelming. I'm already averse to updating the accounts I have now. It takes too damn long as it is. (I need to set up PostyBird for the love of god. It doesn't work on a lot of mainstream sites, though.)

I want to share my art, but I don't want that to mean that I'm giving up my rights to it so some fuck can shove it into his dataset to create images and act like they're superior to something made by a real human and the human experience. I've opted out of the 3rd-party sharing option that they gave us, but I know that doesn't mean anything without proof. If they were giving data over that they shouldn't have from private conversations and password-locked blogs, they're not going to give a shit if someone toggled a setting. The whole issue with these datasets is the lack of consent to begin with, so why would they stop Now. I don't even know why they plan to pay Tumblr for the data in the first place because how much of it has already been scraped before they decided to tie it up in a bow for them?

I hate that people just parrot "Nightshade and Glaze!!" as if they're not open-source software that the tech bros can reverse engineer with the available coding. (As well as being easy to remove/get around in the first place.) Not to mention the stupid amount of processing power to use them, if they even work on the type of art you're putting into it in the first place. Even if they worked for your art, they're not accessible to everyone. That's not fair to artists who don't have or can't afford the highest-end PC parts. And even if they Worked to prevent AI it would only be a matter of time before they Didn't, like the constant fight UBlock is having with blocking YouTube's new coding to prevent ad blockers.

I'm just tired. I'm tired of feeling that the modern internet hellscape is just not meant for artists because the algorithms expect you to post as much as possible in order to get seen. I'm tired of artists finding a place to settle only to feel the need to move again and again because they just want their work and themselves to be respected. I miss old DeviantART when it was still a giant hub and community for artists instead of the shell it is today. I still see a lot of people still posting when I check in every now and then.

I don't know what the answer is, because I know data scraping for generative models isn't going away. I can only hope that it cannibalizes itself into hot garbage by taking in generated images that weren't tagged as AI. I would love it if all the wild shit people post on here could make the dataset completely unusable.

At the moment it looks like the only thing I can do is continue to watermark my art heavily and post low-quality versions. I've never had a large enough following to worry about art theft, but I can't control an all-consuming bot scraping everything.

I've been toying with the idea of making my own website and it's seeming more and more appealing. I've seen that you can make your own Patreon-adjacent subscription setup and have a pay-to-access feature. I don't know if that could help prevent scraping or if there are methods to get around that, too. Can bots scrape Patreon itself?

I'll need to update my LinkTree with all the other hundreds of sites that I'm on I guess. I was hoping that this long-ass post would help me come to some sort of conclusion or peace. I think I just gave myself more work to do. I also feel bad that my only other text post here is so hopeful, only to be slapped down immediately in this one.

TLDR: I'm gonna keep posting but like, I'm Not Gonna Like It. MidJourney Sucks. Tech Bros Suck. Ya'll can eat my entire ass.

#shinxispeaks

[olderpeople-supremacy]

romantic patrick jane w gender neutral reader, friends to lovers?? i don't really have a specific plot in mind, i just know im desperate for him 😭😭/nonsexual

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Explosion

Patrick Jane or as many called him Jane, was a mystery to everyone, but you. You knew the man like the back of your hand.

He was clever, charismatic and a flirt. He flirted with many people, be it because he was bored and liked to see people get flustered, because he wanted to read and understand them more or simply because he was interested in them. Even though the last one wasn't very common, it happened once in a while. Especially with CBI Agent Teresa Lisbon.

Now you couldn't blame Teresa, she has been nothing but an angel, but the big little green monster visited you everything he was a bit to friendly with her. For example now.

You were called to a crime scene, as normal, but this time it was a very brutal murderer, a young girl barely 19 years old, was hanging from the wall, bound by the wrists and ankles, a sack over her head and tape placed over the ends of the plastic bag, making sure the girl can't breathe. Her body littered in bruises and marks, as well as a tiny white spot next to her underwear.

It took you as suprise that your best friend and boss were arriving together, especially dressed like this. She in high heels and a rather fine outfit and he in one of his usual suits. It took every ounce of self control to not ask about their appearance, or why they were arriving together and it took everything I you to not grab Jane and pull him into a kiss, just to show Lisbon to whom he belongs, even though he wasn't your boyfriend, no he was just your best friend.

Jane took a look around the room before musing, "Well look at her, doesn't she look breathtaking." Lisbon and Y/n ignored him and continued to search the crime scene for any evidence. That was until Y/n had a light bulb turning on inside their head. They took a couple of steps towards the dead body, before they gasped loudly. Jane and Teresa looked up at them before asking, "What have you got?"

The person in question looked at them before stating, "There once was a killer who had the same method. His name was Dennys Rader, but commonly known as "the BTK-Killer". Everything is similar, but the marks on her can't be compared to Rader's. He had a weaker left hand, which made his marks uneven, but the ones we are looking at were produced from the same amount of pressure. So this means the person who did this does a lot with their hands. Be it exercising or just something casual as regular typing, because nearly nobody can put the same amount of pressure on their hands, without any practice. People who do not do things with their hands often are very likely to have a weaker hand..." as they explained further, diving deep into their mind trying to recall everything they learned about the infamous psychopath, they didn't notice Patrick staring at her in fascination.

He was astounded. How could a human be so clever and pretty at once. He didn't even needed to listen to you to know that you were to 99% right, about whatever you were saying (not that he was anyways, he was to busy ogling them).

After Y/n finished their rant, they began to interview a few of the neighbours, as well as the janitor who found the girl. Now a little while later, Y/n was checking their alibis, they got a call. Abandoning their computer, they turned to the mobile phone on her desk, flipping it over, so that the display was facing them they read the Caller ID. Seeing an unidentified number didn't concern them, as it wasn't the first time a random person thought it would be funny to play a joke on them or that somebody simply typed in the wrong number.

Swiping across the screen they answered, "L/n?", the only thing they heard was a robotic voice, barely understandable saying, "You only have a few minutes time, until the ticking stops and instead of a bell ringing, there will be ringing ears."

Y/n begin to panic, tipping frantically on their computer, trying to trac down from where the call was made, but to no luck. So they began to think.

Ticking, bell ringing, ears, ticking, bell ringing, ears, tic- A BOMB! Oh no, oh no, that is not good. Ok Y/n, think where could it be, where could it be bells ringin, A CHURCH, allright nearest Church, nearest Church, ah California Community Church. Good, wonderful, now you just have to inform the others and get there as soon as possible.

Standing up they frantically searched for their contact list, dialling Lisbon.

"Lisbon." the familiar females voice could be heard over the piece of electronic. "Lisbon, you need to evacuate the California Community Church, ASAP! We don't have much time until the bomb explodes." "BOMB?! What bomb are you talking about Y/n?" "I got a call, from an anonymous number, it gave me some sort of riddle. It was about some ringing and bells and WHATEVER... isn't important now, what is important is to get the people out of the Church!" "Allright I see what I can do." "Thank you."

Finally reaching the car, Y/n opened the drivers seed, before buckling in and driving off.

Having reached the church they immediately noticed the people surrounding the 'house of god' and a mother shouting for her kid, they're instincts kicked in and they ran towards the mother, who quickly turned and rambled, "You need to help me! M-my daughter is still in there. I can't lose her p-please you need to help me." Not even thinking Y/n replied, "Of course, where were you and your daughter before you got separated?" "We w-were in the main room and t-then suddenly there was this person wh-who told us we h-had to get out and so many people a-and my baby oh God wha-" "Ma'am I need you to stay calm. I am going in there and I can't promise anything, but I am going to try my best to bring you your daughter back."

Departing from the mother they made their way inside the evacuated building in hope to find the missing girl. Running around in the spacious room, they searched everywhere with their eyes, until they saw a brown mop of hair cowering behind one of the banks. Having made their to the little girl they scooped up the scared bundle and began to walk back to the entrance as fast as possible. Finally reaching the double doors, Y/n tried to shift the weight of the girl on one of their hips, to open the doors, these turned out rather difficult, as the child clung to them like a koala to his mother. After fumbling a little with the door, they had it open and slipped through it.

Jogging through the grave yard, they were halfway through it as suddenly a loud explosion sound could be heard. Y/n shielded the kid by wrapping around it, forming a kind of shield, absorbing all the flying debris.

...

Shortly before the explosion Patrick and Teresa arrived the church, immediately beginning to question the civilians and searching unconsciously for Y/n.

As the explosion went of, both were already informed by the mother who asked Y/n earlier if they could rescue her child, that Y/n was apparently in the church. This set panic in Patrick of, he couldn't lose you. You were the only constant thing in his life; always there for him, always willing to help him with his search about Red John and always helping him with everything, not even questioning it you were sure he had good reasons.

You couldn't leave him.

He loved you to much to let you go. But it appeared that fate had something else planned.

Or did it?

Turnst out fate had a different ending in mind for him. An ending with the limping person, which was stumbling on the path from church to street.

Patrick didn't even hesitate as he ran towards you, taking the child from your arms and letting you lean onto him, so you wouldn't fall on the way to the medics.

Giving the young girl to a nearby standing police officer, Patrick dragged you alongside him, towards the ambulance, where you would get checked out.

A little while after getting checked, Jane stood next to you, wringing his hands nervously, before he was snapped out of his state, by the loud nearby shutting of a door. Taking a deep breath Patrick tries to organise his thoughts for a final time, before he began to speak; "Y/n I-realized that I-i f-felt a certain way and i-i haven't felt like this since Angela, when you were i-in there and t-that thing blew up, i-i was s-so scared, that I would lose you t-to. A-and I d-didn't s-so I think that it's a s-sign t-that I can talk to you now and i-i wanted to do this for a long time."

Cradling your face in his hands, Patrick searched your face for any sign of hesitation. After he didn't fine any, he slowly leaned forward, until his lips hovered over yours. You took the final step, tilting your head back and connecting your lips. Even as your lips were barely touching you both could feel it.

It was like an Exlposion.

#patrick jane #jane x reader #theresa lisbon #teresa lisbon #the mentalist #the mentalist x reader #gender neutral reader #gender neutral x reader #grace van pelt #wayne rigsby

[dallonm-archive]

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july writing update

Hi friends! This writing update is me pretending I did Camp Nano and didn't kinda give up a week in! I had a proper goal and everything, but a lot of things got in the way that I'm not gonna talk about here because I already ranted about it in another update I'm drafting rn. Lets just say it's Disability Pride Month and being not neurotypical or able bodied in writing communities and their inherent focus on productivity is Hard.

But I did get some writing done and wanted to do a little Camp wrap up post regardless. And I'm doing it now because I'm cancelling the last week of July for some rest/self care and I do not want to think about writing for that time and if I write a tumblr post about July Nano being over my brain will think it's actually over <3 I will probably do updates like these for most months tho! Depends on how much I write lol! This one is not too long (by my standards) and has some Revelations, Revelations, Life Cycle of Massive Stars, Nocturne for the Holy and a new wip idea 👁️

excerpts under the cut!

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I'm also editing this in to say I only just realised that July is my writeblr birthday month and that is very weird to me! A year and a couple days ago I impulsively turned an old blog into a place to document writing for me and ended up meeting people who now mean the world to me and my writing blossoming in a way I never thought it would. And the funny part is it doesn't feel like it's been a year, ever since I joined it's just felt like life has Always been this way and I cannot fathom that it hasn't. I'm sappy bc it's 4am lol but ultimately the friends I made (you know who you are) and the community I found is what retaught me the value of writing and helped me unlearn toxic ideas and whilst the last year was tough I wish I could tell July 2020 Dallon (who did not realise he was Dallon yet </3) what July 2021 would look like.

revelations, revelations ;

Oh the absolute state of affairs with this book rn. Nothing bad but I don't know when I'm gonna update y'all because sometimes I do not know where to start when talking about this wip lol! Currently on a break with it (but also my thesis work is on late 20th century queer lit/history rn so am ever really free of RR? <3) but had a lot of fun with it at the end of June/start of July. Anyway here's Dorothy finally revealing more of herself to me after a year. Dorothy as a character is like, I truly believe she is capable of killing a man but the story she is in just does not allow that so I am trying to grow her unhinged side a little bit in other ways bc I know she has it in her but I also really cannot deal with the plot repercussions of her actually killing a man! I'm sorry Dotty but this'll have to do!

(cw for groping/a man being creepy as hell, death/funeral mention, drug mention, drowning imagery kinda)

There’s too much to tell Felix. That his sister lives on the fringe of Castro and has attended three funerals since September; that it’s January 11th and she’s already attended one this year. That his sister drives through sunsets and imagines parties: the amber dusk, warm mosaic tiles, platters of Greek salad skewers and shrimp tostadas, and sometimes Jolie joins her and they share a blunt on the hill. That his sister bought an aquamarine body-length dress for six bucks in a thrift store sale bin, so when her and Jolie broke up for the second time, she waltzed into a sunset party, locked arms with a CEO’s son and gave him a fake number and plucked strawberries out of champagne and blended so well nobody noticed when she left. That during the summer of ’83, his sister walked a neighbour’s Golden Retriever on Wednesdays, and on the sixth Wednesday he gave her a wad of tens with one hand and palmed the back of her neck with the other, so she walked his dog to the beach and stole another hundred from his wallet. That his sister bombed an interview for a Nursing school and didn’t get home until night and missed their monthly call, and Jolie heard the phone ring and didn’t take a message, so his sister snuck into the CEO’s son’s villa and floated in the centre of their heated pool like a cloud. A pause, a breath, an Opheliean threat.

life cycle of massive stars ;

Switched to LCOMS this month because I was burnt out with RR and it made such the difference! I really love working on two novels at once because it keeps me consistently creative but also both of these books are so different so its always refreshing to bounce back into one from another. I have a whole update in the drafts rn for this so keeping this part brief but still love this book, still the best thing that has ever happened to me, me and this book will have a glorious summer wedding etc etc. These excerpts are from chapters that summarise the first semester of each character's first year and have to say it. has been Very Fun to get into the mindset of Freshers Melodrama. Here's Junie having a crisis and an unhealthy relationship with her hetero flatmate :( (alcohol cw for both excerpts)

In October you are drinking double espresso and trying to breathe normally in lectures and you are trying to figure out your favourite colour because Fleur asked and you stumbled out an answer (Purple, I think. Violet? Lavender? Indigo?) and it didn’t match hers (I like yellow. I like sunlight). You buy mugs from IKEA to paint you paint cats and fireworks and constellations and moon phases and daisies. You try to scratch paint stains off your desk. You do laundry at 2am. In October you colour code your notes with pastel highlighters. You go to the library at 3am. You paint your nails sunlight and hate it. You finish an essay that’s due in December. You knock on Fleur’s door at 8am so she makes her 9am. You wear off the shoulder tops and you let a girl dab glitter on your collarbones and you are watching Fleur kiss a boy from the neighbouring hall. You bite your sunlight nails. You break the handle off your IKEA constellation mug. You leave your keys in a lecture hall and stand at the reception for forty minutes waiting for them to realise that the keys on the desk have the moon chain you mentioned - or, you are waiting to say it yourself. You are watching the rain trail down your window. In October you get a halo headband tangled in your hair you are sipping a vampire themed cocktail that tastes like acetone you rip your heels off and you go home early and do laundry at 2am and you are waiting for the courage to tell Fleur you don’t like clubbing - or, you are waiting for her to ask where you are. In October you are many things / a good student a dancer a painter an angel a big sister an alarm clock you are nocturnal and a lucid dreamer and confused about your sexuality / and it’s still October but it’s not because it’s November now and you are still Junie but not because you don’t know who Junie is. It’s November, it’s September October November December. It’s 2016 2017 2018 2019. You are fragments and you don’t know if you are a kaleidoscope or shattered glass.

And here's first year Tomas being like I Moved Countries For University And All I Got Was Homesickness And A Crush On My Flatmate And Resurging Autistic Symptoms And This Lousy T Shirt (cw: vomit mention, injection mention, parental death mention)

Kristen is seven months younger and five inches taller than you. He’s the last flatmate you met and the only one you talk to beyond kitchen greetings and passive aggressive texts about dirty dishes. He is too quiet and too loud and not the type of person you befriend. The first night, he lost Ring of Fire and downed the concoction of Echo Falls, Dark Fruits, Jack Daniels and coke, vodka and lemonade alongside a cigarette and said he’d let God figure out the rest. He held your hair back when you threw up amaretto and held onto your knee when you first self-injected testosterone. He taught you Yorkshire dialect and you pretended to understand the Yorkshire dialect. He told you he got diagnosed at four and you told him you didn’t get past the first assessment but sometimes you flick the bathroom light on and it’s fire: the orange on the orange towel is louder, the white on the white tiles are louder, the colours and light and sink and showerhead are prickly and all you can do is blink and breathe until it fizzles out. You reminded him to take his meds and asked if you were weak for wanting to drop out and hop on the first Eurostar to Rotterdam. He reminded you to take off your binder and asked if he was robotic for not grieving his mother. You spent inky nights on the kitchen floor, counting the dead flies in the lights and scooping crumbly coconut ice cream out of a maker you got for half price in TK Maxx. You spent dusk-dusted afternoons at the global street food markets, at the vegan markets. Spent student loans on raspberry lemonade in recycled cups, veggie burgers in beetroot buns, got him hooked on poffertjes and advocaat and could’ve cried when the vendor spoke to you in Dutch. Sometimes you didn’t buy anything. Just liked hovering at stalls ambered with fairy lights, writing down Etsy stores on your notes app; just liked Kristen’s impulse to trek forty minutes into the city for a market he didn’t know existed until five minutes before; just liked how he always invited only you, cancelling your other plans last minute, the feeling of being ambushed; just liked how he stopped to take photos of dogs and the sunset; just liked how he looked haloed under lampposts waiting for Ubers, golden on golden.

This is also nearing creative nonfiction because Sheffield truly is a haven for just. vegan markets and cafes lol! I experimented with veganism there and never struggled to find something and at this point I call myself a fake vegan because it's too easy to be vegan in Sheffield and too difficult to be vegan in my actual hometown. And the global street food markets!!! SO GOOD! I miss pre pandemic days

nocturne for the holy ;

Giving her a little shout out because she does exist actually! I've figured out a really good system for working on two novels at a time, so my plan is maybe to start properly on this after I finish either RR or LCOMS. Idk I got 3 novels to pick from haha oops! I did do some free drafting back in April though and found it recently and I Like It! And I edited it so it counts as Something I Did This Month :) Also have decided that I loathe this working title <3 Okay see you with an update for this novel in like a year, sorry for the absolute zero context for this excerpt hehe

The morning I was due back, I hadn’t yet decided that this would be my last visit. I wandered between rooms like an overstayed guest, like I didn’t know which crockery lived in which cabinet and which bedroom had the best view of the overlapped hills. Dad would wake for his run in an hour, plastered to his twenty-year-old routine. Mum would pretend to be asleep until breakfast. Until then, it was myself and the house, hazed by sleepy sunrise. Downstairs. The peeling paisley wallpaper in the lounge, the lilies in the middle of the kitchen table, the vases of candy floss pink peonies wilting on every windowsill, the desolate double swing-set in the garden. The mist-clogged mornings. I stood outside in my dressing-gown until my fingertips felt numb. Upstairs. The sage coloured bathroom. The bathtub I’d laze in with my clothes on and no water because it was the quietest room in the house. The dusty dance trophies on the top of my wardrobe. Wine-flushed Jeanette in my teenage bedroom. The stale grey mum painted my teenage bedroom after I moved out. Minus their room, I stalked the layout of the house three times before settling back into bed - teenage Nora’s bed. Nora who cared for peonies and pushed her brother on the swing set and flung her ceramic ballerina at the wall and jogged with her father and collected wine bottles and acorns and kisses from girls who were supposed to visit for dance practice. Before I left, I’d have cycled each room another three times. And in every room he was there, hovered in the corner like black mould.

love this update bc it's like i've got my third person, my second person, my first person! collecting all the POVs like chaos emeralds :)

eulogy for our burnings ;

-looks away-

girl help I did it AGAIN!!!! Apparently Camp Nano is just the perfect time for me to get novel ideas. I made this post specifically to talk a bit about this because I have no idea when I'll draft it but it's certainly not soon. This is not me trying to doubt my own skill but I feel like I am not in the place I'd like to be as a writer to tackle this project with the zest it needs, however I am v excited by the prospect of it! Don't know how I feel about the working title bc I'm like "that doesn't sound right but I don't know enough about this wip to dispute it" but the only purpose my working titles serve is to sound pretty lol! But here's the tea:

1991, UK.

2nd person present + past. Very flexible form. I can't decipher how yet but I'm feeling interviews, newspaper articles, receipts, grocery store lists weaved with actual narrative, that kinda vibe.

Best summary is we follow our nameless narrator, a stealth trans man, as he becomes unhealthily obsessed with a man who "hires" him to photograph the buildings he burns

Very,,, isolated? Minimal settings, minimal characters, minimal prose etc. Almost claustrophobic

There's basically only two characters and they are probably the most morally deplorable, indefensible characters I've created which just means most of you are gonna LOVE this /lh I do too I do too

Only comp title I can give is it has the vibes/tone of Boy Parts by Eliza Clark (just with none of the nsfw content lol if you've read the book you know what I'm talking about) (also that book is great for morally deplorable women protagonists but omg look up the content warnings because it caught me off guard! enjoyed it tho gave it 4 stars)

The pinterest board is the best visualisation of the Vibes also follow me on pinterest lol

And that's all I've got today! A bigger Life Cycle of Massive Stars update coming in the next few weeks. Might do a proper intro post for Eulogy For Our Burnings but idk!!! It's a surprise :) Thank you for reading this far!

#also i have LOTS to catch up on so if u tagged me in anything im gonna do a big queue of rb's soon! #promise im not ignoring anybody! #just barely functioning <3 #atlastracking #writing update #revelations revelations #life cycle of massive stars #nocturne for the holy #eulogy for our burnings