#and i wanna vent that out

[lomltrentarnold]

i think you’re pretty — trent alexander-arnold ₊˚ෆ

🍓 hana’s notes: in ma feels again (shocker) haven’t written anything in a while so please be nice <3

disclaimers: lil drabble, cliffhanger (you have been warned!) reader is a little insecure, but reader can pull girls and guys, childhood bestfriends my beloved trope 🫶 || main masterlist

“Wait, actually? You don’t think people think you’re pretty?”

You don’t even know how the conversation ended up on this topic. Sitting at the balcony catching up with Trent after you moved away. Now, he’s a big shot footballer and you’re working to get your degree.

Fifteen year old you guys would be proud.

You shook your head, it's not a new thought for you, “Nah, but that’s okay though. I think I’m pretty, but I don’t know if I am someone’s hallway crush or people just look at me and think — Wow, pretty.”

This is the type of stuff that you only spill on your diary, but it’s Trent, and he knows more about you than you do yourself.

It’s not something new you have come to terms with, after seeing most of your friends' getting crushes, getting hit on, going on dates and having relationships except you, you have made peace with it.

Trent’s forehead creases, as if the statement offended him more than you, “That’s crazy, tha’” Trent could not believe what you just said. You? Not pretty? Are you insane?

Turning your head to face him, you warmly smiled, “Don’t pretend, T.” and when you look at Trent, taking in his features, now this is pretty. “You’re pretty. People think you’re pretty.”

You didn’t know why you decided to say that. Maybe because the moonlight illuminates his skin and eyes, making him shine a little bit brighter. Butterflies swarm your belly, as your hand sweats.

Trent’s cheeks went warm, he thinks he’s the luckiest person ever to get compliment from you. His heart aches for you, but he decided to focus on the task at hand first.

"That's stupid." he spat out, making your eyebrows shoot up.

You lightly chuckled, "Excuse you? I just gave you a compliment."

"Not that." he sighed, turning his body around so that it would be face to face with yours. You noticed the disturbed look in his eyes, as you straightened your back before meeting his gaze.

"It's not that serious T, I'm fine." you assured him, an awkward laugh bubbling out. This took a serious turn, and you have no idea why.

"Do you remember James? In 8th grade?"

You furrowed your eyebrows, "The one that gave me chocolate? Yeah, what about him?"

He took a deep breath, "He said, and I quote, that when you laugh, he can honestly melt because you look so pretty.”

"We were kids, sometimes kids just say stuff-"

"And I agreed with him, and I said that making you laugh is probably one of the most rewarding things I can do because I love seeing you smile so much. You look so pretty when you laugh like nobody's around."

Your heart stuttered, but before you said anything else he continued, "And remember the girl that you worked with at the cafe down the road? The one with curly hair?"

You nodded your head.

"When I was waiting for you to finish your shift, she noticed how much I was looking at you, and she said that she gets it, and that it's sometimes hard to focus on making the drinks because you would look so pretty smiling while taking people's orders."

You cleared your throat, “That’s- That’s very nice of her.” avoiding the words that makes you question you and Trent’s friendship.

His tongue pokes out to lick his lips, making your eyes focus on it, “Sometimes I look at you and I go blank because of how pretty you are.”

What the fuck? What the fuck, what the fuck, what the fuck.

Your eyes searched for his, but he pointedly avoided it, choosing to stare down on his hands.

After finishing the story, Trent bellowed out a laugh, "You know how many people ask me for your number because they think that you're pretty?" he paused, "But they backed away because they 'know' that you're already someone's because of how I look at you."

Your mouth gaped open and close like a fish, slowly processing everything that he's telling you. "What?"

"They said that I look at you like I was smitten. Like I was in love." you were sure your pulse stopped for a second, hearing the guy that you had a crush on for years saying stuff you hear in songs.

Trent’s mouth was faster than his brain, he really should have stopped talking, but he couldn't. All of his words were all vomiting out of his mouth. He could feel his heart beating out of his chest.

"And then I said that if I was going to fall in love with anyone that I'd want it to be you."

hehe love yall <3

#THIS IS PERSONAL LOOK AWAY #literally a vent write #haha…… #no but you guys are so so so pretty #i kinda blanked out on trent's dialogue cause honestly i dont even know what i wanna hear in this situation #this is for me and my girlies who thinks that they're not pretty #me and my girlies who are surrounded by pretty people and think that people wont look at us because they have someone else to look at. #this is for me and you #i dont really know how to end this rip #hana writes! #trent alexander arnold x reader #trent alexander imagines #trent alexander x you #trent alexander arnold #taa x reader #football x reader

[bbnibini]

I find it so painfully heartbreaking that Solomon just...laughs off all the derision, the name-calling, and possibly even did "evil" things on purpose because it's expected of him at this point. (He had not always been like this as Thirteen pointed out before). There was a time when he was "innocent". When his soul sparkled. When it resembled the kind of soul everyone in these god forsaken (pun intended with spite) three realms seemed to associate with the ever loved MC. He's just...worryingly carefree. And because he's like that, he feels even more of a tragic character to me.

Sometimes it even seems that he himself would seemingly make up excuses on why he's hated. Oh, it's because I'm a sorcerer this. I might have won a war against Devildom single-handedly this. I have forgotten. But maybe, I did something bad, that. Hon, you were doing that to SURVIVE. You don't have to be a faultless person to deserve compassion. You don't have to be MC to deserve to be loved.

#rant #the more i play and read about nb solomon the more it feels like he's a worst case scenario foil to MC #and it's ridiculous maybe to feel this way but seeing how everyone dotes on mc and just panders to them without question no matter #especially with meaner dialogues #make me dislike the mc to some extent #what good will raising up one character do in exchange of dehumanising another? #i couldn't put a finger on this feeling before #but i think that's also why im so burnt out with this game #the more everyone loves me as the mc the more it becomes so apparent how unfairly solomon was treated #and how everyone ESPECIALLY HIM just rolls with it #sweetie please be angry. please complain. please hate me in some way #but no he just keeps loving and supporting the mc #in game in fandom this man can't catch a break #wanna gatekeep him fr /s #this has just been brewing in my mind for a while. i don't really wanna hear discourse or arguments that's why i put it in the tags #I just need a place to vent my frustrations with this game #obey me #obey me nightbringer #obey me solomon #spoiler mention #he's imperfect and flawed as all humans are and he deserves to be loved irregardless

[bamsara]

Also why did July become of the most busiest, hottest and most expensive month of my life

I need August to become boring as shit. No more shit happening to me, no more emergencies, no weddings, no birthdays, no health scares, no more heatwave, no more social obligations, no nothing I just want to stay home, make stickers for my life blood aka patreons and write fanfiction in an air-conditioned space PLEASE

#due to multiple things i had to take a large chunk out of savings and there were several social obligations and i am so tired #there were like planned expenses like bills and the $400 monty pin order which im excited for #and then sudden stuff like an emergency health and family thing and friend could not pay for something so $300ish that way #which is FINE im alright and thats what savings are for and i can always rebuild it #but its also like IM TIRED!!! I WANNA STAY HOME #I DIDNT GET TO DO NEARLY AS MANY ARTFIGHTS AS I DID LAST YEAR #also the heat killing my health but like thats kinda universal rn kdlghlsgds #ON THE UP SIDE #MONTY PINS ARE COMING i am so excited im biting the drywall #its not so much as a vent post as just a bitching post btw im happy this month is ending #actaully theres a lot i wanna talk about let me boot up a stream #sara shush

[genericpuff]

vent post

#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once” #i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO #anxiety is a hell of a thing #and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever #i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up #and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken #but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship #i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it #i am cringe and i am free #self post #vent post #altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read #too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll #i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made #i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol #i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim #i think both things can be true #i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like #while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium #“perfectly balanced as all things should be”

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

the artblock be hitteth Harder than normal, for tis not normal artblock. woe. Wally be upon ye

#im still So Inconsistent when scribbling him #he never comes out the same way twice #but then again. do any of us? #anyway i think the Misfortune of the past week finally killed my brain #its a tiny smoking poppy seed resting in the middle of my skull floor #too much all at once. cant art anymore #i keep pulling out my tablet and setting up to draw #and then i stare at the screen feeling mild to intense discomfort #i try to scribble. it comes out Horrible. #i put my tablet away and go stand in the middle of the kitchen #i come back to scroll on tumblr #i feel Despair. rinse and repeat #scribble salad #is it distressing? yes! one more to add to the ever-growing pile! #i need to start pre-packing for my inevitable move #sigh... dont wanna go.... #but its not like i have a choice! i quite literally have a single option which is to say! no option at all! #apparently if im in a constant state of severe stress for long enough my creativity completely breaks. shattered right down the middle #too exhausted. the Despair is too strong #and once again i am accidentally venting on a scribble post! sorry! please ignore this im just Saying Shit

[honeypleasejustkillme]

please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me please don’t abandon me

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #actually borderline #bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd fp #bpd vent #i’m so scared for you to leave me #i don’t think i can handle life without you #and i don’t wanna find out #fp bpd #borderline fp #borderline favorite person #beloved.txt

[angelpuns]

Having a very ' everyone secretly hates me ' kind of day smh

#logically i know its not true #probably #urgh maybe #that is not curbing the urge to ask tho #and i really dont wanna ask #cause that almost always makes me feel wotse #i also might just be hungry #hrm #idk #its weird cause ive had more social interaction than normal lately #not a vent #just hrm #thinking out loud #srsly its not a vent #saying cause i dont really need the 'nobody hates you' messages rn #it'll just feed the worms #im gonba delete this later

[bigdumbbambieyes]

#it’s always funny to see the people who have bullied you in the past for no reason jump onto the hate train #solely bc they wanna keep hating you #i did nothing to you cheri idk why you treat me like i did something wrong to you?? #or do you just find my existence annoying? #idk #y’all keep spreading the narrative that i’m a bitchy bully that forces and coerces people into things #when that’s absolutely not what i did and would never do #and also #ivy the fact that you are openly befriending someone who was friends with masha and applewillowstone ONLY until those two were called out #about their shitty behaviour #and then did a 180 and claimed she never ‘knew’ masha was ‘like that’ #just speaks volumes on what’s really happening here #and yeah consider this a vent post #since i gotta make that explicitly clear nowadays

[rosadellic]

let me clear myself up. i dont hate jennifer keller. shes just not a good replacement for carson and shes not good for a romance choice because, i cant stress this enough, forced canon het relationships are absolutely exhausting to see and sit through in a tv show that brought me so much comfort in middle school. also her being forced into being one of the "gang" is mildly aggravating because it was conceived with no organic buildup or presence. like why are they having lunch with her and chatting like theyre friends? she had barely any scenes before this episode.

#this rewatch is stressing me out and im on s4 lmao #i just kinda wanna roll into a ball and end on s3 but i cant #i miss weir i miss carson i miss ford so much #on the bright side everyone wearing leather is hot #besides ronon we love out earthy toned king #anyways sorry #misc #text #venting #stargate atlantis #i just know if this show was made today the lgbt would be much more prominant and healthy #im watching doppleganger btw

[crassinova]

Realization

+ additional

#gibsonnilson #fallout 4 #fallout #nick valentine #fo4 #FoOc Chancey #oc x canon #fallout oc #this was supposed to be a vent piece because because i had a sudden panic attack so i vented it out #but since i felt better after finishing it just looks like this is about how Chancey is freaking out because he realizes hes gay #its alot funnier now HHASGHASGAHS #like damn why are you crying about thinking about him huh??? you wanna kiss him so bad huh? i mean he has a reason but #it’s a secret for now

[nocreativityfornames]

Don't you just love it when it's the middle of the night and that aromantic loneliness hits you in the face because once again you're thinking about the fact that society values romantic relationships way more than platonic ones and that you'll never be as important to your friends as they are to you because romantic relationships are the most valuable thing in the world and platonic ones will almost always be overlooked, left in second place, sometimes even forgotten?

#how your friends always get distant the moment they start dating #how a huge part of adult life is expected to revolve around having a partner #how you're the strange one for getting “too attached to friendships” #for not putting romance in the same pedestal as everyone else #aromantic #just a silly little vent post #I'm going to sleep now #aroace #lgbtqia #12 pm thoughts be like #this didn't even happen recently it just came to mind out of nowhere #and this has NOTHING to do with my usual content #i wanna have a cat :( #☙ no creativity for names ✾

[lolwhorez]

can you guys pls give me tips on how to lose weight fast

#unhealthy weight loss #disordered eating thoughts #tw disordered eating #ed di3t #ed meals #ed not sheeren #fatsp0 #tiny wasit #ed behaviour tw #ed vent #tw ed implied #tw ed out loud #tw ed diet #fat piggy #i hate my body #thinspø #mean$po #ed bllog #eating diary #i wanna be skinnier #skinnyspø #i need to lose this weight #need to lose more weight #weight loss tips #tw bones #please help #fast weight loss #tw ed rant #bing3 eating #disordered eating cw

[collectivenothingness]

be kind to your lonely transfem friends

#already used up all my energy to say more than that today and don't wanna dwell on the vents I made back when I did the ask her out post lol #at least not atm... reached my negative posts post limit for the day

[mintinol]

yoo this is definitely targeted at certain ppl who think calling someone's art "AI-like" or smth is a compliment, it's not and really insulting. Idc if you meant well don't say it to me.

It doesn't feel good to have your work compared to bland uninspired images that are only ok in technical skill but lacking in soul.

#dont wanna call a specific fandom im in out but #i've only gotten ppl from the osc saying shit like this #maybe cos the fandom has such a high percentage of kids who barely remember a time before ai art #dont want this to be a “i hate kids” vent but...yeahhh maybe just a lil bit #im still gonna make osc fanart cos its fun in the moment but the happy feeling goes away when ppl start commenting stuff like this tbh

[mblue-art]

care. reassurance.

#cross!sans #self insert #mblue art #yeah im. soff #may or may not have been fueled by that tender forehead kiss post #(this started as a vent art kinda but!! feeling better now. hopefully. i jst wanna yearn) #(been dealing w irl stuff n fighting the brain around the time i made this. nnn. wahoo. yippee.) #(also havent had the spoons to scroll thru tumblr/twt feeds so i feel out of the loop ;w; but thas oke i'll live;;) #(simping for him makes me mentally ill /j/pos (but also /neg bc. mmm. blaming my brain for that lol)) #(ANYWAY i think he's been hogging too much of my brainspace lately and i think he should make way for lust too wth man 😤😤😤 smh /lh) #CM

[dootznbootz]

#just in general but yeah. #shout out to sticks who ARE NOT in the mud and who play and have fun with me because you understand ✨NUANCE✨ #and know that even if the characters are bad people that doesn't mean that it's the end of the world to partake in silliness #And shout out to sticks who learned and grew and got cleaned up from the mud! :D I'm proud of you! #I'll reblog this with a vent about just fucking sourpusses who take themselves way too seriously. this one's been BREWING. #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #lkdsfj ds #vent #I just wanna leave this without my vent for folks who like this as my vent probably won't be coherent