#and our leader used to say:

[not-poignant]

Hello Pia how are you? Not really an ask but more sending thanks and love for all of your writing. I've been a reader for over a year now and am still in awe of your skill (and speed!). I've been getting back into writing and struggling with feeling inadequate or like my stuff reads childishly, as a result I can barely get out 5k aha, but I'm working viewing it as a lifelong dedication to improvement. (On a side note: your work got my teenaged self to snap out of purity wank, forever grateful!)

Hi anon,

It is so awesome that you're getting back into writing!

Honestly, it is a sign of a kind of growth to notice the things you don't like in your writing, because if you feel it reads childishly (and I bet it doesn't all read like that, or most of it doesn't), that means you have skillsets already to aim towards. You can see how you want to get better. This is a skill!!! It's a more painful skill, and it's not a good one to listen to all the time, but it's a good skill to have.

When it feels dispiriting you can balance it out by intentionally looking for and writing down your strengths as well, and writing more of those. It might be only a few lines, or it might be all of the dialogue, or it might be the descriptions, but there will be strengths too!

Also 5k is impressive! Everyone writes differently. It took Mark Z Danielewski 10 years to write House of Leaves, and I love that book a very great deal. Quantity =/= quality, and you also have to remember I've been doing this in a pretty focused way for 10 years! Trust me, if you did this in a focused way for 10 years, you'd be in a different place with your output (which isn't obligation to do this for that long, just that...things take time <3 )

I'm glad you were able to snap out of the purity wank mindset anon, it's a tough one to be in, because it makes you feel like you're not safe in your own mind, and after a while it shuts down curiosity because it feels like everything you're interested in has to be examined just in case it's a moral trap or says something 'terrible' about you if you show interest in it. And that's really hard! It makes sense to me why so many antis kind of really lock into what they think and believe, because they've gotten so used to treating themselves with paranoia, how can they not treat others that way?

And that's a miserable way to live. It's the opposite of benefit of the doubt.

So being able to separate from that is incredible! And that's a tribute to your own curiosity in the world, and interest in exploring different ways of doing things, and I think that's really cool. :D

#asks and answers #personal #why are people so nice #you're doing awesome anon #i used to be part of a writer's group called Write Club #(we even had Fight Club style badges) #(i'm still technically a part of it i just haven't been able to go to the meets in ages) #and our leader used to say: #'all words is good words' #and while it was kind of sarcastic/ironic given the phrasing #in the end it became very positive and uplifting because YEAH #even with the grammar mistakes and the typos #all words is good words anon #you're doing incredibly #remember to focus on your strengths if you're already good at focusing on your weaknesses! #strengths keep the building up while you shore up the pillars that need some work #administrator gwyn wants this in the queue

[chrollohearttags]

truly hoping that everyone witnessing what’s going on and more so specifically what our president is doing right now and taking that into accountability when election time rolls around. Calling for that senile bastard to be held liable not only for the full funding and support of genocide/ethnic cleansing but the countless of other horrible deeds he’s committed since being in office is not being “pro trump” or republican. People are fucking tired and this inhumane treatment of the Palestinian people was more or less the breaking point. We watched how he and his entire campaign was centered around nothing more than engaging in a pissing contest with the blood orange. How every promise of monthly stimulus checks, erased student loans, wage raises, lower cost of living, etc ALL went down the drain the second he got sworn in. How our tax dollars were used to fund literal slaughter but people are sleeping in parking lots because they can’t afford housing. Healthcare is non existent, we can’t even afford to pay attention with minimum wage and we’re barely even able to fill our tanks or grocery baskets with our entire paychecks being thrown at it. As people keep saying, the propaganda is no longer working. Is*eal, Biden and every other sick entity in support of harming these people are being called out abs rightfully so. No one is subscribing to their bullshit ideologies anymore. No one is believing this rallying around the flag, blind patriotism, etc. call it desensitization or overexposure but we have real time access to information that refutes any of these influencer or corporate advertising. Continue to be tired, continue to be angry and continue to question everything because silence equals complicity and that’s exactly what they want.

#also if ur someone who says they don’t want to see this #then ur in support of genocide #full stop #you don’t have to understand everything fully #it’s okay to even take breaks from doom scrolling #but none of us are far removed or even immune to being in the exact same situation #although a lot of us are in different countries #many of our leaders are in support of these evil ideals #cherry chats 🍒 #vent and rant #politics #free palestine #discourse

[ryllen]

they caught u cheating with all of them event  |  [x]

#sdv #stardew valley #sdv alex #sdv sam #sdv sebastian #sdv harvey #sdv shane #sdv elliott #it made me laugh so much at the audacity of the choices; and then there's sam at the end SMILING WHILE CALLING THEM BOYS I M DYING #like he could use guys ; BUT HE USES BOYS FSHDHSDH LIKE A LEADER OF SOME BOY GANG ; FORGETTING IT DOES NOT CONSIST OF SEBASTIAN ONLY #why does our farmer look at alex in a 'help me' way; is it because we know he has the softest heart; or jock be like hoes before bros; or #he just pridefully thought we want protection from him; nevertheless; god damn it's so hot how he's so stern like he really despises ur #wrongdoing ; 'typical' who HAD HURT U BEFORE AND GET AWAY BY CRYING FOR U TO SAY THIS??????? ; ALEEEEEXXX............!!!!!!!!!!!! #stardew alex #stardew sam #stardew sebastian #stardew harvey #stardew shane #stardew elliott #stardew valley alex #stardew valley sam #stardew valley sebastian #stardew valley harvey #stardew valley shane #stardew valley elliott #fanart #anyhow i love how they jumped 3 times before declaring what they agreed on doing together; i imagine they thump the pool table in unison #in anger; that's a very bros move #despite the topic; it actually looks very fun the way they all gather together despite all difference; fhsdsh farmer unites them in a way #i love the way they are in unison pissed off when u start to use the crying move; like; Y E A RIGHT don't think we didn't expect that

[vicontheinternet]

This is for the “we aren’t our ancestors” gang you’re right y'all aren't your ancestors y’all are lil bitches I hope this helps

#our ancestors were better then us #you can't even boycott #or yall say the Palestinian fight isn't our fight #despite several of our civil rights leaders speaking out on it #palestine #israel #free palestine #free gaza #free west bank #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #y’all can’t even do a simple starbucks or mcdonald’s or disney boycott

[matineemonsters]

If you don't have enough frustration in your life I recommend leading a group of retirees through a class project as the only person in the group who can create a PowerPoint

#me #none of them have been in school for over 40 years and they don't plan on learning now so they are trying to shirk all the work to me #'so you needed my help for your presentation?' NO. IT'S OUR PRESENTATION. IT'S A GROUP PROJECT #'can you say all the words and we'll just pass out snacks?' NO. IT'S A GROUP PROJECT. THE POINT IS PRESENTING. WE'RE NOT GRADED ON SNACKS #'here's the research i did for my slide!' THIS IS JUST A PRINTED OUT WIKIPEDIA PAGE THAT YOU HIGHLIGHTED. WHAT ARE YOU DOING #'I'm no good at talking to crowds' IT'S 90 SECONDSSSSS I DON'T CAREEEEE PLEASEEEEE LET'S JUST GET THIS OVER WITH #'we should really lock down what everyone's bringing for the class' NO WE SHOULD LOCK DOWN THE PRESENTATION. WE DON'T NEED TO BRING ANYTHING #we present on Thursday then instead of this special hell i just go back to helping them use Google and log into their emails. regular hell #and another thing: I'm not supposed to be the leader! no one else was stepping up and i lost this game of chicken! fuck!

[hella1975]

for a popular band i dont see nearly enough people freaking the fuck out about the lumineers on here! i have to do everything my damn self! anyway listen to their album III in order WITH the music videos and maybe you'll feel significantly worse about everything ever

#every time one of the songs from this album came on in the car id so casually go to boom like 'oh so this one is about ___' #and it's just an album about a dysfunctional family. like that is literally the plot of the album. they r called the sparks #it starts with donna and follows her alcoholic daughter who starts the abuse (it's technically started by donna but the album doesnt #focus on her so it 'starts' with gloria) #and how her addiction and abuse bleeds into her son who becomes a gambler and how his son then turns out etc etc #all to the most boptastic sounds and vocals you ever heard #like oh my fucking god the way they released this album was SUCH an experience #because it was done in three parts (gloria to her son jimmy to his son junior respectively) #so you had to like. wait for the rest of the album with each part and each part added a generation to what you knew from the beginning #was going to be tragic like you know from donna's song at the very start when it's said 'you hate the name junior' #that the rot will travel all the way down to junior's generation #they're doomed from the start. they're a family. they tried. they failed #and also 'leader of the landslide' as a song alone is batshit insane and one of my favourite songs ever #but as an expression on generational trauma? HOLY SHIT? #like looking at the person who started the trauma and caused this constant awful cycle #and instead of saying all those clinical overused words instead calling them THE LEADER OF THE LANDSLIDE #LIKE YEAH ACTUALLY? THEY GOT BURIED TOO BUT THEY FUCKING STARTED IT #AND WE'RE ALL CRAWLING THROUHG THE DIRT BECAUSE OF IT JUST TRYING TO FIND OUR FEET #IN THE WAKE OF THIS DISASTER THAT YOU CAUSED. YOU LEAD US HERE #going insane #the lumineers #'why r u talking about this album specifically when u heavily implied to aiaia about writing a touya fic' shhhhhhhh

[beesholmes]

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#tw rant #ok so i have a group presentation that is due on monday and that'll be our final grade #and i made a template for my group mates and sent them on wednesday #like they just have to write their own topic on that template right #2 of them did but #one of them didn't even use it and used a different font etc #BRO U LITERALLY HAD ONE JOB ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID #im not the leader btw i just do it because they are lazy af and don't do anything unless you make their job easier #im so sick of group projects it annoys me so much #i cant stand people's stupidity AAAA #i mean if she asked to change the font i'd do it but she didn't say anything and like there's 5 of us and 3 people made their presentations #using that template #YKNOW WHAT I MEAN?? ITS SO STUPID #rant post #dan.txt

[loveofastarvingdog]

nothing pisses me the fuck off like incompetency

#timothy's txts. #STOP FUCKING TALKING ATOP FUCKING SAYING THINGS IN THE HEADSET WHEN IM TRYING TO TAKE A FUCKING ORDER #also like i gettt itttttttt #i KNOW you don’t control being able to understand things #but you don’t NEED to be more complicated with customers #just fucking listen to what they are saying oh my fucking GODDDDDD #also if you’re a shift leader just fucking. trust your guys in the floor #don’t overwhelm us but like. we’re not fucking babies we know how to fucking cover for each other #for the love of god take your lunch on time so WE DONT HAVE TO STAY LONGER THAN OUR SHIFT #JUST TO WAIT FOR YOU TO GET BACKKKKK OH MY GODDD #i will forgive so much genuinely. GENUINELY. but i get fucking PISSED at this….. #anyways. i’m normal again #and i love my coworkers and don’t hate anyone ever #tw caps

[kabutone]

people are so shocked when they learn about the absolute depravity of the world thats right in front of them. not that its Good to be desensitized to horrific shit but like i am not surprised. every new bad news thing that comes out i am not surprised. yes, they will ignore death. they will let you die without a second thought. i'm sorry you are only just now learning this.

#like yes things are horrible right now and i get it #but ive seen two posts that are like how can people ignore this!!!!! #thats all the gov does. ignore shit and make problems worse #they do not fucking care who dies. UNLESS your death brings them money. then they actively encourage it. #like. did you know we did in fact have “the tools” to stop covid from becoming a pandemic? #did you know that we could have ended the pandemic fairly quickly too? #we didn't use them. they sent everyone “back to normal” so you can all die for capitalism. #unless you have kept up REALLY WELL chances are you have no fucking idea how high the covid death toll is. its higher than what's reported #the public has been being fed to the fucking wolves for years now. before covid too but for the entire pandemic especially #we have been left behind!!!! im sorry you only see that now and its a harsh reality to wake up to #like absolutely continue to call your senators and reps and whatever. like thats still a completely viable option #continue to educate yourself and talk about issues and keep it in discussion #but like. idk. its heartbreaking i get it. #especially to see people incredulously cry and wonder “how could our leaders see this suffering and ignore it?” #people have been left to “fall to the wayside” for years now and its just that now you see it #i understand the betrayal of “i thought those in office were there to PROTECT us and i thought they cared!” #anyway. idk i don't want to say things are futile . like keep trying cause thats all we Can do

[dkettchen]

not me adding literal buddhist monk shaolin masters to my very short list of ppl I’ve ever strongly related to the philosophy/mentality/approach to life of oh boy

#anthony padilla #buddhist monks #philosophy #trans #Idk what this says abt me for any of you who don't know me that well yet lmao #but it is fascinating to me at least that between the discipline of language learning since childhood #my shonen protagonist energy and slight megalomania #and my nonbinary trans thoughts about physical change and self improvement etc etc etc #despite coming from such vastly different backgrounds (not just culturally just in the like- I'm a queer artist n educator n stuff #and they're literal monks in an organised religion/belief system) #we have still somehow arrived at so many similar not only beliefs but also just like ways of living and discipline and worldview #something something outsider perspective that queer people will be more prone to due to being an eternal minority in any part of the world #while ppl like monks/nuns take up the lifestyle they lead in order to alienate themselves from the rest of society for religion's sake #something something the historic connection between ppl who dedicate their life to religion (monks/nuns/priests/etc) and the queer community #and various cultures where genderqueer ppl's role is/was that of religious leaders #something something maybe in a changing world that is not as religious anymore we can still be advisors and wise ppl to consult #like I think that's literally the conclusion I've arrived at for my pitch to the feminists is #you will never truly manage to include us as equals for sheer numbers reasons so you might as well use us and our skills and insights #for the gender lib movement in other more distinct ways that neither need you to fully equate us to you nor to limit us to your part of it #pay the transfemmes to teach y'all coding karlie kloss can't do it all on her own #and pay me to come teach you abt transmasc inclusion and internalised misandry and the terfs #and you'll find plenty of use from having us around

[brltpop]

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#i don't want to diminish what's going on with the war #i think it needs as much visibility as possible given our world leaders are dojng SCHEISSE about it #but i don't think you need much to be moved by what's going on #and yet tungle once again fell both for guilt tripping and posting very upsetting images related to the situation #*posts a pic of children among ruins* BUT OF COURSE PPL WONT REBLOG THIS BC IT RUINS THE AESTHETIC #'btw if you don't rb this then you're drowining in your privilege unlike children of the war!1' #like... i thought we agreed there's no use in being that aggressive because WE can't do anything about it #it freaking sucks already! #we can spread as much info as possible but until leaders don't see it then what else can we do?? #mfs won't check tungle so #???¿¿¿¿ #I'm not saying stop posting information. I'm saying stop guilt tripping people #rambless

[cog-go-boom]

what does the ppl of toontown think of u?

depends who you ask but. listen i'm on high roller's show and people come to see that i'd sayyyyyyy they think i'm cool as hell (rightfully so cos i am those fellers KNOW what's up) but also idk man i'm (proudly) a known criminal some toons are HATERS and don't like me doin whatever i like doin there's some mixed feelings here yknow but if it's "afraid of me" or "adores me" then i'm doing what i'm doing right that's what i want babey

ive even got mixed feelings on me in my own club! my favorite people! i hate them all i hope they explode. especially mole. but also i will die for all of them like SOMEONE has to kick their ass SOMETIME. (they think the same for me)

does that make sense fellas. oh i havent even gotten to cog opinions yet but whatever who cares

#[answered asks] #i was gonna say hey mole check your mail in here as a joke #but then i remember his stupid ass owns a FLIP PHONE #that bird has the soul of a fossil of a man #im phoneless also but at least i know how to use a COMPUTOR #i love dissing our 'great and fearless leader' well he has one fear at least. me

[galaxywhale-moved]

like 2 weeks ago, somebody put a box that had been delivered on our office floor. It’s labelled “kindergarten health checks” and we were like huh, I wonder what the kindergarten health check people are going to do with that when they come, and the box, still sealed with its delivery label, has just been sitting there ever since.

anyway today we were looking at it like “why does it say “to be collected on March 1”, does that mean like.. tomorrow March 1?” and eventually I was like y’know what, fuck it, I’m gonna open the box, I know it’s not addressed to me bc I’m not a kindergarten health check person but whatever, let’s find out.

So I opened the box.

Turns out it was full of envelopes that we were meant to be sent home to families, that they were going to come and collect tomorrow, and the box has just…been sitting there, in the middle of the room, surrounded by our desks where we spend time every day, fully sealed, unopened, for two weeks, because none of us realised we were meant to open it or had the thought ‘hey I wonder what’s on that’ until this afternoon 💀

#it was kind of stressful lmaooo bc neither our team leader or deputy was there today #and I opened the ‘kindergarten team leader’ envelope that was sitting on top too bc I was like well we kinda need to know what it says #and there was a big bold section about how important it is to be ready on the booked day bc it’s hard to reschedule and we were like #oh. yikes #but turns out the check isn’t tomorrow they’re just collecting the forms #except they can’t bc we haven’t sent any of them home lmaoo #ANYWAY #I’m laughing so much at this #we’ve all been stepping around this box for over a week #and never once did any of us think to open it #and as soon as we did #it’s super obvious what it is lmao

[iamthescalesofjustice]

an eclectic group of wardens trying to figure out why they arent being swayed by the calling all the other wardens are getting and figuring out they were all joined either with the substitute archdemon blood from soldiers peak or by this one specific guy who apparently may not even be a warden. and then once anders meets up with them he hears this and gets visibly five times more exhausted and then he opens his mouth to finally start laying out the surana deep lore he has pieced together and well, its good news and bad news.

#also baffling news revelatory news and terrifying news. #tldr up at soldiers peak avernus has what he and surana says is zazikels heart. its in a complicated apparatus that keeps blood pumping #through it. by using draconic blood they can make substitute/postmortem(?) archdemon blood. this would have been fine if zazikel was #inactive the way the rest of the past archdemons are (aside from urthemiel whose soul went into kieran). instead surana is Connected to it #in a way that he has never coherently explained but which he has seemingly-contradictingly claimed is not entirely unlike the situations of #kieran and the magisters sidereal and the sentinels of mythals temple. functionally this amounts to him being the acting #leader of zazikels horde (which they partially comprise) as a semi-separate thing from the general darkspawn horde. fun fact the real #actual canonical term for this is 'omega'. surana has been taking psychic damage from this term since before the veil went up. #none of this is even getting into the really crazy parts yet. anyway yeah bad news we are technically a darkspawn horde good news our boss #isnt interested in obliterating our personhoods beneath his call. but we are still sort of instruments of his will and if any of you here #have not met this guy let me assure you this is going to be a bumpy ride bc on his best days the guy has a death-grip on what few hinges #he can scrape together. but if you want to get paid for all this tell him that and he will definitely try. okay ted talk over'

[skullboiz]

i really hope hayley has a long fulfilling rest and recovers soon but man does it have me spiraling yet again about the future of live music

#i dont feel like wording a proper post so ill type here #a lot of speculation is about it being related to covid #and APPARENTLY. i didnt know this before but apparently insurers wont fucking cover show cancellations if they SAY its covid #long covid is very real and very deadly and nobody fucking talks about it. nobody fucking cares-- #because its not in the best economic interest. because society will not accommodate hundreds of thousands of ppl with new disabilities. #LIKE IM SAYING THIS FULLY ABLE BODIED. NEVER HAD COVID (as far as im aware at least. tested neg every time ive suspected) #it is fucked up that performers feel obligated to go on. to potentially expose ppl. they cant even say it for what it is #because our leaders have failed us and have given up. #what is live entertainment gonna look like in the future. i dont know. it scares me. #i have only dipped my toes in a couple times and i dont want it go away because performers are suffering man. this sucks. #skulltxt

[spaceangst]

itsuguru’s tireless quest for meaning. this is quite possibly the most relatable aspect of his character and also⎯and hear me out, okay, i will explain⎯the greatest foreshadowing of his mental state.

far be it from me to praise gege for character depth in the most recent arc, i have to give credit where credit is due, even if it’s accidental. 

in the depths of my depression, the only thing i’ve held on to is that there must be meaning. if i were to end my life, there would have to be a meaning to it. a meaning to all the pain i caused. to inflict that violence. to all the pain it caused me. in the depths of academic and social and various other strains of burnout, all i could hold onto was that my suffering had meaning. because otherwise, it wouldn’t be fair.

there’s a quote floating around on instagram (and tiktok, i would assume) from a show i do not recognize but i think it sums everything up nicely: “because if i don’t, that means that all the damage i got isn’t good damage. it’s just damage.”

suguru’s eyes tremble when he considers killing the star plasma cult. satoru gives him an out⎯he wouldn’t feel anything in that moment if he did. but suguru would, and that’s why he says no. and this is where it becomes abundantly clear; riko’s death isn’t necessarily the moment that sends suguru spiraling. 

it’s that her death had no meaning.

she had already turned down destiny and walked away from fate. tengen survives without her, so clearly, she didn’t have to die. she could walk away too, tengen wasn’t calling to her. so conversely, she didn’t have to merge. 

what other meaning could her death have had?

riko’s meaningless death sets off a chain reaction where all suguru can see is the lack of meaning. no matter what he does, it has no meaning. no matter how hard he tries to be good, there is no meaning left. all he can do is create his own⎯and with how cracked and warped his mental state is, he absolutely shatters.

and, in a cruel, ironic, bittersweet twist of fate, it’s only fair (if you believe in that sort of thing) that his atonement is that his death has no meaning either.

#yeah i'm finally catching up on jjk s2 #i'm not happy with the manga rn #or past culling games arc tbh #but that's for a different reason so that's for a different day #suguru's character means a lot to me bc mental illness #and his spiral is just #listen it's not the same #we don't all turn into mass murderers and cult leaders #but our trauma twists us #and warps the world #and all we can hold onto is meaning #and when you lose that #you lose everything #also when i say his death has no meaning #it's bc kenjaku revives him and uses him for more torment #and his death haunts satoru too #but his body still exists so there's hope #rendering his death a moot point #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #jjk s2 #jujutsu kaisen season 2 #jjk spoilers #kinda? #for only anime watchers maybe #jjk s2 spoilers #satosugu #gojo satoru #jjk meta #jjk thoughts