#and speaking from personal experience-

[slashingdisneypasta]

My mum on my sister asking to get more piercings: Look at me, I'm perfectly pure. No piercings, no nothing. Hannah's pure, too, Look at h-

Me: Nope. No. Do not lump me in with that, thats gross. Nope.

Her: But you are!-

Me: Noooooope. Nope. Nope.

*she drops it and we all continue talking*

*2 minutes layer*

Her: Can I mention my pure ears again?-

Me: I'm out. *leaves*

#its worth mentioning she had a glass of wine and was trying to conk herself out for sleep #but i do think she woulda thought that anyway. just not said it #yucky #and speaking from personal experience- #there's a lot worse you can do with your teenage years then stick some holes in your body. #as far as i'm concered- do whatever you want as long as its legal and consenual. #if you regret it you'll grow and get over it and be better later on #dye your hair crazy colours. cut it all off. pierce your tongue. #watch r rated movies. masturbate. dress in wierd and wonderful ways. try everything thats different. #figure out what you like and what you want #its worth it to have figured yourself out even if you look back and cringe or wince later. #edit: do whatever you want as long as its legal. consensual. and healthy/safe

[cemeterything]

fumbling a man with long hair has felled even the mightiest warriors

#🐉 #i am NOT speaking from personal experience but if i ever do fuck it up so bad with a man with long hair #i know with 100% certainty that ill be driven to clawing writhing griefstricken madness

[wiisagi-maiingan]

In the books about Judaism I've been reading, there's a repeated emphasis on Jewish history being taught as something that happened not just in the past, but also to the people telling the stories in the present. The narrative is "it happened to us, to me" as opposed to "it happened to them."

This is something I've also noticed a lot in Native communities. They massacred us, they took our children, they banned our traditions, they forced us off our lands. There's no distancing ourselves from our ancestors, from the Native people of the past; their suffering is ours, their grief and pain and fear live in us.

I think this is a vitally important part of how certain groups interact with history; when your people are constant victims of extreme hate, of prejudice, of violence, you cannot afford to distance yourself from the past. The moment you do, you forget and you relax and you aren't prepared when that violence rears its head again. Because it will. If our history has taught us anything, it's that periods of quiet and "peace" (in the loosest sense of the word) for our people are the exception, they're temporary, and we need to remember that to survive.

#not to say that this is an experience exclusive to native and jewish communities #i'm just speaking from my own perspective as a native person and prospective convert doing research

[bread-that-draws]

Flowey’s so funny and has me so fucked up like he’s a talking flower. He tries to kill you upon your first interaction. He is ten years old. He is damaged beyond repair. He’s a flower named Flowey. He’s become friends with every single character. He’s killed all of them countless times. He knows everything about everyone. He doesn’t care anymore. He takes care of his mom when she can’t take care of herself. He’s killed her before. He doesn’t care if you kill her. He thinks she’s trying to replace him. He just wants to be himself again. He wants to destroy everything. He hates you. You’re the only one who understands him. He wants his best friend back. He’s terrified of them. He believes in kill or be killed because he died by giving mercy to the wrong person. He believes himself to be the wrong person. He doesn’t understand when you show him that kindness he showed others, even when you know he could kill you for it. He’s tried every route. He asks you if you have anything better to do when you try to do the same. He’s a direct reflection of the player. He’s a fucking talking flower named flowey and his only voice line is by Ronald McDonald and his officially licensed plush does a little dance for you

#‘Flowey would listen to i bet on losing dogs by Mitski and cry until he throws up and Chara calls him cringe from beyond the grave’ #-me to my friend when I ranted about this last night #he has me so fucked up like oh my god #how is the best character a fucking talking flower #I love undertale’s writing so much like it’s mastered minimal evidence giving away the biggest parts of characters #i can analyze him i can study him under a microscope #i can put him in a terrarium with a sticky note that says gay baby jail you know #he has me SO fucked up #flowey #flowey the flower #asriel #asriel dreemurr #I’m talking about flowey btw not asriel i know they’re the same person but not to me #like how i consider little baby me and fucked up 13 year old me different people #asriel sits on the playground and cries when nobody wants to play warrior cats with him #and flowey sits in the back of classrooms and answers ‘life is MEANINGLESS’ to every question #not speaking from experience ofc (im lying) #love my edgy flower *puts a magnifying glass up to him and notes how fucked up he is* #i think more characters need to be fucked up beyond repair #undertale #utdr #character analysis

[bixels]

The idea that uni protesters are "elitist ivy-league rich kids larping as revolutionaries" on Twitter and Reddit and even here is so fucking funny to me if you actually know anything about the student bodies at these unis. Take it from someone who's going to one of the biggest private unis in the US, 80% of the peers I know are either from the suburbs or an apartment somewhere in America, children of immigrants, or here on a student visa. I've heard about one-percenter students, but I've never met one in person. Like, don't get me wrong, the institution as a whole is still very privileged and white. I've talked with friends and classmates about feeling weird or dissonant being here and coming from such a different background. But in my art program, I see BIPOC, disabled, queer, lower-income students and faculty trying to deconstruct and tear that down and make space every day. So to take a cursory glance at a crowd of student protesters in coalitions that are led by BIPOC & 1st/2nd-gen immigrant students and HQ'd in ethnic housings and student organizations and say, "ah. children of the elite." Get real.

#also idk how to tell you this but even if it were true. wealthy children potentially sacrificing their educational careers to protest is #a good thing actually. idk how to tell you that caring about people from other nations is good #personal #“this war has nothing to do with most students cuz nobody's getting drafted” idk how to explain to you that we should be angry #that our tuitions of 10s of thousands of dollars that we pay every year for an education is being used to fund a genocidal campaign #also the implication that if you go to a uni institution you are automatically privileged by participation no matter your bg #i didn't /want/ to go to this school. i was supposed to go to a school with an art/animation program. but i realized my immigrant #parents have been working their whole lives to get me here. and turning the opportunity down would be a disservice to their sacrifice #this is getting into convos of “what 2nd gen kids owe their parents” which is different for everyone but. yeah #i just get pissed off at seeing people misrepresenting student bodies as “wealthy” and “privileged” and “elite” when it's such a blatant li #i remember a year ago a friend told me they can't fly home to hong kong for winter break because the plane tickets are too expensive #so they have to find temporary housing around the area #last quarter for a film doc class my film partner made a doc on a small group of marxist grad students from india discussing praxis #during a rally a few months ago in response to police presence the coalition invited palestinian students to speak about their experiences #and lead songs and read poems they wrote. these are STUDENTS. are they elitist too? #this is not to disregard my own personal privilege either. #this whole narrative's just to rationalize a lack of empathy to me. seeing a 19yo student get shot by a rubber bullet and your first #reaction is “HAW! HAW! bet richy rich didn't see THAT coming when she put on her terrorist hood!” #newsflash. these big uni campuses are HAUNTED by the violence of past protests and revolutions and police brutality. we know. #why do you think these coalitions have been making reinforced barricades at record speed

[appendectomy]

people talk a lot on here about wilson accepting house in his whole messed up neurotic entirety but not enough people talk about the inverse. wilson is an incredibly neurotic personality, and although house jibes him constantly for it, in practice he is actually very touchingly accepting and accomodating. i just watched 6x19 which is the episode house tries to break up sam and wilson by doing all of wilson's pet-peeves like stacking dishes in the dishwasher wrong so he'll blame sam and resent her. which yeah is hilariously possessive on the surface. but it also implies that 1. house is aware enough of wilson's eccentricities that he can immediately spot when something is going to irritate him, such as the whole milk-in-the-fridge-door thing, and 2. that house is not only reflexively aware of these eccentricities, but also that he accomodates them enough in their everyday lives that a re-emergence of these annoyances is noticeable to wilson. to the point he correalates it with sam re-entering his life instead of house meddling. and also maybe 3. that house is aware enough of wilson's behaviour and body language that he picks up on what annoys wilson without wilson having to tell him, because wilson hates doing that, or that wilson is comfortable enough around house that he doesn't mind sharing these pet-peeves with him even though he doesn't like sharing them with his romantic partners.

house hates things he veiws as illogical or pointless, he rags on wilson for his obsessiveness about health and appearances, but he also cares enough about wilson to actively change his behaviours to accomodate the things that irritate him. he puts the milk in the body of the fridge instead of the door, not because it's suggested he cares at all about prolonging its shelf life, but because he knows wilson cares. sam balks at wilson and disdainfully suggests he has ocd (which i consider a win for my personal projection onto wilson, but that's besides the point) when wilson brings up his own perfectionism. but house accepts wilson in his neurotic entirety, and accomodates him so that they can live together relatively happily. to me, that suggests that house understands wilson's obsessive tendencies better than most 'regular' people, probably because of his own obsessive tendencies, which makes them complement eachother quite well. wilson is the exception for house, house would give up his crusade against pointlessness and his desire to push people's buttons if it meant keeping wilson around. he'd do it all the while complaining, but he'd still do it. this is the kind of thing that really strikes me bc it shows how comfortable and routine house's love for wilson is. it's domestic, it's relenting, it's just who they are. house's love for wilson is lived-in.

#house md #this ones for my mutuals with obsessive tendencies! make some noise #i really love thinking abt how house and wilson are both differently obsessive. and no one understand their obsessions quite like the other #it speaks to their closeness immenseley bc from personal experience #its so comforting and relieving to have someone in your life who just. gets your obsessiveness. #who you don't have to explain it all too because they already understand. so accomodating really is no demand at all for them.

[secondbeatsongs]

1. Your father argued with your mother.

2. Your mother argued with your brother

3. Your brother argued with your father.

4. It was almost always cold.

5. That is all you remember.

"Nineteen eighty-something" from Multiple Choice by Alejandro Zambra

#poll #polls #poetry #alejandro zambra #multiple choice #that's right motherfuckers #I'm making you experience poetry #using the tumblr poll format #now answer the question #and learn something about yourself #this is one of my favorite poems from this book #and now you have to decide which version of it speaks to you the most #personal #sbs rambles

[dylandraws]

Delilah has gone from being Laudna's sleep paralysis demon to now be the eldritch undead equivalent of your partner's cat watching you two do the nasty from the foot of the bed

#critical role #critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #cr liveblog #i speak from personal experience #i understand imogen sm right now

[horror-aesthete]

Twin Peaks, 1990, dir. Tina Rathborne

SE01E04 Rest in Pain

#when i first watched this scene having not yet seen fire walk w me i thought that this was just an extension of the soap opera meta #because twin peaks is very soap opera. they lampshade this frequently #but then you actually sit down and watch fwwm and its like YEAH NO BOBBY WAS RIGHT #she was so clearly showing signs of abuse and no one stepped in #and like. speaking from experience that can be a very hard thing to do especially if the person is intentionally shutting you out #but it makes bobbys reaction here. as much as he is a shithead #extremely warranted! #and it honestly makes some parts of the show difficult to revisit because in fwwm its so apparent #horror aesthetic #horror tv #horror quotes #twin peaks

[midoristeashop]

modern au hiccup is my beloved he is like me fr

Doing the rest of the gang (and others wink wonk) soon! Hiccup’s vibe to me is a whole soup full of styles (punk, techwear, casual, etc etc) so I tried my best to kinda combine the main elements of them. Also I just looked at his costume progression thru the httyd universe and had an idea to make his third movie armor lean more into techwear cuz why not

Drop ur modern hic headcanons and I’ll consume them happily k bye

#modern!hiccup #hiccup haddock #httyd #rtte #modern httyd #he probably has a lot of hobbies #LOOOVES dragons #duh #he likes drawing a certain nightfury around the city #oh yeah he lives in like urban berk #mountains of sketchbooks in his closet #tired 24/7 #motorcycling is very freeing speaking from personal experience #making this hijack dw #hijack

[kindlespark]

in shock hearing people say that babel only takes a turn and becomes heart-wrenching at the end because that experience is so incomprehensible to my chinese diaspora ass that felt like their heart was being torn from their chest in the very first chapter likeeeee babel is underscored by such immense amounts of tragedy and loss and horror around colonialism and imperialism from the very beginning it's so crazy that white people can just read the first half of babel and not feel like every bone in their body was being dissolved in acid by the centuries of unspoken grief written in robin's experience SORRYYYYYYYY. average poc reading babel vs average white person reading babel truly LMFAOOOO

#sam speaks #this is incomprehensible but do you understand me it's like. babel is about so so much fucking loss #a part of robin literally died when lovell found him and that is why we never find out his chinese name #even the cohort's relationships dont escape this like the empire literally brought them together to destroy each other. #this is what ramy tells robin on the bridge. they're turning my country into a drug factory to kill yours. #we have been thrust together by empire to kill each other and our countries. do you see it now do you see me? #ITS A FUCKING TRAGEDYYYYYY AND IMO IT RLY DOES MAKE IT CLEAR FROM THE BEGINNING #seriously though like. goes to show how people's personal experiences really do shape their interpretations of media #babel

[lloydfrontera]

lloyd 'survived on one meal per day for years' frontera would absolutely see sharing food as a love language and javier 'lived in the streets for months as a child' asrahan would be fluent in it

i do believe there is a point in their lives where they both heal from the trauma of going through severe food insecurity but neither of them ever quite really forget just how important food can be. and when the other shares their food with them, they appreciate it as the show of affection it was meant to be

#i talk a lot <3 #tged #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #javier asrahan #i've talked before about food as a love language in tged which mostly affects the relationship between marbella and lloyd #but i do think it would bleed over to other aspects in lloyd's life #and there's a scene in the hell arc where javier figures out something is wrong because lloyd complains about the food #something javier notes he never does. no matter the quality of the food how plain or unpleasant it is lloyd never complains about it #and he explicitly calls it out as the way someone that had been starving for years and knew the preciousness of food would act #which if you then take into account that this is been said by a person that survived on his own as a five year old child in the streets #in the middle of winter... well. it sounds less like speculation and more like someone speaking from experience. #anyway. all this to say lloyd would peel an orange and then give half of it to javier and javier would absolutely swoon #and when they're on the road and they sit down to eat javier will always give the fuller plate to lloyd #and lloyd will have to swallow the knot in his throat before he can start eating #llojavi #yeah fine i'll tag it

[wiisagi-maiingan]

Oh my god the notes on that post about first aid kits are stressing me out so bad. My peeps, anyone can have an accident. A knife can slip while cutting vegetables. A loose nail can catch your foot. You can slip on some wet tiles. A hot cup of coffee can get knocked over onto someone.

A first aid kit can turn a hospital visit-worthy injury into something that can be treated at home. A first aid kit can keep someone from succumbing to a potentially fatal injury long enough for an ambulance to arrive.

Accidents can happen at any time to anyone. Maybe you've never needed a first aid kit, but all it takes is one little accident where you're desperately scrambling to find bandages and neosporin as you bleed everywhere and try not to pass out for you to realize how much easier it would be if you had everything in one place.

#nooooo i'm definitely not speaking from personal experience here 😶

[verdantcreek]

141 tries slam poetry

#ghost speaks from personal experience #he too has fallen victim to gay grenade #artists on tumblr #call of duty #cod #cod fanart #cod mw2 #soap cod #ghostsoap #john soap mactavish #john “soap” mactavish #soapghost #call of duty mw3 #mw3 #cod mwiii #mwiii #kyle gaz garrick #gaz #simon ghost riley #kyle “gaz” garrick #simon “ghost” riley #task force 141 #tf 141

[starfl-3-sh]

Gentle reminder that if you're anti-endo (which is okay) because you claim you want to protect "traumagenic safe spaces" but go out of your way to hate on traumagenics who are neutral or- god forbid- pro-endo (which is also okay), you are NOT protecting traumagenics and actively excluding the people you claim to protect.

You are not the hero you think you are. You're a self-righteous hypocrite. If you claim you want to protect traumagenics, you protect ALL traumagenics, not only the ones that fit your idea of what a traumagenic should be or think like.

#syscourse #speaking from personal experience as a traumagenic system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #system

[coochiekrab]

Have you ever drawn Kuri’s mother? And what happens to her in the end, or are you keeping her disappearance a mystery? I love your art and how real your characters feel :D

Her name is Yui and I’ve thought about reuniting her with Kuri and giving them a strained and disappointing relationship too just because Yui would have a lot of psychological problems + an active addiction for Obvious reasons making it difficult for Kuri to bond with her but idk. Its fucked up to say but i don’t really worry about her a lot because she’s not nearly as influential to Kuris development as her dad is lol

#speaking from personal experience #sorry if this was word garbage