Listen I don’t know how to articulate this in an eloquent way but remember that part in sunflower vol. 6 “I dont want to make you feel bad, but I've been trying hard not to talk to you”? It’s like he’s saying I’m trying to protect your solitude but it’s hard, first of all because it’s not something you just know. You have to learn how to create a space where two people in a relationship still feel like they’re their own person, if that makes any sense.
Secondly, because it is a contradiction, if you think about it. Being a couple, being in a couple automatically deletes your solitude state, unless you seek for it, unless you ask for it.
Third, it creates uncertainty when you’re young and in love and you have all these feelings inside your chest they might as well just explode out of your lungs, you want them, you want to be with them (let me inside, wish I could get to know you) and it doesn’t matter how many years have passed since you first got together. There will always be this perpetual urge of belonging to someone that pushes you to just be around each other all the time, to know what’s happening, to worry about them and to take care of them. It makes you paranoid and insecure to know they asked you to wait for when they’re ready to not be alone anymore. It takes a lot of patience and growth and trust to just let them be and live on their own, you know? It’s probably the most selfless act of them all, even when that’s not what you would want (my eyes want you more than a melody, I couldn’t want you any more/I don’t want to be alone in golden).
And I could go on and on and on about how well this concept fits his entire discography.
I could mention Satellite’s «You got a new life, Am I bothering you? Do you wanna talk? Spinning out, waiting for ya to pull me in. I can see you're lonely down there. Don't you know that I am right here?».
Or Daylight’s «you got me cursing the daylight»
Or Canyon Moon’s «I’ll be gone too long from you»
Do I have to mention Adore you? ALL OF IT? Alright, I will: «You don't have to say you love me. You don't have to say nothing You don't have to say you're mine, honey. I'd walk through fire for you, Just let me adore you»
In conclusion, loving him is the antidote, solitude included.
[Such a huge development from Sweet creature’s «I always think about you and how we don't speak enough» by the way]
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When Katsuki was fallen on the ground…. he probably thought about Izuku rushing to his side and offering his hand to help pick him back up like he’s always done since they were kids
Katsuki needed to see his hero’s kind hand now more than ever... but it wasn’t there, at it’s usual place, outstretched and waiting for him… and he started crying because he realised that Izuku wasn't coming to save him this time…
so Katsuki focused all his resolve on doing his best to be strong for Izuku instead.
“Don’t give up, Dynamight! The guy you’re waiting for will… Deku will definitely come!”
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as the patron of the childhood friends trope, i offer u a brainrot inspired by sza's open arms solo version. imagine being childhood friends with sae — you grow up, fall apart, secretly yearn while apart, try to deserately reconnect then realize that he isn't the same person he used to be anymore and you have to let him go..... and it kills you inside.
"i gotta let you go i must, you're the only one that's holding me down." :"))))))))
omg nonnie i’ve never heard the song but i finally had time so i briefly like , read the lyrics and :’)))) why does it hit home </3
as kids, you guys were smitten and such, everything was easy and you didn’t feel like you had to try so hard. but then he goes so far away somehow, reaching places you can’t even try and you try to keep up and be okay with who he’s becoming just so you can make him stay. you think to yourself hey, as long as sae’s happy, this will work. so you bend your own rules, you break your back trying to shoulder all your own shit alone because he’s so busy with his own shit that your own problems don’t seem to have a place in his life. somehow you’ve decided that sae’s life is above yours, that his choices matter more and that you should be the one catering to it. you’re running yourself raggard and he can’t read your mind well enough now to be your anchor.
it isn’t even his fault alone, neither is it yours. he’s just becoming his own person, placing his priorities where he wants to; soccer at the top. and you, you’ve already lost yourself trying to become what you think is perfect for sae. in the end, in the bid to become closer, you’ve both drifted further than ever. even if you’re right there next to each other. and sae doesn’t have the energy to try and pull you back down to yourself, and you’re tired of giving too much. you’re both exhausted, and somehow you know the only option where you can both be happy is to just be apart.
he was the first person you ever loved. the first person who taught you what love is, and what love isn’t. he’s the guy who carried you through your childhood struggles and is still beside you now except he’s not who he was and neither are you. and you both still love each other but neither of you know how to love one another in this state, at this stage of life.
you love sae.
but you have to let sae go.
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And just like balloons we soar on our own
Finally free from the pain of our home
And just like balloons that no one will hold
Free from the truth
That no one will know ..
all of the pain
Far in the past
Yet echoes of screams
Forever will last.
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whatever u do do Not think abt how sad the line "i just hope, my perfect stranger, that my kids look more like yours" is . don't think about it
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SO I JUST MAKE A POST ABOUT LEAGUE OF LEGENDS MUSIC AND THEN PORTER FUCKING RPIBINSON RELEASES A SOJG FOR LEAGUE OF LEGENDS THAT TOTALLY UNMAKES ME HUH
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