#anyway my weekend was not good. personally

[astronicht]

I mostly do not mind how my brain works and I have only the occasional desire to pursue any label beyond the incomparable time a girl asked if I’m ADHD in the middle of sex (I wouldn’t guess that’s quite right, anyway), but I do get annoyed by how often I forget words. This weekend I repeatedly forgot the red tomato vodka drink and it keeps going away again. You don’t need to tell me bc I know what it is, the word is just gone. Sometimes the name of a person I know well goes away for weeks. Do you understand how good I am at talking around things? I once didn’t send ANYONE Christmas/holiday cards bc I forgot one guy’s name, bc he’d be left out. It’s a Bloody Mary.

#me trying to trick my coworker into repeating his order 15 seconds after a long discussion about Bloody Marys so I could at least echo #the correct noises at the bar

[drunkkenobi]

Well. This is the weirdest one of these I’ve ever made.

I’m not going to rehash the wank from the Watcher TV announcement. You all know what happened. I am standing by my assertion that this streaming platform is the only way they’re going to stay afloat because YouTube is just not the place for them or anyone else making videos that aren’t just of one person in their house. (nothing against those folks, it’s just a completely different business model)

Anyway.

First up, here’s how Mystery Files season 2 did. It did well, with each ep hitting a million fairly quickly, but it didn’t do as well as season 1. Not significantly worse, just not as high. (two weeks after season 1 ended, the average per episode was 1.854 and for s2 it’s at 1.194million) Of course, the two weeks since season 2 ended have been fucking insane so it’s impossible to say how much of that is a factor.

I will say that views between last week and this week are down overall, but that’s expected. If someone has paid for the streamer and you want to rewatch Ghost Files or whatever, you’re going to watch it ad-free on the app you pay for and not YouTube for the most part. Also it’s very possible people are just not rewatching stuff right now for their own personal reasons, which is fine. I also just don’t think it’s something to worry about.

For better or worse, the Goodbye YouTube video is the best opening weekend Watcher has ever had (and will have?) on YouTube.

Watcher lost around 100k subscribers over The Announcement but, again, if people are paying them directly now then this is kind of a non-factor. For posterity, they’re at 2.84 million subscribers today.

I’m not sure what else to say this time, tbh! It felt like a good time to make one of these with MF season 2 being over but YouTube viewcounts are just…not going to be important anymore for Watcher so there’s not much to say about them. Finding out that a million views only nets between $10-30k has been very eye-opening to me about how piddly the revenue from YouTube is for a production studio like Watcher. The shows they want to make just cost more than they can make off of there. It’s that simple. No one has to like that fact, but that is the heart of all this.

Also, with all of that being said, I think my time as a spreadsheet gremlin is coming to a close. I’m going to keep up with it for a few more weeks and probably do one last round-up for every single video’s views, but with Watcher moving away from YouTube as a business model, there’s little reason to keep up with these. I’ve been making these updates less this year anyway because of a job change and I was losing my steam for it a bit too, so the timing feels right. Like I said, this won’t be my last viewcount post, but maybe second-to-last? And who knows, maybe I’ll check in when Ghost Files premieres but the counts will mean so much less now that the videos will premiere with a month delay from the streamer. We’ll just have to wait and see how the wind blows on this.

Thank you all, as always, for reading, reblogging, replying, liking these posts. Y’all are the reason I’ve kept up with it for four years (and my own nosiness but having encouragement helps!). And don’t worry, I’m sure I’ll have some other spreadsheets to share in the future of Watcher fandom. (I have…so many) So, until next time, thanks again. ❤️

#watcher #my spreadsheets

[lilgynt]

anyway yesterday i had this huge break down like sobbing screaming throwing my self on the floor the whole 9 yards and it sounds like outtakes from the midsummer scene and any guess what started it. my dad asked me to buy rotisserie chicken

#personal #obviously lots of context but super funny #especially bc when i was throwing myself around i got a HUGE fucking bruise on my thigh #anyway my weekend was not good. personally #on thursday i went to like 4 stores and was looking for coffee (dad didn’t remember the name) and rotisserie chicken for my dad and his #dog. which i know bad but you have not tried having and elderly blind somewhat lost his mind or mostly it man as ur father for most ur life #you learn to just go with it #and during all of this i’m getting nothing but assholes on the road #like in the morning when i got breakfast for dad and i some lady cussed me out when i wouldn’t reverse into a drive through #and then after the first store some guy nearly hit me backing out of a parking space bc he was going super fast and turned around JUST to #flip me off. and i’m already annoyed bc i didn’t even want to run this errand for a fucking dog but it’s my dad so i keep going #so hit 3 more stores ask my dad if he remembers the coffee name (he requested i call him at the store) he did but it’s too expensive #(i offer to get it firmly but he’s freaking out) i leave and then my mom calls me and gets annoyed at me for not buying it anyway #go to the next store. the shit my dad just told me is to expensive is like 6 bucks more here and it’s too busy to go back to the other some #and i’m so upset but it’s only sale so small win. didn’t find the chicken anywhere #dad and mom start fighting when i get back and it’s so fucking frustrating #anyway that took over 2 hours and was very upsetting then the next day my dad is like #can you go back again 🥺 and i do but not before that huge break down #which during i was like did not know it upset me that much. but anyway ends with me getting locked in my room bc my dad #is coming over to give me batteries not even checking on or hearing the yelling and im naked and im so fucking upset that i don’t even have #a door anymore and it’s middle/high school again and i’m makes and crying and i don’t have a door and everyone’s allowed to come in whenever #naked and crying #bc it doesn’t matter wrre family and im so angry and i lock myself in start slamming on the door and my dads like what can i do and he can’t #see then i just rip the broken door knob from the door in sheer anger and then i spend the next two hours sobbing while looking for chicken #for my dad. did not find it btw. like some time looking for chicken some getting gas then food #so funny i texted my mom during it and she thought i was going to our usual store and texted me things she needed #and i only realized while inside the store i was actually in and started silently sobbing and hyperventilating bc my mom wanted me to go to #another store and she just promised this wouldn’t happen again and there’s no fucking chicken here #anyway i’ve been camping my room bc i don’t want to talk to my dad im not mad at him or anything but i just can’t do the last couple days #and my mom was really nice yesterday about it after hearing me sob and didn’t even give me shit when i said im staying hometoday l8r maybe?

[tenowls]

SYSTEM COLLAPSE!!!!!!!

#murderbot #murderbot diaries #system collapse #secunit #tarik #leonide #fanart #to the person who reserved the last of the 3 copies of sc available at dymocks sydney cbd on the 14th. shakes my fist at u #(its ok i just read the ebook and managed to get a physical copy on the weekend JHSDS) #anyway. how good was sc........ hammering home just how much mbd is a story abt the power of stories. HEEMHEEM #ART-drone adacol2 and HOLISM i love u too but MY ART SKILLS ARE LIMITED........

[roseworth]

what a fucking week (it’s 2 pm on a monday)

#i’m gonna have a very therapeutic lay on the ground for an hour tonight #i’m so fucking exhausted #also unrelated but vaguely related #the other day i told my supervisor i didn’t know how to do something she asked me to do #which was very hard for me! bc i’m not good at asking for help bc i don’t like to be annoying #anyways i asked her on friday and she never responded and i was like ‘ok she’s probably gone for the weekend and she’ll answer on monday’ #then i looked today and she just reacted with a 👍 to my message instead of. telling me how to do it #so i’m still stressed out about that but. girl i am so tired #i also promised myself i won’t get high in the middle of the week this week. so this is a test from god #and i may fail that test #we’ll try again next week #personal

[soldier-poet-king]

Will my suffering never cease

- went to good Friday evening service even tho it's not a day of obligation, didn't go yesterday evening to Maundy Thursday for a variety of reasons

- priest manages to fit homophobia and transphobia into his sermon. Not even gay marriage. Just unions, that let ppl share taxes and have hospital visiting rights. And big bad scary surgery. Like. Completely unrelated to the matter at hand. Says SO LITTLE abt the Passion, managed to talk for 10 minutes without really saying ANYTHING. Takes Pilate's 'what is truth' and instead of engaging in the long philosophical and theological discussion around that question, decides to use it as a rallying cry against wokeism and a godless progressive society.

- my two ex best friends were there. Ran into them. + One's husband, who I introduced her to a decade ago. Like I'm mostly over that, no longer shitty and resentful, fully know that it was partially my fault and born from my own terribleness at 19 and undiagnosed untreated mental illness. Still uhhh hurts tho??? As a reminder?

- music bad. Ok I'm petty. I'll give the trads (1) point. I don't like guitar mass. I will NOT agree with the trads in assigning moral weight to my aesthetic preference. It's simply a preference, which does not make any musical form inherently superior to the others. But the triduum really lends itself to Latin hymns and chants, in my heart. My other fave church music is traditional Black spirituals. I would greatly prefer either. But just. If it sounds like an acoustic version of a pop love song. I just. I can't. I KNOW I'm the weird about Jesus romantically girlie. But I am not vibin with this folks

Literally would have simply Walked Out. Hit da bricks during the homily. But was with my family so 1) cannot out myself 2) did not have house keys on me, so I was suck regardless

Anyway I said I wasn't going to do fun things today but I'm so upset and cranky and I did chores all day, I am going to catch up on dungeon meshi. Marcille is my best favourite cringefail girl I'm obsessed with her and surely the wlw neurotic fussy mage who loves her friends will not betray me like this

#the duality of fran #faith tag #also like #.highly unlikely that i was the only closeted queer person there #and obvs extra full of the triduum a lot of non regulars attending #so GLAD that they decided to make it such a lovely and welcoming environment for THE BIGGEST MOST SIGNIFICANT WEEKEND IN THE FAITH. #surely this will encourage people and make them feel welcome and loved and cared for #yes yes there's that flannery oconnor bit abt not judging priests harshly #but also. its one thing to have a bad homily #not discussing the philosophy of pilates question is fine. i get most ppl are not versed in greco roman thought #but the absolute just. whining reactionary social conservatism #ON GOOD FRIDAY??? #even going as far as to be like 'those few of us who keep the faith' #okay sir. this isnt some uwu im so special and faithful unlike all those abomination degenerate queers #gonna get gay married for tax purposes/green card out of spite #(green card both ways i can get u cad citizenship lmao) #remove my reproductive system. idgaf. uterus free to a good home. all it does is give me health problems anyway #tho that last one is less dysphoria and more just. it's a fuckin pain in my ass medically speaking #also the triduum is THEE celebration for the gay chrisitans. its john the beloved. its judas. its projecting for us ok

[eijiroukiriot]

it's been a sec since i've done a translation! but i think this comic is really sweet so translation under the cut!! the title on the comic is "kiribaku and tododeku who aren't public about their relationship (having mild heart attacks)", and the caption on the tweet is "i wanna read 10000 stories about people finding out about kiribaku and tododeku's relationships"

Hero Radio OFFTiME! On our program, you can hear top heroes spill a little bit about their private lives. Today's hosts are Deku and Red Riot! What kinds of things will they talk about? Let's see!

Midoriya: Man, you must be tired! You came here straight after a night shift, right? Are you feeling alright?

Kirishima: All good! Besides, you've been working ten days in a row, right? Good on you!

(word bubbles - Very, Very Tired)

M: Alright then, our first letter of the night...this one comes to us from BlueMackerel-san, who asks, "How did you spend your last day off?"

K: Uhh...oh yeah! Hiked 'n camped! And ate a ton of campfire food!

M: Oh, with Kacchan?

K: Yep!

M: He sure does like hiking.

Flashback Kirishima: WHOOPIE!!

Flashback Bakugou: Just eat it

M: What'd you two eat?

K: The works! Spare ribs, and homemade sausage, and meat, and more meat! Bakugou always packs a ton of meat to barbecue, it's crazy good! What about you?

M: Mmm...I slept in until around noon...and I think that day, Todoroki's family invited me over for dinner. His sister is a great cook!

Flashback Fuyumi: Welcome, welcome!

K: Coooool. So we both ended up just spending the day with our boyfriends, huh-

M: UH- um-

K: Huh? OH-! Cut! Cut!! Can you guys pretend you didn't hear that last...

M: Ohhhh my goddddddd

Narration: Our next letter comes to us from DieYouScum-san, who writes, "I'm killing you when you get home"

#kiribaku #tododeku #translation #bnha #this is a short one that's mostly kirishima and deku talkin but i think it's very cute #i'm also still completely in shock that tumblr now lets you go back and fix typos in tags #good on ya tumblr stuff #this is just a super quick translation before bed and i played it kinda fast and loose w the expressions!! but i did my best to get the #meaning across!! #to talk abt mostly unrelated stuff yesterday on my way home from a long weekend i dropped by tokyo and to a huge anime resale store #they had soooo much bnha stuff but pointedly they had a whole separate building across the street for doujinshi #my local anime resale store lately has gotten so few bnha doujin that they stopped sorting them by ship so it's basically not worth looking #but this one had a ton of krbk all laid out and i was this close to not even going into the store but i came out w a little stack! #crazy to see so much krbk in person that i even had my /pick/ of safe fluffy stuff #anyway one of the ones i bought is abt them living together and the cover illustration is kirishima elbowing bkg in his sleep #i was gonna not just read more krbk before bed tonight but it looks so sweet and up my alley #ik i don't post much on here anymore and it's mostly bc adult life saps the paragraph-typing/thread-typing energy out of me #but those guys still have an apartment in my brain #hope you guys are doing well!!

[a-libra-writes]

could an allistic person do THIS?

#wait i think i did the meme wrong. ANYWAY #this is what happens when im left to my own devices on a long weekend #yes I did all the lackadaisy peeps + mordecai #and yes I cant believe fcking Rocky & Freckle got such good starting items + accurate skill what the FUCK #and and yes yes ... this is a 6 person game of arkham with 2 expansions. bc thats the sort of weekend we're having yall #ok back to devils moon (sob) #lackdaisy #arkham horror #rocky rickaby #tabletop simulator

[lunasilvis]

I'm so tired, but at least get to play bass tomorrow noon in some questionable shed with friends

#the link between being tired and this planned event is actually non-existent. therefore proof of my sleepiness #:-) #anyways it's a good and chill weekend #Almost 12 at night. who am I #sleep well #personal

[quarantineddreamer]

I think a natural consequence of being chronically ill/immunocompromised is becoming more…germ opposed. (Im not gonna say hypochondriac but I mean yeah, I guess that).

Anyways I hate how it forces me to constantly be on my toes about getting sick and how in turn…I get perceived/treated like I’m overreacting and ruining things (example; visiting family rn and I can hear my father in law hacking up a lung and now I’m sitting here like..fuuuuck I don’t wanna leave the room! I don’t wanna get sick! I just started a new med, I’m in as little pain as I have been in nearly two months and I’ve worked so hard to get here and i don’t want to get sick)

But my FIL is also the type of guy who will be weird about me feeling this way (uncomfortable/anxious). Plus there is supposed to be a gathering at the house tonight where he has invited a friend who he’s proclaimed multiple times to be anti-vax 🙃

Anyways why am I writing all this out? Who tf knows I can’t exactly talk about it freely rn and do don’t want it to live in my brain where it’s gnawing at me from the inside out

#chronically yours #(don’t even get me started on the marital drama in this house hold) #(not mine but) #(I think I’m gonna get a stomach ulcer from all the awkward this weekend) #I just wanna be a good spouse and supportive partner and I really do love my in laws but #selfishly? I want my fucking health back and all this is just a lot 🥲 #b rambles #personal #plz ignore me and this scream into the void #it probably all sounds very stupid anyways #like these are not real problems

[seekingthestars]

hey besties how're y'all doing 🥺🫶

#personal #i always come on here and complain about me WELL NOT TODAYYYYY #i've been playing lots of pikmin 4 (i have never played pikmin) and i'm having a blast!! #wanna talk to me about pikmin?? #also i think i'ma buy me some pokemon cards as a pre-stressful-week present HAHA i found some really cute ones!!!!!! #has anyone seen the live action spirited away?? #my friends and i had a little watch party a couple weekends ago to watch it and i LOVEEEE #the costumes are gorgeous!! and the cast was soooo good ahhh #anyway i just wanted to stop in and say hi and check up on you guys <3 #pls note that when i say 'besties' i am referring to all of you. i don't care if we've never talked before ever u r a bestie now

[arsonist-chicken]

btw in absolutely unsurprising news I fucked up the exam of that class I'm taking for the third time badly again.

in very surprising news, apparently Something happened, idk if the dean said something to the professor or I looked like a distressed broken down wet rat enough or he just doesn't want to see me in his class again or idk, maybe it's not good for him if someone fails his class three times, but he actually offered that I could do a written exam on friday instead? which. is extremely surprising. good, because it gives me another afternoon to study and I can draw and go back to questions on a written exam, even if I have to shuffle around the other exams and papers now, just. very surprising.

#lol but next semester is the fucking seminar again with also the same professor #idk how you can teach such shitty classes regularly and never think hmmm maybe i should change something #with the amount of people having to take the classes at least twice #anyway good for me i'll keep crying over uni the rest of the week and the weekend too and then i'll do stuff next week #like i need to call my insurance and annoy them in person until they say yes to any therapist who will have me #and call the other thing #and oh i really need to find a different GP because i'm soundly back at the stage of where i can literally not think two sentences #after each other without trailing off or it taking up extremely much energy just to remember which store i wanted to go to #and i'm aware that stress and mental illness causes brain fog or whatever #but i've been stressed before but this only started last autumn and i need a different doctor to look at it #who won't just say oh it's just iron levels #there's something wrong with my brain and i need someone competent who actually cares to look at it and tell me #if therapy will fix this or if it's a physical problem #please let it be just brain fog htat therapy can fix i don't have time for this #i just want to sleep and cry until this bs is over but semester break starts next week but i still have exams then and a whle list of #stuff to do for uni still plus stuff otuside. like a doctor. and sleep a normal amount instead of in weird horu intervals on my desk and in #my clothes on my bed or floor or wherever i am at the moment my brain decides it's over now #also friends. i wanted to catch up. also a job. like. yeah i need a job even if idk how i'll do uni and a job with the way my brain is righ #now #huh. oh i have another exam in half an hour. send help i don't want to go to uni anymore #mine #still don't know what that class or the seminar next semester are about btw but we moce #*move #goddamn it I'm TIRED and not just in the physical sense #i'm so goddamn done with uni and insurances deciding about psychotherapy and the general state of the world and cost of living #and i miss my friends and i want to visit them but nither them nor me have time and travelling is expensive #and ijust want a goddamn fucking break but i don't see one comign anytime soon. not before summer #but probably not even then #and after that i'll start working so like #at least no goddamn seminars anymore but i still absolutely dread having to decide where i want to work a

[hillerskaroyals]

i know we’ve gone through a rollercoaster of emotions about malin after snow globe gate but when wille asks her to take him to simon’s she says “Hi Wilhelm” not “kronprins” or some other variation of his title. outside of boris i think she’s the only authority figure to refer to wille by name

#young royals #the beginnings of a malin redemption arc #also ik her job is to protect him from threats so what wille tell her to convince her to drive him?? #bc i don’t think ‘hey malin can you take me to simons house so i can offer to abdicate so we can date’ would have gone over well #also clearly she couldn’t have known bc this would be another supposed threat to the monarchy which i assume she would have to try and stop #is this canon malin being a little fanon and lowkey rooting for wilmon 👀 #there’s a good chance we’ll never know bc wille made that decision for everyone during his speech #malin has no choice but to outwardly support wilmon but i like to think she would have done it anyways #she definitely had to know someone was in wille’s room in s1 bc simon was not quiet #she probably heard the ‘you should come visit me in bjärstad sometime’ and then wille immediately makes a beeline for bjärstad that weekend? #they were def caught in 4k #anyway shoutout malin for seeing wille as a person not a prop/title #young royals season 2 spoilers #yr s2 spoilers #my yr thoughts

[vulpinesaint]

truly the power of accessories is insane. you can wear the same black jeans and black tshirt every day and get told that your outfit is cool every time. to me it's so silly cause my accessories are all super familiar to me so when someone says "i love your outfit" and i'm in black jeans and a black tank top i go. i'm just wearing jeans and a tank top lol. thanks though <3 (i am not dressed like a normal person in literally any other aspect of my appearance) (i also think i look really fucking good in black jeans and tank top and would think i deserved the compliment even without the boots and earrings and cuffs and bracelets and multiple necklaces and eyeliner and—)

#legitimately went 'i'm just wearing jeans and a tank top???' earlier. when person said they liked my outfit #they Certainly meant the fucking. little bat stickers on my face. and Multitude of fun little accessories. #and probably even the five inch platform boots. when they said that. on top of the clothes. #so effortlessly gorgeous and halloween coded i do it without trying <3 or even being conscious of what i look like. elle oh elle #anyway i Do look really good in jeans and tank top miffy can confirm. miffy was telling me how good the jeans fit me this weekend #and i rlly like how that tank top fits. so. hee hee #valentine notes

[drumlincountry]

sometimes I feel like i'm Not Doing Enough but that's only because i'm dumb and forgetful

#First: anything is enough. Living and breathing is enough #Going to a seaside market with my favourite person on a Sunday afternoon is enough #Taking care of my very very drunk friend after they downed a whole bottle of wine at a party is enough. #As well as these things! I'm organising like. 4 Union things in the next month or so #I am facilitating a community group this weekend and if all goes well they'll multiply the area they represent 5 fold #I am going on fucking. Day long hikes thru waist high heather. For the good of the ecosystem. #And i'm wearing gay tshirts while I do it #I'm good. I'm doing so fucking much #Anyway. If anyone needs me i'll be eating cheesecake in the bath #Me Fein

[aaronstveit]

hiiii tumblr 💕

#what a week i have had tumblr!!! #you may remember my new dog from last weekend! her name is back to foxy and will remain as such <3 #i have been sick this week and very miserable and i become an emotional mess when i am sick so i have been #EXTREMELY overwhelmed with foxy </3 #BUT !!!! i finally feel better today and i also feel better with my new fuzzy friend!!! #i have figured out what i need in my day to not be completely overwhelmed and i think i will no longer have any meltdowns about her #foxy is doing well and our other dogs are adjusting well to her presence!! i think she and bear will grow to be great friends #she still has her stitches from being spayed but when they come out next week she'll be able to play more & i think they'll both enjoy that #unfortunately i have gotten literally no reading done since she came to live with us so RIP to my readathon but that is okay!! in good news #i HAVE watched almost all of the good place this week bc it's what i watch when i'm sick & even though i'm not sick anymore i'm Invested #okay life update over it's almost foxy's bedtime so i must go!! anyway ily gay people in my phone <3333 #personal post