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nooshywrites · 2 years

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so uhh it’s been almost over a month since i posted anything on here and i just wanted to apologize for not posting and leaving randomly. i’m trying my best to keep up with asks / dms / tags / replies and i’m sorry for not responding if you’ve dm’d or tagged me or sent something to my inbox. i just haven’t had the energy or motivation to reply to a lot of stuff lately. there are only certain people i’m actually talking to right now, which makes me feel like a really shitty person because i feel like i’m ignoring people who are trying to check up on me and make sure i’m okay. but thank you so much for the love and support, i genuinely appreciate it. i really miss being on here and interacting with you guys. it’s like 3am here and i’m really sleep deprived but i feel like you deserve an explanation, so i’m going to try my best to say everything best as i can.

so most of you following me know i just made this blog not that long ago because my old one was being attacked by some toxic fans from the creepypasta community and my account was deactivated by tumblr so i came here to continue writing. i posted like three things before deleting everything on my blog because i needed a break for my mental health. after my break i said i’d start posting again, which hasn’t happened.

maybe like a few weeks ago i had a falling out with one of my ‘friends’, who was a creepypasta content creator and one of my first friends on here. they convinced me to write stuff about my rewrites of the Laughing Jack story, but they became very toxic and narcissistic towards me. they insulted me trying to cover it up as helping me, and then tricked me into almost letting them use my rewrites of characters in a story they basically forced me into being okay with it when i wasn’t. they’ve had a big impact on my mental health, along with turning another of my friends against me for the purpose of getting back at me and fucking with my feelings because i left and they can’t walk all over me anymore and they aren’t happy about it. i won’t mention their name in this post because i don’t want to start anything up with them, to be honest i don’t want anything to do with them, but that’s one reason i haven’t been on here much.

i’ve also realized my passion for writing got mixed up with my need for acceptance and attention. i panicked whenever posts flopped and i didn’t get any notifications. i guess i’m just scared of not being wanted, my anxiety and depression and past abuse sort of mixes in with everything and hurts me a lot.

this is cheesy sounding as fuck but like, i feel like i live off your love and support. of course i’m doing this for fun and because it’s what makes me happy, but then i have days when i’m just so attention starved and i don’t have a lot of people to help me with that and so i come here to get the love and attention i desperately crave, and when i have days where i do nothing and receive nothing, it triggers some unhealthy feelings and episodes that hurt my mental progress. i feel like it’s unfair to you guys and that i failed you by not being here and not responding to asks and dms. i’m really sorry to those who have reached out to me. i wanted to respond asap but the days keep going by and i haven’t felt like i can keep up with anything.

so here’s my plan. i’m going to take an actual break for myself. i don’t know how long, maybe a few weeks or a month, to take care of myself and sort out my issues so i can be here and not feel shitty and be able to interact and be with you all like you deserve. because you guys literally deserve the world, especially @glassartpeasants and @immortal-velociraptor for sticking with me through all this. i love you guys so much and i’ll be back soon.

— 💕 Nooshy

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months

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💙❤️Happy Holidays!❤️💙

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #lan wangji #wei wuxian #This is *specifically* fanart of the interfaith christmas cards featuring santa and his jewish rabbi husband spending time together #Why? Well as I was trying to think of things to draw for the season I realized there was another classic Blue and Red pairing to reference #They are going out for chinese food after this photoshoot. Kosher of course.#I want them to star in an interfaith hallmark film. A meet cute + save christmas + murder mystery in a small town kind of story #Or! Maybe they are just going to have a chill holiday break together and bake some treats with the extended family #So many fun possibilities about this bonkers concept I have no intention of making a bigger deal out of #speaking of Big Deals though;#If you have ever wanted to show appreciation for this (free) daily comics blog then I have one Holiday request:#If you have the means to - please donate your money to either a local food bank or a Yemen relief fund #there are so many people going without food and every bit helps. Truly would be the best holiday treat ever #and if you do not celebrate this holiday season…it’s also my birthday! You wouldnt want to let down the birthday cat would you?#(DISCLAIMER: it may or may not actually be my birthday. I may just be pressing emotional buttons to influence people to my cause)#(DISCLAIMER 2: I cannot vouch for any charities you donate to. Please be cautious and research properly before donating)

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libr-0-cubicularist · 4 months

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Saw my two favorite little guys in the LU coloring book pages and was immediately possessed by the need to color them. Thank you @sraksha for the gorgeous line art <33

different version under the cut

#my art #linked universe #digital art #collab #kinda #lu four #lu shadow #this was really fun and I’ll probably do more of these in the future #Think I’m gonna take a short break from digital art after that one though lol #I miss my micron pens lol (my brain can’t function with drawing on smooth surfaces)#as always click for better image quality because tumblr likes to throw it out the window #others art

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lunarharp · 2 months

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What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this.#wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it...#some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself...#maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts.#orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little.#certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'.#i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

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buglaur · 2 months

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trying to create an accurate simself hair out of sheer procrastination

#i have so much to do AHHHHH #so many assignments due.. so little done.. guhhhh #bring on easter break i have so much video game time to catch up on #i did get my first ever tattoo yesterday though 😎#lil skyrim one #hoping to get matching helix piercings with my friend the day after paddy's day as well 🤞#see u again in like another week simblr #gn its midnight 👋#just realised it kinda looks like i'm half ginger.. it's just orange lighting lol

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curioscurio · 4 months

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Sorry I haven't been as active lately!! I got both a job and a banging girlfriend in the first week of 2024 so there's been little time for art or shitposting but!! Things are looking up for once and I'm super proud of all the hard work I've put into getting here! Im really happy right now! 2024 is the year of the Cassie (wario for luck)

#i also now work in a TEA SHOP. what luck!!!#after like 3 years straight of depression and dysfunction. cassie finally gets a break #god my girlfriend is so. amazing though. shes so smart and compassionate and beautiful and sexy as fuck and funny and #i actually had my first day at work today too and it was tiring but lovely

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funkylittlebats · 7 months

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"Man I wish the McElroy's had continued Commitment or Dust, I would've loved listening to those! I would've listened to them over and over again!" << says guy who has only ever done relistens of Balance, never finished Amnesty, and never even started listening any of the other campaigns.

#taz #the adventure zone #taz balance #taz amnesty #taz commitment #taz dust #taz graduation #taz ethersea #taz steeplechase #i do plan to start listening to steeplechase after my current relisten of balance is over #i would restart amnesty but i tried to recently then say a spoiler for the finale when i was 2/3 through the campaign and i just couldn't #so i won't be listening to amnesty for probably at least 4 years or more #however long it takes me to forget most of the details of the campign + the spoiler i saw #but once i finish steeplechase #WHICH I WILL BC I'M RLY LOOKING FORWARD TO JUSTIN'S GMING I SWEAR I'LL FINISH THIS CAMPIGN I PROMMY #i'll probably move onto tiny heist on dimension 20 #and then either taz grad or ethersea #though i'm sure i'll sqeeze in a relisten to both commitment and dust before that #after grad/ethersea (whichever i choose idk yet)#will be time for a short taz break followed by my 4th or 5th relisten to balance #fuckin love that campaign #saving up for a tattoo of it #haven't decided if i'll do the bureau of balance symbol or fisher yet

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biblically-accurate-dca · 9 months

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experimental sunman yaaaay

(ruin spoilers under the cut)

#my art #daycare attendant #dca fandom #sundrop #sunnydrop #eclipse #<- for real this time #ruin spoilers #eyestrain #im still figuring out eclipse in my brain.... but overall they actually havent changed much abt my interpretation of the dca #since my hc for them is that they started off as eclipse while they were being used for the theater #and then they somehow separated into sun and moon after they were reprogrammed for the daycare #and then the virus came along and further separated the two from each other.....#which makes eclipse seem more like a 3rd person rather than the previous combined state of the two... so who knows how the hell they work #i really like the ambiguity tho :] i've always enjoyed it when the line between sun vs moon is super blurry and uncertain #it makes it more interesting #anyway. tumblr kept fucking up my post format on mobile so i had to fix this on desktop lol. if it breaks again though im shitting myself #ruin eclipse

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pa-pa-plasma · 25 days

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#Danny Phantom #because i'm so close to finalizing part one of FOtPoD & i want to post it so bad but also i'm so nervous i might just freeze & never do it #i need to take a break from this fic for a while after part one is posted cuz i literally am going insane lol #hopefully not too long though cuz there's 12 parts & i'd like to publish all of them #in the meantime i will be sitting in my room vibrating at the speed of sound blasting music & going crazy

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tomaturtles · 7 days

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IT'S KAWOSHIN DAY!!! As well as the last day of Kawoshin Week :') It's been such a blast, gonna miss it when it's over

Kawoshin Week Day 7: Cuddling/domestic fluff! + Sleepover and Spinoffs (again)! Based on the Campus Apocalypse sleepover chapter ☺️

#shinji ikari #kaworu nagisa #kawoshin #neon genesis evangelion #campus apocalypse #nge #nge ca #toma draws #kawoshinweek2024 #CAwoshin again! wanted to ensure my favorite niche kawoshin got some representation in the week in case no one else did stuff with them...#which wasn't the case since literally every fill for the spinoffs prompt has been campus apocalypse!!! which i'm overjoyed about 🥺#my second option for today was finishing a sonicverse kawoshin wip for the free day prompt. but i already included sonic in the week with-#the song lyrics i used for my day 5 piece so i went with this instead #also went with this because. um. my original plan for today was actually. a CA fic for these same prompts set after said sleepover chapter #but i'm neither fast nor confident at writing so i. haven't finished it (i DID get it to almost 1500 words so far though! progress)#so i thought i'd color something i drew while thinking about it :')#i did it while taking a break from my day 5 piece and was pretty loose about it so it's not super polished and i'm not sure how i feel abt-#the colors but! it hits the soft cozy vibe i was going for and that's good enough for me #if i manage to finish the fic within the year i might still include it as a very late week entry... no promises though. we'll see

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art-killed-the-superstar · 8 months

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whenever i'm alone with you, you make me feel like i am home again whenever i'm alone with you, you make me feel like i am whole again

alternate ending to s4 because i can't stand the fact that they never reconciled on screen

#tmnt #tmnt 2003 #leosagi #leosagi 2003 #katanashipping #it breaks my fucking heart that they never spoke again after samurai tourist like what the actual fuck.#all i wanted was for these two to get some fucking closure #and even though it wouldn't make much sense plotwise... i would have loved to see leo break down in usagi's arms #lovesong by the cure is SUCH a leosagi song fight me

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shokushii · 11 months

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hello echo enjoyers. im now suffering from brainrot also.

also also idk why but the stock image thing really tickled me. love this slow-typing ass office gila and his toothpicks <3

(and the horrors) (lmao)

#chase hunter #flynn moore #echo project #echo vn #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #art #clip studio paint #shoku.scribbles #anywho!#im going through this in the wackiest possible route order i feel like lmao #i went flynn -> leo -> tj -> jenna (still in the middle of it rn)#after doing carls im gonna do flynns again before goin to the other games #felt like flynns route was the most packed and charged route so far but maybe im saying that because its the first one i played even though #i now keep seeing people to leave his for last lmaoo #well i wasnt gonna be an asshole and leave him to sulk of course i followed him at the river dsjkfsdk #anywho anywho the real mvp of this game is kudzu. give that poor guy a break #ill draw him next i think #anywho anywho anywho. yeah. what a game. yes im delaying thinking about the horrors by drawing shut up <3 #also im very happy with how this came out :-)

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puppyeared · 2 months

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gregnant

anton belongs to @poicyss

#someone help them LMAO #im all kinds of panic induced stress rn so. woe pregant auggie be upon ye #shes very excited but also extremely fucking nervous and couldnt think of any other way to break the news #also because how do you deal with the spawn of a literal shadow creature. what the fuck do u do #im sure theyve probably discussed the possibility of being parents once in a while but not like actually intended to conceive #idk much else though ive never been pregnant. shrugs #i think her bump is probably smaller bc vincent forms as a dog before he takes on human form a couple months after being born #so the fetus is smaller.. although its more obvious when shes in her animal form so she doesnt transform while pregnant just in case #can you tell ive thought abt this a normal amount #my art #myart #doodles #my oc #friend oc #augusta #anton #suggestive #?#i mean kinda..? its implied this is after they boink but not much else #oc lore

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bonefall · 3 months

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can fallenleaf die? if yes, does her spirit become the new god of autumn?

I'm honestly not sure yet, both because I like to keep my magical systems vague until I need them due to the "nature" of needing to fit canon's events, and also because Fallenleaf is doing something never seen before!

Right now though, I think it's working in the sense that the two of them are slowly merging. Come back in a few hundred years, and Fallenleaf and Sol are going to be essentially the same person, one personality just more dominant than the other. But it's also important to note that people change. Even gods.

Not only are they going to merge, but they're also going to grow into someone new. It'll call itself Fallenleaf, or perhaps have new titles, but it's not just going to just be one of its components. Kinda like Steven Universe, y'know? Only a lot slower, less "equal," and irreversible. Garnet isn't just Ruby + Sapphire. She is a person in and of herself.

If it's interrupted though, I think it would depend on where in that "process" it's halted. Likeeee... if you took the bone out of a stew before its marrow fully dissolved. You can't remove the broth that remains. Sol would be altered in some way, and so would Fallenleaf.

But eventually, if Fallenleaf's mortal vessel falters in several hundred years and she dies, there won't really be a Sol Soul to "trap" anymore. It's going to be part of her.