#caleb fucked around

[constantlymisspelled]

Third part of No Order 66 AU is up!

It is, unfortunately, not a fun one. There are a great deal of warnings in the tags of the fic, so please read them.

Caleb and Cal were once the very best of friends - but war is a painful burden, and not one children should ever have to bear.

Somehow, Commander Grey will make this right. For his Cadet.

(If you don't want to read this installment, that's fine. It depicts a physical altercation between minors, and has subtle nods to some rather nasty stuff, so a content warning is advised, for all the allusions to Death and Gore are not explicit.)

((Technically part of the Kesett Series, but the ship doesn't appear, so I'm not tagging it.)

#star wars #fanfic #star wars fanfiction #cal kestis #caleb dume #commander grey #original clone characters #13th battalion #13th iron battalion #star wars the clone wars fanfiction #caleb fucked around #and cal personally directed him to the find out corner #and grey had to deal with 2 angry children #he is not paid enough for this #actually he isn't paid at all #he should talk to someone about that

[its-your-mind]

the transgender swag exhibited by the m9 is off the charts.

Four of them go by chosen names. Beau’s dad wanted her to be a boy, and is disappointed that she isn’t. Fjord remade his personality to mimic the only father-figure in his life. The two strongest people in the party are both girls. The person with the long pink hair and undercut and teal/pink mushroom aesthetic has the deepest voice in the party by a COUNTRY MILE. Caleb grew his hair long and shaved his beard as soon as he felt it was safe enough. Mollymauk Tealeaf is there.

#critical role #the mighty nein #I am aware! that Molly is canonically fucking around with gender shenanigans #but like. what the fuck the cast went off with the gender vibes all at once without consulting each other #11/10 #nott the brave #caleb widogast #jester lavorre #mollymauk tealeaf #beauregard lionett #fjord stone #yasha nydoorin #caduceus clay #c2 spoilers #cr2 spoilers

[charlieconwayy]

Top 50 OTPs of All Time ☆ #46. Lucas Sinclair & Max Mayfield

"Okay, look. I don't need a letter. I don't want a letter. Just talk to me, to your friends. We're right here. Okay? I'm here."

#lumaxedit #strangerthingsedit #stedit #lucas x max #lucas sinclair #max mayfield #50otps #* #gifs: stranger things #was never invested in them until s4 came and obviously turned that right the fuck around #i just love the amount of pure joy and comfort they bring each other #my fav line delivery of st4 is “i thought we lost you” the way caleb says it hit straight into my soul #and i love sadie's face/delivery on “yeah you might've been there”

[incorrect-mighty-nein]

Jester: So, Essek, what made you want to repent after what you did?

Essek: I suppose you all just…helped me see the error of my ways

Jester:

Essek:

Jester: it was Caleb, wasn’t it?

Essek: …It was Caleb…

#don’t lie #Essek knew he fucked up once Caleb gave him the disappointed look #and I know I’m right because he’s been especially awkward around Caleb during their time in Eiselcross #critical role #the mighty nein #incorrect quotes #jester lavorre #essek thelyss #caleb x essek #the mighty queue

[mini-minish]

i like thinking about how the mighty nein linger on each other after the finalle in things like caduceus dropping something or burning something in the oven and letting out a curse word and his entire familly turning to look at him like he grew a second head

#calliope: HSKDHDKHEKSHXK???????? #caduceus clay #the mighty nein #m9 #critical role #cr #caleb and beau bickering and playing around regaining together all the childhood they never had #and then theres caduceus hitting his fingers while gardening and yelling FUCK #(yelling as in half a tone higher than his usual voice)

[thedragonagelesbian]

bringing back my ‘the mighty nein is a story about stories’ meta in light of how the two-shot ended with caleb telling essek about their latest adventure bc like........ thats it. that is so much of the campaign crammed into about forty five seconds: who you share your story with, how the people you love change the narratives you tell about yourself, and what story you choose for yourself when you finally have the option

#critical role #cr spoilers #shadowgast #caleb widogast #essek thelyss #i need them all back in the tower asap btw #idk how to explain to matt mercer that i dont care about plot or combat #he could dm four straight hours of the mighty nein fucking around in the tower and i would be stated #*sated. whatever.

[aeoris4lovers]

Angstpril 2023 Day One: Liar

There were very few things in life that Eadwulf insisted upon without any chance of compromise. Choosing battles was a matter of survival under the tutelage of Master Ikithon; incurring punishment was easy enough to do even without the added risk that stubbornness presented. To resist bending only made it inevitable that one would eventually have to break, and as far as Eadwulf was concerned, the world offered little of great enough importance to justify tempting that fate.

It was not an oath made lightly, then, when he promised that he would return every day that he was able to one particular cell in the depths of Vergesson Sanatorium.

Astrid refused to speak to him for weeks after the incident, after what he did that night to save her from a fate far worse than a scar. So, with no one there to swear it to, he made his promise to the gods themselves.

He knelt on the floor of his bedroom, hands clasped together in his lap. Outside the small window above his bed, the cool light of the nearly-full moon fanned out across the skies, setting the shadowed room aglow with the night’s ghostly haze. His gaze settled on the nearest mountain peaks; ancient and immense and unmoving, he thought they must be the closest things to gods he would ever lay his eyes on. When thoughts of his past, of his people, of his own actions that night threatened to creep to the front of his mind, he pressed them back into the darkness of memory. They were gone now; there was nothing more to be done for them. Instead, he turned his thoughts again to Bren, to bright red hair and wild eyes and roaring flames and the crack of rock against bone. 

“If I condemned him to this fate,” he whispered, so quiet it was more thought than speech, “let me be the one to see him through it.”

Only a moment later, the soft moonlight was eclipsed by the silhouettes of two ravens coming to rest on the windowsill, and he knew somewhere deep within him that his oath had been sealed.

The next morning, he rose earlier than usual and ate his breakfast as quickly as he could manage to hold it down. The sun still hadn’t even begun to show itself in the young day’s sky when he slipped past the guards at the sanatorium, giving each of them a look which told them not to stand in his way if they valued their lives. They had no way of knowing that, in truth, he wasn’t sure if he would have the courage to make good on that threat; they only saw the determination in his eyes and stepped aside. 

As he pushed through hall after hall, he wasted no time looking at anything other than the faces in each cell, searching for blue eyes and red hair. Any strange looks that may have been aimed his way were lost in the blur of stone and bars and wrong faces. 

When he finally turned a corner and saw a short-cropped burst of orange in the nearest cell, he was just in time to stop the guard who was preparing to enter with whatever sad excuse for a breakfast they had prepared for the day. He caught the guard by the arm, stooping down to look her in the eye, and pressed a few coins into her hand.

All he said was, “Let me.”

She stared at him for a long few seconds, head tilted to one side, before shrugging.

“If you insist.”

Handing him the tray of oatmeal and water, she unlocked the door of Bren’s cell and started off toward the next one down, leaving Eadwulf there alone. He slipped through the door, closed it behind him, and crouched down next to Bren, truly taking in his current state for the first time. 

Perhaps the most noticeable thing should have been how beat up he was – the dark bruises, the blood that no one had bothered to wash from his skin. But instead, all Eadwulf could see was how empty he looked. There was always such a fire behind his eyes, a kind of passion and life there, like his mind was working so feverishly to puzzle the world together that you could watch it happening from the outside, and now? That fire had been all but doused. His eyes were glazed over, wandering helplessly around the space, looking through it all and not truly seeing any of it. There was a slight strain on his face, a clench to his brow that Eadwulf knew his resting face didn’t possess, which betrayed some process of thought, no doubt an unpleasant one. It was distant, though, and passive, as though the thoughts had taken on a life of their own within his mind and he, in this clouded state, was helpless to resist or engage them at all. When his gaze finally fell on Eadwulf, there was a soft spark of recognition that sent Eadwulf’s heart into his throat.

Eadwulf returned every morning after that, and again every night, so long as he wasn’t off on a mission or locked away for the sake of some punishment. Each morning, he fed Bren whatever breakfast the guards had prepared, careful to make it a far more gentle process than the other meals likely involved. As Bren’s hair grew longer with time, Eadwulf took to brushing it, and trimming it when the ends began to fray. A few times, he considered cutting it short again; surely, it would be more comfortable for Bren to have less of it. But there was no ignoring how his eyes fluttered closed at the feeling of it being brushed, or how he hummed in a way that almost seemed to approach contentment — better to keep it long, Eadwulf always ultimately decided. 

At night, Eadwulf would clean him — easy enough to do with a simple spell, but most nights Eadwulf wiped his face and hands the mundane way first, probably more for his own sake than for Bren’s — and tended to whatever wounds may have been sustained since the last visit. Then, he would take out whatever books he had been able to find that day, sit by Bren’s side, and read. Bren’s favorite of the books, judging by the way his eyes brightened ever so slightly at the sight of its cover, was an old children's story about a young boy and a cat prince, so they always started and finished with that one. In between, they cycled through as many of the other books as Eadwulf thought they safely had time for, and by the time he closed the fairytale for the final time, Bren was almost always slumped against his side, asleep. 

Eventually, once the rifts between them had been repaired, Astrid joined him for some of his visits, though she was quickly given more responsibilities than him and often found it more difficult to get away. On those days, Astrid would braid Bren’s hair once he had brushed it in the mornings, and alternated reading with him at night.

And after every nighttime visit, he would sit in his bed and write a few lines in a journal: how the day’s visits had gone, what had gone on in the outside world that day or over the past few days, what he and Astrid were doing in their own lives. Someday, he told himself, Bren would have his mind back. Someday, he would hand over the journal, a meticulous record of the days Bren was locked away. Someday, Bren would be able to read it, and it would be as if he hadn’t missed a thing at all.

In all that time spent in Bren’s cell, Eadwulf never feared being discovered by Master Ikithon — not out of carelessness or apathy toward the consequences he would inevitably incur, but because he knew it was foolish to assume he hadn’t already been discovered at the very start. The archmage’s gaze took immense care to avoid, and nowhere was it more omnipresent than in the halls of the sanatorium. The chances that he had gone unnoticed were laughably slim — it was better to assume Master Ikithon was well aware, that a confrontation would come soon enough.

And come it did.

One morning, nearly two years into his visits, Eadwulf arrived at Bren’s cell to see his teacher standing there, calmly watching him approach. Inside the cell, he could see Bren’s eyes wide and his face held more tensely than usual. He was shifting slightly where he sat, as though his own body were the walls of a prison preventing him from running away.

All at once, Eadwulf was overcome with the urge to run forward, to lunge at Ikithon, to scream, because how dare he come here and strike that kind of fear into someone so helpless, hasn’t Bren been through enough? But he pushed the urge down and kept calm as he walked in spite of it. It was him that the archmage was angry with, it was him who would face the consequences of his actions; Bren had no reason to be afraid.

As it turned out, neither did he. Master Ikithon wasn’t angry, not at Eadwulf nor Bren; he never said or even suggested that Eadwulf would be punished, and the calm smile never fell from his face. He seemed entirely unfazed — pleased, even — by Eadwulf’s actions. 

“You are welcome to visit our dear Bren whenever you wish, Eadwulf,” he said in a tone that could almost be mistaken for good-natured, “as is Miss Becke. In fact, I think it’s wonderful that you three have grown to care so much for each other, even after all this time. By all means, do continue to come visit him if it pleases you.” Moving closer, he added in a lower tone, “I would only urge you to remember that it is for you, yes? As much as it pains me to say this, Bren is — how shall I put this? — absent, by all accounts. You are a smart boy, I have no doubt you’ve noticed. Each time you leave this place, it is to him as if you were never here at all; he won’t remember. The sharp young man we knew is, I’m afraid, no longer with us.”

And every night since then, as silence fell over the sanatorium’s halls, Eadwulf would look down at Bren, tucked against his side the same way they had once grown used to laying in their beds, and ask himself: how could that possibly be true?

How, when he still squirmed at the mere sight of his old teacher standing nearby, when his eyes still sparked at the sight of his favorite fairytale’s cover, when he still remembered how to fall asleep next to Eadwulf like it was as simple as breathing, could Bren be gone? How could it be possible that such a sharp mind, so full of passion and of life, simply slipped away? Even if he remembered none of it, even if each day felt to him like the first time, Bren seemed in his own way to welcome their company far more than any other’s, to relax in some small way at their presence; did that not count for something?

It would take him many more years to truly make sense of it, to fully understand the weight of what it meant, but the simple fact remained: that Bren was gone was the first of Trent Ikithon’s lies that Eadwulf ever saw through.

#yes this is a day late. no i don't know if its good or not. yes im posting it anyway because these are my babies #im deep in an Eadwulf My Beloved Who The Fuck Are You kick rn so most of my entries will probably be centered around Him™️ #i want to peel him open like an onion and see what's going on inside. yknow #*slaps eadwulf* this baby can hold so much love shown through acts of service inside of it #angstpril2023 #criticalrole #fanfiction #day1 #liar #cr fic #critical role fic #eadwulf grieve #bren aldric ermendrud #caleb widogast #trent ikithon #<- literally my number one parasocial enemy tbh. and hes not even real #i would tag astrid but she's only very briefly mentioned so it feels wrong #this will eventually be on ao3 but for now i'm just slapping it here and getting the FUCK to bed

[wizardnuke]

continuation of a post i made like a week and a half ago. caleb and beau come across as normies compared to the rest of the m9 sometimes. i wouldn't call beau quiet but i would call her reasonable. caleb is both quiet and reasonable. except. points to the sanitorium raid. which two out of the m9 made the most insane choices that day. they r always like that. internally. they're just Like That. caleb regularly oneshots people and beau's the kinda girl that kills people via forcefeeding them acid. they're built different. do not let the diplomacy skills fool u

#they're not well-adjusted they are good at appearing well-adjusted when it matters #when it doesn't matter. beau 🤝 caleb kings of Not Fucking Around

[pocketgalaxies]

liam: caleb definitely wants to go back to the wizard tower but like maybe at night instead of scaling it in broad daylight and maybe after asking who lives there and maybe after learning more history and maybe after finding out how high the chances of death are

marisha, from off camera: SOMETIMES IT'S JUST FUN TO HOP THE FENCE TO SAY THAT YOU COULD >:(

#'sometimes i'll fuck around and you'll reign me in and sometimes we'll trade places' 'WE WERE WAITING FOR /YOU/ MOTHERFUCKER' #51m TM2x33 #text #critical role #talks machina #cr2 #cr lb #liam o'brien #marisha ray #marisha & liam #caleb widogast #beauregard lionett #r: empire kids #yussa errenis

[deckofmanymore]

Part [1/?] of me drawing shit for the absolutely incredible fanfic that is once upon a damn-you-all by @grayintogreen

#I've been wanting to draw stuff for this for so long n finally got around to actually doing it #anyway this is also my first time drawing any of the cr characters at all #these guys' clothes have so many fucking layers it's insane #caleb widogast #beauregard lionett #critical role mighty nein #fanart #cr fanart #thedeckdraws

[essektheylyss]

Tbh based on the Tower being the primary residence here, my money is on it being a demiplane at this point.

#got around to fucking with demiplanes boys? 😏 #okay I'm moving on lmfao #critical role #cr spoilers #caleb widogast

[jacqcrisis]

Okay one more for bad beginning of Left Turn:

The have-not town has an annual fall festival complete with people selling hand made crafts, a few baking contests, a talent show, music, and a carnival. One of those sellers tents is always occupied by the changelings, the adults wearing masking charms and peddling 'Amish made' what-have-you, including utensils, wood crafts, and baked goods. It's the most lucrative time for the commune as people from outside the town come just for the fair, and often pays for more feed and antibiotics for their livestock for the winter months.

Zeke's always there with his handler and the commune's children (including his own), and it's genuinely his favorite thing of the year. While the amount of people has him instinctually on edge and anxious, the music, the smells, the sights, and the cotton candy make up for it in spades. His handler is a kind, if gruff, older woman, and is often happy to let him wander with any kids that want to go when business dies as the sun sets so long as he's back before they need to head home, which Zeke gladly takes advantage of every year.

This year, it's just Zeke's kids that want to follow their dad, both his son and daughter having garnered his fascination and relative comfort with life outside the commune. Even his daughter, who is 12 and close to adult teething age, is begging them to go off and get on some rides since this may be the last time she can come here and do so before she's an adult and has her own kids. Hard to say no to that, so Zeke takes his preteen and his six year old son to explore around, a few dollars in his pocket to get on at least two or three rides.

As fate would have it, Caleb is there and finds them pretty quick, his four year old daughter in tow and no wife to be seen. Zeke is quietly delighted, even more so when Caleb suggests they should pal around together, no reason to be single dads by themselves tonight. Zeke takes him up on it gladly, happy to have an excuse to spend time with the big guy and happy to see how well their kids get along as his daughter and son naturally take Caleb's girl under their wing.

It's a lively time; they wander around, play games, go on rides together, get various snacks Zeke knows his wife will get on him about giving the kids when their stomachs hurt later. There's an awkward bit where Zeke's funds run dry pretty quick, but Caleb eagerly foots the rest of the night unasked, waving away Zeke's protests by turning his kids against him. He grumbles, but lets Caleb, content with the children getting a better night.

As it's winding down, the closing hour of midnight fast approaching, their little group has found a quiet spot to rest on an empty spot of grass of the park the fair is in. Caleb's daughter is dozing in Zeke's lap, way past her bed time, her father's arm around Zeke as his son is trying to imitate a magic trick a carney showed him earlier. Zeke's daughter argues with her brother about how he's doing it wrong, and Caleb distracts them by doing the magic trick himself, pulling the coin from the boy's ear, much to his delight and the grumbling of the girl as she points out its not really the same since he's a witch, which starts a whole nother round of playful argument.

And Zeke has to remember to breathe as that arm around him squeezes his shoulders. He wants this. He wants all of this; to not have to leave in a few minutes back to the truck and the commune but instead to walk out with Caleb with their kids and with his arm still keeping him close. To a shared home. Together.

Like the family it's feels like they could be.

He doesn't get that, obviously, gathering up his kids and thanking Caleb for his generosity which gets him a hug that lingers on both ends. They go back to the commune, a quiet trip back. His wife scolds him as the kids complain about their stomachs but let's it go easily when it's clear they both had a great time otherwise.

He spends the rest of the night doing his assigned work around the commune and thinking, daydreaming, wanting for something he almost wished he hadn't been able to have a glimpse of tonight.

#monster dude and gym bro #this has caught my brain #i apologize #caleb loses that fucking argument too #cannot hold a debate with a twelve year old #zeke is around 37 and caleb is 32 in this btw

[nimhmistsong]

Hey just to make sure I'm sane.

Hyperfixations crowd, do you ever get a new hyperfixation that is just so OVERWHELMING POWERFUL!! Like it comes into your life and consumes it. Merges with it.

I'm pretty sure I had other hyperfixations before this. But after critical role (read Mollymauk and his siblings) tumbled in. I haven't been able to find them. I think the three leaves tied up my other fixations and blorbos and tossed them into a fucking river!! They Rasputined my other hobbies!!

#critical role #mollymauk tealeaf #kingsley tealeaf #caleb widogast #essek thelyss #WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO ME?! #I CAN'T EVEN GET TOO DEEP INTO OTHER FIXATIONS #Buddha from record of Ragnarok almost sparked something #then my brain door got kicked in and Kingsley started wandering around #waving a mollymauk origins comic #now suddenly i can't remeber what i was thinking about!!!

[marymauk]

smaller miracle

T, 1.5k, Shadowgast, canon typical violence, pre-relationship, Panacea

Essek turned to look up at him. “This time you were the one dragging me around…"

“Ja, well, it seemed like you needed it.”

He pressed his lips into a thin smile, blood staining the crease between them, a major injury to his lungs hinting itself through his teeth. “Little healing potion… won't do it…”

“I know.”

“I'm sorry.”

What is it with m9 and chest wounds smh

#featuring such cr classics as: wizards fucking around and finding out a major chest wound and a door #shadowgast #caleb widogast #essek thelyss #critical role #cr fic #my fic

[cursedwithwords]

Louis and Rox both still have roles to play in TBOTS, we haven't seen the last of them yet, but I love writing with them so much and I have love interests for them (because they deserve it) and man I want to write about their lives too.

At the very least I wanna write more with Louis cuz the potential plot angst of his love interest is too good. If I try hard enough I could build off of the timeline of TBOTS and just throw the next gen into an entirely new fucked up situation to deal with, it would not be hard. I just like writing the next gen and want Louis to kiss a cute boy okayokayokay????

The potential is just *muah* chefs kiss. Still got a ways to go with TBOTS, though, and that's Jamie's story. But who knows, maybe after.

#louis deserves to kiss a boy and to be fundamentally changed by love thats all im saying #i gave both he and rox oc love interests because i simply could not help muself #and by this point yall know i dont fuck around when it comes to my ocs just look at caleb - the little fuck #maybe one day #harry potter #harry potter next gen #next gen headcanons #hp next gen #hp next gen oc #harry potter next gen oc #harry potter original character #original character #roxanne weasley #louis delacour weasley #teddy lupin #james sirius potter #jeddy

[six-improbable-things]

I'm so nervous to watch the next episode, and even the last half of this one. Especially after seeing the title and cover of the next one...

#I still hold strong that there's a strong possibility that the Assembly already knows Caleb/Bren is still around #and maybe even who TMN are / what they've been up to #and while I'd gladly be proven wrong #i'm not too sure that I will #morrigan.text #morrigan watches #morrigan watches: critical role #critical role #critical role campaign 2 #the mighty nein #cr2 #the reason I'm scared about the last half of this episode is that I'm worried it'll be a cliffhanger and then I won't fucking sleep