like on one hand i enjoy not being talked to and the avoidance game is super amusing to experience, especially from the performative discount therapy guy who still sends me listserv emails, bc i can just go lmao and get on with my life, but that’s just me. every time i talk to somebody who either didn’t get out or is like half-out it’s crystal clear how deep the apathy goes. over something that in the long run is like. an extension here. a pass/fail over there. clear communication re who will and will not be on your faculty before a person commits to a doctorate. advising your doctoral students, whom you hired two years ago, as opposed to refusing to do so. it’s all like structurally disgusting / indicative of egoism &/or disdain for students in a way that sneaks up on you as opposed to fucking with you outright. and it’s so silly bc they are trying sooooooooooooo hard to make this some one time deal about the one guy and now we’re like ~moving on as a culture~ and shit, which is very fine & likely sounds suitably progressive for some, but we persons of experience have got to be like. are you fucking kidding me. yk. truly i was not mean and bitchy enough during the fall of twenty nineteen and i think they know that but it is going to be a really funny 4-5 years of “thriving apostates dni” if they want to keep this up. (i mean “thriving” in a generic sense, bc there are obviously ups & downs, this having been my whole adult life and w/e, and also theory Is hard lmfao).
i also obviously cannot express any part of this to theory faculty, but i think they or some subset of them are probably ambiently aware, not of My stake in this but of The stakes for a generic “person who left at this time,” and well one can infer if one wants by the lines of inquiry i have liked to pursue but they do not. another leg up on discount therapy guy which is not something i am going to think about at this time. cannot fucking believe i mentioned piano guy offhand during my lessons like that would solve any problems or connote situational authority or whatever. stupid move but oh well. but the thing i guess i am trying to get at is a split between material support and stated emotional support, the former of which was absent in this case. and several other people got off worse than i did because of that
On the 9th, 10th and 11th in the good ol' EDT timezone, I will be playing both Splatoon 2 and Splatoon 3 at Riptide!! It will be streamed on this channel, so look out for the Rolling Squids!!
these people truly do not give a fuck. your money is low your mom is dead. your mentor terrorizes you. they do not give a fuck. they spit you out and if you get out of your own accord they act like you never existed. you are a nonentity and they will walk directly past you
INLAND EMPIRE [Easy: Success] - Abort! You clearly have not thought this through. You won't like what you will see there -- and you will never *un-become* it.
watching an lp where they didn't continue to look in the mirror, so just brain-empty playing around with that idea
a little compilation of some of my favorite astarion lines ive amassed through several playthroughs. there will almost definitely be a part two as i am always discovering new lines