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k-slla · 4 months

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Before you continue to reading I'm letting you know that in here is a major spoiler for Spn se15.ep20 - you've been warned 🥲

Warnings: all angst this one, show level violence, death

WC: 2,222

I am sorry, but kind of I am not- I've cried a lot writing this and I hope that you will too..🤍

All mistakes are mine!

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Enjoy!

You sat at the library table, staring at the working voice recorder placed on the table in front of you. You didn’t even know what pushed you to do these recordings. Maybe you wished, deep in your heart, that somehow some version of Dean from an alternate universe would find them. All that sorrow, grief and pain that you went through from losing a soulmate of your world, should probably have some effect on them, too, right? He wouldn’t be the Dean you’re talking about right now, but he’d know that in some other timeline he was loved, he’s gone and you’re missing him, a lot. You wanted to hope so at least.

Maybe it was just to get those feelings out that were burning your insides like acid. Even if it was the same story told by you every day. Maybe it was just your way to deal with losing him.

Well, whatever the reason was, you had no one you needed to explain yourself to.

Some days it was just maddening, being all alone in the Bunker. Sam had left a long time ago. He didn't forget Dean, but he definitely moved on. You stayed put, you couldn't take the needed step to move out or to try move on. All connections with Jody and Donna and even Claire slowly died off and there was no one left for you to go to other than the recorder now waiting for you to speak your mind. Perhaps that was just your fate. Who could change that?

“Hey, Dean, it’s me. Today is..” you sucked in a quick breath. “Today marks the full year that you’ve been gone now.” You continued quietly. November 19th. You couldn’t believe that it’s already been a year without him. “Each day getting closer to today, it has gotten harder for me to climb out of bed in the morning. Every morning when I awoke, I looked beside me in bed and you weren’t there. You haven't been there for a year and I miss you, Dean. I miss you so much.” You thought you had already shed all your tears, but no - they still kept pouring every morning, day and night.

“And I miss Sam, too. I know that I’ve probably said it a million times before, but…Well, Sam moved out of the Bunker not long after we gave you..” Following words scraped your throat like thorns. “..the burial. And I completely understand that. He didn’t want to stay here anymore. I can’t blame him. I couldn’t leave and now it’s just lonely here. He begged that I’d let him take Miracle with him. I know how much you loved that pup. I miss him, too. But believe it or not, Sam left me the Baby for now. I did tell him that this was your legacy, your father's legacy and he agreed that when the day comes, Baby would be left to his eldest.” You smiled through tears that were silently running down your cheeks, thinking of Sam someday having kids.

Something that Dean never got to enjoy for his own. Talking about everything over and over again eased you in some way. Even if it was for the day.

“I still have a hard time thinking about that night. Nightmares even. That was supposed to be your last hunt. We were almost out. And…And it was your last hunt.”

You and Dean did have dreams. Big dreams for your future without Chuck, monsters and hunting. You never told anyone, but you and Dean were very close to trying to start a family.

You definitely had hoped for a little Mini-Dean. Both of you were so excited, when you had all your late night pillow talks about family and kids, thinking about names even. He would've been an amazing father, you were absolutely certain of that.

“What am I supposed to do now?” Your voice broke. You figured that if it wasn't for you talking to this recorder on a daily basis, you'd probably go mute. You and Sam texted, very infrequently, once a month or so. He gave a promise to Dean, to look out for you, but it wasn't his fault that you were the one drawing back from him. Even with a text a month, you still felt like you were hanging over him like some shadow from his past, clawed to his back, keeping him from moving on. And you didn't want that, so you’d rather not speak at all.

“What am I supposed to do?” You repeated with a whisper. You still hunted sometimes, if you had the energy for that or if it happened to be close to you. But it was a rare sight. You did some odd jobs, just to have some money for food to keep you going. But you didn't need much. Meal a day was enough to sustain you after all the hard work of sitting at the library or sleeping.

Honestly you felt like you were fading away staying in the Bunker. But also there was nowhere for you to go.

“We were so close. So close, Dean, to get to our dream…and still…” You couldn't stop the tears that were now free falling. Memories of that night forced themselves into your consciousness.

A simple routine vampire hunt. You had to admit, you were a little bit nervous, but still, there were the three of you together, so you knew the chances of anything happening were slim. But there were more vamps than you all had expected and it turned out to be a struggle. You were all battling for your lives there. Everything happened so quickly. One second Dean was fighting with one of them, the next moment he was across the room, pinned against the post.

Sam quickly took care of the vamp who had attacked Dean, while you fought with one on your own. Sam came to help you out, and when you took a look around, you saw all the headless bodies laying around. Neither of you didn't even realize at first that Dean hadn't moved after the attack, not before he called out to you. “ Y/N, I- I can't..”

Sam reacted first and ran to him. “Hey! Hey, hey, don't move, Dean. We'll get help for you. It'll be okay.” Dean took a few quick breaths in. “No, Sammy. It's…I think it's pierced.. right through.” He looked at his stomach and your eyes followed, and you saw a tip of a metal spike coming through.

“Dean! No, no, no…please no! Sammy, help him!” You yelled hoarsely, while your hands traveled all over Dean's body, trying to find the best way to get him off there.

“No, Y/N, sweetie. No.” Dean remained calm when he looked at you. “You can't move me. I'm sorry. I don't think I have long left…” He spoke quietly, a few tears running down his cheeks. You stood in front of him, barely able to stay up as he brought up his hand to your cheek.

“I love both of you. So much.” His eyes shifted between you and Sam. “Please..Y/N, can I - can I talk with Sam for a second?” You nodded and shut your eyes tightly, fighting tears. “Of course, honey.” You let go of him and walked a little bit further to give them a moment.

You sat down on the ground and looked at the brothers, who were now saying their goodbyes to each other. This wasn't how the hunt was supposed to end. This wasn't how everything was supposed to end. It was too soon. Just a simple vampire hunt had turned so quickly into this nightmare.

With his last strength Dean was holding onto Sam's shirt. “You’ll have to look out for her, Sammy. For me. She'll need you out there..” You heard Dean say quietly. “And-” Dean's voice had started to quiver. “I love you so much, my baby brother. I-I need you to tell me…” he took a deep breath to steady his voice and looked Sam straight in the eyes. “I need you to tell me that it's okay. I need to hear that from you, Sammy.” Both of them had tears silently streaming down their faces. “I’ll look after her, Dean. I promise..” You knew how much it hurt for Sam to say the following. “And it's okay, Dean..It will be okay.” he tried to smile through his tears.

You saw how Dean looked at Sam. His baby brother, he’d taken care of almost all their lives. They've had all their fights over the years, differences on what's right or wrong, or how to save the world, but ultimately all that what was now left there, was love. The same, unconditional love that they've had for each other from day one.

Dean let go of Sam and looked at you on the ground. You knew what was coming and you were not ready for that. “Y/N, please..come here..” he was out of breath just a little. “Dean, no..” you were bawling and protesting against saying goodbye to him even though you still dragged yourself up and to him.

“I'll be outside for just a second.” Sam moved a few steps back, to give you two a moment alone. You held onto Dean's shirt, keeping yourself from collapsing. You were shaking all over your body from the shock. Even now, standing face to face with him, you couldn’t look Dean in the eyes. “Baby, please look at me.” You shook your head and sobbed loudly, fingers clinging tighter onto his shirt. “I can’t, Dean!”

Dean reached for your cheek, holding it softly and whispering. “I need you to…I need to see you..” You took a shuddering breath and finally gathered strength to look at him. You didn’t want to think of what’s going to happen tomorrow. All you could do for now, was to cherish the time you had with him. Even if it ends way too soon, you had to be happy with the time you had together. Not every hunter is as lucky as you and Dean were. You had to take everything from that moment that you had to say goodbye to Dean.

For a little while, both of you stared at each other without saying a word. In his eyes you saw acceptance of what’s to come. He had already made peace with his fate. Now there was only left for you to do the same.

“You are beautiful, Y/N.” he smiled weakly. “I’m sorry..for leaving you, but I know you..” He closed his eyes for a second to take a deep breath to keep going. “I know you’ll be alright, but baby, you have to stop hunting..please promise me, Y/N, that you’ll get out.”

“Dean, I can’t…not alone..”

“Yes, you can.” His hand faintly squeezed yours that was still locked in his shirt.

You moved closer to Dean to rest your forehead against his. “Well...I don’t want to.” you sniffled.

“You have to, sweetheart…Tell me..it’s okay..you have to tell me it’s okay..for me to go.” he spoke fast but the words were quietly fading on his lips. This was it.

You turned your head towards the door. “Sammy!” Turning back to Dean, you kissed him for the last time. “It’s okay, Dean, you can..you can let go..I love you.” Very faint smile appeared on Dean’s face as he saw Sam beside you again.

“No bringing me back this time, Sam.” He wheezed out. “We’ll see each other again soon enough.” You rested your head on his shoulder and felt his whole body slowly starting to relax. Dean leaned into you and with his final breath, he quietly whispered into your ear. “I love you, Y/N.”

From the corner of your eye you saw Sam break down on the floor. He sat there for a minute while you still held onto Dean. A moment later, Sam got up and pulled you into his strong embrace when you were still struggling to breathe. “We- we got work to do.” You sniffled and let go of Sam, sudden numbness taking over you.

You didn't know how long you were sitting there, thinking about his last moments. You had no idea what time it was. Day or night, it started to feel all the same to you.

Your brain had blocked out mostly everything after the goodbye. You knew you helped Sam with Dean and the pyre, but there were no emotions there. You were numb. Your moves were robotic. Both you and Sam stood by Dean as long as the fire was out. He wanted to get you away from that but you refused to leave. All you could think of while you were standing there, was that there was no one, nor will there be anyone you'll love more than Dean.

“I love you, Dean. I'll speak to you tomorrow.” You whispered your last goodbye for the day before you turned off the recorder. Every day has become the same to you. You knew that one day you'll see him again and that was all that kept you going. Knowing that Dean was still waiting for you was all you needed to move forward.

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#dean winchester #dean winchester angst #supernatural #dean x y/n #spn #dean winchester x reader #dean x reader #jensen ackles #jackles #angst

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corporatefrog · 1 year

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╭₊˚ ๑︰Being a Youtuber who reports on South Park Superheroes

A/N: made a post about this the other day and can’t stop thinking about it. I just love the idea of making video essays about the superheroes while the city is destroyed everyday like it’s Gotham

EDIT: this post is being turned into a SMAU that you can read here

- Being a university student in South Park, you’re simultaneously fighting Midterms and constant ridiculous levels of crime

- You grew up a few hours away from South Park so when you were offered a full ride to their university, of course you said yes

- After threating to sue (and crying in the dean’s office for 3 hours), the university offered to help pay for housing in a more expensive building away from the center of the city

- making youtube videos about the heroes and villains was a way to deal with the flabbergasting fact that a random dude in a tinfoil helmet is fighting a dude dressed like a raccoon on the daily

- the account gains traction with other people in the town

- now you’re a niche internet microcelebrity all because you lost your house. yay...

- you were even able to interview Call Girl for a video!

- after that, the coon started badgering you to make a video with him as well

- to which you said “no fuck off”

- spoiler alert: he didn’t take that well

- next day you had a brick thrown through your window

- it was easy to figure out who it was

- being neighbors with kenny, kyle, and stan gives you a place to go instead of waiting for the landlord to call someone to fix your window

- you hadn’t known them too well before but when you said the coon had thrown a brick through your window, they both became insanely interested

- turns out the don’t really like him either

- “bro what do you mean your favorite is the human kite? a strong breeze would send him halfway across the city- he’s a flying squirrel made of plastic and delusion.”

- definitely being a professor chaos stan.

I kind of want to make this into a whole smau but idk if there would be pairings or anything, just silly interactions with an overarching storyline

#i love making fun of human kite #its just such a hilarious concept to me idk #i also love the gothamification of south park #like yes crime infestation but its just a daily inconvenience to everyone who lives ther #south park #corporatefrog #south park x reader #but not really ig #the fractured but whole #tfbw #sp tfbw

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insufferableprotagonistpoll · 3 months

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Round 3

Propaganda why Marinette Dupain-Cheng is insufferable:

She easily gets away with bad, stalkerish behavior, it always feels like she can ‘do no wrong’ unless the show wants us to pity her, and the show writers want us to think she is a quirky and socially awkward girl when throughout the series we see her be friends with basically everyone in Paris with many connections to high up places.

I get she has social anxiety but the way she goes about stalking Adrien is kind of the worst like she even has creep shots of him hanging in her room? That’s weird. I think Adrien’s going through enough without having to deal with the main character being his stalker lol. I know they’re (spoilers) at this point but in the beginning it was so sus

In the newest season, Marinette hides the fact that Hawkmoth was Adrien’s dad. This leads to the bastard getting a statue and honored as a hero after his death. Adrien now never gets to know the fact that his abusive and neglectful father was the one trying to kill him and is instead proud of him.

Her crush on Adrien is like a black hole for her character. Things she’s done because of it:

1) stolen property

2) ruined dates

3) humiliated other characters

4) has a chart of Adrien’s daily schedule for the next year in her room (this is stalking)

5) broke into his room and sniffed his pillow (also a crime)

6) sniffed, took the hair from, and tried to kiss what she thought was a wax statue of Adrien

7) convinced her parents to let her go to China. Why? Not because she wants to connect with her mother’s heritage, not even because she’s a budding fashion designer and Shanghai is considered a fashion hotspot. It’s because Adrien was there.

I started the show, watched one episode, and never tried again. I simply do not vibe with her.

shes annoyinng anf shes a stalker

I love fanon miraculous but by god she has got to stop obsessively stalking her crush and generally making a ton of other terrible decisions. I’d submit Adrien too but he’s more of a deuteragonist

More propaganda

Anti propaganda

Propaganda why Aelin Ashryver Galathynius is insufferable:

Your basic Mary Sue. Styled as the incredibly cool best-assassin in the land at only 18, she nevertheless is constantly snuck up upon, distracted by pretty boys, and possesses not an ounce of wit. In a competition between murderers and thieves to win a place as the King's Champion, she sees a bag of chocolates on her bed that she didn't put there and immediately starts eating it and gushing about how much she adores chocolate - nevermind that they just had a trial involving poison, which several of her competitors are adept at. She's always right, and other characters exist just to tell her how awesome and beautiful and wonderful she is. And then she turns out to be a super special magical fey princess!

I generally don't believe that a Mary Sue is a bad thing, but the only thing I remember about this book was how she had been in prison for years but was super young but was also still the most super-specialest assassin. And she kept reading when she should have been training or sleeping. Like, girl, this is not final exams where you can stay up all night and then roll into class in your pajamas and still squeak out a C. It's supposed to be life and death. Her character traits didn't make her relatable, they made her a moron

Heir to a kingdom plus turquoise eyes plus best assassin in the world plus protagonist centered morality

Anti propaganda

Propaganda why Dean Winchester is insufferable:

Really mean to Cas (called him a child, zero respect for him, calls him family and casts him out when the angels are looking for him), and an absolute dick to Jack (threatening to kill him CONSTANTLY)

>Was a misogynist (loved to call women skanks, bitches, hoes)

>Used gay as an insult multiple time during the show's run (idc if he's gay an homophobic, that's still insulting)

>Beat up his brother for being possessed

>Beat up his brother for losing his soul (not his brother's fault)

>Used dubious consent to get his brother possessed in a different unrelated possession incident after possession was being used (badly...this is supernatural after all) as a metaphor for SA

>Threatened to murder his brother when he was hallucinating (yay we aren't ableist)

>Locked a child up in a box

>Threatened to kill the child he locked up in a box

>Made a creepy, sexual comment about a barely-legal high school girl

>Got the woman and kid he was living with memory-wiped

misogynistic scumbag. theres also a few different times that dean finds teenagers sexy with the most recent and prominent example that i can recall being the scooby doo crossover episode in season 13 where hes super into daphne who in the version they chose for the episode is 15-16 and is interacting with her as if shes a real person cause they got magicked into the episode. he treats everyone around him like shit and the only time the narrative agrees that thats a bad thing is when he has the mark of cain put on him and hes acting no differently than he does usually its just now acknowledged that hes treating others like shit. ive been rewatching the show for shits and giggles with a friend and wow he really does not treat anyone well but i wanna focus on how he treats sam for a second cause dude's hobby seems to be ignoring what his brother wants and lying to sam about doing stuff that directly concerns him the demon blood and souless things are reasonable cause those were both Bad for sam but theyre still part of a wider pattern and the most prominent example of this being when dean tricks sam into letting gadreel possess him and actually gaslights sam about it with the whole ordeal ending when its revealed gadreel lied about who he was and while possessing sam murders a friend of theirs. his voice is just also stupid as fuck im sorry this is just petty but he just sounds like hes trying so hard to be gruff n intimidating but he just sounds like a kid pretending to be batman

Dean’s list of sins is crazy long because of how long the show ran, but the key thing for me is that post-locking Sam in the bunker (season 4 I think?), I just can’t enjoy their relationship anymore. I normally love their sibling dynamic, but Dean’s ultimate worst past-the-point-of-no-return moment for me was demonizing (pun intended) his little brother for being “addicted” to demon blood, which only happened because of a series of events that were either Dean’s or someone else’s fault, not Sam’s. I also really dislike how the fandom treats Dean like this angel (pun intended) who has done no wrong and even tries to justify the MULTIPLE times he’s beaten up and otherwise abused his little brother. Canon Dean is like the polar opposite of fanon Dean: he’s homophobic and racist (jokes about a Black man being sexually assaulted in prison), misogynistic (take a shot every time he calls a woman a slur and you’ll die of alcohol poisoning), and abusive.

#marinette dupain cheng #mlb marinette #miraculous ladybug #mlb #aelin ashryver galathynius #aelin galathynius #celaena sardothien #throne of glass #dean winchester #supernatural #supernatural dean #insufferable protagonist poll #insufferable protagonist tournament #tournament poll

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urne-buriall · 10 months

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spirit of the west daily commentary for August 14 (with some excerpts from future updates) incoming:

today marks the first time Dean vocalizes his awareness that John will one day kill him if this situation continues. he says it to Sam, almost in passing, mid-argument

“It’s not that simple,” said Dean, shaking his head. “Dad would kill me if I left.”

and it's heard in passing too, not taken at it's true depth because it sounds like hyperbole, and it sounds self-contradictory (if you left, you'd be getting away from the threat), but we as readers know that this has been building for some time. specifically, it comes to Dean's consciousness after the throttling incident (strangulation is a significant predictor of lethal violence), and at the halfway point in the story when everything changes on the second day of the Stampede

It wasn’t even that he thought John might hit him. He could stand that. It was that things were getting worse. A broken arm. A near throttling. John was okay right now, but the next time he blew up, who knew how far he’d take it? These thoughts were dramatic. Unfair. Nonsense, really. His dad didn’t want to kill him. His dad would never do that. And yet, when he looked at John he sometimes felt like death stood in the room with him.

we also see a racehorse die immediately after this. which could mean nothing.

after this, Dean starts thinking in these terms all the time, especially around his relationship with Cas and how John would react to that

How the hell was Dean supposed to have a life with Cas when John would kill him if he knew about it?

Tonight they were undiscovered, unencumbered. They had not been divided by disaster or time. One day Cas might tire of him, or fate might separate them, or John might kill him for how he loved.

If he looked only at the present moment, his reality had never been brighter. But the future hung over him like a death sentence.

it's been on his mind. that first quote, to Sam, he says it aloud for the first time. I don't know if he even hears himself, but it's become a truth he's certain enough of that he can say it. we're getting into future updates here if you haven't read the whole thing, but I'll keep the spoilers light either way

the second time he says it aloud, it's to Zepp. don't tell me saying it to a horse doesn't count because we are in Dean's world and it COUNTS, horses are people too and Zepp doubly so

“If I stay with Dad, Sam’s dead to us. I’m dead if he finds out about Cas. You’re dead if he learns about you.”

and finally, rule of three, he says it out loud to someone who hears it and really listens, who makes sure of its meaning and knows that Dean is serious

“When I saw you, I thought John had found out about us.” “I think he’d have killed me for that,” said Dean. Their eyes met, Cas’ looking for the casual detachment of exaggeration, but not finding it.

and I think Dean does need to be away for him to fully understand it, too. it's hard to wrestle with awareness of death when we have hitherto only known surviving, somehow. we have a bias saying that we have lived through everything else, surely we will continue on. there's this double-cognition where he both knows and can't know the direct peril he's in while he's in it

#spirit of the west daily #abuse cw

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fellshish · 2 years

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Hey guys i made a sexuality uquiz for dean daily and you can take it here

#dean daily spoilers #dean daily #uquiz

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emotionalsupportknife · 2 years

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Today on Dean Daily: I'll be real, q3 is the only question anyone need answer to figure out their sexuality

#idc what your agab is #if you pick Inigo you're bisexual #ALSO Dean should give Lil Nas X a try #I think he could come around on it #And also Doja Cat for the wordplay #dean daily spoilers #dean daily

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torturedpoetemotions · 2 years

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PEACE FOR CLAIRE! AT LAST. AT LAST.

#dean daily #and yeah for dean and cas too #yay!#dean daily spoilers

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michaelmilligan · 2 years

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Dean knows how to do 'deep research' on gay resorts, but can't google what the Kinsey scale is. RIP, king.

#Ahsjdld #Sorry that just got to me #Also a water spirit that 'makes people act like couples'???#At a... couples resort??#Sure Dean #Sure #Dean daily #Dean daily spoilers

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destielfanfic · 1 year

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Lost and Found, #3

Lost and Found, vol.3 (you can find previous posts here)

Long time since I posted the L&F post, here’s some of my favorite lost fic asks that I knew the answers to. Some asks may contain spoilers for the fic, proceed at your own risk!

When possible, fic links go to posts on our blog, if the fic is not featured on the blog, we link to the hosting site. If you think that some other fic is a better fit, let us know! Gif from the gorgeous gif set by @magnificent-winged-beast , original post here, SPN, 15x12. Used with a permission.

Lost and Found fic #1

I'm looking for a canonverse fic where Castiel took on Sam's hell madness, and he had to remove part of his grace to let it heal the madness on its own for a very very long time. So long that Sam and Dean died, and Cas was left alone on earth while he waited for his grace to recover. When it did, he became a full angel again and went to heaven where Dean and Sam (and Sam's TWO soulmates!) were waiting for him. Also Castiel's grace was stored in an ugly, diseased tree. Can you help me find it?

The Answer: In the Shuffling Madness by araftatsea [T, 45,500, SU, angst] This poignant and poetic fic dives deep in season 7 mental hospital!Cas mind and brings closure to his story. It was a sad day when the author unexpectedly deleted all their fics from AO3. But you can find an ePub linked on our review.

Lost and Found fic #2

Hi, I’m looking for a fic I read awhile ago on ao3. Dean and Cas go on a sort of couples cruise/couple therapy thing for a case. At one point the main “therapist” makes one of them stand on a diving board over the ocean while the other has a slight panic attack. If you know what fic this is that would be great. Thanks!

The Answer: any port in a storm by mishcollin microcomets [M, 52,700, SU, angst] A fandom classic really. Pretend relationship, true feelings in canon setting.

Lost and Found fic #3

Hi I'm looking for a specific fic it's a fallen cas fic except it wasn't really an angst fic more like just him pining and satisfied with it. Sam knows cas is pining in the fic and wants cas to leave the bunker because he thinks cas can do better if he stopped loving dean and Dean and Sam argue about whether cas should leave. Do you know what I'm talking about?

The Answer: This Isn’t Where We Intended To Be by porcupinegirl [NC-17, 14,000, SU, fluff] Lovely canon verse fic that looks at pining Cas in the bunker from a different, less angsty angle.

Lost and Found fic, #4

Alright. I've been through what feels like a mountain of fic. I read this fic probably at least 10 years ago. Porn star AU. CAS was doing his first gay scene with Dean. Sam is also a porn star. There is a fever dream Wincest chapter which was... Whatever. Dean eventually reveals his big secret that he used to do BDSM stuff with Alastair but he one day went too far and hurt someone and now he doesn't do it. Help me Obi Wan Kenobi, you're my only hope.

The Answer: The Daily Grind by highermagic [NC-17, 87,200, AU, porn] Another fandom classic but for completely different reasons. Posted in 2010 this was the fic to read back in the day when pornstar AUs were all the rage. Warning about that fever dream wincest scene, it was just a weird dream Cas had, nothing more. (PDF link in case the one on the review is broken)

Lost and Found fic, #5

I'm looking for a fic (~10k words) I think was posted on LJ. It's an AU where Cas and Dean grew up as neighbors, Dean was getting into magician's magic (not real), and Cas becomes a cop and Dean's a wanted fugitive. It goes back and forth in time from kids to adults where Cas is searching for him, and Cas shoots Dean and appears to kill him, but Chuck(?) gives him a ring at a cafe, indicating Dean is alive and Cas chases after him and ends up back at the building they lived in as kids

The Answer: Sleight of Hand by melo [T, 14,700, AU, angst] A puzzle box of a fic wrapped up in secrets and lies. Read it. Cry your heart out. Read it again?

Lost and Found fic, #6

Hi, I was wondering if you can help me find a fic. Zachariah (I think) asks Cas to sleep with Dean to gain his trust, Cas does and then actually starts to fall for Dean, Dean thinks it's all consensual.

The Answer: Hesitation by apokteino [NC-17, 24,500, SU, angst, fluff, porn] A look at Cas and Dean relationship in season 4 through intimate relationship gaze. I’d say that apokteino is your author to go to when looking for fics exploring consent and non con, but alas. The author has deleted their AO3 profile, see this post about their deletion. Our review hosts an ePub link of the fic.

Lost and Found, and Lost Forever

hey! i’ve literally searched everywhere and i think i’m either going crazy or it’s been deleted. sam, cas, and dean go to like a fisherman town where one guy was infected and shot somebody. and then there were these giant red balls on the beach they later find out are eggs from a creature cas killed? cas and dean were already in a relationship and cas touches the eggs and get infected and pours a bunch of fish in the sink lol. i swear i read it a few months ago but now it’s just gone? does anyone have this downloaded or a link?

hey! i'm in the process of adding old fics to my tbr and i came across a rec for "architecture of the minotaur's heart" from back in 2015. the fic has sadly been deleted on ao3 but the original rec of yours referenced a pdf. i was wondering if that was still available and if there's somewhere i can download it. thank you.

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samsexualdeancurious · 1 year

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Moonlight

Pairing: Sam x Reader, mentioned Reader x OC

Words: 1,111

Summary: Moonlit nights are perfect for deep thoughts.

Warnings: This is set post 15x20, so spoilers! Also included - gender-neutral reader, dad!Sam. No Wincest but the boys are canonically soulmates, so.

Written for an Angel request.

A/N: I really struggled with this prompt but I'm really pleased with the results and I hope you guys like them, too!

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Sam’s breathing is quiet in the dark room, the only sound besides your own. He’s sleeping peacefully tonight for the first time in almost a week and now it’s your turn to lie awake until the wee hours of the morning when you can finally justify getting up and making coffee. You’d get up now but both your boys are hyper-tuned to your movements. If you stir, you’ll have both a grumpy grown man and a crying baby on your hands, and Dean has only just started sleeping for longer stretches during the night.

Moonlight creeps through the cracks in the blinds, falling in gentle stripes of silver across Sam’s face. He’s lying on his stomach, face turned towards you on the pillow. Your eyes trace the curves of him. His long torso, his broad shoulders. The soft curls of his hair haloed around his head and falling across his high cheekbone. The fan of his eyelashes on his cheek. The delicate point of his nose and beneath it, pink lips set in a thoughtful line.

What is he dreaming about?

It’s nothing bad, or at least nothing nightmare-worthy. No, Sam Winchester is sleeping as quietly as his son tonight.

You’ve gotten used to the nightmares, though that doesn’t mean you don’t worry about Sam any less even after a couple of years together. He’s told you some details and others you’ve gleaned from outside sources - stories passed through the hunting community, mostly, and a few from Sam’s friends. You know the broad strokes of Sam’s story as a result but still. Every little bit he shares with you feels like a gift. The lone remaining Winchester letting someone in.

Not alone anymore, you think as you hear the waking coos of your son over the baby monitor. Sam stirs in response but you’re already sitting up. You reach one hand out to smooth your palm over your partner’s shoulder, the other grabbing the monitor from your bedside table. On the video display, you can see Dean kicking his legs as he gears up to what you already know is going to be a hungry cry.

“He okay?” Sam mumbles, lifting his head and rubbing sleep from his eyes.

“He’s fine,” you assure him. “Just hungry. I’ve got it.”

Sam sinks back into his pillow with a sigh and you slip from the bed. As soon as your feet hit the cold hardwood floor, Dean’s soft coos morph into definite “I’m hungry” sounds. He needs some food and then he should sleep the rest of the night just fine.

You pause in the doorway to look back at Sam and smile softly at the sight of him, already slipping into sleep again.

Your mind wanders as you go about the motions of prepping Dean’s bottle, bouncing him in the curve of your other arm as you do. You can’t help thinking about when you first met Sam. Both of you were still raw and hurting at the time, processing grief that no one else seemed to understand. The last thing you were looking for was a partner of any kind and yet, Sam was exactly what you needed. You don’t know for sure but you hope you’ve been the same for him.

Sam’s the first person you partnered on a hunt with after your husband passed. After almost two decades with David as your sole partner, it took a case you never could have handled alone for you to admit that you needed help. Jody sent Sam your way and the rest, as they say, is history. Sam understands the pain you still deal with daily in a way no one else has - he says it’s because he and Dean were soulmates and says you and David are the same. It means you’ll get to see David again, a thought you’re not sure you believe but you find comfort in all the same.

You can’t help but wonder what David would think of all this. Would he be happy for you? You hope so. You can’t imagine David wanting anything but happiness for you and you’re sure Dean would feel the same way about Sam settling down.

Dean snuffles softly when you offer him the bottle, more than happy to accept the food. Just like his namesake, according to Sam. You never met Sam’s brother Dean but you’ve heard the stories and you think you would’ve liked him.

You may have never met the Winchesters before Dean’s death but you’d heard the stories, about the brothers who would end the world to save each other. They were - and still are - a bit legendary in the hunting community and you know that if Dean hadn’t passed before you met with Sam, none of the last couple years would happen. You’re pretty sure of that.

“Dean would’ve made a great uncle, though,” you murmur to your son as you put the bottle in the sink to clean later. Baby Dean coos in response, eyelids already closing as you tip him upright to burp. “He would’ve liked you.”

“Yeah, he would have.”

You jump, whirling to see Sam standing in the kitchen doorway. He’s running his hands through his hair, smoothing out the mess from sleep the way he always does. Perfect hair, seriously. It’s not fair. He’s still a little bleary-eyed as he crosses the kitchen just in time for Dean to burp and spit up a little onto your pajama shirt. Sam chuckles, grabs a towel from the drawer, and reaches for his son. You hand him over, grimacing at the mess.

“Go changed,” he says softly, bouncing Dean. The baby looks impossibly small against his broad chest, especially when Dean snuggles deeper into his father’s embrace. “I’ll put him back to bed.”

“You were supposed to stay asleep,” you scold without any real heat to it.

Sam shrugs. “You were thinking too loudly.”

You give his shoulder a playful smack and are rewarded with a soft laugh as you head back down the hall to your bedroom. Like before, you pause in the doorway to look back at Sam. He has his head ducked down to press his nose into Dean’s soft hair, his eyes closed as he sways a little in the center of the dark room. You’re not sure where things will go from here - how long you and Sam will last as a couple - but you know you’ll be supporting each other through it all and it’s better to live in this moment, where moonlight curls silver around Sam’s silhouette and you smile at the sight of the man who saved the world rocking his son to sleep.

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twisted-wonderland-memories · 8 months

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Yumi Hitsuji’s story

Spoiler Warning ahead for the Book 1 - 6

CW: mentins of s######, bully mentions, family issues mentioned.

Understanding Me (Part 1)

In her previous past life before she stumbles upon twisted wonderland, her life wasn’t as simple as great.

She was born as a pale albino girl who she had an older twin brother but died due to a car accident. Because of that she was bullied for her complex pretty appearance and is the perfect target to make friends that is betrayable, she had witnessed herself being called ugly, her important study stuff being taken and thrown away to the trash, and was also not allowed to eat in the cafeteria cause of them calling her a weird witch. Teachers were not much of a help and is powerless to help such an unfortunate soul, as a result she was forced to become ugly by letting the bullies cut her hair tho the teachers did something about it but was far too late since the damage was done.

The only reliable source was self study in a library, mastering cooking and knowledge by reading books daily to know where to predict. Little did the bullies didn’t realize that accidentally raised an intelligent human who can predict their movement, by knowing which areas are prone for a bully spot she made sure that the evidences are caught by allowing herself to be bullied on purpose. As a result the bullies are caught and was expelled to the school, the dean/boss was pissed at the staff for not doing anything about it and fires them as consequences, but that also applies to Yumi who has an dangerous strategy of knowledge that she is easily applied to other type of school but has to pay for the school tuition fees.

Her parents weren’t as good if it weren’t for the death of her older twin brother, they feed her rotten food when they are not in a good mood, if they are a good mood they gave her a simple bread that wont make her full while her parents enjoy a nice delicious meal, and there were even times where she has to cook when her parents are not around or else she is forced to do the hard work in the house. The only way to survive is to make sure she eats from what she can buy foods when her parents carelessly give her lesser money. But there are also times that they let her eat meals but on a stricter diet worse than ever making her the skinnier and weakest person.

When her parents heard news about it, they were angry and very upset at her and reminded her that she is the main reason her twin brother died even tho it was not her fault to begin with endless scoldings and yellings that Yumi hear almost everyday. As a result they abandoned her and kicked her out saying that they have nothing to do with a ugly girl, Yumi was still numb to the fact that tears cannot be shead, so she raised herself on a library room where a kind manager hired her in exchange for quitting high school, Yumi knew that it was a red flag but goes along with it since she just simply gives up on life.

The last time she tried was when she was about to go to school to apply her quitting papers, the last thing she sees was a dark carriage with horses and a coffin that aims at her.

There were news article still to this day that she also died as a result, causing both her parents and school’s reputation to worsen. The bullies and the others students who manage to hear about her situation, it becomes a traumatizing and haunting experience for them cause there is no way to ask for forgiveness from her.

Understanding Me (Part Two)

Before waking up, she remembers one thing, why can’t she feel pain and sadness when she feels nothing? Why did she continue to starve despite the pain and suffering she had, but it leads to one answer. It is as tho she is one with the void.

In her experience, most of the male students confuses her for a simple pale short haired boy, even tho she is a girl. Yumi remained selectively mute in order to survive since she is one with predictions of what will they say or do. One scary thing is that even tho she is the target for bullies, Yumi was smart enough to out smart them using Grim as an advantage to burn them but not killing them. Takara and Grim are the only ones who knew that Yumi was a girl, before the others soon figure it out.

Some don’t care but most does, her appearance of her hair is ugly to the point that Vil wants to fix it, but Yumi casually just says that her hair was cut thanks to bullies who can’t even get over their own jealousy. Expect them to be uncomfortable with her past, tho Yumi should be thankful that her life back on earth wasn’t gotten even more disgusting other wise she wouldn’t be here in the first place.

They all don’t know her full story, but they are well aware that she is a walking knowledge and good talent that was almost similar to Riddle but in a whole other level. She can be found reading book while leaving Grim with Takara since it was just her forte to find some more discoveries.

Tho that will catch her eyes the most the moment she had at least one chat with the dark mirror who summons her in secret.

The Dark Mirror wanted to confirm something from her, wether or not it was a pure good idea. Yumi told the mirror what she was missing, and there was one answer.

‘Who is she really is?’

She knows she isn’t God.

She knows she isn’t special.

She knows she isn’t a saint.

All she knows that she is just human, age 17 that was about to quit life. But she was told the reason for a second chance was one thing, she is chosen to save someone. But who is the one she needs to save, sadly the mirror goes away leaving her unanswered questions.

How will the others understand her story? How will the others feel about her? Will everything repeat just like what happened back on earth?

All she knows now is that…she is seeing things that she can’t unseen.

Witnessing various types of her own death from every dorm overblot encounter, her interactions to anyone that holds something interesting, her memories of visiting to those who are recovering from overblot. To the blind eye everyone is positive, Yumi sees and finds their negativity just by looking at them, being secretly relieved that she was not the only one but with different stories.

But…..

Something was not right.

Not right at all.

Is all her conclusions was just a simple story?

Even if all she sees was more than an illusion?

As she walks all she finds was thorns but was called a bit dumb cause they don’t find it, but it was key conclusion for her.

It is as if….she is in a time loop.

No one would believe her, they would think she is very crazy. All she can relied on was finding information about the world and herself, for every time loop she witnessed and it repeats it self, all she sees is everyone as a puppet on a string but it is a special string that has sharp thorns stricting everyone to play the part of the script.

In order to fix it or break the loop, she decided to take one last risk.

If she has magic on herself…..she can try at least make or summon herself but similar to her older twin brother but different, replay the script once again, and finally sealing herself on the mirror and see how everything else plays and unfolds for him.

He calls himself “Yu” tho his name is Yume, in a twisted dream where everything continues to loop like a gear on a clock.

Yumi will never understand if creating magic for herself in this loop will cause a difference, or overblotting was the solution, all she can do was gamble her strategies to finish the story.

Tho her thoughts on giving up on life was over since taking care of the them brings her to a different life, even if it hurts.

Understanding Me (Part Three)

Yume appears on broad daylight, Yumi appears on night.

Yume can see Yumi, and Yumi can see Yume by simply looking at a mirror or glass reflection.

They are two side of the same coin.

So many unanswered questions, why almost everything never make any sense, why did she call herself “Exe” in the first place.

Thanks to those appearances difference in almost every loop, Yumi is not skinny but appears as a more mature woman approach, her hair is fixed and grew longer, and her talents in cooking was now in a professional setting. Thankfully Yume had the similar approach. Unlike her doll and empty look more healthier and more silly, expressing her own emotions that she never get a chance to makes her feel happier in a way that is makes her feel complete, even if there is still something missing.

Yumi never had regrets helping and healing them, its rewarding to see their stories bloom to a better story more than hers.

Her platonic relationship with the others as far as it goes…..

Grim and Takara feel like siblings with Yumi

Ace and Deuce are like best friends

Trey is seen as a good friend in cooking sweets

Cater is like that one bestie to brag things on silly stuff

Riddle felt familiar to her but different, but she still respects him

Leona is more of a neutral acquaintance but perfers silence as a conversation

Ruggie is similar with Leona

Jack likes to protect Yumi even tho she can protect herself

Azul is a bestie to Yumi over business strategies

Jade and Floyd likes to mess with Yumi but in a friendly and harmless way

Kalim likes to bother her by inviting her to the dorm for food

Jamil and Yumi respects each other

Vil thinks that her appearance could use some work, but Yumi had to remind him to be a bit greedy for himself

Rook likes to see her but it happens rarely

Epel is in a similar situation with Ace and Deuce but they both like to fool around without being caught

Idia fears her but likes her opinion on the games he wanted her to try

Ortho likes to check up on her to be more friends with her.

Yumi thinks that Malleus still needs to understand more about humanity despite his knowlege

Lilia thinks that Yumi is interesting

Silver and Sebek rarely interacts with her, but if they do its basically neutral

How Yume thinks of her was normal but closer, they both reminded each other about someone but they can’t seem to figure out who they are. Something about each other feels more familiar than the others, but once they learn that they are reincarnations or incarnations of the previous people who are just puppets are Rue and Exe. Yume can relax that he can simply just do the things she let him do, Yumi on the other hand has to deal with one person similar to Rue but in a more………….

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