one of my favorite bands, Joywave, dropped a new album last week! it is not my favorite album of theirs but so it goes. perhaps it needs more time to grow on me. Sleepytime Fantasy kicks off my favorite section of the album. video game enchanted ice cave dream sequence music.
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i must stay true to my own rules for this series (not a rec series, genuinely what i've been into the most this week) and the song that's been on loop all week is a genshin impact character's theme music (punchy wolf-coded ice cop who is the duke of the prison he. runs? administers? don't worry about it). unfortunately a bop. the character music lately has been a lot more modern and experimental than i expected? this one has a police siren drop
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reading
thank you mackintosh.
i really, really enjoyed Trouble And Her Friends by Melissa Scott (LAMBDA award winner 1995)! @delta-orionis and i frequently ask ourselves "what if neuromancer was good?" and this scratches that itch for me. it is often difficult for me to take neuromancer's protagonist henry seriously, but this book features a pair of extremely practical dykes. it opens on the passing of a new american law criminalizing big swathes of online activity, passed despite a presidential veto. description from amazon
Less than a hundred years from now, the forces of law and order crack down on the world of the computer nets. The hip, noir adventurers who get by on wit, bravado, and drugs, and haunt the virtual worlds of the Shadows of cyberspace, are up against the encroachments of civilization. It's time to adapt or die.
India Carless, alias Trouble, got out ahead of the feds and settled down to run a small network for an artist's co-op.
Now someone has taken her name and begun to use it for criminal hacking. So Trouble returns. Once the fastest gun on the electronic frontier, she had tried to retire-but has been called out for one last fight. And it's a killer.
this startled me by how fun and competent it is! i tried reading one of the author's books last year (Dreamships) and had a miserable time with the pacing and flow of information. there are echoes of the pacing issues i had with the last book-- this is a nearly four hundred page hardcover, we have a lot of Next Locations to go to, and we are going to take our fucking time getting there. a road trip book, rather than a destination book. Scott has gotten way way better at fleshing out those locations— an artists' co-op has their skylights set to amber to hide the wear and tear on everything in their central hangout space when the feds show up. i also connected with the inciting incident way more-- someone stealing a female hacker’s name and style is instantly relatable. i am riding shotgun with Trouble. i am ready to throw down with her.
it's a very physical book in many ways, bc it has three brief sex scenes, is very concerned with sensuality in both senses of the word, and overall it's like the background in an anime that’s full of dials and buttons and little blinky lights. written in 1994, fascjnating how much concepts of VR and sensory inputs have not changed, but everyone still has the equivalent of an enormous old school desktop and giant CRT monitors set up. everyone is constantly lugging around so much physical tech. the stuff that makes you better at hacking in the net is quick reactions to VR sensations, the only way to get that cutting edge sensation is to get a physical chip or “worm” in your head, and the only people who do that are the core outcasts and freaks of the internet (the gays, the women, the people of color, the all three, presumably the furries as well). from that day to this…
there's an interesting contrast between Trouble and her old partner Cerise stalking the virtual reality bazaars/being queens of the BBS undergrounds, and the danger they feel and face when moving about in the real world. some reviewers are very cranky about how negotiations on and offline feel the same but i did not feel this particular quibble. communication is communication. it is known both on and offline that they're 1) women and 2) lesbians. they're in less physical danger online but slurs can still happen no matter where they are. also, i am well used to the necessity of having to posture and peacock and be kind of a bitch to establish myself in order to get anything done in coding/hardware scenes, which is something i don't think any of the male reviewers of the day ever had to think about.
some cowboy shit goes down at the end that had me hooting and hollering, and Scott handled the hacking scenes in an interesting way-- a sort of abstracted duel? terrific "fight" scenes. very interesting at how she will move things around in order to treat scenes in ways she's good at-- like establishing very grounded locations that feel real, physical sensations, and fight scenes-- instead of just kind of slogging through a very surface level high-overview travelogue like in her last book. ive been stuck on a fic chapter for like four years and this is making me think about doing it the fun way instead of the way i thought it should be done. this may be obvious but i am an amateur and more importantly an idiot.
this was a $6/1 book special last year at one of my favorite thrift stores, a religious shop with the absolute worst vibes in the greater houston area but some of the best stuff
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watching
Five Dolls For An August Moon (1970, dir. Brava). sometimes you see a cool title on kanopy and you don't have a better way to kill an hour and a half. plus it had some guys i know from cowboys. tw for a suicide's body in the first fucking ten seconds of the trailer, which is a weird trailer choice bc u don't actually see most of the murders in the movie.
ive watched a fuck of a lot of spaghetti westerns so i feel i am somewhat qualified to tell you this is one of the worst dubs ive ever seen. the lines actors are quarter-heartedly delivering do not always make a lot of sense and only occasionally match the subtitles. i am assuming this is the original dub, bc kino lorber generally does a pretty okay job restoring things?
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this is not a good movie (extremely troubled production, director swap three days before filming, made on a shoestring budget, the actors mostly wore their own clothes, etc). it is not very good at maintaining tension, because it is a film that first and foremost Looks. beautiful fucking sets, beautifully decorated. the exterior is a matte painting, a sort of frothy dream-bubble of sixties architecture. most of the interiors are apparently a real house. incredible experimental burbling soundtrack full of Weird Sounds.
sorry about the tubi interface and our old friend the activate windows logo.
there are so many fun directorial flourishes and staging, but it does get a little wrapped up in itself. this made me think of The Secret of NIMH, a beautifully animated talking-animal film that gave me nightmares as a child, where the animation tricks and sparkles and moving parts sort of all get in each other's way to produce something less than the sum of its parts. this sort of happens here. i'm going to yoink this from a review:
Bava’s eye for exquisite compositions is equally evident. One scene in particular stands out in this regard: The filmmaker shoots an otherwise humdrum fistfight through wooden latticework that breaks the action up into an abstracted mosaic effect. The fight culminates with a table being upended, which in turn unleashes a myriad crystal spheres. The camera follows along as the spheres tumble and cascade down a spiral staircase and roll across a tiled floor before plopping like so many bath bubbles into a tub. The scene concludes with the revelation of a recently deceased character caught in what you’d have to call a tableau morte. It’s a dazzlingly orchestrated sequence, easily on par with more famous Bava set pieces.
it's gorgeous! there's also So Much going on. another lovely bit of business: as each person dies they get wrapped in plastic sheeting and put in the walkin freezer. next to slabs of beef. not a subtle film, and i don't mean it as a diss, bc where's the fuckin fun in that?
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playing
i have not been doing much of anything here except listen to podcasts and work toward the two-thousand-fish-caught achievement in genshin. impatiently waiting for Clorinde to be released in several weeks. that one button needs a raise. it is So funny to see genshin characters with fucking guns. very sword and pike based societies so far
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making
every time i have tried to make one of these samplers for Me it's gone horribly wrong or been somehow destroyed so i'm making this one for my brother's upcoming birthday, bc he will have off-campus housing next academic year, in an attempt to peacefully do some fucking cross stitch and get something out at the end of it. pattern here on etsy
The Ancients
dragonpropaganda on popular misconceptions about the Ancients' culture
ikayblythe's speculative biology
kociamieta's notes on Ancient character design
Character analysis
eliias-bouchard on NSH's portrayal
ikayblythe on Pebbles' age and motivations
pocket-goat's thoughts about Moon in the context of the Saint campaign
shkika on Moon and Pebbles' relationship
shkika on whether Moon and Pebbles are siblings
skybristle's and my own thoughts on the decay of Moon's organic parts
General speculative biology
chaotic-minds-think-alike's interpretation of lizards
dragonpropaganda on the relationship of purposed organisms to ingame fauna
flickering-nightfall's interpretation of the reproductive strategies and social structures of various species in the game
Iterator anatomy
bonniesband's exposition on the Rot as a type of cancer
copepods and myself on whether parts of post-collapse Moon beyond the puppet could be conscious
copepods on viewing iterators as more than the puppet
delta-orionis' method for estimating the height of Iterator cans
delta-orionis and myself discuss the meaning of the terms "Recursive Transform Array" and "Abstract Convergence Manifold"
orangedoorhingeinstorage and kayjaypax on movable components in the memory conflux and adjacent systems
skybristle's and my own thoughts on the decay of moon's organic parts
my theory about how an Iterator's memories are stored and why Moon doesn't forget anything when she loses a neuron
Iterator puppet anatomy
aluminum-angels' interpretation
bitsbug's puppet interpretation
copepods' mechanical interpretation:
moon & pebbles / post-collapse moon
flickering-nightfall's journey to understand the puppet arm:
part 1 / part 2
flickering-nightfall on the "umbilical"
ikayblythe's arthropoidal interpretation:
overview / endoskeletons / "skin"
joowee-feftynn observes that puppets can't walk
spotsupstuff on the relationship between puppet and can
trashiiplant's ragdoll interpretation
yellowsnacc's "jello-covered skeleton" interpretation
Slugcat anatomy
arrayydee's slugcat design
artihunter's take on the fur/slime question
dopscratch's mollusk/mustelid interpretation
honey-marrow's interpretation of Spearmaster's anatomy
Themes and storytelling
comrade-slugcat and myself on themes of inevitability and futility in Monk & Survivor's campaigns
dragonpropaganda on how Rain World's level design is based on the idea of civilizations successively building upon each others' ruins
grunckle's theory relating ascension, void worms, and voidspawn together through the idea of qualia
grunckle's illustration of the parallels between the iterators and void worms and some connections to Gnosticism
seventeendeer on the thematic significance of ascension and the player's agency in choosing it
Miscellaneous
bitsbug and ikayblythe discuss the age of the ecosystem
flecks-of-stardust's theory that (in vanilla) the Chimney Canopy pearl was created by Five Pebbles
ikayblythe's speculative geology of the surface and void sea
monkmain on the illustration for Stolen Enlightenment
my theory on the meaning of "HR_LAYERS_OF_REALITY"
my timeline of architecture on the surface
rw-me elaborates on the canonicity of Downpour
shkika on the distances between members of the local group
shkika, flecks-of-stardust, and fluffybunny35 discuss why it rains in Shaded Citadel
soaricarus, flickering-nightfall, and myself on why Seven Red Suns is probably not a member of the "local group"
yunnifo discusses Rivulet ending projections
Nuit is esoterically associated with Sirius or Sothis, her star of manifestation. To be clear, Sirius is here a symbol and analogy for the supreme principle, the ‘unmoved mover’, by which things appear to come into existence by Its presence—and not by any action on the part of the principle, which does not act. Nothing in nature is separate, having its own cause as though self-contained. Our planet system and Zodiac is part of a vastly greater star system. Sopdet, the Egyptian name for Sirius, the ‘sun-behind-the-sun’, is also the name of the goddess that gives birth to the star of Venus. It has the literal meaning, ‘triangle’. During the time of the solar conjunction or occultation of Sirius, the legend of Isis has it that she hides herself in the swamps of the northern Delta (‘triangle’) region to give birth to Horus. Originally, Set (as ‘seven’) was the only begotten son of Nuit. The pairing of Isis with Osiris was a relatively modern version of the legends of Isis that was better suited to the disposition of ancient Greek and Roman men than the original stellar myth—by ‘myth’ we refer to oral tradition, not something imagined.
Sirius forms a group of stars with Betelgeuse (Alpha Orionis) and Procyon, called the ‘winter triangle’. This embraces much of the constellation of Monoceros, ‘Unicorn’. Four other stars, Pollux, Capella, Aldebaron and Rigel (left foot of Orion) form the ‘winter hexagon’. This establishes a geometric relationship between Sirius and Orion, which symbolises the heavenly Sah or Holy Spirit. Thus the Nephilim, sons of the Ancient Ones, are sometimes called the Children of Orion, identifying them with the primordial. The geometry of the triangulation of Sirius with the hexagon, or hexagram by extension, automatically declares the Cube of Space, as can be seen by the diagram above. This configuration involves seven stars in all, thus proportionately mirroring the seven bright stars of Ursa Major, the ‘axle of the universe’, rotating while always pointing to the Pole. That is in fact the esoteric meaning of aleph, which corresponds to the eleventh path and Tarot trump The Seer Aleph is not, as has long been supposed, the ox that ploughs the field but is the ox that turns about the wheel or swastika of the stars.
--Aquarius: Egyptian Tarot Nuit XVII
@the-moon-in-the-gutter and I spent a lot of time today talking about Ghoul hcs and this was too good not to post.
Me: Delta's another Ghoul I need to put some focus on. I have thoughts about his transition that run counter to every other hc I've seen.
Mine have to do with my own spiritual understanding of Water. Magickally, Water is placed in the West. Other associations for West are emotion, crossing boundaries (like rivers), sunset, endings, autumn, and death. It's the place of crossing over from one life to another (like Elves in Middle-Earth going into the West when they "die").
So the West and Water is also close to the Afterlife, where Spirit (or Quintessence) resides. So to my mind, the transition would be easy and natural, more like an evolution, or advancement. There would be no pain, but instead a sense of release and serenity.
Oh sure, Delta comes out of it different, because if you go to the land of the dead (as my parents have explained), you come back either dead-dead, or crazy, but usually a little of both (incidentally, that mix of dead and crazy is where you get shamans).
Jas: I love how your perspective is based on your spiritual understanding of Water. But I can definitely see that Delta would come back a little "wrong" so to speak from his transition, even if it is viewed by him as something wanted and an advancement of his magic and abilities.
But also the name Delta, even though it is a natural water formation, Delta Orionis is the westernmost star in Orion's belt. And from what I know of Greek Mythology, Orion was the mighty hunter who is depicted in the night sky alongside his dogs. Maybe I'm like reaching very hard, but it would make sense for Delta to become more shamanistic or more like an Oracle. Consulting the stars and water for untold knowledge and occasionally sounds a bit nuts in his predictions until someone gets their hands on a copy of that year's Farmer's Almanac
im really making a trend of two-weekin these huh. gonna try to Not do that bc it makes me way less likely to actually do it lol. speed-posting this before bed (and before the melatonin kicks my ass, i'm trying to reset my sleep sched a bit)
listening:
hozier unreal unearth. sammy rae & the friends. leaving this pretty sparse because i don't want to dig back through my history for the past two weeks and that's definitely the bulk of it.
some notes from the Release Radar(tm) that i like:
good luck, babe! - chappell roan
bell - rob blivion
waiting. - pater
...all (feat jake clemons, live) - grouplove
i had not my hat - tom rosenthal
april 8, 2024: the great north american eclipse - sleeping at last (!!!)
too sweet - hozier
flea - st vincent
lil' freak - bbno$
reading:
finished the main bit of scum villain! i'm reading the extras now. officially read all three mxtx books
watching:
FINISHED SERIAL EXPERIMENTS LAIN. i have so many thoughts. i was in delta-orionis' dms about it a bit but my ass has so many Notes. many thoughts. gnosticism mostly but also the obvious tech-as-extension-of-self throughline. idk it was a very weird show and i definitely need to re-watch it to let it sink in a little more.
playing:
no games but a lot of horn! i have an audition tomorrow for the fall's campus ensembles, i am...not super confident about it tbh, unsurprisingly i am not back to where i was pre-pandemic so my upper range and endurance is still really crunchy.
making:
i keep forgetting to charge my phone before pottery so it keeps. dying. so i made quite a few new things the past few weeks but no photos of those - i did Crack the Code a bit, so now i can more reliably get things shaped in a conscious way. basically i was sitting too far forward so when i was pulling the walls up i was actually doing it at an angle, if i sit with my nose over the center of the pot it's all *chef kiss* beautiful. anyways here's a few glaze related pics. a lot of disappointment unfortunately.
1. my fucked up teacups. god im so mad about these. they were supposed to be a cool grey-green with a white flower, and matte. it is None Of These Things. idk will get redone. big mad.
2. bowl and mug that both got bubbles because i misread the glaze labels - they're both mayco glazes that are optimized for cone 05, not cone 5, so the both the color is not as good as i thought and also the surface variation is. not great. the bowl is acceptable, it's mirror blue, it went through the kiln again and the bubbles evened out (pic is from before), and plus it's on the outside - i just put plain white on the inside - so it's fine. the mug is a little more problematic. it was green slip sgraffito with evergreen fir over top, and i really love the color effect, but there's some small bubbles along the rim...this glaze was marked as food safe in a way that the mirror blue is Not so i thought it would be fine but. well. i'm hoping nuking it in the kiln again will smooth those out.
3. One Good Thing: trying a new glaze technique! someone in my studio does this gorgeous thing where she paints on flowers with underglaze, then covers them with liquid latex to paint on the background, and finally peels off the latex. it always comes out sooo nice, so when i ordered some more underglaze i went ahead and added liquid latex to cart too :3 this is just the flowers, i will be adding the background tomorrow!
eating:
uhhh good cauliflower vegetarian shawarma thing that i refused to make unless we added a can of chickpeas because where in the fuck is the protein. tonight was a miso-butter chicken with radishes that we added potatoes and onions to. both sheetpan recipes so im def a fan of those now.
misc:
ouuuugh. augh. oughghghg. i need to be done with homework forever please god. i have like...7? 8? total hws left between my two classes. and then i am Done With Classes. mentally gearing up to do my preliminaries at the end of the summer.
not to doxx myself but ouch. basketball yesterday. Pain.
the eclipse yesterday WAS unreal. oh my god. i drove to [redacted] very small town about 40 minutes from me and it was perfect. so glad i avoided the Big City, although that's where my roommate and her mom went and apparently the traffic was fine, but i'm definitely glad to have been in a less crowded zone. i get it now. i want to take that feeling i had watching totality and eat it and keep it with me forever. i was with friends. the weather was perfect. it was beautiful.
Thank you for the tag @thecryptidenthusiast + @crownleys ! (You tagged my side blog, so sorry for doing it on here instead but I figured it would be easier to merge it!)
Tagging: @serenpedac, @agentnatesewell , @definitelynotagentm , @orionis-delta , @shuinami , @sealriously-sealrious + @eveningstar1516 (Sorry if you have already been tagged or don't wish to do this! It's also not 9 people, mostly cause I don't wish to get annoying with @/ing people so often!)
favorite colour: Dark red - #82090a and around those shades!
currently rereading: Dracula, through dracula daily since while I love the actual book itself, that's a unit for me to get through at once at the moment!
last song: Kiss the Go-goat - Ghost. I adore this band and their songs always end up getting stuck in my head
last series: I've recently finished re-watching the french netflix horror series "Marianne", I wasn't expecting to love it as much as I do.
sweet, savory, or spicy? I love both sweet and savoury but often tend to lean towards savory if given the choice. I can't handle spice. for some reason, it makes my ears swell to the point where sound gets muffled, which is annoying!
currently working on: too many nate + val fics that I started a while back, now that my writers block as started to melt away. Also working on beating my social anxiety still, which is fun and equally spooky, so as a treat...most spare time gets thrown into baldur's gate 3 now!
From top left to bottom right: Mintaka (δ Orionis), Alnilam (ε Orionis), and Alnitak (ζ Orionis). Also note the Horsehead Nebula (Barnard 33) and the Flame Nebula (NGC 2024) near Alnitak!
i just wanna say like your theme is super fucking cool like oh my god its so awesome
WAHH THANK YOU!! you sending this ask made me realize how outdated it was (i whipped it up in like. a few hours at the time KLFDHN) so i replaced the three songs with new ones i like better for my lovely boyfriend simon jarrett,, and i also fixed the transparency of the sidebar image LOL
but thank you thank you!! i'm still super happy with how it turned out, i think it's one of the better themes i've had for a blog KDFHLNK
(AND AS ALWAYS thank you so much to delta-orionis's amazing art for making simon look so sweet,, they drew the simon in my avatar as well as the one on my blog, their art is so wonderful and i recommend checking out their blog!!!)
Tagging: anyone who wishes to do this as well as @crownleys @eveningstar1516 @orionis-delta! (most of the people I wanted to tag within TWC community have already been tagged! <3)
Favourite OC: Valerie Michaelis (twc)! Which is a small surprise to me but she's been a breath of fresh air that grew on me quick since I first made her! Evelyne Graves (OM) is also a beloved OC of mine though despite that!
Newest OC: Mina Langford (twc). I've yet to actually play through the books with her, but I wanted to make a detective to romance Mason. She's still in the process of being fleshed out a bit more but I have her appearance and mini background sorted now!
Oldest OC: Shiala Tsoni (Gw2). She was my first example of diving into character building outside of what the game's plot had in store for her. I hardly do anything with this OC outside of when I play the game, but I certainly had fun creating backstories for her in my head when I first made her.
Meanest OC: The Doll (OM). She is a somewhat grumpy ghost possessing an abandoned ball-jointed doll, she loves to scare people for the sake of it!
Softest OC: A mix between Valerie (twc) and Ophelia (ikevamp)! Both women have gentle personalities and are always the best at comforting people.
Most Aloof/Standoffish OC: Evelyne (OM). She is fairly closed off and will appear cold to those who try to get past all of her barriers too quickly. She also dislikes crowds and public spaces, which results in her appearing somewhat standoffish and rude.
Dumbest (Affectionate) OC: Lucille Michaelis (FFXIV). There's a reason I took her to be my virtual namesake when making accounts! Jokes aside, oc Lucille has good intentions but sometimes forgets to think about the larger picture when it comes to things and often doubts herself when it comes to that!
Smartest OC: Valerie (twc) purely due to being one of the very few oc's of mine who went to uni and graduated!
OC I'd Be Friends With: Is it cheating to say all of them (besides the doll)? I'd probably want to be friends with Evelyne the most, just so that I could give her a hug to apologise for all that I've put her through!