#fuck their mental illness bc they're evil

[fortheloveofgarythain]

Hey...y'all... this is a long one and I'm sure is filled with grammatical errors but......................................................................................................... if your significant other cusses you out, calls you names, or mocks you (I mean, literally mocks and imitates you) for crying or even whining (sometimes its o fucking k to whine!), THEY HATE YOU. They hate your guts and are using you. People like that are incapable of love or even real feelings other than wrath. They are evil and only feel hatred. As soon as they're done with you, they'll throw you in the bin at the very least. These people will get you hooked on them so you don't leave until they either throw you away or murder you. Period. Evil is evil and it always comes to light eventually. Please, anyone who is reading this that's in a relationship like this, listen to me... You're living on borrowed time. You are in danger and they are your enemy. They do not love or even like you one single bit. They genuinely despise you... Please stay safe and please remember: borrowed time...

Oh yeah, you can probably add points on their controlling behavior and creepiness if they're at least 5 plus years older than you as they can't find someone their own age. Yeah, I stand by this... Older people need to stay in their own realm...their own age group. Friendships are different, my best friend is 50 and I'm 31. She's the best person I've ever had enter my life and her kids are some of my best friends too. They are my family, you know. I feel like I have a second mom with her. Her kids are like my siblings and that's special to me as I'm an only child. They're the only Real Ones. Big age gap friendships can be really special. Big age gap relationships? Nope. Leave us tf alone, you will ruin our lives! Yes, us younuns can be shitheads too but....we learned from......... our elders. 🤗🤪

Sorry, I don't dislike all older peeps, I do know some very progressive boomers and gen Xers. I just genuinely dislike the ones that terrorize the younger gens. Especially the ones that like to date, marry and/or get us pregnant as a means of control and ownership. To the ones that do those things: I hope you have an absolutely horrible life and just start smelling like rotten eggs all the time with no explanation or diagnosis. Just rotten egg bo for life that no doc or specialist can explain and its so bad that even they all start gagging when you walk in their office. And diarrhea. Yep, I hope all your poops are pure diarrhea. The hot n spicy kind too! Get yer fuckin Tucks wipes ready. But... everytime you buy wipes, they're all dried out already. Every single pack you buy. And! AND, I HOPE EVERY SINGLE BODY CARE PRODUCT YOU USE THROWS OFF YOUR BODY'S PH AND MAKES THE ROTTEN EGG SMELL WORSE! YOU'LL SMELL LIKE A ROTTEN FISH OMELET!

And I hope it burns when you pee...😁

I...hate...abusers...

🥝💚🖤

#narcs are evil you won't change my mind #their suffering is invalid bc they are evil #fuck their mental illness bc they're evil #narcs are just bad people at heart #abusers are bad people at heart #older peeps don't love younger peeps #they use us #older peeps keep your hands off us #i miss my freedom #my kids are the reason I'm still alive #and gary thain #im afraid for my future

[scoutpologist]

realizing i have religious obsessions and intrusive thoughts/fears is very much a harrowing experience. unfortunate vibes!

#op #gonna refer to it as an obsession bc it is and my therapist said i can call it that #but. one of my big obsessions is how 'valid' i am in wanting to convert and this is SOOO embarrassing to admit #because i'm convinced that this obsession means i'm a terrible terrible fucking person and it causes sm pain #i literally feel like a liar and a fake and a horrible person and i had no idea this wasn't just a character flaw that meant i'm awful #but instead is like. Mental Illness actually #it's liberating as hell to realize this doesn't mean anything and it's not a moral failing but also terrifying cause i just have to Sit #with the terror that everyone hates me and wants me to die and i deserve it because of something silly #that seems Very rational to me!! it seems so rational in my head!!! #but the moment i tell someone about it (haven't explained this one in detail bc of fear) they're like 'but that's not true' #like i KNOWWW it's not true but i'm so convinced i'm terrible because i'm a horrible evil intruder #like girl what. what does that mean #also they're not like normal religious obsessions and fears they're more about community and belonging and intruding and shit #it's weird

[strongestrat]

HIIIII HI HELLO ENTROPY ZERO PEOPLE IT IS I AND I HAVE COME TO DEFEND AIDEN WALKER/BAD COP AND IF U THINK HES ANNOYING UR WRONG AND SHOULD FEEL BAD /j

Bad cop in entropy zero 1 wasn't exactly the blank slate people expect from half life games/mods, but he didn't have much depth-- all we really knew back then was that he was quippy and very good at his job. He doesn't like people at all and is loyal to the combine to a fault, but we don't know his past, what his motivations are, and we kind of don't need to. EZ1 is about survival in a harsh environment where everything and anything is trying to kill u and u just sort of stop a gigantic rebel plot by accident and u get a shiny (mandatory) promotion out of all of it.

Entropy zero 2's writing is really fucking underappreciated because it takes that basic framework and elaborates on it ingeniously. When he insults people he kills or says "people suck" its not because he's quirky or some kind of generic marvel character it's because people do genuinely fucking SUCK. They used a mentally ill man as a scapegoat for a crime he was a victim of that cost him his family, locked him in a prison/care facility and tried to "change" him. Because he wasn't "normal" to their standards. They stripped him of every single comfort and right he had, every reason he ever had to care about a human being, not just the justice system and prosecutors who failed him and the caretakers who likely neglected or mistreated him but the people who hurt his family and took his daughter and the people who likely discriminated against him simply for existing in a neurotypical society.

This also gives Aiden a degree of separation from loyalty to the combine. He's not just evil for the sake of it he wants to find his daughter Ava and the combine's family cohesion perks are the only chance he has. He's loyal but only because he has an incentive to, and he won't hesitate to kill anyone, and I do mean *anyone*, including his coworkers and a fucking COMBINE ADVISOR if he thinks they can't help him or are trying to stop him from finding Ava. He's good at his job but gets in trouble for killing other cops in a rage induced stupor (not unlike victor-sixty) and of course because these are cops and his boss likes him the chief lets him go with a slap on the wrist and "outland duty" because he is "worth 10 of those guys", and he fucking IS. And Aiden takes it like a champ bc he will do fucking anything to find Ava. His Humor doesn't resonate with everyone and that is understandable (some ppl find him annoying and hes not for everyone), but he's not trying to be funny for funny's sake! He's using it as a coping mechanism for the fact that he has nothing else left and he's being lead along in the hope that he can regain atleast SOMETHING from his old life.

And of course, there is the master template (clone cop) and wilson. I love u wilson and u are definitely the canon ending but i wish i didnt have to babysit u without feeling bad I am getting sidetracked

A clone plot is hard to pull off and in most cases fails spectacularly but in Entropy Zero 2 it just fucking works. Clone cop/master is just the older clone of Aiden but fucking UNHINGED. His loyalty to the combine is gone because he realized they're just using him as an effective tool, and the moment he gets Ava he has no reason to fight for them anymore. So naturally he RIPS OUT A PART OF HIS FUCKING SKULL AND SUSTAINS HIMSELF WITH BOOTLEG CYBERNETICS (I am not joking EZ2 is good at environmental storytelling u can find his fucking skullcap in his little laboratory just before plan B) there are so many little details I noticed on clone cop just before escorting judith on how he butchered himself just to stay independent and have a better chance at finding Ava. His will is fuckign unbreakable which feeds directly into his relationship with the player character Aiden. Clone cop is less of a clone then the Aiden u play as is!!! He even has the prototype AR2! In contrast, the Aiden u play as is clearly modified-- He's much more loyal to the combine but his will isn't unbreakable, and while Wilson doesn't directly factor into whether or not he chooses to fight the Advisor Wilson is CRUCIAL. Clone cop is methodical, using the survival skills from the events of the first game to subvert the rebels, the wildlife, even the combine-- The player character Aiden in turn is (arguably) less badass then Clone cop precisely because they modified him to be more loyal, taking away some of that incredible will and tenacity to try and keep him under wraps. This is proven in the there will be darkness ending where Aiden is mowed down like a standard grunt as soon as his memories/what makes him himself are taken from him.

THE WILSON ENDING IS THE CANON ENDING. THIS IS NOT UP FOR DEBATE.

Wilson is such a fucking important support friend for Aiden because he actually gets the chance to talk with something that isn't a human and is very sympathetic. Aiden goes from being fed up with him and using him as a survival tool to being genuinely concerned for him over the course of the game, Wilson is at first just a way for Bad cop to escape the lab beneath arbiet and maybe pick up supply caches scattered across the other arbiet facilities and sure MAYBE that's the only reason that Aiden brings him along at first but Wilson is very nice and sympathetic and he doesn't judge Aiden and it just. Gives Aiden a chance to rant about his feelings and open up and remember things instead of taking medication and bottling all of his emotions up. Wilson in turn is just thankful to escape the labs beneath arbiet and maybe have a chance at becoming an administrator AI one day if Aiden uploads him into the arbiet AI mainframe!!!! And the coolest part out of all of this is that clone cop only used Wilson as a tool and didn't really care about him but someone like Wilson is exactly what he needed to start healing!!! And the fact that Wilson is able to infiltrate the combine network undetected and free Aiden from the Combine when he's captured out of unconditional love and the fact that "hes da boss" is fucking GREATI am just fucking! Going insane!!! Its so well written!

In entropy zero 3 wilson and aiden will destroy the combine forever and victor sixty will also be there and he and Aiden will get married (real)

#Aiden Walker #entropy zero 2 #entropy zero uprising #entropy zero #Wilson #Clone Cop #ITS SO FUCKING WELL WRITTEN AM I THE ONLY ONE TO NOTICE ALL OF THESE THINGS I HOPE NOT ITS SO COOL ITS SO AWESOME ITS SO #rambling again #I dont care I just want to talk abt my special interest

[theneighborhoodwatch]

personally we need more evil and morally grey autistics. i am sick of the notion that autistics are inherently pure or need to be inherently pure and good in order to be good representation.

people do that with representation marginalized groups in general, too. good representation means that they break out of stereotypes and portray the experience accurately, not that the character themself is morally perfect.

(context)

good representation means that they break out of stereotypes and portray the experience accurately, not that the character themself is morally perfect.

i could see why people would be wary if this were, say, a more corporate production headed by someone whose knowledge of living with autism/neurodivergence/disability/mental illness/etc. amounts to "i volunteered for autism speaks one summer when i was in high school" at most, and if wally was the only autistic character on top of that, but that is so far from what we're dealing with that i'm tempted to say that it isn't even worth bringing up as a hypothetical. in general, i also kind of dislike looking at this aspect of welcome home solely through the lens of Representation, as though it has an obligation to reflect Everyone's lived experiences, when the creator has quite plainly stated that it's him drawing on his own experiences more than anything else. it's kinda like how "bury your gays" as a criticism holds less weight when you apply it to, say, a lesbian writing a webnovel about dead lesbians - because then it's not someone enforcing a status quo that is inherently hostile towards queer people, it's just a queer person writing about a more tragic aspect of their own life. the story can still be criticized in other ways, of course, but that's besides the point.

and like, i don't even think wally's straight up evil - i've said as much many, Many times throughout my speculation posts on this blog. i resent the idea of a purely villainous wally just as much as i do the idea that he could never make a morally questionable decision. but nice, well-meaning people can fuck up their loved ones And themselves in some absolutely horrific ways, especially if they're convinced that it's in service of some greater good or if it's specifically for those loved ones' sakes, especially if they themselves are in a desperate situation, and i wouldn't be surprised if wally ends up being a prime example of that.

OKAY FINAL EDIT I PROMISE: i also want to point out that i specifically quoted the second half of the ask and not the first bc i don't necessarily think it's that we need more ~morally gray~ autistic characters (even though i definitely wouldn't complain if we had more of those) it's just that we need more representations of autistic people as people, like, period.

#ask #sylverscribs #wally darling #welcome home #soapboxing #edited to add onto the first paragraph

[dodgeryy]

Having a PD means never being able to express your support needs without being sen as evil and manipulative. Even when other mental illnesses require the same support.

Example: You are going to a big and your friend expresses that they have anxiety and they ask you to check up on them throughout the night and not leave them alone with these people they don't know to quell their anxiety and avoid a panic attack.

Generally not frowned upon! If you're in a space to help, help!

Uh oh... here comes the plot twist the anxiety is manifesting as a symptom of their NPD. They want to enjoy this party with you but their emotional dysregulation and reaction to external stimuli means that depending on who's at this party they could have a really bad time. And they don't know! And that's anxiety inducing. Suddenly, even though this is a real anxiety and a stressor for them because the anxiety is rooted NPD they're more likely to be met with adverse response instead of support.

This goes for basically all other personality disorders. Persotypicals have this weird fucking idea that PD brains simply cannot experience life without praying on other people. Sometimes support is just support yall. You're not being vampired. Be nice.

PWPDs also struggle to ask for support bc they've been told that they're support needs are predatory and manipulative and either don't think they deserve support, or are scared of the response.

#life of ery #borderline #actually bpd #bpd #cluster b #mental health #npd #actually npd #narccisist #cluster a #cluster c #destigmatize npd #npd safe #pd safe

[irrealisms]

what is even the point of having a big fandom for a seriously mentally ill character if y'all aren't going to actually write abt that

[ID: Screenshots of the number of works in AO3 tags. They are "3 Works in Wilbur Soot Has Delusions", "9 Works in Wilbur Soot Has Psychosis", "14 Works in Bipolar Wilbur Soot", "17 Works in Wilbur Soot Has BPD | Borderline Personality Disorder", and "1-20 of 22 Works in Paranoid Wilbur Soot". End ID]

oh right! it's the ableism

[ID: Another AO3 screenshot, reading "1-20 of 1,513 Works in Insane Wilbur Soot". End ID]

now to be clear i am in favor of reclaiming "insane". i myself deliberately do not identify with psychiatric diagnoses and instead call myself insane & crazy. but this is a character who Deliberately Disidentifies with the terms "insane" and "crazy", bc of how they are Used Against Him Due To His Experiences, and who specifically uses the word "sick" for himself and his experiences instead. WoG on how he identifies is that he sees himself as "suffering intense paranoia and delusions". and most of the fics in Insane Wilbur Soot...aren't abt "in this fic wilbur identifies as insane". they're abt "in this fic wilbur is an Evil Villain with no interiority beyond being a creep and/or chaos slasher joker archetype". it's fucking disgraceful. do better.

#cwilbur is psychotic. there are 70k works on ao3 abt wilbur soot. now granted some of them are abt the cc or abt other smps #but even given that. come the fuck on. there is no reason for there to be /9 works/ out of 70k. DO BETTER. #therapists dni #any british ants in the chat? #also i didnt even include schizophrenic wilbur soot or schizoaffective wilbur soot tags #bc. no one writes it. it literally does not exist and can't be filtered on #even though schizoaffective wilbur is with bpd and bipolar in the 'not technically canon but straightforwardly works w canon' zone

[jennilah]

I think i started to follow you bc of tiny!cas, like eons ago, let me tell you seeing you get into different fandoms over the years has been a delight.

I remember seeing post of you going like 'hey these slasher film kinda go hard' and look at you know.

I mean this in the best way possible, I feel i've been watching a house plant grow, every now and then catching my attention and being amazed by the changes

omg thats such a sweet way of describing my... well happy autism awareness day everyone, its a nice way of describing the way i naturally transition through my Special Interests lmfao

actually, for the holiday, let me infodump about this very aspect of my brain to anyone who isnt aware how this works for me. (also every autistic person is different, so this is just how this symptom manifests in me)

ill say "phases" to simplify, though thats an unfair word because it implies im "over" my past phases. 99% of my past phases are pretty much there for life, but in the back of my mind. (So long as I didnt have a "bad breakup" with it for some reason, which is rare but happens) The ability to become a raving lunatic about it is dormant until someone asks the right question.

There can only be one interest (sometimes 2, with one being the less dominant one) at the forefront of my brain at a time, though. that defines the "phase".

so for example, my recent Halloween phase is "over" and I am 100% fully into Saw now, but I still absolutely love Halloween and Michael and Jason and all those guys. as evident by me still happily sharing gifsets and art and buying merch etc if it tickles my fancy. They're just hanging out in the background of my mental display case.

yea whoever follows my tumblr for a very long time has watched it happen in realtime. the transition between interests. i know for a fact which phase I started this blog on. if you're here from the beginning, youve seen, in order:

-Durarara!! -Deus Ex -Supernatural -Godzilla -Detroit: Become Human -There was like a few weeks where it was HLVRAI -And then it was plants. There was a year-long stretch with no Special Interest and I was latching onto odd things (and I was very inactive here) -Halloween & Friday the 13th -and now, Saw

I have many other things I love, but they don't clamp around my brain in quite the same extreme way.

my phases can last any amount of time, anywhere from a few short intense months to 5+ years, its completely random, completely unpredictable. even the interest itself is impossible to predict. its not something i choose, its something that happens to me.

sometimes i avoid watching things for a long time because im still very emotionally attached to my current phase and im genuinely afraid the shiny new thing will replace it. all art or fic ideas for the previous phase? theyll be abandoned. all I will want to create will be related to the new thing. (though I will sometimes draw it anyway, like digging up old toys to play with once in a while. The likelihood just drops considerably)

which is why right now i pretty much put a pause on the other franchises I plan on watching. I'm genuinely gripping onto Saw like someone is tryin to take it from me.

and then sometimes im like "haha yeah right. ill be fine. ill eat my shoe if my brain latches to this" and then put on the movie and by the credits roll im a new person (yes thats what happened with Saw. I really had no idea.)

this is also why im terrified of even just "checking out" things that have, like, a toxic fanbase or something, because i cant stop a new phase from happening if it does. and its really hard to keep it to myself, fuck

(do u know how mad i was when i realized i was attaching to hoffman the evil dirty cop??? i was so scared of drawing him, dudes. but thankfully everyones been cool abt it and we're all very aware of his awfulness & we have fun w it)

and every time my brain changes and i do get obsessed with some new thing, i get really scared and worried and hope I dont bother everyone who followed me for something else :(((( and yet, every time, im absolutely floored by how many people choose to tolerate my newest nonsense and stick around anyway

anyway ive lost the plot of what point i was making here OH YEAH thank you!

tl;dr: that would be the autism! thank you, it WILL happen again! that is a threat! 🥰

#jennilargh #jenna answers

[goldenageofwireless]

wait can u give me a quick rundown of ur ocs… so i can ask questions abt them 👀

yes ofc !!!! OK SO. My guy that im like hyperfixated on right now is Emil, he's a mad scientist guy and he SUCKS. basically he's just always been a pain in the ass since he was born and never really made an effort to be a better person. Also he's really fucking smart. He ends up getting really famous and wealthy cuz he invented something really cool (still hammering out deets on this, i like the idea of some kinda neural implant or advanced surveillance tech tho). He enjoys living in luxury but hates the constant attention, so one day he decides to abandon it all and isolate himself in his lab in rural Louisiana. He stays in isolation for like 5 or so years and gets soooo depressed. and keeps thinking gay thoughts about his former lab partner .... (i'll get to them in a bit) he just kinda ignores All That and keeps working. Until his lab partner shows up at his door and is like DUDE YOUR INVENTION CAUSED THE END OF THE FUCKING WORLD. and then they go on a lil road trip together to stop the Big Bad and Emil learns to stop sucking so much and take accountability for his actions :3 also heres a doodle i did of him recently <3

[ID: a digital drawing of op's character, Emil, visible from the waist up. Emil is a fat, white man with messy orange hair. He is wearing a white, short-sleeved lab coat, black gloves, and a purple button-up shirt. The shirt is unbuttoned a bit, and his cleavage is visible. He has green goggles on his head, and he's wearing colored contact lenses. His left eye is green, and his right is purple. He's frowning and glancing to the right/end ID] so Sahir !! They were Emil's lab partner in grad school. They're a botanical psychologist (some shit i made up, they're researching the cognitive abilities of plants). They've always been the quiet, out of the way, people-pleaser type. Emil kept them around bc they just went along with whatever he did. ANYWAY they always kinda had a crush on Emil and even when he ditched them when he got famous, they didn't stop thinking of him </3 So when shit goes down bc of his big fuckup they go find him and basically don't leave him alone until he gets off his ass and fixes it. They're still not really comfortable with standing up to him, so they just keep letting him be a dick to them until they just. have enough and totally snap. and that's kinda the inciting incident that makes Emil realize how much of a dick he is and why thats Bad actually. So Sahir's whole personal journey is basically unlearning their people-pleaser mentality and gaining confidence in themself <3 SO theyre the only two that really have a solid storyline at this point, i have a few misc guys ill drop tho :) ok so first up there's Mal (short for Malpractice Lawsuit), she's basically liiiike if u took the concept of capitalistic greed and made it into a lesbian robot <3 shes evil and she sucks and shes sooo hot and i wanna write her into emil and sahir's storyline but im not sure how atm !! but perhaps i will figure it out eventually !! and theres Marvin, he's a lil guy robot and my fav oc :3 he's just small and silly and also a genius who does Epic Cool Hacking Stuff but hes also an 8 year old who eats dirt then theres Hugo and Vicki, theyre cool and gay :) Hugo is the most anxious man alive (also hes from boston) and Vicki is a demon who just decided that xey like him and they hang out. not much story there they just kiss each other a lot

so yah !!! thats my guys !!!

#ty for asking i LOVE talking about my stupid lil fools ............. #maya tag #💜 #emil posting #askeroonies #oc talk

[morally-grey-girlbosses]

Propaganda under the cut.

Reagan Ridley:

She’s like a neurodivergent kid who was gifted in elementary school except she never stopped being gifted and just got more mentally ill. She’s the leader of her team and fr the only competent one (except Gigi maybe) She has so much trauma bc of her parents and also pretty much every person she knows (except the malewife character) is an asshole to her so she deserves to be a morally grey angry strong woman >:3 She’s a GENIUS and if you ever pissed her off she would just build a transformer to murder you with

Kalina AKA Shadow Cat:

she's one of the main antagonists of the second season of the show, and is really fucking cool and terrifying. i won't go into too much spoilers about her, because it's extremely fun to try to solve the mystery of her existence as you watch on, but she literally haunts the fuck out of everyone and fucks with the entire main mission. she is not afraid to threaten children and is not above attempts to murder them, REALLY fucks with everyone's perception of events, manipulates the entire plot to happen essentially, and is in general LITERALLY the "they're" in "it's not paranoia if they're really out to get you". she's fucking terrifying and i hate her so much, but she also brings a certain 'it wasn't really her fault she's like this' vibe to the table that is very interesting to think about the implications about, because [mild spoilers] she used to have a different form before being cursed to become the Evil Cat Lady who will kick your ass and also may or may not have killed at least 2 of your loved ones. she rlly deserves to be here imo in general even if she's gonna get absolutely punted away thanks to fandom obscurity <3

#poll #tournament poll #round 2 #reagan ridley #inside job #kalina fantasy high #shadow cat #fantasy high #dimension 20

[belog-grada-crna-princeza]

even if i do recover from my illness and even if things ever do get better and i survive this and don't k1ll myself in the near future.. even if i stop being depressed. even if all my dreams come true by some miracle. i will never. EVER. forget. because i thought i knew hell but i didn't before this. this world we live in is hell. believe me. no matter what social media shows you with the gummy lollipop pinky pink rainbows and unicorns. nope. there is so much evil, injustice and cruelty that can never be forgiven.

like that quote: “If there is a God, He will have to beg for my forgiveness.”

i can never unsee what i've seen and unknow what i know and it has forever killed my innocence and changed me as a person. i have seen how "loved ones" leave you at your worst. how people abandon you because you cant do anything for them anymore. how they say you're not alone and they're there for you but it's just pretty words. how medical professionals and mental health system and every institution hurts people and can't be trusted. how it's every man for himself. how people avoid you when you're in pain because youre "bringing them down". how society turns away their heads from everything unpleasant and just pretends it's all good. how all fights for justice don't amount to any sustainable progress and millions suffer every day for no reason. how full of spite and envy and ill-will people are. how most of them judge you too easily if you dont fit some rulebook they've invented for you. how no one actually has empathy for one another even though it's the most popular f*cking word these days and everyone is an Empath. how people say things that make them sound good but never actually follow through.

i am sick of talking. i googled a step by step how to successfully un1liv3 myself (i even have to censor these fuck*ng words now) bc i failed in the past and i don't want to be stopped this time and they gave me.. su1cid3 lines to call. i laughed. what a joke! talk to who?????? tell them WHAT????? be put on some sh*tty ass drugs or in some stupid institution just to go back to this hell. i dont want to be brainwashed. even if things get better i can NEVER forget what the world actually is and what society is.

i will never forget and i will always know. f*ck your fake positivity and brainwashing with nicely wrapped up lies. the world is f*cked up

#vent #bgcpvent

[bronanlynch]

❤💔💕 fire emblem canon of your choosing 👀

❤: Which character do you think is the most egregiously mischaracterized by the fandom?

all of them but especially the main three lords like. you have the people who think edelgard is an evil ~crazy tyrant, the people who have some wild fucking opinions abt dimitri's mental illness, and the people who either think that claude is just a silly meme guy (or that he's 100% pro-church)

💔: If you had to remove one major character from the series, who would you choose?

those who slither in the dark. like edelgard can have a shitty ambitious uncle who wants to use her to gain power and whom she is using in return. but please. he can just be an ordinary guy who sucks there should not be a group of ontologically evil non-human guys who secretly manipulate all world events for their own gain. genuinely wild that I have only very rarely seen anyone point out that uhhhhhh that's classic antisemitic conspiracy theory shit that the game would be better without on so many levels

💕: What is an unpopular ship that you like?

it's time to tell you abt yet another girl that I think should kiss edelgard. it's understandable that this is a rarepair bc hapi & edelgard don't interact much and also hapi is from the dlc (she's from the secret fourth house in the sewers) and there's another girl from the same dlc that she's ~gal pals with, so people tend to pair them together (they're cute too, and tbh these ships are not mutually exclusive, the other girl is one of the ones who has a paired ending with edelgard (the magic scientist who wants to restore her family's status) so like. polycule. anyway). hapi/edelgard. the thing abt hapi is that she's cursed (every time she sighs she summons monsters, because she was experimented on by the same people who experimented on edelgard) which is why the church threw her into abyss and she's. understandably angry abt them locking her up instead of helping her. see: this entire conversation between her and byleth, that caused me to immediately be like "you and edelgard Need to have a conversation abt this" especially this part

like. the thing abt hapi is that she's very jaded and disillusioned and acts like she doesn't care abt anything or anyone as a defense mechanism and I think that's a fun sort of character to set up with someone like edelgard who believes So strongly. girl who doesn't think the world can change so why bother hoping x girl who believes that the world Must change and she has to be the one to do it. this too is yuri

anyway that's why I wrote a fic abt them

#thank you!! #dreaming.txt #omnipah #ask

[space-mantis]

reminder virused moon ain't mean or evil even in the slightest canonically, they're just as silly n sweet as sun is minus sun's temper. ya's really need to stop supporting and spreading those ableist stereotypes demonising ppl with mental illnesses like DID, schizophrenia etc regardless

i cant believe that this is still something that needs to be said bc as someone with schizophrenia ppl still referring to moon as a 'psycho' is incredibly fucking harmful and thats on top of everything else

#mantis mumbles #fnaf sb #i mean i really do get upset and tired of saying this along with how many ppl Still infantilise sun so badly #but if ppl actually cared about their canon characterisation instead of jumping on harmful fanon #this maybe wont be such a big problem #if anyone needs this tagged pls lmk #i dont think im overreacting on this but sorry to my followers and others who arent being so ableist #its hard to tell sometimes

[tirfpikachu]

It was disheartening when being trans got demedicalised, but so many people on here were cheering it on. Gender dysphoria is a medical condition. Gender affirming care is medical care. Everyone was comparing it to gay people being demedicalised but it is not VAGUELY the same. It’s just so frustrating that, politically, the side who would medicalise being trans again, is out of hate and not out of care.

EXACTLY!!! i'm so sorry if you're trans and saw that happen, that must have been annoying as fuck and just really dismissive of your struggles. it wasn't the case for most of history on the left, people would see it more as a medical condition afaik and transphobia meant more a mix of ableism and sexism than anything else. trans ppl as a whole were very respectful, and trans was a very specific term. i honestly feel like transsexual & transgender are vastly different identities nowadays. you can be trans in the sense of having a mental disorder needing treatment & accommodations, and you can be trans (usually nonbinary) in the sense that you're wanting to be androgynous to go against society and you want to reshape society and stop sex-based pronouns from being a thing and generally hate cis people. i've met people who said they literally were identifying as nonbinary (which nowadays is under trans) for political reasons, bc it goes against the evil gender binary and they wanted to confuse people. it's all an obsessive game for some folks (not all), or crossdressing/drag in a sense. tbh i sometimes wonder if nonbinary really should be under the transgender umbrella...? for a long time i saw ppl say they're nonbinary and still cis, they just used nonbinary to basically mean gnc/androgynous. that was a thing for the longest time, and transness was a totally different thing, though they were friendly together. they reallyyy seemed to have diff goals in mind

some would say being gnc falls under transness, and like yeah being gnc can be a big part of being trans obviously but also you can be gnc and not be trans and still face terrible sexism that even some trans ppl don't face!! gncphobia/sexism is its own issue. with transness you're basically looking to solve the initial gender nonconformity, you're looking to shift your body to look like the opposite sex... it's a mental illness treatment, though ppl get really heated when you call transness a mental illness, i definitely would've been a couple years ago... despite dysphoria literally being in the dsm. there should be no stigma around transness - transsexualism at least anyway, what does transgender truly mean nowadays? - being a mental disorder! it's such a disability accommodation type thing compared to gayness. it's SOOOO radically different. but trans activists often piggyback onto the gay rights movement bc it makes their activism seem more legitimate and above any criticism. any concern about it is transphobia, and transphobia is exactly like homophobia. many would even say it's worse. it's bonkers honestly!

ppl really rushed to add the t to lgbt but it always felt different, didn't it? one literally needs surgeries and hormones and accommodations, and the other is just harmless behaviors needing to be normalized. gayness is NOT a medical issue, or it never should've been considered as such. yet TRAs keep putting us in the same boat nonstop!!! and not just that but taking control of the boat and talking shit about those damn cis gays who don't want to suck dick or eat pussy or deal with a sexless opposite-sex relationship and keep bringing up stupid feminist questions like dumb bigoted bitches who have it way too easy. they normalize lying about their agab/sex in early or even late stages of dating, they're just against the concept of sex-based attraction or oppression or even sex existing!! which goes directly against how old-school trans ppl treated the whole thing. and that's also despite them using afab/amab (or tma/tme) all the time!! they repress even being their assigned sex/agab instead of learning to actually accept it as a part of themselves, which i recommend everyone to do, even if transitioned... they so often are against desensitizing themselves AT ALL to dysphoria triggers, and therapists who try are cancelled, when that is not the usually complex way that mental disorders are treated.

usually treatment is a journey, not just point A to B, and it should be seen critically. i've seen non-dysphoric ppl talk over dysphoric transmascs and transfems too! and if a trans person is more respectful of cis folks they're called a bootlicker. some of the ones being loud and obnoxious for all intent and purposes often live as vaguely gnc, usually straight people, but they yell about how queer they are aaaall day and act like they're more oppressed than boring gays or transsexuals. it's so bewildering! they're basically roleplaying as facing things they don't actually face irl. it's so weird. i'm sorry those ppl are ridiculing and derailing the very serious trans movement. they're literally setting trans rights back instead of helping themselves!!! i truly feel bad for classic transsexuals having to deal with non-dysphorics who don't stay in their lane, and for normie respectful trans/nb ppl of all kinds being shushed everytime

it would be SOOOO easy if everyone in the lgbtq community was just respectful of eachother's different experiences and didn't claim to be at the top of the oppression pyramid. it would be so much better if TRAs acknowledged that transness is something related to medical treatment and accommodations, closer to disability than trans rights, bc if they don't pass as the opposite sex ppl still have to pretend they're not noticing their sex anymore even though humans are literally built being able to tell. that's a disability accommodation honestly! it's avoiding someone's triggers, shielding them. people accommodate me being triggered by certain things due to cptsd too. but instead of being like "thanks for being kind and avoiding my dysphoria triggers" TRAs act snobby like it's a societal problem not a brain problem. and if you acknowledge their upbringing or ways that their amab/afab socialization is impacting your relationship w them you're gonna be responsible for them offing themselves?? and if you don't call every gnc person they/them you're a bigot. it's unhinged!

i'm sorry you deal with lunatics in ur community anon, i hope ur doing okay <3 it won't always be like this! people are peaking all the time and are becoming more open to complex discussions, i rly think so! i'd love to hear your thoughts or any other thoughts from trans ppl on here. i promise i have no hate in my heart for normie trans folks. so many trans ppl have been lovely to me, i have many trans buddies. it's just a very complex issue. i love discussing it out in the open for once! if anyone has thoughts abt this please lmk, i'm still learning <3

#asks #lay text

[edelgarfield]

I love your durge characterization. Like. Their soul slowly growing in to occupy their corpse. Literally standing there like 🧍🏻 as their brain just spews horror at them. The scene where everyone mind melds and the gang is all horrified by the depths of their self loathing and they cannot understand why rlly rlly got me. None of them are equipped to deal w one another’s trauma but they want to, so badly, and it’s one of the things I rlly like abt the group dynamic and I loved the way you wrote it. Also astarion’s flashbacks were absolutely awful and devastating (complimentary, but I am brandishing a stick at you). You also captured the inherent grim hilarity of having an evil butler that encourages your violent intrusive thoughts. Like wow this day can’t get any worse [a little freak scampers up and tells you to disembowel your close friends and companions] fuck’s sake.

thank you so much!

it's funny you talk about their soul growing in bc I have Thoughts on that & plans for future fics that I hope to get to. but the short version is because of the circumstances around durge's creation i don't think they'd be made with a soul. like. why would they. they're supposed to be daddy's murderbot why would he give them free will. idk how souls work in the forgotten realms but if mindflayers don't have them i think it makes sense that durge might not either.

the group sees durge as confident & unflappable. they don't emote a lot bc they're constantly keeping the urge in check so they just assume durge is as stoic on the inside as they are on the outside. so getting in their head and seeing how much self-loathing they have just completely blindsides them. you find out the person you've been using for emotional support this whole time actually desperately needs it themselves. also i think their response just totally catches everyone off guard. like they have 6 people telling them "we think you're a good person" and they're just like "no, you're wrong." and then proceeds to get angry about it which is like. what do you do with that? durge is so convinced in their own badness that nothing can sway them otherwise which is like. trying to argue with a brick wall.

they are trying their best!! they care abt each other so much but no one taught them emotional regulation or healthy coping mechanisms so they're just throwing darts at the wall and hoping they don't accidentally poke someone's eye out

IM GLAD YOU "LIKE" ASTARION'S FLASHBACKS they're awful and uncomfortable i think it parallels the Urges. they both get uncontrollable visceral upsetting thoughts. they are both Mentally Ill just one is a magic mental illness.

sjkdlfjkdlsfj you are so right abt sceleritas fel every time durge is like "god damn it not this fucker again" also like the line abt him running all over the place to find durge is taken straight from the game so does that mean he's physically following you every where. solo campaign where you're just sceleritas fel trying to follow your master as they keep getting sucked dry by the vampire

#hilda talks to people #Anonymous

[blorbocedes]

hi hello I’ve only just got a tumblr account a few months ago despite being a chronically online dickhead, so I’m yet to follow, post or interact w nearly anything bc there is so much here and I’m terrified! 🥰 I dun know what to do or about the unspoken rules and courtesy and I’m too afraid of people coming for my blood bc holy shit my faves are a very funky blend 👁️👁️

HOWEVER I felt the need to send u this ask bc I am actually obsessed with your blog and insanity (/gen/pos, etc), you truly speak to my ooga booga f1 fan brain and I love u for it. your chaos speaks to my mental illness in a way that I enjoy muchly 😌 your posts are hilarious

Also I just rlly wanted you to know that the whole time yesterday and today watching Nico fuck about in those what my mother called “Jesus sandals” and interviewing lewis and interrogating both sides of HornyWolff I was going “haha damn borbocedes must be having a breakdown rn I hope they’re having fun” ✨✨✨(these thoughts gave me happiness while going insane during the race today I stg)

ty for your service your iconic 🩷

And genuine apologies for this weird ask 😭 (hoping I’ve done this right if not I’ll eat bricks)

haha this is a very nice ask, thank you for thinking of me 🥺

I'm also assuming you're a young person, just cause the way you type reminds me of me a few years back 🥹 so I just wanna say, please don't self deprecate so much or call yourself a dickhead, overapologize etc. because one really does internalize this language and believe they're taking up space just for Being. (and trust me, as someone who grew up on 2014 tumblr where saying "I'm trash xD" 42 times a day, I've been there)

if you wanna be more a part of tumblr just join in, talk to people/interact! most people don't care who your evil combination of faves (I mean just look at me 💀), and the best way to learn any culture and "unspoken etiquette" is to participate!!

thank you for sending this ask! as cousin Greg would say, muchly appreciated

#blorbocedes ask

[yuukei-yikes]

ah! if you're taking questions about the fankids, can i ask about what's going on about the whole reincarnation thing? (how konoha finds out, if anyone else figures it out, even how he finds out about konoha (before he died) and the whole "daze" thing in the first place. poor kid's got a lot to deal with lol)

YIPPEEEEEEEEEE <- this yippe was written before i finished writing the reply. no yippee anymore. under the cut bc i also went crazy long with this and its embarrassing and erm erm erm erm. hehe. so much mental illness i basically wrote a fic under the cut

i've actually answered this before BUT im changing my answer. when i answered that ask konoha and ayame were only like 40 hours old so now it's simmered in my head better...hehehehheheheeh <- my evil laugh because im abt to give konoha 80 mental illnesses.

so i know i linked to the old answer but if u went to read it just forget abt everything i say in there

yknow how i talked abt like overprotective parents haruka&takane in my last ask LOL i actually had a big wall of text that i deleted while answering because it was rly sad and it got super long and i was like erm. maybe another time and THEN I GOT THIS ASK AND IM LIKE BOYYY WHY DID I DELETE THE TEXT but whatever i'll just go crazy now and even more bc i can dedicate the whole space to it HEHEHEHEHHEEH

konoha is nonverbal for years and since ayano works with kids i think she knows sign language teehee and when it became obvious konoha wasn't going to speak as a kid haruka&takane are like. well. let's do that ig. mekakushi dan learning sign language arc 💖 still is nonverbal most of the time i think. if i had thought of it beforehand i would've kept it for present time JUST IMAGINE THE DOODLES I MADE THE FIRST TIME HE'S SIGNING EVERYTHING IVE DECIDED MY NEXT GEN KONOHA IS NONVERBAL. HE DICHO. CASO CERRADO

ok they're overprotective not only bc they're disabled4disabled and terrified that konoha will one day wake up and be diagnosed with u got 6 years to live type of thing but also. konoha autism swag

and when konoha becomes a toddler shit goes down. then he starts hallucinating and having all these night terrors abt stuff like hibihiyo's timeloop and reviving azami over and over while she was living in the real world but also he's a kid so he doesn't really register all this horrifying stuff the same an adult would duh. and he kind of ALWAYS saw it he just can put it into words now ig. so he's not like AUUUUGHHH he's more like.. confused and scared. he's also not super communicative and i dont mean that bc he's nonverbal like even if he is, he still speaks through signs!! but he's still kind of quiet and slow and etc. like he IS konoha yknow?? he's just like playing and hanging out and suddenly just sees azami and he's like erm mom can u tell the lady in the corner to go away :(( and takane's like LOL. GET IN THE FUCKING CAR. he just gets diagnosis or derivations to other doctors and a child therapist etc and its not wrong bc HE IS completely human now and that whole thing IS translating into not only a human mind but like A TINY human mind. basically mental illness. so many mental illnesses.

HE'S STILL A RLY HAPPY KID...BUT THERE'S SO MUCH TO GET THRU... it's not like he's permanently hallucinating or having night terrors every night either he leads a fairly normal life!!! and is a little kid and has fun and plays around and he's so so so sweet and rly happy!!! but. there's also The Horrors.

i dont think the dan would hide their powers. like yeah sure kano can turn into a cat yippeee!! if we lose a toy we go to hibiya he can find anything!! seto can ALWAYS guess what number we're thinking of it's so funny!! LIKE IT'D BE CUTE RATIO + PLAYING + HAVING FUN OK? PEACE AND LOVE ON PLANET EARTH, OK!?!?!?!?

but the thing is that haruka saw everything konoha did like THEY WERE. YEAH. haruka & konoha is a THING so i think konoha can ask something and haruka's increasingly like HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT bc there is no way ANYONE could've told him that like the only person who would know is. WELLLLLL KONOHA? i think the big reveal can happen thru konoha being like hey. do u remember when we talked. in that big white room that never ended. that was rly weird lol like when did that happen. where even were we lol. also u were yelling thats so weird u never yell it was scary. lol!! and haruka's like Hehe(shaking) bc as soon as he realises He Cannot Stop realising

what the dan doesn't say is their story ofc bc it's rly sad and like why would they tell their kids abt that lol but. konoha starts asking Questions... Very Specific Questions.

ok sorry i havent even gotten to the way he finds out he's even awakening eyes LOL i think haruka realises btw. he realises before konoha realises. well konoha DOESNT realise. but he HAS been having this identity crisis and he's like damn i already transed my gender WHAT IS IT THIS TIME and he keeps asking these oddly specific questions that are freaking everybody out because he's not even really asking about their pasts?? he's just like mixing his old memories to his current memories and being like uncle shintaro remember when we fell off that high place together :3 and shintaro's like what the fuck are u talking about. like he doesn't describe it specifically enough or whoever he's talking to just assumes someone else told him abt something that happened back then.

like THATS HIS OTHER SELF so haruka isnt even doubting it, as soon as he realises HE DOESNT UNREALISE HE DOESN'T TRY TO CONVINCE HIMSELF OTHERWISE once he knows HE KNOWS. but konoha still doesn't know he's just kinda watching haruka having like a crisis or something.

from then on erm.... about how to manage it... well it'd be a complicated situation. haruka obviously tells takane and she's like ur fucking crazy lol im gonna go talk to him *leaves* *comes back* ok u were right. how the fuck did we even create this.

basically the dan knows before konoha does and it becomes a rly complicated subject about what to do about it because most of them are like the only way to rly make sure is to talk to konoha and they dont know if they wanna do that because they'd have to come clean about their horrible story and yknow konoha's just a kid!! but also if he IS konoha and everything he is seeing are those awful memories then he should know? for peace of mind? maybe? it's... a whole thing. like konoha isn't.... suffering. like obviously all his mental issues are awful but it's not like they will go away just by having context to some stuff. he's still a happy kid. the dan's like ok somehow haruka and ene created a freak of nature. it happens.

like what if they tell him and then all the memories become super clear. why would they wanna do that. most of the memories are total ass and awful. but also konoha's clearly confused and feels so lost. but maybe that's better than him being properly traumatized by remembering everything??

at the end of the day haruka and takane are the parents and they have to decide lollll man they'd be so torn about it. konoha probably throws a line like i just always feel like im forgetting something. THEY'D BREAK DOWN ON EACH OTHER SO BAD AND KONOHA'S LIKE WHYYYY ARE U GUYS CRYINGGGG!?!?! srry haruka and takane for putting u thru the horrors. i think it's funny to do that. congratulations on the marriage and the kid but also cry about it

erm. idk if or how they'd tell him. this is all i can come up with now. bye tune in for next chapter i fucking guess

#ask tag #dont look at me. im THINKING. #kagekids #headcanons