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oohyansi · 3 years

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ASYMPTOTE LINES.

"they always say to expect the unexpected, and sometimes you just have to go with the flow of life. i guess meeting you is not the worst thing after all; i never knew life could be this thrilling and beautiful again — i just hope you'll always choose to stay and never leave my side..."

PAIRING: idol jaehyun x idol reader

GENRE: fluff, angst, smut

WARNINGS: no warnings, just enjoy the ride & surprises (lol jk this would contain a lot of smut and fluff probably and a whole roller coaster ride)

CHARACTERS INTRO:

NCT as NCT, Jaehyun as the Jeong Jaehyun himself, You as a member of a 4-member girl group from SM Entertainment called IRIS, Johnny Seo as your cousin.

STATUS: coming soon.

PLOT: if there's one thing you can be compared to, that's a pretty solid rock. but everything changed when you finally decided to go back to Korea. entering the industry have let you meet people that that turned your life into something worth living again, and having him is one of the best part. from strangers to best friends, and who knows what's next? will it stay that way? will it be more than that? or will it fall apart?

PROLOGUE:

You have everything; the looks, the talents, the brains, and the perfect family. You are an only child, your family is known to be wealthy as your parents are both surgeons. Your parents might be busy at work, but they never failed to make you feel so loved. Little did you and your father knew, your mother was suffering from depression. You have everything — but not until she passed away. Your family became a mess and your father decided to leave and settle in another country for the both of you to move on with your lives. You were 10 years old when you moved to Canada, stayed there and studied Psychology. You are an excellent student, that's why you got accelerated and graduated earlier. Your father — he overworked himself. It's like as if you lost him as well with your mother. He still provided you with the comfortable life and everything you need, aside from attention and affection. This is why you grew up to be so reserved, an introvert, who forgot to express affection and how it felt; you became cold and heart could barely feel emotions at all. You never healed.

After you graduated, something in your mind sparked up. You ponder on things, a voice echoed in the back of your head, it was your mother's voice. She would often remind you that "life is beautiful" and that no matter what happens, always find a reason to continue and have the courage to keep going. This leads you to feeling the urge to go back home, and face everything you left there; all the memories that comes with pain, waiting for you — thinking that if you could finally and accepted what happened fully, you'll be able to overcome that burden in your heart for so long, hoping that you can live your life again. One night, without thinking, you booked yourself a flight to Korea and called your father, who's at work in the hospital, telling him you'll go back to Korea and you already made up your mind, although you know to yourself that you do not have any plans as you go back. He just agreed and said he's ask your cousin, Johnny, to pick you up and help you settle as you go back. You love your father and didn't want to leave him alone, you felt a bit of guilt, even though it seemed like he left you first. You love him but a part of you won't deny the fact that you hated him a little for almost forgetting he still has a daughter who needs him. But that's long gone, you don't need anyone anymore. You've become independent, so used to and comfortable with your own, not having the slightest need to depend on anyone.

7:00pm Seoul, South Korea

After a long flight, you finally arrived. Slowly opening your eyes as your plane landed, seeing a familiar place through the plane window where your heart beats rapidly for the first time in a while, you felt home. As you walk out the airport, your eyes instantly wandered looking for a familiar face. On the right side, you saw a hella tall guy with a wide smile plastered in his face, looking and waving at you. There he is, your older cousin Johnny waiting for you. You both aren't that close with each other since you both grew up in a different place, yet back when you were young and everything was fine, you played with each other a lot in family gatherings. He would send you messages on your birthday or holidays to greet you, you knew he's busy since he debuted as an idol. He also occasionally sends you messages asking how have you been, knowing how broke you've become after your mother's death. Seeing him again feels nostalgic and warm. You walked fast towards him and he welcomed you open arms giving you a quick yet tight hug, and you did the same as you both smiled.

"It's been a while, Y/N. You're all grown up now." He said after the hug, with a warm smile, patting your head like he used to before when you get annoyed by his teases when you were just kids. "How have you been?" He asked.

"Pretty good, hyung." You answered with a soft smile, although it's a lie. You've never been good for the past 9 years. You used to call him hyung before and not oppa for no reason. "You're the one who grew up hyung, look at you! I look like a tiny kid standing in front of you." You let out a small laugh, joking about his height as he also laughed, but quickly displayed a shocked expression in his face as he forgot something.

"Ah- by the way Y/N, i'm actually with someone here" He said as he slowly moved to his side, revealing another person standing behind him since earlier.

"This is Jaehyun, he's my member and a good friend. I asked him to come with me, you know, it's boring to drive alone" he said with a small laugh while scooting more to the side, giving you a full look on the guy he's referring to. You knew your cousin is an idol, you can sometimes saw their group's performances while scrolling through your phone, but you never really got to know about them. You had no interest, you rarely had interest in anything aside from studying. But you are so proud of your cousin just knowing that he finally fulfilled his dream.

Your eyes landed on him, you took a quick yet good look on him, enough to notice he's just wearing a casual attire with a pair of ripped jeans and a black shirt, looking so soft with his hair down.

"Hi, Y/N." He gave you a smile, and his deep dimples on the sides of his cheek did not remain unnoticed by you. Actually, it got you a little distracted; but you weren't that amazed. You've seen a lot of good looking guys back in Canada, majority of them asking you out, but you never really went out with anyone. You got no time and interest in dating, you couldn't even feel emotions by yourself.

"Hi, I'm Y/N. Nice to meet you" You said with a smile back, handing your hand over him for a hand shake. You noticed how he was staring at you with eyes you cannot explain what those meant, before he looked at your hand, back to your face. He reached his hands to meet yours.

"Me too." and the moment your hand touched, you felt how warm and soft his hands are, you felt a little flustered on how tight his hand holding yours, not tight enough to hurt tho. You held hands a little longer than the usual handshake would take, before you retreat your hand from him softly, beaming him another smile. You noticed how Johnny's eyes looked at you and Jaehyun for a couple of times with a very small smile on his mouth, almost not visible but you sort of knew what it meant. They gave each other a quick look you did not noticed as you looked at your phone to check the time.

"Y/N, it's half past 7:00, have you eaten?" Johnny asked.

"Not yet hyung. Have you? Let's go for dinner?" You replied to as he took your baggage.

"Sure! Bet you missed korean food, where do you want to eat?" Johnny asked as you walked out of the airport heading to the parking lot where his car parked. You are on the left side of Johnny, while Jaehyun is in his right side.

"Choose for me hyung, I haven't been here for almost half of my life. I could barely recall the restaurants we used to dine before" You said chuckling softly, realizing how long you've been away from the place that's supposed to be your home.

"Yeah, you never visited! You like Vancouver that much?" He said with a playful whine and you just smiled at him when you already reached the parking lot and his car. He started to put your luggage in the trunk, Jaehyun helping him.

"Nah, I didn't liked it that much, Vancouver is a great place but... nothing beats home, i guess? I just needed to stay there with no choice." You said and the last few words were said in almost a whisper. You're chuckling, but Johnny knew what you meant.

He walked to you and put his hand on the top of your head again and pat it, "Well you're here now! We'll pick up all you left and missed out, don't worry." He said, giving you an assuring smile. You gave a genuine smile back, knowing that this is the start of putting your life back into place. You sure had a lot of worries on your mind, not knowing where to even start or what to do, but all you hope for is that you don't regret coming back.

You all went to the car, you sat on the passenger seat while Jaehyun sat at the back. While choosing for a restaurant, Johnny asked Jaehyun for his suggestion and you all agreed to go on his favorite restaurant, it is a 45-minute drive from the airport but it's just fine as you can relax a bit in the car after your long flight. Johnny played relaxing music and asked you about your graduation, how have you been, and random stuffs for the first 20mins while the rest of the time he just let you rest on the seat.

Along the quite long drive, you did not fail to notice Jaehyun looking at you through the rearview mirror. You pretended you did not notice it, but you can feel his stares back and forth the mirror and your back.

JAEHYUN'S POV

Fuck. The moment I saw her walking out of the airport with that smile as she recognized Johnny, realizing she's that 'cousin' we're about to pick up, I couldn't believe my eyes. Of course I acted cool, but hell, I couldn't take my eyes off her. She's so beautiful. I felt my insides shuffle a little when I heard her voice, she sounds like an angel. I can smell her when she got close, and damn. She smells so good.

Seeing beautiful faces have become normal for me, for us in the entertainment industry, but I am lost for words for her beauty, I'm not even sure if the word beauty is enough to describe her. Her long hair just lying on her waist, wearing a pair of knee length boots and a black dress and coat, she looked perfect. How come someone out there, who's supposed to be in Korea, looking this good, just flashing right in front of my eyes just now?

What took you so long?

Those are the words on the back of my mind. She handed out her hand to me, I hesitated shortly before taking it, thinking 'am I even allowed to touch her hands?' God, she seemed like a porcelain, too fragile to touch and to beautiful to hold her hand for free. Her hand felt so soft that I don't even want to let go. I knew Johnny noticed it too, I almost lost my cool. Giving me the look, I know he understood.

i'm damned. i did not believe the idea of love at first sight, until now.

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author's note:

hi!! i'm actually hesitant to write this one, this is my first. I had this story on my head for quite a long time now, lol being an nctzen really get your imagination worked up 😆 I just wrote this semi long prologue to know if I should countinue this one or just keep this imagination to myself lol. PLS let me know if you're interested on how this delulu story would go. if you say so, I'm willing exert effort in writing this the best way I could to deliver the story at it's best too. all the love, czennies!!

ps. I am jungwoo biased but jaehyun, this guy... I know we can all agree that he has a special place in our hearts, that's why he's the main character in here. 🤍

and the title, i'm not a fan of mathematics but I loved the concept of lines. you can search what asymptote lines means... 😉

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stae-yong · 4 years

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a dream in a bottle [j.jh]

genre: fluff, romance, fantasy word count: 11.4k

Year 2059.

Everyone has lost their minds finding solace in a world full of chaos. Dreams in a bottle are now being used like a drug in order to fulfill their wildest fantasies. Have you ever dreamt so good, you never wanted to wake up?

“You’re the dream I go to, every time I close my eyes.”

a/n: this is my first jaehyun fic, and the first fic i’ve written :> please understand if i’ve made any errors. i wanted to write this since i started stanning nct and i hope you guys enjoy!! oh and listen to this, it inspired me to write this story. hopefully it could set the mood as well.

“Happy birthday to me,” y/n said dully as she blew her candle. The smoke from her two and three candles went to her eyes which made her squint. For the past week, all she ever did was cry herself to sleep thinking how miserable she would spend her birthday this week ever since her boyfriend left her for ‘his future’ which she snorted at as she remembered how his arms were wrapped around her waist as he kissed this new girl and who just enrolled in his arts class.

She then started to arrange her gifts which mostly consisted of plain old birthday cards which her so called friends just gave to her at the last minute since her existence was forgotten due to the busy days of work. As she went through her gifts, she noticed another postcard from her parents that are probably touring around Europe. She scrunched her nose in disappointment, “What a good way to start my 23rd year of living on this planet,” she muttered. Y/N stood up pushing around all the teared pieces of gift wrap as she tried to navigate herself around the living room. As she moved, she accidentally kicked a box tas was buried under piles of garbage.

A white box with pink hearts decorated around it. On the side of a box, a sticky note was attached with a letter with handwriting that was too familiar.

Dear y/n

Happy Birthday! I’m sorry we can’t spend it together this year, you know how hard life is. But I do hope you enjoy the following days with my gift. I gave this to you to spice up your birthday. It’s definitely one of a kind, I hope you could forget your dickhead of a boyfriend with this. Call me once you try it ;)

Love,

Mei.

“If this is a box of lingerie or condoms, Mei can rot in hell,” Y/N grumbled. This definitely should be worth it. She peeled the sticky note, as a remembrance of the gift as she carefully opened the box. Inside were three small bottles of iridescent liquid that seemed like it had been mixed by a 10 year old playing with glitters and water. A small card was placed above the bottles with a note saying “The best dreams happen when you are wide awake,” with several instructions to only drink one bottle every night for good results. Y/N contemplated if she should drink from it now considering that its nearly 10pm. She spent her whole day moping around her room munching on junk food while thinking about how lonely and boring her life was. Maybe this potion is worth the try, and maybe, like what Mei said, it could spice up her life.

She took the bottle in her hands shaking it a bit as she watched the small pieces of glitter swirl around as if it was luring her to drink it. At first she tasted like vanilla, smooth and milky then suddenly it turned to taste like strawberry mixed with different other fruits. Soon after, Y/N fell on her bed as she drifted off.

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Y/N felt as if she was thrown into a whirlpool as her head continued to spin. Bright light hit her face making her squint as she tried to slowly adjust to what she was seeing. Suddenly, people started to bump her as they made their way around the city. Y/N tried to make sense of where she was, it was a city that looked like it existed way back in the 1900s with the way people dressed. Women and men of all ages walked around the street as they clung unto their loved ones. Women were dressed in puffed blouses and below the knee skirts as they topped it with a trench coat to warm them from the cold. Men, on the other hand, were wearing top hand sand white button up with suspenders that were too old-fashioned for her liking as they paired it with trousers. As Y/N continued to make sense of what was happening, she passed by a shop where she saw her reflection, she was wearing the same thing everyone was wearing.

Great, how on Earth am I supposed to figure out what to do in this dream.

As she walked around, she noticed a long queue that led to a movie theater. Everyone seemed excited to watch this new ‘musical’ that only happens once every year and that is during the 23rd of Christmas, ‘The Impossible Dream’ was its title. She noticed that every poster posted on the streets had the same title written in cursive with a time, date, and location set. As she adjusted her coat that was wrapped around her, she noticed a ticket on her right pocket. “The Impossible Dream, 6pm,” she muttered. “I drink a stupid bottle of dream and now I have to watch a boring musical,” she added as she pouted remembering to message Mei that she won’t be drinking anymore of her gift. Her eyes wandered from the people around her to the buildings, she knew no one in this dream and the faces she see are not even close to familiar. The place itself looks like a 90s movie setting with all the broadway and lampposts hanging around.

“Excuse me, this is the end of the line, right?” Y/N turned to look around at a man around her age with caramel brown hair and smiling as his dimples poked out. She stared at him longer as she admired his features, okay, this is definitely a dream because no one else in the real world would look as good as this fine man standing behind her. “U-um, yeah,” she cleared her throat as she gave tight smile embarrassed as she was caught staring.

“Come on, you gonna pretend like you don’t know me now?” He said as he pouted. Y/N looked at him confused, never in her life did she encounter him, maybe this is a preset of the dream but she decided to play dumb instead. “Hmmm, I don’t think I remember,” she said as she tried to think of a name that matches his face.

“It’s Jaehyun,” he said as he poked her cheek with his index finger as he shook his head disappointingly. “Are you my boyfriend?” Y/N blurted out as she felt her cheeks heat up at her sudden question. Jaehyun felt flustered as his ears turned red. “Um, well, I don’t know,” he said nervously chuckling. Y/N nodded as she turned to the front once again, boyfriend or not it doesn’t matter but for sure the handsome guy standing behind her played an important role in her dream. She tried to remember if she knew any Jaehyun in the real world but no one came close. Heck, no one even looks like him. Was she really that desperate on moving on, she literally dreamed of having a boyfriend way better than her ex? Okay, maybe.

The line started moving as people made their way towards the entrance of the theater. “I didn’t know you were interested in watching musicals,” Jaehyun said as he stood beside her as they both made their way in.

“Well, maybe you don’t know a lot about me then,” she shrugged as she gave him a teasing smile. “We’ve known each other for four years and you forget my name?” He teased back as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder to move her from the people that were constantly passing by to get to their seats. Y/N felt her heartbeat speed up at the intimacy feeling his chest pressed against her shoulder as she muttered apologies to those passing by.

“Watch where you’re going,” he muttered under his breath as he looked at her. Y/N blushed as she looked up to him. The lighting in the room giving his visuals more justice as it surrounded her head making him look like he has a built in halo.

As she made her way to her seat, Jaehyun followed closely behind as they both sat together. The play started as the lights dim but Y/N couldn’t care less about what was happening in the play as she felt bothered by Jaehyun’s presence. How did he have this effect on her when he doesn’t even exist? It was also their first time meeting. She slowly shifted on her seat to face Jaehyun in a discreet way as she tried to steal a glance at him. Jaehyun noticed her shifting taking it as a sign of uncomfortableness, placing a hand gently on the area above her knee squeezing it lightly and giving her a look of concern.

Y/N froze in her seat as she looked back at Jaehyun who was staring at her worriedly, eyebrows furrowed. She looked away quickly as she cleared her throat, nudging Jaehyun’s hand away by accident as she shifted to face forward. Jaehyun chuckled as he continued to watch the musical smiling to himself. “What’s so funny?” Y/N said as she crossed her arms trying to concentrate on the show but finding it difficult with Jaehyun seated right beside her. “You should take a picture, it would last longer,” he whispered in her ear as she felt his warm breath brush against her cheeks making it heat up. Thankfully, the lights were dim and Jaehyun wouldn’t be able to see how red her cheeks were from the constant display of affection he was showing to her. She wasn’t staring, she was just trying to capture his face on her mind so that when she wakes up from this dream she could finally move on from her ex.

“I still haven’t forgiven you for what you’ve done,” Jaehyun whispers again, Y/N looks at him in confusion to see him leaning slightly to her side with eyes still focused on the show. “What have I done?” She said raising a brow. She has only been inside her dream for 20min, she barely got to do anything except stare at the piece of art seated right beside her.

Jaehyun looked at her in disbelief as he flicked her forehead earning a smack on the shoulder. “You left me in the rain, I told you to call me but you didn’t,” he said as he looked at her again. Y/N frowned, not really knowing what to say. “Sorry, I was busy,” At this point, making up stories would only be the solution to questions as it was only a dream that she may forget when she wakes up. Jaehyun continues to stare at her with an unreadable expression. He nods anyway and she gives him a small smile.

“Are you really watching this?” Y/N asks bored out of her mind as the main lead in the musical continues to cry as she longs for her love one who she only meets inside her dream.

“No, I’m just here because I like sitting beside you,” Jaehyun replies shooting her a smile, his dimples making an appearance as they always seem present when she looks at him. She scrunched her nose in disapproval, definitely too good to be true. Prince Charming likes her in her dream, her love life must definitely be fucked up for her to be dreaming about these things.

“We can get out of here if you’re bored,” Jaehyun shrugs as he took her hand gently. He jutted his chin toward the exit raising a brow, “Okay fine, but I’m not spending any money,” she muttered making Jaehyun laugh as he pulled her from her seat. She didn’t even know how she would able to live in this dream.

As they walked around the streets, Y/N tried to ask more about herself so that she wouldn’t have to lie all the time she entered this dream. Never in her life did she experience a dream so realistic, lately, she had troubles sleeping and if she ever got to dream, it would be long forgotten the moment she woke up. A warm hand wrapped around her cold one pulling her out of her thoughts, her gaze shifted from the street to Jaehyun who was grinning at her.

“Do you remember how we met?” She asked as he swayed their hands playfully while walking. “Of course, it was definitely my favorite day,” he chuckled as he recalled how they first met. It was the first day of university and Jaehyun was late. It definitely wasn’t a good first impression to his professors considering how he got into the university because of a basketball scholarship, he used to be a star player back in high school which led him to many offers from big schools that wanted him as the ‘face’ of their team. Although, Jaehyun chose the one closest to his home as he didn’t want to stray farther away from his family, at the same time, his friends attended the same university as him. He tried to discreetly make his way inside the classroom as his professor continued to scribble on the board. Sitting down on the farthest seat as possible, he tried to catch up on the lesson they were having

“Excuse me, is this seat taken?” He heard a small voice say as he shifted his gaze. There she stood in front of him, wearing a yellow dress with her brown hair softly framing her small face accentuating her brown eyes that seem to hold the stars. Jaehyun gulped nervously as he shifted on his seat.

“No, you can sit here whenever you want,” he said a bit too excitedly as he continued to stare at her. The girl gave him a small smile as she sat slid on the seat beside him taking out her notebook and pen.

“I’m Y/N, by the way,” she whispered extending her arm which Jaehyun stared at a bit for too long, “Not that it matte-“ before she could put down her hand Jaehyun grabbed her hand firmly with a smile. “Jaehyun,” he said smiling which made her flustered. “Care to share why you’re late?” He whispered as he tried to start a conversation without getting caught by the professor. He didn’t even understand what was being taught anymore as all his attention was occupied by the girl seated beside him. “The traffic was too bad, why are you late?” She shrugged as she leaned closer to him with a teasing smile. Jaehyun snorted as he slightly bumped his shoulder with hers. They were close already despite the small amount of time they knew each other, “You’re watching me?” He teased as he raised an amused brow at her. Her nose scrunched as she bopped his nose with her pen. “No, I saw you make your way through the door earlier and decided to seat beside you,” she chirped making Jaehyun’s heart flutter. “If I knew better, I would say you stalk me,” he replied trying to brush off the tremble in his voice caused by the amount of flips his heart was making. “Just interested,” she beamed and diverted her attention back to the board. Jaehyun took a glance at her shaking his head at their exchange, silently taking note that he should definitely get her number after this class.

Y/N looked at Jaehyun with an unamused expression as he shrugged, “It’s true though! You tried to hit on me on the first day,” he said earning a punch on the shoulder. “I don’t think that’s how it went though!” She retorted blushing as she didn’t even know if Jaehyun made everything up. It was her first time meeting him, yet in this dream it seems that she’s been in it for years already. She did, however, like how straight forward she was based on Jaehyun’s story, maybe she did like herself better in this dream.

“You asked for my number, so basically, you hit on me,” she stucked her tongue out as she harshly tugged Jaehyun in what she feels like the direction of her house is. Jaehyun pulled her back as they stopped under a lamp post with the light illuminating his face in all the right angles. He leaned close until they were eye-contact level as Y/N tried to keep a blank expression even if her heart was basically going to burst from how close Jaehyun’s face was from hers as she tried to remember all the small details of his face. “You said you were interested first, so I guess I win this argument,” he said smiling at her. Y/N brushed it off as he pushed his face away with her index finger. Jaehyun then wrapped his arms around her waist as he pulled her closer making her grab his forearms for support at the sudden action. “What are you doing?” She said nervously as he started to sway from side to side as he looked at her making her blush at the sudden attention he was giving her. There was no way he couldn’t see how red she was right now. “Dancing, we used to do this all the time,” he said as he continued to sway to some tune he was humming. “I don’t know how to dance,” she muttered as she looked down trying her hardest not to step on his feet. “It’s fine, I can lead,” he said confidently as he continued to stare down at her making her stare at his chest as she couldn’t meet his eyes.

“Hey Y/N,” he mentions when he noticed how quiet she has gone. “Hmmm?” She replies looking up to him as she stared at the area between his brows, his eyes too much for her to take, afraid that if she looks at him she might as well just kiss him there. “I really like dancing here with you but do you mind?” He says as he looked down. Y/N followed his gaze and saw her shoe lace untied itself probably because she kept stepping on them as they danced.

“Oh, let me-“ as she tried to bend down to tie it, Jaehyun pulled her up lightly by the arm as he kneeled before her making her flustered she looked around for people as he basically looked like he was proposing to her. “I can’t have you fall for anyone else,” he grinned as he tried to stifle a laugh. Y/N huffed as she nudged him strong enough for him to fall backwards catching himself with his arms as he tried to stand up.

She walked quickly as she tried to go to what seemed like her house, with Jaehyun following closely behind her as he jogged trying to keep up with her speed. “You’re welcome,” he winked making her flustered once again as she crossed her arms. “I’m home now, aren’t you going?” She said though she really didn’t want him to go yet. She didn’t even know if that was her house but it seemed like it, somehow it just felt right to be there at that moment. Jaehyun chuckled as he took a step back putting his hands in his pockets.

“I hope you had fun today,” he smiled as he ruffled her hair. Y/N nodded as she entered her ‘house’. “Stay safe, Jaehyun,” she said softly as she took one last look at him. Before she could close the door, she felt Jaehyun stop it.

“Wait, before you go,” he held the door with one hand and the other finding the back of her head as his lips lightly touched her forehead. Y/N felt her heartbeat speed up as she closed her eyes at the feeling of his soft lips on her forehead.

“Meet me in your dreams,” he said as he smiled at her before finally closing the door.

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Y/N jolted awake as she heaved heavy breaths. She felt as if she ran a marathon with how fast her heart was beating. She was back in her bedroom as she looked around. Nothing seemed to change, except the small box that was on top of her bedside table with now only two bottles of dreams. She sighed as she checked the time, she was out for about twelve hours already, although, in her dream only a small amount of time has passed. As she made her way out her apartment, she received a call from Mei.

“So how was it?” Mei asked enthusiastically as y/n could feel her interest on the other end of the line. Sighing she continued to walk down the streets in boredom, wasting time on finding something that would catch her eye.

“I didn’t know a dream could be realistic,” she muttered back. “And there’s this guy,” she added as she thought of this is really a great time to mention a character from her dream, especially to Mei, she woulld probably think she’s gone crazy. “What guy? Are you seeing someone?” The other responded, desperate to know if her friend has finally moved on. “What? No, I mean yes,” Y/N defended.

“It’s not about my ex, actually, there was someone in my dream.” She said. “I don’t really know if I met him before, but his features are very new to me. And you know what they say, that our minds can’t make up images, and everyone in our dream is someone we have met or saw before,” she added. There was no way she saw Jaehyun, if she did then she would probably remember him judging by how good looking he was. “Really? Well, you probably saw him in streets before,” Mei reasoned as y/n could only nod in response even if Mei couldn’t see her. “Anyway, you should really make that worth it. I heard the manufacturer of the shop closed down,” she mentioned as you made your way into a small coffee shop you saw across the street which seemed quite popular judging by the amount of female customers in there.

“Well, I only have two bottles left. I’ll call you when I finish it. Thanks for the gift by the way,” y/n replied as she ended the call

The cafe she entered was small, yet had a homely feeling to it. There was an amount of middle schoolers who look like they just finished school lining up as they perked their heads towards the counter. Y/N squinted as she saw the cute cashier and barista taking their orders. The cashier with white hair that for some reason seemed to match his big intimidating eyes and sharp nose and jawline. He wasn’t as big as the barista, but his body complimented his features as he smiled towards the group of girls who tried to catch his attention. The barista, on the other hand, was tall and had broad shoulders. His hair was dyed black, but he seemed really friendly despite his strong aura.

When it was her turn to order, she now understood why a lot of women in this city practically visited this shop everyday. From afar, she noticed how good-looking the staff were in the cafe, but now looking at them up close made her throat dry.

“I would like one iced latte,” she said shyly as the cashier smiled at her. She squinted her eyes at his name tag, Taeyong. Cute. “Are you new here?” Taeyong said as he pressed numbers on his screen for her order.

“Umm, I live around here. But it’s my first time in this cafe,” she mentioned as she looked around trying to distract herself from meeting his eyes.

“Cool, may I have your name?” He chirped as he smiled again towards her raising his brow. Y/N furrowed her brows as she stared back at him, “A-are you trying to ask me out?” She stuttered bewildered at the sudden question. Taeyong laughed as the barista behind him accidentally knocked a cup off as he turned around to look at her stifling a laugh as well. “What? Um, you’re cute but I need it for the cup,” he gestured raising a cup in his hand making y/n embarrassed as she heard the girls from behind whisper about how assuming she was.

“Oh, sorry,” she said lowly as she muttered her name quickly and paying as she moved to get her order.

——

Y/N sat on her bed holding the box of two bottles. Taking one, she shook it again as she saw the swirl of iridescent liquid calling her in. The whole time she mentally prepared herself for what was to come. To say she was excited to meet Jaehyun again was an understatement, she wanted to take the bottle again as soon as she stepped home but she remembered that there was only two left.

She took one bottle out deeply breathing in and out as she downed it all feeling the familiar taste touch her lips as she entered her dream once again.

When she woke up again she was in a garden, sitting up right as she felt something on her lap shift. Looking around, she noticed she was still in the same setting as before only, it was day and everything seemed bright as people continued to walk around minding their own business.

“You look beautiful from this angle down here, but I would appreciate it if you would look at me too,” a voice says as she looked down only to see Jaehyun lying down on her lap staring up at her with a small smile on his face. She blushed once again when she saw him, last night she thought he was breathtaking under the lamp post but under the sun he looked so much better with freckles scattered on his cheeks his eyes a lighter shade of brown and his dimples, ever so present, poking out.

“You were saying?” She says as Jaehyun stood up from her lap. “I’m starting to think you don’t pay attention to anything I say,” he complained as he dusted himself. Y/N stared right at him, wondering what they would do next.

“I need you to accompany me. I have this project going on and Johnny’s too busy to go with me,” he said as he took her hand. She wasn’t sure who Johnny was but she assumed he was his friend. Though she didn’t mind what his character would mean in her dream as he hasn’t showed up yet. She noted to herself that later on she would figure out who Johnny was and probably make the most of the second bottle she took. As they neared a building that look somewhat like a huge library, Jaehyun pulled her in a hurry as they made their way through old books.

Y/N groaned as she watched Jaehyun scan through the book once again trying to find the right thing. It was her dream, why is nothing interesting happening. “Jaehyun, what am I to you?” She asked as Jaehyun’s attention quickly went to her. His ears reddened as he rubbed the back of his neck shyly, “You said you weren’t my boyfriend. And you kissed me on my forehead, so who are you?” She asked as she hesitated mentioning that kiss as she felt herself become shy as she remembered how she woke up right after. Jaehyun nervously chuckled, to be honest, he himself did not know what their stand was. All he knew was that he wanted to protect her, and that he wanted to be with her always. It was all he ever knew since he met her, it was as if it was a role given to him by the gods to stand by her side no matter what.

“I’m not sure y/n, what do you want us to be?” He asks unsurely afraid of the rejection he might receive. Silently praying she won’t say ‘friends’. Y/N was taken aback as the question was thrown back at her. She didn’t know what they were supposed to be, nor did she know Jaehyun as much as he claims to know her.

Seeing the hesitation on her face, Jaehyun felt disappointed but decided to brush off the thought. “It’s okay, you don’t have to think about it.” He said as he gave her a pained smile which wasn’t unnoticed by y/n. “I can wait,” he said under his breath as he looked at her. Y/N looked at him in surprise, it was her dream. She could say whatever she wants, “I like you,” she blurted out as she waited for his reaction. Jaehyun’s ears, if possible, became more red as he heard her confession. He tried to stop the smile forming on his lips as he put back the book on the shelf.

“Well, that’s great because,” he said taking a step near her as he held both of her hands in his. “I am absolutely smitten by you,” he added ash he wrapped his arms around her shoulders pulling her into a hug. Y/N smiled as her cheeks hurt. She hugged him back, now this is definitely one of her best dreams ever. “Does that mean we can go on dates now?” She said as she pulled back. If she could live in a dream, then she would want to live in this dream forever.

Jaehyun grinned, “Lucky for you I booked us a date,” he said as he winked.

“Okay, maybe I don’t like you anymore,” y/n said as she made her way out of the library with Jaehyun laughing a bit too loud behind her.

————

As they made their way out of the library, Y/N found her hand once again wrapped around Jaehyun as he intertwined their fingers together. She smiled at Jaehyun’s affection. It was as if his hand automatically finds hers wherever they go.

As you both walked hand in hand, Jaehyun led you to a planetarium. “Have you ever been?” Jaehyun asks as he navigates his way through the streets. Constantly pulling you aside as you try to avoid people walking the opposite direction.

“I’ve never been to one actually,” you say wondering if you’ve ever been to one with your ex. To think of it, you really didn’t have enough time in the real world to explore the city during your past relationship. You were either curled up in your apartment or burrying your head in books. The dates you had previously were just last minute decisions as if he was just forced to take you out because you were together. But this time, with Jaehyun, it seems as if you actually got what you deserve. It may seem cheesy, but your heart fluttered when Jaehyun mentioned that he actually planned this date. It could be a preset in the dream, but that didn’t matter to y/n, all that mattered was that someone took the time to care for her and remind her how special she is. Even if that someone doesn’t really exist, she chose to ignore the thought. If there was a person who would break your heart again, you would be honored to have your heart broken by Jaehyun. And even with a broken heart, you would choose to love Jaehyun with all those little pieces.

“You should see the stars, they shine as bright as you,” Jaehyun added as they made their way through the planetarium. There wasn’t much people walking through, and everyone was speaking in hushed voices. As they walked through the planetarium, they entered a dark room with only the ceiling illuminated by galaxies and small celestial beings. Jaehyun looked at you with a small smile playing on his lips. He was fascinated by the way your eyes seem to shine even in the dark, like your eyes held the most beautiful stars as you admired the projected ceiling of light. Y/N then looked at Jaehyun who was still staring at her in awe. “You should take a picture, it would last longer,” she beamed as he scoffed lightly.

“So you steal lines now?” he said with an amused brow lightly applauding her sarcastically as you shoved him on his shoulder. “What else do I steal?” she said as they made their way around the room. “Probably my heart,” Jaehyun shrugged as he felt his ears turn red. He quickly looked up inspecting the ceiling as Y/N shot him a look of disapproval.

“If I wish on that star,” Y/N said pointing to a projected shooting star, “will my wish count?” you asked as you stared at Jaehyun whose eyes are still trained towards the ceiling as he looked at the constellations.

Jaehyun laughed as he put his hands into the pockets of his jacket. “Maybe,” he said as he looked up. Y/N closed her eyes as she clasped her hands together. She knew it was pathetic, to be making a wish in this dream. But her pleas and prayers didn’t seem enough to calm her desperate heart.

I wish I could live in this dream a little longer.

They both sat down in the middle as they continued to enjoy each other’s presence. No one was around anymore as it seemed like the whole planetarium closed. Y/N already lost track of time, she didn’t know what has already happened to her in the real world, but for sure she was sleeping for the whole day already. Jaehyun, on the other hand, was still deep in thought as he slowly laid down on the floor with an arm tucked behind his head as a pillow, the other resting on his stomach.

“Do you ever feel like somewhere out there, there’s another version of us doing the exact same thing we are doing now?” he mentions as he continues to stare into space. Y/N glances at him and copies his position as she adjusted herself to be laying down beside him. Not really knowing what to say, Jaehyun took it as a sign to continue.

“I feel like I’ve been living in a cycle. It sucks really cause everyone I know either forget me, or they space out. Or it was as if I never really know them to begin with,” he says, frustration clear in his voice. His eyebrows furrowed as he continued to stare into the black space displayed on the ceiling. “You know, the other day, Johnny acted as if he didn’t really know me. I don’t even know if he was playing with me but it was like it was his first time seeing me,” he added as he turned to meet your eyes that were just focused on him. “It’s like how we saw each other back in the theater, you both acted the same way,” he pushed himself up as he supported himself with his arms.

“It’s the same every fucking time. I meet someone knew, we get to know each other, then all of a sudden they forget who I am,”

“I feel like I’m a character in someone’s dream,” Y/N gulped nervously as she slowly sat up. Jaehyun still confused as he blankly stared at his lap. Y/N didn’t know what to say, she didn’t know how to tell him that he was right and he was just a figment of her imagination and that all of this was from a stupid bottle her friend gave her for her birthday. You were scared to say something, afraid that revealing the truth would mean that you would wake up and that meant that you only had one bottle left to be with Jaehyun. Y/N grabbed his hand and gave it a light squeeze with a smile, hopefully, assuring him that everything will be alright.

“Promise me one thing,” he says as he faced her seriously. You nodded in response as you waited. “Don’t forget me,” he says carefully watching her reaction. Y/N chuckled as she shook her head, “That’s easy to do, Jae,” she laughed as she shaked their intertwined hands playfully. “Promise me you’ll also stay,” he added seriously. Y/N froze when she heard his words. To forget him was hard, she could remember him everyday when she woke up. But to stay was another thing, how could she stay when she only had one bottle left? How could she stay when he was just a character in her dream? How could she stay with someone who only exists in her memory?

She looked back at him, and the moment she did, she quickly regretted her actions. He was looking at her with so much hope in his eyes. Noticing her silence, the hope in his eyes turned into grim acceptance as he felt her hesitation. Y/N squeezed his hand making him look back at her. She had no idea what came in her, but she decided if its for Jaehyun, she would try.

“I promise,” she said firmly, eyes burning with determination. After all, a broken promise is better than none at all.

——

Y/N felt dizzy as she tried to get up from her bed as she leaned towards the bed stand to get her phone. Her mouth fell dry, remembering the promise she made Jaehyun as she dialed Mei’s number. “Help, I need to do something,” she said as soon as the line was answered.

“What is it this time? Did you finish the bottles already?” Mei asked groaning in response as you called too early for her liking. “No, tell me where you bought the bottles,” she said as she tried to balance her phone between her shoulder and ear as she wore pants. “I need to find who made those bottles,” she added disappointed at the lack of response from the latter. “I’ll send them to you, but I don’t think they’re open,” Mei replied, y/n sighed. She didn’t know why she made that promise, or how she would fulfill it. Back in her dream, everything seemed possible but now, all that was left was empty words that she regrets saying. She didn’t even know why she had a need to keep the promise to Jaehyun, he didn’t even exist to her disappointment.

After she received Mei’s message, she quickly headed out to go to the said shop. Her heart pounded nervously as she drove to the address. It was in a secluded part of town, there was no residential area near it and it seemed like a place that no one frequented to judging by the lack of public transportation that went to the area. She had to take a cab, and the look the driver gave her meant that it wasn’t a place to be in in the first place. As she stared at the shop in front of her, she suddenly felt so alone as the cab quickly left blowing a gust of wind. The small bells tingled when she walked in. The store was small and cramped with only a small counter near the end as she tried her best not to step on any of the antique items that were for display. Ringing the small bell on the table, she tried to inspect the place a bit more.

Her eyes squinted as she spotted a familiar poster hanging on the wall between two large dream catchers. ‘The Impossible Dream’ it read as small details were printed around. Her eyes widened in shock. It was the same poster from her dream, could it be that the musical actually existed? Would that mean Jaehyun existed? Before she tried to move further to get a closer look a stern voice spoke from behind the counter.

“What brings you here? We are closed,” her head whipped to the direction of the voice. There stood an old woman who was smaller than her with her white hair tied neatly up in a bun, eyes narrowing towards Y/N.

“That poster, where did you get it?” You said pointing in the direction of it as you tried your best not to falter in front of her gaze that seemed too strong for you to handle.

“That poster was made years ago by my ancestors, does it look familiar to you?” The old lady replied. Y/N nodded in response still debating whether the possibility of Jaehyun existing was real or not. “You took the bottles, didn’t you?” The old lady pressed on as Y/N muttered a small yes. “That was a mistake, you should have never taken it in the first place. I suggest you go home and continue on with your life, dark magic is not to be played with,” she said as she made her way towards the door behind the counter.

“No! Wait, I have some questions,” Y/N protested as she tried to block the old lady from disappearing.

“Forget about it now, what you experienced is not real,” the old lady said as she tried to make her way around you. Y/N continued to block her way which made the old lady sigh. You really didn’t want to give her a hard time considering her age, but you didn’t want to leave without unanswered questions.

“You say the dream I had wasn’t real, but why does that poster exist?” Y/N said as she moved to grab the poster that was hanging on the wall. It was designed exactly like what she saw on her dream. “What is this? What is in those bottles?” She gestured desperately waiting for an answer. The old lady sighed, grabbing a small stool and sitting down. “Those are bottles of dreams, my grandmother and my mother used to make it when I was still a child, telling me that one day it would change the world and that people would go crazy to get a sip of what was in it,”

“These bottles allow people to live in their deepest desires, everything you see in your dream is just a figment of your imagination. The potion lets you have what you want,” she added as she gestured towards the poster. “Luckily for you, what you desire isn’t that bad. But for others, it became too much. I stopped selling the bottles because things could get out of hand,” she said sadly. Y/N felt like the weight of her promise was crashing down on her. There was too much information for her to handle, the fact that Jaehyun did not exist made her sick. “I know you’re sad, everyone does once they find out they can’t have what they desire. But if it makes you feel any better, I can tell you one secret,” the old lady says hesitating as she finds the hope in your eyes glint at her words. “This poster, I am guessing you have seen it before in one of your dreams?” She questions as she holds it up in the light. Y/N nodded, “I want to know if the person I see in my dreams is true, or perhaps, I am holding on to this impossibility that he is true,” she mutters as she remembers Jaehyun. She only had one bottle left, meaning it would be the last time she would see him.

“This poster appeared here two days ago, I don’t know how it got here but I assume it is something from a dream. Just like everything in this shop,” the old lady said gesturing towards the other antique items. Everything was so random, as if it was just dumped with whatever things people could find.

“I am not sure if your dreams are real, and if the people do exist. But judging from how everything keeps appearing in random, they might be somewhere out there,” she added. Y/N breathed deeply, there was no assurance of Jaehyun existing in this world, but the existence of the poster means that he would probably appear in this shop if he were to be created. The poster alone ignited her desire to find him. If he did exist, where was he?

“Thank you, if you see anyone appear here around my age. Tall, white, handsome, basically looks like a prince, please let me know,” Y/N says as she leaves her phone number. The old lady chuckled, “Isn’t that too childish for a woman like you?” She says amused at your desperation to find this boy. “He’s a dream come true, can’t let anyone get to him,” y/n replies as she made her way out.

When Y/N returned home, she felt exhausted. She didn’t want to take her last bottle just yet. It could be her last chance of seeing Jaehyun, if what the old lady said was false. But seeing how the poster showed up, as well as other things that were in the shop, it gave her hope that Jaehyun existed somewhere out there. Another thing that bothered her was the fact that if he was out there, where was he? She didn’t even know where to start finding him. She hoped that he lived in the same country for her, she didn’t have enough money to find him if he were abroad. Nor did she think she was willing to find a man who basically existed based on her imagination. Even if he did live under the same skies, it was still to difficult task to do.

What’s the most you would be willing to do for the person you love?

Y/N took the last bottle of dreams, determined to keep her promise to Jaehyun. Adjusting once again to the bright light, when she woke up, she was seated on a chair in what seems like her room in her dream. She was wearing a white maxi dress that hugged her figure in all the right places, long enough to pool on the floor while she sat down. Her hair flowed down her back with curls toward the ends as her face was dolled with light make up.

Taking a good look of herself, she was satisfied with how she looked. If this was the last thing Jaehyun would see, then she was happy that he would see her at her best. When the doorbell rang, she made her way towards the door with a heavy heart as she reminded herself that this was her last bottle. When she opened the door, she smiled as she took in the sight of Jaehyun infront of her. His hair was gelled back with a fringe curled infront of his forehead. He was wearing a plain black suit and tie with a white dress shirt under. He held up a bouquet of fresh daisies as his cheeks were lightly pink from the cold (he tried to convince himself). “For you,” he shyly said, dimples making an appearance once again, he handed over the daisies as he stared down on his feet shuffling as he felt flustered by your presence.

Y/N pouted, he was the man of her dreams. Literally. She hoped she only drank half of the bottle now, because she definitely wanted to see Jaehyun dressed up like this for the rest of her life.

“What’s the matter?” Jaehyun said worried as he saw your lack of response. Taking your hand lightly, he rubbed small circles in the back of your hand as his other took your chin beneath his thumb and point finger. “Stop frowning, you look beautiful in that dress,” he complimented.

“You’re too good looking, I don’t think I can go with you anymore,” you reply trying to play off the somber mood as you give him a reassuring smile. Jaehyun chuckled, “You should see yourself,”

Both entered the venue, to say that it was extravagant was an understatement. It looked like a greek god threw a party, out of a sudden, Y/N felt out of place with all the people passing by looking like they were raised with a golden spoon. Feeling Jaehyun’s arm snake around her waist pulling her closer towards him, she glance at him sending him a small smile as she tries to gain confidence. “It’s fine, we can leave once you feel uncomfortable,” he says as he guides her towards the entrance. “Who has the money to throw this party? It looks ethereal,” Y/N loudly whispers shooting a fake smile to the guards who welcome both of you. “Moon Taeil, he’s a friend of mine,” Jaehyun replies as he inspects the place. Y/N looks around as she admires the gold chandeliers hanging from the ceiling and tall white pillars around the place with gold vines wrapped around it.

“By the way, you look ethereal,” Jaehyun whispers close to her ear, his lips brushing against her earlobe making her flush. He leads her to their table and leaves to get the drinks which makes y/n snap back to her plan. Honestly, she really did not have a plan. She didn’t know how she should spend her last bottle, but for sure she had to act quickly. She thought of hugging Jaehyun or at least holding his hand tight enough for her to bring him to reality, but everything seems pathetic at this point. Looking around, she decided to go to the restroom to at least settle with a final plan. As she made her way through the hallways, she looks at the pictures hanging on the wall. It all looked like some portrait of a royal family, but one picture has caught her eye. Narrowing her gaze, she inspects a picture of a woman probably around her 20s with eyes set forward as if it was staring at her back.

“Where did I see this before?” Y/N mutters under her breath as she stared longer at the woman. Shit, it was the same woman from the shop, only a younger version. Her eyes widened, as she tried to find more pictures of the woman. Y/N slowly tried to reach for the frame, carefully touching it as she tried to find a trace of anything that could help her to bring Jaehyun to reality. Biting on her lip, she continues down the hall in desperation to find hints. As she neared the end, she felt a gust of wind blow towards her.

Turning around, she finds herself in the middle of the street. It was the same street where she met Jaehyun, the first time she appeared in her dream. She looks around and notices the same poster hanging around. Breathing deeply she turns around once again, “What the fuck is going on?” She asks herself.

“Excuse me, where am I?” She asked as she grabbed an arm of a woman who was walking down the street. The girl ignored her like a ghost as she shook her arm of and continued to walk as if nothing happened. Y/N tried asking different people but they all pretended as if they couldn’t hear her. She continued to walk down the streets, noticing a familiar building. The shop she visited, the one with the old lady. Y/N tried opening the door, continuously pounding on it with her fists. “Hello! I need some help, I’m the girl from awhile ago!,” she pleaded as she continued to pound the door with her fists. “Please help me,” she cried out as she shook the door handle. After numerous attempts of trying to open the door, she decided to go back.

“Jaehyun, where are you,” she said feeling her eyes water as she ran around trying to find him in the crowd. Closing her eyes, she tried to control her dream. “I am in the party, I am with Jaehyun,” she chanted, eyes tightly shut as she clenched her fists. Her cheeks wet with streaks of tears that have escaped her eye.

Opening her eyes again, she finds herself in a bathroom. Heaving deep breaths, she looks around her cautiously, afraid that she would lose herself in her dream. After wiping her tears, she made her way towards the party. She finds Jaehyun in the corner talking to a woman around her age her hair long and straight. She looked smaller next to his bigger frame and her eyes were sparkling, y/n was not sure if it was from the light or was it just really her. The woman laughed lightly at what Jaehyun says as she gives him a charming smile. She matched the princess in fairy tales looking as regal as Jaehyun could be. This made y/n sad, it was her dream all along, but if she couldn’t bring Jaehyun to reality then he might as well just live his happily ever after with this woman.

But she might be able to bring him with her, and she wasn’t going to back down without a fight. Y/N clenched her fists, I was gone for a while and this idiot didn’t even try to find me, feeling the green monster in her heart rise she huffed out loud stomping over to the both of them.

“What happened to drinks?” She said making Jaehyun jolt at her sudden presence. “I was just about to get it,” Jaehyun answers as he glances at Y/N. “This is Naeun, a friend of mine, and this is Y/N,” he says gesturing to the both of you. Naeun gives her a small smile raising a hand, while Y/N continued to stare at her blankly.

“His girlfriend,” you scoff as you glared at Jaehyun. “I didn’t know it could take you fifteen minutes to get a drink,” she mocked as Jaehyun looked at her with an amused smile. “I just got here, what are you talking about?” He replied. Y/N raised her brow, “I went to the bathroom,” she argued back. Naeun looked at the two, excusing herself as she didn’t want to get caught up between them. “I just sat you down though,” Jaehyun pouted at her response not liking that she was upset with him. Y/N was confused, didn’t she just get lost in her dream? Or did time just stop and everything continued to flow for her? She decided to drop the topic, sitting down on the stool next to him.

“Doesn’t matter, who is she?” She questioned jutting her chin towards Naeun’s direction as she took a sip from the Andy Player Jaehyun ordered from her directing her attention towards the front avoiding his teasing eyes. “Just a friend from high school,” he said taking a seat as well as he took a sip of his drink, his smiling growing wider at her reaction. Y/N rolled her eyes as she played with the liquid in her glass, “Sure, you seem happy to be reunited,” she mocked, jealousy coating her words. “Hmmm, are you jealous?” Jaehyun asked as he leaned one arm on the counter looking at her with a teasing smile she would like to wipe off his face because not only did he irritatingly looked too good to be true, the veins in his arms were also distracting. Fuck Jaehyun and his rolled up sleeves, Y/N found it unfair, he looked like God’s favorite.

“No, why would I be jealous?” She said defensively taking another sip of her drink. “I don’t care who you mingle with,” she dragged on with a tone as she stuck her tongue out. Jaehyun laughed, “Really? Cause I don’t remember asking me to be your boyfriend,” he added. Y/N chocked on her spit at his statement as she glared at him, “Forget I said that,” though she secretly liked how he seemed to be fine with that title. “To be honest, I really don’t want to,” he retorted. Y/N flushed as she felt herself shrink on her seat.

“I want to dance with my girlfriend, may I?” Jaehyun stated as he offered her a hand, smiling as he raised his brows making Y/N scoff. She really wanted him to stop, it wasn’t good for her heart that probably did a thousand of flips at every word he says.

She took his hand as they made their way towards the dance floor, Jaehyun’s arms wrapped around her waist as he pulled her closer, his other arm guarding each of her hand to wrap around his neck as they found themselves back to her waist. Y/N felt bittersweet, remembering the first time they saw each other and how they were in the exact same position just in a different setting. Jaehyun hummed with the slow song that was playing, lightly mumbling the lyrics with his baritone voice, as his smile never left his face, “This feels familiar,” he says lightly chuckling as he guided her once again through their dance. Y/N this time, only looked at him, no longer looking at her feet. “I think I could get used to this,” she replies making Jaehyun’s smile grow wider, his ears turning red.

“I may have not told you this earlier, but you look beautiful tonight,” he said face serious as they continued to sway to the music. “I mean, you look beautiful everyday, but you look extra pretty now,” he added. Y/N’s face scrunched up in disapproval, never fond of compliments but ever so receiving when it comes to Jaehyun.

“You look handsome as always, Jae,” she said sincerely, lips quirking up slightly at the new nickname she gave him.

Y/N glanced at Jaehyun once more as he continued to guide her carefully through the dance, her heart heavy as it seems that the thought of him not existing in reality would not leave her alone. Hesitating, she looks one more at the smile he has on his face, she really doesn’t want to hurt him. I don’t think I have it in me to hurt you, ever.

“I lo-“

“Jaehyun, I have to tell you something,” she says cutting him off as he was about to say something. Jaehyun looked at her surprise but smiled understandingly, this can wait, I can wait, l just a little bit more, he thought.

They went to the garden, there were still people walking around but less compared to those inside. Y/N’s heart was beating too loud she could hear it in her dream, she has to risk it. She needed to tell him, she had to tell him. “Just let me speak, and I’ll answer all your questions later,” she says as he looked at her curiously. Jaehyun nodded in response, encouraging her to continue as he grabbed both her hands to help her calm down.

“You don’t exist, you’re a part of my dream,” she said as she looked at Jaehyun whose eyebrows just furrowed, pursing his lips as to stop him from asking questions.

“It was my 23rd birthday two days ago, my friend gave me a gift of bottles that contained dreams. I thought it was bullshit at first, but the moment I drank the first bottle, I met you. And I don’t know how to tell you this, but you’re just a part of my imagination. It pains me to say it, but I don’t think I could hide the truth from you anymore. The next time I met you, it was when we were at the park, I remember you asking me how I spaced out and how I seem not to pay attention. It was because I wasn’t mentally present when you were speaking to me. All those times I met you, I fell in love with you because you were all I ever wanted, and it hurts me to think that I can’t even have you in my life,”

Y/N’s tears continued to roll down her face as she sobbed trying to gather her thoughts as Jaehyun looked at her with a mix of confusion and frustration. “This night, I drank my last bottle,” she says voice shaking as she felt Jaehyun’s hands stiffen under her hold.

“Remember when we made our wishes? I wished to live longer in this dream,” she says as he hugged her. Her tears drenching his suit, but that didn’t matter. This maybe her last moments with him, and her heart was hurting too much for her to take.

“Jaehyun, I love you,” she sobbed. She said it, without hesitation as she looked at Jaehyun with teary eyes. Jaehyun bit his lip, he didn’t even know where to start asking. He hugged her tightly as he felt his tears touch his lips, the taste salty as it continued to flow down his face. “I won’t tell you mine, because it won’t come true if I do,” he says as he puts a hand on his shoulder his face bending down to meet her eyes. His other hand brushed the stray strands against her face as she continued to cry.

“I shouldn’t be crying like this, we shouldn’t be doing this,” she said as she wiped her tears away trying to think of happy thoughts.

“Y/N, look at me,” Jaehyun said seriously. His hands with a firm grip on his shoulder. Y/N tried to hold back her tears as she saw the pain on his eyes, long gone the smiles he gave her earlier.

“Promise me, you’ll try,” Y/N nodded as she grabbed his face and pressed a firm kiss on his lips.

“Don’t leave me, please,”

“I won’t, I swear,”

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Y/N woke up, her cheeks still wet as she felt tears stream down her face. Everything felt so real, the kiss, the confession, the promises. Jaehyun’s words still echoing in her mind as if she could hear his deep voice whispering beside her.

The moment she got up she tried contacting the old woman, and going back to the shop only to find that it was closed already and was going to be demolished soon. It has been a week since she last saw Jaehyun, a week since she has drank her last dream in a bottle. However, the heartache she went through was still as fresh as it was when she woke up. She tried her best to find him. She visited different libraries, reading on books about what happened to her and if there was a way to reverse it. She even tried going to a planetarium in hopes of finding Jaehyun there, but all found nothing. Some people thought she was crazy, and that she was hallucinating everything, but they didn’t know her story.

She even found the same venue where they had the ball, but to her disappointment, she never found anything that could lead her to Jaehyun or vice versa. It was if he was just a memory she was to forget. But that was the problem, she couldn’t forget him. She promised him she would try, and she didn’t want to let him down. Sometimes, she wondered what he was doing. Was he also trying to escape her mind? Was he with Naeun now that she was gone? Does she get those cheesy pickup lines he tells her? What was he doing now? Did he love her?

There were times when she tried to dream of him, but it wasn’t real. All she got was an image of him, but it didn’t feel like how she dreamt of him when she had the bottle. She tried to widen her imagination, and picture him with her. But it was too tiring for her, after all, she only had three nights of dreams.

As she made her way down the busy streets, she walked quickly as she navigated her way towards the central park as she continued to avoid the people bumping her while they were walking the opposite direction. She stopped in front of the cafe, heaving deep breaths. As she made her way in she walked towards the table in the corner, her lips forming into a smile as she saw the familiar face.

“It’s been a while,” she said hugging Mei. Mei grinned back at her and gestured her to sit down.

“So, how’s life so far?” Mei asked enthusiastically as she sipped on her tea, crossing her legs as she leaned forward. Y/N shrugged as she took a bite of her banana cake, “Nothing much, it’s been boring lately,” she said as she stabbed the banana cake and stuffing another piece into her mouth. “You know you never called me after the second bottle,” Mei huffed.

“Nothing happened, I tried to find the manufacturer because I needed more but the building was demolished,” she replied bitterly. “Ohh yeah, but the dreams were good right?” Mei responded.

“Yeah, too good to be true,” Y/N replied dejectedly. “Do you ever like, want your dreams to come true?” She asked Mei curiously as she bit her fork. “Of course, why the sudden question?” Mei retorted. “I dreamt about this guy, and he’s wonderful. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted, and I just wished he was true,” she replies sighing remembering Jaehyun once again which made her feel bittersweet. It was like she was the only one who knew him inside out, he literally was the man of her dreams.

“I don’t know what you dreamt about but whatever it is, I guess those bottles really work then,” Mei shrugged. “Besides, attachment is the root of suffering,” she adds taking a bite of the banana cake and wiggling her brows.

As she navigated her way home, Y/N sighs once again. Was it really that hard to forget Jaehyun? He didn’t even exist yet here she is feeling broken hearted as if she was cheated on once again by her ex boyfriend. Moving towards a crowd she felt people bump against her making her scrunch up her nose in irritation, “Damn, can’t people watch where they’re going?” She muttered under her breath as she made hurried strides towards her apartment.

Before she could take a turn, she felt a body bump against her as she fell on her butt looking up squinting. Pair of hands helped her stand up as she dusted herself, flustered that she caused a scene in public.

“Thank you,” she muttered quietly to the stranger who didn’t seem to budge as she tried to make her way.

“You should really watch where you’re going,” a deep voice said. Looking up, her jaw slacked. There he stood in front of her, with a light smile in his face his hair still swept back as he was dressed in a plain white tee with denim jeans and white sneakers. Jaehyun. If he looked ethereal in her dream, then she didn’t even know how to describe how he looked as he stood in front of her as she continued to stare at him in awe.

“I didn’t know you were this clumsy, I think you need to get used to me guiding you everywhere,” he added shaking his head as he took her hand in his as his smile radiated. He chuckled at her noticing her lack of response. He placed a small kiss on her forehead as his arm wrapped around her shoulder as he pulled her towards the direction of her apartment.

“How did you find me? How are you here? Are you real?” Y/N asked hurriedly as she stared at him in shock. Everyone was looking at Jaehyun, who wouldn’t really? The girls around continued to stare at him with heart eyes but they didn’t matter to him as his arm tightly wrapped around your shoulder. They didn’t matter cause they weren’t you. Y/N was too bewildered to even glare at those girls as her mind started thinking of all the possibilities on how he appeared.

“My wish came true,” Jaehyun stated as he faced her grinning at her amazed state. “What did you wish for?” Y/N asked curiously as she looked at Jaehyun who was still smiling at her softly.

“I wished I could spend the rest of my life loving you,”

Y/N stopped walking as Jaehyun grabbed her shoulders and faced her towards him. “Why did you say that? Now it won’t come true,” she scolded him as she pouted. Jaehyun laughed at her response. “I’m not going anywhere though, you got me, you got me good,” he winked making her blush just like in her dream.

“Oh and Y/N,” he added as he bent down meeting her eyes as she looked at him with flushed cheeks and bright eyes.

“I love you too,”

#jaehyun fic #jaehyun scenarios #jaehyun au #nct fic #jaehyun imagines #jung jaehyun #jaehyun fluff #jaehyun fanfic

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bedtimebrain · 3 years

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EXO D.O. Series: You and Me. (P5)

Series page

Genre/Desc: Loosely adapted from A Love So Beautiful

Chr: u x ksoo

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This was the third day since the incident, and you still haven’t had a proper conversation with Kyungsoo. Which was quite a feat considering your inner desire to talk to him was naturally overwhelming.

Your resolve to continue this was fading though. You had thought to yourself multiple times that Kyungsoo is somewhat clueless about the root of this cold war and it’s kinda unfair to him? But the fact that he made you wait for 20min.. he should know to apologise for that at least ..

Yet, honest to your heart, you were denying any opportunities for him to do so. So.... this situation was just really annoying.

But today woohyun was going to leave for his competition before lunch break, meaning it’s just you and Kyungsoo together.

You would give him a chance today.

It was physical education period when woohyun had to go. And as a very supportive tablemate, from your pocket you took out a snickers chocolate bar

‘Woohyunie hwaiting! If you win this would be your prize from me, if you lose this will be your comfort food instead’ you patted him on the shoulder

‘Thanks y/n-ie! Don’t die at PE, can’t save you today’ swinging his duffel across his body, he parted ways with you as you head for the arena.

Man, it better not be mixed gender activity today… Apart from woohyun, not a single soul would partner with you because your hands and feet have absolutely no coordination.

Only Woohyun didn’t mind pairing together

Almost missing your table mate already.

‘Kids, it’s dodgeball today. Hurry pair up, a girl and a guy. You know the rules, only when the girl gets hit it’s an out’ your teacher shouted across the arena and rolled the balls into the court

Everyone hustled to get a pair, you asked around anxiously but the guys either avoided you like a plague or they already grabbed a partner.

A hopeful tap on your shoulder suddenly got turning around elatedly only to come face to face with Kyungsoo

Surprised, panic, awkward, you drop your gaze quickly

‘Y/N.. do you want to pair up?’

You looked around and realised almost everyone had a pair already. You bit your lips and simply just nodded at Kyungsoo.

Standing side by side with him made your heart beat erratically. You could even feel your palms sweating already.

The moment your teacher blew the whistle, you hid behind kyungsoo, and tried your best to avoid getting hit. But your reaction was so slow Kyungsoo had to cover you multiple times to aid you running away.

‘Y/N hold my shirt and just follow me, it’s easier for you to not get hit.’

In the natural human instinct of not wanting to get hit, you grabbed onto his shirt tightly and followed his movements.

The playing area was crowded and balls were flying around from everywhere. The girls were shouting as the boys attacked aggressively.

And right this instance, you were about to be a victim of this dodgeball attack.

Crashing into the weightlifter in your class, trying to avoid that ball, you were sent flying out of the playing area instead.

Kyungsoo rushed to your side and you could frantic apologies and some other voices asking if you were ok. But you were in a state of confusion after hitting your head

‘Sir I’ll bring her to the sick bay’ Kyungsoo put you on his back and brought you to the medic. Still feeling giddy, you leaned against him, feeling his uneven breathing as he increased his pace.

Opening the door to the sickbay , the school nurse was nowhere to be seen. Kyungsoo quickly checked the roster pasted on the wall.

‘Aish, the school nurse took an urgent leave today. Y/N are you feeling alright?’ He put you down to sit on the bed.

‘Yeh..’ you answered weakly, ‘it’s probably just shock from the impact of hitting the bench.’

After sitting and resting silently for some time, you felt slightly recovered

‘I’m fine now, you can go off first.’ Not wanting him to miss out on the fun during PE

‘It’s okay, I’ll stay here with you’ the both of you locked eyes. And for a while there was some tension in the air. But the way he looked at you.. you felt heat in your cheeks

Gosh, y/n! Stop being so embarrassing!

Pulling your legs closer to your chest, you hid your face

‘Mi an hae... about that day I didn’t return to the vending machine. I’ve been wanting to apologise but you kept avoiding me ’ Kyungsoo broke the silence with his apology

Seeing that you have no intentions of acknowledging his apology as you continue holding that position of yours, he went on hesitantly

‘Is there, is there.. something else you’re upset about?

I really cant figure out why you’re having a Cold War with me apart from that’

Looking up, you rolled your eyes before turning to face him

‘why didn’t you come back down that day?’

You saw Kyungsoo visibly hold his breath for a moment as you finished your question.

Exhaling, he explained

‘Y/N I’m really sorry I forgot about you that day. I met a noona I came to know from a singing competition last time, I didn’t know she was in this school. So we chatted and ..’

You cut him off not letting him finish

‘And you leave your friend behind for a pretty noona?’ Feeling absolutely triggered you took the pillow from the bed and threw it at Kyungsoo.

‘YA!can you hear me out!’ He caught the pillow and raised his voice slightly

You stayed silent and let him go on

He paused for awhile, somewhat hesitant to continue

‘Y/N I have a singing competition coming up soon actually ..’ He paused again and looked at you, this time he really got your attention.

You knew kyungsoo had the heart of a performer since young, hearing this you couldn’t even hold back yourself from asking

‘When is it! Can I go too?I’ll support you’ instantly forgetting about the argument that was going on

A little shocked at your sudden change in attitude, Kyungsoo took a while to respond

‘Erm I’ll tell you more about that later. But anyway, minji noona was telling me about the Jam Band club in this school and told me to join them to practice. So I asked her to showed me where the club room was, then I remembered about you only then.. I’m really sorry anyway’

‘Oh, then show me the jam band room!’ Nothing interests you more than what Kyungsoo does, nothing matters more now

‘You’re fine now ?’ A small smile showed on kyungsoo’s confused face

You thought about it for a while

‘Yeh, except that you told minji nim first about your singing competition’ you said seriously

At which Kyungsoo threw the pillow back at you

‘Let’s go, I’ll show you the band room’

#kyungsoo #dks u&me #exo scenarios #do kyungsoo #exowritersnet #exo #exo fanfic #exo d.o.

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crybabytoy59 · 4 years

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The reality of choices we make..

I knew this would be hard but life had steered me to this point & with a need in me that would simply never leave me I had to try after all what had I too loose....so taking a Deep Breath I knocked the Door....She opened the door a look of both shock & startled silence followed ..I spoke first “Please can I come into see you both” again she looked surprised, looking over her shoulder she voiced “there’s someone here to see you darling” I felt sad at here ignoring me...

He appeared out the living room “Fuck Hello Stranger ? “Again I asked “Please can I come into see you both?” This time her look was different as my voice was broken a soft genuine pleading voice...they both said i tandem “Yeah come in ...”

As I passed entering the living room I stood as they sat down She invited me to sit seeing I was very nervous about something she asked if I would like a cuppa “No am fine thank you...Please know I am Very scared right now, as this is the hardest thing I have done in my life...(they were sitting side by side I went off the opposite chai to my knees lifted the envelope from my pocket laying it face up in my pals together I bowed my head putting my arms out with the envelope ...She lifted the envelope as he spoke to me “What the ? Get up ya dozy git”....I snatched from my peripheral vision as she put a hand on his knee leave IT...... she was reading my letter....after reading it she simply got up handing him the letter, as he read the letter she went behind me after collecting something.....”Put your hands behind your head” I felt a scarf being tied around my neck then tied around My wrists securing me there, she simply sat back down saying nothing.....he spoke to her “Is This for Real ? He chuckled.....she took his hand “Come up stairs darling” as they passed me She lifted my chin “Don’t You Dare Move” pushing my head back down they both left.....I could hear them talking often raised voices they talked so long my knees hurt but I Did Not Move I could feel my legs going to sleep....

After what seemed like an eternity they both returned saying nothing they sat down ....Well Well this is a dilemma it’s it not she said to me I nodded....she spoke again “No we don’t nod in this house address us property Slave !” I had waited so very long to hear those words...my response was swift “Sorry Mistress” she went behind me “Open Wide!” I felt the wet hot pants being fed into my mouth....”Close tightly” as I did vet wrapping was pulled around my face gagging me....she sat back down then spoke “ So you want to be a 24/7 Babyslave Do you.....put in Nappy’s always and be our Play Thing... How very interesting...Ok first things first You should know if we both take You on there will be No backing out..you will serve us both, Obediently without question...

Would you do that ? Again I gave a swift answer “Yes Mistress” Slave am in In this room alone ? “No Mistress..Sorry Master” Clever Babyslave that’s better now that’s very muffled from behind your gag so look up at us Both Please And ask for what it is You Truly Desire from Us Both !!” A tear formed as I roared with all I was into the wet piss gag “Please Mistress & Master can I be Your Babyslave !!!!!.....she stood up kissed my cheek then put a pillow case over my head.....She Barked at me Stand up Slave !...follow us as I followed them upstairs my heart was pounding as the pillow case bellowed in & Out with each breath......She Spoke “Let’s Get you striped as we are Both going to give you a Very thorough Spanking !! Then You will go home and make arrangements to give up your Old life....as we prepare your new life Slave !!!.....

I was stripped naked bent over both there knees as the other held my arms I was spanked till my rear was red after this she tied me over a chair & I was flogged, belted, paddled, the lastly caned until I was Crying uncontrollably...after this I was put in my clothes and sent home in floods of tears.....over the next Three weeks I sold all my worldly goods gave up my flat on the date they had both given me....the 1st of June I made my way to there home nervously hoping I had made the right choice in life.....

Again I knocked the door not so much as a bag of clothes, she opened the door smiling warmly “Hello You..in you come” as I passed she smiled into the bathroom Sweetheart” I did as told there was a small black stool &a bin with a black plastic bag in it. She again spoke smiling “Strip Put All your old clothes in the bin, then sit on the stool I will be back in a moment” I stripped putting my clothes into the bin I sat on the stool as she came back in with a small white bag, Turn & face the mirror Please” she tilted my head forward then I heard a buzzing sound as she started cutting my hair off ! My head was fully shaved then foam applied as she shaved me completely bald but to my surprise she shaved my eyebrows also I said nothing she Kissed my cheek “Well Done you remember to Only talk when spoken too” I instantly replied “Yes Mistress” she gave a chuckle at this, next she had me stand & put the stool to one side she applied foam over my entire body having me bend over to do my rear as I was Very hairy there, I started to heat up and a slight odour filled the room to leave me in no doubt what she had just done “Hands on your head Please” I was then left for 20mins then she wiped me down removing all the foam with All my hair I was now voided of all body hair ! Next she had me put on a clear pvc suit with a hood that zipped up The rear in the hood was a dummy hole at my mouth, through this she put a large dummy then spoke “Ok Let’s Get you through for Your “little talking to”....she pushed me down on all fours then patted her thigh “Heal” I crawled with her into the living room she put the stool from the bathroom in the middle of the room “Sit” was all she said....I sat looking as she joined him on the couch they kissed Smiling Wide like the cat that had the cream she began...

Now Sweetheart you’re old life is over You belong to us now, so let us explain what you are to us...A Baby ...You Are two years old...You Are a Baby girl...you will be in Nappy’s 24/7 ..these you will use fully wetting & soiling Yourself, you will Never use the toilet as that’s for adults....You will be dressed as a Baby girl always, even when we are out you will have Baby girl clothes on under what we decide to put you in...You will show Obedience in everything we ask of you, You will be put in bondage Every night at bedtime, Day time Bondage will become apparent as we train you, You Are here For our Pleasure Not Yours..But we are fair & if you Please us well we will time to time reward You...You will serve All our friends in this way also as we have made lots of friends in the bdsm community this You Will Do Without Question.....Now You Will call me Mistress Mummy” she looked at him as he smiled then spoke “You will Call me Master Daddy”

She looked at me “Aaawwww Sweetheart why are you crying? Are you just so happy to be our Baby Girlie?” I nodded ...then she got up kissed him,looking at me she cooed “One last thing Crybaby...You will use GAGA ..for Yes GOGO for no...As you will Not talk until your Baby talk lessons are done...understand?” GAGA! Clever girlie Crybaby Toy all fours and follow me....as I crawled after her there was a loud crack ! My rear exploded in pain “Best behaviour for Mistress Mummy Crybaby!!!....or else Madam” I crawled up stairs after her into the up stairs bathroom the bath was filled with bubbles, I felt the cool air as the zip came down “Clever Baby girlie into your bath as we have to get you all cute and pretty don’t We” GAGA .....she patted my sore red mark “in Crybaby!”

She put on a clear pvc apron then got a sponge then started washing me all over with a strawberry soap, the smell was Devine I couldn’t help getting excited, this she wiggled playfully (I had forgot how much she enjoyed Mind games) Your a Very Naughty girlie Crybaby aren’t You?” GAGA..she chuckled “My my what fun we are going to have, but Sweetheart unfortunately it’s not going to be fun for You Am Afraid...As last time You Were Very Disobedient..But don’t fret That’s All going to Change Now Crybaby Toy....up you get ! She dried me off then put a blindfold on me “Let’s Get you Dressed for today Crybaby Sweetheart” I crawled to another room onto something plastic & padded, lay on your back, as I did she gave me a bottle I could feel it was quite large around a pint the teat was also like the dummy very large, I knew what she wanted as I sucked the bottle she lubed my rear pushing a rubber gloved finger

Deep into my rear, this made me moan, then Two fingers I felt something cold then lub being squirted up inside me quite a lot of it next I felt a plug it was quite large but had ridges all around it, my breathing quickened as it grew wider as she inserted it too al most the widest part I knew this was going to hurt, I blurted Out GOOGOO ! She smacked me lightly “Hush now Baby & drink your milk Mummy help” she took my shaft holding it slowly squeezing it till I was moaning again, then as I relaxed she slid it home onto the narrow base “Clever girlie Crybaby that’s much better see what a clever Baby You can be, Now lift Your botty!” I felt her slide a nappy under me as she closed it I could feel it had a pad inside it but must still have been quite a large one as it felt bulky, she again told me to lift up as I did a second Nappy went on then a third and fourth ! I could now not close my legs Such was the bulk, next I had rubber pants put on the thigh cuffs felt wide as did the tummy band, next came frilly rumba pants followed by tights then suspenders that she put too the tights, next she sat me up pulling over a soft silk top it felt lovely this was followed by some sort of petticoat then a large heavy Dress, a pair of Oprah gloves were last...i was just finished the last of my formula when she gave me a second bottle “Clever Baby Finnish that one to Sweetheart, so we can get you down stairs as Master Daddy will be all set up by Now Crybaby, for Your Big Day !” Her voice had changed it had that wicked tone to it I had heard before When i subbed for her as she had a Very wicked side I had always Topped from the bottom..But this was different they would decide They would set my limits....I was feeling scared at what lay ahead but I truly wanted to please them show them I could be a good submissive to Own ....the very thought of it made me tingle inside......She patted my rear firmly “Finnish that Now Crybaby Swallow faster !...Clever girlie Crybaby that’s the way..yes all of it...come on Baby Toy..Clever girlie..Open Wide!” I got my dummy back in.....”Let’s Get you down to Master Daddy” As I crawled down the stairs I thought I could hear voices...

As I entered the living room I was led to the stool “Sit up Crybaby!” My blind fold was removed but I could not see due to a bright light in my face, Mistress Mummy tilted my head backwards as she did someone was putting ear plugs Deep into My ears I felt foam forms put over them hugging my ears then some sort of tape Master Daddy appeared holding a rubber face mask this he pushed on me smoothing it out then zipped it up the rear, he then lifted a large pink frilly posture collar wrapping it around my neck clipping it at the rear I felt Mistress Mummy let my head go as she set about lacing it up ! I started to panic slightly that they would choke me but Master Daddy smacks my inner thigh “Relax Crybaby your fine just breath slowly..look I can get my fingers in (he pushed a finger at my throat, it was just in my mind due to the sensory deprivation) Clever Baby that’s better..No Babyslave tears don’t wash your a Crybaby aren’t You ?” Gaga...they both giggled as they stood up “Handies behind your back Daddy told me I felt my gloved hands pushed into a narrow leather sleeve, I was having an arm binder fitted ! Mistress Mummy smacked my thigh hard “on your Knees Crybaby !” As I did Master Daddy pulled up a small frame, it was a T shape with a padded top bar this had a wide belt hanging from it, a 45degree bar came from the upright bar too just above the top bar as I bent over the bar my head went into the half circle as Master Daddy clipped the collar too the frame Mistress Mummy was pulling the wide belt over my back tightly, what happened next had me squeal into my Dummy as they took a leg each pulling them apart then forward to cuffs at the T legs they were shaped like a large Y under me at the bottom of the Y behind me Master Daddy was fixing a long pole that went well above me this too had a leather strap he was now holding as Mistress Mummy clipped the arm binder too it Master Daddy pulled my arms up behind me untill I patted feeling unable to breath properly due to my new Bondage position....Mistress Mummy Spoke “Open Wide for Master Daddy Crybaby Sweetheart !!” As I Open Wide he removed my Dummy hanging it around my head, I could now see The next Dummy it was a 4” cock dummy with a full face harnessing as the cock gag went into My mouth I clamped it worried over vomiting, Mistress Mummy smacks me again “Crybaby Open Wide!” The cock Dummy was almost at the back of my throat when I felt something shoot out of the end “Swallow Crybaby!!” As I did my throat felt funny...I hung panting holding the cock in my mouth as they simply stood by..Mummy spoke to Daddy..”She has had both bottles and her gel, so am going to rub her tummy too start her off” as she lifted the dress she started rubbing my tummy ? Just then Master Daddy stopped looking at his watch then pushed the cock dummy all the way home ! Then started strapping the harnessing behind my head through the slots in the huge bonnet they put on me ! He went out of sight..again I could hear voices but in the distance, as Mistress Mummy rubbed my tummy I was aware of movement I stared to feel as if I needed to go to the toilet ! She tugged my dress back down & she too disappeared behind me, slowly the light dimmed, There was a camera in front of Me !...

Everyone this is Crybaby potty girlie she has been a Very Naughty girlie so we are going to punish her, Mistress Mummy has given her a very special gel up her botty and shortly she Will go poopies uncontrollably, she has had two pints of very special formula that will make her wet her Nappy’s also uncontrollably she will feel she has to constantly go pee’pees, we will all know when this happens as she will ring her Sissy bells ( now I knew what mummy had been clipping on my feet mittens and hood !) She is going to cry for you all as in her Tumblr Page stories you have all read, Master Daddy & I Are going to have her in the punishment frame until bedtime so please enjoy what we have in store for her till then” Mistress Mummy was loving this such humiliation & control over him, who would have thought this day would come from all that simple play years earlier.....Fuck they were both going to have such fun with this....

Just as she was thinking that she heard him Draw a Deep Breath then go Silent his face behind the rubber hood going bright red with effort as there New sissy Baby Toy pushed past the plug filling the first Nappy..each nappy but the last had been cut with a small blade to let the fluids pass from each.....26000ml in total ! They were going to make him fill them all before bedtime, So Mistress Mummy had lots of material for tomorrow’s fun....She was soaking wet now dripping with Dominant lust for his Deep submission...a submission she would take from him every last ounce as he caved to There whimsical needs ....There Truly diabolical Training would bring complete Obedience to them...she took his hand putting it to her sex, as the unmistakable sound of him filling his Nappy !!...

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datspromoter · 4 years

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A CLIENTS REVIEW OF VISITOR TS CHRISTINA

so i been seeing this bad bitch visit Chicago alot but it was always bad timing when she came but this time i was not gonna miss her so after work i hit her up with talk set appointment she gave address i was on my way when i got there she had me wait outside for 20mins until she got ready and it was cold outside but im like she's fine as fuck so it's worth the wait then she texted me to tell me she's ready tells me what room i come she opens the looking fine as fuck just like her pictures had on a robe that was open n she was but naked so all was looking good until i walked in she goes sits on this small ass couch and tells me to get comfortable i asked her don't you have a bed she told me yes but don't have sessions with clients in her bed so it kinda ruin the mood a little because i prefer to be in a bed but i say ok i can still make the best of this so i give donation get undressed sit on couch she pulls out a condom even tho i asked for bareback head on the phone and she agreed said she likes to do everything but now she's uncomfortable doing even tho i have seen her videos giving it to different guys but ok whatever so i moved on from that even tho it kinda pissed me off because i hate liars but ok so got some head with condom gave her some with condom then i sucked her breast n toes but i was too uncomfortable on the small couch so i stop told her im ready to fuck her so she lubes that ass up and soon as i start to fuck her she stops me to say go slow that hurts so im like ok i can do that about 5 more strokes she jumps off my dick saying she can't take it but she can jag me off or give me some head so at this point she has been a total disappointment so before i leave i ask where the bathroom so i can pee she tells me her friend is in there sleep and she don't wanna disturb her so i looked at her took everything in me not curse the bitch out then she gonna catch a attitude talking about why im looking at her that way i just left worst experience ever for me had to pee in a ally before i got in my car smh

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woodlandpoetic · 5 years

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{light-headed} ; Vendetta PT 2

Leon Kennedy x Reader

WARNINGS: Cussing, Action, Small mushy shit

Playlist: Shakin’ My Cage — Black Stone Cherry ; Bulletproof — Godsmack ; Out Of My Way — Seether ; Make Me Believe Again — Nickelback

Word Count {TOTAL}: 7,220

Time Spent total (over the course of a week): 6hr 54min

Reading Length: 15-20min (estimated)

Part: 2/3

Please Read Part 1 for summary and writer’s notes! {And to get the idea of what’s going on}

Lovelies who asked to be tagged: @onl-you @smolnewsie

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So.. tell me again. You met this guy—“

“At a bar, unintentionally.”

“Riiight, but you were being nosey?”

“No! Not nosey! Something felt off about him, I couldn’t pull my glance away.”

Your friends head shook in disbelief, it was the day of the party. It was in a tavern like building, a bit off the road from the actual city itself. Your family had rented a room within the building, on the other side of the bar-like dinning area. Your eyes scanned the room, sighing.

“Do you remember anything at all?”

“Clear as day.. how wild is that? I even had the worst hangover this morning.” Your head felt like it was on cloud nine anytime you thought about last night, making your stomach flutter. Ugh, you hated this feeling.

“Wonder if it’s some weird fate.”

You shook your head, smiling at the even thought of that.

“I highly doubt I’d meet my soulmate at a bar.”

“No no, not that.”

Your eyes scanned your friend again, confused by her sudden change of tone. She leaned closer to you as you two stood away from the crowd itself.

“When you worked for S. T. A. R. S. Y/N, you do say you miss it sometimes. What if he’s apart of it or something?”

Your eyes widened, in shock and disbelief at her statement. There’s no way Leon would be with them, not with how he is. Although, you really only saw and talked to him when he was drinking. You looked back forward, con-jumbled by the thought of even going back to S. T. A. R. S.

“I’m gonna go take a walk,” Before your friend could say anything, you walked off to one of the bathrooms in the main area. Crowded with people, you managed to push through to the bathroom. Surprisingly, it’s empty.

You walked to the mirror, staring at yourself for a while. Your mind raced with theories, explanations, anything to find an answer for the feelings you had around Leon last night.

‘It had to be from the alcohol...’

Straightening out your silky black dress, barely reaching your knees. Your eyes scanned your reflection over before you heard something hit the wall in one of the stalls, your head instinctively turning in the direction of the sound.

Your gut twisted as your body turned fully around, waiting in silence.

“Maybe its best that I don’t. My curiosity already got me in this mess.” Listening to your gut, you quickly made your way out of the bathroom. Gathering your surroundings, you made your way through the crowd to the open bar across the room.

Sitting down at the end, you attempted to gather yourself again. Your shoulders loosened as you relaxed, sighing. You overheard commotion behind you, but this time you had that familiar feeling. Focusing in on the conversation behind you, something stuck out.

“This is serious, we wouldn’t have come out of our way to be here if we weren’t all in danger.”

That, voice.. why was it so familiar—

Your head shot up, hearing a loud scream come from the other side of the room. Your body flew from the seat as you got to your feet, in heeled boots. Your eyes sharped on the area, everybody else sitting in shock as a few employees ran towards the bathrooms.

“Wait.. that thud—”

Without finishing your thoughts, a loud bang filled the air as a bright light flew out from the bathroom hallway, people hit the floor as your body hit the wall. A sharp sting flew up your back and sides as you barely managed to pick yourself back up, your eyes darted back and forth around the room. Lifeless bodies laid waste, smoke filled the room—others scattering to get out of the room.

A hard force grabbed your arm, taking your eyes off the room reaching for what had grabbed you. You shoved your body into the figure grabbing you in the commotion, shoving them into a wall behind the bar area, knocking you both over as you’re pulled down. Flipping yourself over you managed to straddle the stranger below you, grabbing their collar as you angrily ripped them up off the floor to face you.

“Who the fuck are y-“ Your voice demanding and loud, but caught off guard as you recognized that startled face.

“Leon?!”

The both of you in shock, lost for words before you hear footsteps in the room. Ducking lower behind the counter, you peered up to see two figures, three guys dressed in all black.. alike to military men. A woman, slick blonde hair, and a huge— mutant man beside her. Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion, who were these guys?

“Find her. Rid the rest.”

The men ran off into the building, some scrounging the area as the two other figures fled to a nearby truck.

“What the—“ You were pulled back down again, turned to face Leon who was slumped against the wall listening as well.

“This isn’t what I meant by seeing you again.” Half-assed, he grinned at you. Your eyes pierced through his, annoyed and in pain from hitting the wall like a god damn rag doll.

“Are you trying to give me a reason to kill you?!” You scolded, clenching your teeth as he shrugged.

“Leon, what the fuck is going on?” Trying to keep your voice down as the sound of boots hit the floor. Quickly moving closer to you—then, dead silence. The two of you froze, looking at him in fear as the sound of men talking grew closer to your hiding spot. Leon pulled you over to his side, leaning over to you as he whispered something in your ear.

“You need to trust me.”

“Trust you—?!”

“Either we die or you trust me for right now.”

Yelling in a whisper, your face confused and irritated. Sighing, you respond.

“Fine. Make it quick.”

He grinned, pulling a pistol from a tan-looking holster hooked onto his jeans. He shot up, two point-blank shots as he moved back down to you.

“All clear?” You asked, straight faced. The pain in your ribs and back took over the fear you felt internally, although being in shock by the sudden attack on the tavern. Still wondering about who those people were, what they were doing and what was even going on— you felt light-headed again. Not even realizing Leon took down two other guys and managed to lift up your chin, lifting your head up from staring down at the floor.

“Y/N?” His face filled with worry as he held your chin up, your cheeks flushed to a rosy pink as you ripped your head away from his hand. Shaking your head, you glared at him in embarrassment— red cheeks shinning like ambulance lights during the night. Leon chuckled at your attempt to be frustrated, but what was complete embarrassment.

“W-What?! I just saw you shoot down two guys!” Your voice stuttered, huffing as you stood up from the floor— brushing off your dress.

“Four, actually.” He cocked his pistol while putting it back into the holster, looking up at you from the corner of his eye— still having that same sly grin across his face. His blue eyes pierced right through yours, playing stupid doesn’t seem to get you far with him. Your eyes spun around the room, reminding you of what had just happened.

Furniture broken into bits and pieces, windows shattered, a few bodies sprawled across the room, the two big doors leading into the room smashed open, bullet holes in the pillars. The feeling of a pit, dragging your stomach to the floor filled your whole body. As much as you wished to pull your attention away from the havoc you couldn’t, it got worse with every moment you stared. None of this felt real to you. It all felt staged, as if this was some sick joke. But it wasn’t.. it was all real.

“Leon—“ you breathed, your breath was short and hesitant.

“You get used to it.” His voice was bland, no emotion attached to it what’s so ever, but this didn’t surprise you.

“We need to move, let’s go.” Trying to keep his cold composure, he couldn’t for very long around you. His eyes scanned you over, then again— you tilted your head as you stared at him. Cheeks flourished, you pushed by him as you made your way to the doors.

“Will you quit looking at me like that?” You mumbled, taking a deep breath as you curled a part of your hair behind your ear. Leon rubbed the back of his head, walking over to you— taking the lead.

“Can’t help it sometimes.” He cajoled, looking back at you as you both make your way down the hallway. The dead silence filled the atmosphere around the two of you, slowly walking down the elongated hallway.

“Who were those guys?” You asked, keeping your eyes on all directions of the hallway. The emergency lights had been turned on, not giving much on-look of what lies ahead. Leon turned his head back to glance at you before looking back forward, his pistol held tightly in his hand.

“Have no clue,” he scoffed, “—probably working for the asshole who’s behind this.” The sound of your footsteps echoed through the halls, the feeling of uncertainty filling your body. This was all happening too fast, your mind felt crushed between the flood of emotions— causing you to become light-headed again. Keeping your composure as you rounded the corner, Leon stopped dead in his tracks. Signaling you to back up slowly, you anxiously stepped back behind the corner as he went ahead of you.

“Leon?” Another male voice called out from the corner, causing you to peer around the corner.

“Chris—?!” You gasped in a whisper, the two of them greeting each other. Your mind clogged itself in a fog, now nothing made sense in your head.

“Y/N.” A more blunt-like serious tone called out to you, pulling you to walk around the corner. Your eyes widened, it was him— it’s been years since you two saw one another. Taking a deep breath, you approached them both in a confident manner— Chris’ face in disbelief when he recognizes you.

“Never thought I’d see you again, Y/N.” He greeted you, helping you to relax just a tad bit. You nodded, “It has been a couple years.” Chris returned a small smile to you as he looked back over to Leon, puzzled over how you two knew one another.

“They took Rebecca,” He confirmed, Leon’s face shifted to surprise— then confusion.

“Why would they take her?”

“I’m not sure,” he began, “but I have a bad feeling it was over the vaccine.”

“We need to get moving.” Chris turned to you, “You don’t have to come wit—“

“I’m coming. Can’t talk me out of it this time, Chris.” You joke in a sarcastic manner, he smiled back in approval as the three of you took off down the hallway together. The loud sound of helicopter propellers grew louder as you grew closer to the front door, Chris throwing open the doors as you’re greeted with deafing sounds of a helicopter. Making your way to the back, the three of you quickly made your way into the back as the door shut behind you, being able to hear one another again.

“Thought we lost you guys, man!” Another male voice peeled out from the head of the plane, you kept yourself a bit hidden beside Leon. You glanced around the helicopter, two men sat in the front as you noticed a female sitting on one of the seats. She looked up to see Leon and Chris, Chris walking up to the front of the plane.

“Glad to see you two made it in one piece.” She smiled softly, you breathed in relief she didn’t ask questions.

At least.. so you thought.

“Who’s your friend?” Leaning to the side, she aimed right at you. Your breath of relief suddenly hitched as your teeth clenched— your body going into full panic. Leon glances back at you, motioning you to step to his side instead of hiding.

“She used to work for S. T. A. R. S.” He disclosed, making it well known to everybody on board.

“Oh? You might’ve known Rebecca then.” She perked up in curiosity, your eyes widened for a second— that’s the voice you recognized earlier.

“We were friends while she was still under S. T. A. R. S.”

“Name’s Nadia,” She introduces herself, smiling at you. “And you are?”

“Y/N.” You returned a smile back, she nodded as she turned her head back to the front. You looked over at Leon, as if he was waiting for you to turn to him. The two of you smiled at one another, “Can’t say my short-lived vacation ended all bad.” He implied, turning his body to you as you mimicked his body movements.

“Hm, I wonder why?” You surmised, both of you exchanging desirable smirks at one another, barely noticing Chris approaching Leon from the front of the helicopter.

“Not to intrude on your little moment over here,” He teased, looking straight at Leon as he turned his head to Chris.

“Real funny.” He flatly responded, the both of them walking to the end of the helicopter as they knelt down in front of a laptop. You observed for a bit before finding a seat, smiling to yourself as you shook your head.

The ride felt long, but thankfully gave you long enough to sort your thoughts out. Your body eased, the pain in your ribs ceased, the light-headed feeling from the constant clogged theories and thoughts decompressed— although it was temporary, you kept yourself built-up for what was about to come.

You felt Leon get up from beside you, being so engulfed in your thoughts. Your head turned to him, Chris and Nadia heading to the back of the helicopter— causing you to get up and follow behind him. The back opened, revealing two vehicles— barely being able to hear them as you joined Nadia’s side. She looked over at you and gently smiled, leaning over to you.

“You’re going to help me out here.” Shouting over the sound of the wind gusting through the propellers, you nodded. Watching Chris quickly walk out of the helicopter, you looked over at Leon who had looked back over at you.

“Leon—“ You stopped, realizing it was too loud to even speak normally. Sighing, you begin to turn back—

“Y/N.”

You feel a hand on your waist, looking down as you traced it to see Leon stopping you. Your head turning with your body to face him, your stomach doing somersaults.

“You need to trust me.” He restated, your stomach sank even at the thought of him not coming back after all of this.

“But what if you need help? Or if you’re hurt and I can’t—“

Suddenly you’re cut off by lips pressing against yours, the grip on your waist tightened out of fear. You felt lightheaded again, grabbing his arm in response as the two of you pulled away. Without saying anything to one another, Leon moved his other hand to the back of your head. Shifting as he kissed the top of it, this wasn’t anything you’d expect. He didn’t seem like an affectionate type— or somebody with much emotion at all. Your eyes traced to his, both lost in a dwindling gaze. He smiled softly at you, moving out of the helicopter. Jumping onto the bike, he followed beside Chris— who was in a military-like Jeep.

A smile slowly filled your lips,

“What a wild vacation.”

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tiptoptab · 6 years

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Okay well if anyone else wanted to participate it’s too damn late 😂thanks bats ❤️Name: nataschaAge: 193 fears: myself, myself, my thoughts3 things I love: movies, thunder, concerts 4 turn one: uhm lol idk, okay: goofiness, tall guys? And nice laughs4 turn offs: ignorance, arrogance, impatience My best friend: my roommate and best friend for over ten years is named MariaSexual orientation: as if I knew, somewhere in the middleBest date: anything with the right personHeight: 1.68 cmWhat do I miss: not paying bills What time was I born: 5amFav color: changes all the timeCrush?: mmmh Favorite quote: also changes all the timeFavorite place: anywhere with the right peopleFavorite food: cocktail shrimp and I’ll fight ya on thatDo I use sarcasm: you’d sure like to know, would ya?What am I listening to rn: ready to die - SAVEUSFirst thing I notice in a person: confidence Shoe size: 39Eye color: grey-ish blue more like a dark blue?? With a yellow circleHair color: changes faster than my will to live, but currently platinum blondeFavorite style of clothing: I call it ready for business.. but also ready to get down any second, does anyone wanna take a shot with me?Ever done a prank call: yes YesMeaning behind url: I used to shitpost memes and I had nothing better to come up withFavorite movie: brother bearFavorite song: changes constantly Favorite band: ^^How I feel rn: tired and my teeth hurts A+Someone I love: @isabeeelsimsCurrent relationship status: single afRelationship with my parents: I don’t have time or the will to even begin on thatFavorite Holliday: fastalavn (Danish Halloween, kinda)Tattoos and piercings: I have a nose piercing Tattoos and piercings I want: matching bear tatto with my best friend anytime soonThe reason I joined tumblr: @cowplant-pizza inspired me to give it a tryDo I and my last ex hate each other: he’s a rapist so there’s your answer right thereDo I ever get goodmorning or goodnight texts: everyday thanks to my amazing friendsHave I kissed the last person I texted: yes if you haven’t kissed your best friend you haven’t been drunk enough When did I last hold hands: a week ago I think? Platonic thoHow long does it take me to get ready: like 20min but i have a huge fear of getting late so I wake up atleast 2-3 hours before I get out the doorHave you shaved your legs in the past 3 days: yupWhere am I rn: Cph, Denmark. In my apartment If I were drunk and couldn’t stand who’s taking care of me: maria is my designated mom, and she owes me cus she broke me teeth while she were drunk and I were taking care of herDo I like my music loud: it can’t get loud enoughDo I live with my mom and dad: no I moved out at 16Am I excited for anything: yuppDo I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell anything to: yea i have three guy friends who is cross the earth forHow often do I wear a fake smile: woo a little too real for meWhen was the last time I hugged someone: earlier todayWhat if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else in front of me: I’d be fineIs there anyone I trust even tho I shouldn’t: hopefully notWhat is something I dislike about today: well I ate a sandwich and my plastic teeth fell off so yeaIf I could meet anyone on earth who would it be: idk tbhWhat do I think about the most: quitting my jobStrangest talent: idk I can ride a unicycleDo I have any strange phobias: people who make skkr noise with their fork on the plate has a special place in hellSo I prefer to be behind or inform it a camera: behind What was the last lie I told: no Maria I don’t know any illegal websites to watch movies other than x and x (I was too lazy to go find the links)Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting: can we just text or discord call?Do I believe in ghosts or aliens: ghosts nah, aliens sure why notDo I believe in magic: nopeDo I believe in luck: nopeWhats the weather rn: it’s late so just cold and windy What was the last book I ready: all the bright placesDo I like the smell of gasoline: nah but like hand sanitizer A+Do I have any nicknames: my mom used to say that loved children have lots of nicknames, I certainly think I have too manyWorst injury I ever had: is anyone not bored by the f teeth talk yet? Do I spend money or save it: spend, whopsCan I touch my nose with my tongue: nopeIs there anything pink in 10 feet from me: yes sirFavorite animal: otters duhWhat was I doing last night at 12 am: watching that 70’s show and I’m not ashamedWhat do I think Satan’s last name is: well my mom told me not to share my personal info to strangers onlineHow can you win my heart: laugh at my shitty jokes and understand my references you uncultured swineWhat would I want written on my tombstone: where did you come from? Where did you go? Where did you come from cotton eye joeWhat’s my favorite word: idk sryTop 5 tumblrs: I cant pick between my family Do I have any relatives in jail: nopeWhat is my current desktop screen: a black screen that says “windows not genuine” cus I’m too lazy to fix itHad sex: yesBought condons: yesGotten pregnant: no thank god Failed a class: noKissed a boy: yesKissed a girl: yesHave I ever kissed someone in the rain: yes and it less romantic than you’d thinkHad a job: yupLeft the house without my wallet: yea?Bullied someone on the internet: no not to my knowledge and if you ever think I did, then I apologize sincerely Had sex in public: yes lol Played on a sports team: hell yeaSmoked weed: nopeDrugs: noCigarettes: yes but I’m not a smokerDrank alcohol: yuppAm I veggie/vegan: no but I was for four yearsBeen overweight: yesUnderweight: yesBeen to a wedding: yesBeen on the pc for more than five hours: HAHAHAHAHAWatched tv for five hours: HAHAHAHAHAbeen outside my country: yesGotten my heart broken: yes..Been to a professional sports game: yesBroken a bone: noCut myself: noBeen to prom: we don’t have those in my country, we have galla but not at my schoolBeen in an airplane: yesHelicopter: nopeWhat concerts have I been to: too many to list hereHad a crush on someone if the same sex: yea Learned another language: jaja selvfølgelig (roughly 4 languages)Wore makeup: something’s gotta hide my gremlin faceLost my virginity before I was 18: yup I was 15Had oral sex: yupDyed my hair: my poor hair has seen a lot through the yearsVoted in a presidential election: we don’t have a president here but I have voted for other thingsRode in an ambulance: nopeHad surgery: nopeMet someone famous: yeaStalked someone on a social network: nah not my stylePeed outside: sht yes sometimes you just gotta go okay. Line up girls we’ll do this as a teamBeen fishing: yupHelped with charity: yupBeen rejected by a crush: yup and thanked god cus he turned out to be a dick face Broken a mirror: yep bad luck for me I guessWhat do I want for my birthday: it’s in April so I haven’t thought about it yet

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ironmanrob · 3 years

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Ironman uk 2021

My first DNF in a Ironman.

Superman, tickling a mans foot and Lego head.

Read all about it in my latest race report.

Bike strapped to the roof and off we go down the m62 after picking kids up from school, have I got my bike shoes, sure have it’s the first thing I packed this time round.

Got as far as Goole, obviously McDonald’s and the fact that a few drivers have warned me my bike is wobbling, checked the bike and I have no idea how it stayed on, luckily I add a few tie wraps and these had saved my machine, but my front side wall was damaged on my tyre so I had to jump on wiggle website to get one sent.

As you know my computer skills aren’t the best so they got sent to my home, Jen had to step in and get some sent to the premier inn we were staying at. Not a great start.

Had to rack before 4pm the following day but my tyres didn’t turn up till 3pm so a bit of quick turnover and managed to be last one racking for the day, then it was time for the big show, game of family 10pin bowling.

Now with my bad right wrist/elbow shoulder this was something I didn’t want flaring up the night before an Ironman but I can’t resist sport and a bit of competition my boys had the buffers up so all was to play for.

Obviously I smashed it and victory was mine with no sustained injuries, bonus.

Met Adrian and Ellen Messingham at the swim start and Adrian looked very lean and ready for battle, we started together as our swims times are similar, technically I was quicker by 14seconds but who’s counting?

The swim felt really good and I managed to get on a guys feet at around 600meters who was swimming well and straight he had green sleeves so easy to see, now and again I kept giving him a little tickle on his feet every 20 strokes or so, I think he liked it and was round the first 1900m in around 35ish minutes. Yea it’s not great but only 5 weeks early at Windermere I swam 1500 in 38minutes and I was toast so a huge improvement.

The last 1900m I jumped back in and thought I had lost green sleeves, he must be missing me by now, after 100 meters I was back on him and gave him a tickle so he knew I was back, we kept our bromance for a further 1000m but at the large orange bouy with 800m to go I got dunked a few times on the hips and legs which brought me to a standstill, I could no longer get back to green sleeves and we didn’t see each other ever again. I decided to just crack on and enjoyed those last 800m on my own I felt great and very fresh.

T1 was smooth ish but almost laughing getting shoes on as I was cramping a little bit so had to keep calm and take my time. Then it was time for the bike, the weather was perfect, warm and dry. I just got my head down and worked through the gears at super easy mode, even with this effort I was flying past everyone.

Settled in nicely for first 15mins then get on the nutrition which a snickers will do nicely, I eat them everyday so I know I can handle a few of these.

I was soon at 30miles in and just felt effortless then I saw Edwina from team Orion, she was so far up the field at this point I knew she was racing well we had a little fist pump with each other and off I went to carry on closing down everyone I could. From here it was around 20miles back to premier inn and another 5 more to transition to do another 2 laps to get the 112mile bike leg complete. At the premier inn all the family was there cheering me on but only for a split second as I was traveling around 30-35mph at this point, the weather was glorious but the forecast was grim.

During the second lap fatigue was starting to creep in on the climbs and the heavens started to open, conditions had changed dramatically and one needs to remove the aggressive Lego head and change for sensible Lego head but I must of missed that lesson at school and on sheep house just over the crest you build speed quickly then a massive right hander just over 90degrees, with the wrong Lego head, carbon rims which don’t work when wet and visor I can handle see through was a recipe for many athletes, me being one of them in the most spectacular fashion. I didn’t just crash I hit the bend so wrong and fast that I took off through the air my bike to the left of me and my body tilting towards the right from the momentum, fist in the air, yeah I’m superman. After 5-7meters of flying through the air like a super hero the ground came up and grabbed me. Arrrrrghhh, my shoulder hurt and I watched enough crashes to realise it’s probably a broken collar bone, but I’ll assess that in a minute. Another massive smash this time another rider had gone down I heard him hit the deck of the tarmac and some folks headed his was, I was no where to be seen I was so far away and in the under growth I became the invisible man. Right if this is a broken collar bone that means I won’t be able to get my arm over my head, I’ll test that theory when I get up and get to the other side of the road, if I stay here another idiot like me will kill me. I picked up the bike and visor and headed to safety.

At this point a couple of walkers described another crash they had seen at the bottom of the hill, it was getting dangerous out here now and I’m beginning to shiver. I needed to force my bars straight and try to dislodge the stuck brakes to get back on, I knew it would be tough to finish now as I still had another lap to do. Getting back on felt suicidal, I was breaking and picking up speed only going around 12mph but felt wrong so I unclipped my left leg and used my cleat as another brake, still bikes welt flying past and I was cringing.

Once down sheep house I pulled over for another assessment. With some help from supporters I got back on but inside I was done my new plan was to get warm ASAP and then go to medical the best way to do this was to ride 7miles back to premier inn and hope the family are there if not continue to medical tent at T2 further down the road. I calculated I would be bloody cold for 40ish minutes so I can handle that, luckily the family was there and we still had our room for 20mins so I went straight into the shower to get warm.

Jen drove me to the medical tent, I was dressed in Elaine’s clothes to get checked over. It’s maybe just maybe not the first time I have wore ladies clothes at the weekend but who’s counting. Strangely enough I looked identical to the character from little nightmares I was certainly having a Ironman nightmare this time. I was in good spirits at this point as it is what it is, I’m there to race my best and I’m on the edge a lot of the time, it was an error and that’s it albeit with serious consequences .

Marie Palframan was in medical and bless her she looked so down, she had pulled out as she felt it was too dangerous on the roads, I tried my hardest to make her feel better bless her and upon leaving Scott Palframan had also pulled from the race, he caught sight of Marie and that was the nail in the coffin for him on this event. There was silver blanket bodies and broken bikes everywhere it was certainly a sight you wouldn’t want to see again.

Now on to Edwina and Adrian, Edwina went on to win her Age group and 5th overall women which is outstanding result and Adrian well he well and truly spanked my rear end that’s for sure!

He finish 9th in his Age Group which is a potential roll down slot for the big Island and of course technically he was quicker then me but who’s counting!

The following day I went to hospital for an X-ray and I’ve not broken anything, I have a ligament problem at the AC point on my clavicle which has made my clavicle drop down. Basically means I’m in loads of pain and off work/sport for two months!

We’ll see about that thou as I have a busy day at work the next day.

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geniuscloud · 6 years

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All The Colours of You- Woozi// Lee Jihoon (Seventeen)

Hey so i’m back trying to write occasionally! I’m going to start doing more groups, because I was always too scared or too lazy to do other groups but I’m gonna actually start writing about my ultimate fave groups like Seventeen and EXO.

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Genre: Fluff and Angst

Woozi (Jihoon) X Unamed female OC

Soulmate!AU

Warnings: It’s angsty.

The world we live in is seen in black and white until you meet your soulmate.

I remember the first day I met her; my soulmate.

I was walking back from the studio around 3am, when I decided to stop by the convenience store for snacks. Just something small that I'd be able to finish on the walk back to the dorm so I didn't get hounded by the rest of the members. They honestly were like a pack of dogs when it came to treats. I remember the night so clearly. It was cold enough to see my breath, I had my hood pulled up over my head, earphones tucked in with no music playing simply to silence the world around me. If you had headphones in, nobody dared to talk to you, but silence was something I needed after spending so many hours slaving over my music.

I pushed open the door to the store, hearing the bell ding, and my nose flooded with the smell of old floor cleaner. The silence was instantly taken away by the noises of a girl arguing with the cashier. "Sir, I just need to use the washroom, please?"

"You're not buying anything, why would I let you use my washroom? The sign specifically says no public restroom," the cashier argued.

"Please? My friend has my wallet! I'm not from this city and my hotel is way too far... I'd go somewhere else but everywhere is closed! Sir, please I-I just have to pee," She whined.

Seriously, the guy wouldn't let the girl use the bathroom? I rolled my eyes, telling myself not to get involved. Though when the cashier told her to go take her sob story somewhere else, I sighed, grabbing a chocolate bar and going up to the till. "If I buy something for her, will you let the poor girl use your bathroom?"

The cashier was a little stunned, and just awkwardly nodded. With the biggest sigh of relief, the girl turned to me, grabbing my arm to thank me as she rushed off towards the back of the store. Even if I saw her face for a brief second, I already had it memorized as if I had been staring for hours. Her slim featured face, perfectly cat shaped eyes, and small lips that were formed into a smile. She was beautiful. I stood in awe as the world around me began to change just from that brief moment. You may think that maybe saying my world changed was a little too dramatic, but it was an understatement. I knew she was my soulmate from that moment on, because suddenly... My world had color.

You see, we live in a soulmate universe where the world is seen in black and white, but once you meet your soulmate the greyscale haze is lifted and the world becomes color. Everything around me suddenly turned changed. The floors were a tanned orange color, the shelves were grey and green. I remember stumbling back from the counter looking around in awe as my hoodie became navy blue right before my eyes. Then I heard the bathroom door open up again to see her quietly walk out. Our eyes met instantly, and she shyly approached me. Her dark brown eyes kept changing their position from me, to the floor. Soft pink lips were pursed together as the nerves built up with each step that got closer. "I was hoping you waited for me... After that happened."

"Y-yeah I did. I mean it just happened so suddenly and I couldn't just leave after all this happened. Considering you are my soulmate after all..." I awkwardly replied.

"I guess so. Hmm so, you're my soulmate?" She said studying me briefly.

"Are you disappointed?"

"Why would I be?"

"Because by the looks of it, we're the same height..." I muttered.

"So? You're really cute, and I'm not superficial enough to repulse a soulmate due to something so minor like height. Anyways, what is your name?"

"I'm Lee Jihoon, but I'm also known as Woozi by my friends."

"I know who you are, haha. I just really wanted to hear you say your own name though, thought it might be special to properly introduce yourself. I listen to your group quite a bit, you guys are really talented..."

That was how everything started for us. She instantly became my everything in life, and the void that I felt in my heart started to feel full. I always had a really hard time expressing my feelings when I was younger, because I always too scared or too proud to show how I really felt. For the longest time I was just lonely... Every love song was out of desperation for someone to love me back, and how I ultimately felt lesser than some of my friends. Seeing our fans call other members 'Hot' or 'Sexy' but seeing them comment things like "Woozi is so adorable, he's like a baby!" Or "He's so small and tiny like a little child" didn't exactly have the best effect on me. I was always kind of seen as a child due to my baby face and my height, but being with her changed how I felt about myself.

I finally had someone I could share every part of me with, also I found out I'm actually a big fan of cuddling when it's with the right person. There is nothing I love more than just getting to hold onto her on the couch and watch a movie. I never thought I'd be this was with a significant other, but I guess I had this secret part of me that was actually as romantic as my songs are. She ended up moving into an apartment only about 15 minutes from the studio, and I come by as often as possible. We don't live with each other, because one I'm still an idol, and we've only been with each other for 8 months.

"What's got you all happy Woozi? You're smiling like an idiot," Hoshi asked plopping down on the couch beside me.

"He's probably going to see his girlfriend after our studio session, isn't it?" Wonwoo said rolling his eyes a little.

"Yeah, I'm just going to give her a present, that's all..." I smiled fidgeting with the velvet bag in my pocket.

"Like a present or a... present" Hoshi smirked.

"I'm giving her a ring."

"Woah, hold up? like you're proposing to her already?! You know some soulmates end up just being friends, " Vernon piped up.

"No, it's just a necklace with a ring on it. My grandfather gave it to my grandma after they found each other. After my grandfather died, and my grandma's world went back to black and white, she passed it down to me to give to my soulmate. Also, yes Vernon, I do know that some soulmates are just friends, but she is definitely more than a friend to me."

"Woozi is soft now, ew" Seungkwan muttered. I smacked him on the back of the head, and started setting back up at my desk.

A few hours later, and we were running super behind schedule. DK's voice was feeling a little too harsh to record today so we were struggling trying to get the rest of the songs done. I was beyond stressed as 5pm quickly became 1am.

Around 1:30am was when she called me, finally replying to my text saying I probably wasn't going to be able to make it tonight and that we’d need to reschedule our date. "Hey baby I'm sorry I couldn't make it tonight..."

"It's okay, I understand. I am dating an idol after all... I do really miss you though. Can I come by even for a little bit just to keep you company? I don't have to even speak, I just really want to give you a hug," she whined.

"Of course, but can you please take a cab? It's late and I don't want you walking for like 15-20min this late at night without someone."

"I kind of want to walk, it's warm outside. Plus, I can get there in like 10 minutes if I cut through the backways of..."

I cut her off, "No going through the backstreets. During the day it's fine, but at night It's dangerous, you don't know what kind of people hang around this time at night."

"Don't worry about me Woozi, I'll be there right away. I'll run through the back streets. Nothing can keep me away from you. I'll fight all the bad guys with my bare fists and come see you," she giggled into the phone.

"Okay my little fighter, see you soon" I laughed.

"I love you Woozi."

"I love you too baby."

I set my phone down on the counter and continued to work a little before she got here. About 10 minutes passed by and I knew she should be here soon, so I went into the bathroom and decided to wash my face to wake myself up, as well as appear a little fresher. I knew she would be worried if I looked drained. I leaned over the sink splashing myself with some water, rubbing my eyes and looking back at my face. My eyes reconnected in the mirror when suddenly the world went black and white...

That was how I met my soulmate. The girl who brought so much color into my life, and changed my entire world. I fell in love with her faster than the speed of light, and lost her almost just as quickly. I saw the world in color for only 8 sweet months, but because of her I'll always remember what it was like to live in a world so brightly light. I know somewhere she is still looking at me with that small smile of hers, begging me to try and be happy again. The only thing she wanted was my happiness, and I will try my hardest to find it again. Maybe, just maybe, she'll come back to this earth and find me again.

#seventeen #svt #Seventeen reactions #Woozi #seventeen woozi #woozi scenarios #lee jihoon #Seventeen oneshot

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14th March 2018

Woke up at 4am today to get out of the hotel and get to the airport for our flight to Cancun. Wasn’t very happy about that. 😑 but we grabbed an Uber and headed straight there. Checked in fine, went and grabbed a donut and a coffee in the gross, old fashioned airport that is JFK before boarding our delta flight. The flight felt longer than the one to New York even though it was an hour shorter. I don’t know why? But we landed no problem! Unlike the plane ride in the New York where we circled for about an hour and sat or the tarmac for another 20mins.

There was a huge line to get through immigration but eventually we got through. Then baggage claim-YAY BOTH OUR BAGS WERE THERE WAITING FOR US! Then through customs. The line moves pretty quick, they read your card asking if you have anything to declare, then they ask you to press a button. The light turns green but every so often it turns red which means a random bag check. A woman jumped in front of us as she had filled in the form wrong and was told to come back to the front. So lucky she did though, cos instead of us pressing the button and getting red, she did! Yay!

Ash had booked us a private van transfer through Canada transfers, sooooooo good!!! They have a sign with their name and yours on it and then lead you to the van. They give you wet towels to wipe your face and we got coronas for the 45 min drive to our resort!

Once we arrived at the resort our van door was opened for us and the staff insisted on taking all our bags. They asked us to sit down and offered us a drink straight away. Of course we ordered two margaritas. They also offered us more wet towels for our faces. And hand sanitizer! Then we were lead to the ‘romantic offices’ to check in 😂. They picked up our bags and lead us to our room. IT IS HUGE!!!! It’s like the size of our entire downstairs. We have a bloody spa in the bedroom/living room! The bed was covered in rose petals and spelt out ‘Happy honeymoon Mr and Ms Morris.’ 😂😂😂 there was a bottle of champagne on the table with two glasses and a small wedding cake. We have a giant balcony with a hammock. We have 24 hour free room service and a mini bar that is refilled like three times a day!

We headed our pretty quickly to the pool to get a swim and a drink. We jumped in the hot pool before going down to the beach and lying on a bed looking out at the sea. It was beautiful. There are lots of tourists here though. But it’s still so nice just to relax!

Later that night we went to one of the all inclusive restaurants and ordered pasta and steak. Best dinner ever because we got some dinner guests!! Lots of lil stray kittens!! I named them all and took lots of photos which I think annoyed the staff as they are seen as a pest. 🤷🏻‍♀️😞

We headed back to the hot pool and got in. There was a group of loud Americans all holding thermo mugs and tumblers. They cake over to talk to us and were actually really nice! They come to plays del Carmen every year and totally know how to play the resort. They get the bar staff to make their drinks in the thermal cups that way they get more in one trip, it stays cold, and they don’t have to go back as often. We talked to them for a while before we headed back to our room to chill and finally sleep after a big day of travel and relaxing.

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I feel bad for repeating that other anon, but if you could do the exact same in-depth detail for monster high, that would be "clawsome". Also, no pressure, but if you have free time, I'm sure literally everyone in the monster high fandom would love it

don’t feel bad, i love infodumping about my special interests!! if i can help more people get into them then i feel accomplished

monster high was created by garrett sander, and introduced in 2010! it’s probably pretty obvious but all the characters are the children of different iconic/legendary monsters, and they all go to high school together and have slice of life adventures. and there’s lots and lots and lots of terrible monster puns so if you dont like puns then just give up now

these are the main 6 characters + a few more core people and some backstory if they have any! (bc some of them do not have backstory but thats ok it just means more headcanoning)

frankie stein - frankenstein’s daughter, and also the MAIN main character, and usually one of the two faces that people think of when they think “monster high”. she is probably one of the sweetest characters in the entire show and has relentless optimism, and would die (and has died) for her friends before. she had only been alive for 15 days before MH canon started, and thus hasn’t been exposed to many things yet, so she loves trying new things. she’s adorable and i cannot believe some people don’t like her/call her boring, because she is a ray of sunshine

draculaura - dracula’s daughter, and is the OTHER face ppl think of. she wears almost exclusively the colors pink and black (with some exceptions for blue or yellow sometimes). she’s very peppy and uses a lot of words like “totes!” in speech. she’s 1600 years old and her biological parents are both dead now, she was adopted + turned to a vampire by dracula himself because he was in love with her mother. she is the main character in the reboot instead of frankie

clawdeen wolf - a werewolf and the resident fashionista (well, they all kind of are but she’s the one that wants to go into the fashion industry). she’s got SEVERAL siblings, and we only saw 3 of them in the preboot but we know there are many more; growing up with them has made her develop an attitude. but she’s SUPER loyal and would do anything for the people she loves. she’s ride or die and i love her

lagoona blue - a sea monster, BEYOND chill and friendly, seriously she is the kind of person to make you feel like you’ve been friends with her for years even if you’ve only known her a couple days. she’s on the swim team and she got way way too many bad plots with her boyfriend gil later on in the series so i feel like she didn’t get as well-rounded as the other mains, but i still love her to bits

cleo de nile - a mummy and also the HBIC of monster high. she’s the fearleading captain and she takes a little bit to warm up to, but once you get on her good side she is a wonderful friend. and it doesn’t take much to get on her good side, just be a decent person to her. she’s been through a LOT like her dad is straight-up abusive and manipulative, and her sister terrorizes her and her friends, and she was separated from her loving mother for most of her life so honestly i cannot blame her for being a rude person. she’s my favorite i love her so much

ghoulia yelps - a zombie and the brains of the group (ha ha), she is literally a superhero or something i think because she can do anything, she literally hacked the mh version of youtube a few times. she doesn’t speak english, only zombie (which sounds like a series of groans), her favorite thing in the world is the comic series called Dead Fast, and the whole fandom loves her and for good reason. she doesn’t get enough screentime OR dolls, and she hasn’t shown up in the reboot media yet. she deserves so much

deuce gorgon - medusa’s son, and one of the most popular dudes at school, cause he’s super friendly and nice. he’s quiet sometimes but when he does talk his sentences usually have the word “dude” in them. he sees good in everyone, and he was dating cleo before canon began and she had developed as a character/became less mean, so to me that shows how genuine both of them are with their feelings. i love him too but people often write him wrong, they write him as all stoic/annoyed by everything but he’s honestly a dork and probably the most genuinely nice boy in the series

abbey bominable - a yeti who has trouble understanding non-yeti societal norms. she can come across as cold (ha ha) but she doesn’t mean to, she’s just not good at emoting or communicating, and speaks very literally. the others understand this after getting to know her and accept her and love her just as she is, which is part of why i love monster high so much. she is also very strong and can lift a car. i thought that was worth mentioning

heath burns - a fire elemental and very, very impulsive and reckless. he gets himself injured a lot; the hospital even has a seat in the waiting room with his name on it. he’s also super flirty and speaks without thinking, but honestly? he means well. i love him and also at one point he wore a skirt/heels and OWNED it and nobody laughed at him

there are several more characters that i could write more paragraphs on, but this is getting long enough as it is so if you wanna know more about more characters shoot me another ask and i’ll be glad to tell you!

this IS a merch-driven franchise, but that isn’t a bad thing! the dolls themselves are SO cute. just look them up (i dont wanna include images in this long post) but they’re so cute oh my god. there’s nearly 700 of them now i think? and you can use this website to help you get started on your collection/help you keep track of it! i honestly use it like…every single day https://mh-merch.com/

as for the media itself, i have already written a big thing about it and how to go about watching it in [this post], but i will now talk about my favorite movies in chronological order in case you want recommendations. these wont be in-depth analysises

new ghoul at school - this 20min special gets a lot of flack but honestly? the plot itself is so so good. it avoids the typical “protag girl steals jock bf from mean girl” cliche and turns it on its HEAD. REVOLUTIONARY. this special is on youtube but not netflix i dont think!

scaris: city of frights - i think part of why i like this one is that most of the core characters are present for it, and it’s centered around clawdeen and she is SO good in this movie

13 wishes - everyone pretty much agrees this is the best mh movie period. it also has a lot of core people, the plot itself is SO beyond clever and unique, and i can’t think of anything bad about it?? this is what i always recc to people for their 1st mh movie

boo york, boo york - ok listen this movie is OBJECTIVELY a mess because there are 2 entire singing voices and the pacing is weird but i love it anyway it holds a very special place in my heart. also i think this is the preboot movie with the best animation, it’s gorgeous and please watch it and embrace its campiness and jam to pharaoh’s (w)rapping

the reboot does merit mentioning; it started in 2016 and began with the movie welcome to monster high, and the two movies out for it so far are honestly fun but they are nothing like the pre-reboot. you have to watch the reboot with the mindset that it is an alternate timeline to the preboot universe, instead of having it completely erase the preboot! they exist in side-by-side universes in my head

in the reboot, instead of monster high being an already-established school/having monsters live in big communities and towns, monsters are in hiding because the humans are scared of them. draculaura and dracula lived in their mansion for several years to hide, but through a series of events which i will not summarize here bc its a lot, they build monster high in their mansion, and get other monsters there to be students!

but that’s all the basic stuff i can think to mention right now, there is SO much more to talk about since there are 70+ characters and SEVERAL plots and also my numerous headcanons. if you have any more questions about anything, don’t be afraid to ask me!! i love talking about monster high so much

#deuces paragraph got cl.eucey but what did you expect #its ME #long post -#text heavy -#Anonymous #mh reference #reference

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THE WAY THE MAN LOVED HER AND THE WAY HE DIDN’T - An Eulogy to my Dad

Okay, fine Don’t make fun of my Instagram handle now, because Akira Seijuro means the one who shines the light on the empire when it’s in absolute darkness. I had to choose this because I wanted to re-invent myself without being names by the chromosomes of my parents when I have decided to detach myself from everything that defines me when I didn’t choose it.

This is a eulogy for my dad. I have been meaning to write it, say it for months, but I couldn’t get myself to do it. I thought it would be something that describes the relationship between my dad and me and how perfect it was at times when it was backward a bit. But it wasn’t, it isn’t. I was sometimes people wished ‘the daughter he never had.’ I still am I guess. The only person who could account for it, well, he is not coming back any time soon, let’s face it, there is no afterlife. A few days ago, I have realized this, when the person is about to take his/her last breath, whether or not he gave up on life or whether it was a life that had given up on himself/herself, what would they say? Whom would they think about? My father, unfortunately, has a very unexisting parents and sisters, in terms of parenthood and support, so when he was in pain, where people would normally say ‘amma,’ ‘ma,’ ‘abba’ because that’s the first love any language ever teaches you or shows you and is irrespective of the place, my father chose to say ‘bhavya.’ So he chanted my name thinking it would give him the strength to bear and to not give up. The emergency ward as I say was filled with him screaming my name in love as my mother told me. My mother and I did all that we could to survive ourselves, trying to equip ourselves with an invisible pain that was frowned upon. We loved him, we did. We still do. Most of the times, we keep talking about our dad, my mom used to call him bhavya’s pithaji, haha, very funny for a girl who doesn’t get herself to speak Hindi; so our dad, he is still spoken of the things in the present tense. Happens you know, oh no you may not, sometime you will. I was so possessive about my dad’s love, that I came first all the time just like he showed me from the day I was born. I wasn’t willing to believe and accept that there was someone my dad loved beyond his love for me. How could I not see it all these days? My mother. I thought he gave up all his cryptologist’s side, programming degrees to provide a stable living for us both, for me, all from scratch. But then he actually gave everything up the moment he decided to love my mother forever, the moment he saw her. Yup, love at first site boss. Very hard. I must say, dad, you did it where I failed. Not just the fucking computer science which I hate and which you apparently ‘enigmated’ easily (fun fact: he was qualified enough to teach processing systems and cryptology meaning he studied the function of enigma machine and intel systems back in 1980s.). So that and first love, both where I not literally and literally failed respectively. My mom also loved him, ahem, she still does in that conservative, traditional sorts of silent ways i.e. in an unexpressive responsible way. I remember taking up a wooden scale and trying to beat up my dad when he was trying to kiss her when she was trying to relax after teaching me alphabets and playing with me. Fun a 2 ft girl was controlling her 5ft 8in Dad. I was the apple of his eye, but my mom, dude she was his circulatory system. So, when he saw me as the last person to ever see him alive, he became all ‘dadly’ and said ‘don’t worry 500ml water’s been out from lungs, get the nurse to take my mask off to talk to you’ and there were all male nurses and I didn’t know what to call them, my brain just and it was like, should I call them brother? Because females are sisters? I was STFU brain, STFU and no words were coming out of my mouth, I approached the male nurse to finally blurt out ‘excuse me’ in an ICU filled with children that were fated to die in the next 2,3 days. But then the nurse saw and I still couldn’t speak, I was speaking in sign language pointing towards my dad on bed no.5, which happens to be the number of my mom’s birthday, and my dad took care of himself and asked the nurse to take it off and that he is fine and wants to speak to me. Well, then my dad said, ‘come to the left side, 500, no 600ml water has been taken out from my lungs and I am now able to breathe and I am fine. Don’t cry.’ Bitch did not even say my name. I know my dad and I share a peculiar relationship when it comes to swearings, we don’t mind. Too cool for his age. Anyway, then went on saying ‘Don’t ever leave mom alone. Be with her. And call her in.’ The stupid security did not let my mom in as it was not visiting hours and they already sent me in as if they knew it would be my last hearing of his words. I told my dad they weren’t letting very slowly as if I just started speaking and he said ‘Okay, don’t cry. Take care. Draw cash out from the atm.’ Those were his last words and not once he mentioned me. It was as if he knew that I would kickass, be it funeral or work or life. I was like, okay, Damn dude, I am the dad now. Let’s see. The next morning, he was unconscious when I visited him, his eyes were almost closed, but I saw a teardrop and I asked the nurse to wipe it. ‘He should never cry, make sure of that please, no matter which state he would be in’ I said and I knew it’s coming now today or the next day. I did not cry, I came out, met my dad’s colleagues and made a plan to take his body in flight. I already spoke to the flight guy, thanks to google, told my office and his office people and then I made a plan as to how to proceed with the formalities. I did not have any expectations when it came to rituals, because I wanted my dad to be buried and to plant a tree. But I know it’s not possible for my strength to fight off almost a hundred plus people. So I gave up. And focused on getting my mom to be safe and off all these stupid things. I went home, did some shopping as I didn’t get any clothes because I refused to think that my dad was not playing a game this time. So, yup I went to my home, took my scooty off, kick-started it just how my dad taught me, went to lifestyle, shopped and bank, drew cash, then went home and packed for my mom and I for almost 10 days, got a pair for my dad and booked a cab back to hospital. Then, of course, no plan that is ever planned has gone according to the plan. It went sideways, hmph, I should say tangential ways, you all stupid math geniuses. Then he died. I called my friend, a dear one and he came in 20min, his best friend came and we were off to Kakinada in the ambulance and I was trying to protect my mom from a loafer. He was in a box dude. In a steel cold box. I could hear his body going up and down at the bounces along the road. I already felt the atrocity of the conservative traditions when the first ambulance driver refused to take his body into his van as it was Ramzan. I shouted in silence hoping my dad’s abdomen would go up and down like how I used to once watch when he was alive, just to make sure that he was alive. We reached Kakinada. Once he was taken off, I planned about how to proceed, to keep my mom under her parents and sisters care for a few months to find a house because she never lived alone and me going to the office would be not right at that point of time. Go to his office, contact HR about the provident and gratuity and then proceed to bank formalities and the LIC stuff, all his work counterparts of departure. I did not cry but I saw everyone crying and I thought, okay, people normally would think I would cry my eyes out because I am sweet and sensitive and naïve. I was like dude it was just a dead body, my dad died yesterday itself. I actually said those words that seemed cold immediately after his death. It was nothing with the thought of what we call life; it was just a body that cannot even be used to transplantation because of cancer. I’m so sorry to say this but I am obsessed with cancer and I want to know everything there is to know to be found about it. Such a tiny, not meant to be blended cell. I saw a man who became from the healthiest and strongest being, transformed into a being of the suffering, diminishing every single second as I breathed and who turned to nothing, but eyes and jaw wide opened, pupils, dilated and dead. And nothing could bring any part of his life back. I knew life was meaningless, people want to love and happiness, but they can absolutely live without love, care, happiness. But people are annihilated because of pain my friend, whether physical or torture. True, all the medals, patents, money, family, the name could make life accountable, but none of it actually makes it worthwhile. A friend of mine, I believe I can say friend now, he asked to read Leo Tolstoy’s ‘A confession’ and I did. I knew life is meaningless, no amount of power, success could define the purpose of life. It just is. There is no purpose, but there is one thing that I can say. I had everything, I felt nothing, I had nothing and I still felt nothing in terms of winning. Even now, doing marvelously at work feels nothing, not because I don’t value it enough but because it doesn’t have any in the end. But if I can support too, the share is a big word, it is worthless, so if I could support a person to be able to just be there with his/her own pain, I thought it’s livable their life. All these years, I was doing that making my life livable, and for others too. No goal can ever make you survive. Only death does. Yes I wanted to end my life and I tired but I could have succeeded at it if I took rather messy options but I didn’t because they inflict a lot of physical pain. I didn’t care about my body, but my body did feel the pain, physical and mental too, I can’t describe it, sorry. I have no words or form for it yet. So, pain is very real and very implicate and unbearable even to end in a few ways. I see humans as a bunch of tiny cells that happened to form to communicate with each other as lumps. Who knows? We think we are clever, but the millions of bacteria around us do something that we don’t know every day in their minuscule quantum systems. We’re the size of bacteria is this whole universe. Who cares about the beginning of the end? At last, it is all just is. Existing. That’s it. A medium that doesn’t have a beginning and an end and we are floating apart or alone or together creating our own theories. But pain is very real. And that’s the only reason why I respect or consider only the ones that I think knew this pain as real deals.

We’re drifting from the title now, I’m going to save it for a whole new going to be an unlistened podcast. My dad sacrificed everything he thinks he has for my mother and me and created his own everything his way. He loved her, but he never told her. He was proud of her upbringing, but he never appreciated it enough. He valued her sacrifice of a government job back then when she was earning more than him when he asked her ‘come live with me and transfer’s going to take too long, take our daughter come and live with me, let’s be together at one place, every second that there is and that is to come,’ which she did, but he never showed that gratitude. He always asked her if she had dinner whenever he went away to some parties, but never tried to enter the kitchen. He never made her feel lonely, but he didn’t make sure that their daughter did not see it that way. He lived till his last moment to fight to live with her and his daughter but he never asked how they were living. He tried not to fight with her in front of his little girl, but then he kept all of it to himself. He saw himself as a man when he didn’t need anyone, but when he did, he saw her as a mother he never had. He loved his little girl, but he never told her about the greatest love of his life, he had the fortune of sharing his life with for 24 years. He brought his daughter like a real human, to face any brink of adversity, but failed to think that she doesn’t need a man until he saw his last moments with her. My mom fulfilled her emptiness with the love between my father and I and the love and care she had towards me, but I must say, I cannot see my mother away from us, my dad, I wish he was okay with being sensitive even when there were no needles around, I wish he was okay with being pointed for wrong, when my mother was right, I wish he let her be braver and he himself be brave to tell her that he loved her. So, mom, I am telling you today, you were the best thing that ever happened to dad, not me, you were his circulatory system, a part of him that he could never live with, and now he is gone, and you are with me, I am not telling you I’ll be you perfect daughter, by marrying and settling off with a guy and 2 kids. If I am going to have it, I will have it my way, where I need not prepare myself a lot to tell my husband, Genius jerk, I love you but to get there, I must make myself sufficient first and to that to happen, sorry your daughter is very unique. She wants to be all kinds of awesome things. So it will take time, for her to be sufficient. I am going to do an M.Tech and MBA, if people want to stay, they will otherwise they won’t. But if they do, I am never going to stop telling them I love them, even though I am at the peak of my dissociative behavior now. I went straight from a person who loved many who doesn’t love any. But my dad taught me humanity, above all, that people who are not blood-related, can be your mother, can be your father (he had a father figure, Rama Rao sir who helped him a lot, for whose demise he shed tears, that I saw from my father’s eyes for the first time in my life), can be your brother (like once upon a time like Joseph Uncle), can be anything that could lift you up and all because they loved and cared, on the other hand, he also taught me that blood relations can mean to nothing like my paternal family. I love you, dad, you are the man who loved my mom the most, the man who taught me to be myself and not anyone else, you taught me, love, you gave me pain everywhere, but most of all, you let me sleep on your lap every night before going to bed and wrapped your warm arms on my winter solstice birthday, you celebrated me and I will miss being a celebrity. I am sure my mom is also missing me being a celebrity in her own palace. Love, the Akira who’d always step into the obsolete dark, lights it up and goes into the darkness. I will always remember to appreciate love, at the same time not choke it and to help ease the pain in ways we could. Don’t worry I already got my own version of absolutely stunning brother with the amazing heart and strength that is unknown to him, Akshay, 9 days elder to me and friends for a lifetime, though I am helpless now, I’d want him to be by my side when I die and I’ll die before him and don’t ask me how. Friends for a lifetime, Gowtami, Chandana and Sneha too. Also, the responsible badass brother Prateek Bokade. I even have a person to look up to, Harsha Kuntur, a climate activist and awesome entrepreneur. I wish I knew the other Harsha too, but it seems he is also a kind soul that helps others build a life in his own way so we speak, I love my maternal family, not all, just my mom’s parents, sisters and their respective sons, husbands. That’s enough blood relation and of course, the ones who show me, love, at times most needed, Bhavana and Pratishtha without any pre-requisites. I am making more acquaintances. I still do love one guy, but I sort of erm, not focused on that as loving is in my hands, but reciprocation is not. So, dad, he is a friend of mine, for now, just a bit more than a stranger, erm, I fell during my denial, so, couldn’t actually rot away like I did with the first one-sided one, and I guess that’s ok. So, let's see. You rock on and thanks for introducing me to Michael Jackson and Kraftwerk, I knew you would have Taylor swift because she is a feminist and she is strong, but dammit, I love her way too much! Let's see if my life turns out to be on lines of Keanu Reeves or Taylor Swift. But I’ll give up sometimes, quit on things and people like did, but I won’t step back when it’s dark. Thanks for all the courage in the genes' love. I don’t think this is goodbye. So I’m done, I love you, bubyeee for now. I chose the title because it showed that he never knew how, he just went with what he knew he can, but forgot what he was capable of when it comes to love. A brave step aside from the self and ego would have created an entirely different timeline and then maybe I wouldn’t be here saying this. I hope it is not too late for any generation of its kind.

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California: The Ultimate road trip

Normally I keep this blog about my triathlons/training and staying away from my usual mundane life. However for the last 22 days I have led a much more colourful existence road tripping around California and Nevada. And, just so I don’t stray away from the main theme of this blog, I did do a triathlon during my trip! So here is a write up of our time in the USA. Also there is more to come as we are only the first part of our journey as our travels continue on to New Zealand now.

Outline of our route and 2100 miles traveled

On Monday 20th August Nathaniel and I began our journey. We said goodbye to our loved ones and got on a flight from Manchester to Los Angeles.

Jessica and I at my leaving party

Ready for our adventure at Manchester Airport

We arrived at Los Angeles International at 3pm local time (11pm Greenwich mean time - so we soon got quite blurry eyed!). After security and collecting bags and bikes, we got a taxi to meet our home for the next 22 days. Meet Oliver, the converted Dodge Campervan!

Oliver the campervan

After some paperwork we set off on the road. We stopped at one of the biggest supermarkets that I have ever seen. Very tired by this point it was a struggle to scout the miles of shelves for food and equipment. We spent far too long searching for a coffee-maker (which was probably the only thing in the world this massive supermarket didn’t sell).

We drove out of the city and eventually got too tired to function any more (it was about 5am UK time!!) so we pulled over in a quiet lay-by in the Angeles National Forest and stayed there for the night. (Luxury, I know!)

Lake Tahoe

It was a 400 mile drive to Lake Tahoe. We could distract ourselves from the journey by the scenery as we drove along the Sierra Mountains. We stopped for lunch at the beautiful Mono lake.

Having an interlude from driving at Mono Lake

We arrived at Lake Tahoe at around 5pm and it was more beautiful that we could have imagined. The biggest bluest lake surrounded by mountains! We were staying at Meeks Bay Campground for 6 nights. It had its own beach and each site had a BBQ and fire pit. We had to put all our food and toiletries in a bear lockers so the bears can’t get hold of anything.

The beautiful lake Tahoe on our loop cycle

The bear thing made me scared of venturing to the toilet block alone in the night for a few days. We never did see a bear in Tahoe though. One morning we did wake up and find the bear locker wide open, however the only thing we found eating our food was a pesky Blue Jay pecking at the loaf of bread! (We must not have closed it properly). The biggest mammal we saw was a beaver swimming in the creek near our campsite. He was a good spot.

The crystal clear lake was beautiful to swim in and we swam most days. The 2nd day we cycled the 70 mile loop of the lake with a cafe stop leaving the hilliest 16 miles to cycle with full bellies and 3 pints of beer each inside us.

Incredibly scenic cycling at Tahoe

We didn’t do too much at strenuous as we were tapering for the Lake Tahoe middle distance triathlon at the weekend. We did some running which I found really difficult - probably due to the 2,600 meter altitude that Meeks Bay was at!! At least we had a few days to acclimatise to the thin air.

Relaxing at the lakeside beach post ride

Pancakes for breakfast!

Checking out the triathlon venue

Nathaniel and I during an altitude trail run

Lake Tahoe middle distance triathlon

The morning of the triathlon it was an early wake up at 5am and Nathaniel and I scrabbled around in the cold and dark having cereal and gathering up all I triathlon stuff. It was a short cycle up the road to the triathlon venue.

We had already registered the previous day so we had plenty of time to prepare before the start. Than racked his bike next to me and transition and I guided him where to place his shoes and race belt etc. It was really nice to have him doing a triathlon with me, get we were both quite adamant to beat each other.

It was freezing waiting for the triathlon to start and we found the warmest place to wait for the delayed start was actually in the lake. The gun went off 15 minutes late at 7:15am.

The swim:

It was hard to site the bouys initially due to the sunrise but after the first turn it became easy. The swim was relatively uneventful- apart from losing my swim hat early doors, which I just stuffed down my wetsuit and continued hatless. There was no big groups to draft and I found myself alone for the majority of the swim except when I caught a man up near the end of the swim. I came out the water 6th Overall and 2nd Female. Leaving Nathaniel 15 minutes to claw back.

The bike: After running up a gigantic hill in T1 during the usual fumbling with my wetsuit I was off on my bike. Out on the road there was a guy to pick off. I felt strong on the flat, TTing along on the drops of my road bike. The course consisted of 2 out and back North portion (flat) and 1 our and back portion south (so very hilly). Approaching the turn around point I could see one other woman in front. I overshot the first turn in fact because a competitor in front carried on zooming up the road. I have learnt better than to trust other competitors so did a double take and looked at my distance - this was the turn around point! During the outs and backs I was making some progress against the woman in front and was keep Nathaniel at bay on the flat but it was soon time for the hills... This is when it started to get ugly!! The hills destroyed my legs as I picked off many competitors, only to be over taken again on the long technical descents. My legs began to struggle at the south turn around but I had caught up the woman in 1st place. I overtook her at a pace (proving a point, I guess). I think she must have seen me as a threat as she cycled away at a pace I couldn’t keep on the next hill. I could see Than on my way to T2 - still about 15 minutes behind (It’s out that he had a puncture on the first portion of the hilly section or he would have been sure to eat into my time buffer!)

The run. (A.k.a. The struggle!) After a speedy T2 (I got an applaud from the crowd for my discount and another competitor complemented the speed of my T2), it was time for the run. Heading off like a bat out of hell I began to struggle with my breathing - I needed to check my pace. The path soon turned off the concrete back and soon turned into a technical dirt track and, at one point, even a sandy beach! The air was hot and dry and, now, dusty. I chatted to another competitor, whom later learnt my name and gave me encouragement whenever he saw me. He soon ran off in the distance as I struggled controlling my breathing in the altitude. Exhaustion and altitude forced me to adopt a run-walk strategy. I expected Than to come cruising by any moment - but he never came (i presumed that he was having a worse time than me!). As I approached the finish I was going over scenarios in my head how I could brag to Than about my victory without putting him off another triathlon.

Smiles at the finish line Up the hill to the finish and who should be standing there with a beer but Nathaniel Manning!! I was extremely confused. Maybe he had pulled out?! Nope it transpires that Than was also confused as he had indeed “finished”. Later we discovered that he and some other competitions had missed at 1.5 mile section near the start of the run course which was poorly signed. Than thought I was ahead still and was worried when he looked about at the finish. He apparently also asked the medical tent for me... I’m dubious as he also had time for 3 beers in all this worrying and looking!!... Anyway a record was set - officially my slowest middle distance triathlon at 6 hours and 7 minutes!! Then again it was the hardest middle distance I have ever done. I still kept hold of 2nd female overall and came 1st in my age group. Nathaniel also got a prize for 2nd place in his age group (coming a good 20mins ahead of 3rd so we didn’t confess about the unintentional shortcut!). We were awarded with beer glasses and trucker hats! Cheers. And also Nathaniel is game for another triathlon... yet he still has to complete an actual middle distance triathlon!!

Las Vegas.

Following the triathlon we stayed one more night at the beautiful Meeks Bay and BBQ’d the biggest steak you have ever seen! The morning after we packed up Oliver, the campervan, and drove back south over the mountains and then the vast empty dessert - we were heading to “Las Vegas Baby” (the comment that Than would intermittently yell whilst popping the horn!).

The masses of sky scrappers appeared out of the desert and closer we got the buildings grander and the traffic heavier.

We found the Venetian hotel and waved goodbye to Oliver in the hands of the valet parking. After a long wait to check in we opened the door to the best hotel room I’ve ever stayed in (I’ve lived a sheltered life or maybe it felt it in comparison to our Campervan).

Vegas was everything I expected it to be big, fancy and at the bottom of everything fake. I wanted to give the city a chance.

We had a quick flutter on a slot machine before heading to our dinner reservation at The Cut. It was my treat for Nathaniel’s birthday which I regretted when the bill came - totalling US $500 (a bargain considering there was a wine on the wine list for $24,000!!). However it was the most delicious steak however Nathaniel had to finish it as a migraine had ruined my appetite.

Than and his expensive belated birthday steak

We ended that night with a bit of Blackjack. $100 down I retired to bed.

The second day we explored all the lavish casinos, trying our luck with a few chips as we went. We made our way down the strip to the New York New York hotel were he had dinner and watched a Cirque de Soilei show.

The following morning we had went on a tour of the Grand Canyon. Firstly we got to see areal views from the small plane and then driven to 2 different view points. Our photos really don’t do the Canyon justice - it’s size is just incredible! Landing back in Las Vegas we pigged out on the final night in the Bellagio buffet. Apparently the best buffet in the world but I don’t have much to compare it still. But it still being full the majority of the next day if good - then it was!!

Views over the Grand Canyon

Mammoth Lakes.

We decided to visit mammoth lakes on our way to Yosemite. It was a good decision as this place is beautiful. We stayed up from the town at a place called Twin Lakes: aptly named due to the 2 lakes surrounded by granite cliffs and waterfalls.

We easily found a campsite on the first night. However, unbeknown to us, it was a big bank holiday weekend in the USA (labour day) so we were demoted from campsite to car park for the second night.

Views from our run in Mammoth

We did a beautiful run from twin lakes to Mary lake and around Horseshoe lake. Then lunch before we cycled up mammoth mountain to the panoramic view point. This tough day deserved beer so we stopped at Mammoth Brewing company tasting rooms. Than came out with a huge tasting platter and we selected our favourite for a few more pints (conscious that we had to cycle 4 miles up hill home!).

Cycling in Mammoth

Than bought me a lovely tankard from the tasting room however I couldn’t hide my disappointment that it wasn’t a mammoth brewing co cycling jersey.

Tasting at Mammoth Brewery

Yosemite National Park.

We were lucky enough to get to camp inside this breath-takingly beautiful National Park and did we make the most of it?!? 74 miles of footpaths and scenery was explored. Our legs ached but we will remember those spectacular views forever.

On our first full day with did a very ambitious 10 mile walk which ended up being 17 hilly miles however we were rewarded by seeing a bear walk across the footpath. A few days later we saw a bobcat on the footpath before he jumped back into the mountain rocks. Along with plenty of deer and birds of prey we have seen a lot of exciting wildlife.

At the river next to the campground

Nathaniel took over map reading after the 17 mile walk we did on the first day (which was supposed to be 10)

Walking up to North Dome (Via Indian rocks)

Half dome in the background

The bridge over Yosemite falls

Vernon falls in the background

Cooling off after a long walk in the river

Admiring a giant redwood

San Francisco

After 6 days of paradise in Yosemite it was time to continue travelling. Headed to the west Coast for San Francisco. San Francisco is a lively vibrant city which had a cool feel to it.

We swam in a beautiful outdoor lido in the Mission district which was full of lane swimmers and was a joy to swim laps in. We camped near a surfing beach and nature reserve due to the lagoons. During our 2 nights in San Francisco we did plenty of cycling. The first day 50 miles exploring north of the city and finishing with a burger and a pint in Sausilito.

At Alpine dam

Climbs in San Francisco earn you good views

perhaps the most iconic view

The 2nd day we did a 35 mile loop going through Muir wood. Afterwards we cycled over a very busy golden gate bridge with tourists crashing hired bikes constantly!! Over the over side of the bridge we had BBQ and tasting treats at the Presidio picnic before heading down the highway 1 back towards LA.

After taking 2 days to venture down the HW1. Seeing the sea otters at Monterey on the way. We checked into a hotel in LA ready to fly to New Zealand, our next adventure.

#travel #triathlon

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